`` there are a couple of things to do before you take that permanent step . '' folks gon na talk , thats for sure . better than the alternative , she said . because kyle had just noticed that the captain 's hands were shaking again , too . no time for second guessing though . then five thousand lives would be different than five hundred right ? '' `` kitten , i want to show you something . '' he kicked and thumped the railing for want of something better to vent his frustration on . 