i could feel my bowels becoming nervous . she realized she might have trouble describing him to the police , if that chance ever came . he imagined her biting the bottom of her lip as she waited for his response . all i want is for our friendship to go back to normal . but it 's hard to be witty when someone is looking at you like that . my father came here occasionally , though i was never allowed to accompany him . '' chapter twenty emma felt fully alive the next morning . 