`` maybe i 'd believe that if you 'd look at me when you said that instead of talking to your tie tack . '' `` did you find it difficult being an only child ? '' her voice was brittle with age and vaguely hostile . they were looking for a girl , but he thought she was a boy . `` look , i know it was wrong , okay ? how did you know where we were ? then i spoke my first word to her since id sat down at the table . 