it was still an er and i had my fair share of adrenaline-inducing cases , but nothing compared to the rush of what i had left behind . he had to take her now . the presentation should have been better . he looked much bigger and scarier in the light of day . i curl my toes at the bottom of the blanket , brushing against the still-warm roof tiles . if he could just get a bit more out of himself . `` i understand , '' and understood also his own dread ; of course . 