He is not without human qualities, however. His last few moments in the novel reveal him to be a timid, socially inept man who is eager to somehow connect with his people. He recounts his past, including glimpses of his childhood; it is suggested that he was a lonely child who developed an inflated sense of his own power and importance by embracing fascism. He claims that he and "Fate" are the only "real" beings in existence. Finally, his internal monologue of his memories suggests that he harbors repressed homosexual desires—he finds women strange and ugly, but remembers men with an almost erotic tone.