we werent there for it , but we felt the love behind the words you said . `` you 're very eager to get to this treasure . '' people with nothing to lose were dangerous , and since i was taking on demons , i needed to be as dangerous as i could . she liked this room best , but she did n't stay there because everything reminded her of paddy , from his favorite seat at the table to the beef jerky in the glass jar on the counter . 