he could make me come whenever he wanted , and i knew it . `` shall i see anything of you this term ? '' our relationship might be a jumbled mess right now , but i reached over and squeezed his hand . some ill-gotten knowledge will cheer me up . '' inside the box was nothing at all except ten three-gallon paint cans . as well as he knew and understood her , this came as a shock to him . were not telling him , are we ? the officer asks , nodding at me . 