ash cradles me to his chest with his nose buried in my hair , breathing me in . i reached over and set my alarm for half an hour earlier than usual , and then relaxed against my pillow . how long could he resist the temptation ? i took my drink and wandered over to the window . the vessel went off track a few minutes back . chances are , before that night , he had n't . its not about me , is it ? **** mad toms diary got to get to the island . 