he had a habit of doing this and it never failed to make me so aware of him . `` a little warning would have gone a long way . '' her eyes werent focused on me . her suspicions rose again ; it sounded so promising , but then it always did ... until she learned the truth . i felt empty and alone , and as i walked , i felt like the pavement could swallow me up and that no one would care . not until one of the shadows moved to stand directly in her path . 