I’m currently going through another intense phase of Ascension related head, skull, brain, brain glands (pineal and pituitary) cosmic, galactic, and solar onslaughts. I must confess that over the past three or four months I occasionally entertained the thought that I might actually have something “wrong” inside my skull! The pains, the different headaches and new pressures outside and inside of my skull have been so intense that I wondered if something could indeed be wrong physically inside my skull. It takes a lot to spook me after all I’ve already been through via the Ascension Process, but this is how severe this head pain and pressure has been off and on since January 2010.

After months of this severe head, brain and skull weirdness and pains I figured I should take a look myself and do a clairvoyant MRI scan of the insides of my head to be sure. Almost as soon as I had this thought I could see hundreds of thousands of extremely tiny energy lines of light arcing back and forth repeatedly between my right and left brain hemispheres like an energy bridge across the top of my brain and skull! I watched a bit while not thinking or analyzing but just observing and discerning it all, which always produces the most accurate results. I discovered that one of the things I have been going through since January 2010—and I know many of you have been too—is that now my brain is literally going through the Rewiring Process. The Body Rewiring Process seems completed, for the most part, but the head, skull, and two brain hemispheres are now the primary focus for many of us farther along within the Rewiring Process. And of course, added to all this is the Crown chakra Rewiring or upgrades we’ve been going through also. No wonder our heads hurt in new and strange ways—ascension headaches indeed!

Years ago I first felt the Rewiring in my lower physical body, deep inside like a mild electric current painlessly buzzing and vibrating internally. Over the years this rewiring process has slowly moved throughout my body, starting from the tailbone or base chakra area, then up into the torso, then up into my heart,  throat,  base of skull and spine, and now in 2010, inside my head. I can’t believe I didn’t figure this out sooner and thought that I may have something wrong physically inside my skull. Fear is one tenacious bugger to totally eradicate!  More Phase Two lessons.  But thanks to my nifty ability to do my own version of a brain MRI, I got to actually see the tremendous energies working in and around our skulls and brains literally rewiring the two polarized brain halves into a Unified brain. Those hundreds of thousand of tiny lines of light I saw bridging and arcing back and forth repeatedly between my two brain hemispheres were new connections and pathways being created, as if one was using Light to sew and stitch the two brain halves back together! The brain halves are in the process of being reintegrated, reconnected, rewired so that the old 3D Veil between our own brains will soon be evolved/ascended back into a unified brain that can easily carry, perceive, and create from spherical (unified) or quantum consciousness.

Now I’m not saying that this is currently happening and within the next fifteen minutes (or days) I’ll be one of the whole-brained, fully integrated, new 5D humans. Just as the entire body Rewiring took many years, this too will take some more time to complete, but not terribly long I sense.

It makes such perfect sense that with the current Crown chakra changes or upgrades, that our brains would also be going through the rewiring process, which will completely remove the Veil between our old lower polarized brain hemispheres and polarized consciousness. Knowing this and having seen some of the rewiring process transpiring inside my head and brain for myself, I now can excitedly continue with whatever further headaches, skull pressures and pains, sensation of an axe in the side of my head type pains and pressures I’ve been having for months now. Seeing those many thousands of tiny lines of light arcing back and forth between my left and right brain halves repeatedly, I feel confident that this current brain and Crown chakra rewiring (evolution) is going to produce profoundly amazing changes in us and what we’re capable of perceiving seemingly overnight.


April 27, 2010

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Hair Falling Out & Ascension

This is something I’ve avoided talking about simply because it’s yet another ascension symptom that isn’t very pleasant or attractive. Which ones are right? It is hair loss, hair thinning and of course not everyone will experience it.

I’ve always had plentiful, healthy, strong hair so when mine suddenly started falling out by the bucketfuls in fall of 2008, I was mortified. Everything that was happening energetically and emotionally back in late 2008, had everything to do with my first ever bout of hair falling out. It continued through the 2008 winter solstice, and then into the winter months of 2009. By spring of 2009, thankfully it seemed to slow down considerably. The rest of 2009, I could tell I was still having some hair falling out but nothing as severe as the fall and winter months of 2008 into 2009.

What really brought this hair falling out business to home in a horrifying way was that the same cycle began again with the start of fall 2009. Again, I was mortified and worried this might become so bad I would have to buy a wig. It was horrible and my vanity was seriously rattled. I had no idea how much of our physical identities and sense of self is related to our hair.

