she really was a stupid , hopeless idealist . the doctor patted her on her arm before reaching behind her and grabbing a cup . `` joe was in a hurry , '' cole pointed out . `` next time i wo n't get so much on me . '' i had n't had time to work through all of this yet . his voice sounded as rusty as hers felt . he sat up , swung his leg and his cast around to the floor , and handed me my bra and my shirt without looking at me . 