how many months had he suffered in silence , hiding this misery from everyone , including himself . he 'd drag her out if necessary . i think i have enough scars there , do n't you ? '' he opened the door and stepped through into a huge open field . it would be done and what would be the use of trying to undo it ? the pilgrims went into the dining room . but i do n't want you to bond with me simply to save me . '' i mean , it ca n't last forever , right ? 