i never let the books hit me or the floor , though . he said that , they took her out to have some fun . after we 're done , we ball up our garbage and pile it in the bag . part of him wanted to believe that there was something real between them , but the rest of him knew it did n't matter how she felt . i had to let him go , or the pressure alone would crush me . he shook his head as i laughed again . shell be one of the first . 