`` you want to have sex again , do n't you ? '' soon this school year , too , would be behind him . and i was stupid enough to give her space . but youre dead , for gods sake ! you have a good heart to care about your friends , ya know that ? '' how much worse would it be , if he crushed me like that again , after i let myself hope for something more from him ? he whined through his stuffed mouth as i reached down to pick up the lead . 