`` there are not enough words to tell you how sorry i am . but exactly what had happened , she still did n't know . next to it was a fold-out desk with a cabinet above . somewhere , perhaps beyond the reach of other eyes , something would strike fire against the void . he likes her well enough but they dont really run in the same circles . he 'd have to track his brother down and make him listen . it felt utterly real , not like a dream at all . 