you having me as an extra luggage.” it was more like that. i wished i could just tell him, “don’t worry about me. it is really nothing. don’t care. find a way to grow and then i will be out of your mind.” not, “i am angry, i did this to…” it’s more like, “what went wrong in your mind? what went wrong in your thinking and your heart?” how can that be fixed and please don’t have me there as a part of somebody who can help you fix it.” i wish i could do something, so he could say, “i wish i had done differently.” that would be 