i jumped up and walked to her , my heart in my throat . what else , he asked himself , was left to do now ? you had to have done that before , because you sure as hell never smiled at me like that . '' i hit rewind and recalled the moment i 'd landed in that dark room . `` this one is so high in the sky that nobody below will be able to make it out '' . she smiled at me and gave me a hug . 