he nodded , and i pulled away to pace the room . a faint smile came across her lips as she nodded . and then he looked down at the left side of his body , the thick dark hair , the deformed hand and foot , and knew she would run screaming from the sight of him . now that she admitted that to herself , she realized she had felt that way for quite some time . `` maybe it was useless my being there . she stood watching him , very still , very calm . 