`` that 's right you have , '' garland said . `` i had to crawl out the window . she was close -- too much so now to risk flight . as they 'd done when young , they murmured secrets . all this time and i never knew you existed . `` i thought , from what you said earlier , you might have other plans . i had been so desperate to stay in school that i jumped at the chance . his eyes slid to her after every play . 