do your art, and especially as an older dancer you wonder can i really get back into that the same way that i did. i was working so hard, i got back into ballet after leaving it for almost 14 years, and then 7 years i was working real hard and then this accident, well this is cooked you know, and at the same time my father died like a year later after my accident, and there was a split up also and i don’t want to get into all that business, but before that accident, that person who was not able to handle all that much anyway, certainly being 