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relationships

7ser63

[10, 15]

She already knows the password to my laptop, email, bank account, and phone PIN. I didn't really want to tell her any of those, but I could not think of a reason why not to. When I got a new phone, she set up my new PIN and got a bit upset when I changed it. She said if I had nothing to hide, then she should know my passwords. I don't have anything to hide, so I told her.

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survivorsofabuse

6mpul6

(1, 6)

Writing these helps sooth my own wounds, and I was wondering if people would be willing to read them/have story ideas? I mostly write shortish scenes about having to talk about it and being consoled (most from the perspective of a woman being the survivor, man being the comforter--though I'm always willing to try different genders and sexualities). I'll mostly have these on Kindle as a series, but I have some out on websites <url> (the series is called <name>) The Kindle ones will be longer and more in depth. Please let me know--these help me and I want them to help others!

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domesticviolence

5zjmqv

[0, 5]

Hi everyone, So I am in abusive relationship. We live together. He doesn't pay for anything but his alcohol and drugs and occasionally his gas. When he's feeling generous he has been known to give me 10 dollars toward gas.

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ptsd

8bu14f

(25, 30)

That is a waste of energy. I know and have lived your combative relationship with both your parents. First, it is your dad, then you go to your mom, then it is your mom and you go to your dad...... you are playing them and that is very manipulative. You are 28 years old, a young man that needs to grow up. Take responsibilty for yourself.

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domesticviolence

5o6xbs

[165, 170]

The real irony is that had my dad told the truth about the car, he would be home right now plotting his next scheme, but instead he lied and got caught because of his arrogance. The problem we face now, is that there is always the chance my dad might sign the documents and they let him out (he'll probably weasel money out of his youngest brother/my uncle to pay the bail), and then we have to contend with the possibility my dad has something else planned to get us, which he probably does because that's his gig and his only goal in life since his big revelation after the pace maker got put in. My dad cannot talk to Bart or Dandy because they are witnesses, and he can't have any communication with my mom either. Myself and my brothers are contemplating getting a restraining order of some kind, but given how my dad operates, I'm not sure that will actually protect us from any harm. I have an appointment with doctor Doorstall this thursday, probably won't get anywhere but I'm sure he is aware of my dad's situation by now, or will be soon.

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almosthomeless

6yiaga

[5, 10]

I honestly thought it might be similar to calling tech support, getting escalated to a manager, then actually getting results. I thought they might have resources I haven't had/didn't know about yet. They didn't, they called the police and filed a false claim (I was standing on top of a parking garage ready to jump - not true). Police came, spoke with me, decided I needed to go to the hospital against my will. I tried to reason and explain most of my depression and anxiety was financially related and this would make it worse.

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ptsd

884n6w

(145, 150)

  This piece of art I’ve used is a perfect example of how having solid boundaries can help me weather any storm. I know I’m going to get kicked, I know I’m going to be in pain but I also see the beauty in between the clouds. This is a painting I did freezing in the hail and storm on the rocks of Alloutte Lake. The waves crashed, the mist covered the mountains but every now and then brilliant colour would flash.

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assistance

6kt778

[0, 5]

I was greeted by the message "your Facebook account has been disabled...." when I tried to log in couple of months back. I immediately sent an appeal and my ID proof from their forms but it's has been two months and no response from them. Basically the appeals are going to trash. This account was really important to me. Excluding family photos and memories, I owned couple of pages with huge fan following.

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anxiety

91nveu

[55, 60]

one day i broke down into absolute tears and was rushed into the counselers office. at this point im in 8th grade and this is by no means acceptable behavior. we are about to go into high school and i just burst into a ball of tears in front of every last one of my peers. the good thing is, this scenario made me care a little less about what everyone thought of me due to the already absolute embarrassment of myself. My mindset, the people i surrounded myself with, and my family life were all fucked to say the least... especially family.

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assistance

83ydws

[2, 7]

Nevertheless, he looks like someone I would like to be friends with, but I'm too afraid to actually speak to him at this point, so I figured I could write him a letter. I don't want to assume he can read like I read (given the white cane), so I think it would be a good idea to write him a letter in braille and maybe including a written copy as well. I have read that I should acquire a slate and a stylus to write braille by hand, but I would love some more help or tips if anyone knows how to write in braille. Are there any services that will transcribe a written letter to braille that don't cost very much? Thank you!

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relationships

7sgawy

(40, 45)

I listen to him when he’s having a bad day and thinking about what I did to him. I listen and try to say silent when he yells and screams at me. I take his insults in stride, as best as I can, because I feel like I deserve it. He tells me that he “has no respect for me” and I am “nothing but a mistake” and he tells me that I am trash, I do not deserve anything that I have, and that I am just a waste of his time. He tells me that he hates me.

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anxiety

7bquhv

(5, 10)

If its the wrong place for this feel free too delete, it would be on par with the rest of the day. Edit: thank you, too those who've responded and any others who might. I always expect to get turned away whenever i ask for help, especially when i read how others are suffering. It always makes my problems seem not worth anyone's time. So thank you, it means a lot to me.

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relationships

7s27pl

(20, 25)

He would tell me it was the best university in the world(a white lie) and how great it was. I didn't want to go there. I didn't aid in the application process at all. He did everything. He wanted me to go there because it was cheap, and he assumed that if it were otherwise either i would just do nothing or spend a lot more money on school than he'd like.

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relationships

7ra6gr

[25, 30]

all the sudden all the hate turned against me again (happened often before). She yelled out, whining for her dad, who she called. i stayed calm but was totally clueless about what to do. she started breaking up with me, telling me that she will spent the night at a hotel or somewhere on the street. i shouldnt come visit her at the hospital next week ... blackmailing me basically.

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homeless

9lgxzm

[15, 20]

At the shelter we are not allowed to store food in our locker (they do random checks), but i can keep some stuff in my backpack. I have access to the work locker Monday to Friday, and will store food in my backpack on the weekends. I needs suggestions that are reasonably healthy because something as simple as cold that takes people 3-4 days to recover from, takes 2-3 weeks to recover from 'cause my thyroid meds suppress my immune system.  **EDIT: Thank you for the food suggestions**

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anxiety

91wp3e

[10, 15]

Anxiety kicked in but then heightened by all the fucking coffee I drank from working before the meet. I started shaking, I couldn't lift my head up. My girlfriend and I stepped out for a smoke, and I told her the situation, the guys moved away... they were hot too so thanks to my anxiety I missed out yet again on another golden opportunity. But once we got back to our seats, I told my girl that I recently got close to that I had anxiety and the symptoms, just casually because at this point its just a thing I have to tell people, but this time it wasn't to a fellow artist or designer, she was a nurse. Instead of saying yeah I have it to or yeah we all get like that, she asked me further questions.

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2.16

1.44

5.04

1.44

0

0.72

5.04

0.72

1.44

0.72

2.16

7.91

3.6

1.44

0.72

2.88

0

10.07

4.32

0.72

15.83

1.44

8.63

6.47

0.72

1.44

0

2.16

0.72

0

1.44

0

12.95

5.76

0

1.44

0

2.7778

2.8

3

1

1.1429

1

1.78933

1.54762

1.86732

0.82

6

4.472921

-0.04375

domesticviolence

8knhi9

(5, 10)

It was all so quick and I try and recall now what happened and my brain jumbles up the details but he finally realized what he was doing to me and stopped. I am a small girl with a very thin build at 5'8 and 125 to 130 pounds maximum and he is a big guy at 6'5 and and 265 pounds and I had no chance of getting him to stop. He started immediately after hysterically crying because I started to hysterically cry and started to feel like I couldn't breath. He spent most of the night afterhysterically crying telling me he can't live with himself after this and how he would never put his hands on a woman but something in him just snapped but I don't know how to forgive him or let it go. I'm still so shocked by what happened I have managed to stop crying and calm down but I don't know how to move on from here.

48,294

1

1,526,758,032

3

4.199984

166

17.22

33.65

62.38

6.02

33.2

15.06

89.76

63.86

18.67

14.46

7.23

0

7.23

0

4.22

3.61

14.46

7.83

13.86

3.61

21.69

4.22

2.41

3.61

4.22

1.2

4.22

1.2

3.01

0

2.41

10.24

0

0.6

1.2

7.83

14.46

3.61

2.41

1.2

3.01

1.2

3.61

1.2

0

1.2

2.41

1.81

0.6

0

6.02

0

0.6

3.01

0.6

1.81

7.23

9.04

0

16.87

1.81

6.02

9.04

0.6

0

0.6

0

7.23

3.01

0

4.22

0

3

2.7

3

1

1.74735

1.50135

1.8383

0.8

10

5.413653

-0.137057

ptsd

8lqp9n

[0, 5]

Hi guys, I know not everyone believes in esoteric -- the soul, spirit and all that 'shit' but! I've had a remote session last week and I feel like I'm starting to be whole little by little. I recommend you guys read up on this, take it with a grain of salt but never dismiss it right away! My traumas now seem to have died down a bit and do not easily control my emotions and thinking. Let me know if anyone here has tried it!

682

0

1

1,527,145,541

7

3.631379

86

35.82

17.61

99

25.77

17.2

12.79

95.35

56.98

18.6

10.47

9.3

0

1.16

0

8.14

4.65

12.79

9.3

3.49

8.14

3.49

23.26

0

1.16

0

3.49

1.16

0

8.14

0

2.33

0

2.33

18.6

6.98

1.16

3.49

5.81

2.33

0

1.16

0

1.16

6.98

1.16

3.49

1.16

0

3.49

15.12

0

16.28

0

10.47

5.81

2.33

0

2.33

1.16

0

16.28

2.33

3.49

0

3.49

2.33

0

4.65

0

2.7778

2.625

2.8

1.125

1

1.67531

1.5027

1.89143

0.82

15

4.98454

-0.059425

assistance

76oym1

(0, 5)

Sorry bad English Since almost 2 weeks now I've cut myself off every social interaction because I've been confronted to doubting and all that shit and I thought that was a necessary measure to take to reborn (trough introspection, my whole life since now is involved) and stop burst out of rage and being depressed from nothing And now I keep myself at the strict minimum of social interaction, 10 days that my daily conversation is limited at some words My mental health is decreasing I'm starting to struggle breath by the mouth, now I breath and speak with the nose (probably because I don't open it enough)

54,487

1

1,508,139,554

0

13.428571

108

47.72

22.95

83.53

1

108

19.44

88.89

52.78

14.81

11.11

0

3.7

13.89

9.26

5.56

7.41

1.85

14.81

4.63

0

1.85

3.7

8.33

0

8.33

1.85

2.78

1.85

6.48

0

12.04

0.93

3.7

0

3.7

0

1.85

0

0.93

0

6.48

4.63

1.85

0

10.19

4.63

0.93

2.78

1.85

13.89

0

14.81

0

4.63

10.19

0

0.93

0

10.19

0

2.78

0

3.7

0

2.8333

2.7143

3

1

1.1429

1

1.73586

1.52784

1.83221

0.5

3

11.871071

-0.093197

ptsd

6zkrb4

[5, 10]

__Target group__: _(PTSD sufferers, military vets)_ __Compensation__: _(raffle, payment)_ __Link__: _(how to access survey)_ __Background__: _(why are you doing this survey? Bachelor thesis, making a website)_

150

0

0.571429

1,505,190,608

17

5.378376

26

53.63

93.79

1.4

1

13

26.92

69.23

30.77

7.69

3.85

0

3.85

0

3.85

7.69

3.85

0

11.54

0

7.69

0

3.85

0

3.85

0

3.85

11.54

0

3.85

15.38

3.85

11.54

0

11.54

3.85

0

3.85

0

3.85

0

3.85

0

3.85

0

7.69

0

7.69

0

153.85

0

11.54

15.38

0

3.85

0

30.77

92.31

2.4545

2.5

3

1.1667

1.1429

1

1.71059

1.78947

1.73397

0.87

16

5.850256

-0.1

domesticviolence

7tmty9

[21, 26]

I don't know what to do. The police are no help as I'm usually tossed in the squad car and questioned like a fucking criminal because "why would she lie?". I can't keep the 2400 a month in child support up because I can't get a job (I usually make 3000 a month net) and I'm pretty sure I'm going to be homeless in a few days. All I want is to help my daughter and make sure she's safe and I've run out of ideas. Anything you kind folks could think of would be greatly appreciated.

