shes the first one i havent felt bad about shooting , too ! that was something i didnt even want to think about , let alone say out loud . he handed me a bundle wrapped in black velvet . `` do you always speak in that eastern street slang ? '' what do you mean it wasnt there ? you dont have to be invisible to appear hidden , he said . chapter forty-four one would think that finding my sister 's body was the worst thing that 's ever happened to me . 