he sat on a bar stool , nursing his fourth jack and coke , checking out the eye candy . we ca n't let anything happen to her . he seemed tongue-tied , not sure he was truly welcome . `` are you going to be honest with me or not ? '' my being alive because of them was a big part of my keeping quiet about it . i would have given you the healthy cereal today . she 'd ask me almost every day if 'e 'd been by . '' 