her laugh reminded him of the way sea lions barked and he was ashamed to admit that , in the back of his mind , he felt tempted to find a fish to toss at her . hes headstrong is my peter , but honest with it . he tried to push the pain from his head , and focus his thoughts . and now that my fear was gone and the anger was settling , i felt hollow and lost . two dogs had dry blood stained on their lips . 