your first move is to take a step back and remove yourself from this toxic relationship…for now. after choosing to study jazz drums at the conservatory, i decided to spend a year developing my skills and started studying with him. most of all, she made your life better. the beauty of the human condition is that we are always on a path, growing and changing. our justification is not an escape from bad things happening. i’m generally not one of those who “beat themselves up” about stuff. "once i got settled i started doing what i'm trying to do in practice. 