i said with a straight face , but i felt angry inside . the restaurant manager yelled from the back of the store . i hated it even more when drunk . i started to cry and ran back into the house . i may be a weak man , he thought , but i 'm not a mean one . listen , do you do that very often ? `` use the next year to prepare . that 's $ 39 for the plane and $ 15 for me . '' there 's only so much you can do . '' 