but i was just trying to make a point . it has something to do with the tides , i think - or maybe it 's the salt . ' it was so painful to talk about . i lead the way down the ladder and head directly to the engine room . he turned his big smile on me and asked . my family probably thinks i wandered off into the ocean by now . '' she 's fast asleep , lying on her side , cuddling autumn in the ring of her arm , who 's also asleep . 