i was hesitant to ask , but i had to know . through the smoked glass , the moon shown through the trees-tall , huge pine trees green in the snow and moonlight . he extended his fingers toward me . oh i was , until i saw the crowd outside and then i freaked out so much that im approaching calm from the other side . joy came in the way of heat as it spread all over her limbs . so far , for a few weeks anyway , he 'd let her be . 