would he call out of work and wait for me ? like never before , sera and her friends were totally , completely on their own . then he had to struggle to maintain his face . i was afraid that she would run past me if i opened the door . 'and i was the child of light . his large hand made me feel tiny and fragile and , briefly , i allowed myself to enjoy the feeling of being protected , like bo was the shell of my frail turtle body . 