and despite the way he was trying to push her away , she knew deep in her heart that she was n't wrong about him . then i 'd have several to put with the letters . * * * `` i 'm so sorry , '' lucy says , holding my arm as she leads us to the parking lot . she 's about to take a f**king piece out of my hand . mother 's eyes shot up at papa as he polished the blade on his sleeve . its warm in here ... theres good scenery ... 