i nodded for him to go on , watching as his fingers turned almost white as he squeezed the little glass bottle . i ca n't hold in my gasps of breath or my moans of pleasure . `` i-i can fix this , '' he found himself saying . someday , maybe before i got myself killed , i wanted to go back for some pictures . surrounded as i am by sin , i cry out to you for salvation ! ' my dress is n't warm at all , and my back is almost entirely exposed . 