`` you were n't a crap wife , '' he whispered . she peered up at him , unsure . we are in the heart of safety and security . do you think i had power in my family ? he wished for good news , not remembering what good news looked like . `` aye , and they 'd pick ye off your horse like a ripe apple . '' my fingers draw up her back and tangle into her hair . i looked all over the house for the original to that letter , hoping like hell i had n't mailed it . 