connected and at the same time you are communicating.
e: the other thing i think is interesting, we have this expression, we talk about it with anger but i think that it applies here too: i roll all negative experience into my practice, and we can also say: i roll all positive experience into my practice.
m: so in meditation you call up this anger?
e: you don’t call it up, you just sit with it. you just take it as part of the whole as opposed to ‘this is not supposed to be there.’ this is what i think the clown is doing, i see this, everything is just taken in, it 