`` i wanted them to fight , distract him so i could run . remember this is a girl who wept to save that awful old cat , buttercup . that little fact didnt stop me from doing it . just wait until i 'm making them jump three diagonal moves ahead then back . '' it took me a moment to realize she 'd called my name , and to snap my gaze her way . he looks up at me so i see he 's crying a little . 