i 'm forcing you to go out places at night and then unloading all my screwed up emotions on you . `` i can try , '' the girl told him , `` but if it goes wrong they will probably kill me . i pulled my knees into my chest and the tears started to fall down my face . it was her eyes that gave her away . i know we will have to wait a couple of year , but that will give us each time to learn everything we need to run tara like a fine plantation . 