today as i sit here , despite the happiness i have found with carl , i believe with all my heart there had to have been some kind of middle way for us if we had made the effort to find it . `` i guess you could say that but it was more . with that , she headed for the door . dream it up ; it can be done . i guessed she had n't actually been inside any stores . he sucked , nibbled , licked , bit , and drew on her nipple with his teeth . 