go on , she said , blocking my access to her lap and almost swatting at me . my hands shook as i lifted them to take off my knickers . he thinks they were for me . she did n't really want to talk about this with her mother-hell , she did n't want to talk about anything with her mother-but right now , she could n't hold back . there is nothing special just between us . i had to deal with someone unpleasant . worried in case i 'd want a repeat performance ? 