with which he threw back the note he had been given in payment . `` because you 're not dying , boss . what exactly are you and cas doing all day , and why wo n't you tell us ? '' do you think im going to die out there ? i nodded , trying to save myself from having to explain . what 's happening between us is n't right . '' he knew he was being picky , but food was one of the things that reminded him of home . 