he was no more faithful than a stray dog , i muttered . `` sometimes i do n't even know what to say . '' the feeling that he needed another person was n't something he 'd ever thought would happen . some girls i knew were mad about horses , but , for me , it was always cars , '' she said . he probably thought that it would be uncomfortable for you to meet his family . he smiled , and it was an expression that curled my stomach in on itself . 