the commander closes his eyes and shakes his head . although strong metal bars made entrance or exit through this window impossible , it was always kept open a crack , and she remembered that the back door key hung on a hook fairly nearby . if she were truly ill , she must finish this as quickly as possible . he could n't recall a time since before he 'd been taken that he 'd been this drawn to a female . and what 's the big deal , anyway ? `` i did n't bother looking for all the possibilities . 