`` i can not ... '' breathing ragged , he slowly pried himself from her body . as much as i wanted to believe nothing happened , i knew it did . his hair was wild as the wood , but he had larger concerns . i expected him to be on his way home already . too much was happening too fast and luke being near me made it hard to think . he opened the door and looked up . `` the day after i arrived , a blizzard hit . '' 