spencer had disappeared somewhere , so it was just the two of us . because i 'm gon na knock myself out to heal what 's broken in you . that 's where they should be at this time of day . '' she wiped her cheeks with the back of her hand . `` i 'm going to step outside and call mike . he had stopped thinking that he could have his cake and eat it , too . i could be dead at any moment . its not only the physical i want to share , its all that i am . 