after years of desperately plastering the cracks in our family so no one could see in , just watching out for each other in the here and now seemed relatively simple and even soothing . `` so all this is why i think your dad is involved . does he plan to ignore me forever ? he stared at her , his mouth hanging open . `` but i have n't got the new one yet . '' they waved back as she left . with one angry gesture , i swallowed the contents of the bottle . 