`` but i have no idea when or how . i left my house that night and never came back . he pushed the control to open them . his own flea-bitten grey was the only one left to run free . he really wants us to come . they take you away when youre tall . it just sort of came over me . ' `` you did n't take him up on his generous offer , i take it ? '' she could n't form words right now ; there were none to be found . 