We share your pain, Wichard. We see you going through the extreme discomfiture at the death of your party: Remember, the 5 stages of grief and loss are: 1. Denial and isolation; 2. Anger; 3. Bargaining; 4. Depression; and, finally, 5. Acceptance. 

Please know that things can possibly improve with time. Try driving down the Seward highway, park at Beluga Point and watch the calming waters of Turnagain arm. Pack a thermos of chamomile tea. Take a friend, if that helps you to restrain yourself from jumping off the cliff. Maybe you'll get to see a pod of white whales.