he had nothing to do with them : he was a man . i let a few tears fall for a good twenty minutes . `` it 's not something i offer only when it 's convenient . '' i just feel like im getting used to it . i barely made it to the kitchen sink before throwing up everything from the night before . `` may you follow in your father 's footsteps . '' i understood his point , but that did n't make reality any less painful . 