`` yes , since the moment i found her like this . she was looking at me , and she shrieked loudly , arm pointed toward me . she could possibly never wake up . being near her today ... '' he sucked in a breath , trying to calm himself . she has been looking forward to what she thinks of as a proper season this year . '' but still , you sure we arent going in circles ? `` i never should have said yes to his offer to 'help ' me . 