money is usually the motive for murder . blood was oozing out of the back of his head . even now , i know i should n't feel guilty . everything that should happen would happen whether people wanted it to or not . `` we met ten days or so before christmas . all of the sudden a wind started to blow hard , transforming in a blizzard . mutton disguised as lamb is how the guys in our town describe them . i felt like i was living each hour as if it were my last . 