the pain was still awful , but he had his hopes up . he never hugged her at all during the summers . spare me , she growled without turning . he paused for a moment , listening to the message , and the stress wrinkles on his face suddenly disappeared . though i 'm tired , the last thing i want to do is fall asleep on a speeding horse and fall right off . i am not in the mood for this garbage . about his success at finding love for others but not for himself . 