but i was n't sure who to pin her death on . she took his hand in hers and followed his gaze toward the back of the ruins . so i started to sleep until one . his hand on hers was so warm , so tender , and it felt so good to be touched by him again , even in so innocent a way . i 'm still not any closer to being over josh . she took it back , this was n't easy . the land has not been idle these past days . 