it all happened in the space of perhaps a heartbeat . i am so fucking in over my head . air left my lungs in an unsteady rush . the gun goes flying out of my hand and lands on the ground with a giant bang . pure raw anger exploded within me and my breathing changed rapidly with each second . i went to the other bathroom and cleaned myself off with a good , long shower . he had the good grace to at least look embarrassed . its quieter and just as deadly . 