i would need to get out of the united states and find a new place where he would n't come looking for me . this may be my only opportunity to try and convince him that i have no intention of hurting him or his family . `` we have to warn them , '' i say , heart in my throat . `` they 're on the other side of the building , jack . '' but you do n't have to be a monster if you do n't want to be . 