`` i just wanted to make sure you had what i needed . i dont mind telling you that im scared shitless only i dont think ill be having any problems with the control of my bowels since theres simply nothing to lose and the thought of me defecating instead of giving birth had crossed my mind a lot in the past few days . there 's really nothing he can say : agree with me and kick me while i 'm down , or try to argue with me , knowing i wo n't believe him . 