`` i understand you think you 're being all grown-up , but you 're damn lucky you 're not dead . maybe that 's why lately , success felt so empty . '' a sick feeling rose in her stomach . i can tell you from experience , the sleep you get in a waiting room in a hospital is no kind of rest at all . it was small , but it was clearly one of jack 's . she was n't supposed to see him . but was the young girl simply ignoring mary ? 