i walked down the sidewalk and picked up my bike . while she had never been big on religion , she did believe in heaven and hell . none of us have had showers . instead , she turned toward the cabin with her face in her palms . you know which is the better time ? i want to remain as we are now , forever . when the lights come on , jess ca n't believe her eyes . she said quickly : `` but really , what am i saying ? 