not terrible now, and i am blessed beyond my imagination. however, i have noticed today so strongly (as i notice nearly every day) how lonely i really am. it’s hard because there are people out there (and i’m sure everyone’s experienced this) that want to get close to me. however, are they the type of people that i should get close to? usually not. the problem in the past with me has been that i see the red flags, but choose to ignore them because i really want a friend. i don’t want to do that again. that turned out very badly a few times in the past, and one 