for half a second , i actually felt joy . `` i thought you were waiting for me , '' he grunts , pressing into me with all his strength . diamonds and gold were not too much to ask for after all their effort as far as she was concerned . `` i walked home by myself , '' he said . she swallowed through a dust-dry throat . lots of smaller pipes hung near the ceiling . he wanted to die , james could feel it . `` i 'm gon na grab another coffee , you want one ? '' 