not once did you try to contact me . she could not see it , but she knew that it was much bigger than the ones in the video . i stared at the shelves of bowling balls completely lost . he was the strongest of strong men . it presented earlier than most-at the beginning of the sixth grade . i lay on a flat , white table , gripping the edges . i told them we were only having girls at the party . he 's not just a name from a list . ' 