Grieving and the Holiday Season

Dear Dr. Neimeyer–
My husband died just over a year ago, so on January 1st I will start my second year without him, and I am not looking forward to it.  It’s not that I am immobilized by grief, as I have gotten better across the months in that department, and actually feel pretty good and function pretty well when I am visiting our children across the country or traveling with friends.  It’s just that I feel lost and listless at home, even though there are 100 things I need to be doing–from cleaning out closets through straightening the garage to finding something to do with my time.  But it all just feels overwhelming, and so I just watch TV or curl up in bed.  My friends tell me I have to stay busy, but its not that easy.
So my question is, do you have any practical advice for me so I can turn over a new leaf in the year to come?
Dear Phyllis–
There’s a reason for the season, as they say, as the dawning of a New Year, if approached thoughtfully, can signal a time of renewal.  It sounds like you have processed your grief and retained a capacity to live well and stay connected to others–at least when not at home.  So perhaps with the turning of the calendar page you can also, as you say, turn a new leaf and cultivate the new shoots of possibility that may be germinating beneath it.  Here are a few principles to guide your practice as you do so.
1.  Reinvent your world.  As your home seems to be your “Twilight Zone,” consider brightening it in some way.  You might literally AfterTalk Grieving and the Holiday Seasonintroduce translucent and airy window treatments, for example, or experiment with new lights in the rooms in which you spend the most waking hours.  Change things up:  Rearrange the furniture to create a different feel to the space, paint a room.  There are home designers who specialize in working inexpensively with what you already own to create a fresh environment that can surprise and delight by configuring existing furniture and decor in different ways.  It can be surprising what a difference a modest change in our living space can make.
2.  Invite people in.  Especially if you try any of the above tips, but even if you don’t, have a few friends over for hors d’oeuvres or desserts, to “reclaim your space” for the life you want.  Perhaps you can even throw a “house re-warming” party, after the chill cast over the home by your husband’s death.  Set a trend with this, perhaps rotating monthly among the homes of those in your friendship circle, and rebuild bonds where these have grown frayed from neglect.
3.  Set process goals.  Life requires maintenance, of course, and not all tasks are as potentially eye-catching as remodeling your living room.  So when tackling that garage or closet, or even the routine and “invisible” tasks of cleaning bathrooms, paying bills, and the like, set a timer or play a series of favorite songs to mark 15 or 30 minutes, during which you’ll stay on task, giving yourself permission to discontinue when the time is up.  You can always return to the task the next day for a similar interval until the job gets done.  Setting this sort of “process goal,” rather than only giving yourself “credit” for completion, can help you side-step unfair self-criticism and overcome task avoidance as you make incremental progress.
4.  Track your successes.  Many of us keep a To-Do list, but the problem is that as the list becomes long, our feeling of being overwhelmed grows large.  And this is understandable:  if we were presented with a warehouse full of food that we had to eat in our lifetimes, most of us would give up before taking the first bite!  Instead of listing everything that needs attention, keep a list of tasks accomplished, and post it on the refrigerator or in some other prominent space.  The results can then serve to encourage rather than discourage future initiative.
5.  Live your values.  The idea that “staying busy” is good for grievers is only a half-truth.  As with psychologists who recommend “behavioral activation,” everything hinges on what you get active doing.  Random behavior doesn’t make for a meaningful life.  Nor is generic advice (get some exercise, go out with friends) specifically helpful to us when we are trying to figure out what kind of life might take shape in the emptiness created by loss.  So begin with some inner work, perhaps in meditation or contemplation, perhaps in journaling or conversation with a counselor or trusted friend.  Ask yourself:  What matters to me?  What excites me, stirs me, feels like time well spent?  What are my ultimate values, and how can those inform my choices?  Perhaps you value altruistic service to others:  What volunteer organization reaches out in a way you can support to those in need?  Perhaps you value learning:  Is there a book club or Meet Up group you can locate on the internet to share ideas about works of creative non-fiction, or to go on educational outings?  Perhaps you value creativity:  What art classes are offered in your area?  In other words, connecting scheduled activities to deep interests can help you begin to reconstruct life in the wake of loss, in a way that reorganizes your life and time into a satisfying, even if different form than before.
Dr. Neimeyer

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