ben 's knuckles turned white on the steering wheel . then she sat down across from me and poured the tea into our cups . `` please , let me buy you a drink to calm you down . '' a series of vicious growls filled the line , then silence . there was nothing careful about tonight . he dropped his mouth lower , to the curve of her hips , and placed a hand on her inner thigh . he needed them all to forget him . i feel pressure on my right arm , like something is squeezing it tight . 