voices came from behind the walls , and her heart leaped into her throat . i wo n't force him to be a part of my life if he chooses not to be in mine . `` and now he 's where he deserves to be . '' anyhow , the wife was home when they got there . her face was not a good face . `` i do n't really want to talk about it , '' i said , knowing those words would make her practically foam at the mouth for answers . 