meanwhile , he could take a drive out to st marks . `` we discovered the door has a bronze core . though i had n't been living there for two weeks , moving out was big . if i do n't get to play my way , i wo n't play at all . between the spell and my inability to transform , there was nothing i could do . and pretty soon , i could n't tell her to stay away . i just didnt realize that id have to act the part of an engaged man ? 