i started to wonder what sick things you were into and then i didnt see anything after that . no need getting electrocuted holding on to a phone , he thought . she 'd wanted to make love , and they had given her a special memory to treasure . afraid i will lose my nerve , i look down at my hands , which are clutched together so tightly that my fingers have turned white . pity for him , i had no intention of ever being that woman again . 