`` i 'm not an easy person to be with , luke . she seemed to think i understood what she was talking about . we are at war you see . an object that could easily be mistaken for any kind of remote controller , or fancy mobile phone , to the technical staff it was a key . it was n't a kiss , not at first - until it was . `` then you wish you had never met me ? '' i put a hand on his upper arm , feeling the faint outline of a scar under the fabric . 