then she needed for me to really let her in . i was both jealous , and i thought it was so unfair . `` i 'm fine and we 're not going out there . '' with the exception of my magical training , i did n't have much to do . he could recall the fourth grade vaguely : the smell of chalk and the taste of the paste he had liked to eat , the bicycle that had dumped him in the driveway and led to two chipped front teeth . 