she looks at me and rubs her arms a little bit and it 's only then that i really realize i 'm soaking wet and cold and achy all over and that a fire is just about the closest thing to a blessing i can think of . jack kept larry for his experience and ability to see the whole picture . i had final y hurt him enough to push him away . `` she 's a librarian and she 's been helping me research the story , '' he said vaguely . he had no control over his mouth . 