she walked past him and grabbed clothes from the closet before making her way to the bathroom to change . i hope that stays here and doesnt follow me home . `` so ... you would n't use it again , if you were able ? '' `` that 's just it , '' she said , turning to face him only because he caught her shoulders and forced her to . i didnt think i was asking that big a question . he turned away but his voice drifted to my ears . 