he shifted his gaze to shadow . keeping my eyes closed , i ask , `` but why me ? the entire country is sending up the rays of sunlight to shine them back on itself . she did not try to fly even once . studying didnt keep you out of.trouble . he could not even begin to articulate it , but - `` jack ? '' her thoughts come to me , scattered , scared , lost . i shouted , and then i fell back , my folly falling on me . 