she managed to get her grin under control as she tried to sound puzzled , even though she was sure it was a waste of time . he did n't know what to say but he was n't going to disappoint her . `` i do n't know , i feel ashamed when i give in , i feel as if i have truly lost myself . '' ill tell you about my wild days if you tell me about your evening out last week . `` aye , they are , and that 's why they have to get more imaginative . '' 