i snap or whatever, taking in a deep breath (which is what we are constantly practicing together) and looking all the kids in the eyes to apologize, explaining that was not an appropriate reaction, and how could i have done that better? in some really odd way, this sort of fills me up after it makes me feel stupid.
when people ask us how we are doing, if i say “pretty good,” you can know i actually mean it.
but when people ask me how court went or how the girls are “adjusting” or “settling in,” i honest to god do not know how to answer. nothing about their current circumstances, or 