the second he walked in the door , it would be the same thing all over again-the same desire , the same frustration . only , thomas did n't feel so good about it now . `` if you did n't want me here today , you should have said . '' even if we only stayed whatever we were at that moment , i hoped i 'd get to swim in that pool . with my free hand , i slinked my fingers through my curled and carefully styled hair . they were metallic silver and seemed to ... spark . 