even if i could accomplish it , which i ca n't , i do n't want to try . '' and-oh god-what she saw in his eyes echoed what she felt in the deep , secret part of her heart she thought she had locked down , sure it was the only way to prevent ever being hurt again . he grabbed her arms , tight enough to startle her . he gripped the terminal and kept his voice low . the wedding march filled the hall and the girls lined up in front of them . how can you say what you said ? 