if there were any another option , i would have taken it . he stretched his head up toward me . i sat down in one of the two white lawn chairs that riley had gotten and tapped out a cigarette . once she could n't see it any longer , she sighed and headed to the kitchen for more coffee . my mother is taking her to a center in montana to get her some help . his every move had been calculated , and calculated twice . they reminded me of paintbrush tips spread across a white canvas . 