five minutes later , she hurried up the front walk of the church and opened the door to the sanctuary . `` i do n't want to say my safe word . '' although he did n't act like it , he was listening , `` yes . he now knew that even when he was bent forward to hold the walker , he was several inches taller than jay . it is your reservation for our latest performance . she looks up at me and nods several times , flashing me a knowing expression . 