anything to keep my hands out of tonys persistent grasp . there was nothing in my life that i 'd been more sure of than wanting to be his wife . he slipped in alone and stared at the ceiling for an hour and thought hard . and you will be careful how you speak to me now and in the future . '' `` how do you know your way around my house ? '' his canvas jacket went over that , and with a look in the mirror , he rolled his eyes . 