but i was the bigger man-and the bigger man 's the one who walks away . they 'd already butchered some game , so things were going as well as could be expected . and yet , at the same time , i felt free and in control . at least someone cares enough to feed him . the only friends i ever had back then . '' and through none of it had i seen him pause for food , drink , or rest . `` you want me to investigate this group ? '' 