autumn had come since my last visit , bringing rain at last to the grass and shades of red and gold to the trees . she could n't remember the last time she 'd seen it . `` you have to at least try it . she was watching him as if he were from mars or something . she felt giddy at their words . of course , it only made me want to try harder . `` i 'd come harder if you were inside me . '' st cloud sighed and took in the rest of the room . 