i shake my head because i do n't entirely trust him or myself and what i 'm feeling , but i do n't argue because i ca n't . she should have known she would . it does n't have to be awkward for any of us , like it was earlier today . '' `` you are not intended to , petal . '' what looked like the scaly skins of huge creatures were piled in a heap next to the lake . i took a deep breath and stepped down into the pit , holding my torch out before me . 