with what little energy i have left , i turn my head back . he tossed in his cell phone . `` being with my family over christmas and seeing how my siblings are with their kids have reminded me of everything i gave up . you will know which one once you arrive . its quite simple really even you should understand it . `` well , are you going to stand there , or are you going to help me ? '' to see if i can get my money back or at least get my ad in next week . 