i lift my eyes to him , and find his beautiful greens staring back at me . nothing could have been more perfect or more beautiful . as far as i can see neither guy has seen me at my absolute low . i grasped my girl as tight as possible and fell asleep with a grin on my face . im only a farmer working the soil . he shook his head , his eyes dark with pain . something within him , however , fought just as hard to keep them in fists . 