most animals will leave you alone if you leave them alone , she said , swatting at the flies around her face . disappointment was never a thing you looked for , but it had a wonderful way of clearing the mind . she didnt want to deal with the pain of being without him . there was no hope for it . i want you to start from the beginning , '' he says and sets a menu down in front of me , giving it a tap with his finger . tonight he saw green lights all the way . 