i havent thought of it yet , he said as he entered the drivers side . he sat on the warm ground , his back against a jungle tree , moon-shadowed darkness all around . but at four o'clock she 'd awakened , unsure of why . `` you should eat one of these little sandwiches . `` my therapist said it should be okay , but i 'm still trying to figure it out . '' this added to my hope that my father was here , but only my frantic calls and heavy breathing broke the silence . 