why do i only have value if i can earn money ? he really could n't believe he was doing it . it was an old routine , this was , between the two of them . her back is to me as she cleans dishes in the sink . i tried to stay awake so i could hear him when he came in and be ready to give him a piece of my mind before i jumped his bones . i decided to save the rest of that area for the next day . there i had admitted it to myself . 