`` you 're protecting your own skin , '' pam said . weve been looking for you , he whispered . one day you will not get up , if you continue these attacks . how long can someone confine in a room ? i struggled to breathe as i coughed and sputtered . he had enjoyed giving me pleasure and that meant a lot . we can at least walk away with that . if you were n't married , i 'd really go after you , '' the resident said . we must sow the seeds of rebellion in their minds . '' 