`` i know you do-and you will-but not until you come to understand full circle what it is i want and need . '' but here , in her hands ... she flipped through the book . i shake my head , grinning from ear to ear . this was who she was : not prey , but power . i 'm looking forward to flying in style . '' you brought him back to me , my oldest boy , the sweetest of them all , my dear heart , my brave boy . 