well i- you- ted , if i could go back in time and stop myself from doing what i did , i would . tell me what 's wrong , '' i say , desperately . i need someone to give me a ride . '' the crossing would have to happen soon . i 'm telling you it is n't worth it . and i wonder if jordan knowing his name is a mistake on my part . like if i screamed , no one would hear . sentences that its overdone imagination would even have been able never to suggest him . 