i try to move , to angle up to sit so that i can see more of the room around me , but my arms and legs feel useless , heavy . worry more about catching the killer . i also wondered how i could conceal the fact that i 'd killed a woman in one minute , and worry about the cracked linoleum in the bathroom the next . i wasnt going to do it in front of his kids , but i cant help it . `` stay back , '' i warned just as the clock struck half-past eight . 