`` so wait until he wakes up . trying to hold on to a sense of calm . -it doesnt work : to think and to believe are two different things . but something in me says i 'm better off not knowing the truth . i said my goodbyes to the men i had worked with and agreed to come back to visit when i had the chance . and third , there is no fate . it seemed as if they were fighting the weather for days , beyond exhaustion . i shake my head at my father . 