she was n't certain how she knew , but the feeling gripped her and made her hold hard to mac . `` they 're cutting off all means of communication . '' but even if i 'd only passed by you in the street , i 'd have had something off you . and besides , it was so negative . she dug for her keys on the way to the kitchen door . both her mother and sister promptly closed their lips and painted on fake smiles . then his body was shoved , lifted , and pushed back against something soft . 