i wanted , and still want , to reach out and help you . his eyes flashed a warning that she decided to ignore . when she let him go she was crying . i pause and then dig a coin out of my pocket . `` and is he old and experienced ? '' how did they seem when you there ? '' there was no time for mourning . and you were happy here once ? except , it was a big f**king deal ! and , lastly , he 'd asked me to trust him . 