how could he choose between them ? she 'd make harry break all the speed limits getting back to vegas . and she was all dressed up ... ... she 'd used him ... and he could n't blame her a bit . i stood up and looked directly at the van 's driver-side window . `` i do n't know why he 'd want it . '' the man hesitated a moment to consider bens threat . god , is it even legal to be here ? i was running so fast , i almost wet my pants . '' 