there was an identical bread bag with two crusts in it in the bottom of the drawer . it 's that i want her stronger first . the feeling of wanting to vomit had passed and for that i was grateful . leaving him would not only hurt me but it would cause so much pain to him . `` is that how they found him ? i 'm given the same room number , which surprises me . oh my precious one , i hold you tight in my arms and will never let anyone touch your shining soul . 