he tore himself to pieces with self-doubt because he was certain , absolutely certain he 'd fail people . i moaned , covering my eyes with one hand . her long lashes flutter closed every now and then , pushing more tears to fall from her pale blue eyes . as i help her sip the water so that it makes it down her throat , i joke . as they headed my way , i collected some energy with my heightened emotions . she lifted her head and saw him-all of him . that had been the beginning of her health problems . 