she was too well-used to it : the aching , the burning . `` i do n't know why it did n't come to me earlier . '' `` he does n't look at me any differently than you do . '' as we came closer to the source , i slowed her down to a walk . she had not handled it well ; things had gotten out of hand . he would never want me , she thought . no one was hurt , thats the good thing . she kept her voice cold and flat . 