`` cause i did n't want her marked for death . '' you want it this time , he said . `` did you notice what he was reading ? '' but you ca n't go around hitting people . '' how else could i have responded to that ? he moved to stand next to peter . i 'm left with only the lamp beside my couch on , and i think maybe the low light will help hide whatever i did n't manage to straighten . i closed my eyes waiting for her next direction . 