but i still think about you all the time . he seemed to think of something . her heart was pounding in her chest , like a war hammer and her hands were shaking . i could see it through her crystal-blue eyes . `` go on ahead , child , '' he advised . it felt as if the sky were pressing down , like before a big storm . you keep doing it , and you 're just going to fall farther and farther down the rabbit hole . '' the phone trembled in her hand . 