i smiled , feeling relieved for the first time . i was much more worried that the day actually fell on one of my fathers working day . the queen will kill me if i take you into the throne room without being summoned . '' before this was over i might end up doing just that . to put your bags in your room . she 'd been saving herself for him even if she did n't recognize she was doing it . she sat back and faced him , her expression thoughtful . 