but when it came right down to it , if they would n't move and they would n't join , he wiped them out . `` do n't worry , '' i told him , reaching past his hip to retrieve the rumbling teakettle . long moments passed in complete black silence . `` that is my opinion as well . '' `` you could do that the entire time ? i was n't sure how i was going to survive without his arms around me . 