we can keep looking at options later . he could n't hold it in any longer , could n't pretend he was feeling less than he was . the double doors closed behind him . it 's like they 're all in the room with me . '' when he reached a curvy blonde , he glanced over at me . the smile died and went somewhere bad . that 's your idea of life , not mine . '' it would take them months to search them all . 