he had been to hell and back , and those little blue pills let him hide from that . indeed , i can taste it like a sharp metallic bite on my tongue . '' the feelings of love i was picking up evidently , or should i say hopefully , were not in a romantic nature , he replied . i changed for you , only for you . '' he could not spare a hand to open his good eye . i can not give you the very normal experience of seeing where i came from , and who my people are . 