that 's how it should have been on earth . it 's none of my business what may or may not have happened to you in your past . '' at least that was her working theory . i look through my bag , not much there . he ran both hands through his hair at the same time , avoiding my gaze . `` hi , '' i responded , unable to smile in return . would it be for my own benefit , or for the benefit of others ? more headlights jerked her attention toward the lane . 