wait until you get to be my age and its a daily fight to keep the weight off . they were words she 'd longed to hear ever since the wedding and his horrid change in behavior and she had the sudden urge to pinch herself to be sure she was n't dreaming now . `` come on , you know you want to do it . '' so he could be found and punished ? '' the mare is lying down , breathing heavily . what will i do if i cant reach him ? my mother says , interrupting my thoughts . 