you are not the first to crack - you wo n't be the last . it was early , but he had not yet slept , so this hardly counted as drinking before noon . yes , but im really feeling much better now . when he thought no one was looking and he was safe . i double-checked my reflection in the bathroom mirror . you know , i cleaned up pretty nicely . he was shaking his head up and down slowly while his eyes were turned towards the ceiling . 