she was expecting a lot of the people in the white house . ford lit one up and leaned next to me . he said it with exactly the right touch of modesty . she went back into their room and closed the door carefully . he 'd shared with her how lonely he had been , but he did n't have to say it aloud . it did n't matter , she was laughing now and it felt incredible . `` if you had n't helped me when you did , i would be sleeping on a sidewalk somewhere . '' 