i am not strong enough yet to trust myself to know that under whatever circumstances , i will never pick up drugs again . she opened her eyes and saw jack . like you could n't bear to be away from me for a single second , even in sleep . '' if you do lead them here then well run together . he knew himself well enough to know that if he did , there would be no coming back from it for him this time . `` said it was because he thought he 'd never see me again . 