that is how the earth is . he was jealous enough of james . i dodged the blow , leaped backwards in alarm and saw the knife was in his left and coming at me a second time . i have an idea , but that takes a lot of explaining and a lot of time . i had felt like i was finally living when i was with him . sitting in that chair , in that impossible room , i fell asleep . do you know why they were doing any of this ? 