to stand in line for food at a food bank and leave with canned meat that smelled like garbage . he could see donna , crumpled and soaked in her own blood . `` i did n't go about this the right way . i think that i am going to explode . we waste no time in loading up our arms and taking all the foil-wrapped dishes straight down into the back yard . unfortunately , that worried my parents , but then everything worried my parents . 