wiping my eyes , i sat upright and tried to look professional , not like my world was falling down around me and all i had to depend on was a were who thought i was the lowest of the low . but he was taken aback by my appearance . my skirt swishes against my thighs , and i love how the smooth material grazes my skin . every day brought more helpful ideas . i did n't know what to think , what to hope for . how near the edge he walked without ever seeing it ! 