if they had been people he knew , would n't he have said so ? was it happening all over again ? `` the idea is to knock other people dead , sweetie . be careful when you walk around . how she smiled at me then , how tenderly and sadly . instead , his world had fallen into a kind of rhythm . i move my arms forward and lean back , massaging my wrist with my fingers . before i knew what was happening , he placed my arms around his neck and embraced me . 