she was awake and seemed to be staring right at him , and for a split second , he could have sworn she smiled . i took in a deep breath , cleared my throat and said , no . he walked out the front door this time , and after taking a long look back to my family i did the same . despite my lack of hope , i do feel that i have to be here for some purpose . i must have missed them when i first came in , though im not entirely sure how . 