Don’t Waste It

I needed to share this link somewhere, so I can revisit it, but perhaps someday someone else will need it too:

Will my Soul Bleed dry?

There just aren’t words for this. This terribly private grief. This awkward pain that flares out like flash-fire every time another friend makes that beautiful announcement and you desperately want to feel ONLY happy for them, but instead the agony you try to live with quietly rises so sharply that it sucks out all the air, and you’re afraid it might obliterate you and everyone else in the room. Or possibly on the block. Or the planet.

There aren’t words for an ache this big.