i wish we were together but we are n't . that was how jake had meant to finish . but in other , smaller , more subtle ways ... '' he shook his head . * * * the four played inspired golf over the first six holes . nobody in the world but luke could pull that off . not just for the next few weeks but for the rest of my life . what he felt now was a certain pity for her . blood streams from his throat and his severed hand , but it 's his eyes that i see . 