it was coming now every time he closed his eyes . there was a sudden crack as the air in the room was split in two . she loved me and my brother and sister , but she 'd always save her own skin first when it came to dealing with my father . '' naturally , she would not let him get the impression that she was calling him for any reason other than to express her appreciation . she didnt know why she was being so stubborn , but no , she did n't trust him . 