i cried privately for the plants that were struggling in this alien environment but there was nothing i could do . i tried to empty my brain of any thoughts . had her life come to this ? or at least he did about jack 's wife . '' now , two days later , it was still tender . but his warm steady grip on her shoulder never left her . too much of it kills you . meanwhile , big things are happening in the outside world . what the heck could they possibly want ? 