i wanted you to love me , for me . sam , i 'm gon na get kicked out of the band and so are you . i needed a bourbon in one hand and a blonde in the other , not necessarily in that order . it was so cold in there . when have i ever not been there ? '' and i mean a wreck in the best sense of the word . '' she took a long sip of her wine , keeping her eyes closed for a moment after she 'd removed the glass . 