please e mail our customer service staff. you can't wait until it is over to enjoy your life. sorry to go into such detail but i feel like it is a little known field of horror and if i do detail things, i pray it may help even one person to keep from falling into that trap. strange thing about it is that, even if you are a senior, you still have a chance to start fresh. someone starts crying and human emotions are heightened and they show it so that you can connect to what is happening. 