i relaxed every muscle , closed my eyes , and gave in to the hurt bursting inside my belly like fireworks . but get used to it , because i 'm not going anywhere and neither are you . '' stay in all of my activities of this day . `` good one , '' he said , rising to cross to the fire . hopefully he 's looking after the rest of them . '' but his tone was serious and concerned , so i felt a need to answer him . deep within its core , something was moving . 