she kept her voice prim when she answered . maybe it had helped , but something was very wrong inside me . really , why would you want to ? it made her a person , and people are a hell of a lot harder for me to think about killing . `` maybe that 's the best thing for you now anyway . mostly she had stayed put , watched television and cried in frustration and confusion . kelly asked hopefully as she slid into the booth at the pancake palace . 