cooper still had his arm around her . i saw the outline of her throat as she swallowed hard . `` we ca n't have you hurting yourself again . '' in fact , he wished she 'd died . `` i once ate a bowl of mayonnaise when i was hungry , '' henry says . the jesus-man stayed outside and talked with another man i didnt get a good look at . i want a brand-new start when i walk off this mountain . i think about how long it 's been since i took care of myself . 