it 's lonely and disappointing and i just want a new life for myself . '' `` i know you do n't remember , but you did . why risk it if you were safe in another city ? '' he hit the gas and the car lurched forward . besides , youve got him all locked up now . this was a man she would n't have to wear flats to go out on a date with , she realized . you realize if the man wins he can claim her as a mate . 