`` my band had just broken up and i was lost . it seemed to stretch away from him at the end of a long taffy arm . then i started to get scared , feeling like i had to protect myself . now get ready for the journey . '' but the sand , as she was drawn more deeply into it , was not pure . you just had to talk first and then the next thing i knew , i was f**king your brains out . '' her gaze moved to the floor . 