he explained it in simple words over and over again in the week that followed . `` yes , '' i said , and both he and ivy relaxed . more than he probably already did , that is . not that she looked anything like the girl he almost killed back in december . `` where in the name of hell did she go ? '' he had grown up on a farm , the youngest child in a family of four girls and five boys . if you get a positive result from that test , everything changes . 