he laughed at my surprised expression . the only way out is blocked by an invisible shield . though i was barely even touching them , the silver burned my fingers . i have been standing there too long . the other day when we all first met . kill the freak who would run away as his mother was murdered , and then think of himself as he hugged her dead body . holding things in is what got me to this point . give the girl some leverage , for god 's sake . '' 