instead , i hear the notes of a song i know so well , a song i want to live in , a song i want to feel inside and out . she has always had a close relationship to her family , but it stops there . thats what i keep wondering about myself . it felt as though a brick lay on each one . `` but the good news is i know where they 're at now . ' and still he forced himself to say , `` it wo n't happen , holly . '' 