autumn took a deep breath and stepped through . she rubbed her paper-thin hand across it . think of it this way ; in a way , you are my son . of course , i would so do it for you ! often , she wondered what it would be like to dream peacefully . she was always so friendly and happy . `` when i 'm buried deep inside you i need you to tell me you love me . '' his face relaxes and he smiles down at me . 