now , my core was semi-filled and i felt somewhat better , and it felt like i should be able to move . she always said that i wasnt fat , but technically , i was , even if i did wear it well ( according to stupid martin wise ) . `` i probably already did , '' he muttered as he squirted a bunch of the clear liquid onto his hand . one could hardly breathe without the other . i did as shed told me to . i shook my head , and he sighed . 