i was more worried about our safety and grampas , and how long i had to continue wearing the heeled boots . i wo n't ask her not to share . i took hold of her hand and kissed it . `` maybe all is not lost , '' he said as they walked down the corridor toward her quarters . it buzzed over his skin , grating and alive . did n't matter what else was going on in his life , as long as he was on the field , he was good . 