`` why evacuate that building instead of the building he 's burning ? that figured ; he was at the hospital with his wife and his baby . `` well , that 's encouraging , '' he breathed by her ear . because there was n't any kindness left in there . and it was clear she was listening . surely i can bargain her with something i want . a woman should not be out alone in the streets . `` em -- '' my voice cracks and i do n't finish , at a loss of what to say . 