aside from the fact that her dress was wrinkled and her hair was tangled , she seemed none the worse for wear . and he was shaking , but he did not know with what . but , damn it , with his defenses in the negative numbers , he could n't turn her away yet . on me and everyone and everything . i grunted as i headed out the door while will laughed . `` so the panic attacks got worse and i went for some short-term help . `` this is the spring , '' he said . 