she looked startled for a moment , then smiled in appreciation , her eyes on his face . `` that is all i am saying for now . `` that makes much more sense than what you said before . '' i 'd get this done , then i could sleep , and tomorrow , hopefully on a full night 's sleep , i 'd be able to make some decisions . hey honey , at least im still a man . `` i did n't know where i 'd be , '' i said honestly . 