she finally closed her doors and moved out . `` now you do it , '' frank said . but to die in a crowded boxcar with no water or air , stacked like so much firewood ? it took me a moment to understand what i was seeing . his heart dropped into his stomach ; he felt like he had just seen a ghost . if anyone can make her forget him , its me , he whispered . `` that does n't explain all the books ... or your fancy knife work , '' i pointed out . 