dennis tossed the used tissues at the garbage can in the corner , missed , and bent to pick them up . `` believe me , that 's not the case . '' tears stabbed at her eyes again . if i was going to die , let it be said that i died with honor . jolly fellow , should probably send him a christmas ham . '' the words fell from my lips before i could stop them , even though it felt like hearing the answer would kill me . then he crossed the room in two seconds . 