You're just like a homeless person, recoveringhomeroid.  You leech off of the world and pretend that you earned it.  Did you manufacture your car, the bus you ride, your bike.  Did you mine the metals and oils that make up your computer? If not, then you are leeching off of the good will of others. You fantasize that you created your own conditions.  It's ok to be a leech. We are all leeches. Welcome to the happy leech family of being human.