it 's sitting on the floor in the living room . `` ca n't wait to cash in on that . '' i can take a night train tonight and be there early in the morning . i thought that would be too much for him to bear at one time . a couple of shrinks wanted to put me on something for it when i was about fourteen and got super stressed out about the idea of starting high school , not because i was afraid but because it seemed like there were so many people just moving together in herds . 