he needs to know what he 's done . '' probably by one of the guards . `` remember , '' he said , `` he always knew every move we made . '' i still did n't know how it had gotten there . `` your father may not notice how tired your mum 's been getting , okay ? '' we need three others with lighted cigarettes . ' he leaned over and patted me on the arm the way one does a child . if that really is your thing ... 