`` then you find me and bring me to the farmhouse , nurse me back to health , cook me a hamburger and wash my hair and teach me how to shoot and make out with me for the purpose of ... what ? '' i slam the door loudly behind me , then run to my room , tears streaming down my cheeks . `` i ca n't answer that , because i do n't really know . he imagined that he would be somewhere but he wouldnt be in this world . 