do n't try and handle this on your own . he blinked and saw , in his minds eye , the two large padded chairs that were situated next to the beds either side of emma . id have had to cut down , but still ask me ! his gaze went straight to the balcony . `` yes ... '' `` he said you were ... near death . that is mighty generous of you . or she 'd lost all sense of it when her husband had left her for another woman . 