`` so what happens now is that you 're free to do as you please . that 's all it took to change the queen back into a stuttering , snarling younger sister . she shrugged , tried to look as if she did n't care . the longing steals my breath , nearly bends me double . `` have you had dining hall food ? '' i jumped up and drove my head into his gut . falcon struck fast and hard , a calculated risk , flying toward the bizarre figure made of ash , his fist outstretched before him . 