1,703

1

0.833333

1,517,171,154

4

4.096571

97

40.94

23.53

73.36

99

19.4

13.4

93.81

57.73

15.46

13.4

10.31

0

1.03

2.06

0

2.06

8.25

12.37

14.43

3.09

7.22

4.12

25.77

4.12

2.06

8.25

7.22

1.03

0

1.03

0

9.28

2.06

1.03

3.09

0

23.71

5.15

4.12

5.15

3.09

2.06

0

1.03

0

1.03

0

10.31

3.09

0

7.22

1.03

22.68

1.03

13.4

3.09

5.15

2.06

0

1.03

0

18.56

5.15

0

1.03

0

2.06

8.25

2.06

0

2.8462

2.8889

3

1.1429

1

1.76186

1.56092

1.90676

1

3

5.507381

0.131818

survivorsofabuse

8fseme

[15, 20]

The day I actually did it he wasn't there. He had stormed off shouting 'you're fucking useless'. At the time, this had spurred me on and I actually ended up riding without any help. We used to work together as he is a builder, so he would ask me to get him a Philips screwdriver. As an adult I assume most people know what a Philips screwdriver is but as a young boy I didn't.

344

0

0.571429

1,525,019,368

9

4.062692

75

29.6

34.44

69.14

1

15

18.67

93.33

62.67

21.33

17.33

8

1.33

6.67

0

4

9.33

13.33

12

5.33

8

4

20

8

5.33

1.33

0

2.67

5.33

0

5.33

0

4

1.33

17.33

0

8

16

2.67

1.33

4

0

8

1.33

0

1.33

0

4

0

4

0

9.33

4

1.33

4

1.33

0

9.33

0

13.33

1.33

6.67

5.33

1.33

0

4

0

16

6.67

2.67

0

6.67

0

3

2.8889

3

1

1.1818

1

1.76973

1.58333

1.83331

1

3

5.319641

0.033333

homeless

9b3fyj

[4, 9]

I was so desperate that I tried asking some of my family members for help. My mom doesn't given shit, recently leased a new truck. My brother is such an ass hole. My aunt (who recently bought a vacation home in Houston) told me "Maybe you can talk it out with your parents, take care we're going to Europe." ALL I DESIRE IS A QUICK AND PAINLESS WAY OUT.

1,595

1

1,535,494,967

17

2.663286

69

50.6

80.77

72.78

25.77

13.8

13.04

95.65

49.28

20.29

15.94

11.59

1.45

2.9

0

4.35

5.8

10.14

7.25

4.35

2.9

1.45

18.84

4.35

2.9

1.45

0

2.9

7.25

2.9

1.45

0

20.29

7.25

0

2.9

1.45

5.8

0

1.45

2.9

1.45

0

4.35

2.9

1.45

0

13.04

8.7

1.45

2.9

0

7.25

11.59

1.45

14.49

1.45

7.25

5.8

0

2.9

4.35

2.9

0

2.9

0

18.84

7.25

2.9

0

2.9

0

3

2.8889

3

1.2

1.125

1

1.76783

1.64746

1.97567

0.8

30

4.148944

-0.047186

anxiety

7i3qui

(0, 5)

Disclaimer: I don't intend to bad-mouth Mirtazapine here, its side effects and somewhat "dulling" effect on the mind for some people (during the first few months) has likely been discussed enough here. Some feel nothing at all, others feel like zombies. Totally individual. I trust and maintain that the benefits of proper use, together with conversational therapy, is very efficient for many people, and I hope this has been said on this sub. I feel a need to share my own experience, though, in the hopes that it will be of some help to someone who might be reacting the same way as I did to Mirtazapine's well-recorded increase in appetite.

46,175

0

0.8

1,512,618,520

6

11.121652

113

65.17

57.04

39.92

94.08

22.6

20.35

90.27

53.1

13.27

5.31

0

7.96

5.31

15.04

9.73

6.19

4.42

1.77

16.81

2.65

0.88

6.19

5.31

0.88

0

10.62

0

20.35

4.42

2.65

7.96

2.65

1.77

4.42

0

0.88

2.65

0.88

0

0.88

7.96

3.54

1.77

0.88

1.77

3.54

13.27

2.65

10.62

0.88

7.08

2.65

0.88

0

0.88

0

0.88

0

18.58

4.42

6.19

0.88

0

1.77

0

3

2.8889

3

1.1429

1

1.72642

1.39579

1.94248

0.73

20

10.105217

0.135

anxiety

6mk8j2

[8, 13]

I also used to get really bad nightmares about dying and the afterlife when I was a kid and my mom would have to rub my chest til I fell asleep. I never ever thought it was anxiety and I didnʻt want to diagnose myself because I know some people actually have it and I wouldnʻt want to compare my stress to that. Just wondering if itʻs possible that this is like mild "anxiety" or I am just sleep deprived? Also if its possible that anxiety can be come back after a decade of not having any noticeable events? Thanks ahead of time for any help.

273

1

0.8

1,499,751,211

2

6.554371

106

13.64

6.58

81.66

1

21.2

15.09

94.34

60.38

17.92

11.32

0

6.6

2.83

12.26

9.43

10.38

11.32

1.89

18.87

2.83

0.94

0

2.83

7.55

0.94

6.6

3.77

0

0.94

3.77

0.94

0

0.94

0

20.75

3.77

1.89

4.72

8.49

1.89

5.66

0.94

0

0.94

3.77

2.83

0.94

0

4.72

0.94

1.89

0.94

3.77

12.26

0.94

10.38

1.89

0.94

8.49

0

0.94

0

6.6

2.83

0

1.89

0

1.89

0

2.7143

2.8889

3

1

1.1818

1

1.72727

1.38511

1.87417

1

7.330189

-0.02381

assistance

9h6az1

(0, 5)

Hey guys, I am currently in the progress of wring a research plan for my internship. I am doing a project on the effects of scaring trials on eurasian cranes on agricultural fields. However, English is not my native language and i am having trouble coming up with a catchy head title. It has to be catchy and short but not too corny.

12,525

0

1

1,537,372,089

1

6.256905

63

74.89

10.22

89.63

1.33

15.75

20.63

79.37

57.14

9.52

7.94

0

1.59

7.94

15.87

12.7

3.17

6.35

3.17

15.87

1.59

0

3.17

0

3.17

1.59

0

4.76

0

1.59

0

1.59

7.94

1.59

0

6.35

0

1.59

0

6.35

0

3.17

1.59

0

1.59

0

11.11

3.17

12.7

1.59

9.52

1.59

3.17

0

1.59

0

9.52

6.35

3.17

0

2.375

2.5

2.8

1.125

1

1.77043

1.46

1.79147

0.55

5

6.285833

-0.05

almosthomeless

7829w3

[2, 7]

Have been living with seizures for about 6 years now, trying to remain well let alone be successful but lack support not only in my family but also in the medical community. I've been trying to move across the country to Salem, OR for the past couple months, thinking that I could better manage my medical condition there and thrive, but I've been paying into housing that is falling through at the beginning of Nov. I'm eating my non-existant bank account and running ramped in my mind trying to figure all of this out. Advice needed. Please.

133

1

1,508,699,794

18

9.095545

98

67.14

13.08

89.63

91.78

19.6

16.33

89.8

54.08

11.22

8.16

0

3.06

4.08

18.37

11.22

6.12

7.14

1.02

22.45

3.06

1.02

0

1.02

2.04

6.12

5.1

1.02

0

1.02

3.06

1.02

0

14.29

2.04

0

3.06

4.08

1.02

5.1

0

5.1

0

4.08

0

1.02

9.18

2.04

5.1

1.02

2.04

1.02

5.1

10.2

0

16.33

3.06

8.16

5.1

4.08

2.04

3.06

0

1.02

0

1.02

0

13.27

5.1

4.08

0

1.02

0

3.06

0

2.8571

3

1

1.1429

1

1.71493

1.58161

1.87047

0.79

16

8.761267

0.135714

ptsd

8xp3w9

(0, 5)

Here comes a little rant, because I don’t know what to do anymore and I’m done with it. I keep on having panic attacks and I can’t find the trigger. I’ve been crying for hours now, and yesterday and the day before as well. I’m seriously afraid that I will go nuts one day, I see no end nor a solution. I’m afraid I’ll end up in a mental hospital.

34,906

1

1,531,229,362

2

0.524416

70

9.85

1.15

99

1

14

11.43

97.14

64.29

20

14.29

0

5.71

7.14

11.43

15.71

5.71

10

5.71

25.71

7.14

2.86

1.43

0

10

1.43

8.57

4.29

1.43

0

10

4.29

0

2.86

1.43

0

1.43

0

1.43

0

4.29

0

1.43

2.86

0

4.29

20

2.86

21.43

2.86

5.71

12.86

0

1.43

0

1.43

0

21.43

7.14

4.29

0

10

0

2.6

2.8571

3

1

1.74209

1.60714

1.79534

0.67

1

3.411688

-0.3375

assistance

67x62k

[10, 15]

I will do my part in applying for scholarships, saving money, working, and finding other avenues to obtain the necessary funds. My Personal Story: I was born in Oaxaca, Mexico and immigrated to the United States when I was a mere 4 months old. My parents left everything behind in Mexico due to the large prevalence of poverty and political corruption present in my home nation. My family would settle down in a town within the Coachella Valley named Chiriaco Summit.

