she was n't thinking clearly-again-and the last time she 'd been like this , something terrible had happened . the words came out in one long shaking breath . is he a friend as in you know his most embarrassing moments and can tell me his favorite color ? why has he kept us alive for so long ? his future , he thought , glancing at the shut bedroom door , did he have any control over it ? summer got on the radio within five minutes . 