something told her she would never feel anything like it again . haven thought about it for a moment . he gets back to dinner preparations . holder gets out of the car and shuts the door behind him . `` i 'm not eager to see more good people get hurt . she 's earned a handful of credits and a pat on the back . '' i struggle for something smart to say in return , but to my embarrassment , i feel tears well up in my eyes . by now , he was an expert . 