he was very careful as all they had to use was dirt and leaves . not that he would need to worry , as it turned out . your brain is exposed to too much too fast . whether it was because i was distracted and did n't see it before , or because it simply was n't there , i do n't know , but it 's there now . he closed his eyes , and swallowed so hard it sounded painful . sit , there is much to explain . `` because we 're sitting in your office right now . '' 