in truth , he was growing bored with drinking and stories . `` i guess there 's no point in worrying that you 're eating well . '' `` are you going to be one of those moms ? '' she offered him a tight smile in return and quickly looked away . she didnt want him to see her cry . oh , and be sure to tell her i look like your message boy ? `` we thought ... '' deb started and fell silent . i have to protect them even if it kills me . 