When this same sudden hair loss started up again exactly a year later, my first thought was that this must be astrological transits (for me personally I mean). That could be an aspect of this for me, but, when I reviewed what had happened during the fall and winter months of both 2008 and 2009, I got the larger perspective I needed and it was energy and ascension related, not strictly astrological.

Think back to what was going on energetically in the fall months of 2008. It was an extremely potent period for many of us who had intentionally remained below in lower vibrating, much more dark and dense energies for the sole purpose of trying to get any last-minute stragglers on the ascension train heading out-of-town. I had been living through this for many years prior, but by 2005, it was becoming increasingly physically, energetically, psychically and in every other way painful being in any lower vibrating location, including many spiritual forums. There were a lot of people out there who felt it was their duty to attack and discredit anyone who said anything about the Ascension Process at so-called “spiritual” forums. It was a case of those of us who were actually living the Ascension Process being attacked by many who were not. It was a typical 3D lower polarized situation and was really miserable considering I and others living the evolutionary Ascension Process first only wanted to share information about it with other people. We weren’t preaching or selling we were simply talking and sharing information about the ongoing ascension based on our own personal experiences. But that’s too much for a lot of unaware people.

If you remember, by the time the fall of 2008 arrived, the energetic pressure of my (and many of you) having to stay down in those lower, slower more dense levels and locations (including online forums etc.) within the old lower world was nearly killing many of us. It was miserable but after a few years it became literally unbearable to stay behind trying to help others via information and link sharing about the Ascension Process and the coming evolutionary dimensional shift out of 3D. The energetic and consciousness gap between these two vibrating groups of people became so huge it could not continue, and so by November and December 2008, we were energetically released from remaining down in that lower vibrating darkness and painful, often attacking insanity any longer. We energetically blasted our way back up to the surface and breathed in fresh air after nearly drowning down there. We were done with that aspect of trying to help other people existing at much lower frequency levels and waiting for them to make a choice. We were finally free to return to a matching vibrational energy level for us, and my gawd did it feel good!

As soon as this happened and I shot back up into a matching energy level in November 2008, that was when my hair started falling out. The next important ascension/energy transition happened with the mega energy changes and shift  shortly after “My Lightworker Strike” published July 28, 2009.  A huge group of us were—once again—profoundly done with waiting and holding open the Exit Door for any of the last-minute stragglers who hadn’t committed to getting on the ascension train at that point. We could not and would not wait any longer because it was causing us tremendous continued pain and suffering to do so. Then the triple 9’s of September 9, 2009 arrived, and just like in late fall of 2008, we were finally released, but this time we fully split-off from the old lower 3D world energetically. The Separation of Worlds was in effect and we spent the rest of the fall months and 2009 winter solstice adapting to those new and higher vibrating energies hitting us, our bodies and anything else within us that was now vibrating slightly lower than our new higher frequency locations.

The fact that my hair fell out during both of these huge and highly important energy related ascension transitions makes sense really. Lauren Gorgo recently wrote in her article, ‘2010: The Year of Truth in Action’, about this.  http://consciousco-creationalcoaching.blogspot.com/2010/01/2010-year-of-truth-in-action.html


I was told by a starbeing once that ascension uses up to 70% of our vital life force at times…explains all that couch surfing for a decade…but here, at the end of the journey, it feels more like 94% because we just have absolutely nothing left to give.”


I know this is true because I’ve gone through many years where my physical body didn’t have enough energy, enough vital life-force to even digest FOOD. As a Forerunner, all my life-force was going into the seemingly endless Ascension Process transmuting of both personal and collective earthly and other dimensional lower frequency density, darkness duality issues and residual negative emotional energies on earth throughout time. There was little to no energy left for such things as energetically digesting food or maintaining a full head of hair!

