i wanted him to feel the peace i was feeling . `` i might have done a bad thing , '' i said . tried spending this last week keeping things on the surface . but he also now wished he were standing next to her , alive , in a museum . he walked backward with her down the short hallway and turned into his bedroom . it made things pretty cramped with six people , but we managed . two more bolts hit them , in rapid succession . `` actually , it 's probably not what you think . 