in my head i was screaming at myself to back up , close the door and hide . but she was too shy and too scared of him to do that . i seem to have failed most of his tests . '' greetings , he hailed them with a formal bow . after everything she 'd done to him , all the ways she 'd hurt him , he would never be able to trust her . martin 's study was at the back of the house , facing the indoor swimming pool . 