instead , he takes me outside and puts me down in front of his car . now , his apartment complex had some big bugs . your country has a high rate of alcohol and drug abuse . tamara looked over at him , and noticed how wide his eyes were . when he died , it was so surprising , so dreadfully final , as you probably know . i was n't sure how , but i decided just to roll with it . a few seconds passed and she nodded . 