he would n't look at me , maybe because i 'd seen the pens . `` take care of the little one , '' she said , and then she was across the back porch and out the door . `` merry christmas , '' she said in return . this is my chance to learn how to handle the bus and the subway . shes taken it into her head to be ill tonight . she crossed the street and burst through the open door . `` making an album , going on tour ... am i making a mistake ? '' 