i put my fingers into my mouth and whistled for her , hoping she could hear it over the noise of the party . he paused for a moment , and he gave a sad , bitter smile . you should go back to your trailer trash wear . '' when she gets to the door , she holds them out like a prize and says , `` do you think this is enough ? '' i caught my breath , hating myself when my eyes filled . she has been waiting for me . 