she was a business partner to us , '' pussy said . `` they are going to torture her . '' `` i suppose that would depend on the man . '' it scared me , thrilled me , and freaked me out , all at once . beer , snacks , sport on the big screen television and poker-everything we need for a great night in . `` you once said you did n't think you were capable of love-that somehow that ability was lost on you . i lay awake wondering about earth life . 