`` look , i 'm trying to give this a chance , but it 's hard when tal will barely look at me . `` i sleep with them under my pillow . '' if by married you mean me hating him , then yes . `` did it feel better to pretend that i 'm someone i 'm not ? '' it 's really terrible what we 're doing to this beautiful island . he thought the creatures would not follow them outside of north end ; they had not come after him before but did not know for certain . 