are staying away, and some are doing the same as me, choosing that morning. it does not matter what we all do as long as we do what we feel is best. we know that we are all surrounded by love across the city and that we will be holding each other close no matter where we are. i do worry for those running or trying to push themselves to be in the thick of the crowd or near the finish line, but hopefully all will get through it. i hope everyone lets themselves feel whatever comes, no matter how it comes out. it's important to let it out and 