you had nothing to do with your family 's mistakes . it was like the light had gone out , and i knew the light was you . a steel pipe to his knee would have hurt less . if i didnt come to terms with the present , i might not have the chance to work on the past . jane jerked herself up to see what was going on and knocked her head on the cupboard . `` our love was kind of chaotic and careless and we really did n't know each other enough to actually completely love each other . '' 