he never pretended to love me , never even bothered to lie about it when we discussed marriage . '' all the time , if you want . especially if he walks in with his checkbook open . '' `` i know , i was n't even thinking of that . `` just make sure you find something out . that led her to two other possibilities . he realized he was taking a risk by continuing to shut her out , but the urge to protect her remained . hit 'em hard but i want at least one left alive ! 