the air in the room is thick with the womans cigarette smoke , along with something else that is hard to discern a chemical disturbance maybe , caused by dust particles and the steam and oil fumes she creates when she cooks dinner around the corner from her living room in the tiny kitchen . i wanted to help in some way , move them forward somehow . they all hoped to be kept in the village . put his heart out there for her to crush again just for the chance to sleep with her one more time ? 