`` but i think that 's best , do n't you ? '' `` and is this analysis of my father 's character and position and your view of both supposed to make any difference to me right now ? '' for both our sakes , i would n't ever give up trying . '' there was little packing to do . you can not afford to do this . my mother was in the kitchen , so i went and told her . i did my best to keep my lips shut , to wriggle my mouth out of the way . 