`` we found something else in the suitcase , too , '' he said in a resigned manner . `` the thought never crossed my mind . '' hes the best youve ever seen , bar none . that was all it took to get me crying again . what you want , lewis ... what youre looking for . he knew how to pull the pin and hurl it should the need arise . yet still he was hard for her . he pulls me down until we are nose to nose , his lips grazing mine as he speaks . 