she felt sick , happy , and afraid all at the same time . `` everybody will get off the ship if you all remain calm . i would have told you , believe me ! is that in order , comrade general ? ' her finger traced the scar on my stomach , the severe reminder of a saw tearing deep . then he headed into the bathroom and took a hard look at himself in the mirror . the bathroom was small , but had a decent size walk-in shower . you know people in this district ? 