I know that both of these huge energy transitions we went through in fall of 2008 and fall of 2009 has been very hard on us and our bodies and everything else. It’s not much of a stretch that some of us would have large amounts of our hair falling out, thinning because of it all. But I can see already here in early February 2010, that some of my hair is re-growing finally. Now that we’re in 2010, many of the Phase One Forerunner ascension symptoms are slowly disappearing after a decade-plus of profound intensity and misery. There are new Phase Two ascension symptoms we’re having to deal with now, but so far they’re nothing as intense and shattering as the majority of Phase One ascension symptoms were. I do have hope that once I reach the great Expiration  Date of winter solstice 2012, I won’t do so as a 60-year-old, overweight and half-bald Earth Angel! But who knows? Nope, our DNA is going to do astonishing things during 2010, 2011 and 2012 and well beyond. ❤

Denise Le Fay

February 9, 2010


Ascension related Headaches, Head Pains & Pressures

I’ve had another round of those unique Ascension related headaches recently. It took me a while to discern this ascension symptom only because I’ve had headaches all my adult life. Headaches from the vertebra in my neck being out-of-place constantly, plus twenty years of migraines, so I’m sort of a headache professional at this point.

But then the Ascension related headaches arrived a couple of years ago and they feel very different from any headache pain I’ve ever had. Another clue about them I learned is that nothing, and I mean nothing, makes them go away or eases the pain. No over-the-counter headache medicines, not even ice packs, not sleeping, resting, not moving, vomiting, absolutely nothing. They suddenly arrive, they hammer away for a day, a few days or a week, then magically it’s gone as quickly as it arrived.

Another aspect of these Ascension headaches has to do with our Crown chakra doing whatever it does when this happens at this vastly higher level now.  All I know is that the top of my head and skull hurts and feels bruised, hot, and sore to the touch. The upper half of my entire head inside and out (from the nose up) feels strange, larger than normal, a little disconnected or spacey feeling on top of the rather severe headache pains. Other times it’s just intense headache pains and noise sensitivities.

They’re strange pains like invisible laser beams that you feel and know exactly what angle they are entering your head at. The pain of them also moves around inside your head which normal headaches don’t do—at least not that I’ve ever experienced. Ascension headaches are about higher energies doing things, changing, expanding, merging brain halves or the Brain Rewiring Process, upgrading the insides of our skulls and the different brain glands; the pineal, pituitary, thalamus, hypothalamus and whatever else we have in there that’s rapidly evolving and activating so we’re multi-dimensionally aware 5D beings.

brain glands

When I have one of these four or five-day-long ascension headache sessions, I think of things Barbara Hand Clow and some others have said about the tiny crystals we have inside our brains. I can almost see these activating and evolving now because we’re simply at that stage within our ongoing Ascension Process—not to mention our two brain hemispheres being Rewired back together so we’re whole-brained beings. I suspect we are simply going to be feeling  head and brain pressures, pains, headaches, and other strange sensations as the old lower Veil between our two brain hemispheres vanishes and we evolve into whole-brained crystalline beings. May 2010 Uranus enters Aries which rules the head/brain. Imagine Uranian/Aquarian energies in your head now! Know that our brains/consciousness are and will be changing, evolving in extraordinary ways and rather quickly.

I know this isn’t a pleasant topic but because I’m so familiar with headaches, I was highly aware of how different these new Ascension headaches feel in comparison to old lower world so-called “normal” headaches and even migraines. But because they hurt and there’s not much we can do to make that pain stop, it can get unnerving after day-three or four and your skull feels like it has multiple invisible lines of light literally skewered through it. It does! Fear not however because the pain does end and know that more major upgrades have happened inside your head and you because of it.

Denise Le Fay

October 17, 2009


Deep & Unending Exhaustion

There are  far more people today experiencing the sort of deep body, mind, and soul exhaustion that other Lightworkers were feeling many years ago. The reason for this profound level of nearly constant utter physical, mental, and emotional exhaustion is many-fold. It has nothing to do with age, sex, how healthy or unhealthy you believe yourself to be at the moment or anything else. It has to do with tremendous and constant energy transmuting and transforming and the ongoing adjustments and re-adjustments because of it all. It has to do with dying while staying in your physical body, repeatedly and layer-by-layer. It has to do with day AND night while asleep and out of your body, still being worked on, transmuting lower energies, integrating higher, faster vibrating energies and Light and Heart consciousness or awareness. It has to do with your DNA repeatedly mutating/evolving/ascending step-by-step from 3D polarized physical carbon into non-polarized 5D light filled silicon. That would make any being exhausted so give yourself a break and rest as much as you require every day.

