Were your god to exist, he would necessarily be declared a sadist. Your knowledge of the historical Jesus is doubtful and your claim of him loving someone is laughable. People don't need Jesus's or any other dead person's love. They need the love of their fellow humans and not the imaginary love of some dead person from history. Jesus not only doesn't love you because he died in 30/33 A.D. but were he magically able to resurrect himself and return to 2017, from everything I've read in the Bible he stood for, he'd likely call you an asshole.