now all i have to do is figure out how to get her to spill her guts when she thinks we 're going to use that information to kill the people that sheltered her and her mother when they hit hard times . when he started this mission five months ago he knew his task would be difficult . drained of every last drop of energy and confidence . `` why do n't you experience it instead of just imagining it ? '' his eyes like black jet beads . i wonder if we could find him a hat ? 