she 'd decided to put it in her office rather than her home since she spent most of her time here , especially with the subject matter . a good life here is n't possible for me . then the pain smashed into you like a boulder falling on your head . the touch of his skin to mine set my blood pounding in my ears . what if we step off the ship instead ? i hear a key reason it was shut down in 1996 was that the cars backed up too much on the highway . 