will had made an exhibition of vice in private , to drive away those nearest and dearest to him . but as far as he could tell , they were having a whole lot of nothing . `` but to survive , the clever little kitten has developed some sharp claws . '' that day -- the day of the note -- i thought i saw him wink . oh , god , please help me , ben . '' that makes me feel really great . i dont want to have to worry about anything coming lose while im on stage . 