i understand they worry about the choice i made , but i just dont want to get there and lose control when they start giving me the fifth degree about it , you know ? `` nothing , '' i said , scooping the pills up and shoving them in the cupboard . i made sure to question your relationship and she told me several times you are not together . '' gently , he turned her in his arms so that he could look into her eyes . sorry , i just get so excited about it . 