i managed to close the door softly , to keep from scaring caroline , but when i was sure they were gone , i lost it . youre not looking too good yourself , son . the officers did not know how to take that , sam could see . at that he laughed and she grumbled at his amusement . if i followed my head , i 'd get back together with nash . sometimes the fellows of the college and others , even the prior , would come and sit with me ; sharing my sorrows and flattering me with their company . 