she was n't ashamed of harry , but she knew people had horrid thoughts about her being a single mother . you 'd have to play every one of them before you could find out . she punched her pillow and rolled to the left one more time . when the doorbell rang that evening , she 'd already showered , curled her hair and pulled the sides up with small sparkly clips . `` no , '' she replied , her eyes wide . but go long enough without human blood , and you will start to go mad . 