sudden. i would sit in the garden and look at the small stones, each one of them so unique and different, no matter how long i would look at no matter how many, they were never quite the same.
there was a single invisible barrier remaining between me and them and this barrier was my thinking of me as outside of them. i knew this well enough but never knew what to do about that, and then one day, i had not done anything at all other than just watch and want to be there, with them, inside them, dancing with them, it just happened. 