in a peculiar way her voice was different from the way it had sounded in their previous meetings . he wished he could go to her , but he could not . `` oh , yes , toby ran down there , but no , he is not my dog . in all of his many years , he 'd never felt this way about someone before . she would see them coming at her and be unable to stop them . 'i really do n't think they 're entirely sad tears . 