-45F for a month in 2012.  All the beams in my house contracted and split, sounded like a truck hit my house.  No matter how great you think you are AkJen, there are always people who have done greater things than you.  Do us all a favor and go get the counseling and medications you need in order to function with the rest of us.  Might I suggest some strong anti-depressants and anti-anxiety medication?