im afraid youre going to have to have to be more specific . he made a small motion with his hands at about chest level . let 's change it to a direct line to the bottom of lake michigan . '' he smiled back at the others . she had n't said the phrase since childhood , but it seemed appropriate now . when we turned eighteen and the state support stopped , he gave us twenty bucks each and told us to get out . you were never part of my plan . and most of them were still cutting paper checks . 