i thought about it , but i fear that if i report on smidge , there will be too many questions about what i was doing with him , why i chose to be with smidge in the first place if i did not really want to be there . he 'd have to leave and find another way to get the stone . dont try and talk , he murmured . `` trashy ... trash , baby ... '' his voice was a croak . it was n't the first time i 'd thought it either . 