God doesn't want me to be a mother 😟

Omg negative once again. Ugh I'm gonna cry.. I had sex on my fertile days and I made sure it was every other day I just don't understand what's going on. My period this month was extremely irregular. It came and went the whole 3 days I've been having sharp pain mostly on my left side and a bunch of other symptoms. I'm just hoping it might be too early. Feel like I'm never gonna be a mother. For those of you that got negatives dont give up.. Because I want to soo bad