the room darkens pretty quickly and the others begin to dose off around me , their snoring filling the small room . in the end i may not wind up anywhere near riley , so what 's the point of worrying about it . and i would never want to do anything to cheat you out of times like that . i laugh , but it is n't a happy laugh at all . oh no , she would not turn this around . this is where he belongs , amongst the mountains and the forests . 