the other guards crowded up behind them , and there was nowhere to go but out . she wrote those four words at the top of the page , and continued to listen , eyes closed now , top of the pencil between her teeth . i really do , but i 'm nervous as well . `` and this explains things that i have wondered at . amy let her tattered bomber jacket fall off her shoulders . my mind didnt catch up with what had happened until after you had already stormed from the room . 