he collapsed back against the bed and laughed without much humor . when he looked up from the ugly tile floor , he realized that he was n't alone . instant communication was out of the question . maybe he was n't as into her as he 'd seemed . you barely even needed my help if id left you alone you damn well could have gone through the madness yourself ! there will always be a need out there . i know it 's not safe , but the truth is , we have no idea how long this is going to take . 