she was alive and well enough to know that i was bad business . `` care to tell me what 's happening ? '' he wanted a little of her before he left , as if she were some kind of medicine that might keep him alive just awhile longer . what woman in her right mind would even want to be seen talking to , let alone living with , a man like me - wearing blue pyjamas as well . '' i do n't say 'no ' or 'stop ' or anything else . 