and could have instantly kicked himself for letting her get under his skin to this extent . will you take me for a walk ? he played with my hand , tracing my knuckles ever so gently . his voice is quiet when he eventually begins to speak again . i can picture him rubbing his forehead . `` that , and i read a book on it once . '' now i knew exactly who troy dealt for . the emotions in his eyes as he stared back at me were too much to define . 