her anger had flashed and as usual was quickly gone and now she only wished for escape . she responded to everything he gave her . i swallow once to try and calm myself . my lids are pasted shut with grit as i struggle to open my eyes . but singing alongside me also seems to make her happy , and that 's why tonight is so important . somehow it did n't seem right to just walk up in broad daylight and ring the doorbell when she and ivy were about to snoop around inside . 