he was n't good enough to take on my father with me or without me . our time apart taught me that my life is nothing unless you 're in it . he turned his head and rubbed his cheek against the side of my temple and sighed . standing position was best anyway wouldnt put me lower than him . and every last person was wearing an oversized red t-shirt that said get your butt in gear ! laurents clothes rustled and he stood up . `` we were able to avoid most of the flames . '' 