and in this space. the silence is just so loud and feels so hard to deal with. this is the first time in over five and a half years that i have ever felt so incredibly alone. i know that i have a loving partner who is always there for me, a loving caring family, and amazing friends that are all over the world, however…i am so alone without her here. everything we do reminds us of her. any sounds that we hear from our neighbors makes us think its her getting into something or jumping up onto the table, but it’s not.. we went to bed last night so 