in my young life , i had learnt how different i was ; but having a regular family , a regular job , and a regular life -- it made me feel like i could fit in . it probably was n't necessary , but there was no reason to take chances . as much as she 'd prepared for this moment , actually being faced with the possibility terrified her . i shouldnt have blown up like that . whoops , sorry rob , i hate to interrupt , but the big guy and junior are coming in pretty quick . 