`` i do n't know if i approve of what you 're doing . '' she groans again , and i rub her back . but one was a message from the girl that was supposed to show up at his apartment tonight . she had no right to expect more . this discussion had to happen sometime ; it might as well be now . i felt like i had to compete with jules . no matter how many times i told myself you deserved a better life , i knew this is what you know . 