pulse was slow and uneven , like a drum section made up of white boys . his arms folded around my head as he yanked me to his body . `` oh god , you 're all right . instead , he said , `` i want to know why you wo n't kiss me , and i do n't want a lie this time . '' the metal door , covered with rust around its edges , came to a creaking stop . her thighs squeezed together and a gasp escaped her lips . 