a one-person hole through that gate will open if you enter the right key pad code and if an iris scan is successful . or that he remembered the color of her dress . he 'd said he wanted to make love to her . he 'd reached out , but that dappled air had sucked at him , pulling him closer against his will , trying to swallow him up . i was too old to go to foster care ; i had turned eighteen at the beginning of my senior year . 