as if their brush with death was still too close , and moving too quickly or wanting too much might shatter the fantasy and take them back to a horrible reality . `` the , 'i 'm a new mother and i 'm always exhausted ' look . i was going to kill him , he said , in shock . it might be that you wished to put another woman in her place . '' they saw you pushing him over a table . his one word answer stopped any chance of a conversation in its tracks . 