an hour or two for stimulating conversation . i just stared at him as he looked me up and down . i figured he knew they were n't dead , but i was n't going to tell him . why im responsible for so many people being dead . i cant say how thankful for that i was . professors who wanted to research me . `` but even if i was n't , '' he added , `` you would n't need to apologize again . `` as a matter of fact , that 's exactly what they think . 