she went into the bathroom , grabbed a hand towel and spread it on the dresser . she reached for me , wrapped her hand around my arm . `` if i did n't believe there 's all of that and more involved , i would n't be here today . '' i picked her up and settled the animal onto my lap . silence picked up a bowl of porridge and a spoon and slid into a space at the girls ' table with mary darling on her lap . `` no , '' he fired back , saying it in my language . 