sit in a special seat. then i’d think, “okay, i’m a big deal.” i’d start running with that idea and come up with big-deal notions about how things should be.
then i’d get the message, “oh, no, no, no. you should just sit on the floor and mix with everybody and be one of the crowd.” okay. so now the message was that i should just be ordinary, not set myself up or be the teacher. but as soon as i was getting comfortable with being humble, i would be asked to do something special that only big deals did.
i feel a lot of pressure to send out a really good 