i took the flashlight in one hand and the nail polish in the other and stared at it closely . `` i came down here to visit my dad . '' `` she has good reason to be apprehensive . mary asked when the three met . will you turn around and look at me please ? '' `` well , you have to ask her , '' she reasons . i just needed to keep my wits about me for a few more moments . i want to tell him , but i dont know how . 