i did n't even want to get into that . i took a swing at my dad 's lawyer and called him a liar when he broke the news to me . we didnt mean anything- it was ben ! madam , i shall turn the soil with my spade and then i shall leave a pair of gardening gloves and a trowel for you to use . every time they drove up , shed been standing there , waiting for him . i chucked decorative pillows from his massive bed , then slid into cool cotton and closed my eyes in relief . 