On top of all this the world we bore ourselves into is also dying, “falling” apart now and the planetary Collective is shaking in its old boots over all this great and scary change. If you’re sensitive you feel (in different ways) these other people’s great fears, anxiety, and lower energies too. That alone is deeply exhausting, so give yourself a break and rest as much as you require every day.

The repeated cosmic energies and solar flares that carry most of them directly to Earth and all life on Her to further transmute humanity, have and will continue to activate us into higher frequency beings. These vastly higher cosmic and solar energies are directly assisting us to get where we’re going, on time, and that too is profoundly exhausting and often makes you feel sick and in pain. Higher Light coming into contact with lower vibrating anything usually feels unpleasant at best…and miserable at worst. It’s utterly exhausting repeatedly living the Alchemical process of transmuting our personal Lead into higher frequency Gold. Give yourself a break and rest as much and as often as you need each day.

Exhaustion is a normal part of everything you and I, Earth and the solar system and far beyond are and have been doing/living/being/creating. Give yourself a pat on the back and a giant hug and Heart smile…then go rest as much as you need because it’s not finished yet.

Denise Le Fay

July 14, 2009


Smelling Nonphysical Smoke and/or Burning Incense


I’ve noticed a lot of people recently searching for information about smelling burning’ or smelling smoke’ or constantly smelling incense burning’  when none is physically present. I wrote a bit about this phenomena in my article Strange Nonphysical Smelling Phenomenon December 26, 2008, but because this particular Ascension related symptom is being experienced by increasing numbers of people, I thought I’d talk a bit more about it.


In November 2008, I was finally energetically released from the unpleasant job of waiting and holding the energetic door open for any last-minute people who desired to get on board the evolutionary Ascension elevator. Much of 2006, all of 2007 and 2008, was this endless and painful in every way waiting and holding open that energetic “door” for people ready to leave the old lower (during 2008) and move up energetically. For me, late November 2008 was when I no longer was required to stay in that lower frequency energy waiting and holding open the energy door for others. As I was released from that lower energy level of waiting and holding open the “exit door”, I immediately started smelling burning incense and/or what I thought might be someone’s chimney smoke because it was winter. I’ve smelled it almost constantly ever since November 2008, when that huge and important completion and break-off point happened and I “ascended” up a few more energy Stair-steps.

I mentioned in my other article about this topic, how I would often smell burning pipe tobacco and/or burning incense back in the 1980’s and 1990’s when positive higher dimensional ET beings would make contact with me. It was one way for Them to let me know They were in the area energetically and getting ready to make contact psychically, telepathically and/or ethereally with me and whoever else was present with me at the time, which was often my mother.

Since my biological Ascension Process began in February 1999, I’ve not had this sort of contact with these old familiar ET family and friends. We’ve all moved on, ascended, evolved into new and higher states and so have They. Due to our ongoing ascensions, many of us in physical human form have energetically moved into a new higher state where we’re smelling smoke, burning incense or possibly even flowers mixed in with those smoky smells. I believe we’re smelling this now—without any of those past ETs being present—for the simple reason that WE are now what They were years and decades ago to us back in the old lower PRE-Ascension world.

I believe our currently smelling burning incense and/or smoky smells is another way we’re realizing that we are indeed the new “Earth Angels”. For many of us it’s yet another  way to show us where we are now in comparison to where we were in recent months (the big transition of late 2008), years and even decades. There’s a host of other ascension clues telling us that we’re very different people today that are literally vibrating at much higher levels and faster frequency rates than we were before. One example of this is when other people vibrating lower and slower simply do not seeing us all the time when we’re out in the physical world. Or, being seen by some of them and having those people come right up to us and act like we’re old best friends despite the fact you’ve never seen them before.

We’re both attracting and repelling other people vibrating at rates lower, slower and more dense levels than where we currently are. Remember how you felt and reacted when your Guides and/or higher positive ET kin where near you?

Also many of these strange Ascension symptoms have to do with our brain halves being Rewired into one non-polarized, integrated, unified whole brain. There is SO much happening in our brains and brain glands (the Pineal and Pituitary glands) rapidly evolving, plus the two brain hemispheres literally being Rewired, that it’s perfectly normal to suddenly be smelling, seeing, perceiving, hearing, feeling and sensing many new and seemingly unusual anomalies. It’s okay, it is just another of those numerous unique Ascension Process side effects.


March 30, 2009

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