a warm delicate hand caught up with his , slowing him down . she cried out , one hand reaching behind her , and benny felt himself sink deeper . he set it down after a moment without taking a drink , afraid the liquor would n't make it past the lump in his throat . `` now get your chin over that bar . '' `` are you going to freak out on me again ? '' my chest knots up at the sight . can we make it there by tomorrow ? do you wish to be free or not ? '' 