i tried to shake the image out of my head . then , speaking a little slower : `` is it funny ? '' it makes the next parts of the story much easier to write if im not too difficult to convince , she explains . the only thing that kept blood flowing through me was how hard i ran . beyond her chubby arms and legs , she had neatly trimmed fingernails and toenails . maybe he was worried i would come back and make him touch my blank face . 