Actually I said my personal attitude/values  is/are very, very left-left but that I live my life just to the left of center - pretty much. Most people do not agree with me so finding a place in the world AS IT IS requires a fair amount of jockeying around on my part.
(I do think we have to live in the world as it is and I don't believe in utopias, golden ages, or the like )
Socialism is not necessarily authoritarian, communism is. Fascism can occur on the right or left.
I had hoped you would go look at the links- especially this one :
https://www.politicalcompass.org/analysis2
to see some of what I was saying because there is no simple way to lay it all out and then say what I think in relation to it all.
I appreciate your questions and basic civility
 I do know what is up and down- for real:-)
I'm also fully aware I am on the fringe of the left