she could not speak softly even when i was not awake to hear her . she froze and looked up from beneath her lashes . and i 'd have no one to blame but myself . we would n't want a repeat of last night , now would we ? '' lucas did n't look like he entirely believed that , but he nodded . i wondered if the real chase would do that , if i ever got to sleep in the same room with him . i hate to say it but its time . 