`` oh , that 's just gross , '' he 'd said . stupid ... im stupid to have thought-thought i could be with you forever-ever . i 'd only started my graduate work because i needed more to do . they should name a country after me-wait ! let her look after you a bit . '' she waved a hand , making a window in the door , and saw amys charging past . the idea of sitting in a crowded , noisy hall made her shudder and hold her blanket closer . my eyes continually stray to the balcony . 