he did not seem to be waiting for an answer to his question , though he did seem to be waiting for something . `` i 'd kill him a thousand times over for what he did , but i refuse to let you think about him . '' it did n't seem strange to him now . i close my eyes and i follow him through the process . i did my best to keep from looking in any more mirrors , but it was harder than you might think . but medical privacy and its cloud is bigger problem today . 