i want to blame him for the series of events that followed . `` like he 's not pretending he 's twenty-two all over again , '' she whispers to me . you need to eat- and were out of options . dont get my draws in a bunch ? `` i did n't mean to say anything-i should n't have . he could see by the tightening of her mouth that she was missing her old life now : the military , flying , the woman she 'd been before the war . twenty minutes later , she arrived at the doctors home . 