fern was like a mad mother bear trying to save her cub . `` how did you know how to find us ? '' `` why do you need the medicine box , and why did n't you ask me in the first place , instead of bumping around like a bee in a bottle ? '' shaking my head to try to get away from the stinging odor , i open my eyes . as i have said before , the list is what you make of it . you choose which life comes back . '' 