your mother gave him food , and he played with your brother and sisters , who had never seen a white man before . he 's pathetic and i 'm ashamed that i ever considered him as someone i would spend the rest of my life with . `` as much as i 'd like to f**k you , you 're not healed enough . she should have told them long before now . a subtle growl escaped him and he pulled me more firmly against him . 