leaning his head back , he closed his eyes and let it wash over him . `` how very ... '' she seemed to search for the right word . so , youre back together with him . well , are you going to let us in ? keeps coming back into my life . it was n't and i assumed it only opened because other students were using it to leave for ... . various reasons . dear god ... '' she bowed upward , her grip in his hair painful but welcome . 