i do n't want drew to have to watch us dancing together . '' she finally released the door , letting it swing wide . my heart was thumping wildly , my blood was buzzing with fury . the water was n't nearly as icy as it had been a moment ago . only there must the book be blessed ! '' i ca n't forget the way his hands felt , the way his fingers slipped so easily inside of me . `` you 're the one who started this whole mess to begin with . '' 