why the hell did her head hurt so much ? does it come back inside me and burn me from within ? ' `` i did n't know what to do when father died . she 'd finally decided to do something besides purr . - were they to take from another race without permission . and yet , being with him felt so right . killing a woman , particularly one who was n't threatening him personally ... it was something he 'd never have thought himself capable of . that will be enough for me . '' 