i guessed being a medium was awful , but i did n't realize how much it messed up your life . that night ariel lay awake for hours , trying to understand what went wrong . i believed him when he asked me to trust him to do what is in my best interest . you could know it had been used by a man fighting for his life , and that it had remained sure and not broken . okay , that was interesting as well . he obviously enjoyed having an audience . 