`` there 's no way you can know how bad it was without having lived through it yourself . he said this in a mock commanding tone then settled in a silent fit of laughter . he moved on to the next passenger , and i slumped down into my seat , sobbing hard . his hands had roamed over her , checking for injuries , and when he 'd been satisfied that she was unharmed , he 'd let her go . something is really the matter with him . i ca n't even tell where his head is at . 