my voice broke-shattered , as i delivered the words i knew were tearing out his heart . `` i do n't know ... , '' she said , sitting up in his lap , laying her cheek on the top his head . he did n't like this , but she was right . i looked at him with my eyes full of anger and loss . `` i know he was our brother , but we never knew him . they nailed the banner to the lip of the roof , so its hem dangled in front of the windows beneath them . 