Thursday, July 26, 2012


I recently received this letter from a reader and sent her a short reply, but after re-considering, I thought that I would be remiss if I didn't elaborate on this subject, because what is troubling her, also in one form or another, has troubled others.

I'm giving u a lil brief about my problem below (hoping u can help me understand it better)
 I am a 31 year single woman from India and was living a perfectly normal life working in a corporate firm as a motivational behavioral trainer, life was going fine and I use to be a bubbly lively and extremely cheerful person, lived life to the fullest (sometimes overdid it though) ... at times, maybe that's what I liked to believe as I come from a broken home and did not have the most pleasant childhood..
Anyway so recently I went to Canada for a 3 week visit and came back to join work ... just the day after that my world crumbled ... As soon after (just a day after my return) I felt woozy all over and as the doc calls it, got a crazy anxiety/panic attack I felt as if I'm dying, my body, my tongue my head all went numb ... this happened for 2 days continuously and the doc said its just coz of a stress and jet lag ... but THAT day has changed me, my life and my world ...
I suddenly feel that I'm dead or maybe my soul is somewhere else. I don't understand what's happened. I haven't joined back work and every day is a living hell. I have suddenly come to realize that life has no meaning, as it will all end anyway, everything feels temporary. We all grow up with the universal truth that all who live have to die, however I was ok with that fact until now, I feel I was living in denial; no amount of psychologists and psychiatrist have been able to help me. I don't understand why I feel like this, I'm just so helpless and scared.
I don't know if any of this will make sense to u but I'm still seeking....
 P.S - While I was sleeping one night when I was in Canada I got a vision that read, "end is near"(had brushed it off as a silly dream then)
Thank you for caring to read this .

Dear Anonymous,

As I always try to do, I want to emphasize that I am not a psychologist or psychiatrist and have no formal training along those lines. I do however have some insights that others may not have and that is precisely because of my lack of formal education in the above disciplines. Sometimes too much learned knowledge can dull the intellect, put up intellectual barriers and totally cut off intuitional information that originates in other dimensions that could possibly be of help.

Obviously something has happened in your life that has caused you some great distress. You have mentioned the fact that you were quite aware that everyone has to die at some point in their life and in the past this did not seem to bother you. It was just in recent times that this began to upset you so much and the (end is near) dream you mention just seemed to aggravate the situation. The anxiety attack and the physical effects that you experienced are the result of mental events, and sometimes these mental events can be difficult to decipher.

There are many things that trigger these non-physical mental events in your life that then, result in various physical responses to those mental events. In many cases, these mental triggers are hidden from your conscious attention so they are hard to discover and define.

Your temporal life is the result of what you think about your life. I know that sounds a little quaint, but it is true. Your life arises out of a bed of belief, thought, emotion, desire and expectation. Those mental qualities must always come first and the physical reality that follows is the result. Sometimes the mental state is the direct result of skewed conscious thought processes or discordant actions in your daily life and sometimes they seep into your life unbeknownst to you, from other sources beyond your present understanding.

I am not suggesting here that the following information I explain here is the cause of your difficulties, but to one extent or another, there are other factors that affect your lives other than those that are physically attained in your world. Remember there are other worlds that you unknowingly participate in and I will try to explain.

The reason that I wanted to give these explanations is to once again touch on and emphasize the existence of your personality in other dimensions. I have said before and it bears repeating, especially for those who are unfamiliar with articles written about the probable systems of reality, of which you are a part, whether you know it or not.

You are a multi-dimensional personality, having other unknown aspects of your personality that exist in other probable worlds and other probable universes. Scientists, who have any inkling that these worlds even exist, sometimes refer to them as parallel worlds. Either term will suffice here for our discussion.

You have been taught that you are the one and only you, that your world is the only one world capable of supporting intelligent life in one vast universe, conscious beings capable of abstract thought patterns and intelligible language, and no other exists. Of course, this is ridiculous.

It is my intention to explain another view of how this fact of your multi-dimension probable selves mental creations sometimes leap dimensions and cast their effects outside of their own dimensions and color events in your world, and of course, your mental acts do the same in theirs.

Every day of your life, you encounter a multitude of choices that you unconsciously make, choosing events that put together, you call your life. You make choices between what may seem trivial actions and some more important events, perhaps hundred or thousands of choices in any given day. Have you ever reconsidered, after having experienced an event that you consciously chose, that you wished you hadn't chosen that particular event to experience?

As an example, there are countless people who choose to get married, and there are also countless people, (approximately 50% in your world), that afterward choose to divorce. Most of those in hindsight, wished that they had made another choice than the one they finally decided upon. Have you ever wondered what would have happened if you had made one of the other choices that were available at the time?

