`` someday i 'd like to watch you use this on yourself , '' he comments . it was n't fair of him not to just leave me the hell alone and let me heal . he could not have said what made him say it today ; unless perhaps it was the dreams . hunter looked at it again , after rubbing his tattoo . that voice made me smile , because i had worked long and hard to get my darkness to tell me when he 'd had enough of anything . 