have knelt and had no words only tears and other days for a minute or two, i was able to talk to god and al and ask them to help me open my heart again, to feel love and to give love. i have asked god and al to guide my life.
i know this makes al happy that i am learning to trust god and talk to him again. i had wanted my whole life to know god to believe in him and alec brought me to him, when al was a baby and it looked like there was no hope, that is when i found god and i found 