`` i was gon na ask you about the professor actually . apparently for us , `` not trying '' meant `` get pregnant . '' the idea of her standing up to her older brother shocked him . 'i was n't actually standing so much as leaning forward . where he needed to go was a storeroom ; a very particular storeroom in fact , where all the herbs and spices were kept ... . and the fruit . she went to the door and slid it open , peeking her head out . if you want to end it- '' `` no ! 