the movers are coming in less than a week . this was because it was massive , long and four stories tall . i think of visiting day like i think of the world ending : nothing after it matters . it 's because i was n't allowed by god to pester that older white man , the one who read my story and care . and a confused girl with no past on the inside . yet our searches continue to fail . `` i was thinking we could buy a little place on the beach . '' 