my stomach was tense and my back hurt . lark tried to give drew a scary-lady look . that must be what he 's talking about . '' his hand felt warm and hard and steady . i tottered on my high heels , caught my balance , and turned as she shoved me up to the order window . i could picture my fist connecting with his jaw , imagined the bone breaking . she 's sitting up on a hardwood floor with christmas lights all around her . i glared , wishing i could level him with my stare . 