there were a lot of people , but none she recognized . i had never considered myself as someone who would seek out the company of grandpas , but i was way too drunk to care about their age . i need you to get under the light and let me look at it . instead , she found herself in his doorway , and she was for once the one to look in on him without his knowledge . the vampire 's golden gaze was as flat as slate . he did n't know much more than i did . '' 