he thought he was in control but we lead him along . `` do you remember dropping nick on his neck during take down practice ? they were about to get back together again , but she 's mad as hell after finding out he was coming with me . have zee get someone else out here to secure , then measure this scene . '' i was still trying to build a new life in new york , which included making friends and having plans that existed outside the life i shared with him . 