chapter 16 what we fear oh ! he handed his towel out to me . `` hey , you put boys and girls together and how can you miss ? i mean was there really a difference between death and losing every ounce of who you are ? and she 'd known grief aplenty , especially of late . her voice wobbled with tears , and she sniffed . i just did n't understand it , or see it , until after everything happened . '' `` talking to you is more fun . '' 