the shock of this information silenced me completely . `` i had no idea it was going to hurt that much . `` i was not certain where we left that . you are not welcome here , and there is nothing to be gained by your staying . when he rounded the bend he realized he was standing on an island . her mother could come home , and she could return to boston and the life she had made for herself there . i mean , i feel safe with you , though . 