his hands clamp down on my arms and i yelp in pain , trying to wiggle free . you do n't need to be trying every crazy thing that you come across . '' at this , she leans across the blanket , close enough to whisper in my ear . i blinked back the tears in my eyes , feeling a mixture of relief and horror , because his words were true . a planet he could return to , and often did , but one he no longer ruled . 