but afterward , we had a talk and decided that ... that it 's not working , '' she said , coming out with it . she needed to come to terms with that , even if it broke her heart . to joe , it felt like he had been kicked by a thousand ton mule . carefully opening the door to this floor also revealed no apparent threat . my grip on reality was still far away , which was likely the reason for what i did next . ^he would like to cast it to you . 