her door is already open when i reach her office and she 's on the phone . she was honest , she was true and she was brave . you dont play weak just because im a girl ! `` he has family in new york and new jersey . `` have you ever been to a red bull party ? '' he rose , my necklace dangling between his fingers . and with a sick feeling in his gut that never seemed to go away . inside this pouch is a very special energy mix . 