she kicked the box to the side and knelt , sliding her hand under the office desk , searching by touch to fish out two more letters . he played the light of the candle over the top of the cage . but you deserve to have that choice in the first place . the lump in my front pocket was obvious . hes holding something back , but without my sight and without my family , i am in no position to push . `` it was a while ago now , and i told the police everything i could . '' 