when i spoke of my dreams ... you 're wrong . several long moments passed , and i struggled to stay awake . i walked slower and more quietly , hoping to hear lucas . i 'm doing this to help my brothers as much as i 'm doing it to help you . 'i 'd need a ladder just to get in 'em . ' `` i do n't know what else one would call it , '' kenner said . `` i 'm sorry ... it 's just ... i 'm not laughing at you . '' 