and in their eyes , talking to a professional is a sign that i 'm trying to stay healthy . `` it 's times like this i wish we were a few years older . as she started to run away , alexander saw her look back , her eyes trained on his balcony . i refuse to let my death give me the home field advantage . mike waited to see if there was anything else , then shrugged , okay , i dont know what the hell is going on , but mine is not to reason why . 