hed grown during the summer and switched from his older brothers hand-me-downs to his oldest brothers hand-me-downs . i can imagine anna beside me , close and real for a moment . he believed it , my mother believed it , my teachers believed it , and of course i believed it . lawn ornaments , bird baths , flower pots . i love you all , and i thank you for all the love and joy that you have given me ! she swirls her fingers around the tattoo at my ribs . 