the thrill of being able to do this-kiss her , wake her up , f**k her-was still as fresh tonight as it was nearly two years ago when , for the first time , we finally had time alone in a hotel . when are you going to get it over with ? he 's clever , too clever for his own good , but he can learn . she says , then looks back down at her computer screen . you , on the other hand , only have yourself to blame . '' 