he would have said, i reason like him, i do all the things that, before, bothered me to see in him. i feel trapped. i can’t believe that the same things have to happen to me! now everything is really hurting me. for fifteen years i have been pretending to be myself but it is fourteen years that i have been in a dead man’s place. and i was becoming him! actually, i had already become him! i had taken his place. i had a dead man’s place: it is as if i should die from one moment to the next. is it for this reason that i always have 