i 'm in pain , too , i want you so much . '' his mouth was urgent against the back of my head as he supported all of my weight . if he slept with her now , she might never trust him enough for a second time ... and hell , yes , he knew once would not be enough . i tried to be older , she says . even so , she 's not to blame either . `` but i made you a promise on my mother 's doorstep , and she was sacred to me . '' 