1,265

0

0.833333

1,493,314,332

0

10.675

81

91.55

31.08

98.76

25.77

20.25

20.99

81.48

46.91

12.35

9.88

0

2.47

7.41

16.05

6.17

1.23

4.94

0

12.35

4.94

0

1.23

0

6.17

2.47

0

6.17

1.23

0

1.23

0

2.47

1.23

0

11.11

2.47

6.17

1.23

0

6.17

3.7

1.23

23.46

0

16.05

7.41

3.7

2.47

6.17

0

11.11

4.94

1.23

0

2.8333

2.625

3

1.125

1

1.67523

1.72836

1.9064

0.33

0

10.954414

-0.082606

homeless

8q7ima

(13, 18)

It's not a black nd white situation, I panicked, argued and a bunch over this with them, admittedly not helping my case, but I'm over that. I want help for my issues. Enough sobbing, I sometimes feel so hopeless, but I need to remember that while I am down, I am not out. Employment, temporary housing, even just basic street smarts, I'd like to know how to cope with this situation. What to do, first 100 days and all.

44,132

1

1,528,700,499

12

4.071016

79

26.92

3.84

97.6

1

15.8

15.19

87.34

58.23

21.52

13.92

12.66

0

1.27

7.59

2.53

15.19

7.59

5.06

8.86

3.8

15.19

2.53

1.27

2.53

6.33

1.27

5.06

1.27

2.53

5.06

0

17.72

3.8

1.27

2.53

1.27

6.33

3.8

2.53

0

1.27

0

7.59

1.27

6.33

0

1.27

11.39

0

12.66

0

6.33

1.27

0

1.27

0

24.05

6.33

13.92

0

3.8

0

2.7143

2.8889

3

1

1.125

1

1.69571

1.42254

1.87397

0.89

13

4.993659

0.02963

survivorsofabuse

874c7j

(0, 5)

Hello. I am a thirty six year old man, and I became aware that the experiences I had, my behavior, and the expression of my feelings, may be BPD nine months ago, when I had my first suicide attempt. I had not read anything about it prior, and had entirely avoided any medical or mental health people. After the suicide attempt, which over nine years, head been preceded by the traumatic end of a highly dysfunctional five year relationship, followed by a severe four year alcohol problem. After getting out of the Psych ward after ten days, which I hadn't been in since an ideation incendent at seventeen, I determined to get help.

14,075

1

0.8

1,522,017,437

3

8.851842

113

79.73

23.94

98.19

2.44

22.6

21.24

92.92

48.67

13.27

8.85

0

4.42

7.96

13.27

8.85

1.77

4.42

1.77

13.27

3.54

2.65

7.96

1.77

4.42

0.88

3.54

0.88

0

5.31

0

0.88

10.62

3.54

0.88

3.54

0.88

1.77

0

0.88

4.42

0.88

2.65

0

1.77

8.85

2.65

1.77

9.73

2.65

0.88

20.35

1.77

3.54

15.04

1.77

0

1.77

0

15.04

4.42

9.73

0

0.88

0

2.75

2.8889

3

1

1.1429

1

1.79421

1.6

1.79079

1

2

8.795439

0.073333

anxiety

9r0t83

[3, 8]

These thoughts are always a great source of frustration to me especially when I’m close to an artistic deadline like a gallery exposition that is coming soon. I’m never confident enough to show what I do. Even the minister of culture in my country has made some very positive criticisms about it but my mind always goes back to thinking those people are only saying these things to be nice. Honestly, does anyone else feel that way? What do you do when this happens?

1,488

1

0.6

1,540,395,946

3

5.360183

84

15.82

36.03

89.63

87.2

16.8

19.05

95.24

60.71

21.43

8.33

7.14

0

1.19

0

13.1

4.76

11.9

13.1

11.9

3.57

1.19

21.43

4.76

1.19

4.76

0

1.19

8.33

5.95

2.38

0

2.38

0

5.95

0

17.86

3.57

2.38

0

2.38

7.14

2.38

3.57

1.19

0

4.76

0

1.19

2.38

3.57

0

1.19

16.67

2.38

15.48

2.38

5.95

8.33

1.19

0

1.19

0

9.52

3.57

1.19

0

2.38

0

2.38

0

2.7143

2.6667

3

1.2

1.125

1

1.74204

1.43158

1.88579

0.81

1

5.392126

0.237879

homeless

8e9frp

(10, 15)

Could I be arrested for camping somewhere? I've never been to jail and don't want to go to jail for having no where to sleep. Do you recommend camping or finding a church or shelter that would take me in? **UPDATE:** Thank you all for the responses. I know I have issues but I feel they cannot be solved by taking medications.

26,702

0

1

1,524,465,062

8

0.658803

62

14.22

9.86

85.77

56.22

12.4

14.52

91.94

62.9

17.74

14.52

9.68

0

3.23

0

1.61

3.23

14.52

17.74

4.84

6.45

30.65

0

1.61

0

1.61

0

6.45

0

24.19

6.45

3.23

4.84

3.23

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0

3.23

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3.23

20.97

0

9.68

1.61

4.84

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0

3.23

0

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0

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4.84

0

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0

3.23

0

3.23

0

6.45

2.875

3

1

1.3333

1

1.73101

1.45556

1.8937

0.79

13

2.475897

-0.1

homeless

7o5n2d

[210, 215]

I always found it so easy to live in the street. Food was available EVERYWHERE. We live in Canada, a first world country, and food was just so easy to get. drop in centers, late night visit at the bakery shop, rummaging trough the garbage ( before it became popular .. ). Clothing was also available everywhere.

72

0

1

1,515,096,576

74

4.177778

54

74.89

71.09

99

98.27

10.8

18.52

87.04

46.3

7.41

3.7

1.85

0

3.7

7.41

12.96

5.56

11.11

7.41

0

16.67

9.26

1.85

0

1.85

0

5.56

0

5.56

0

9.26

3.7

0

5.56

0

9.26

0

3.7

0

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1.85

0

1.85

0

9.26

5.56

0

31.48

3.7

18.52

9.26

0

1.85

0

24.07

12.96

7.41

0

3.7

0

2.5556

2.6667

3

1.2857

1.2

1

1.67024

1.65778

1.94904

0.93

8

4.09037

0.276599

domesticviolence

6s9x1s

[25, 30]

He said he'd take me to my mothers house if I just smoked a cigarette with him. I did, but he refused to take me still. I continued fighting his hold and he kept saying my name in a gentle voice and telling me to calm down, saying that he loved me and didn't know why I was freaking out, and kept saying, "you know you're not going to win. Go ahead, tire yourself out. You know you're not going anywhere."

213

1

0.833333

1,502,152,527

9

2.997216

81

11.88

83.84

79.42

72.05

16.2

11.11

97.53

61.73

28.4

27.16

12.35

0

6.17

8.64

0

1.23

2.47

12.35

7.41

4.94

7.41

3.7

25.93

2.47

0

1.23

0

7.41

4.94

2.47

0

1.23

0

27.16

1.23

0

1.23

8.64

12.35

3.7

1.23

2.47

0

6.17

0

6.17

0

3.7

0

1.23

0

2.47

8.64

1.23

2.47

3.7

0

7.41

9.88

3.7

13.58

3.7

6.17

3.7

0

1.23

0

1.23

0

19.75

6.17

0

2.47

4.94

0

3

2.8

3

1

1.25

1

1.71685

1.61282

1.88407

1

14

3.956176

0.368889

anxiety

666ire

[0, 5]

I desperately need a car and found a great opportunity but the previous owner died of a heart attack in it. Thats my number one cause of anxiety, the fear of heart attacks. He was relatively healthy and young. I feel like a big idiot for not taking it. But I have vivid nightmares of me having heart attacks then I wake up with a panic attack that lasts hours.

1,529

1

1,492,557,942

2

3.393005

70

80.28

9.94

78.4

1

14

12.86

98.57

52.86

15.71

10

8.57

0

1.43

0

5.71

10

12.86

5.71

1.43

7.14

1.43

12.86

5.71

1.43

0

1.43

0

18.57

4.29

14.29

5.71

7.14

0

2.86

0

1.43

10

2.86

1.43

0

4.29

2.86

1.43

0

1.43

5.71

0

14.29

0

1.43

10

4.29

0

5.71

1.43

12.86

1.43

4.29

7.14

0

1.43

0

8.57

7.14

1.43

0

3

2.8571

3

1

1.2

1

1.88734

1.63667

1.86443

1

3

4.97993

-0.005208

domesticviolence

8xqnpo

[10, 15]

I have an answer for you. it is because he made you a part of his game. see, sociopaths will do anything and everything to manipulate others to make themselves happy. to feel liked, loved. mostly, they feed off of other people.

2,059

0

1

1,531,239,188

20

2.731429

42

40.66

98.33

2.82

99

8.4

14.29

97.62

66.67

28.57

16.67

2.38

0

4.76

11.9

4.76

16.67

9.52

2.38

4.76

0

21.43

2.38

0

2.38

7.14

0

23.81

0

4.76

26.19

4.76

9.52

0

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0

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0

2.38

7.14

4.76

0

2.38

0

4.76

14.29

2.38

0

2.38

0

2.38

0

19.05

11.9

7.14

0

3

2.75

3

1.1429

1.1818

1

1.75233

1.46316

1.92438

0.93

6

3.700286

0.345833

survivorsofabuse

9uklcc

[10, 15]

At my appointment today I confirmed that I do want to pursue trauma therapy. It's scary and I know it will be hard. Part of me wants to run from it because again, I do ok considering. But I also have put it off for 25 years and don't want to spend another 10 or 25 wishing I had done it when I had the chance or wondering if things would be different. I already feel like so much more of a person and in some ways that's enough.

400

0

1

1,541,473,414

7

3.336014

89

7.72

4.62

79.03

11.29

17.8

11.24

91.01

62.92

21.35

11.24

0

10.11

2.25

12.36

14.61

5.62

12.36

1.12

26.97

4.49

3.37

1.12

3.37

5.62

3.37

1.12

2.25

1.12

0

1.12

0

19.1

4.49

1.12

6.74

0

5.62

2.25

0

2.25

1.12

0

1.12

0

4.49

17.98

3.37

11.24

2.25

3.37

5.62

0

1.12

0

1.12

0

1.12

0

10.11

5.62

1.12

0

3.37

0

2.7143

2.75

3

1.1429

1

1.69405

1.32911

1.86727

0.9

8

5.011739

0.101042

homeless

6u7beq

[0, 5]

As a native San Francisco we have lots of homelessness. I got a few question. I understand that life is hard on some people and I try to give the sympathy for the misfortunes of others. But with the rampant drug abuse and crime within the homeless community I find it hard to sympathize with them. I've been thinking, is there a line within this culture?

