up there waited the place i 'd barely escaped . i just did n't know what this would do to us . and believe me , thats more than settled now . v foster was seated at his writing desk overlooking the garden . too late , i saw how awful i was acting . if only he had n't started second-guessing himself . if we strike out on our own , we do not know whether we can survive the winter . she tilted her head back to look into the tree again . some days are better than the rest . 