this might sound strange but one way i stay encouraged is by crying. who cares about what goes on in their heads? i started thinking about the things that i had questions about, and i had a couple of friends i started talking to and said, “what kind of questions do you have about massage?” because there are questions that people ask and there are questions that people don’t ask, because they’re kind of embarrassed; they don’t really know is that something we should talk about. i'm so sorry to hear about your friend. 