i was worried you 'd taken ill. '' `` why ? '' she placed a hot kiss on his chin , followed by another on his neck , then one at the skin just above his t-shirt . i can hear a voice in the distance , an echo against the night sky , i am confused , my voice no longer there as a question circles my inner ear . i 'm the curator of all this pain . i 'd longed for it really , and now , with the baby ... i twisted around and gave her a steady look . 