churches , hymns , prayers , services , holy books , good intentions these are what we clutch when faith fails us . but its not enough , she said . now , they only joined in one place . but he had come here to ask so that he could make an honest decision . willy boy watched from his blankets . and im not supposed to be alive . lulu leaped onto his chest without warning . `` you certainly are lord know-it-all this evening , are n't you ? '' she planned to ask when things were more normal . 