i wrap my arms around my mother and hold her for a very long time . they did not speak very much during the flight . it never has to be you again . the blade was sharp and she was not careful with it . i do n't know if the near-death is responsible for that , or if it 's something else . she moved around him , circling , smiling . this time there 's no false sunlight , no vision of my parents ' cottage . it was kind of fun , a refreshing change of pace . 