she told herself it was because he was the first good man she 'd ever met , but she had a sneaking suspicion it was a lot more complicated than that-and maybe already too late . he asked from where he still watching me near the door . hes teaching you lessons you may not have wanted to learn , but maybe it will just prepare you for things , later in life . i broke into a trot because exchange place is huge with at least sixteen elevator banks . `` she 's not trying to attract a man . 