dad had gone quiet , recognizing , i think , the fact that this was out of his control , that this world was one he had no part in . it was so odd to see myself in a picture that was taken before even my grandparents were born . he raised his right hand and curled all of the fingers , except one . you cant keep her locked away forever . had blue actually slipped me his card with my tip ? `` what have you been up to , anyway ? '' is he still planning my demise ? 