or from killing that girl in the cabin , '' i went on , before i could stop myself . in thomas 's mind , newt was in charge , but he could also be a loose cannon sometimes . much better than i thought you would . but he could n't stop thinking about her . by now she was level with the open gates . i laughed , cut short by a shaky breath . i wondered if there was a reason for her confidence . i ask as i begin to play with michaels hair . 