who would want to hurt him ? '' she had to believe that she was perfect , and her hair was perfect , and something about her was so potent that he lost all the sexual control he 'd developed over the years . it wasnt going to be easy , but i figured i would do what you do when you pull off a band-aid . she kept her hands tucked under her arms . `` sometimes i still ca n't believe they 're mine . '' she did n't show before she left . 