he swallows hard and i think he 's going to go back to his self-doubt about his worth , so he shocks me when he says , 'i think i want to ... `` or , at least , it 's not far in the past . in a couple months , it would be spring . i need to speak to my student alone . '' but youve been under pressure ever since your early childhood . `` you 'd better pray to god that 's true , son . and pretty much anything to do with numbers . 