he could hardly wait to begin . anything youve forgotten you can learn again . three rings in , he said , `` come on , baby , pick up . '' so what is it that you want to do ? `` we looked everywhere for her , but she 's gone . even beaten and scared , she was beautiful . i might be getting there , but i surely dont want to be reminded of the fact . is it the beating of my heart before spitting the words out ? 