i wanted to be here , where things are getting hot . `` so , what you were saying is , it may have been someone else who attacked you . for a second , he could n't breathe , his pulse slamming against his temples , a band of disappointment clamping his chest . `` you have n't spoken to me since those few brief-vague-words after the concert last night . '' what had i done to deserve such devoted men in my life ? in other words , he was gorgeous . it will make everyone else feel better . '' 