surely i am not ready to go further , mind wise no , body wise yes . her opinion of the day gradually changed . `` thanks , '' i murmured , my gaze following the powder-blue soul surrounding a guy ahead of us . i 'm trying to save my own butt here . we do not need such brought to us . who are you going to believe , him or me ? '' it means that i wo n't have to spend my days worrying if i should do more for my mother . 