i felt it so deep inside that i could n't make myself believe otherwise . manny stared from the pool back to the insects . but he 'd left her behind , and she 'd been ... shattered . he was in jeans and a shirt again , shaking hands with some guy in a suit , his floppy black hair soft and perfect . `` all right , maybe it is n't different . but you have stuff to do and i do n't want to keep you from it . and all was the only thing she would accept . 