i am not sure how i can explain it to you , but suddenly i was n't me-i was something larger . he could n't possibly be as bad as the lord ruler , but . but i know dealing with his family is a raw subject , so i do n't press him further . a little person who is half you and half the man you love . '' she felt tears rising , coming from a place of happiness and grief , a place where night birds still sang in the jungle . 