`` she did n't mean anything by it , '' i said , facing jagger . thats like an advertisement that we have food and water . she wanted to feel sick at the very idea . i do n't bother cutting the engine , forcing myself toward the house , needing to get inside . when drug takes effect , he will do and say what we want him to . i catch the slight edge of hurt in her voice . i run back upstairs , when i reach the top i take a few deep breaths . 