he did n't know what to think of his body 's reaction to the man at his side . they stood together in silence for some time , gazing out at their own individual ideas of perfection . if only these two knew how much i was hiding from them . he winked as he walked away . please tell me those words are n't going to come from your mouth . was that the cause of your awkward meeting with him at the party ? '' nick joined those waiting , offering smiles to the ones who 'd look him in the eye . 