i sit up now , weeping hard , although i do n't have the strength to weep . and its not that i dont take it seriously , but what can you do ? `` mommy always says to use your inside voice when you 're indoors . '' it was impossible to resist her charm . it was a tight formation normally used for narrow , low-light situations . and they tell me we can do this ; we ca n't run away , even if it is to find the others . ' 