These members of the church focus on the teachings of intolerance of the church. 
They don't understand that every person has God within us also known as our oneness or true self. But many don't develop a relationship with God and stay in their false self because they are not interested in God's Will but their own will.
We find God by our Love and Kindness, not hate using threats and violence.
I think you have found your true self because God was leading you away from the church of intolerance.