i hate it so much , some mornings it makes me sick . billy poured them both some whiskey and handed luis his glass . his mouth slides into a smile , and i catch him quickly scanning my body . we 'd bought a crib , a wardrobe , and a changing table . at least there was water to drink . we do n't want to tip our hand and involve them . '' `` it 's tiny compared to that boulder you 're wearing . '' brook felt immediately at ease with her . 