if that is what it takes , he tells me completely serious , almost like a promise . maybe , i thought with a smile , he 'd jump out of a tree , or appear with a poof ! she felt like old paper , dry and brittle . `` not that i 'm happy about it , '' she continued . its okay , she was good going down . luke looked back at the approaching crowd . she wanted to abandon all reservation and grab the pleasure that was within reach . and very lucky for people like me . '' 