many years, my love for him and appreciation for him was stronger than ever. like you indicated above, i guess this is love. after his rescue of me, we continued to work on our issues (or mostly my issues i should say) in a healthier way than we ever did. and as a result a few months ago, we made a decision to have me move back home. and so far so good, time will tell. i am still trying to figure it all out. but all i can say is this, that i am a different person now than before i left. i do like the person i am 