upon seeing it , drews eyes shot open and he snatched the box from her hand . some had become fat ; some were now thin . another lightning bolt of agony raced through my battered body . she asked , her brain still foggy from lack of sleep . for their sakes , if not my own . '' my spine is so stiff and so brittle . then she took a deep breath and grabbed the microphone . `` okay , first of all , there is no one else . he grabbed my elbow to keep me from slipping . 