but no one else would do ; it had to be her . a moment of panic hit me and i almost climbed back out , but colin was already shutting my door and hurrying around the front of the car to the driver 's side . he was getting so big , catching on to more and more . drew just did n't want to let her go . hoping against hope that the door would open-actually open , all the way-the whole door , not just the little slot on the bottom through which they slid his meals . 