lights flashed excitedly on the screen , telling me how well i was doing , but i did n't care about them . please do n't ask me to go back home . `` when he was eighteen , he went on his first hunt and made his first kill . we call it an expression of our love for each other . so , i still have quite a few of these to do tonight ... you dont have to stick around , he added , dipping film in the tray . 