he reached for her but she slipped from his grasp . he 's done things neither of us would ever dream of doing . outside the door , two nurses hurried past . someone flipped the lights on and i imagined myself standing up with a gun . i was terrified and he had to walk around the circle with me . '' i wanted to get around him but did n't want to touch him . i have given permission , since she is officially a member of the pack , as it were . '' 