`` it was all crazy stressed out planning for my brother 's wedding . had that been the first time in valentine 's life he 'd ever actually been loved ? i bought it in town this morning . she stood facing it as though she had no ability to open a gate , and so i went around her to open it for her . rich people always did things in excess . i found myself fighting for control again , and i knew that it would be best if i never ran into buck on campus - or anywhere else . 