but his weary eyes had seen far too much , and she was definitely worried that he was n't getting enough sleep . maybe this wont be so bad . i had to fight not to take her right there , right then , but something she 'd said had stuck with me , and i was feeling adventurous . `` ivy , '' she said , and then nodded slowly . the old man 's fist slammed down on his desk . of course , he would never be running late . `` if you need her to live ? '' 