he might as well have kicked her in the stomach . i met him in the morning , i asked . get on those reservations , would you ? `` nothing 's wrong , but i definitely have a problem . '' and of course they will all be in gold i added . so why the hell am i messing with all that ? she only needed to find a way to contact him , to hear his voice , to make him listen to her . a page flipped and settled , and my eyes focused on symbols . 