`` let 's go see if beth is up yet . '' she did , but i was not at home . you are afraid you made a huge mistake . and the thunderstorm feeling , the feeling of pressure , had been squashing caroline 's house almost flat . `` of course , '' he says , his voice low and gruff . you just seem so comfortable with the other . i pointed my rifle straight up , resting the butt against my hip , and put on my order face . 