have fun , he said , shutting the door quickly behind him . or at least , that was his own belief . we were interrupted by the crack of a bat through the headphones we 'd taken off . maybe some of her fingers were towards the back of my arm . `` you 're so f**king beautiful , '' he said in a rough voice . none of them mean anything to me . at least as far as i 'm concerned . trust me , this is not a positive place . '' 