it was as if he 'd thrown a bucket of ice water on me . i now have the reputation of a rebel . im not god in the way you think , it 's just my name . i turn toward the window , stare at the moving clouds beside me , and wonder if that taste will ever go away . thank god the girl wasnt here with him . more than half mias salad should still be in the other room , too . he spoke to steven and seemingly glided into the room with the weak voice . 