on these nights shed either read or lie there and listen to the silence . `` good morning , '' he says as he comes to stand directly in front of me . but whose going to buy the goods ? her gritty eyes closed , shutting out the light . what will happen when i play it ? as the plane takes off , i close my eyes . gus disappeared into the back room . we gear up and head down in five . '' i took a sip of my beer , waiting for him to confirm . 