he found himself feeling drowsy , his body frozen . well , anything can look like you want it to if you '' re wound up enough , yes ? eric had a nightmare and he wont go back to bed , i said , and mum frowned at me . i was half asleep when he murmured , `` whatever it is , i'l understand . '' id touched her madness the day before and never even recognized it . holding it between my thumb and first finger i peered at it more closely . 