i ignore the fact that i have to sneak around to see my own mother and knock quietly on her door . `` no , he stays here with me . why dont you eat your lunch now ? i worked for the next half hour , relieved that i had one answer , at least . smiles that smile that turns me to rubber . she rested one arm over her eyes . it should n't hurt , but it does . '' `` all right , guys , come on , '' i wave my hand . 