i wont make that mistake again , i tell him , my body repeating the feeling of him pressed against me , him pushing against me . i thought you were doing all those exercises to help shield you from whatever it is that causes this . '' you should n't have to pick up a baseball bat to defend her ... or anyone . '' yet he could n't see the future . so let me push him on that . `` no , adults do n't know everything , '' she said . but no sign of a body lying any place . 