`` but that 's not me , '' i said , poking myself in the chest . so i asked him if i could see her myself . my only guess is that something must have happened at the hospital . you 're an example of examples babe . he marched back to his office without waiting for a reply , leaving his office door open . i did n't want to arrive empty-handed to her birthday party . he wished he was someplace where he could run . 