you could n't go anywhere without seeing his smiling face . i unbuckled my seat belt and pulled him against me , let him get it out . none of those thoughts ever gets spoken out loud , though . but as he prepared himself for death , and grew ready to fall on this field , a small thought grew within him and it was : i have nothing to fear from death . she may have made a fine addition to his personal collection . `` what if i do n't want to sing to you ? '' 