i had to go find my phone , i had a calendar on there where i tracked my periods . once you start this , i 'm not backing down . '' yes , i expect you here every day . i do n't need your permission to date and you know what ? echoed through my head as his barking command filled the dark tunnel . she be damned if she 'd make anyone else . i nodded as my eyes fluttered closed with a will of their own . he asked , picking up my book and flipping clumsily through it . 