it was so obvious that he was holding something back , and it killed me to have that gulf between us . he nodded for me to come over , as he wriggled all the way out of his pants and kicked them aside . or the fall for that matter . `` thank god he 's locked up for life , '' bobby said , and i did n't have the heart to tell them the truth . what is n't romantic about finding a few perfect moments of bliss with the woman i love ? '' 