i dont even have my dream now . she took a deep breath and remembered to talk mentally . slowly , she got closer until she could faintly make out a few words . i was smiling and nodding like a bobble-head doll . pepper had come along with her , and her brother and sister did their normal rambunctious greeting . * * * despite the summer month , the air was cool and the sun was barely up when we crept into the barn . 