the leaders came out of the kitchens where they had been getting ready . `` do n't listen to him , '' x said , and solo glanced over at him . `` he was my best friend , and yet he could n't come to me when he really needed my help . when i tackled it backwards , for a moment my body stuck to it , frozen with ice that it carried inside . keeping one hand on the wall , she went down the steps , several of which creaked under her weight . 