as much as irene liked to talk about the possibility , he knew he 'd never leave his wife . the waitress returned with davids coffee . i could still hear her light laughter when we reached sawyer 's car . he fought the feeling , fought hard . i never want to see this look in her eyes again . i was on the swing that had been hanging here in the yard since we were kids , alone with my thoughts . `` i mean about continuing with our training . '' wait until you see what i brought you today . 