whatever it was , it meant more to tuck than my life-not that that was saying much , but still . `` you have bigger boobs than i do . '' a lot of them died ... and some of them changed . he was a fierce predator , not a damned politician , and the need to play nice gave him a rash . i should n't have touched on it again . ' trying to convince myself that i did n't was beyond ridiculous . 