inside we find a small table and wait for the waitress . why would you do that , moo ? `` it 's them , '' she said more softly . its the same helpless desire i saw in joshuas eyes . that was n't what he had said before . hed been like that when shed found him in the orchard . i can deal with anything but that . '' he took in a deep breath , just as he was taking in the reality of the situation . 