Although Juanita found out that Pilar was right about Carlos never being a lawyer and never left the drug cartel business and even though she was at first very horrified, her unstable mental state caused her to still have difficulties accepting the real truth about Carlos and then slowly began to develop the belief that it is another way of doing business and making money and a living and that it was a way of supporting her luxurious good lifestyle for her and her family and still did not believe that Carlos raped Pilar, but instead she began to have false delusions that Pilar sexually seduced and killed Carlos. Instead of Juanita realizing her part in making a mistake of marrying into the Vazquez family, which ran a very powerfully influentially dangerous criminal business and that Carlos lied about him leaving the crime family business to become a lawyer is what all led her children to be accidentally caught and killed in the cartel/police violence; including getting herself into trouble with the police enforcement and that Pilar never meant for Juanita's children to be killed in the police/cartel violence, she still continued to only blame Pilar as the only reason for her children being accidentally caught up and mistakenly killed in the police vs. cartel violence because of Pilar's role of calling the police about the cartel; including Juanita getting into trouble with law enforcement. Juanita even stated remembering the grounds, grasses and flowers outside her house being completely stained and soaked by her children's blood from the police shooting. In addition, Juanita began to have delusional thoughts believing that Pilar was jealous of Juanita's luxurious lifestyle and wanted to intentionally destroy her happiness. As a result, she wanted to have the power and the human connections to find Pilar and her family to exact her deadly revenge, which is another reason why Juanita stepped into her husband's role in the drug cartel.