you can be trained to fear , just as you can be trained to control fear . i really need to make some money today , miss serious . to squeeze any further into the far corner of the room , they would have needed triangular backbones . one time she giggled like a little girl when shade let her ride on his back . his face was one of horror as he backed away from me . you were faced with an immense choice , one beyond your capacity to handle as an eighteen-year-old . '' 