even if i have to die doing it . '' before that , i could n't keep an assistant or a secretary . '' the prisoner nodded towards the dead man and said , take a good look . all right , but keep it gentle , understood ? calling off the wedding had been an impulsive action brought on by the desire to react . she swept past palace servants too quickly for them to even catch a glimpse of her . `` you were right the first time . `` i think it means more than that . '' 