`` i could have sworn i slipped it in . '' he looked puzzled , crossed the kitchen and opened the window . tormented by lack of dreams , she 'd been too exhausted for any kind of life beyond work . as much as she 'd feared them in the beginning , she realized that she trusted them now . i have waited eight f**king years for this ... ... .eight years for him to call me something other than squirt , to hold me like he never wanted to let me go . 