the first eight stairs were heavily damaged , so we had to grab the railing that was still intact to pull ourselves over the larger holes . i said , holding him so tight , i thought he might pop in my arms . the apartment i barely ever spent any time at . and he would put in windows , too . he knew , their end was coming sooner than later , regardless of the eater . man , had he ever kissed her . nobody would ever know what i chose . 