it drives me crazy that i almost lost her before i had the chance to meet her . maya jerked on a t-shirt that he had n't even noticed lying on the bed . it made her see past it too- at least , in herself . i looked at my dad as he stood there with tears in his eyes . days now , she 'd been working at getting over griffin . the staircase to the top was empty . i could n't do this without him here . `` and you decided to get really close to her . '' 