his rough hand pressed fully into my neck , and he gave a hard rub . he had to work out-a lot . he said the name shyly , as if almost afraid to use it . your parents say that youve changed a great deal in the last few weeks . i really didnt , but when he added a soft begging , please , i stumbled around with a promise we both knew was a waste of breath . it felt snug , maybe even tight . `` do you honestly want me to date him ? '' 