eventually the biggest troll said , 'soup it is , then . ' `` do you know how crazy that sounds ? '' i only got to speak to him briefly the other morning . `` i promised yesterday i would have nothing to do with books and movies . '' why did this man have to look like this ? since she came into my life , everything had changed ; i learned to laugh again , to smile , to break down , and be the person i was before my father 's death . 