he acted as if the whole world could go to hell , that he 'd do exactly as he damn well pleased . i looked out the front window at the rain . but there was no sign of drew . such a willing sacrifice is not punished and things are not always as they seem . it was a rather pleasant sensation he would not have thought himself possible of just a few weeks before when he used to wear ragged jeans and old t-shirts . you invited anna and myself here , so we came . 