Heartbroken 💔

Last night I had to make the hardest decision of my life. I had to say goodbye to my best friend. Jay also known as Jay Bae, Professor Jay, knuckle head depending on the day. He was one in a million and a once of a lifetime horse. He taught me so much and I am so grateful for being able to have him in my life even if it was for two short years. Jay injured himself when he first came into my life and we were so incredibly lucky that he recovered from that. Our journey started later than had planned but I wouldn't have changed a thing. He took me from a medium level rider to my first advanced, PSG, Inter 1, Inter freestyle, Inter A, Inter B, Inter 2 and Grand Prix in a year. He was the kindest soul and always knew if I wasn't well, and when I was well for that matter. He taught me what dressage should feel like, my first passage, piaffe, the person and rider I am today, you name it is all because of Jay. He was the only horse that I ever felt 100% safe on and he made me feel like I could take on the world. Jay touched the lives of so many people and will always be a legend. He was my best friend and words can't describe how much I love him. He wasn't just a horse, he was a therapist, legend, gentleman, career and a part of the family. I am heartbroken and not sure how to do life without him. It all happened so fast he was fine Saturday morning and we had the best lesson ever with Peter. So I'm grateful that our last ride was special. He was fine when we put him in his stable later that night. Then everything went down hill. We tried everything we could and in the end nothing could have saved him. The only thing we could do was take his pain away. He was put to sleep last night surrounded by people who loved him. He was been laid to rest above the arena that has the best view and so he can tell everyone else how they are doing it wrong when they ride in front of him. That is where he would want to be. His favourite place. So what I'm trying to say is thank you Jay. Thank you for everything. Thank you for letting me love you. Thank you for letting me experience life with you. Thank you allowing me to compete on you. Thank you for taking me to Grand Prix. Thank you for being you. I will always love you, Caitlin ❤️