all the while he drove his mind was whirling with confusion . he did n't want to walk away yet . `` your quick thinking will make this much less painful . '' you can keep telling yourself it 's about my brother , that 's fine . `` it was just the one ; i just scared the rest and they said they 'd stay away . i had wanted to build a real relationship . i wore that t-shirt all the time , even for bed . i know she is n't lying to me , but it seemed so real . 