they were led by a thick set , red-faced man . i 'd been so worried , i 'd insisted , and i guess she had n't had the energy to fight it . and i 'd been imagining this day since i was a little girl . i want to leave this right here , right now , for now and forever . i was getting really sick of being on the outside looking in . they went into the room , where a man lay in a hospital bed , connected to a lot of machines . 