how do you not blow your brains out on days like that ? '' when i asked her , she said i most definitely was not . but we knew this was different right from the beginning . `` mine , '' he whispered as his hands stroked me , exploring and teasing . but perhaps ... perhaps ... with time , with age , we can be friends again . she looked at him for a long time and said , 'let 's go to bed . ' `` she makes a good point , '' ava said . 