if i do n't say it , then i can pretend i 'm still young . '' `` he was always straight up about stuff , '' she murmured . it was an image she barely could believe to this day . he was so powerful , she still did n't understand why hector and her family were friends . what , just because youve killed some of my men ? i take off the hat , the sunglasses . `` i 'm trying to change my password so i can check my e-mail . '' 