in case of an urgent situation , we will meet somewhere else , and try to visit the cottage every now and then to look for hidden messages . `` oh , how vain can you be ? '' `` i have to go , '' i told him suddenly . she did n't want to be alone forever . once they 're gone-overboard or dead-the others will blow the ship . '' she had scarcely come to a stop when he scooped her into his arms . would the bodies still be there ? the tears were as hot and hard as bullets . 