I'm so sorry to hear that! Being comfortable and relaxed around people you care about is so important, and I want to help. I would recommend practicing mindfulness and self-compassion. Try giving yourself some kindness, and noticing whatever thoughts and feelings come up, including any worries or fears. Be willing to feel and process any feelings that arise and don't hold yourself to an unrealistic goal or expectation of how things should be or how you should be feeling. Practice deep, slow breathing and stay present in the moment, reminding yourself that this is just one moment and it will pass. Make an effort to stay in this moment, and reach out to your friend in a relaxed and friendly way. It can also be helpful to keep an open mind and give your friend the benefit of the doubt, trust that things will go well, and treat this person kindly as you reconnect. I hope this helps, and good luck! Please feel free to reach out again anytime.
assistant
Here are some tips to help you prepare for this reunion and get the most out of the experience.  I encourage you to keep in mind that even though you may have been nervous at first, being friendly and warm can really set the tone for a positive visit.  You may also find that the memories of your friendship with this person provide you with a strong common ground, which will support an enjoyable reunion:

Be warm and friendly when you greet your friend
Focus on positive reminiscences of your time together
Weave in current topics of common interest to share about your lives
Reach out to your friend about getting together again in the future soon

If you feel anxious about the visit, you may find it helpful to talk with a friend or a mental health professional.  Here are some resources that might be helpful:

Mind, Body & Spirit : "Staying Friends With Old Friends"
NIMH : "Dealing with difficult feelings"
Mental Health America : "Overcoming social anxiety disorder"
assistant
I'm meeting a friend I haven't seen in years and I'm nervous it will be awkward. What can I do?
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