but the last two months flash before my eyes , and everything about him ... all of his personalities and mood swings and cryptic words come into clear focus . a few seconds ago you looked like you were out of it . all that standing up in the shower kind of took it out of me . '' he 'd been so cold for so long . `` you 're still gon na come over , right ? '' he took what was important to me and he used you . 