i hated for so long and i could n't distinguish between those men who have destroyed our species and other men . i had been so intent on watching the annoying man leave that i did n't hear him come up behind me . it felt for a good while there , when his arms were around me tight , his lips locked to mine , his hand in my hair , that he was into kissing me ... you feel yourself filling , just a wee bit at a time , a little each time the child moves . 