although one could describe this moment as exactly that . i was going to hold onto her with all my might . he was walking half-backward , taking his leave of the gloom inside . he still made her insides hot and bothered like no one had in a long time , but he was cocky , a player , and had forgotten her . there was always the chance that her husband would turn up . i 'm looking for something you 're not prepared to offer . '' 