she knew he would be dead before he hit the ground , though she was wishing otherwise . he stamped a clean page in her passport book . there 's no reason at all to think that he broke up with me right before the holidays so he would n't have to buy me a gift and then got back together once his lease had been up . '' i frowned , not wanting to hurt the young girl but not having an option . his facial expression was frozen and pale , but she could feel his heart pound rapidly through shallow breathing . 