`` so you want to leave before he gets home ? '' `` well , from what i could see , he belongs more to rose garret . he stared at the ceiling of her library , thinking . `` i did n't want him cutting his teeth on my shoes . '' `` unfair , '' he said aloud , and felt better for having said it . `` you have a home and family now . '' i 'd never felt so dirty before , what he did to me , and yet it had never felt so good . 