she 'd already broken into a cold sweat . `` i do n't want to go back to him . we only have one opportunity to do this . i let out a rush of breath and searched the walls frantically for a clock . flying faster , the windbreaker snapped in the breeze . holder 's shoulders tense , so i place my hand on his leg and squeeze , willing him to stay calm . please put this letter in your pocket and walk away from where you are . she might be able to see something from a different angle . 