i go back to my own voice . sitting perfectly still , i turned my mind from questions and let it wander freely again . i can already feel its icy hands wrapping themselves around my neck . soon he was standing over the men who had remained to guard the standard . she sighed , her tongue darting out and licking his salty skin . it still amazed her that she had found his small , secret stash of fresh fruit in the bottom drawer of his refrigerator . 