and strangely , she did n't feel afraid ; she felt like this entire situation was some bizarre test of her will . `` she has a ring from her mother , and she carries a cigar clipper with her always . i straighten and hold up my chin . everyone made sure he 'd stay in that cell for the rest of his life , '' he said . jerry got lucky enough to score a desk by the window . the man he 'd set himself up to be . people get lost in the mist and never return . 