i sniff a little , emotions bubbling , things i really hoped i would n't feel at all on this trip . jay looked up at him from his hospital bed and forced a light smile . now , perhaps she could find a man who actually would help her escape from her brother . he laughs and pushes my flashlight away . the answer 's yes , as i just told you . ' `` true , but- '' `` why do you always defend him ? toward the back of the shop , there was no natural light . 