`` there is a god , '' he mumbled and closed out his work for the day . he took the cigarette back out of his mouth and squeezed the tip between those same fingers and looked at me like he wanted to strangle me . that is like saying i am a full-fledged driver because i have a drivers license . as we got closer to grams i thought i saw tears in my grandmother 's eyes . so do not speak to me like you do . 