this was the place she would have come , i was sure of it . take her as far away as you can . though it was almost nine , there was still a large crowd gathered around b 's and s 's . there is nothing worse than disappointing your parent . and i just sat there on the sofa for all of those three hours and thirty five minutes , waiting , torturing myself , crying my eyes dry . she touched the delicate red petal of a hibiscus in a tall clay pot . 