i 'm terrified because of how i feel about him . `` i 'm ... you know , someone could have told me about all this . '' tell me it 's not my fault ? do n't you remember the news before it went off for good ? '' god , how she wished she could laugh that off . she was pointing at a paragraph on the lower half of the page . to me , something was n't right about that . 'not much chance of that , ' he said . 