i could never believe a man would want something more than his own pleasure from the likes of me . i realized wed made it through a whole conversation with him stopping only a few times to search for a word . lea started to rub her head , feeling a little embarrassed after revealing that . she reached out to touch his hand . `` it does n't matter , '' vincent said , turning away . i ran up the steps instead of going into the living room , where everyone was getting ready . 