i smiled warmly at him because i really meant it . i was n't myself , and i hope you know that . though she was a few years older and much taller , she had the same coloring , and facial features . she pulled out the biggest thing left in the bag , a two-pound can of fruit cocktail . `` like to play with a man 's sword , do you ? '' he released me and i stumbled away . my ears roared and i had to close my eyes . 