i put in nine hours at the gym today . it used to be just my company was enough to do that , especially for an evening spent at home . i know how to fry an egg , i say . otherwise , she was nowhere to be found . and then she was tearing down the drive again , headed for the highway . i knew that his name meant 'hostile ' in german . a part of him was now closed off to me . `` i 'm imagining tracing every inch of it right now with my tongue . '' 