but life was n't fair , and his good looks were just as necessary to ignore this time around as they had been seven years ago . but he had to look inside . wont somebody notice im not him ? in this position he was even deeper than he had been before . i spent my time with colin in the parlor . the wizard had been sustaining his spell through the book . all from memory-hell , she did n't know if she could do more than `` jingle bells '' and `` happy birthday '' without sheet music . 