Thank you, Julia. And Shannon, I know what you feel. I call it "the wilderness calm". It    comes from the heart and fills the soul. 
The wolf was sent to you as a sign. I, too, have seen the signs.  Something unexpected just when you need it: a lynx, a pair of swans , a lone yellow dandelion or perhaps just a sincere smile from a stranger in a store. 
I may be just a crazy old guy but I have experienced the nearness of nature. I wish everyone could. Alas, most just don't . "They have eyes but they do not see. They have ears but they do not hear."