i could n't allow myself to get comfortable with this girl , to let my guard down for an instant . `` we do not speak of this . '' he said , his voice also ragged . that would put you over the top . the chair immediately broke apart , dropping him hard to the ground . you find out i sucked dick for the cameras , you got that on me , now i got no choice but to be your rat , '' she snapped . i shake my head and climb off the stool . 