i leave the coffee under the awning , and walk slowly over to the truck . i waved through the options in my head . `` you 're supposed to hate and fear me . you 're ... `` she lifted one shoulder , then lowered it . or even for a couple mornings until i got the hell out of here . she loved him with every fiber of her being , and just the fact that , after everything , he could still stand in front of her as he was spoke volumes . 