`` i felt my heart stop , as if it had exploded with love , then beat again like it never had before , '' i said , getting caught up in my own imagination , almost believing it myself . to lose one person you truly love is painful , but to lose three at once is almost unbearable . the woman shook her head and rolled her eyes . `` and when he was finished , the most extraordinary thing happened . she did not want to have a key . her first stop was a catholic church . 