it would be easier to focus my anger at a single target . there was something ... quiet about him . cassie could n't have felt more alone once the door clicked shut . she and nine other nuns were tied together in pairs , back to back , sitting in the middle of wave-jumper 's deck . she moved her hand to rest on his shoulder and gave him a smile , her fear clearly gone . it had been so many years . and it 's the sort of memory that makes me wish i 'd gone to college out of state . 