his words were tumbling out now ; he could n't stop them , but he could n't organize them quite right , either . the fear in his eyes grew . the rivers and the rains wait for when they shall run red with blood . `` bill asked me to design a house . `` you 're not , but the older you get the more beautiful you become . '' however , i am not as fragile as you might think . gray blasted the air conditioner on his face to keep himself alert and lori awake . 