 blacksheep of the family, bullied at school, the young adult that looked for love in all the wrong places and encountered further abuse in various forms as she progresssed in life. The adult that kept trying to succeed but always struggled to fit in, to maintain balance, to hold onto energy, yet was still trying to shine some light, a deep sensitive soul that believed in love, was searching for the meaning of it, giving what she had and helping people but often not realising her own needs, her personal boundaries miles from healthy and little knowledge of how to assert them. A people pleaser, bit of a doormat, pretty easily manipulated emotionally, used and taken advantage of often and short changed sometimes withought even realising it, just thinking she was doing the right thing, the kindest thing, which it was t o others but not really to herself.
The last hard lesson was a huge catalyst that led her to heal the deeper fragments of her soul to become this more self actualised, validated, self loving, self caring, better balanced, stronger, more assertive, more aware and internally happy being she now is most of the time! Always still a work in progress as we all are.
Great thanks go out to OPRAH (OWNTV), Dr. Elaine Aron, Lisa A. Romano (The Life Coach), Richard Grannon (The Spartan Life Coach), Ralph Smart (Infinite Waters), Teal Swan, Ross Rosenburg, Heidi Sawyer, Judith Orloff, Susan Cain, various online support groups for Survivors of Narcisstic Abuse and those healing from CPTSD, and others out there working to help us and the rest of the world understand our sensitive and loving souls so that we can find ways to thrive and live happier more balanced lives!
Exercise and getting out in nature are all helpful ways to feel good in the mind, body and soul...I hope you will be inspired to by these video's I am creating...all just part of my journey as I endeavor as an artist to say balanced or re-balance, raise my energies, feel good and stay healthy.Hi all, for a while now I have had a message on log in stating that I have transactions that have not been applied to my account. There is an option to apply this transaction however clicking that does nothing. 

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Photonic device structures often require nano scale lithography techniques for their device fabrication. The techniques are electron beam lithography and FIB(focused ion beam) pattering. Focused ion beam etching has been used as a nanolithography tool for the creation of these nanostructures without mask. We obtain nano scale mesa patterns on InGaN/GaN LED(light emitting diodes) wafer using focused ion beam and characterized. The InGaN/GaN LED wafer was grown by molecular organic vapor deposition (MOCVD). To reduce the surface damage during FIB patterning, we used a dielectric mask layer and wet etching to eliminate re-deposition of sputtering materials and Ga+ ion implantations and ion damage layer during FIB patterning, and finally, removed SiO<sub>2</sub> with wet etching. A metal thin layer was deposited by an ion beam sputter to avoid charging effects during FIB patterning. We obtain a 2-Dimensional patterning for the fabrication of the high brightness LEDs. This FIB pattering technique can be applied to nanofabrication optoelectronic devices.
We report new type of micro-EL instrument and its applications for light emitting devices. Our new micro-EL, so-called confocal scanning electroluminescence sprctro-microscope (CSESM) has not only fast image acquisition time but also high image resolution. The newly developed CSESM is combined with confocal laser scanning photoluminescence micsoscope, i.e. micro-PL. Therefore, micro-EL distribution can be directly matched with micro-PL and mechanical chip structure of LED. It is fruitful for providing a fast and non-destructive method to analyze the homogeneity of LEDs in its completely proceeded form. Using this apparatus, we study local intensity and wavelength distribution of electroluminescence for InGaN/GaN blue LED chip. Our results represent that local fluctuations of electroluminescence intensity and wavelength position are closely connected with the fluctuation of local current density, i.e. current spreading features on LED chips.
We present a converged spectroscopic system design for performing photoreflectance (PR), electroreflectance (ER), electroluminescence (EL), photoluminescence (PL) and photovoltage (PV) measurements of semiconductors. The design of the experimental setup is described in detail. To test the performance of the system, measurements of a series of In<sub>x</sub>Ga<sub>1-x</sub>N/GaN light emitting semiconductor with different indium composition of InGaN layer are carried out by use of this system. The experimental reflection and luminescence spectra are analyzed and discussed. The experimental results demonstrate the performance of this system. Optical and electrical properties of In<sub>0.15G</sub>a<sub>0.85</sub>N/GaN multi-quantum well (MQW) light-emitting diodes (LEDs) with different quantum well (QW) thicknesses were investigated by electric-field dependent ER spectroscopy. From the ER measurements, we have observed the well-resolved transition peaks related to InGaN QW. Furthermore, the transitions related to yellow luminescence (YL) from Si-doped GaN and blue luminescence (BL) from Mg-doped GaN were observed in the ER spectra of In<sub>0.15</sub>Ga<sub>0.85N</sub>/GaN MQW LEDs. With increasing QW thickness, the additional transitions related to InGaN QW can be attributed to the recombination of excitons localized at the shallow potential states in InGaN QW, originating from the In-poor InGaN regions caused by indium phase separation in InGaN QW. By applying a reverse bias voltage, the ER features related to InGaN QW were shifted to higher energy, resulting from the reduction of quantum confined Stark effect in InGaN QW with increasing reverse bias voltage. On the other hand, the ER features from YL and BL band related to the deep and the shallow impurity state exhibit redshift and broaden with reverse bias voltage. These results can be attributed to the reduction of Coulomb interaction between donor and acceptor caused by the increase of depletion regions with increasing reverse bias voltage.
Excitonic carrier dynamics taking place in In<sub>x</sub>Ga<sub>1-x</sub>N/GaN multi-quantum-well systems have been studied by low temperature picosecond time resolved photoluminescence (LT-TRPL), HR-TEM, XPS, Dynamic TOF-SIMS, and quantum mechanical simulation methods. Both time-integrated and time-resolved photoluminescence spectra of In<sub>x</sub>Ga<sub>1-x</sub>N/GaN multi-quantum-wells with different well thickness and Indium composition were measured at 10 K. We assigned the natural radiative lifetime of each sample from the time resolved PL. We observed that the natural radiative lifetime of In In<sub>x</sub>Ga<sub>1-x</sub>N/GaN multi-quantum-wells depends strongly on the well thickness and Indium composition. To support the measured natural radiative lifetimes, excitonic oscillator strengths of the In<sub>x</sub>Ga<sub>1-x</sub>N/GaN multi-quantumwells were calculated by using a 2-D particle-in-a-box model as functions of well thickness and Indium composition. Values of the well thickness and Indium compositions from the HR-TEM and XPS compositional depth profiling were used to achieve more realistic computational results and to corroborate the measured natural radiative lifetimes of In<sub>x</sub>Ga<sub>1-x</sub>N/GaN multi-quantum wells.The Strengthening the Heart of Denver capital campaign is an unprecedented, cross-sector community partnership to renovate one of downtown Denver’s architectural treasures that serves as the home to multiple nonprofits providing homeless services, unifying families in crisis, and creating opportunities for cultural engagement for the entire city.
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