`` and if your father was going to be murdered for what he knew , there was nothing you could have done , even if you had known . '' just grateful that they were both alive , she smiled at him and walked herself into his arms . my gaze went to the shadows further down the hall . he was on his hands and knees now , crawling toward her , reaching for her leg , and she backed up against the desk . i sat with my arms crossed , trying not to assume the song was about me . 