that was n't ideal , but my insides relaxed knowing james was with her . `` i really hope this is n't another dream . '' `` because i 'm going to fall down any minute , '' i snapped . why did n't you just come with me then ? '' terry placed his note pad down on the desk beside him and said , first of all , i want to make it clear that like to avoid the word normal . *** in a daze , i climbed into my bed . 