and i mean it ... god knows , i mean it ... but i do n't know if it 's right . '' there was fuel spilling onto the pavement . if she wo n't have me , i already know i will be obsessed . `` okay , i think that one 's done , '' she said and relaxed for another minute . i looked at carlos and gave him the nod . `` i just realized something really heavy , '' i say . i do n't know if this is what i need . 