what a strange mixture , what a very strange ... oh , how can a girl be half one thing , and half another , and both halves something else ? but as they arrived in town , she immediately felt a new reality settle in . well , it 's not finished yet , of course . creating one proved a chef possessed imagination as well as skill . i was so very far from okay ( though still very much in four-letter-word territory ) . we 're still holding hands , but now we 're face-to-face . 