humpty huffed louder and turn away even further . for a second , i thought ... but that doesnt matter . she tasted cigarette and mint and comfort . `` it 's not an unusual way for people to save money , '' i said . i smile , but a memory rushes back to me , sharp and painful , stinging my brain . she lifted her head and looked at him , but she did n't pull away . if it was n't on the calendar with plenty of notice , then i was n't allowed to do it . 