not now , not tonight , but surely during the next personal visit . the book hung heavy in the bag at her side , along with her conscience . but he wouldnt be in foster care . do you think he kills them because he cant have sex ? i look up at him from under my eyelashes . she was more than willing to be that meal . `` i know you 're awake , '' he whispers in my ear . the sheep , who had been trudging along behind the camels , laughed and laughed . 