jacques studies it for a moment , then looks back at the doctor with confusion , saying this shows no change . you can take any one of them to deal with as you wish for that killing . she grabs me and pulls me into a tight , painful hug . see you tomorrow in art , she says , the sound muffled in my jackets sleeve . the idea of being on coke , the glamour of all the movies and songs . it only reminded me of my sweet little girl that i would never be able to hold again . 