i sat down with a sigh and turned on the television , finally settling on a marathon of a show about picking wedding dresses . `` i doubt anything you say can be worth not holding you like this . '' his decisions were not open to debate . they only work if the other person does n't know the truth . reaching into my pocket , i pulled out my phone and hit her number . i rolled back over toward the wall and closed my eyes , wishing i could shut her words out as effectively as the sight of her . 