he was coming up here , then . it didnt matter , she must go forward . `` that was n't teasing , '' he said , regarding her with deep blue eyes . he appeared on the subway to do pull-ups on the hand-bars and hit on girls . unable to stand it , he slammed himself against the door , again and again , determined to break through it . just as you and father dreamed all those years ago when we were young . '' but if he was n't ready to speak , she was . 