`` if i 'd lived , i think ... '' she says , `` i think you really would have . '' then , with scarcely a fumble , he did the coins through the table , appearing to drop half the coins through the wood of the table , from his left hand into his right . he tried to make time for me , but he could n't . they saw his gun and his sword , woke as if from a trance . she struggled to bring that night back from beyond . will that ever be enough for you ? '' 