wrong anyway as no 9 year old boy wants flowers for their birthday.
my time spent at alexander's grave is less and less, i have never just gone to be close to him, i have never gone every day, every week and sat for hours there. i can't, i find little comfort in knowing that my beautiful boy lies there without me and as much as i feel guilty for not being that mother i would rather show my love for him in other ways.
fundraising does that for me, the challenge of keeping him alive in my heart is made easier by remembering him through the stories i tell and raising 