`` this path has become harder than any of us would have imagined , but we must continue on course . '' most of her mother 's test results were back , and the news was n't as promising as she 'd hoped but not a worst-case scenario either . he lowered his voice , it would probably be best if you did not mention our agreement to anyone . `` and he 's psyched , because it 's not often we get to initiate someone into the code . '' 