a million ideas came to mind , but there was only one that screaming at me . he was an intimate of the king 's , but no friend to my aunt or my cousin , last i knew . when your father died , there was so much , too much ... stuff . we accept it because the alternative is just too horrible . i leaned back and threw out both my hands . if thomas had - well , he 'd had years to make it known , not that anything could have come of it . 