ah , i just looked at the search results too . you gave me permission to enjoy myself for the sake of it . and i want you to do what feels right to you . but even if you had been , you can now stop being . i mean , she had no idea what i was doing because i took the paper back to my room each time , and i didnt check with her afterward . the old man died and none of his sons wanted to take over . when i woke up , i was under the trees . 