it was n't worth the effort to try to figure my life out . i was n't sure there would be room to get her chair in between the makeshift bar set-up and the wall , but there was , just . over time , when nothing happened , he 'd mellow out-she hoped . i wonder what the consequences of my ignoring that voice in the back of my head are . '' see , i bet shes feeling guilty about the whole thing . when she tilted up her chin , he knew he 'd said the wrong thing . 