so how would i know to lie about it ? '' he handed them over and walked away . i thought if i pushed you away , made you angry , something , you 'd stop looking at me and the wanting would go away . she 'd done other things to him , things more painful to his body than to his pride , but he had n't shared details and i did n't really want to know . i dont want to walk by that dog again ! ... out of five games , i had beaten ben at all of them . 