they said , they are helpless without us . they were planning it for months , apparently . i had the downtown beat and we had to deal with gangs and guns a lot . their expressions were either completely blank or ... well , terrified . my phone rang , and i had kind of expected it . he said nothing for a moment before he asked , `` you like it ? '' jordan delayed , her heartbeat speeding up . hopefully , next year ill be this big he said to himself . 