i slow to a walk , wondering what on earth i 'm going to say to him when we get close . `` best not to risk putting them together . '' `` do you want to be a part of this group , or not ? '' i always order it '' she stopped and glanced away . the sad part of the whole thing is that she died for nothing . `` it did n't burn you , did it ? '' i balled up my left fist and ran it full force into the mirror . 