if i do n't shift quickly or accurately enough , i look like a ripple moving through air . i took his hands in mine , `` i have to go . '' one mi-17 helicopter was taking off from the beach as another was arriving . nick looked down at the counter and shook his head , then pushed away from the counter and paced away , running his hand through his hair . as he nodded , he felt ashamed of this place , of his history . 