naw , he said , laughing , and walked out of the room . she was going to barely make it to work on time so she would n't allow the tears fall , which were trying so hard to escape . she has to end it quickly and do it herself . she leaned into paris , pressing her lips into his . `` not for you , '' he murmured so softly she was n't positive that was what he said . it was easier to live if you had a god to blame things on . 