a second after that , he pulled up his pants and fastened them . he doesnt deserve a note , but i cant . focus on the math , she told herself . i realized that things were going to get worse . some details were best not shared . she dropped her handbag on her desk , peeled off her gloves and looked at her watch ; it wasnt yet three oclock . seeing the tears in his eyes , i felt a thickness in my throat , and answering tears burned in my own eyes . 