Not to worry, because somewhere in another world or another dimension, a probable you made the choice that you did not make at the time. There is what you could call a moment in time when all events are probable, meaning no choices have yet been made and all possible events exist in psychic fact, some being more probable for actualization than others, but all still available for you to choose from.

The Soul creates other versions of itself in many worlds as personalities, who under the auspices of the Soul explore a variety of worlds and dimensions for the purpose of experiencing everything there is to be experienced. The Soul would not participate in a world where only a small fraction of available events would be experienced and the others cast aside into the trash heap of unused events. I don't particularly like this connotation, but when it comes to experience, the Soul is greedy and seeks experience in as many worlds through as many personalities as possible, yours being one. The others existing in probable worlds are also portions of your whole identity.

The Soul splinters off what could be called capsules of potential living conscious beings, portions of itself, selves in waiting so to speak, sending them into various reality systems of its choosing.

In that respect, there is some great discernment required, since the potential for development of these individual consciousneses must be taken into consideration when choosing an appropriate system that is not too advanced for the limitations of the soon to be conscious personalities.

Earth is a training system, in those terms and those who participate in Earth reality are in general, the newer emerging personalities, focusing in Earth reality as a learning experience through a series of reincarnational lives. More advanced systems come later in time terms as consciousness evolves.

These various personalities, other aspects of you, exist in other reality systems or other physical worlds, similar to yours, physical in nature, but not carbon copies of Earth by any means. Generally speaking, they will not look like you, may be of different gender, nationalities and races.

They follow the rules prevalent in their own reality systems, and those rules can vary considerably from your Earth rules. These other selves are your probable selves and they exist as surely, as you exist, and obviously, each of them consider themselves the prime personality and view their other probable relatives as the probable selves. You do the same, but to them, you are the probable self.

The prime self is prime only from the focus point of the personality in its own world, viewing the other selves as the probable selves.
There are strong psychic connections that exist between you and your probable selves and there are occasional anomalies, bleed throughs, or what could be described as psychic leakages, from one personality to another, from one dimension to the other. You experience similar kinds of leakages when your AM radio stations bleed into other AM frequencies on a stormy night.

In your dreams, you sometimes see and communicate with your probable selves and one probable personality can come to the aid of another in the dream state. Don't forget that they are involved in experiencing the events that you chose not to experience, so in a way, they have experience that could be of benefit to you in your daily life. You and your probable selves are alive in one time period to work on similar problems, to approach solutions from different angles, which is why all probable events will be experienced somewhere. No possible event goes unexplored.

All of your probable selves are not alive during the exact same time periods, since some are now being born and some are leaving their worlds through death, but generally, most will be alive at the same time, since they were given their independent lives at approximately the same time.

And finally I can come to the point to this article, that there are invisible, unseen and unknown sympathies that exist between you and your psychic cousins of these other dimensional worlds that can be felt, telepathic communications that can be sensed from one world to another when strong emotional content is involved.

Some people are more inclined toward sensing and recognizing these sympathies with other probable selves than others. In your case, because of the unexplained intensity of the feeling of death that you have experienced, it is entirely possible that you are experiencing an interdimensional crisis of some kind, perhaps even emotionally realizing the death of one of your probable (parallel) selves in another world.

Usually relationships with your other probable selves is not so directly experienced, but it is by no means impossible, and on a world-wide scale, happens quite often, usually unbeknownst to the person experiencing the strong emotional despondency which would accompany the death of a probable self.

Lastly, the same holds true with your other personality aspects, such as your present Earthly counterparts (soul-mates), alive on earth in your present time and your reincarnational selves who seem to have gone before. All still live, and there is unnoticed correspondence between all personality aspects across space and time. In a greater sense, you are still in contact with past reincarnational selves that died hundreds of years ago, and with a future self, who in your terms, has not yet been born on the physical planet.

It is true in physical terms, that everyone has to die, but it is also true, that everyone has to live, again. Every death resonates throughout the universe, but so does each new life rising out of the psychic remnants of that death. In that sense, it is impossible to really die. It is possible to exchange physical bodies, but the real you is eternal and indelible in time or out of time, and cannot be found within any physical body.

Sunday, July 8, 2012


I have heard that god is trying to teach you something when you are going thru difficult time in life. I was pregnant twice but lost both my babies. Once in 3 months and next time in 6 months. All I did in both pregnancies is to pray every minute. I just don't understand what is he trying to teach us?

