we could turn back , and see if the ways clear ? also , i was beginning to get obsessive compulsive when it came to germs . she 'd taken everything he was from him . after dinner , every night , they dressed me for bed and then brought me to a chair by the fireplace-seven o'clock on the dot-and they read to me . '' you are alive for one reason . there 's something you can do for me in return . '' 