it was dark and smelled of his cigarettes . i yelled to peach , then looked at nick . i keep his watch there as sort of a reminder of him . '' i never thought of the possibility i 'd have to stop . '' the mystery bag stayed put , and i turned to follow tony to the kitchen . could he give faith to someone he dreamt about his whole life but never saw until now ? `` i 'm not going to be easy , '' he warned . he tried to save my life but i saved his . 