sam decided to send some flowers from the bar 's staff . it was nearly midday when a sturdy knock at the door caused the hobbled master to leave his cellar . her voice shook as she said , go away . everyone outside my family thought my mother was strong and beautiful , but when she got like that , she just looked frail and incredibly ordinary to me . `` i do , or i should be able to find supplies to make something like that . her reply was in a clipped tone that was not encouraging . 