this would have been a real good time for cooler heads to call the match and get everyone to safety , but cooler heads werent running the match , lacrosse team owners were . over and over again , until they nearly drove me mad . '' he had been coming out of a daze or some weird kind of trance , and stuttering was perfectly normal under those circumstances . `` the other night , when you took me home after taking me to meet the others , you mentioned hope . `` i had one and it was a while ago . 