now he was here , and i could n't have him . he lay on his side , his body stretched long and lean across the mattress , the sheet tangled around his legs . 'so what are you doing with it now ? ' he glanced up at me and grinned . though i didnt want to admit it , i felt grateful . `` this time , i wo n't stop , '' he whispered , his large hand pulling up her dress in order to rest on her thigh . she sat up and looked at me . 