otherwise , she 's just going to keep doing it , whether it 's with you again or someone- '' `` i 'm the one who pushed her into all this ! i paused in front of the mirror . he looks back at me smiling hard . the directions shook in charles 's hands . a man called out from the room hed just come from , the room with the weapons . and i know nothing will ever be right for us , any of us , or for this baby if we do n't end it . 