i swear , but you have to tell me what 's going on in your head . '' i should have known it was n't going to be easy . once we 'd recovered a little , we retrieved emma 's canoe and pushed off toward the shore . the president 's words talked about her responsibility to the nation . the scruff on his face was new , and-this man had torn my heart out . `` you left it on my bed . '' `` you 're not going to fall asleep on me , are you ? '' 