while my cheeks burned , i hoped she was telling him what i had told her , that i 'd had sex with him , so he would understand i had lied for a reason , and that he was off the hook , free and clear . now i am sure of my feelings , and it 's too late . odd , i thought since everyone usually walks in uninvited . `` is that what you had in mind ? '' it takes her a second to register what it is . 