henry had moved his hand to gesture towards the doorway , and the gun was no longer pointing at her . luther was silent for a long time , his expression cop-hard . instead , i collect myself and push the door open . the pain that came at the moment was so sharp , so sudden , that i bent over and sucked in my breath . technically we were still together then . `` sex has never meant anything to me . 'dennis , ' she murmured , and i kissed her again . 