but now , we were a few miles apart and i felt like i needed his support . there was no one to guide her choices or determine her path . all my life , i believed in the goodness of people . i whispered to myself over my cup . have you seen night of the living dead ? it was too much and i could n't hold on any longer . im a big girl , and you know , i knew it all along . the feel of his skin was distracting . 