at the same time , he felt her grip him low as she came again , tugging on him , crying out , thrashing beneath him . id be more worried about yourself right now . yes , ill see if we can get you a peek . his family never understood and he had to leave , start a new life . `` perhaps he feared i might torture him for a bit . '' and now i will pay a debt that is n't mine . '' then he took me by the shoulders and examined my face . 