taking care of yourself and comforting yourself. that is what we all need; to feel fresh and alive again. some people think it is not a good idea to express own feelings but once you talk to yourself, you understand where to direct yourself. it leads you to love yourself more! after 2 am and i need to get some sleep. but before i go i want to ask that if somehow these words reach you, can you go visit grandpa. can you somehow let him know that you are not really gone. it would mean more to him than you know. 