879

0

1

1,502,940,128

4

5.164478

66

87.28

67.52

51.41

7.96

13.2

18.18

89.39

56.06

16.67

10.61

7.58

1.52

0

1.52

6.06

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16.67

7.58

1.52

6.06

0

16.67

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0

4.55

1.52

0

1.52

0

1.52

0

13.64

0

3.03

0

13.64

6.06

0

6.06

0

3.03

0

3.03

0

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0

12.12

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1.52

0

3.03

12.12

0

4.55

0

4.55

0

10.61

6.06

1.52

0

1.52

0

1.52

0

2.8333

2.5

3

1.2857

1.1429

1

1.74691

1.50943

1.85704

0.62

31

5.838985

-0.261111

ptsd

623zgx

[6, 11]

My friend made a comment that really embarrassed me because, up until that point, I hadn't realized how unusual it probably appeared. Since then, I've been more conscious of myself doing this and, while it feels like a shameful secret, I continue to do it. I know I never did this before, so I'm wondering if it has anything to do with what happened to me. Has anyone else experienced anything like this? I feel like I'm the only one.

1,151

1

0.6

1,490,754,542

11

6.258571

80

3.32

6.7

99

2.89

16

18.75

100

73.75

31.25

15

0

16.25

3.75

15

13.75

7.5

10

2.5

23.75

3.75

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2.5

1.25

2.5

0

2.5

0

6.25

0

1.25

0

26.25

8.75

5

2.5

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1.25

3.75

5

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0

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0

3.75

1.25

0

2.5

0

8.75

13.75

1.25

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0

2.5

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0

18.75

5

7.5

0

1.25

0

5

0

2.7143

2.625

2.6

1.3333

1

1.72172

1.29067

1.90725

0.93

20

7.397714

0.2

assistance

98judj

(4, 9)

with investments/money). Any responses the survey below would be much appreciated and you’ll be entered into a £50 prize draw (not expecting that many replies either so you’ll have pretty good odds) <url> Also, if you happen to have any friends or family who might want a chance at winning some money while helping out a desperate student, please share it! Thanks in advance

6,860

0

1

1,534,680,995

2

4.790905

65

55.78

85.93

11.67

99

21.67

18.46

92.31

46.15

9.23

4.62

0

4.62

0

4.62

6.15

10.77

12.31

3.08

9.23

1.54

18.46

1.54

9.23

15.38

13.85

1.54

0

13.85

1.54

0

23.08

1.54

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12.31

0

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0

13.85

4.62

6.15

0

1.54

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6.15

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7.69

1.54

3.08

1.54

4.62

0

18.46

1.54

3.08

0

1.54

0

3.08

4.62

3

2.5

3

1.125

1.3333

1

1.75026

1.59273

2.01638

0.55

0

5.48

0.228571

ptsd

6kv9hw

(22, 27)

Thank you for reading this. I'm sorry if it seems not important or annoying. Just thought I'd let someone knows. And if you have kids, please treat them nicely. You won't have any idea what your abusive acts would bring to your kids as it would affect how they treat their siblings, friends, or people they'd meet later in life.

13,791

0

0.8

1,499,025,512

2

4.177969

60

1

97.69

23.51

96.76

12

13.33

98.33

56.67

26.67

18.33

3.33

0

8.33

0

6.67

8.33

0

6.67

15

3.33

11.67

3.33

28.33

6.67

3.33

0

1.67

15

10

5

0

3.33

1.67

26.67

1.67

0

25

6.67

3.33

6.67

11.67

0

8.33

0

1.67

0

1.67

0

6.67

5

0

1.67

0

13.33

1.67

5

1.67

0

20

8.33

5

0

6.67

0

2.8333

2.6667

3

1

1.1429

1

1.72174

1.51071

1.92837

1

2

3.598875

-0.18

assistance

8p08e8

(10, 15)

And I'm not a drug dealer or freaking anything like that. I'm a 20 something year old with no criminal record whatsoever so I figure the attack was accidental? This happened about 1.5, maybe almost 2 months ago. Basically, now I live with my mom and brother because the incident. She helped take care of me, fed me, all after I left the hospital.

2,646

0

0.6

1,528,288,409

0

3.623636

64

29.29

5.92

88.24

7.63

12.8

18.75

89.06

56.25

20.31

14.06

12.5

0

1.56

0

6.25

7.81

9.38

4.69

9.38

7.81

3.12

15.62

1.56

3.12

0

4.69

1.56

4.69

1.56

3.12

0

1.56

0

4.69

3.12

0

3.12

1.56

14.06

1.56

0

7.81

1.56

3.12

0

6.25

0

4.69

0

1.56

6.25

1.56

0

3.12

1.56

0

9.38

0

12.5

0

1.56

10.94

0

1.56

0

17.19

6.25

0

1.56

0

3.12

0

2.7143

2.6667

3

1

1.1429

1

1.73102

1.61569

1.83926

0.39

5

5.148485

0.109091

anxiety

8tqoz8

(20, 25)

3. Watch telenovelas (if you haven't seen the drama in those shows, it makes you forget about anxiety pretty quick. After all, who will Jane choose, Michael or Rafael??) 4. Go for a walk, though now that my new employment is 15 minutes away each way via walking, I am getting some decent walking in 5 days a week.

45,967

0

1

1,529,934,915

1

3.567

59

64.62

36.73

99

57.83

11.8

13.56

86.44

44.07

13.56

6.78

3.39

0

3.39

0

6.78

5.08

11.86

6.78

5.08

1.69

20.34

3.39

1.69

6.78

5.08

3.39

1.69

0

5.08

0

15.25

1.69

6.78

1.69

6.78

5.08

0

1.69

0

1.69

0

1.69

15.25

1.69

27.12

6.78

8.47

11.86

1.69

0

23.73

6.78

8.47

0

3.39

0

1.69

3.39

0

3

2.8

3

1

1.1818

1

1.71304

1.49362

1.95663

1

0

4.233333

0.221591

relationships

7nhsqj

[20, 25]

She did not acknowledge his invite to come down for Christmas. Then they go on the trip 2 days later and everything is peachy keen. -Her car broke down so my dad leant her my mom's car that we still have. She said that he needed to quit referring to it as my mom's car....like, legally it's my mom's car. Shut it.

1,233

0

0.6

1,514,842,529

38

1.165572

63

24.5

92.33

76.81

25.77

12.6

7.94

93.65

57.14

28.57

19.05

6.35

1.59

0

9.52

1.59

9.52

1.59

14.29

6.35

3.17

6.35

1.59

17.46

4.76

0

1.59

0

3.17

1.59

0

1.59

22.22

6.35

0

11.11

4.76

7.94

3.17

0

1.59

0

1.59

0

1.59

0

6.35

1.59

3.17

0

6.35

7.94

1.59

25.4

11.11

6.35

7.94

1.59

0

1.59

0

23.81

14.29

1.59

0

1.59

0

6.35

0

2.7143

2.8

3

1

1.1429

1

1.72057

1.74386

1.93949

0.86

10

2.502313

-0.027778

anxiety

8wv3c4

(0, 5)

I've been trying to avoid social media because I know how anxiety provoking it can be for me. I joined it ultimately because I thought it would make me feel more connected to people. It kind of does, which I'm okay with. But of course, now I'm looking at everyone's highlight reels and friend count (which I'm especially envious of) and I can't help but feel like crap. My social life came to a standstill in my early 20s when I compartmentalized all facets of my life, ensuring the people I knew never intermingled.

31,771

1

0.8

1,530,986,875

29

6.355633

93

12.57

6.63

95.49

1.23

18.6

18.28

89.25

56.99

23.66

16.13

0

7.53

2.15

11.83

9.68

6.45

8.6

2.15

19.35

4.3

3.23

4.3

0

2.15

5.38

1.08

4.3

2.15

0

7.53

0

1.08

0

21.51

5.38

1.08

2.15

4.3

3.23

1.08

0

2.15

3.23

1.08

2.15

0

7.53

5.38

1.08

0

1.08

4.3

13.98

0

7.53

1.08

2.15

4.3

1.08

0

2.15

1.08

0

1.08

0

17.2

5.38

3.23

0

6.45

2.15

0

2.8333

2.8889

3

1

1.1429

1

1.78374

1.41707

1.9407

0.95

35

7.194

0.107407

relationships

7rdkcm

(10, 15)

He keeps saying he hates himself for this and won't let it happen again. I know he has a really big heart, so I don't know what to do. Is our relationship worth it? TL;DR My boyfriend of over two years has a huge drug problems and continuously lies to my face about it. He abuses them and it is effecting our relationship in a negative way.

18,731

1

0.6

1,516,314,533

2

2.613913

68

8.52

81.12

9.79

1

13.6

11.76

97.06

63.24

26.47

17.65

5.88

2.94

0

7.35

1.47

8.82

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0

5.88

0

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17.65

0

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0

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0

14.71

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0

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16.18

1.47

10.29

0

7.35

2.94

0

1.47

0

13.24

5.88

1.47

0

1.47

0

2.94

0

2.6667

2.625

3

1.125

1

1.65834

1.50492

1.83952

0.6

7

4.457319

0.1

relationships

7tqu5h

[35, 40]

I agreed and the four of us had dinner and I dropped them back home to Kate[18F]'s house where they were staying the night because her parents were not home. As I was pulling away Jamie[17F] ran up to my car and asked me if I wanted to stay the night with them, at first I was hesitant but I eventually agreed because I thought other guys were coming round. It turned out the other guys couldnt make it and it was just me and the three drunk girls. I asked Kate[18F](it was her house) if I could get some MDMA and drop it tonight and she agreed if I got her some. I drove us to the bottle shop where Jamie[17F] got her friend to buy us some more alcohol and went to get the MDMA which me and Kate did while Jamie and Sophie just drank.

1,347

0

1

1,517,212,688

0

7.433486

154

18.37

42.28

61.34

49.97

30.8

7.79

89.61

57.79

22.08

16.88

9.74

1.95

0

3.25

1.95

5.19

4.55

8.44

7.14

3.9

11.69

1.3

18.83

1.95

1.3

1.95

2.6

1.95

0.65

0

11.69

0.65

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11.69

0.65

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3.9

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0

4.55

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0

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0

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0

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2.6

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0

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3

1.125

1

1.71172

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1.91409

0.4

5

6.140476

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domesticviolence

9imykq

[0, 5]

I’ve been in an abusive relationship for 3 years now. My family had stopped talking to me, and live states away when my boyfriend and I got together. The first time I noticed abuse was when he wanted to repeatedly have sex till I was sore, and would get angry if I refused. It was subtle at first but it scared me. As time went on I would here everyday how I was too skinny, I need to gain some weight.. it got to the point to where I would ask questions about why I wasn’t good enough and was depressed ... he would throw a speaker in a room along with me and put stuff in front of the door to where I couldn’t get out.

