she knew she should protest , just a little , but she 'd suddenly forgotten why . listen , '' jack takes me shoulders and looks into my eyes . you may go back to your war . thinking himself in the clear , he let out a slow breath . i suddenly felt conscious of my own appearance . i carried the card around in my hip pocket most of the day , taking it out occasionally and looking at it . have a driver was annoying and made people talk about me even more . 