either that or she 'd given into her body 's inability to handle any more today . you are not a killer and you will not kill me , he said . and that he 'd remembered to wear pants . he finds barrels containing the ingredients needed to make black powder . they were ... '' i trailed off , struggling to find the words to describe what i saw . i will want to lose myself to the pleasure in a way i can not when i must see to your needs as well . 