then , his eyes get big and drop to my stomach . did they say the hand of god or the instrument of god ? it was almost as if it were trying to sort each speck into different sections . the more he considered it , the less he liked it . then he nudged it with his nose . it 's about all he speaks when he 's at home . '' it just did n't feel that way at the moment . she could hear cars on the other side . 