Dear 46,
The unknown author of The Cloud of Unknowing writes:  “This foul, wretched lump called sin is none other than yourself and though you do not consider it in detail, you understand now that it is part and parcel of your very being and something that separates you from God.  And so reject the thought and experience of all created things but most especially learn to forget yourself…“.  
Of course, you are free to enjoy and defend your ego!
But think what you are insisting your tiny ego instead your being rooted in God, who is infinite transcending all good. 
"God is your being"  The Cloud