what on earth for , you know i always use the intercom and if i dont i knock and wait for permission before entering . she pressed her lips together and shook her head back and forth . i would n't feel like someone yanked my guts out and put them back in all the wrong places . '' `` you ca n't leave her like this , '' i said . `` do we really have to do this ? pads are not meant to be flushed . '' the sunlight was chased away by clouds . 