im embarrassed just because i collapse in front of everyone , and yet theres not a minute of the day when im not being watched or filmed or both . i did not return to my uncles home until rather late at night . i 'd left the door open , and the crash had attracted attention . he was always polite and friendly . `` no , you ca n't do it tonight . he said this while standing up and walking out . melody screwed her eyes shut again . but whatever words he said were suddenly lost . 