then his head dropped and his mouth started working my neck again and i wondered why i wanted to move in the first place . to have them so close and so in awe ... well , i did n't quite know how to react . there were so many ways to f**k this up before they even had a chance with her . `` but the worst of it all , the very worst thing : i could n't get you to smile . '' i do n't think you could ask for a better scenario . '' 