great idea , exclaimed dad , as he ran toward one of the openings , you guys check those , ill check this one . `` i ca n't make myself believe it , '' he said . he 'd gotten too heavy into drugs for me to deal . `` i 'm going to pretend that did n't happen , '' he said carefully , standing very still . `` i want your face between my legs , '' i told him . not even a parking ticket on any of them . 