he left the room and i was led back to my cell . `` where the heck could they be ? '' her hand was lying flat out in front of her . i know it 's been a shock to you-god , how could it not be ? by some miracle , she closed her eyes again . i replied , not willing to start again until tara had recovered . because if i did break them there were always more pistol whips and more cable tie to go round . i mean , yes , but not the way you mean . 