i tried , but he wouldnt give me the time of day . then she knocked at the door . and although it was wonderful , it was the times we sat and talked that i enjoyed the most . i am really in love this time . sure enough , blood is dripping off the back of my hand . they only had one choice now ; move forward or die . he pats his stomach and says , `` that smells good . knots form in my stomach building up to my heart . an hour later she was back . 