of course i was worried about her . my being pregnant , '' she whispered , stiff in my arms . i think cape falls will be out for blood . he 'd needed her , had wanted her that desperately . everyone knew about him , the way he loved to throw around money , the way he had to be in control . `` alright , fine but if you so much as think of letting it pass your own lips , even on your death bed , you 're a dead man gray . '' 