the way she left me hurt me very much . i want him to take me , use me , f**k me like a whore . then maybe i could tell someone , though i 'm not sure who could help me . the life of a single mother is not easy . or had he gone to a restaurant ? ann wasnt here now so it was no use wondering what she would think of it , but still he did . i know that sadness has stalked you in your life , jo , from early on . 