how i had no hope in my escape . its sad , but its easier for me to hear that im an alcoholic from someone who has been there themselves . 'he is central to our mission . he then took the balloons to the front of the store and tied them to a rail next to the game area . going north , he thought , but that was wrong . i just didnt want this monster to get away with what he had done . believing in the future was tough after so long of living for today . 