she could n't let her mind fully form the word , could n't think about the fact that he was close and solid without feeling the pull of reality at the edge of her consciousness . willie looked at him , thought a moment , then said , thats pretty much it right there . `` that is my son-my only son ! '' some of the urban knowledge would come in handy now . but those people are trained to keep secrets . where i come from , guys do n't think it 's cool to be that smart . 