Recents posts in Christian Moms on BabyCenter This stared off being a subgroup of May 2009 mom's, but now we feel we should invite all Christian Mama's. Feel free to come discuss anything about your faith, no matter if you are TTC, Pregnant, or have kids. BabyCenter Logo 212 78 Feeling tired of the daily fight I have been a believer my whole life.

My life has always been hard. Since the moment I was born everything that could go wrong, did. I was abused and neglected, bullied, and treated like dirt by almost everyone I have ever met.

After being disgnosed with a cocktail of psychological disorders and attempting suicide at the age of 18, I just tried to survive while keeping my head above water on a daily basis.

I held on to my faith. Never did drugs or drank, have never been drunk or even smoked a cigarette.

I had no friends and I watched all the people around me living their lives and I felt stuck in quicksand that seemed to suck my further in everytime I tried to move to make progress.

My DH and my DD are the two only things that I have. My family basically left me, DH's family also did (because they don't like me), and I have no friends. My poor DD has no family and is something happens to DH or I, she will end up with noone.

Everyday of my life is a fight. I fight to keep my disorders under control and to not get eaten alive by crippling nightly anxiety. Every choice I make always seems to be wrong and I end up in lots of trouble. Strangers and people have always had it out to destroy me for reasons I don't understand. I just feel like there is no more fight left in me. I am so tired. SInce the day I came into this world I came into a mess of a life that is just too much.

I can't cry anymore. I have no more tears. I can't focus and I lose everything. I can't keep up with the house, or my DH, or my DD and I send every second stressing about which hard fight is next and worrying constantly about it. Everytime my life starts to go OK and things are settled, something major happens and I find myself fighting again. There is always something to worry about and always another fight to prepare for.

I find myself wishing God would just take me now but I think about leaving DD without a mother and I can't do that. I am just SO tired and so sick of not having friends or people to get me through rough times. Tired of fighting, tired of balancing all my disorders, tired of crying, just falt out tired.

I see other believers who just have everything. They have their nice house, nice cars, perfect little family and everything works well for them. They have family and friends and don't worry about what will happen to their kids if something happens to them. We rent, share one car, and don't have health insurance. I have no friends or family , and I would have no idea what would happen to DD if something happened to us.

Why do some people seem to have it so easy and some so hard? Why does it NEVER get easier or at least tolerable? Why do I continue to fight and fight and fight only to wind up to exhausted to pray every night. I am not doing anything with my faith because I am to tired to help, volunteer, or anything. I am simply trying to survive.

Wed, 03 Dec 2014 14:38:35 EST
When to try for #2? Wed, 17 Dec 2014 12:03:02 EST Getting baby to sleep with toddler. Fri, 05 Dec 2014 11:34:05 EST Postpartum depression/anxiety
I've just started feeling bad, my baby is 3 months old. Ive been crying a lot this past week. I cry because he has down syndrome, I cry because he's healthy, I cry because of all the other babies like him that were aborted. I just don't know what's going on with me. I'm also very moody and get angry easily. Is there any passages in the bible about depression. I so very much just want to be my old self. I praise HIM through the good and tough times. Should I seek a Christian counselor? Medication is my last resort as they have only made things worse one instant in the past where I tried them.

Sat, 29 Nov 2014 18:17:12 EST
New. Children and God, when, how, am I a horrible mom!? Hi All

I didn't know there were christian groups, and then when I heard I went in search. And here I am:)

I have always struggled with how to introduce God to my children, one is 5 already and the other 4, and the other still grows in my tummy. I was never raised a christain, well not really. My parents were (well are) Jehovah'a Witnesses, so thats what I was raised to be. The thing is I was mostly taught (via fear) to learn the books of the bible etc.

