that explains , she mused , looking around her , why there are many musicians here without instruments . i want to drift in and out of these places for a bit to see if we can lose our fans . '' laughing in protest , i sent the red balls flying . `` are you saying that she 's like me ? '' she reached up and wiped a tear from her eyes . i will not be denied and treated as if i needed healing . this is what the christmas season is all about . 