grabbing his hand might have been a bad idea , but i had to see if i could get another reaction out of dean . something in the atmosphere seemed to bear down over the entire world like a cage . he was at the landing of the second floor . thats what i told the ambulance man and thats what hell tell the hospital . if she did n't ... that did not bear thinking about . who are you , anyhow , if sue di n't send you ? its awfully big on her , dont you think ? 