quick thinking , courage under pressure , and a perfect result . that is work for moose and squirrel , not for me ! '' `` or we could just say to hell with it and go . '' the trees were laden with snow , bowing under its weight . i was as near to panic as i 'd been in a long time , but then as always happens , always when i 'm afraid , when anything is making me afraid , i got angry . unfortunately , that was the last time i 'd had some . 