are you not tired of always being on the move , always on edge ? did they have any idea how desperately and for how long she 'd wished to feel like that ? i had never had any alcohol before , and was as eager as the rest to go out and party . drew charged across , heart thumping in his head as loud as the wind pounding against his ears . `` so , people are going to talk , regardless of where you choose to sleep . '' my records say that i do , but i do n't . 