`` this will take us around the outer perimeter of the vineyard . `` i do not understand that , to be honest . i want to cry all the time . jesus was a vile person , a violent killer , and regardless of how good he was to me for most of the time i was with him ... `` he forced me to marry him , and he forced me to have sex . '' sometimes it felt like i had known him longer than anyone else in the world . loose lips syndrome has officially taken over . 