`` well , let 's see ... '' he focused on me . she took off the sports bra . he smiled back and gave me a half-hearted one- hand salute . should i feel this horrible if i 'm dreaming ? the water appeared calm and , although the sky looked cloudy , it wasnt raining . i have grown used to her and ava 's sense of humor which borders on dry . they were off the books for a reason . i stared at my reflection in oncoming death . he asked , dropping another stack of papers before me . 