i thought back to our first date , meeting her and carter in the shopping center parking lot . it was n't like i could tell him that , though . `` i never made the decision to love you . `` must do , '' she said in a dry tone . black spiders scampered under their boots . the sound of a heavy object being rolled across a deck further raised her concerns . through the thick tree cover , they looked down into a small trailer park . you 're what twenty-five- '' `` twenty-seven . '' 