795

1

0.571429

1,537,831,455

5

5.346379

126

28.22

17.04

96.31

1.33

18

11.11

97.62

62.7

18.25

14.29

12.7

0

1.59

0

3.97

4.76

15.87

11.9

7.94

9.52

1.59

23.02

4.76

0.79

4.76

2.38

0.79

4.76

0.79

3.97

0.79

2.38

0.79

7.14

0.79

0

2.38

12.7

1.59

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2.38

1.59

0

0.79

3.17

0

1.59

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11.11

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0.79

4.76

0.79

11.11

7.14

0

23.02

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11.11

9.52

0

0.79

2.38

0

12.7

7.94

2.38

0

2.38

0

2.7778

2.7143

3

1

1.72647

1.55826

1.84413

0.86

6

5.501019

0.037879

survivorsofabuse

9kegfm

[65, 70]

She was meeting her boyfriend (the one before my dad) because he was getting out of prison. Leaving my dad. So since my mom left you are probably thinking that the abuse stopped there huh? Unfortunately no. It was my dad's turn to use me as a punching bag.

747

1

0.8

1,538,381,302

8

2.5042

49

33.33

84.63

46.05

1

9.8

20.41

95.92

59.18

22.45

18.37

10.2

0

2.04

6.12

0

4.08

6.12

12.24

8.16

6.12

2.04

22.45

4.08

0

2.04

0

4.08

0

4.08

0

2.04

0

20.41

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8.16

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2.04

10.2

6.12

0

14.29

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2.04

0

2.04

0

2.04

0

2.04

0

16.33

8.16

0

2.04

0

2.04

4.08

0

2.5833

2.5

3

1

1.1818

1

1.75654

1.71163

1.83386

1

2

3.178

0.125

relationships

7ri3ol

[5, 10]

Now, this was my first long term serious relationship and at the time, i wasn’t aware if what he was asking me to do was normal or not. But i loved him with everything i had, so i gave up my oldest and greatest friendship for this guy i loved. Who ruined me. Myself and Alex have always been a bit flirty, but never made a move on one another. He would come to me about relationship advice, i never before had feelings for him and i would help him wholeheartedly with any issues he had.

1,994

0

0.6

1,516,366,306

0

6.770103

96

5.65

30.11

88.24

65.25

19.2

9.38

95.83

66.67

26.04

19.79

13.54

0

6.25

0

6.25

3.12

11.46

12.5

5.21

9.38

4.17

17.71

6.25

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3.12

6.25

4.17

2.08

0

1.04

18.75

0

1.04

0

7.29

16.67

2.08

1.04

3.12

4.17

6.25

1.04

0

1.04

2.08

0

9.38

6.25

1.04

3.12

0

10.42

5.21

0

15.62

2.08

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9.38

0

11.46

5.21

0

1.04

0

3

2.8889

2.6

1.125

1.25

1

1.77061

1.46818

1.8895

0.29

12

7.425485

0.333333

anxiety

5xpd3v

[0, 5]

This has been affecting me for two weeks now, off and on. It's a combination of terrifying and annoying. Randomly throughout the day, I will notice that it feels harder to breathe and I take deeper breaths than normal. Air coming in almost feels like it has viscosity to it, like molasses, which makes me cough. Most of the time, I don't cough up anything so it's dry.

575

1

1,488,751,075

3

2.945795

68

53.95

15.16

91.95

1.76

13.6

16.18

95.59

60.29

20.59

7.35

0

13.24

4.41

19.12

10.29

4.41

5.88

1.47

20.59

11.76

8.82

1.47

2.94

0

2.94

1.47

0

14.71

4.41

2.94

0

5.88

0

1.47

5.88

0

5.88

2.94

0

2.94

0

1.47

0

1.47

16.18

2.94

16.18

1.47

8.82

5.88

0

19.12

7.35

0

4.41

0

2.7143

2.625

3

1.1429

1

1.6611

1.4386

1.8283

1

2

4.154447

-0.259524

anxiety

93t20i

(15, 20)

I've heard it's less activating and more calming than Zoloft, as it's the most serotonin selective. I've also heard Trazodone may be an option, for someone who wants SSRI-like-effects without any activation. Additionally, my Psych doctor mentioned Gabapentin as a way to directly target anxiety without any of the long-term concerns of daily benzo use. (though I've read it's not without its own drawbacks.) Obviously, this wouldn't have any serotonergic effect, but could be a good alternative to the Xanax.

19,281

0

0.8

1,533,157,810

1

9.236

83

46.61

7.43

38.69

48.1

16.6

26.51

85.54

48.19

13.25

4.82

0

8.43

7.23

14.46

2.41

7.23

6.02

20.48

8.43

1.2

0

7.23

3.61

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1.2

0

6.02

0

30.12

2.41

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8.43

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9.64

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2.41

0

3.61

0

3.61

0

2.41

0

1.2

0

2.41

13.25

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6.02

0

3.61

2.41

3.61

0

26.51

6.02

0

3.61

0

8.43

2.41

0

2.75

2.8

3

1

1.66626

1.25085

1.78877

1

3

8.998889

0.27037

domesticviolence

9gghzi

(39, 44)

I got connected with the DV shelter in town to connect to my Crime Victim funds so I don't have to worry about therapy co-pays and I'm filled to the brim with anxiety about class tomorrow. I'm so tired of this. I hate that he probably witnessed me plunging into a panic attack. I hate that he saw that side of me. I don't want to look weak in front of him.

15,028

1

1,537,151,165

7

1.136104

73

53.78

10.89

38.05

1

14.6

12.33

87.67

57.53

23.29

17.81

13.7

0

4.11

0

5.48

4.11

20.55

6.85

4.11

2.74

16.44

2.74

0

10.96

0

10.96

4.11

0

4.11

0

4.11

2.74

0

1.37

0

2.74

0

4.11

0

4.11

0

5.48

0

4.11

1.37

0

2.74

13.7

1.37

10.96

0

9.59

1.37

2.74

0

2.74

0

13.7

6.85

0

1.37

0

5.48

0

2.625

2.8

1

1.7559

1.60625

1.77104

0.79

4

3.411688

-0.341667

ptsd

7t5x6f

(4, 9)

I've stopped telling it, and when someone at work says what's wrong. I just look at them and say its been a day. I just can't really go out and do stuff. I keep pushing college back I wanted to be a nurse and now I don't want to do anything but be a hermit and go live in the woods. I'm not really looking for responses I'm just tired of people not listening or believing me, I've had it all my life and I'm just done with it.

38,064

1

0.6

1,516,986,344

3

0.031157

89

1.95

3.64

98.24

11.29

17.8

11.24

97.75

69.66

23.6

14.61

13.48

0

1.12

8.99

4.49

10.11

15.73

10.11

4.49

31.46

2.25

0

2.25

0

1.12

0

1.12

0

7.87

0

15.73

1.12

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3.37

1.12

7.87

5.62

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0

4.49

0

4.49

0

3.37

0

1.12

0

2.25

5.62

24.72

0

13.48

3.37

5.62

2.25

0

16.85

5.62

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0

8.99

0

3

2.6667

3

1.1

1

1.71458

1.44048

1.88509

0.81

1

2.603024

-0.110606

domesticviolence

8wt8p8

[5, 10]

... My husband is an injured veteran. He was pretty seriously injured in Iraq and then again in Afghanistan (muscle tear and then a spinal injury.) However, the injuries occurred before we met. When we met, dated, and eventually married, he was under the influence of Vicodin, OxyContin, and Percocet.

1,181

0

0.571429

1,530,970,869

3

6.25102

49

38.77

94.86

46.05

25.77

9.8

30.61

87.76

57.14

10.2

2.04

4.08

0

4.08

0

8.16

10.2

6.12

10.2

16.33

0

10.2

4.08

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0

4.08

2.04

0

16.33

4.08

0

6.12

0

2.04

0

2.04

0

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0

14.29

12.24

0

18.37

12.24

0

6.12

0

8.16

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20.41

0

6.12

14.29

0

30.61

14.29

12.24

0

4.08

0

2.8462

2.5

2.8

1.125

1

1.66773

1.69744

1.81844

0.81

4

7.015673

0.041667

relationships

7ts5fi

(10, 15)

Maybe 2-3 crazy fights but nothing major. Joe came back, frankly Joe spent ~ a year asking me to go out with him and my gut did not agree, it just felt off, now don’t get me wrong I have loved Joe since I was 17 but I just felt like this wouldn’t be right. I asked Joe for a year, I studied far away, and it was my last year at uni, I asked Joe to give me that year. But Joe said Nah. Joe gave the whole I have changed speech which every girl has probably heard a gazillion times in her life, but still thinks its novel.

55,013

0

1

1,517,231,002

10

3.230632

110

26.98

18.16

98.19

13.47

22

6.36

89.09

54.55

18.18

12.73

10.91

0

1.82

0

5.45

3.64

10

8.18

6.36

5.45

4.55

22.73

2.73

0.91

2.73

1.82

4.55

1.82

2.73

0

0.91

0

10.91

0

1.82

0.91

14.55

2.73

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2.73

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0

2.73

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0

0.91

12.73

9.09

0

18.18

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7.27

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0.91

0

0.91

0

1.82

0

0.91

0

14.55

4.55

6.36

0

0.91

0

1.82

0

0.91

3

2.4167

2.8

1.125

1.1429

1

1.7209

1.46222

1.88836

0.72

35

3.445537

0.014821

stress

7ggumo

(0, 5)

I’m so mad. Since April I spoke with four professors: all for course evaluations and two for letters of Rec. They all agreed and I send them the necessary documents. I just called to check the file at my university and out of all those professors, only one submitted a course evaluation. I apply for a masters in a month and have no letters, despite having periodically emailed to update these professors.

42,282

1

0.571429

1,511,990,858

2

6.903699

72

85.72

39.05

74.76

25.77

14.4

20.83

90.28

52.78

13.89

11.11

8.33

0

2.78

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4.17

6.94

1.39

11.11

1.39

0

4.17

2.78

1.39

0

1.39

0

8.33

0

11.11

2.78

1.39

0

5.56

1.39

0

1.39

0

6.94

0

6.94

0

4.17

0

12.5

1.39

4.17

6.94

9.72

0

12.5

6.94

2.78

1.39

0

1.39

0

2.6667

2.3

3

1

1.1429

1

1.71781

1.66885

1.84758

1

4

7.39989

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food_pantry

8f29ql

[10, 15]

I do not get paid until next Tuesday and i am terrified of what i am going to do until then. Any advice would be appreciated of what to do. Normally although i have my heath problems and we live pay-day to pay-day, it has never been this bad as to where i am scared of how i am going to feed my child for nearly a week and i really have no idea how to overcome this. Any help would be appreciated, even just advice about what to do. I cannot walk any where near as far to go any citizens advice.

368

1

0.571429

1,524,745,951

21

4.465975

105

10.46

17.04

89.63

5.47

21

8.57

99.05

65.71

16.19

10.48

9.52

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0

5.71

0.95

17.14

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9.52

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5.71

1.9

6.67

0

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5.71

1.9

3.81

1.9

0

6.67

0

18.1

2.86

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0

1.9

0

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0

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6.67

1.9

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1.9

18.1

2.86

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1.9

0

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0

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1.9

0

1.9

0

2.6667

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3

1.125

1

1.72442

1.34694

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3

6.328302

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survivorsofabuse

93h321

[15, 20]

It was his birthday a few days. I wished him happy birthday because I still care. He texted me back saying I made his day. It ruined mine. Now that I texted him, that I opened that door again.

