`` you 're really enjoying the role of secret agent , are n't you ? '' but how long until that day came ? everything else was only part of the presence . she was making a big effort to look cheerful and unconcerned . `` i know , '' he said , laying her back on the bed . this statement startled me and my eyes caught hers . at the same time , i was confused as to why he would be calling me of all people . even though they never said love you back , it had become our thing . 