she was naturally small so most would n't have noticed the tiny bump on her lower stomach , but she did . i was the guy they wanted to be with , the guy they wanted to want them , and once i was n't sam-i could do damn near anything . the filthy , bloody state of his uniform sleeve bore witness to how many times he had already gone through this motion . this , of course , emptied his weapon . `` that is so not good , '' i muttered . 