i try to get the emerald into my belly button and , by stretching the skin around a bit , i do force it in so that it stays . `` i did n't know you made that sound when you came , '' he said , and i did a little not-breathing all my own . is that what i 'm telling them to do ? '' he was clearly still in a bad mood , but i did n't know how to stop it without finding out what was wrong . 