Why stepping away is important

Do you ever just feel foggy? Like you can't see properly? Like there's this huge fog in front of you that you are trying your hardest to push through, but it won't budge? Like there are so many things on your mind, and in order for you to see clearly, you need to get rid of some?

That's how I have been feeling recently. Foggy. I can't tell you how frustrating it is. How overwhelming it is. The voice in the back of my head exclaiming "you need a fucking break" whilst I am scrambling for air in a seemingly oxygen free world.

I just wanted to switch off. I wanted to turn off my phone, curl up in my bed and listen to slow, comforting songs and only come out for food.

This is unrealistic because I work a full time job, a part time job, study, manage a YouTube channel, blog and socials, do freelance content creating, and try to lead some sort of life.

I just wanted to sleep in all honesty. I have been exhausted.

Let's take the plate analogy. It's overused but even my analogy loving brain can't think of a better one right now.

Imagine having a plate (or a bowl, side dish etc, no discriminating, whatever is your preference) that is full. I love having a full plate in the literal sense, I mean give me all the food. But imagine being given this plate when you're full. You love food, so you should be happy with it, but you.are.stuffed. You can't take any more. That's how I felt.

Whether it be stress, friends or love that was driving me insane, I needed to eradicate something from my plate because I couldn't stomach it all.

So last week, I got rid of social media, in an attempt to clear my head, stop myself from getting caught up in things, and be more present and less foggy.

I went to work, went home and did no more work. I listened to music, I walked the dog, watched things I really wanted to watch and slept earlier.

I stopped trying to chase after things that are a bit too far away at the moment. Things I want that may not happen soon. I am not giving up on them, I am just realizing that now may not be the right time. As you know, I am a big believer in fate and I think if things want to work out, they will. I just need to allow things to happen in their own time instead of rushing everything, always. I am much of a go person and sometimes I need to go slow and steady.

It's always important to remember that you don't owe anyone anything. Your time is precious. Don't waste it on people that wouldn't do the same for you. 

I can see clearer now.

I know you were thinking it.

Bye for now,
Tamzin xxx


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