that got him laughing again , and he bit in harder . `` few days ago , you got in . i know you want me as much as i want you . i could n't imagine him struggling to learn anything . inside i 'm a little boy grinning on a birthday morning , about to get the presents . i was embarrassed , and tried to change the subject . i was drinking water like it was going out of style and trying super hard to appear interested . she 'd take the words as the brush-off most people used them for . 