, and he probably knew something was up . he hoped he would n't have to kill the man . one minute youre sailing on the winds of youth . curiosity was a big part of my emotions at that point , along with wonder , amazement , nerves ... too many things to name , all mixed up together . she drew away and pretended to sneeze . `` hey , '' she said , holding out her hand . `` so your grandmother probably did n't approve of your sister and brother , is that it ? '' 