Do you believe you have found that gate?      And yes, we're talking metaphysical gates.    

I'm not a fan of finding barriers between God(Love)  and Human (brokenness/separation).    And yes, I grew up in the church, was an alter-boy at an Episcopal church, attended a Quaker College, 25 years of scattered attendance then a returned to a Reformed Church of America.    I have read the bible from cover to cover on my own.    Like the Quaker's that I met, I prefer silence to preaching, am a pacifist, and believe the spirit provides 'light,' a way to "see".   While the spiritual journey may seem lonely to some, Quakers also believe in community as an outgrowth of the spirit.

I'm happy that you have found a context and methodology that moves you closer to our core.   Best wishes.