she needed to go home and decide what to do now that others knew about her . i do n't expect we shall be spending much time there . '' but i should n't have been looking at them . i sat alone with only my bruised and aching back and a feeling of being hunted in the small beige holding cell . well , i needed to rinse off my fork . its as far as i can push it . older and newer ones wrestled each other , trying to feed . 