i could see his choice had n't always been an easy one , but he 'd stuck to the decision he made . `` all the years we were apart , i was so clear , so strong , so sure i did n't still want you ... and that i 'd never be at risk of falling for you again . you may ask me whatever you want , sir . `` keep on staying up nights and wondering why you 're too tired to get out of bed in the morning . 