me that makes me understand that something important is taking place. this is what i investigated from the start. it is hard work. open-ended research.
i start to think about how i am standing on stage. i will do my utmost not to shine (which is what stars do.) i know i will be the one who will not be seen. i even make it my task not to be seen and still to exist. i am struggling. but now i have made my mind up, this strategy is more meaningful. my thoughts spin. i am still observing myself from the outside, but through the eyes of the woman beside me. 