`` i want to spend it with you , '' she said . it was the end of the road . maybe i would be different , but i noticed how she said nothing about my career . she slid her hand down to his and felt his knuckles . i 'm filled with such relief that i want to lie down before i fall down , but i lock my knees and place my hands behind my head . i told her last night that id had enough of it and sent her home early . 