i made the next light while he raced his engine and tried to catch up . she was out there looking for flowers , but it was too early-too wintry . what i got to say is important . `` if he had something really advanced and heavy , that 'd just make people really want to know what 's inside . `` it 's none of my business what you put in - just give what you can manage . kelly had kept a diary for years , but it had been a long time . 