his fingers trembled when he took my upper arm and leaned close , but his gaze never left the edges of the park . the whole effect , earl thought , was hot and lovely . was she unconsciously planning to feed josh and his kids ? `` dude , '' i said , eating breakfast with him , `` you did n't split the money equally . '' nick , i thought , but i would n't say it aloud . i run through the student body in my head when i realize ... there is no one . 