at the thought of little ginger babies ? she was n't going to give an inch , but then neither was he . but i am not yet dead , and will not be reaching into anyone 's brain to seek out their thoughts any time soon . what have i been doing all that time ? everywhere i look makes me wonder if i have been here before . i didnt know if i was going to die or not , but i trusted him with all my heart . he turned back to what he was working on . 