struggling to lean up , i push dad away a bit . why would you say such terrible things ? it was a while later that ruth left the room to go to see matron . moving her horse closer to the inside wall , she looks up at the lord of the manor . i was trying to get over my fascination with him , not fuel it . there was a note on the outside in an envelope and she pulled the note out carefully , her mind instantly going to the possibility of a bomb . 