i dont know the name of a single one of them . thats cause it was happening to you . i cross mason 's room and sit down on the edge of his bed . i fist his shirt in my hands and hold on tightly , the fear leaving me slowly . he has orders to remain with me . '' `` you can have them back after you tell me why the f**k you 're leaving ? '' `` did you find the square all right ? '' shes gods child , and shes beautiful . 