he had no one to share his thoughts , his hopes , and his concerns . that was n't who i wanted to be . `` and miss the opportunity to stalk this guy with you ? '' you seek it out , do n't you ? '' `` you started this , beck , and we 're going to finish it . '' of all his cousins , he was closest to jake . why were you at the computer lab , i demanded . he tossed it behind him somewhere into the tall grass . 