i worked slowly and carefully , knowing that any additional contact with the ropes would cause her even more pain . she tried to move , but her body felt as if it were made of lead . `` he 's too shy to tell you the truth . the scream was ripped from my throat as fire burned across my back . `` it appears that this is for your ears only . not surprisingly , jared has a terrible night . i looked out at the crowd below us . 