`` i do n't know , '' i said , heading back to my apartment . surely one naughty child ca n't trouble you ? ' plus , i wanted my kids to see real life , not be sheltered . `` i wo n't have any vanity here , any holding back . puffy white clouds drifted by and giant birds zoomed in between their fluffy folds and soft edges . where can i get some ginger beer at this time of night ? ' `` that means a cow has passed this way . '' 