you knew what would happen to all those who chose not to follow him , yet you didnt warn me . we must fend for ourselves and not live in some juvenile fantasy ! `` just something i want you to do to me , that 's all . '' in fact , he didnt want the job at all ! `` but i want to sleep more now . '' i dump it into the pan with the onions and garlic anyway because i do n't have any choice . that doesnt mean you can give up and stop working , however . 