`` i want to get rid of one of our doctors , '' he said . did he tell you i murdered my father ? the last thing we want is you lying down there in that bed . `` these are the only sneakers i have . `` you were there for the same reason i was . she doesnt have very much patience , and in this situation i cant blame her . killing me wont bring her back , i whispered . at the moment , my room was silent and i was alone . 