`` i wish i had n't , '' she added quietly , wondering where the shadow was now . the gun in her left hand was cold and it was awkward to hold . `` but there were others as well . you better not let go of my hands , because i am going to slap you so hard that you are going to be knocked into tomorrow , james maxwell . i 'm sorry , and i love you , but i love him too . revenge is all l want , and ill have it . 