her only answer was that she could n't make such a decision for me , even though i only wanted to talk it through . my heart pounding against my chest , i asked , `` is he hurt ? `` oh , i believe in the mystery of the god who created all things . an even more pressing concern was that if the ships captain thought he was there to spy on them , there was a good chance hed be killed ! we go on talking about all the activity we saw today . also the lighting was slightly dim . 