it was incredible how far she came since they moved to new york . he wished he could have seen inside , but the lock had no windows . some would fly only to be killed and their bodies crash on their fellows below . it was only as he grew older , into his teens , that it gave them some pause . `` you were sort of hard to miss . '' i turned my attention back to the steps , taking them two and three at a time . he knew he was innocent and i knew it too . 