`` i know what a difficult time this must have been for you . '' if anything , that 's what life 's taught me . she had to keep her wits about her , but she felt her defenses slipping . he 's only got yer best interests at heart . he did n't care about the crowd of people he did n't know or what they were thinking . so i lay there , staring at the ceiling , thinking of what i was going to do next . the shot had brought a dozen men into the alley . 