why was my life worth more than his ? i do n't know if this pain will ever go away . '' i did n't mind personal failure so much , but i did not want to cause anybody else to crash and burn . here i am going to list out a few of them : 1 . a low voice , not belligerent , but not afraid either , came from the back of the cell . there were fewer people out there and that included the men who just ran off . 