whoever was after zero was n't going to play by the rules . you know , just in case i ever need help with lily . in the end , i fold myself into lotus position on the back porch and try to just think about nothing at all . my father taught me that since the day i was born . they wo n't be in the same classes at junior high , would n't talk to each other in the halls , would n't have the slightest idea the other one was alive . ' 