he laughed , but there was a hard edge to the sound . josh ... uncle martys voice follows me down the hallway . it happened too easily , and it was too hard to bear . `` i use to grow these in my garden . '' the hospital had stuck a tiny pink bow in her hair and someone had snapped the shot . her mother 's number flashed on the caller id . `` you did the right thing , nick . and there was so much to do . imagining him crying was a tough one . 