the adventure at hand makes me both nervous and excited . `` if i 'm not okay with that , then what am i supposed to be ? '' i hate it when a brain-dead plan falls apart . once we reached the main road , i stopped and glanced over my shoulder . i must not wish you no pain , for that can never be , but i do hope you will be always as happy as i am now . each is supposed to hold special powers of blessing and protection . 