Anyway my point. So I searched and found the Lord for who He truelly is and Ive learnt along m journey, but I always remember sitting in church and looking at the others that had now become my family and couldn't help but wonder how amazing it would have been if I had been raised like they were, if I had all my life to build a loving and fully trusting relationship with God, and now I have children and I still keep feeling like i havent taught them properly just yet, like I havent given them the information they are supposed to havae. Im reading a book now and this woman's child decided to accept Jesus into her life at 5!!! FIVE, my daughter is 5. I really need to start doing a better job at introducing my children to who God is and how much He exists in our lives every single day. I feel so bad, like I'm cheating them

Wed, 09 Jul 2014 04:28:03 EST
Feelings of dread? I feel so conflicted right now. I want to be excited about the upcoming birth of my first baby, and about moving in to a new apartment, but I can't seem to shake off the feeling like something bad is going to happen. 
If I had no reason to feel this way, it'd be easier. But I do.
The first birth I've ever seen in person was the stillbirth of my nephew, who died for unknown reasons about ten days after his due date. My sister's second baby had to be delivered via emergency c-section after about 12 hours of pitocin-induced labor. It's making me so scared to deliver my own baby. My mom had all c-sections after being harassed in to the first one. So we have no idea how a vaginal delivery would have gone for her. There's just this huge blank in my family's birthing history, then a stillbirth, then an essentially traumatic birth. So I have almost zero positive vibes to draw off of to get me through my own birthing experience. 
The second matter is the apartment. We're moving to a ground-level one-bedroom apartment, that is about 713 sq feet. We have until the 31st to be out of this current apartment, and although I'm desperate to be settled before my daughter comes, I'm not sure that that apartment is where I want to be. I keep praying that God will throw a cog in the works when it comes to getting it, or give me some solid sign that we aren't supposed to move there. It's a chaotic daily battle between trusting Him and feeling strangled by fear and doubt. I don't know what to do, or even how to pray about it because I can't find the words. I feel so insecure in everything right now, but I'm trying to put on a brave face. I just feel like this should be such a happy time in my life yet I feel like my joy is being stolen! I don't know whether it's intuition, or Satan trying to get a foothold in my heart and ruin what could be a beautful time of preparation. I just need help. 
To top things off, I still have SO many gaps and needs in the baby dept. that need to be filled. I'm scared it all means that I'm going to lose my baby like my sister did.  

Tue, 07 Oct 2014 14:34:40 EST
Talking about Heaven and death with a preschooler. Mon, 03 Nov 2014 09:00:42 EST Introduction - New! Hi ya'll. My name is Tasha. My husband and I have been married nearly 10 years and we have one 2.5 year old daughter, Nancy. I enjoy building my relationship with God, baking, drawing, sewing, early childhood education, and exercise. Thanks for the opportunity to be a part of this forum. I look forward to meeting and chatting with you ladies.

I also have a shutterfly blog that you can find out more about us...



Mon, 24 Nov 2014 09:52:04 EST
question on Leviticus 12: 1-5 was talking about this with a friend of mine.....and we couldn't figure out why.....  in Lev. 12 the instructions are given for cleansing and atonement for a woman after giving birth.  (not a huge stickler for all the OT laws but this one made me curious...)

1-5 God spoke to Moses: "Tell the People of Israel, A woman who conceives and gives birth to a boy is ritually unclean for seven days, the same as during her menstruation. On the eighth day circumcise the boy. The mother must stay home another thirty-three days for purification from her bleeding. She may not touch anything consecrated or enter the Sanctuary until the days of her purification are complete. If she gives birth to a girl, she is unclean for fourteen days, the same as during her menstruation. She must stay home for sixty-six days for purification from her bleeding.

so basically (if my baby-brain math is correct) if a baby boy is born, a woman is considered unclean (meaning no *relationship contact* with DH) for 41 days, but if its a baby girl, she is unclean for 80 days.....why the difference??  the only thing we could come up with was if its bc dual female hormones? but not sure....anyone have any ideas??

Wed, 15 Apr 2009 22:03:12 EST
what names are you going to use? Thu, 22 May 2014 13:44:20 EST