`` hey , do you want to help me fly my kite ? '' anything-and anyone else-was expendable . .tried to turn us in the opposite direction , away from the ship , so she recalled using their names as she grabbed each spoke . he 'd go mad if she did n't . i can only half watch the scene , because i keep wanting to see jane 's smile as she watches . we were married for six years when i told her i wanted to have a child with her . 