i cant really eat anything as i get so sick afterwards i have to lie down to keep my food down.
i wonder if people still read this thing or if im just writing for my own amusement. it wont really make much of a difference except if no one is reading, than i can say whatever i want.
even though we still see each other as often as we used to and still talk most everyday, its different now and i can hardly keep from crying when i think about what has slipped through our hands.
there is no way for me to fix this and its ripping out my soul.
im going 