tears burned her eyelids and she closed her eyes , determined to look away . a small sofa rested across from it . all the vampires had filled out admission or staff forms , and so i had all their writings . i just breathed jagged bursts of air . clearly , keeping her underground was n't the answer any more than keeping her in the heavens had been . she was n't sure why exactly , except that he had always been her safe place . to say she was getting little sleep these days was an understatement . 