he bowed low , a gesture of respect . and if you were n't going to die in a few months , i know that , eventually , you 'd have found a balance between being a king and a loving husband , but we do n't have that time . '' it was n't until i got pregnant that things got all messed up . shes like me , avoiding all school functions with such gusto ; its an art . miles nods but never looks at me . my stomach was falling from a very great height . 