oh , by the way - a thank you card . it also slows me down so that i pay more attention to my environment . see what he comes up with . it was impossible - it went miles down as well as up , everybody knew that - but it was happening . `` you did n't share that information with me . and it pretty much doubled twice again until you hit level four and below which was pretty much even . `` can i believe that my brother is about to kill himself to create a ridiculous spectacle ? '' 