it was unexpectedly bright and beautiful . he went to say something , then turned away . we say a gut reaction , but actually these reflexes come from here . `` is this what happens when you deal with people . '' i crawled into bed feeling a desperate need to talk to you ... and here i am . called in a few favors , only cost me a kidney . `` care to join me in a glass of christmas cheer ? '' there was at least a quarter pound of it . 