he dug the knife a little further into the girl 's throat . im a soldier im always on my guard . it 's easier for me after what happened . '' with that , he turned and walked back in the direction of the restaurant . people had rights as well as duties . `` girls are supposed to come out in the spring ; everyone knows that . what the hell 's the matter with me ? school , studying , games , parties , breaks and even meals were always with peter ; life was good . 