i 'd gone to my room to get my nightgown , but i was back plastered against ham 's side , cheek to his shoulder , fingers lightly raking through the hair on his chest . this was the moment that would define me . i personally have always liked `` the lily-white boys '' , you know . ' `` you can but job might not be there because , seriously , i need some help . a few moments later , there was a knock on the door . i have coffee if you need some . '' 