maybe walk around the block once . and i say , `` yeah , it sounds really cool , dad , '' and he 's talking about how he knows people there , and i 'm just nodding nodding nodding . he might be able to fix it . '' she is turning into a fine young woman-twelve , maybe thirteen years old now , i suspect . somewhere inside me , i 'd always known i would lose him . then he moved to the door and cracked his knuckles . 