something like , just what have you been telling her ? her bed waited for her in her own room . it might be fun to play some one-on-one again . she knows how hard it is for him to say things like this . the first speaker raised his arms . he grabbed her by the curve of her back and pressed her body tightly against his . `` i felt i had nothing to live for , no reason to go on . we got out and slipped through the gate . 