i recognize the code word my parents taught us from birth and suddenly feel sick . it means you let your heart get in the way of business . '' this road has to go somewhere . '' there was obvious pain in her words , she did n't want to see him dead after all . i climb into the bed with her and wrap my arm around her and lay my leg over her legs . the page she 'd opened to appeared to be a map of turkey , though no roads were marked and no borders indicated . 