accepting what was really happening was one thing , but talking to her about it seemed wrong on so many levels . `` look , '' i said , feeling my face start to burn , `` the truth is i had already tried and it did n't work . testing will take place over the next week . `` as long as it 's simple , it does n't really matter , '' he says . hell , even before that if you want to count being tossed down the stairs , so who the f**k knows . 