since the shooting , nothing 's been the same . `` what do you mean you can feel it ? '' she never pulled away , never denied him . what 's important is that when i walked the man to his car ... '' `` which man ? '' she reminded him of when people dropped their voices automatically to say such words as `` cancer . '' our shells do nothing but blow the barbwire up and drop it down to the ground again . i also sing and play music at a few local bars . '' 