okay , why the big swing to the dark side ? `` god , i want you , '' i whisper when i sit back on my heels and pull her up to me . she did n't need to be taunted too . every muscle in josh 's body is tight , the muscle in his jaw is flexing , and i can feel the frustration coming off him in waves . it seems like your father is the key to all this . for the last year , i knew that you were hiding something . 