`` have you ever wanted something you really , really should n't want ? '' i wave him quiet , letting him know i 'm not stupid , that i 'm taking care . james 's eyes burned with an inner fire . i ripped a blood ration pack from my belt and gently tipped his head up . it sucks , and doing hard time for five years is n't something that 's easy to forgive , but you 're my only friend in the world , race . '' not much , seemed to be the answer . ) 