`` before you get started , tell me about the others . your father took me aside , he was so gentle . my mouth drops open , but words wo n't come out . he quickly unbuttoned and unzipped his jeans . you gon na keep it secret ? `` he ca n't be gone , he ca n't , not him . '' `` that i 'm alive , or that i 'm a yankees fan ? '' when i saw the trucks heading out here , i knew damn well . 