he was concentrating on what he was doing . he pointed to himself and then he pointed to me and then back to himself . she 'd barely had time to belt her robe . better to keep his distance and satisfy his curiosity on an intellectual level . he had to go back to the hospital . maybe i should just do what he wants . '' why could n't you leave it alone ? because youre not yet ready to admit you want me , even to yourself . i got on the computer and played a quick game of hearts . 