singular in years , she did not scream . she grit her teeth to prevent the cry of surprise and pain . and after getting the brush off , i should have just thrown it out . how did you make him love you ? he forced himself to count to five , staring at her , trying not to look away . christmas was only a couple of weeks away . and she 'd been right about the clean room . an old one with a crushed left hand jumped onto a nearby wall , stared at me . 