his spirit gave my own new power , energy , and hope . he 'd simply get tired and fall asleep . with my eyes wide open , i followed after my sister and knew i would try my hardest to keep her out of mischief - easier said than done . `` i do n't think anyone is capable of that . at first i didnt even pretend to drink when i started going out with my friends again . no problem , red , ill get those things for you this afternoon . 