i think at times she lives for that. ' when asked if she was afraid to be alone with him at that time , she replied , `` not at all . the pace of the work immediately increased from frantic to furious . and perhaps well let you live . a cold fist of fear wrapped around my heart and squeezed tight . i dont like seeing young people fend for themselves . nothing else to do-except get naked together or talk . he had never , ever , been like that . 