that would be a good idea , she forced herself to say . `` sorry , '' she said , laughing and crying at once , `` you 're flat out of wishes . '' but he was suddenly in front of me , blocking my way again . please , why have you sent them to kill us ! '' he moved stiff and slow , like the old guy he was . tam could n't blame her , nor could he blame her for ordering her soldiers to carry her off at the first sign that this battle was turning against them . 