text: as a gay member myself, i think you're doing great. there are so many strong lgbtq people in the church who are either celibate or do end up marrying someone of the opposite sex anyway and i have never felt like that's for me. granted i'm young so that can change but i'm proud of you for trying your hardest. it's not easy to be gay and in the church and we don't have all the answers so all we can do is our best. don't beat yourself up too much, your heavenly father loves you so much