`` we could really use an ambulance while you 're at it . `` i just got a call from kick records . but we were getting low again . and farms where cattle were eating grass . i swallow , sit up and open the wallet . sweat beaded out on my forehead and on the backs of my hands . every time he blinked , he saw flashes of that horrible afternoon when he 'd walked into the kitchen and found his mother in the process of dying a horrible death . 