did you feel that way growing up ? '' carve it , shed said , mold it into shapes , and color it with crayons . `` i never had a grandfather before , '' the boy said . he looks away as the waitress hands him a plastic to-go bag . she states the question as if the answer is clear , youre not going to have it , right ? then slowly he bent forward to sniff at her neck . but then the wings caught the air and he sailed forward smoothly . he said to the background of war cries . 