with your loss. i remember the situation, all too well even though it has bee 12 years since my husband died. it is not easy.
some days you just have to put one foot in front of the other and carry on even when you don't feel like it.
i kept a journal and at (10) years out, i burned it. if anybody had ever read it, they would have thought me mad - which i was at the time.
time does help, inch at a time.
i also went to a grief group but sometimes it was just me and the priest conducting the group. other came and went as time went by.
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