he patted his jacket pockets and found a pad as jane brought him a pen from a drawer in the kitchen . did he know something she didnt ? there was no way i could run a restaurant and have him be almost two hours from me . erase this whole experience from my mind . you dont mind if i sit here do you ? he was going to get himself burned out and be normal . `` oh-oh-kay , '' bill said , and shook out the match before his face could tell them any different story . 