a smile spreads across my lips at the thought of that . he was just going to lay awake and stare at the ceiling , ticking off the minutes until he could safely call shelly , the personnel director , and let her know he was sick . `` they 're not twins , butterfly , and they 're nothing alike . `` he says the j 's could n't be winning so big without help . '' crossing to the window , she looked out over the parking lot . 