she was throwing up less today and was able to keep some dry toast down . 'how did you know we were being watched ? ' i laid her down on the sofa and looked down at her . `` marriage without love would be a cold and empty sort of thing , do n't you think ? '' that 's what it 's called when people get close through trauma . '' the pleasure of being warm made me feel like singing . she needed to find a new guide . 