Monday, September 2, 2013

How It Feels To Find Others

As it gets closer to my channel's one year anniversary, I have been more reflective about how making videos has changed my life.

One of the ways I feel I've been so lucky, is with the friendships I have made.  I know many of you can relate when I say that it felt amazing to find ASMR videos, and realize other people experienced something you thought you were alone in.  I love being able to talk about ASMR with you, and make videos for you---cause you get it.  You get it.  And because you get it, I am afforded an opportunity to get to know you in other ways:  what shows you watch, what movies you saw as children, the toys you played with, the video games you love, the experiences you had as children and the experiences you had today are all bits of information that make this journey so incredibly unique and gratifying for me.  You also let me share a bit of myself with you...and I am so often greeted with enthusiasm, comradery and support, that it skewers my heart.  Factor in the larger purpose of being able to help others in the way I have been helped by other content creates a feeling I can't really explain, aside from saying it's untouchable.

I am also a part of the community of content creators.  Having the ability to relate to them, and share experiences with them has definitely helped me, and made me happier along the way.  In general, ASMR content creators are super supportive of one another (in nearly a year, I have only witnessed one out of hundreds who truly didn't fit this assessment), and I honestly don't know where my channel would be had it not been for the encouragement and help from other asmrtists.  From tech problems, to sound boarding, to sharing troll stories and well wishes---even helping me with what foods I could incorporate onto my grocery list to help me---other asmrtists have aided me in not only making videos, but enjoying every single part of making videos.  I have made a few great friends who are content creators.  Each one is so different, and I'm so grateful to have this kind of opportunity to meet such a diverse group of people and get to know them in the ways that I have.  Even when my computer is off, I still consider them friends.

Making videos also led me to my best friend, and I really don't know who I would be as a person without having met them...but I know that I would be "less" without having been able to share the moments that I have with them.  There are no words that could accurately describe how much of an impact this person has had on me.  This person carved a place in my soul, and it's so crazy to think that had I not gotten up from the couch on my birthday and made an ASMR video almost a year ago, I might not ever have met the person who changed my life, or all of you who have made EVERY single day so much more worthwhile.

I sincerely feel I have become a better person because of ASMR, starting my own channel, and meeting all of you (and the many more who don't read my blog).  ASMR helps me sleep, making videos lets me be creative and help people in an indescribably rewarding way, and meeting new people has helped me grow and learn about myself in ways I never anticipated.  I love this, guys.  I really love this.

Thanks for the 1-Up.  I appreciate the extra life this endeavor has given me.  Thank you for everything.

PS.  There is a chance I might get increasingly sentimental as my anniversary date approaches.  Brace yourselves.


  1. I'd say get as sentimental as you like. Your videos have had a positive effect on many lives - yes, my own, too. What's not to feel good about? Warm fuzzies galore!

  2. How do you brace for SO MUCH FEELS ?!?!?!?

  3. Wow a whole year - congratulations! And thank you for making these videos and for 'getting it.' I have tried to explain asmr to people in real life but i just get weird looks. It's funny how even though we're all over the world the internet can bring us together and make us feel less alone :)

  4. I am grateful for you, Heather. And I don't mean just your videos. I mean YOU. Thank you for everything, truly. Sending so much love <3

  5. And I can assure you that you really are helping people. Before you opened your channel I had already been watching ASMR but I hadn't found an ASMRtist who made me feel really comfortable. I have already told you this before, but you probably won't remember since there are so many people who tell you stuff: When I first saw your new channel, I was in a very difficult situation. I am German and was studying in Brazil during 5 years. And I was so terribly homesick and felt so alone...I had many people who I loved there, including my husband of today, but they lived in a whole different world, with a whole different culture and completely different ideas and values which made it so hard for me to have people understand how I was feeling about certain things. There was nobody to talk to about common memories. And then a lovely feather flew right into my shared so many memories (Like the Goonies treasure), you made me laugh (you changed the whole intention of ASMR, instead of trying to fall asleep, I fought to stay awake to see everything of the video), you comforted me when I was really really have been my secret friend for almost a year now...You make the best other ever!!!! (Aaaaaand, you suggested the Kingdom hearts games, which absolutely blew my mind!!!!) Thank you so so much for being there!!!

  6. Awww Heather... I have tears in my eyes! I love this community... it's so full of positive vibes, and so you do! ♥ Hugs and kisses and more hugs and kisses from Barcelona :)

  7. Great blog! I think it's amazing how many ASMR videos there are. About a year ago, I didn't know it was an actual thing. I thought I was the only one who felt those crazy tingles that would shoot down my head and into my limbs. But then a friend of mine shared his experience and he was worried about how crazy he might sound. He asked if I had ever heard of ASMR. I looked it up and told him I knew exactly what he was talking about. How weird....and comforting to know there are others. It's funny because a friend of mine in school asked me if I had ever heard of ASMR, and if I had, if I thought it was valid. I told him that I had heard of it, and yes it was valid, because I have it.

    It's funny. When I tell people about it, they either laugh at me or say they are sorry. I respond by saying not to be sorry because I actually love it....except for when I can't stay awake in grad school because someone is organizing papers.

    Anyway, keep up the good work.