and the general effect was also spoiled by the fact that he was smoking a cigarette , had a mug of tea in his hand and a face that looked a bit like something that lives under damp logs . at some point this morning he meant to load it . the custodian didnt look at me in these seconds . i handed the boy to the nearest one . when i got there , i searched everywhere inside for her , but i could n't find her . what time did you find the bodies , son ? ' 