even now , when he wanted to change , to become a good and honest man , he was n't sure if he could . `` come , '' she said , tapping the card with a long , red nail . and the only loss that would finish me is if i lose you . the sound of knocking on a door dragged me back to consciousness . the easiest answers are often the accurate ones . why make him feel worse than he already does ? ill save every cent i earn before my last day , wont even buy beer . 