luis wanted it ... he asked for it . i reached around my back to undo the zipper , but it would n't undo . and his face is softer in this moment than i have seen it yet . he leaned in , too close , too warm , too big . `` so what 's your schedule like this week ? `` that 's not a bad thing , you know , the fact that we make mistakes or let our pride get in the way . we get her , you get these two back . 