i knew that it was really a visit , but it was killing me to even have to pretend to be moving her out . will i love it hell , he 's a sack of blood . but when the knock came again , she knew she had to answer it . she clicked the seat belt into place . she was thin , and i realized for the first time that my arms went all the way around her . *that 's why i want to go riding-to let my mind rest while i focus on something physical . 