the more i thought about it , the more i wanted to rush to her . where did you get that picture ? '' but he is n't here either ; we checked all the rooms and there is n't a sign of him . she did n't have the luxury of pretending this book did n't exist , as evil and frightening as it felt to her . he says , from the back of his throat . i suppose if i had n't , i would have farmed-that 's what my father did until the factory came along . 