i dont know why , but they dont use the drugs after a certain amount of time . i suppose so but arent you scared ? but hearing the fear in my fathers voice sent reality crashing around me , clattering to the floor of my stomach and vibrating through my bones . i did n't know about that f**king deal when i took the gun he offered , aimed it , fired it , and killed him . some of them occasionally stopped and looked up at the couple , flashing warning , red eyes . 