the assistant we had hired to watch over him was eager to leave . she was gone , all because of my mistake . ill look for ways to get away from you . if she had to spend a few days or a few weeks with people thinking she was off her rocker , so be it . you know , when i was young , i used to think the stars were really holes in the sky . when i told her that hed asked me on sort of a date , she started bouncing up and down on the couch . 