hide it, especially when i had room mates, but when i went to restaurants to place to go orders, i went to some so often that to avoid shame and embarrassment i would hold a piece of paper to pretend i was ordering for someone else. that’s right, i would get to full course meals, take them back to my room, and eat them both, usually in one sitting. i hated myself, and knew that i was spending money i absolutely could not afford, but yet again i still ended up in the same place. even now i have to fight so hard to not get that pack of m 