the old one only complicated my work if i wasnt fully focused , but the new one reads me perfectly even when im shattered . i could n't move schools my junior year . there were worse fates than dying here . there was a death in my family . '' we need to switch our plates when we stop . `` this i have to experience to believe . '' i might even be lucky enough to get my head flushed down the toilet . '' one of them is not in the apartment , mercer had said . 