I'm not sure if you are slurring or texting and driving. Hopefully not both. Either way, you seem unfocused and maybe there's a concern you should get help if this affects your job performance? I'm curious. Is your continued employment just to get a paycheck and retirement? Was there any scrap of public service to your fellow citizens that survived the cynical breakup between you and the rest of us? Most people aren't anti police, they are anti bad cop. How exactly to you perceive your role in society?  How do you think you perform to your own employment standards?