he explained that we 'd board one of the pods while the structure was still moving , albeit very slowly . you are a medical miracle , he declared . what if this was all just an act ? what would happen at the station ? but it would have been a relief to hand it over . i started to ask if he was out of his mind but paused when i remembered his relationship with the queen . and it 's even more of a challenge to get a buzz going when something really is n't worth it . '' 