`` i 'm not going to say thank you for that . '' i tell them about how these young boys end up blowing some guy in a theater men 's room for ten dollars , fifteen if he promises to swallow the come . i tried not to let my lip curl as i answered , `` um ... but he scared you so bad that you that you . i look through the crack in the curtains . `` and i know you wo n't leave your family to die . '' he loves you and he deeply loved your mother . 