grace seemed to be as caught up in the whirlwind as he was . i was sitting at an angle that meant my dress had risen halfway up my thighs . i handed him ten dollars , and he handed me the last room key he had left . he might trip , and he had to lead the rats as far away as possible from everybody . she said , `` come in , '' and when i opened her door , i saw her sitting behind her desk stapling papers with country music playing on the radio behind her . 