the bouncer gives me a once over and then stares at my eyes . and you must come too , with your new collection . tobys mind was moving quickly , he felt free . `` now that i have it , it 's useless because i ca n't read it . back then she had n't felt this consuming need to experience every bit of him , to please him , to drive him to the edge of control the way he had her . `` in fact , you may have to burn them . '' 