Almost midnight ramblings

I haven’t been sleeping well lately. Babies, sickness, tooth aches and busy-ness will do that to a momma. I should be sleeping now but I needed just five minutes to drink the rest of my water bottle and be with myself.
I would say that it is quiet now but its not. The fish tank is humming. The turtle tank is splashing as the filter drops water almost six inches down into the tank. Mr. B is snoring. The fridge kind of buzzes and then makes the occasional ka chunk sound as it drops ice into the bucket.
I hear everything. What I wouldn’t give for a quiet moment to think. I keep getting angry that I’m working so hard to get that time and never feeling like I get it.
I’m starting to realize people are helping me get that time I just can’t stop the chatter in my head.
The constant run of what I need to do and buy and make and try and learn….
I need to turn it off. My brain is like a man with a remote and too many channels just flippin’ around and never really watching anything.
When given time to work I spend an hour just trying to figure out what to do first. Then I start only to find out my time is up. I need to make a plan. Give each interest of mine a month that is just theirs.  Maybe if I know I can make time for hobby A later I can better focus on interest B now.
Apparently my scent wore off of the shirt I left behind because Lil Baby Man just realized I wasn’t in bed anymore. Duty calls.
Blogging from my Android….probably from the bathroom.

2 thoughts on “Almost midnight ramblings

  1. Siggi says:

    I’ve read time management folks that actually suggest making a list of things that one can do in five minutes, 10, 30, etc. Not a bad idea, IF you can nail your times down that well. I frequently have a dozen tabs open on my browser, so I can pull up things I want to read or explore, and save them until I’m ready. (Although an auto-update in the wee hours of last night foiled my plan! Gah!)
    Alternately, may I suggest meditation? There are a bunch of techniques that work really well, including some that focus your attention, rather than requiring zero total thought, which is pretty darned impossible for me, too. Let me know if you are interested, and I’ll share some tips with you, ok?

  2. TaderDoodles says:

    Hey Siggi,
    I’m always open to tips! I’ve done meditation in the past and loved it. The problem is it requires a quiet space which I do not have, EVER. Just because I’m being left alone for an hour doesn’t necessarily mean it’s an environment conducive to meditating. I occasionally get those moments early in the morning and use it to read my bible and pray; it is typically no more than 15 minutes, I can’t even finish my coffee.
    I like the idea of a list of timed tasks though 🙂 I have a 15 minute challenge that I used to do with MUCH success. I’m guessing that my biggest issue is the baby and by the time I find something that works he’s going to be big enough to not be a problem anymore.
    Thank you so much for your advice and suggestions! I’d love to hear more.

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