i did n't tell him because i was afraid he 'd try to influence me one way or the other , and i did n't want that . '' back in my cell , i turned my thoughts to the queen again . he felt himself in no sense free . as long as the lord of the manor did n't show up , he might get past the door this time . he must have noticed heels were not the best things to wear when pushing a loaded down luggage cart . 