and i was seeing things in chris that i had never seen in any other guy before.
the months following were just a continuation of the whirlwind, but i was starting to feel a little more in control. i was finally accepting everything that was going on.
the next two months i would get the walls down to just a few bricks high. just enough to be able to stand behind, but not enough to keep chris out. it was in those few months that i learned what it was like to be loved and how to love back.
i learned that through chris's love, god was showing me how he loved me.
and 