actually , im delighted to have an excuse to paint again . `` to adventure , '' he said , and drank . you never could tell what a man would do when he was drunk , even if that man was your own self . no thanks ; it felt too much like pity . the continuing ache in his chest told him otherwise . shut your dirty , low down mouth , dude . first , we do n't really have work . if i didnt believe her before , i do now . 