i reach out and smash my hand on the button to make it stop . his father had n't stuck around to see him born . it padded slowly between walls of flame . his world filled my head and mine his and he started to weep . still , the trees around it were black , and the grass was gray . she moved aside for him to enter . he 's staring at the floor , smiling . the panic that had been long away , years and miles , almost forgotten , only to return . 