'cause i loved him and i 'm pissed he 's dead . how it had to happen to him . by the time midnight came around , the bar emptied and only the three men in the bar remained . i want to get your opinion of what you see here . `` ally , baby , you lost everything , '' he said quietly and carefully . for my seventeenth , she bought me this lame journal . i could understand how you read the scene that morning , but you were wrong . '' 