after the napkin had remained in her hand for a few more seconds , she lowered it to my face , holding it just below my nose . he dipped closer again but did n't brush my lips . `` kiss me , jake , '' she whispered against his mouth . he landed on his back again and let out a raspy breath . he could n't look at her , could n't see the horror in her eyes again . `` why it can make any difference to you , or to our current task , is not clear to me . 