and , no , he did n't hit her . luke would probably tell her there was no connection at all , but she could n't shake the feeling there was , and she was missing it somehow . saw the creep of darkness threatening to take him away . `` i 'm not running and i 'm not playing a game . you ca n't fix any of it because it 's me who ca n't be fixed . '' i suggest we take our flashlights with us . he was trying to help me understand who i was . 