in his peripheral vision , she seemed far more solid . i thought the love i 'd had for him belonged to the past , to the foolish , lonely girl i never wanted to be again . he would have to keep her in his sight every moment . he had moved right next to me , and i could see his already black eyes getting even less human . her hips press in against mine as if she 's coming along for the ride . `` and how sweet she is , how truly beautiful . '' 