my hands quiver just at the thought of it and i rest my forehead on the mattress , still on my knees `` it feels f**king impossible . '' holding hades out at arms length , zeus commanded , look at what you tried to do . she wanted this phone call over with so she could get back to derrick . he kicks a rock on the step and it shoots across the grass . how long ago was that , she wondered . `` here you go , sweetums , eat up . 