she wanted to go into his arms the way she had when she was little , lay her head on his broad shoulder , and find refuge from the world . `` i think you should talk to your doctor . confusing or not , the memory of his lips against mine made me dizzy . this was n't the first murder scene i 'd cleaned up on my own , and it would n't be the last . `` one more question no , three more . you 're still going to tell me . '' the car had just been an excuse . 