`` if i understood the language better , even i could read his lips . '' it 's not just some far off thing that might happen to me , now it 's f**king real . '' they were led by a great bull of a fellow with black hair and a drawn sword . we both started laughing like little girls who had just shared a naughty secret . a way of getting him out of my system and letting him go for good . i thought you were her when i got into bed with you . '' 