in the process of digging through the neat stack of boxes , she eventually happened upon the manual . ( nothing could help me think worse , thats for sure . ) he clipped them onto the harness they had already put on . i didnt mean to make it sound so bad . they were robbing me of time with my son and my feeling of safety . i squeeze back further into our corner trying to become one with the box behind us . from that night on , she was afraid of the dark . 