and why was i so mad at myself , right then ? his legs shook and he stumbled once . `` at any second , we could have a vampire tribe on our trail- '' `` and whose fault would that be ? i caught occasional flashes from him , enough to know that he had been plunged into a waking version of the same nightmare hed been trapped in before i came . though she was normally the first one in and the first one out , tonight she stuck around even longer , helping him clean . 