she wanted to scream that that was n't what she meant . `` sure , but i'l get the book , right ? no , it was n't , the woman said one more time . she rolls her eyes and a slight ping of hope hits me . he turned her around and gave a gentle nudge . for now it went into the pelican case , one round in the chamber and the hammer carefully lowered to half cock . did you take pleasure in doing that ? '' i wondered if it would ever end . 