with utter astonishment , she hurried over to the paintings and studied them more closely . i will stand beside you and be sure of it . '' i felt whole and healed in the dream . no rob , i want to save all of their lives , period . i said , feeling the red spots on my cheeks . it was overcast and cold but not raining . i cant remember the last time i saw you skip lunch , i went on . she 's her own force of nature . '' 