they would have to find some other way . the picture was dark , nearly solid black except for a rim light surrounding my upper body . beth just could not make sense of what was going on . everyone she 'd ever come to love had either abandoned her or disappointed her . and you wouldnt listen to me . `` well , you think my mouth- '' `` all of you . '' lives of quiet desperation and all that . i got ready to go to work , and then i thought , why should i go ? 