as i leaped off the porch steps and onto the grass , the frogs in my belly jumped up to my chest , making my heart pound . a double-edged sword as it turned out . well , ill need to take steps to make sure nothing like this ever happens again . `` you 're not on my roll , lucy . `` i had to get out of there . i led eric in there , switched on the light , and made sure the blinds were closed and the curtains drawn across them . 