i look at the phone and shake my head in frustration . `` oh , seth , i love you so much . '' i had n't realized his damage ran so deep . rick took a labored breath , obviously upset by the direction of the questioning . how much cash are we talking , anyway ? he felt like a child , unable to do anything effective . she 'd tried to explain that she needed to be closer to him , but it had never seemed to make a difference . 