all of it. as fun as all of it is, it is far from where my genuine self exists. i have lived my life so much longer and have experienced so many things. i want so much more and desire something more in terms of who i picture myself with, and this week, i actually see potential.
now, i do not see any of this happening overnight. this will be a long process because i am not ready yet. my heart is not ready yet. i still need a lot of healing and growing. i need to know how to trust again. yet i believe in all of it. i am 