`` i do n't know , maybe i 'd better go ... touch up , '' i said . `` i would have thought you 'd be very happy you do n't have to worry about me-or any of the others-when you 're away . '' `` and i see you wear a sword again . '' it took a lot of getting used to if you asked me . he was the most caring , talented , kind , handsome man she knew . his father and our pa were best of friends . 