joey leaned back and wiped his face with his hands . i want to make it better-i want to fix everything-but i do n't know how . i do n't want you to be worried about me - everything 's just fine . `` i just wanted to tell you that i 'm going out to do a little shopping . '' the pictures appeared on the computer screen , one by one . chapter 4 wolf the train was his shield for now . 