the all access pass around my neck let me go anywhere i wanted backstage , so i took out my cell phone and snapped a few pictures to send to him . something i established shortly after he was born . '' `` you can think what you want to , but i know what i 'm saying about screwing you . 'it 's a big house this , and very peculiar . chapter thirty-one mike 's body was still , face down in the water . then he said , ill honor billys memory . 