it was the sort of thing that if it had been produced in a psychiatrists office would have had the writer invited to stay for a while . the pain was so fucking intense when he felt her warm back press against his chest . at this rate , the cattle will starve by the time we get out there . '' `` well , it 's too late now , in any case . but before i could finish , don pushed my hand away and stood up to stare me right in the eyes . 