i would much rather have cried at how unfair life was . we shook hands all around and were out the door . it was the sound of madness . you cant change what happened , but you can change what will happen . `` honey - '' `` with every breath she takes . '' normally , he frowned on public displays of affection , but today nothing about him was the same . nothing to do but wait here to die ! my fingernails almost ripped apart the sheets when his third finger entered me , stretching me even wider . 