995

1

0.6

1,533,061,906

1

0.343846

39

1

60.13

88.5

73.64

7.8

7.69

100

61.54

43.59

30.77

17.95

0

12.82

0

12.82

2.56

0

2.56

10.26

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0

17.95

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0

2.56

20.51

0

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0

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0

12.82

5.13

0

25.64

0

7.69

20.51

0

2.56

0

15.38

12.82

2.56

0

3

2.75

3

1.3333

1.1429

1

1.69841

1.78333

2.01259

1

0

1.067385

0.2

homeless

94nlv7

[5, 10]

Physical abuse wise my dad had beat me several times, I never really understood that it was abuse until not that long ago, things like hitting my legs together what seemed like as hard as he could, hitting me on the face as hard as he could, threatening to choke me out, etc. it overall made me feel pretty disassociated, I just didn't really understand why though, my relationship with my parents became this extremely hollow thing that felt like an obligation rather than having genuine parents. as I got older from 10 on they became increasingly mentally abusive on top of it, at age 11 my dad found out that I'm trans by looking on my computer and screamed at me for an hour and threatened to hospitalize me (He didnt know mental hospitals wont hospitalize people for it, and might've ended up trying to put me into conversion therapy or something) this is around where my mental health completely snapped, going into 7th grade, hitting age 12, I started becoming extremely suicidal, I thought about hanging myself at school or stabbing myself, it became too much to bear, not being able to be openly trans, being beaten, feeling on edge non stop, feeling completely invalidated to the core of who I am as a person. I became morbidly depressed and stayed that way from then on.

993

1

0.571429

1,533,426,863

12

18.807697

228

44.7

11.82

99

2.51

57

20.18

90.35

56.14

19.74

12.28

10.53

0

1.32

0.44

7.46

2.19

17.98

7.02

6.58

2.63

17.11

7.02

5.26

1.75

1.32

0.88

4.39

0.88

3.51

0.88

2.63

0.44

6.14

1.75

0

2.19

18.42

7.46

0.88

1.32

3.51

2.19

4.82

3.95

0.44

2.63

3.95

0.88

3.07

0

7.89

2.19

3.95

0.44

1.32

8.33

3.07

1.32

16.23

1.75

9.65

5.26

1.32

0.44

0

0.44

0

11.84

1.75

7.89

0

1.32

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0

2.8462

2.6923

3

1

1.79492

1.58922

1.88653

0.84

16

16.672597

0.068333

anxiety

7xd6o7

[5, 10]

Anyway, long story short, he came over, we had a blast, we had dinner, watched a movie, cuddled, and he fell asleep on me. Four nights later the same thing happened :-) On our second date he told me he had anxiety issues and I just tried to listen to him. He's Spanish so English is his second language, which probably doesn't help his anxiety when talking to an American. Last night he came over and he told me had anxiety and depression issues and he's seeing a doctor.

1,106

0

1

1,518,560,228

12

3.304533

88

18.69

98.8

2.4

1

22

14.77

93.18

54.55

22.73

20.45

4.55

3.41

0

12.5

0

2.27

5.68

7.95

9.09

5.68

7.95

1.14

21.59

4.55

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3.41

0

4.55

0

4.55

3.41

0

1.14

25

0

1.14

0

12.5

1.14

0

1.14

0

3.41

2.27

1.14

0

3.41

1.14

0

1.14

10.23

5.68

1.14

4.55

0

13.64

5.68

0

17.05

3.41

6.82

1.14

0

1.14

0

1.14

20.45

4.55

9.09

1.14

0

1.14

0

3.41

1.14

0

2.6

2.8889

3

1

1.1818

1

1.7738

1.73415

1.77904

1

4

4.40669

0.040909

domesticviolence

7de7zs

(5, 10)

Sunday (the 5th) she went outside to drink her margarita, and our 4 year old followed her (she'd been ignoring us all day). I went to help my 5 year old when she called me into the bathroom. A few minutes later, I head up to check on them, and I'm attacked with the accusation that I've locked them out of the house, that i"m crazy, how could I do this? Etc. The front door sticks, for what it's worth.

26,890

0

0.6

1,510,855,754

25

2.84

81

45.11

73.14

79.42

1

16.2

9.88

88.89

56.79

27.16

20.99

9.88

2.47

0

6.17

2.47

6.17

7.41

13.58

8.64

2.47

4.94

0

14.81

3.7

1.23

3.7

2.47

3.7

0

3.7

0

1.23

0

13.58

0

6.17

0

3.7

0

1.23

0

1.23

0

3.7

1.23

0

2.47

6.17

3.7

0

3.7

0

6.17

4.94

0

23.46

3.7

8.64

11.11

0

3.7

1.23

0

24.69

4.94

7.41

0

1.23

0

1.23

4.94

0

2.6667

2.8889

3

1

1.1429

1

1.69747

1.66471

1.83938

1

9

3.777143

-0.042857

anxiety

5mdp79

(10, 15)

The first six months I had her she lived in a cage that could have fit two rats, the next year and a half she lived in a cage that could have fit four rats (this is following the formula where you multiply the dimensions of the cage in inches and divide it by 3456. The result tells you how many rats you can comfortably have in one cage.) I loved buying her new toys and treats and seeing how she took them. Trying new foods on her was one of my favorite things to do. The only issue is that I didn't really let her out of the cage much.

43,261

0

1

1,483,711,212

11

4.2325

111

46.8

79.13

10.62

75.85

22.2

5.41

87.39

58.56

18.92

13.51

3.6

0

2.7

6.31

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5.41

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0

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1.8

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0

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3

2.75

3

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1

1.74009

1.56

1.92427

0.93

2

4.6625

0.228504

survivorsofabuse

7uhn87

(44, 49)

Each insult he roared, each that lie he told, and each bone that he almost broke became a brick of foundation boosting her will. She greatly missed the boy she fell in love with, but after years of torment and suffering she grew sick of her own lies. She hated the person she had become, and she was shocked to learn the number of years she wasted on him. So on an insignificant, sweltering day in July, she broke free of that little world they created, and finally rejoined the real one. Edit: typo

7,611

0

1

1,517,477,812

9

7.711915

94

68.3

97.81

1

18.8

11.7

86.17

51.06

19.15

15.96

0

14.89

1.06

3.19

6.38

12.77

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0

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12.77

3.19

9.57

0

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4.26

21.28

0

10.64

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1.06

0

1.06

0

1.06

0

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1.06

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1.06

0

11.7

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3.19

0

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0

12.77

4.26

7.45

1.06

0

3

2.6364

3

1

1.1429

1

1.75638

1.6875

1.7476

0.92

0

7.433489

-0.018344

ptsd

772wwd

[0, 5]

First post here, using a throwaway because for some reason I just don't want my regular reddit account attached, despite being fairly open about the fact I was raped. But I digress. In February of this year, I was raped by my (now ex) boyfriend, who also happened to be the only person I've ever had sex with. I was diagnosed with PTSD in September. The rape has flipped my life entirely upside down, and there isn't an hour that goes by where my mind doesn't screw me over with either thoughts of the rape itself or simply just HIM.

178

1

0.8

1,508,286,302

6

8.081731

100

37.39

6.7

96.63

1

20

15

93

61

16

12

11

0

1

0

4

6

15

11

5

3

16

2

1

2

1

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5

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3

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5

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1

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1

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16

5

0

4

2

0

2.8333

2.625

3

1.2857

1

1.669

1.48642

1.87708

0.88

6

7.725846

0.013492

ptsd

9nc98u

[25, 30]

And I don't even remember. Please help me. He says it's ok and he forgives me. But it's NOT OKAY. my diagnoses and the symptoms of it is never an excuse to hurt the ones I love.

466

1

0.8

1,539,280,644

45

-2.082667

37

2.25

20.87

71.04

99

7.4

10.81

97.3

64.86

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18.92

13.51

0

5.41

0

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0

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2.7

0

2.7

0

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0

5.41

0

21.62

13.51

0

8.11

0

3

2.8889

2.6

1.125

1

1.72418

1.4375

1.90072

1

23

1.17

0.175

anxiety

8y522q

[10, 15]

This even negatively impacts me more because it causes me relationship anxiety, every time I have a freak out about travelling I start getting intrusive thoughts like "what if I get there and realize I don't love him or I'm not attracted to him" or when he sends me a text that makes me happy my anxiety creeps in saying that I'm secretly forcing any positive feelings I have for him. I know these are linked to my travel anxiety because they only pop up AFTER I've had a moment of freaking out thinking about the travel. Whenever we Skype, just talking to him feels like home, and talking about the upcoming trip feels just exciting, not nerve-wracking. This SUCKS, we're booking plane tickets next Wednesday and half of me is ecstatic but the anxious half of me is dreading it. I need to figure out how to calm all this anticipatory anxiety so I can just let myself enjoy my relationship, the excitement leading up to our trip, and even the trip itself (although I feel like once I'm there I'll be fine)!

1,064

1

0.6

1,531,355,642

2

9.008854

185

18.65

16.53

95.76

35.2

37

20.54

94.59

59.46

23.24

17.84

12.97

1.62

0

2.7

0.54

5.41

4.32

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0

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0

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0

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0

8.11

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1.08

12.97

3.78

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1.62

0

12.97

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0

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3.78

1.08

0

3

1

1.125

1

1.79461

1.54717

1.92862

1

7

9.139375

0.122798

relationships

7teiv7

[20, 25]

He wants me to study abroad in Europe after undergrad, then return and work for the government in economics. I don't mind the Europe part, but I have zero interest in working for the government and am absolutely shit at economics and I've told him so. No matter how many times I express my lack of interest, qualification, or skill at economics, he ignores me and continues to push this path. It wasn't like this was something he's pushed on me my whole life - it's like he came up with this plan for me when I turned 18, and now is obsessed with it. I really don't know what to do.

1,524

1

0.8

1,517,077,607

64

6.797692

111

21.53

10.38

75.94

13.56

22.2

14.41

93.69

63.06

22.52

15.32

10.81

0

4.5

0

7.21

2.7

17.12

9.91

5.41

9.91

3.6

18.92

0.9

2.7

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2.7

4.5

1.8

2.7

0.9

0

6.31

0

4.5

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0.9

7.21

0

3.6

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0

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0

0.9

0

16.22

4.5

5.41

0

0.9

0

5.41

0

2.8333

2.7143

3

1

1.1429

1

1.70647

1.538

1.83134

0.88

21

7.647479

0.066667

relationships

7rsota

[0, 5]

I need some advice here. I'm not sure if my insecurities have run wild or if I'm justified in thinking my boyfriend is being out of line. He met this girl through friends who set them up and for their first date they went jogging. Weird, I know, but it's her hobby and he wanted to get into it. They'd never met before this.

