he could n't imagine living without knowing she was safe . and she suggested that my mother , if she had sent it , might have come to town at night , and mailed it to the telegraph office with the money necessary to send it . they were friends and he didnt want her to start thinking there was more there than there really was . i dont think she knew it was me . i think you have n't believed that in a long time . i noticed from that he had a tattoo creeping onto his neck from under his collar . 