she felt actually faint as his gaze fell upon her , and now the idea of ka was almost too strong to deny . pushing the door fully open , they crept into the hall . so we will play a game together . i keep taking deep breaths , telling myself to calm down and breathe , but the f**king problem is i really do n't want to want to breathe at the moment . after we get out of here . '' see if theres a way across down that way , he said . 