i had to jerk myself up and onto the shallow steps when the first one pulled out of traffic and up entirely onto the wide sidewalk . you are a guest of the mandarin , mrs ? ' we 'd be forced to land anyway . would she take it off and declare herself free for the taking ? it can be dangerous , he says , avoiding my question . `` you 're going to tell me you 're not sleeping with her ? '' i now go to comfort my grandmother . so there 's no use , all this . '' 