chapter twelve the us you wanted us to be i stared at hawk and hawk stared at me . do n't tell me , it does n't matter , i- '' `` no . he caught her , holding her to him . right then , the only interesting thing she saw was bobby . `` why would anyone want to look at me ? '' her own parents had n't come of course . he took her finger into his mouth and sucked gently , then pressed her hand to his heart . `` you 're baking like a mad woman . 