you do n't give me the answer i want , i start breaking fingers . but he holds on , waiting until he can see by the look in my eyes and the snap of my hips that i am almost there with him . frustration fills me as i realize that forcing myself to relax is not working . but it did n't work , and now he 's just ... . '' she sighed . and so did her little friend , the soldier robot . it 's all in the early training . 