sam got up to follow , but i stopped him . until then , i never felt remorse about never being able to share that with her . his fingers dug hard , to bone . pardon my language , son , but they 're just a pain in the ass . `` any particular reason you want to see me ? '' `` you are beyond frustrating , '' she grumbled . once more , he put his face in front of mine . he explained and she hugged him close , then squeezed his hand . 