aboard the train , he had caught up on his sleep , and he had the muscle kinks to prove it . i 'm not very good at this , '' i say , changing the subject . he paused , his eyes looking into hers and he shared , `` my brothers took my back and helped me find the way . '' i ca n't remember why i left the house half the time . '' yes , there seems to be something very similar to it -- -something right here on earth in the here and now . 