he 's not so far gone that he does n't realize when he does something weird , and it makes me hate again that this is happening to him . a big car , with lights on its roof and a shield on its door . `` what kind of monster has he painted me to be ! '' it was funny to call it a gate . then he hysterically wept when they arrived at o=hare . `` you mean , i get one of those giant rooms ? '' your father has been constantly with me for over a day . '' 