first the room would fill with dirt , and then in the same instant my lungs would fill with dirt . it doesnt matter ; we did not send him out into the world . perhaps we should tell you , i said , we have a recording that well present on air , should this . i bit my lip , hard enough to make it hurt . maybe you just need to go somewhere else right now . she took a deep breath and played a short melody . they always go for the wings first . 