she needed to get to the surface and find assistance . my vision was starting to get blurry and my face wet , but i did n't care . i think thats great , she said , i really do think its great . i look down to the floor again , begging for the tears to stay at bay . `` above all else , a gentleman should take pains to see that while the needs of his body are fully met in the relationship with his mistress , his heart is never engaged . '' `` we 're not in the middle . 