`` i see everything i want for as long as i can have it , '' he continued . i have to forget the good , if i want to do this for real . '' she picked up her large handbag and went through it . he had to keep up , keep going . for someone who 'd abandoned him in favor of his best friend , the woman seemed to be talking to him a lot lately . people thought it was , but it was n't . she shook her head and moved past him . 