the poor guy had learned early on that he wanted no part of what happened between his humans when they were together in the bedroom . i tense a little as a car passes us . slicing both of my wrists was the hard part , but i bit down on my lip and quietly went through with it . i knew barry was only trying not to think about stuff , but still . i ate it all to please him , though it made my stomach ache to eat so much . 