he stalled mid-step-as if thinking the better of it-before turning to me like the weight of the world was pushing against him . she flew backward and hit the door hard , the wood cracking slightly , but she was too tense-too shocked-to feel anything but the thud . `` everything about you is perfect for me . '' he had not realized he had n't been breathing the entire time the woman had been talking . it felt like a boulder slamming down on his heart . 