`` no , i think that 's slipped his mind . '' she understood the terrible dread , the empty void he would feel if she left him alone now . * * * * planner and bates entered the small conference room . i added and he chucked as he lifted his head i didnt feed you did i ? `` looking back from here , i have no idea where i found the strength to let you stay out of my life for so long . '' 