i well remember : once you had promised me such an examination- before the whole public . kneeling on the ground , i placed my ear against the door . i was the one who finally broke our locked gaze . i was who i was , and trying to be anything else was a waste of time . the smallest things were annoying me . next , i ran them over to admire the brown palace . `` the way you looked at me over your shoulder , that 's my favorite part . 