maybe this time ill pick something thats ugly . i am so sorry for what my father has taken away from us . we sat in silence several minutes , our breath clouding the windows . i then thought long and hard about what i was thinking . his heart dropped , her best friend was his family 's enemy . well , even if he was , it was none of her business . `` who do you think it 's paradise for ? '' it wasnt a question that expected an answer . 