but not for the first two , i said , and stared up at him . or at least she told herself she did n't want them , repeatedly . almost as soon as it started , they broke apart . they waited again , and the man passed more quickly this time . they 're still sorting through the stuff they found in the search , and there 's a lot we do n't know yet . i 'm sure his curiosity is working overtime . but finally , finally , i have learned to break free . 