not impossible , of course , just complicated . its the resistance , she says with a radiant smile as she looks up at me . i looked in my sister 's diary once , and she chased me with my brother 's baseball bat when she caught me . '' `` so , if you do n't mind , i 'd like to settle accounts . '' blake shook his head at the thought . `` it 's very you , '' i admitted and patted the bed . `` he 's kind of strange , do n't you think ? '' 