This question comes up often as you might suspect, in one form or another, especially during difficult situations in your life. Always, my answer will be the same, but giving just a simple answer will not suffice for many who are hard to convince and demand more convincing truths. The problem is that you are so steeped in traditional religious dogma that it is hard to dislodge you from your present beliefs about the true nature of God, the universe, the world, your societies and their closely held beliefs and the nature of reality as it really is.

One of the hardest things I have to do is to convince you that the Earth system of reality is indeed a very young and quite undeveloped, un-evolved world, speaking in terms of the evolution of your consciousness as measured against the grander scale of universal knowledge, and other similar historical continuity systems such as yours. 

Earth is a learning system, a kindergarten for emerging consciousness. Some Personalities in your system are just beginning their journey, learning to hold their own in a new kind of reality focus. Because it is a training system for new consciousness, there will always be glaring errors of judgment, missteps taken, and many will seem bewildered by the challenges presented, especially in light of their lack of previous earthly experience manipulating physical objects and events.

It may seem like there are no answers available to you at any particular time, but rest assured that there are those watching that learn from your missteps as you struggle and learn. In the beginning systems such as Earth, there are of course the new entries, those thrust into the physical system for the first time, and for them, the experience can be overwhelming at times. They have not yet learned that there is help available should you seek it. No one is introduced to this or any other reality system unless they desire such experience. In other words, no one is forced to live.

Needless to say, in addition to the new personalities, struggling to get a foothold on their first life-venture, there are the more seasoned personalities, those who have lived in the earth system many times before and are either preparing to leave physical reality for good, or are present on the planet for the sole purpose to assist others. These are the ones, knowing them, or knowing of them, you would consider "old souls".

They have chosen for many reasons to return to earth and assist others. Some of these old souls, you know very well, maybe not under that exact connotation. Others will return to lend a hand to those who seek enlightenment, but their lives will be rather transparent and they will remain anonymous through their lifetime. Most of these teachers do not return again and again forever, but do so on a limited basis before moving on to other reality systems more fitting for their advanced abilities.

I know this may seem like a detour from the above question, but it is necessary to set the stage for the answer that will be given. Sometimes, taken at face value, some of the bad things that happen to you for no reason at all will find no valid explanation in the heart and may indeed seem like punishment for you or someone close to you, meted out by some unfair, angry and vengeful God for some unknown sin or misdeed.

It is only because you perceive so little of the entire picture of reality that confronts you and the invisible, supportive reality that underlies your physical system, and from which your physical world attains its presence in the universe, that on occasion, life just doesn't seem to make much sense. You sometimes make erroneous judgments about life and the events that touch you and that you must endure simply because you are unaware of the greater reality from which your world rises.

In answering questions such as the one above I must tiptoe around the subject matter being very light afoot and carefully scrutinize my words so as not to offend those who would not understand the true inference behind what I am saying. (Someone very close to me included.) This someone has indeed suffered much, but she doesn't understand the most intimate source of much of that suffering and how it manifests in her life, and at least up to now, doesn't want it explained to her since it may implicate her in the events of her life more deeply than she wants to admit at this time.

To those personalities who were further along in their journey, I could be a bit more straightforward because sensing the true reality behind my statement; they would not be offended and know that I offered only a chance for deeper understanding of life's difficult concepts.

For instance, if I say that you create your reality, and something dire has recently happened in your life, it does not necessarily mean that you purposely created some unfortunate event that happened to you or someone you loved.

In a more expansive vision, it may mean that there existed interactions between personalities in previous lives reactivated once again in this life by some remembered event, relieving tensions that had been waiting to be resolved for centuries. It could also mean that in the inner reality of which you are rather intellectually innocent of at this time, agreements were made for the precise reason that only a particular illness or calamity could rectify long-standing problems. In this case, the karmic opportunity to solve an existing challenge would offer a solution that may or may not be understood at the conscious level.

When I say that you create your reality, here is what I really mean:
1. Reality is the result of a coagulating effect of atomic structure, spurred and thrust into form of objects and events by your beliefs, thoughts and expectations. It means that when intensified units of consciousness are subjected to sufficient duration, they will result in the triumphant emergence of consciousness into a new kind of expression, physical reality.

2. This is the part that is sometimes misunderstood; the beliefs, thoughts, ideas, imagination and expectations, obviously are born in the physical brain and eventually emerge on the physical landscape. The brain, the nervous system, the glands and other cellular constructions of the physical human body, and bodies of the animals and plant kingdom as well add to the mix. All consciousness contributes to your physical environment and your physical world.

3. The real action must be considered on two fronts.
Obviously the initiation of anything physical, that includes the construction or apparent construction of any and all physical objects to the creation of all physical events, both personal and mass events of one person or entire civilizations are instigated at the physical level in the physical brain. In a very over simplistic way, you could say that when something goes wrong, "it's the brains fault".

