it was louder than even gun fire ; it was like the sound of small bombs exploding and slowly getting louder . his body moved slightly toward me but he locked it down and i saw his jaw tense . 'how do you propose to do that ? ' he asked , did this come on all of a sudden ? i tap my fingers against my lips , trying to decide what i can and ca n't tell him . obviously there was an art to it , because i was flapping for all i was worth and still falling . 