perhaps another day and another event would be better suited for this . the joining ceremony had told her little . someday , i do n't know when that might be ; i wanted to decide for myself . if you do n't want to let the thing out of your hands , you can come with it . '' he knew he was leaving a vacuum behind . her parents are beginning to think we should take the baby and let her die in peace . `` i can tell you what i 'm not going to do , '' she said . 