if i could get it i would only have to come up with twenty thousand dollars . mother was as helpless as i in challenging the ways of a kingdom . `` son , calm down and listen to me . gave me a lump in my throat . > what-is and what-is-likely-to-happen ? no return address , just like last time . it was just the farthest thing from my mind for you . '' but he was n't sick , you said . you think i 'm going to believe that ? 