can you explain why you are too ill to drive ? you , your mother and my grandmother . when my stomach politely reminds me that i havent eaten all day , i turn to look at the door . they were both aware of the swelling crowd of reporters that eagerly waited outside for them . i tell you , your search for power is an illusion because power itself is an illusion . '' at last the passageway opened into a large room . by four-thirty we start turning on our lights to get ready for another long night . 