and yeah , like a girl , my eyes were a little watery and a few tears spilled , my heart soaring higher than the clouds . jack wants him , im aware of that . `` i do : i have long known that this house is deeply under her influence . `` and remember how i said i did n't want you to ? '' `` we ca n't stand here and fight all day . '' he clears his throat , and our eyes meet . i cover my mouth with one of my hands and nibble on my thumbnail . 