i asked half joking and half wondering . the plan was to hunt vampires in pairs . god help him , but he 'd never been so bored in his life . `` throw me in the brig for the rest of my life , i do n't care . `` you act as if we do n't have control of ourselves . '' had he done so , we would have come at once . it had been reading her diary , reading about the dreams she had since coming to the manor . 