Prepare to write a book Laureli. You are a gifted writer. Keep a copy of all of your published works. And then one day you'll say: I'm ready. Then maybe someday too you will have a Pulitzer Prize medallion on your desk the same as I do.
There are perhaps thousands who feel the same as you. I am one of those who was punished for speaking Inupiaq on my first day of school in Shaktoolik. I don't recall the first grade, second grade, and the third grade.