she opened her mouth to speak , but nothing came out and she closed her mouth again . then he tilted his head to look up at me . i understand how methodical you are and know you think my latest decisions have little planning to them . yours was to obey my rules , for your own protection . by all accounts , he said , you should have known it was me . i wanted to move away ; i wanted to rail against her again , against her threats ; but i did n't move as she came closer . 