i cant tell but it almost looks like hes relieved to have me gone . as hard as it is to believe , this once must have been the bottom of a lake sometime in the past . nicholas stared out the window in silence . the buildings were small and shabby but appeared permanent . if youre listening to this , then things have gone terribly wrong . she was bundled against the cold draft in the room ; the green leather bound diary lying in her lap . now , he groaned , the sound a combination of pleasure and frustration . 