was just this challenge. i felt like, i’m supposed to be a musician. i ought to be able to sit there and play something. so, i tried again a year later and it was still hard, but i got through it a little bit better and i kept trying to do it and finally something broke through. now i’m at a point where my confidence is up to where i can at least get through it without having a nervous breakdown. there’s also an aspect to it that’s really great. the kind of freedom you have playing alone is amazing, too. whatever the mood or whatever you’re thinking about, you 