`` lucy , '' she said , snapping her fingers in front of my face . he looked up at me , his eyes full of pain . she searched his eyes for a moment . anyway , im sure you didnt just come here to gossip . i did n't want to seem too desperate , even though that was clearly the case . then she flipped back her red hair and fixed her lipstick before going back into the dining room . `` there 's more kinds of pain than just physical pain , you know . '' 