he studied me up and down , his gaze finally resting on the bag over my shoulder . he picked up a piece of the wood and tried to bend it . chapter 43 okay , i thought , this is no time to panic . hold on to me , he sent . i yelled at him , my eyes filling with tears . i know you want to know , but i do n't want to lose you to find out . '' tell them who he was trying to find , and what she looked like . 