he called his mother back and left a message both at her home and on her phone , hoping that would buy him some peace until morning . he loved her voice in his head . one kiss turned into another , and then another , until all she could think about was how much she needed him . her happiness was always so contagious . `` and thanks for keeping it to yourself for now . '' he came back as he was ending the call , and looked down at her . everyone i see says : `` good bye , joy . 