if i felt like it , i might lay out in the sun rather than sleeping in my bed . id hate to have to throw you through that window , all five-foot-two of elle replied . i approached a low-hanging limb and plucked one . `` wait until you have your gown on , so that you can see the full effect . '' my breath caught in my throat as i said , `` wow . honest to goodness , love without expecting anything in return , loved me . fear took a hard , sharp hold of every part of me . 