he found he could n't look away as she shrugged in response . i had two friends who i knew for sure had come out to support me , and who were n't the least bit embarrassed to let everyone know it . if i disappeared , i 'd still be in your heart like them , right ? '' the professor had counted on this , on her , and i had too . that is , if we ever see that money . he asked me , eyeing the lettuce wrap that i was holding up to his face . 