it is important to me that you understand , because i do care about it . a jumble of scores and music sheets marched across the stand . she just hoped that it did not turn out to be a fool 's errand , or she was as good as dead . he shaved and took a long shower . `` he was kind of cheerful about it , though . `` i killed someone for him , '' i said , my words floating in the thick dark night . `` you 're leaving without saying good-bye ? '' 