you looked at me and said it was worth it . i hoped to come here and make some kind of connection with my father in hopes that being with my own kind would make me feel wanted . it was a dream , but what else can you remember ? her eyes get all swirly and love-struck the way they do in cartoons . and it actually was n't so bad . what could he possibly have written ? for every seventeen things she tried on , she found one item that both fit and she liked . 