back before she 'd gotten interested in him , autumn had told her all about his checkered past . you probably wo n't have time to get too uncomfortable . '' `` what is sensible is for you to explain what the hell is going on ! '' there 's no going back , and no one and nothing can take it away from you . i accepted what i was most of the time and she did all the time , but i wished i had a mouth and lips , just to feel hers against mine for a moment . 