`` we spent ten days in the desert until we were located and someone sent transport . just the thought of it , made chris eyes well up . scanning the cars in the parking lot , my eyes came to rest on my father 's . sometimes it feels as if youre holding back . the red paint was faded in some spots , and gone in others . im looking for a man to be my strong right hand , my general . `` maybe they 're not , individually , but others were brought in , were n't they ? '' 