i hated the damn rifle , hated the thought of using it , but now seemed to be the time . she stares at me , her hard eyes turning soft for just a brief minute , long enough to give me a glimpse into her life . it was the first time i had been invited to someones party . which could be in as little as twelve hours . `` i think that 's my cue to go to bed . '' only once did she dare to look back and she saw his muddy face and angry eyes . 