and by the way this is weird , i have n't even had breakfast , how are you even able to think this early ? '' i did n't like people being rude to my mother . its fine , i said , though in truth i now had butterflies in my stomach , and considered changing into something simpler instead . `` ivy , we 're not still here are we ? '' he bent close and inspected the thread , pulling the loose end through his fingers and then checking them for dust . what is it you want me to stop ? 