he only made it another half a block before giving in and turning back . two guards marched up beside the car and came to a halt face to face on either side of the open door . by that , i mean , i could n't decide what i wanted . i pushed back on his chest to look at his face , then around the room . how could he of been selfish like this . `` well , well , look who showed up . '' no , i turned my chair away , staring out the window . 