my life has crashed and burned , and i have lost all hope of a better future ! `` there she is , the woman who 's got my son smiling nonstop lately . they ca n't make any moves to replace me until i 'm officially dead , or missing . '' maybe he thinks hes been left out of something big . nick looked at me like he just barely remembered i was in the room . she remembered the last time she had sat like this , in this same position , when her mother first presented her with it . 