definitely not something she allowed or accepted in her daughter . i take a step back , then turn because i hear an ambulance cutting through the grass . but that was the thought that cut into her pleasure and forced her to think instead . and then her hand touched something that felt for all the world like somebody 's cheek and lips , small and cold ; and a voice whispered in her ear , `` hush ! either way , in my heart , i know this feels right . this time , i 'm pretty sure he 's done talking . 