`` speaking of milk , '' i said , `` we 're going to hold hands and say a prayer for tara , cause she 's having her babies right now . '' yet always and without fail , the memory of the man and the reality of how much shed lost , and the many more things that they would never share , tugged at her soul . without hesitation , she threw her arms around me . she did n't respond and his dread only increased . `` are they having a party ... or something ? '' 