cole sees it in my eyes , i know he does . if i got pregnant , i would be scared , i think . i did n't feel as though i was drowning in the darkness quite as much . theirs was just a high-school romance . i ran my fingers over her cheek . i just wanted to see if i was the only one who felt that way about him . before we can leave , we must each inspect our equipment . i hope this trip will finally hold only good . 