325

1

0.5

1,516,478,372

125

0.413235

64

7.54

62.28

88.24

7.63

12.8

10.94

95.31

60.94

28.12

20.31

9.38

0

4.69

6.25

7.81

0

14.06

10.94

3.12

9.38

3.12

25

3.12

1.56

4.69

1.56

3.12

1.56

0

23.44

0

4.69

3.12

4.69

20.31

4.69

1.56

6.25

3.12

7.81

0

12.5

6.25

1.56

3.12

1.56

0

6.25

14.06

0

17.19

4.69

6.25

0

3.12

0

17.19

7.81

3.12

0

6.25

0

2.625

2.75

3

1.125

1

1.6832

1.47

1.89548

0.83

76

2.127941

0

homeless

72p2on

[24, 29]

Do some sort of entertainment such as playing music or the like(busking). 5. Other? Side Question: Any advice for being able to properly discern legitimate homeless people and "fake" homeless? Thanks for your time and I hope your situation improves.

1,052

0

1

1,506,476,051

6

5.094893

41

77.86

83.54

14.43

99

8.2

26.83

87.8

41.46

9.76

7.32

2.44

0

4.88

0

2.44

14.63

4.88

2.44

9.76

0

12.2

4.88

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12.2

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12.2

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2.44

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0

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4.88

0

2.44

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7.32

0

24.39

7.32

0

2.44

0

4.88

0

4.88

0

4.88

0

3

1.2

1.2727

1

1.79552

1.55

1.91644

0.75

5

5.223571

0.0125

ptsd

7lg1vq

[2, 7]

I am more than my pain and I deserve that. LSD has helped me realize this. Don’t just take this willy nilly, it takes a lot of mental preparation. But the fact that I am doing more self evaluation and healing now than I have in years of therapy or whatever medication they said would make me “better” is incredible. Discuss?

1,714

0

0.6

1,513,929,357

15

4.217742

61

13.31

9.5

72.51

56.75

12.2

16.39

95.08

57.38

22.95

13.11

11.48

0

1.64

9.84

3.28

8.2

13.11

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6.56

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24.59

11.48

8.2

1.64

0

4.92

3.28

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0

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3.28

1.64

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1.64

6.56

0

6.56

0

4.92

0

1.64

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4.92

0

3.28

18.03

1.64

4.92

0

1.64

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14.75

6.56

1.64

0

1.64

0

3.28

1.64

0

2.7

2.6364

2.8

1

1.75597

1.41154

1.90216

0.83

6

5.613742

0.46

ptsd

9kdy7c

(0, 5)

Sit or lie comfortably, quietly. Allow yourself to be here fully in this moment. With your eyes closed, begin to connect with your inner world of thought and feeling. Gradually let the horseshit of the external world fade from your awareness. If you find your mind wandering to other thoughts, don’t let it concern you.

11,627

0

1

1,538,375,243

6

5.785536

55

61.63

94.9

95.06

60.23

11

23.64

89.09

54.55

18.18

12.73

0

12.73

0

5.45

3.64

16.36

7.27

3.64

5.45

1.82

18.18

0

1.82

0

12.73

0

16.36

9.09

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3.64

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3.64

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1.82

0

1.82

0

9.09

0

18.18

0

12.73

5.45

0

1.82

0

16.36

9.09

5.45

0

1.82

0

3

2.4286

3

1.1429

1

1.57354

1.53191

1.88585

1

2

5.424429

-0.045

relationships

7nuagn

[15, 20]

At the same time, I’ve been going crazy because if I’m not thinking about something else I’m thinking about him and various kink related acts. This isn’t anything I’ve actually experienced before (hell, I still don’t get attraction), so I’m confused. My issue is, he’s going back overseas for uni in a couple of days, and we’ll be seeing each other (in our larger group) tomorrow. Should I bring something up? Should I just leave it?

2,075

1

0.8

1,514,981,949

2

6.131647

76

2.24

7.4

99

2.51

15.2

18.42

93.42

61.84

25

17.11

11.84

2.63

0

2.63

0

7.89

2.63

11.84

18.42

9.21

6.58

3.95

28.95

6.58

5.26

0

5.26

1.32

3.95

1.32

0

7.89

0

2.63

21.05

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1.32

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6.58

0

7.89

2.63

1.32

0

7.89

3.95

0

2.63

1.32

0

1.32

17.11

5.26

19.74

5.26

7.89

0

1.32

0

1.32

0

30.26

3.95

6.58

0

2.63

0

11.84

5.26

0

2.8

2.9

2.8

1

1.1818

1

1.69966

1.58095

1.83154

1

2

7.004706

-0.036111

homeless

81e6kv

[3, 8]

If the homeless who choose this life are happy or do it for fun, please let them be. & what harm to the rest ? Would it be such a bad thing if anyone could choose to live happily freely without care without social constraints constrictions impositions restrictions that the greedy powerful adults impose on the rest Pray look at our adults mess the environmental & other species demise &degradation of this world. humans have created in the busy-ness of work in the aftermath of technologies the debris providing us with more & more useless commodities Why not allow a few homeless dwellers to remind us of the simplicity the less is more in living life. Let the homeless who choose be as free as the birds without worry for the morrow or live carefree as the little children, said the jewish guy who supposedly died on the cross

242

0

0.571429

1,519,997,262

8

12.35105

146

92.15

65.96

9.17

37.91

29.2

17.81

88.36

51.37

10.96

2.74

0

2.05

0

0.68

8.22

12.33

15.07

7.53

2.05

4.79

2.74

14.38

8.22

4.79

3.42

0

3.42

11.64

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10.96

0

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0

0.68

13.01

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4.11

0

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0

3.42

0

3.42

0

10.96

2.74

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0.68

0

1.37

0

7.53

2.05

1.37

0

0.68

0

0.68

0

2.74

3

2.875

3

1

1.7642

1.48704

1.84412

0.99

11

10.306849

0.092947

ptsd

5mkgo2

(5, 10)

I don't think the users there are harsh from what I saw but I think the whole atmosphere they are preserving there (I think the moderators encourage it) is kinda unhelpful to be honest...and I think the moderators there are shady and harsh. I think some of the resources are good but I just mean the forum. I'm scared to post this here but I don't know where else would be good to ask so I'm taking the risk. It's just that they both seem to be such prominent forums for vulnerable people. So I just wanted to know if anyone else had similar thoughts about them?

49,039

0

0.8

1,483,795,451

2

2.809912

108

10.63

13.32

74.76

13.28

21.6

10.19

92.59

60.19

18.52

12.96

10.19

0

2.78

5.56

6.48

8.33

13.89

11.11

7.41

1.85

25.93

4.63

0.93

1.85

0

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8.33

3.7

4.63

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6.48

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19.44

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5.56

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0

6.48

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21.3

0

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0.93

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0.93

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13.89

6.48

0

0.93

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4.63

1.85

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2.75

2.625

3

1.2

1

1.63945

1.29787

1.87778

1

2

3.749743

0.057955

survivorsofabuse

86rsm2

[5, 10]

For the rest of the 7 years, I’ve received different forms of violent punishments. I don’t want to get into it but they involved sharp objects, attempts to drown me, paddling, etc. I was generally OK growing up, didn’t think about the abuse a lot, but friends started noticing strange behaviors and phobias that I cannot hide. Now at 30 years old I went to a therapist. I found out that my behaviors are probably caused by suppressing my memories and not finding proper closure from the incident because it’s as if I’m still taking the blame for an abuse that was done to me.

753

1

0.6

1,521,879,577

6

6.01749

105

56.83

5.29

99

1

21

23.81

91.43

56.19

16.19

11.43

10.48

0

0.95

4.76

7.62

15.24

9.52

4.76

6.67

3.81

18.1

3.81

1.9

0

1.9

0.95

7.62

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6.67

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4.76

0

4.76

0

0.95

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18.1

5.71

1.9

3.81

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1.9

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1.9

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6.67

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6.67

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7.62

0

0.95

0

0.95

0

15.24

4.76

5.71

0

4.76

0

2.75

2.6667

3

1

1.74026

1.49383

1.79936

1

3

6.433925

-0.053571

ptsd

9w0qju

(25, 30)

But my brain defaulted into my stoned embarrassment. Just having this idea people hate me when they don’t, missing my dad and punishing myself for not being able to help my dad through his alcoholism. Not that he deserves it. He’s dug his own grave and done things I won’t mention in this post. But raping my mom was one of those.

2,805

1

1,541,907,735

7

4.127385

62

1.8

25.93

49.78

1

12.4

12.9

93.55

62.9

30.65

20.97

12.9

0

6.45

1.61

9.68

0

9.68

11.29

3.23

8.06

6.45

14.52

0

1.61

0

9.68

0

9.68

1.61

4.84

3.23

19.35

4.84

0

1.61

9.68

8.06

1.61

0

6.45

0

4.84

1.61

4.84

1.61

3.23

0

3.23

4.84

1.61

6.45

0

3.23

1.61

0

3.23

0

1.61

0

14.52

8.06

1.61

0

4.84

0

2.5833

2.8889

3

1

1.125

1

1.7149

1.60377

1.84823

0.9

1

4.547692

0.025

homeless

6rxmy3

[15, 20]

Don't have a bus pass or anything unfortunately. The question is...where? I haven't seen any homeless shelters near me, much less ones for women. I currently have no job. Nothing.

1,434

1

0.8

1,502,014,359

10

1.994545

31

14.22

1.25

96.96

1.23

6.2

22.58

90.32

54.84

12.9

9.68

0

3.23

6.45

16.13

3.23

12.9

22.58

3.23

0

9.68

3.23

0

3.23

0

6.45

0

3.23

0

19.35

3.23

0

12.9

3.23

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3.23

0

3.23

0

3.23

0

3.23

22.58

0

12.9

3.23

6.45

3.23

0

35.48

22.58

3.23

0

3.23

0

6.45

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relationships

7o1bnf

[5, 10]

He is (objectively) pretty unlikable- only talks about himself when speaking to you- but you know, I try to see the best in people and ignored it when I talk to him. He claims he is bisexual. He introduced me to his lab partner, my current girlfriend, and I asked him if he was interested before pursuing her. He stated clearly no. Fast forward three months, it is winter break, and they are hanging out a bit frequently.

1,565

0

0.6

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6.121026

0.214286

homeless

7x25l0

(3, 8)

The cheap hotels aren't really any cheaper than the least expensive studios on ABB. Also, we "slept" in the car one night to save a little money and that wasn't so bad but we've got luggage in the car so there isn't much room. I'm also looking for a cheap storage that we could use for the bulk of our luggage while we transition to a permanent place. Any thoughts/ideas would be helpful! Thank you

53,692

0

1

1,518,454,931

7

2.730529

76

48.42

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anxiety

6dspim

[20, 25]

I just told them I had too much anxiety and breaking up with my boyfriend made me really depressed. And that I didn't know what I'm going to do, maybe I'll find a job. So now I just stay home and go on my computer all day. I leave the house maybe twice a week. I have constant feelings about being useless and that I'd be better off dead.

