i do n't want to be rude , so i take another drink and turn around . that and- `` forgive me , '' she told him . being with people feeds your energy . '' he did n't mind the presence of the man , however . he could n't even tell her the truth without lying to her . i sat by the tree for a long time , contemplating my life and future . i shook my head with as little movement as possible . the neck was collapsed , the windpipe crushed . 