he stood so close to me that i could feel the warmth of his body . tamara felt her blood pressure rise . i wiped my hands on my thighs . at the time , hed claimed he didnt have insurance . she was in the middle of our bed with her arm locked around her bent knees rocking back and forth . then , looking into her own eyes , she 'd known why she did n't collapse . im pretty fast , i have caught as many as five . violet said , staring at her , coming even closer . 