On January 7, 2005 Rodriguez made a videotape recording in his (North Side Tucson) apartment in which he discusses his thoughts of suicide and his desire for revenge, describing himself as a vigilante. Rodriguez shows numerous weapons and devices such as his Glock 23 pistol, KA-BAR knife, a drill, a soldering iron, and duct tape, some of which he says are for torture. As he stocks magazines, he compares his struggle against Zerby's abuse to a war and states his intent to make her pay. He says if he does not find her before he dies, he "will keep hunting her in the next life" or someone else will "pick up the torch". Rodriguez alludes to Smith as a person he intends to kill and predicts his upcoming attempt at retribution will result in conflict with law enforcement but states he has respect towards and does not intend to harm the police. He also confirms his 2004 post on "Moving On" was aimed at recruiting someone to help carry out his plan and says he is happy no-one with "nothing to lose" contacted him. After recording the video, Rodriguez called Celeste Jones and told her of his suicidal thoughts. She encouraged him to testify in a legal case and said "things will be taken seriously". Rodriguez told Jones he did not believe her. Rodriguez sent the video to Munumel, two of his family members, and Martin.