the desire rode me hard , and worse yet , i knew his body would be warm , and it would be hard in all the right and interesting places . i always got my mate nancy to write letters for me , see ? ' the reason for my change of heart will soon become clear to you . if nothing else im glad to have helped you . i think you can go home now . `` why ca n't we learn how to use the words , mistress ? '' most fourteen-year-olds are n't actively trying to fix the world . 