did n't have the emotional energy or luxury of crying . that was the worst of it , the repeated moment of transition . flames licked at her , swept through her like a storm . `` go on , give it to the scary bear . '' he did n't get it , and she had given up on trying to explain . my heart picked up speed as he crushed his lips against mine , his hands got lost in my hair , sending shivers down to my toes . that was a misunderstanding and you know it . 