`` one of my people took it , peter . `` how did you come to be watching ? '' the feeling was so exquisite that i felt like i was going to come then and there . i swear it was like he had his own personal gravity . i just never wanted to believe that lily would be the one destroyed because of me . what would make the man flee like that ? she asks and i scowl at her as if she 's nuts . which itself is run through with fault lines . 