he leaned in too far to see if he could touch the ducklings and fell in . you do n't allow any real self-rule . '' josh asks as the guys join us on the deck . i wanted to know how his community prepared for the coming war . this might just be the second best decision i 'd made recently . but he wished he could have found a way that did n't involve so much blood . just what i needed to complete the moment . '' 