that was a lie , of course , and i could see emma 's heart breaking as she told it . now , finally , can you tell me of the secret jewel that you have discovered ? `` he tried to apologize but i refused to listen . we did n't have that kind of decision to make . `` you do n't need to be sorry , '' i say , opening my dresser drawer and grabbing a shirt . `` have you been talking to college scouts behind my back ? '' 