`` you can let the cougar go now , '' she called back to me . i want to yell at the top of my lungs , but just as i 'm about to do it the doorbell rings . he had been for the revolution . once i am running exactly side by side with bus do i realize that i am running at my full speed . he seemed to be watching her , but , in fact , he was seeing something else , a scene from far away . 