i lower my forehead to hers and close my eyes . i tried to think of a delicate way to turn him down , but he spoke before anything came to mind . he was holding the milk carton , she realized . he was only interested in how much power i could absorb . the silence that followed was too painful . he sat very still and waited , but it looked to me his two men were uncomfortable . of course i dont think they were stupid or insane . 