lucy said it was a good idea for me to take a couple of sleeping pills to relax the nerves , but they just rolled around in my stomach , finding a friend in the nerves that were already there . since i dragged her closer earlier , she 's now sitting on the middle cushion directly beside me . it is time to start planning . `` i thought your sister was responsible for him being here ? '' when she was sure they were gone , she asked the question she had to voice . 