and surely it was n't a huge step from reading the undead to reading the dead . leaning back on his elbows , he grinned up at her . but now that we were together , neither of us was letting go . she did n't take time to examine her new home . she followed him into his building and down the empty hall . one box holds drinks mats for the tables . `` i should have swallowed a handful of pills when ... '' she could n't say the words out loud . 