he had two bags strapped to his back , filled with equipment that hed gathered from the van . the secret is here , and i do not want to know it . we would have to make camp , somewhere well away from the stink of burning , and that would be hard enough , in the dark . for long moments , the only air that we breathe is through each other . she was n't moving fast enough and i grabbed her arm . blake was startled by her exclamation . 