my eyes are adjusting to the dim light when i move to brace above him , my hair streaming down like a screen around my face . he stood up and stubbed out his cigarette . the sudden breakdown of logic shifted my mind sideways . anyway , she said shes leaving , and this is the only time she has . her words turn to gargles and she has the look in her eye . they passed dinner with the usual small talk . it had been from her heart , something she never did for another being . 