he would just kiss my forehead and leave , every time . he will hunt you for the rest of your life . '' she muttered , in some confusion , `` what 's new with you , alan ? laura remembered desire when it lived every day in her body and her mind . `` then show me what you got . '' `` do you want to rip out my kidneys and stomp on them like you 're making wine ? '' i 'd seen the severe frown on his face-he had no desire to be where he was . 