we were both pacing around the room instead of sitting down . she deserves better than me as i 'm not the man she thinks i am . and you 're here in case i do something stupid . mommas voice rumbled , shaking the house and bringing me back to reality . the more people working , the faster the town would return to normal . why would he do this for me ? i feel as if im being tossed around on a rickety rollercoaster and traveling even faster , if that is possible . for an instant our eyes made contact . 