i do n't know ... some of the college kids who work here during the year ? '' are you kidding me , right now ? '' for some reason she felt that if she did n't succeed at this , she was going to fail with the rest of her life . there was little time to wallow , though . and second , you sound awfully jealous . '' he looked over the papers at me , pen clicking open . `` still , this seems like such a waste of time . '' 