many peasants dont bother to learn these days . she wo n't challenge me on this . '' had he , he would have thought he 'd hate it . the first day of school suddenly made things crystal clear to me . you will never allow yourself to enjoy delayed pleasure and release . '' you do n't know how relieved i am that you 're safe and alive . '' i battle to fight off the worry and try to remember something , anything of last night . i smiled at her , and she shook her head . 