the whole situation had gotten way out of hand . he has every right to be pissed off at me . `` i do n't need to hate you to feel better about myself , and here you are , begging for me to pay you some attention . for now , his fate rested with fortune . because it 's how she escapes from reality . it was the size of an elephant , with huge curling black horns on each side of its bull-like head . then his sincere eyes stared back into mine . 