`` then i shall grow nice and fat with you around because i 'm always angry . '' `` it was late , you were injured and this is my problem . '' `` it 's a pleasure , '' he says , shaking my hand . but as i watched him drag his finger along my knuckles , it occurred to me why he thought it would be destructive . `` come to me when you 're free-of everything . he spoke in a whisper so low not even the wind could pick it up . will i have to tell them everything ? 