80

1

1,495,958,309

2

2.903425

69

4.06

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1.83

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5.8

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0

14.49

7.25

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5.8

0

2.8333

2.8

3

1

1.125

1

1.72547

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1.92569

0.76

2

4.167014

0.033333

relationships

7p50wi

(0, 5)

So let’s say I like person b [16F] and recently went on a date with her. Person b [16F] tells me that my best friend is telling his girlfriend (who is person b’s best friend) everything that me, person c[16M] (our best friend as well), and other boyfriend discuss as a group of really tight friends. And I mean everything. Person b doesn’t want me to say anything, but should I confront other boyfriend, tell friend c, or just shrug it off? **TL;DR** Us three guys have been friends for three years now and met these girls about 6 months ago; what should I do?

45,886

0

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1

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survivorsofabuse

8nw31p

(5, 10)

We feel this is where it matters most. We think this can be great as a quick screening process for those who are switching to a team at work, meeting a Tinder date, or just within your social circles. We understand that moderation of false reports is a problem we'd need to solve, and think that perhaps we can “checkmark” reviews that have supplied references or evidence. Please give us your thoughts. We understand this is a controversial idea.

15,644

0

1

1,527,892,268

1

6.372792

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29.97

99

36.87

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3

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relationships

7o4we7

(5, 10)

I have known her for several years and we are somewhat close but not "best friends". She confided in me that her brother died and I want to be there for her in any way that I can. I currently live 5+ hrs away from where she lives so I can't physically be there for her. Are there any sayings that I should avoid or use? What helped you after the loss of a loved one?

40,193

0

0.8

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4

2.219231

76

14.15

55.22

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25

19.74

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1

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survivorsofabuse

87o4yl

(0, 5)

I went to therapy today, after my therapist returned from her three week vacation. She is great, but I had an experience that I am not sure about. At one point we were discussing my relationship with my worker. From what she said after, she is worried I do not trust him, and is worried that I therefore do not trust her. But how she phrased this thought was with the question "are you trustworthy".

54,994

0

0.8

1,522,201,588

4

5.7892

75

8.19

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15

18.67

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28

22.67

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1

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survivorsofabuse

7xjqeo

[9, 14]

He purposely said the most hurtful things to me during our break up to make himself feel better. And one of the worst things of all, like I mentioned earlier, he sexually assaulted and that also happened when he knew we were breaking up. Knowing how terrible of a person he is that some people have even told me he is a narcissist or sociopath, I don't know why I still think I should have just stayed, why I should have just seen if he could change despite how he never tried to change throughout our years together. I just want to stop myself from thinking this way and fully move on and have myself realize I am so much better off, and I even try to remind myself of all the bad things he has done but it seems that lingering thought of, "Well, was it ever that bad?" keeps returning.

309

1

0.571429

1,518,629,791

5

13.017843

152

10.38

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survivorsofabuse

9md6qz

(80, 85)

Three months of this and talking with the one friend whom I could call for free between 9pm and 6AM due to AT&T's GoPhone policies whenever I could get away with it, or texting on a Nokia Tracphone (the ancient indestructible brick phone), and my sister lashing out at me about being ungrateful that they allowed me to come over and use the internet, triggered by my snapping back due to, something, I can't remember, and I just, stopped asking. Ended up losing contact with everyone but the one friend I could talk to maybe, once or twice a week for a couple hours. She'd try to keep me apprised of stuff going on with folks, and those phonecalls ended up bring the spark that bloomed into us being a couple, but... It wasn't enough. The same negativity, the same feelings of selfhatred, of self-disgust, of ***believing*** everything my father had dumped on me slowly took over.

26,496

1

1,538,988,585

1

7.708071

159

83.4

50

90.67

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3

1

1.1111

1

1.70616

1.58871

1.86754

1

0

7.037751

-0.01875

ptsd

9alwzf

[5, 10]

I went to hang with friends for a movie night and it was wonderful. But damn, I felt really inferior. My friends are branching off and doing amazing things, and I feel I’m in the corner just trying to make it through the day, constantly dealing with chronic pain, low immunity, and PTSD. I’ve been doing a lot of therapy work around traumas I have experienced as a child, and that’s been good but also really hard. I’m just having a rough time tonight.

1,334

1

1,535,343,080

4

6.531136

84

31.16

11.7

98.01

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17.86

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0

4.76

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17.86

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4.76

0

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3

1

1.0833

1

1.79216

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1

4

7.096727

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relationships

7ohllo

[13, 18]

The rare times we have fought in the past, I’ve always had to be the one to ‘break the ice,’ regardless of the circumstances of the argument. I don’t have it in me to go grovel for the comfort I sorely need. Now I’m just trying to cry myself asleep. What’s the point of having a partner if they can’t offer the most basic level of emotional support? Is the writing on the wall - is he just too immature, and how did this parent/child dynamic creep in to our relationship?

1,005

1

1,515,219,659

7

4.674063

91

77.57

62.91

34.95

4.02

18.2

12.09

92.31

61.54

14.29

10.99

6.59

2.2

0

1.1

3.3

13.19

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3.3

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20.88

5.49

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6.59

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2.2

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12.09

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6.59

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2.6667

3

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1.72255

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42

6.014583

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anxiety

6ply9z

(0, 5)

So earlier today I was suffering from extreme derealization, depression, and anxiety. So what I did is I let the thoughts free and whenever I got a tnhoguht I ignored it and I think I just suppressed my anxiety deep down. Now instead of having a panic attack I'm having body symptoms of it. I can't think myself form the symptoms. I can't find the trigger it just happened.

15,047

1

1,501,046,276

1

4.064167

69

6.22

1

99

1

13.8

24.64

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62.32

23.19

17.39

0

5.8

7.25

5.8

10.14

8.7

2.9

20.29

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1.45

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0

11.59

1.45

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2.9

0

11.59

5.8

1.45

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4.35

0

4.35

1.45

2.9

0

5.8

0

4.35

1.45

8.7

13.04

0

8.7

0

2.9

5.8

0

1.45

0

14.49

7.25

2.9

0

4.35

0

2.6

2.8

3

1

1.1429

1

1.78858

1.4623

1.81396

1

4

5.806667

0.023889

ptsd

7nh8xz

[20, 25]

Nothing He kicked the door 18-36-30 He kicked it again and until he was sure his foot would bruise Calm down

763

1

0.571429

1,514,837,235

1

0.014638

23

15.38

90.38

1

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23

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3

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1.57794

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1.69771

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0

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stress

8b9j8h

(0, 5)

Hello, You are invited to complete a survey for a WMU psychology department research project designed to assess treatment preferences among adults seeking treatment for a variety of concerns. We hope to learn if and how preferences for treatment change over time, and if patient’s perception of their treatment’s match to their preferences is related to the benefit received from treatment. The survey is open to anyone ages 18 or older who is currently engaged in mental health treatment for at least one month and four therapy sessions, and not longer than one year. If you choose to participate, you will be asked to provide some demographic/background information, respond to survey items about your preferences for treatment and how they have changed over time, and about your quality of life. The survey may take between 30-40 minutes to complete.

6,319

0

1

1,523,381,550

1

15.991818

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91.34

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2.6667

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1.70118

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1.86595

1

0

13.057706

-0.004167

anxiety

8xxcr2

(10, 15)

I can't begin to summarise how I feel about her. I want to spend the rest of my life with this person, but I want to help work through this stuff together. Once she goes into an anxiety spiral I'm completely at a loss of what to do apart from hold her and stroke her hair. What strategies can help break the spiral when she starts one, and how can I approach the topic of seeing a counsellor and developing mindfulness strategies without her going into a panic attack? Help me /r/anxiety, you're my only hope.

31,181

1

0.6

1,531,291,738

1

4.788357

97

52.61

45.88

54.32

1

19.4

13.4

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0

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2.06

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2.06

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1.03

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13.4

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3

2.8889

3

1

1.1429

1

1.79016

1.54074

1.85449

1

0

5.557429

0.05

ptsd

70qarf

(5, 10)

I went there on autopilot, I was blank inside and I was ready to jump. My counsellor saw me through the window and called me on the phone, trying to distract me so she could send help over to me. Campus was pretty much empty, everyone in exams or already finished for the summer and I felt at peace. I was gently talked away from the edge by campus security and they took me to see my counsellor. I havent seen her since this happened and Im due back at uni next week.

22,969

1

0.6

1,505,682,678

3

2.09283

93

56.3

25.93

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assistance

8o4qi3

[3, 8]

Any help would be appreciated, after this coming paycheck everything should be ok. Prices <url> Daily - $4 7 day - $25 31 day - $62

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survivorsofabuse

7z49tw

(10, 15)

Some examples: spit on me randomly in the eye doctor's office, giggled and strolled off when I looked up at him in horror. We had some verbal exchange in the hallway and he slapped me so hard I couldn't feel the tear roll down my cheek my face was so numb, he pinned me to the floor one day and savagely beat me for at least 7 minutes straight for what reason i forget, after he was done beating me up he would punch in the back of the head repeatedly, this gave me headaches and i saw flashes with each blow. And he would often have a gleeful look on his face after he was done. For the longest I didn't know this was abuse, nor did I know I had developed all of these poor coping mechanisms to deal with being abused. He ruined my life without me even being aware.

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survivorsofabuse

6bh9ht

[50, 55]

He would distract me while I drove us places, until at one point, I backed into a parked truck, and I had never been the cause of an accident before. After that, I was not allowed to drive my own car. I was not allowed to drive my own car at all after that, unless I found the keys and snuck away, which was oftentimes very difficult. The summer of 2010, he forced me to move in with him, into a terrible run down duplex off campus, so that he could keep his mother’s pair of small, under socialized dogs who were not housebroken, and his sister, who was, with her husband, to begin college classes at this same university that fall, foisted her hyper 40 pound mutt on top of the burden as well. I will not lie, and say I am the cleanest person on earth.

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relationships

7thrz3

(23, 28)

EDIT: I should also mention that when I do fall asleep, I snore REALLY loudly and I can hear myself in my sleep. My boyfriend says that it sounds like I'm not breathing or trying to breathe. --- **tl;dr**: I can't stay awake during tv/movies! Don't want it to drive a wedge between my boyfriend and I.

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survivorsofabuse

998q0r

(5, 10)

The current study explores the experience of young adults aged 18 - 40 years who have previously been in foster care or had involvement with the Department of Child Safety/Protection and remained with their biological family. If you have a spare 10 - 25 minutes and are willing to participate it would be greatly appreciated. Please click on the link below for more information around how the process works and how your confidentiality will be protected. Thank you kindly for your assistance, as your experience will be valuable in guiding research and clinical interventions for those in the foster care system. <url>

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