he stepped forward to follow her , and then took fright and stepped back , and then again , after looking carefully all around , he went forward , peering intently through the door , and then leapt back again , and again stepped forward and again back , like a bubble in an eddy . and now cassie had to be brave . when i look at you i see what you were eighteen years ago , and it drives me mad . i kept my head bowed , and would until told otherwise . 