it was the big black man . the mere thought of that made her panic come back full force , her palms getting sweaty , her heart not so much beating as flipping out in her chest . you either want to be with me or you do n't . '' then there was the telephone man who was called to fix a phone in the library . had it really been a heroic death ? a real smile creeps into his voice . the girl caught him staring at her and smiled . 