he would write a thank-you note and send it with a half dozen bottles of wine later . after rubbing the dirt from the windows , he peeked inside . course , they did n't realize she was already dead from too much drugs . take it or throw it away , el . '' you have to guard against spending too much of your time and resources trying to save everyone whose pain you feel . a lot of it was scattered , but all of it told a story . now here we are , and youre trying to do both . 