even if i had doubted it , i wouldnt now . i would n't want to miss ... other things . '' it was pointed directly at her . something was happening in his personal life that he wouldnt talk about . i lay awake for at least forty-five minutes , and then i found myself settling back into sleep . it was brown and it was a western cut . thanks to my mothers bad habit i had never been much of a drinker , however i did allow myself the odd glass now and again . 