`` when i said i could n't lose you before , i meant it . `` it 's not like i talk about it to you much . it would be way too complicated if we pushed past friends . '' i did it , and took a slow breath . but to the point of calling out a demon to destroy him ? i choose not to be afraid if i can help it . it was still weird seeing the oak land so green . you definitely wont ever be accused of throwing like a girl . 