she would have whipped me unconscious if she had known what i was doing . '' everyone she 'd known all her life had told her that , but that never helped , either . how could she even think of it ? `` you 're the woman on the video , '' he said . i imagined that was a pretty hard thing for her to do . once again the judge tried to take control . then it hit me he said he 'd be back in a month ... or two . 