my coat was still in my locker at school , so i borrowed mum 's raincoat and pulled the hood over my head as i stepped out of the front door . i dust myself off , trying to ignore how much i like the feel of his hands . i took a moment to mull over the dead grandparents i had no recollection of . he grinned and sniffed the air . and he wanted to get married . `` did you pay the guy on the beach so you could be a hero ? the silent question hung in the air . 