In "Caught in the Deep", Goddard's memoir of his life after cricket, he wrote: "As the clouds of controversy following my exclusion from the Springbok team began to lift, it gradually began to dawn on me that as far as reality and true fulfilment was concerned I had almost certainly been on the wrong track." "I had always tried to live by certain standards which I had presumed were acceptable to God," he wrote, but he now believed he had been self-righteous in this presumption and, he wrote, "I was looking towards God and seeing Him raise His finger. In God's judgement I was undeniably out." He and his wife began to pursue a more intense kind of Christian belief.