she did n't feel the need to do so in this case , although it was a close call . he caught them one by one and twisted their heads off . i had a feeling she 'd been like that in life , too . i close my eyes and try to clear my mind . in fact , it almost seems just the opposite when her lips crack a smile and she looks back up . i look at myself in the mirror and can hardly recognize the person staring back at me . 