beth was n't thrilled with this final choice ; the unstable bridge and platform always seemed far more dangerous at night , but by then , ben was getting tired and ready to call it quits anyway . chris said on his way to hanging up . it was like my son 's eighth grade science fair . '' if she said no , i was walking out that door once and for all . '' her face was calm , in contrast to his condition . he wanted to run , to scream himself . 