we were all in agreement on this . it was the only thing i truly knew about myself , the only thing i 'd ever known . my shame will know no bounds if that 's what happened . '' he signaled the end of the conversation by turning away and mumbling into his hand terminal . an orange eyed person stood in front of him and spoke . the silence of the deep pressed on him . `` why was she hooked to a tube ? '' `` the doctor says the worst should be over soon . '' 