he had everything only for his family and society he lost his life. you with the sad eye, don't be discouraged...i see your true color shining through. photo will show is a wish for anyone, together with you may be one of them. now is the time to nail your colors to the flag and decide whether you can squeak or roar. in 5 or 10 years you could sell the other five of your houses and pay off the best ones completely. a big red flag for me, based on what you said, is your director. 