grief washed over her in waves , burrowing into her heart , reaching deep inside her soul . no , please , begged sam , leaning forward . nodding his understanding , the assistant was more than happy to bring them towels . besides , the monster eighteen-wheelers in the traffic meant i didnt need that distraction . but i was afraid to turn on any lights . granny wanted to make sure she had passed it on before she died . what are you gon na do when youre old ? 