she needed to lower her arms so that she could steady herself by holding on to him , so that she could grip the back of his head and hold him there-oh yes , right there ! my right hand gripped the phone , my left hand was balled up into a fist . do you see that building there ? if you think you 're going to put me in your book , you deserve anything you get . '' `` yep , but that 's the least of my problems . `` you 're deep in thought , '' he remarked . 