`` please , god , '' he said , tasting the salty moisture of his own tears . but your peers say youre cold and wooden with them at best , and treat them like theyre beneath you at worst . not only was her world sort of crumbling down around her , but now she was also talking to herself . at a party like this one , actually . '' he suddenly felt exhausted , like everything had caught up with him all at once . i kept looking at her looking at me . 