for so long , he 'd controlled every aspect of my life . every time you build yourself up , someone will kick you back down . `` as okay as the circumstances allow . '' i mentally reached out and pulled on the chains . brant and ava had their own lives and , even though i think we learned to respect each other , my grandfather and i never really had much in common . he 's got that look on his face that suggests everything i put my hands on turns to disaster . no ken doll anatomy to complain of . 