and the next day billy came home , and nobody could give two hoots about me at all . he laughed as she finished his line . next thing i knew , a straw was pressed to my lips . why dont you meet me later at the rail ? `` not to this bar , '' she said instantly . i want to cheer her up and bring a real smile to her face . i lay back on my bed and grabbed my pillow and screamed into it . 