text: I'm sorry. This sucks. I have often had thoughts in a similar vein, even though I don't have anyone nearly as negative in my nuclear family. I was depressed for years when I thought I was straight, and now that I know I'm gay it is like I feel so much better and so much worse all at once. I feel free in accepting myself but acceptance from the rest of the world is, I sense, going to be a struggle. Good luck! We're all here for you!