she had an urgent need to get the door open and see the familiar blue sky and trees and larrys barn . that 's all i want right now , because i 'm exhausted . '' then i worried about how jared might possibly being in danger ... because of me . i do n't know what to do with that . `` if they simply fall down dead , it 's a one-shot cost . her hands move to my shoulders , gripping them hard . amazingly and suddenly , he managed to undo open his eyes for the first time . 