`` now that 's a thought that could very well keep me awake nights . '' maybe we 're in the wrong place . i was only four and i still remember their rows . '' i might roar and threaten , and i might even pounce when occasion called for it , but she knew damn well that no violence would follow . nightmares come to life , all of it . it sounded like fun the more i thought about it . `` nope , you do n't get to do that . of course you are , he said . 