i said , trying to keep my breath from shaking . i could only stare at him for several ticks of the clock . i pick up the needle threaded with blood-red silk and vow to try harder this time . he should trust that people would see his potential , even if he had a hard time seeing it himself . `` but you 're scarier than i am . '' all of course for your own good . parker looked terrible , but he grinned at her . 