he turned his hand over , palm up , and gave her fingers a squeeze . i have to do it , she thought , sitting in the red sunlight . she blinked rapidly , sniffing as she stood up straighter . you ca n't push the envelope and not expect to pay . '' it was the easiest project i had ever done . the hell is it talking about ? `` sounds as if you find the position ... lacking . so what am i going to do with all that money in one lifetime ? 