he did n't want her hurt in any way , and he did n't know how to stop the course he 'd already set into motion . it 's worth at least a few hundred . '' it 's like announcing to the world , hey , there 's something so wrong with me that my parents do n't care if i 'm alive . my uncle was 63 and worked in the oil fields , which meant he was not only covered in filth ninety percent of the time but he was also loaded . 