and she deserved more than he could ever give her . zero watched as he picked up a file . `` now give me your other hand . '' there cant be much happiness in their lives . weird , that was exactly how i was feeling . it all looks so wrong , it scares me to death . he did n't speak for a very long time , just sat there in the darkness of her bedroom , his chest rising and falling with each breath he took . the first spurt of fear washed through me and drowned the anger . 