“there was a point in my 40s where i went into the bathroom with a bottle of wine, locked the door and said, ‘i’m not coming out until i can totally accept the way i look right now. and i examined my face in the magnifying mirror, and i looked at my body, and i cried and cried and cried. then i said to myself, ‘you’re going to get old now. how do you want to do that?’ and i thought, ‘i’d like to age like a dancer.’ i want to keep my body in shape like that. i want to do the work. i like to dance and stretch. 