i could put her to work in the office . `` i must lie and say i liked him , because otherwise no one will believe the truth that i did n't kill him . '' whenever it happens with us , the beauty of her color will be something i wont ever forget . spilling a bit of wax , i stuck the taper to the top of the grave marker . at first only the council members came to see her , each of us wanting to be alone with her . i was in the back building , praying . 