she closed the manual very quickly and shoved it out of the way . it had eyes but no face . they rolled to a stop at the bottom of the stairs . she wanted him to see where she worked . well , it 's just so hard , i do n't know how i do it . '' are we really outside or still standing in the room ? it was n't the analogy i would have chosen , but it was n't entirely false no matter what i wanted to think . somehow i knew this was going to happen . 