if anyone came by in a boat , they ... they would see us . '' an indication of his oldest son 's nerves . now or never , he told himself . that was enough for now , he thought , lying awake in the dark long after she 'd fallen asleep . he was alive , but in great danger . she opened abbys door a crack and peered inside . just then , the final windows sealed shut , and the boat locked itself down into racing position . 