but there was that woman and her two sons to mourn him , and she felt a kind of sad wisdom more than grief when they brought her the news . the salon gen takes us to is north of town . i mean , you do n't have to tell me if you do n't want to . '' `` just tell me how , '' i asked , hearing and hating the desperation in my voice . `` i ca n't be any less than that cade , i simply ca n't ! '' dont let your father see you like this . 