he realized that he 'd throw a million baseballs a thousand times a day if it would keep her in his arms . he closed his eyes , rubbed his temples . `` please turn over to page 273 . '' she 's probably scared to have this thrown at her as a first assignment . '' it was alive with promise and joy . did he know all of the ten ? carlos grabs my hand and pushes past them without fear . it was a minute gesture , barely even a movement , but she saw it . 