only one thing could have shredded him like this . how was it possible he could make me smile even in the middle of the hardest thing i 'd ever had to do ? they ran through the automatic sliding doors into the store and joe felt a strong chill run through his spine , as though ice-cold fingers had settled around his neck . then , in need of a proper drink , he left the hotel and caught a taxi to the west end , asking the cab driver to drop him off at a club that didnt need a membership . 