not just because of his fierce love for his grandmother . she looks over at me and says , i was just joking . wiping his hands on his pants , he then put everything back inside and zipped . `` my source tells me they worked for millennium . '' he kissed my cheek , and i felt myself blush . clearly my brother was n't as accepting of himself as i was . `` 'no , i would die first , ' i said , yet even as the words left me i thought of the waiting flames . 