things she had never even allowed herself to dream about , things that felt so natural , so right , now . i called , my voice reedy and faint , barely rising above the howl of the wind . no matter how much you tried . `` ah , so that 's what this is all about . and warn people to stay way-the-hell back from the edges of those pits ; they are not stable . '' i just chipped in ten bucks toward the office gift . 