she met his gaze head-on and said , `` because i want to be with someone i feel connected to . i did n't think i liked poetry any better than before i 'd picked up the book . there was a wooden coffin with a note on it , telling her to order the ship 's captain to set sail , and to open the coffin only after the sun had set . `` as soon as i woke up from the gathering , i put the needle in me and changed . '' 