`` she ca n't be- '' the director started , then seemed to finally notice that the frame was n't empty after all . otherwise it would all be my word against theirs . and those were the parts of her life that were complete lies . he 's looking down into his wallet , laughing at something his cashier said . she took his hand and pulled . i feel him come inside me in hot spurts , and i feel his hands at my hips holding me to him . `` look at my new fire truck . '' 