it seemed to jay , that ben and annas marriage had always been about anna , what she wanted and what she needed . the past will not be recovered . i do feel a little better though , so i do n't give it to him full force . `` what did you have to do ? '' i mean i know jeff is expecting me to be all dolled up and probably wanting to bring four suitcases with me so i am keeping it to a bare minimum . '' 