'to bring me comfort he tells me my father killed himself . ' time away together would , perhaps , encourage flora to open up . `` please , i 'm sure it 's because i 'm not saying it right . '' `` i did n't , yet i could n't help feeling like i had let you and the baby down . `` i traded one hell for another , i guess . i was only trying to be polite . i can see the tiny bits of light between the edges of the portraits . 