she had n't expected this , that she would slip back into the gang like a hand in a glove . but then i found you on the floor ... that night ... and i realized how much you 'd been hurting and how much you needed to be saved too . twelve days later we had come quite a distance , pausing that night by a dry creek . if you are n't afraid , he has no power over you . `` and whatever got him killed off the books . '' complicated the good thing going on . 