if she was anywhere else , she 'd head into town and get a motel for the night . she had n't wanted to come back to new york . was n't part of that picture-perfect world . with a sigh of relief , i escaped to the guest room to shower . they had been on the island for all that time without a hint of rescue , and he was beginning to wonder if he even wanted to see a plane . `` what do you mean , what was i doing ? '' 