i picked my side of the room and hurried to settle in before taking a shower and falling onto my bed . i stormed out of the dorm and headed toward my house . i knew that they would numb the pain and the crushing fire that burned inside of me . her voice tailed off , it was obvious he was not listening . the thought made me sad , but i could n't give q my name . it 's you he keeps coming back to . '' i need to go to them and let them take me . 