you are awfully young to be a soldier , the girl said with some doubt . but around here , when i give an order , i am not bringing the issue up for debate . except that it felt as if she was the only one doing any compromising . the men at this station survive by virtue of their jellyfish quality . and then its dark outside and martins gone and im alone at the table , staring into my glass . please , let me do this for you , for me . 