`` you like to play with fire , evidently , '' she said . it only ever happened when someone opened the huge iron door to her father 's private room . did thomas long know how bad it was ? i decided that i would roll with whatever this was and do the same . he was crazy about her , even if he would n't admit that he loved her . these decisions are mine , and mine alone . `` i found him kissing her by the docks the morning after she arrived . '' 