the next morning , i pretended to get ready for school . i lift her to sit on my desk and i step between her legs . `` we need your help , '' kyle said . not to forget the birds and the bees . i told him i 'd save some food for him and he could have it if he was willing to wake a bit early . i know real architects who cant sketch like this and would never have such big ideas . her cheek rubs over my skin as if she were trying to get a lifetime fill . 