i woke the next morning with a fever and an earache ; this was not how i wanted my break from school to start . and you rejected me over and over again . who knew they could do that ? it was there to set a nervous man to wondering . you know those big red octagons ? i opened the freezer and found raw meat wrapped in plastic wrap . that you do n't have to worry about your own secrets getting out . he knew just where to go for this list . 