i sigh and continue towards the gates of the school grounds . she seemed to accept that and he watched her nod in understanding . why cant you get a real job ? the purse was in her lap . `` no , i 'm fine , '' she said and burst into tears . my brain was working like a mass of gears all stuck together . they usually looked scared and he thought it was funnier n hell . she lifted out a large square and placed it on the ground . 