i knew i would regret it , but i loved him and he refused to bed me without the blessing of the church . '' after eating i ordered one more beer . and i do n't understand why you keep- '' `` you want it enough that you 'd break up with me and find someone who would give it to you ? '' he knew that this had taken place over some time . but i promise to not go anywhere else unless you come back . things are moving much faster this time than the last . 