ever see myself being happy here for really any reason. i have tried the steps of letting it go and take it day by day many many times before, and now i sense the effort is in vain, and if i am honest, i feel i will never be happy with this man, no matter how desperately he may truly wish to make me happy, no matter how i may wish to just be happy myself. i also feel no desire to try to make him happy any longer. please help, i am not one to throw in the towel. but who i am now and who i expect myself 