but since it doesnt , you should know what it means . i would find it impossible to eat any food that had been prepared aboard this stinking , infested ship . it seemed to hiss in pleasure . this thought gave me the strength i needed . in even more unspecific language , she was rewarded with comfort in the knowledge that there was no tape recording , and he had no close friends in the shadow cabinet , well not yet anyway . joy drew in a breath and continued . 