cass said , can you make it that far ? back in the bedroom , she searched her drawers for something to wear . i just kept hoping that she 'd give me the chance to explain , but looking back i know nothing would have helped . i ask as she swings her leg over the fence . his toy soldiers made of lead were a gray clump minus paint or portrait . he gulped the pills down , holding the glass between his shaking hands . were on the whistle test tonight . 