because she wanted some ray of hope , she was willing to see caring where there was none . you havent been talking to me . but it makes me feel better , in control . perhaps he said again , then fell silent . exploring the south extent of the beach jordan came across the front end of a boat partially covered by sand . with one motion of her hand my aunt pointed to the small kitchen table . `` that depends on you , does n't it ? '' i can manage one little wife , do n't you think ? '' 