but when i concentrated , i did know which direction would lead me to my sire . `` would that i could unload it , i 'd be a happier woman . '' sometimes we say things we do n't mean when we 're upset . '' i whispered , feeling the warmth of the tears on my cheeks . he was the reason for all this . the woman went flying , as though she were made of nothing but dust and wind , tumbling into the shadows between mirrors . 