he stepped out and spun round to face me . it was a strangely mechanical sound , one that made bob think of an automatic transmission low on fluid . he asked over the roar of the water . he likewise did not remember driving back to derry . hope stirred in her eyes and it hurt him to see how quickly she made it go away . `` the next time i kill someone , i 'd like to do it in a way that does n't freak you out . '' 