Month: January 2018

Monday Momentum – “Fear Not”

Over the summer I was out with my dear friend Kara, as we walked and talked I started to share about some of my own struggles and insecurities that had been happening during that time.  Through a serious of questions and conversations it became clear that the root of most of those situations was fear.  Then Kara asked me a question that I wrestled with for weeks, “do you know fear is an idol?”  I had thought about potential idols in my life with tangible things like money, houses, etc.  Even intangible things like status, jobs, or what people think of me.  But never had it dawned on me that fear could be one, and in that moment I realized it was.  Over the next several months God freed me from that, which is an amazing story coming in another blog.  During that time I came across this song, and the explanation of it.

Monday Momentum

I literally got a text yesterday asking if my friend and I could send songs and sermons on a regular basis back and forth.  The answer is a resounding yes!  I’m always listening to songs, sermons, Ted Talks, etc and passing them along.  I’m equally as excited to get them sent to me. So I decided to add a section to this blog called “Momentum Monday,” where every Monday I’ll post something that’s helping me get through the week.  So if you’re ever looking for something to engage, there will at least be some options here.

This talk by Christine Cain is so fantastic.

I was recently introduced to this band City Harmonic, and they are fantastic.  In addition I’m constantly amazed by God’s love for us!


A gift for my two year old

A few months ago I went shopping for my friends birthday gift.  I was with another friend, and as we roamed the aisles of Target, I couldn’t find the right gift.  My friend held up countless items: a journal, pens, mugs, etc.  All were fine gifts, but they weren’t right.  Finally she said, you are particular with gifts aren’t you?  She wasn’t annoyed, but we aren’t close enough friends that she would know my particulars.  And when it comes to giving gifts, I want it to be exactly what that person likes.  If they love dark chocolate with almonds, then buying them dark chocolate with cashews isn’t right.  Some would say, “close enough,” but that’s now how my mind works.

Fast forward three months later to December 8th.  Enoch is turning two, but obviously isn’t with us to celebrate.  I told Tim I wanted to go and get him a birthday gift to take to the grave.  This seemed like a simple task, but apply what happened above inside Toys R Us.  I want the perfect gift, but I didn’t know what the perfect gift was.  Yes, I know it was going on his grave.  Yes, I know most two year olds aren’t that picky.  But I am his mom and I don’t know what he likes.  And that fact became so painfully obvious within minutes of walking into the store.   We roamed the aisles overwhelmed by the choices and tears kept welling up as I realized I didn’t know.   Would he have liked paw patrol or some particular characters?  Would he like trucks or balls?  Would he like tractors because Tim does, or Jeeps because I do?  I couldn’t do it.  It suddenly became so overwhelming and sad that I told Tim we need to just pick something and go.

I know what toys my friends kids like.  I could pick out so many for each of them, but I can’t for my own son.  And it never dawned on me until I went shopping for his birthday.  These are the things that come up so unexpectedly that makes greif such a hard journey.


God with us!

As a kid, God was always some distant being.  Over the years I have become fascinated with the fact that God created the universe and wants a personal relationship with me!  He’s not distant, but close!

I’ve thought a lot about that this past Christmas season, especially just having read the Old Testament where it talks about how people worshiped idols they made out of wood.

Isaiah 44:16-18
16Half of the wood he burns in the fire;
    over it he prepares his meal,
    he roasts his meat and eats his fill.
He also warms himself and says,
17 From the rest he makes a god, his idol;
    he bows down to it and worships.
He prays to it and says,
    “Save me! You are my god!”
18They know nothing, they understand nothing

    their eyes are plastered over so they cannot see,
    and their minds closed so they cannot understand.


Not too long after reading this in Isaiah, we then went to a museum and saw these idols that also were once worshipped.  I couldn’t help but think of this passage where people worshiped an object that had no life and no power.

Compare that with the birth of Jesus.  God sends his son in the form of a man in order for us to have right relationship with Him!



This is not an idol made of wood, but a living God!  It’s astounding to me all. the. time.