the hole had been throated with cement . my bedroom was just a little bit bigger than the bed inside it . it was a soft covered booklet crammed with events and photographs . 'let them pass and follow their orders ! `` so if he needs time alone , does that make you love him less ? '' but bigger than her shock at what she 'd just seen her husband do , was her shock at herself . did he not take care of you ? '' there came the sudden voice of the p.a . 