by the time he 'd pulled up to the house , she was in a much deeper sleep , and he was able to carry her inside and put her on the bed . `` so , do you use these birds a lot ? '' she gave them two thumbs-up , so i thought you might enjoy them . '' i knew how to shut off my emotions now . i sat down again , and leaned my head back against the couch cushions and moaned . we always talk , even when we 're dead . 