`` it 's going to be okay now . i leaned into him and drew strength from his touch . he didnt think either of them would go to the police , but that wouldnt stop them from trying to find out what was up . `` anyway , it depends on the size of the needle , does n't it ! `` i do n't owe you anything , least of all an explanation . blood everywhere , caked into my flesh and hair . i had no notion just how special he was . '' 