`` i thought you were n't going to be here for a little while . `` lie on your back for me . '' now that i had actually said it i realized i sounded crazy , but i was sure thats what had happened . since he did n't stick around for me to be born , i 'm guessing he would n't be thrilled to have me show up on his doorstep as a teenager . i almost jump back at the power with which it hits me . 