looking back she was n't sure why she 'd let him . you wouldnt find it so , if you gave it a chance . no , you said it was part of the reason she was murdered . he had known going in that kay was-how had she put it- '' engaged to be engaged '' ? he had to get far enough away that xavier and his servants would n't find him before the sun rose . it took all the strength he had not to turn over , climb on top of him , and start kissing him . 