i knew he understood instantly all the many reasons i wished i 'd never walked away from that strangely magical connection i 'd felt with cole when we were fifteen . `` but it 's safe , and that 's the important thing . '' he normally arrived at the office between seven-thirty and eight because he enjoyed a quiet hour before the rest of the firm arrived and the phone started ringing . you feel bad about your husband ? surely she 'd discovered that it did n't work . 