the thought of her being in trouble or just leaving because she was bored entered my mind . my body feels rigid and cold , and i am not angry , i am not hurt , i am nothing . talon stood inside the open terrace doors , out of the afternoon sunlight . `` mother of god , gray , do n't tell me you fell for someone on the crew . '' i could n't believe it , but it was him . i jerked my face in his direction , dreamed ? 