going back in the direction of his room , he stopped at the door next to his . she swallowed the lump in her throat and told herself she was n't going to cry . she could maybe have talked to da , asked him just what the voices in his head were like - what they said . diamond was your middle man on the streets . `` hack walker wants to see you . '' he was more beautiful now than i had ever seen him . and beth was beginning to think that it was all some kind of bizarre game . 