it 's as if a black hole opened up and swallowed my entire life . she turned the stone over and peered closely from every angle , even holding it up to the light . to be followed by tonys , yeah , when ? `` relax , '' he breathed behind my ear . she knelt down to the boy 's level . the knives were my weapons of choice on most jobs because they were sharp , strong , and almost unbreakable . his hands sank in her unruly waves . but if you relax , it will be easier . '' 