not really knowing what was left behind us , it was nice knowing we could run , no matter how slow of a run it was . `` it 's not that they like a lack of control . i lay my head back and rested my eyes . it had been so long since i 'd actually done it , i felt rusty . he toppled backwards , hit his head , dead by now , and already bleeding out of two holes , on the concrete wall , then slumped down on top of his dead mate . 