why would i wed you when i despise you ? with those words , she turned on her heel and walked out on her father and mother , something no one had ever done before in their lives . those first months after the shoot down , most nightmares had focused on tag taking a boot to the ribs to shield him after his hands had been broken . ellis kept his expression polite and as casual as possible . 'o think the heat 's getting to you . he got stuck there once and our fathers had to rescue him . '' 