you should n't either , if you truly love her . '' curling into a ball , i let myself sink beneath the surface . `` i ... i do n't know how to thank you for all this . '' how could she not be excited about an opportunity like this ? so when i ask you to hold him you must not let him go until i say so , do you understand ? `` okay , if it 's not for the kiss , what are you thanking me for ? '' we sat facing each other across the kitchen table . 