* * * he woke early in the morning and rinsed his clothes and put them on wet . you found her and kept her from complete destruction , because that was the course i was on . all i had to do is live with my thoughts and the reality that i may never get the type of man i want . i had n't been making the best choices lately ; that had become very apparent . `` actually , you could just throw it in the creek and be done with it for good . 