almost three years ago an old uncle of his had died and , together with his cousin , they 'd handled the house clearance . but i think maybe , i should bring clay over . it makes my breath come faster , that simple closed door . he would n't dare jump her out . after a lifetime of being loved by no one , it is still hard for me to accept that someone could care for me . you know that even without any details of what happened here theyll know you were involved . 