i was betting i would n't be alone for long . i had no idea why i was chosen to walk back and forth , but it did n't matter ; i was just relieved to finally feel like i was serving some purpose instead of being a useless body in everyone 's way . `` he needs to clear the tracks before he can move on with anyone , and that includes you . '' that would take time i was n't sure we had . would have to be informed , as well as the government . 