but the only time i really feel present is when i purposely knock a dish of peas to the floor and , before anyone can stop me , crouch down to clean them up . from here we will build security for our world . its just that if the guy really is your brother , then hes probably telling the truth about the other thing . we 'd been going strong , spending a lot of time together , especially with his family . they were nothing short of exquisite . 