you 're never going to win a contest . nancy did n't know about that night with carlos . after i applied all the product and combed my locks , i felt utterly exhausted and weighed down . there were two times , i recall , when we were at kristens house and i made a fool of myself . the fire started with the curtains and there was broken glass in the sink ; your grandpa was a pretty heavy drinker . they all waited patiently while i made a plateful of sandwiches . 