`` why is here a good place to talk to him ? '' but i was mesmerized by you from the first moment our eyes met , and then something changed within me , something happened i never thought possible . he stood up in the boat and thumped his chest in reply . his eyes dropped to my lips , and he shook his head . no , he wouldnt be on the list , as he was on the top table . i sag against the wall , my body heavy under her words . 