there was n't any way to say it any clearer , and if she had to stick around and spell it out for him , she was terrified she was going to start screaming . to the right of me , on the sidewalk , two boys stood holding their bicycles , both of them with their mouths open , staring at me . so now the questions we have to ask are , why ? `` i have never been more sure of anything in my life . '' 