but then he supposed she already had . they , and a few other things , had ended his marriage . the first entry went back over one hundred years . after he left , i did make a list of all the native americans i knew , but even as i was writing the names , i knew this was a waste of time . im not joking , now you tell me what this is . the desperation in her eyes pulled me back , though . coughing is good too , and wheezing if you can manage it . 