he 's not going to hesitate if he figures out who you are , and i do n't want you to be anywhere near him when he explodes . `` what if he did n't find it ? she had only a short time left ; she did n't want to waste any of it by sleeping more than was absolutely necessary . she was sitting very straight in the chair . i could no longer see her features clearly . my other hand was immediately between her legs , and i was not gentle . 