taking back what was mine to be had before my father was ripped away from me and murdered in prison . she had a way of making everything brighter-happier . `` out of sight , out of mind . '' forcing him to make a decision before anyone got hurt . when i packed the wine and cheese , the only other thing i saw in the bag was dirty laundry . he could have ... well , let 's just say he could have pushed me more than he did ... in a ... well , when we were in a compromising situation . 