i look at him with a tiny smirk and shake my head . violet leaned down and kissed him . `` we could get another car , i guess , '' i said to him as we walked away from the place . `` i do n't know what i 'd do if you were n't here . '' i pinched myself to make sure i was awake . i do n't freeze up this time , but i do remain quiet and still . `` it is hers to share with you , the knowledge she trusted to me . 