he reached around and patted the floor surrounding the heater . she was not swimming through rat-infested waters . `` this is just ... wrong on so many levels . '' for the longest time he stares up at me . i need you , robin , i do , and i need you alive . is this the way it was supposed to be ? `` how am i supposed to be , chase ? '' and since we lived so far out in the country , take-out was almost never an option . 