you would n't be here now if you did n't still have feelings for me . '' the rest of the flight home was uneventful . i have to get the broom and clean that up . '' he grabbed my hands and pulled me into a bathroom stall with him and locked the door . i remember the pain i felt when i found out alec knew all along - but then i remember the happiness i felt before all of that . `` i ca n't imagine it 's easy feeling like you 're losing control , '' he said finally . 