i hated even more believing those lies until the truth decided to come for me . it has that kind of affect too , because somehow you knew it belonged to only you , yet at the same time you knew that it could never be only yours , perhaps like jesus . `` i 'm looking forward to ... more of you . now i want you all to form a line . i didnt have to think about the answer . i stopped walking and looked at him , my expression serious and sad . 