And you have kept me ever aware of what our victims go through, of how the institutional Church perpetuates it even in its sincere desires to help, but are so blind and insulated in many ways, it never seems capable of doing what it says it will.  For the most part, I think this is not because of a lack of desire to help, but an institution that is geared to thwart its own efforts.  So Danno my admirable friend, leave all of this sickness and failure and lack of submission to the Holy Spirit behind...you are a temple of God and all good graces heaven has to offer, and move to that better place, one of psychological and spiritual rest and comfort.  That is where you really find Christ.  The Church could never pay its victims enough,  and will always pay too little, take what they give and be done with it, without anger or the expectation of more.  The payment will set you free from the matter, to keep rattling the chancery doors keeps you captive.  I keep you in my prayers each day.