things were certainly going better than she had ever imagined . `` how do you feel when we kiss ? the sound of a ceramic coffee cup set down on a wooden desk . `` well , of course they 're going to screw us over . then well go back up to the house and slip into bed . she said in an adult voice. theyre on very thin ice now . i dig through hundreds of glossy pages . it is illusion , it is symbol , and it is real . do you want me to spell it out for you ? 