thankfully , her voice was smoother this time . enough room for both of us . '' yes , said paddy and seamus together . i will not live my life the way she wants me to . id like to prove it to myself , though , he said . i shoved my hand under the table , eating with only my fork . `` it 's been around for a very , very long time . when i gave it to her she stopped crying instantly . she 'd make the salad for lunch . 