whatever he found there , he came to a decision , even knowing the agony he would suffer . i kicked the ground with my shoe and put on my sunglasses as i scanned the row of taxis . curiosity and respect for his privacy battled within her . `` am i then seeing only an appearance ? `` i was starting to wonder if you were going for another twelve hours . '' i didnt like it where both of them were going . backing up , he slammed the door shut . 