she shakes her head , pieces of her hair blowing in the warm breeze as she looks over at a couple laughing beneath the trees . i was starving but i found i did n't have much of an appetite . `` how far behind are you on rent ? '' what were you doing , dancing on a crater ? my mother has never been my family . tam smiled , then reached out and took my hand . i dip at the knee , unable to control the urge . 