i look over at the two of them and , at that same moment , james looks in my direction and catches me staring at him . did the woman have a heart somewhere in her chest ? my hands ran over his face , brushing the cool tears aside as i tried to understand . wed be happy to make you a copy . he pans slowly over to me . `` do n't you see how wrong that is ? my mother was shelling butter beans . slipping through the brush wasnt easy . jack and i look at one another . 