You are also afraid of most modern understandings of just about anything.  People who are "afraid" of everything----are not 'saved, holy, or happy."  


There were many people whose ideas were considered 'dangerous'----like Thomas Aquinas---who was almost excommunicated by the Bishop of Paris.  Time has proven some of these 'dangerous people' to be quite correct.

You really don't understand the Female Doctors of the Church and their 'relationship' with God---Jesus.  "Whatever your reading material, your theological constructs are just left of "whoopee".  I have a wide variety of theological and spiritual reading, which is better than the BORING stuff that you are trying to peddle on this site.  God is not boring!  God changes all things and brings about change----so that we don't become boring, staid, and BLAH!