when my plate is clean , i lean back in the chair and rub my hands up and down my flat belly . i do n't want to live like that . the worst was a manual she 'd found on bomb making . the journey time is used to ready the guns . dirt stained his cheeks and hands , and his jeans were ripped in a half-dozen places . i 'm just glad to be going home . '' `` no , no , do n't worry about it . 