to roam , it could change his life . `` old friend , '' jazz said , which did n't really answer anything , and killed the engine . i found him in his van , going over the night 's receipts . i smiled , feeling as if my heart had just been inflated . you just wish you did , '' i grinned . our food finally came and so did the beers . i raced to him with my gun up in his face . unlike with her parents , she felt something for him , but it was n't good . 