`` only that he was sorry you had such an adverse reaction to your therapy . i meant to stay away and let you do what you would tonight , for i have no further claim to you , but in the end , i could not . i could really use a lighthouse to get me out of this darkness ... she murmured . `` oh yeah , forgot 'bout them , '' paddy grinned . nick lowered his forehead to the table and groaned . no matter the pain he 'd seen her suffer thus far , she kept quiet . 