pretending like i could have her in any way was just a form of torture i did n't need . `` what if he goes somewhere else ? '' the last thing i needed was that kind of distraction . so you want to see more bodies slamming into each other ? i was falling ... chapter 14 dream i tried opening my eyes , but my lashes were plastered together in wet , sticky clumps . maker is looking at me intently . 'there 's always a certain amount of noise , ' she mused . 