i do n't need you to do anything , i can manage fine , i would just love to hear from you . `` i had to lug the garbage bags out to the service elevator . i ground my teeth together and shoved the feeling away as hard as i could . i wondered what it was and where my mother acquired it . come out and join me in the project . that 's what i want to know : why did they leave us behind ? and how much else are you not telling me ? 