i had made plenty of mistakes and done plenty of things wrong , but i was on the right track now . i have n't been able to wear it in years . '' `` something different happened last night though . '' he let himself out of the hospital room and leaned against the back wall next to a utility cart . she moved ahead of me then , leaving me with my troubled , frantic thoughts . what a day this was turning out to be . my boots slip and slide over the cold , muddy ground . 