she wanted someone who was better by himself , with or without her . it was as if the head and tail of a cat were sewn into my blue jeans . i 'd never felt normal , and having an agency that liked me to feel that way ? `` so it looks like you wasted your time , '' she adds . god did not work like that . then her eyes opened and fixed right on his . `` it 's time to set the trap . '' 