`` you 're the only one of your friends who made it . '' it 's been a fucking nightmare being her damn babysitter . instead , it made me sure there was something to worry about . she smiled , and the relief in her eyes made me feel warm inside . `` you could n't ever have been here . '' the guy would pay his rent now for sure . the fake silverware looked so real . i have enough for groceries , and then i must find a job . 