February 22, 2008


We're leaving in a couple of hours to go to our hometown to celebrate Keith's parents 50th wedding anniversary. This year, they made 50, we'll make 25 and Haley and Josh will get married. Kind of neat how it worked out that way...

I've been praying a certain way lately and I wanted to jot these things down before I go out of town this weekend...

What is the heart of the matter? So often I struggle with things... circumstances, people... and I feel the Lord is asking me... what is the true nature of my struggle? Is it really the person? Is it really the circumstance? Yes, people disappoint and circumstances may hit us square in the face and be truly tragic but I think what the Lord is getting at with me is, what is my response? A lot of times, the anger,the doubt, the fear or the frustration that rises up in me point to deeper issues in my heart. Like- do I really trust Him? Do I really believe that His ways are higher and better? Do I really beleive that He loves me? I am realizing that although the Lord does hear our cries for help and He delights in rescuing us from situations, He still is most interested in our heart... I beleive that's why He allows difficult situations in our lives... So often we think- if only this situation would resolve itself or this person would act right I'd be happy... Would we really? It's time to quit blaming and to start examining our own hearts where the real problem lies...

I've seen so much tragedy lately and I think- Lord, keep our eyes on eternity, on Your Kingdom and purpose and glory. May we live for eternity and not for the moment. I want to be rooted and grounded, trusting in Him... so no matter what comes my way, I won't be tossed to and fro by circumstances and people's opinions.. I don't want to be up one day and down another... I want to be unmoveable, steady, grounded, settled... in Him.

Jeremiah 17
5 This is what the LORD says: Cursed is the one who trusts in man, who depends on flesh for his strength and whose heart turns away from the LORD.
6 He will be like a bush in the wastelands; he will not see prosperity when it comes. He will dwell in the parched places of the desert, in a salt land where no one lives.

Matthew 13 says:
18"Listen then to what the parable of the sower means:....22The one who received the seed that fell among the thorns is the man who hears the word, but the worries of this life and the deceitfulness of wealth choke it, making it unfruitful. 23But the one who received the seed that fell on good soil is the man who hears the word and understands it. (faith) He produces a crop, yielding a hundred, sixty or thirty times what was sown."

Ephesians 3 says

That's all for now. Ya'll have a blessed weekend. Kayla


Anonymous said...

Cousin Kayla...God bless you! Your words really hit me ...about the matter of "my heart" and not just the person or circumstance in front of me.
The Lord has been leading me to ask Him to change my heart...and not the thorny person or the stormy circumstance. What a peaceful "Secret place" of abiding!
Love and prayers from Cousin John in Atlanta.

Emily said...

You don't happened to have the chords to Misty's song Garden? I am a worship leader at OHOP -Orlando House of Prayer and we have been searching for the chords to that song:-)

Leonie e. Brown said...

Hi there, Have recently discovered Misty Edwards. I also do worship and would love to share this song with my group. Do you have the guitar cords? Cant find anything on the web.

I recently had a revelation that I need to ask God fr the gift of peace and wisdom. My best times with him is when I worship and play my guitar. Then everything else doesn't matter any more.

I am also an artist and share my ups and downs on the blog. Please look at:

Thanks for sharing.