It's the old; blame it on the brain thing. Hey, I didn't do it, my brain did it, and you wouldn't be too far off the mark. The brain thinks it and the inner self does the necessary inner work, utilizing the chemical and electrical components of the physical brain to bring about its actualization in the physical system, and it's all done unconsciously, automatically, whether you know it or not.

Also, you obviously, don't consciously know about the vast network of creativity that exists in the subjective world of the inner universe from which all reality systems are born, all physical events begin their journey into physical construction and all conscious expression originates.

The inner universe is where the real work is done, where thoughts that you don't even remember you had, memories of old events that you don't remember creating, even though some may extend into other prior lifetimes, emotions that you have long forgotten, hatreds that you have harbored and disabling beliefs still linger that you long ago discarded, all still exist in electromagnetic data and can be drawn from or referred to at any time.

This inner universe is the wonderland where these components, mixed with your dreams of all lifetimes come together with the recent physical components of your life, like hundreds of puffy clouds in the summer sky mixing, combining, re-emerging to once again combine, forming cloud like events that did not exist a few minutes before. Imagine these clouds as components of the mind, mixing, melding and merging as something entirely different, unrecognizable, and yet pertinent to the physical personality. This, symbolically speaking, is the way that events are formed.

When all of the psychic ingredients are in balance and there are no great mental distortions, events will form naturally and benefit those involved, but you must realize that what you consider beneficial, others concerned with those events may think differently.

None of this can be adequately explained to someone who has lost a loved one and I certainly will not be the first to accomplish this, since it is pretty much beyond explanation and can only be deciphered within the heart and healing mind of one affected. There is much that I don't know, but there are a few things I do know and one is this.

I can tell you, no real god or imagined god inflicts punishment of any kind on anyone for anything. Physical events in their ultimate complexity can barely be understood by even the most evolved among you when they affect you adversely, but there is reason behind them.

Nothing happens without underlying reason and purpose, although those purposes and reasons may remain hidden on the conscious level. That reason and purpose may be unknown to you at this time, but it is not unknown to your inner self, and you have access to your inner self, the doorway is through the inner corridors of the mind. Ask for answers in your dreams, and they will be given. The dream world is the connective between you and your knowledgeable inner self and soul so use it.

I have written in the past regarding early death of young children such as the case with Caylee Anthony, and once again, the explanations are difficult, but you are not children any more and an attempt must be made to understand beyond the simplistic tales of gods meting out punishment to wrongdoers. Not taken in this light, you will never understand such things, because they simply don't make sense on the conscious level.

You must understand that even before conception, an actual, vivid, alert, alive conscious identity existed, took part in the planning of its next life including the choice of its future parents, city, country, continent of its birth, race, gender and general life plan.

This all before the sperm fertilized the egg. Included in the general life plan, are such things as life intent. Future personalities, such as the ones mentioned above, knew before hand that they did not intend to live to full life term, for reasons known only to them.

Their choice of mother and father was not an accident and it is not unusual for a decision to live be made only to have a change of mind at the last minute before or shortly after birth. There are many reasons for these difficult decisions, but there will always be coinciding unconscious agreements of both the new fetus and the parents, especially the mother, when a life is to be terminated in early stages.

One cannot subject its wishes or desires on the other, so there must be a meeting of intent for this kind of event to go forward, and there will be compensations made in future lives. Mother and child will meet again under more auspicious circumstances, all accounts being even.

As you can see, this is a very delicate subject, and so I will finish by saying; no person or incipient person (fetus) is ever born who does not make the decision to be born beforehand and no person dies that does not decide to die. Death is a decision that is unconsciously made by the dyeing person. Now, it may seem from those closely involved in those births and deaths that an injustice was done, but unconsciously, the involved personality and the soul know otherwise.

No mother or father can cause a fetus to abort or be stillborn if there is intent to live. These kinds of decisions are made well in advance in the subjective reality of the inner universe and the outcome of the birth event is no real surprise to the fetus or the mother. If the new personality (fetus) has decided not to live at this particular time, no doctor or hospital will be able to affect a cure for this is a purely mental decision.

You must also understand that what you consider a helpless fetus, an innocent participant with no purposeful life motives can be shortsighted. The consciousness of the previous identity may be far more evolved and knowledgeable than the future parents, and it knows quite well the consequences of its intent.

In the whole universe, there are no accidents, and there is underlying purpose behind all events, even though that purpose may be transparent and difficult to understand from your perspective.
No God ever caused one single death of even one single bird or fly, so would or could He do less for a human infant? I think not.

As Judge Judy would say, God has bigger fish to fry.