the trick to dying without dying was to make arrangements without making arrangements . she took three large hurried steps then stopped . it was like grace had said , a natural high . he was a tad more heavily built and had several old burn scars on the back of both of his hands . the barrel of a gun pushed though . i wondered if i 'd ever get used to the idea . he recognized the smell and the sounds immediately . you wanted me to sit down , i did you one better . 