but it is my hope from what we learn of him , and from the place where he now lies , that his purpose is otherwise . i cant create anything in this world and i thought this was a tragedy , but now i understand how i can contribute with destruction , i just have to be certain of the enemy and now its perfectly clear . the vision showed the morning sun rising on a day of blood . he finished with a screech , reaching up to tug the hair on both sides of his head . 