she could n't count the times she 'd watched them blazing down at her like that , sure in the knowledge that she 'd say yes to whatever alternative to going all the way he 'd decided he was going to let them try that night . my god , what the hell are you doing here ? `` a merry life and a short one , as promised , '' he said . thanks , the man says as he enters the cool house . even before he 'd even touched me , i 'd known i would never be the same again . 