but i could feel his eyes on me from the moment he walked into the room , and i could n't pretend to look at those instructions another minute . he could stay gone for weeks . he added , this is the day weve been waiting for ! do you know how to use it ? with organization , one can do anything . '' mary felt her cheeks flush from embarrassment . i wanted to feel him in the dark , breathe in the way his fingers felt against my skin . a real living man and one who didnt mean well . 