they may have strong feelings for each other . you know , whatever , a different proportion in each case ? '' `` i try not to think about my dad , because it hurts too much sometimes . '' `` it 's inside me as we speak . '' the tradition went on , even though the membership changed . i said nothing , staring as it started to make sense . same drawer as the garlic press . you have to promise me youre not going to scream . you can show that to me later . 