i get to my locker and empty my bag of the books i do n't need . you have to drop those thoughts now , all of them . as far as i could tell there were none around . the last thing in the world i wanted to see was my friends and my neighbors `` letting their hair down . '' `` but she was never mine , was she ? i nodded slowly , beginning to see his point . neither do i. i think thats a great idea . 