i could n't draw breath , felt stars speck in front of my eyes , my lungs burning . even though i 'd left in a huff , he was still so calm . it was all she 'd been able to think about since colin had come into the room last time . the older man knew what he was doing with the leather-bound whip , and all peter could do was admire his skill . the scent in that place was making her sick . angry , i took a napkin from the holder on the table . 