as much as she tried not to feel the sting of disappointment , it was there . `` but what if the mistake is ignoring part of what you are ? `` after twelve years- '' `` after twelve years , heather is still dead and it 's still my fault . '' she had a business to run after all . she does n't leave them with the nanny any more than she has to . it must have been something he realized after she was dead . he linked his fingers with hers and tugged . 