`` yeah , do n't get too comfortable , '' i warn . for a woman whose middle name was chatty , keeping a conversational distance was excruciating . whatever it is , is holding you back from me now ! '' she did n't wake him early this time . he pulled out and put my injured leg up on his shoulder . i was with him the night he died . obviously her fashion hints had fallen on deaf ears . there she was-a person whose life was threatened and she still had enough faith to look forward-not backwards . 