we lost her once during surgery . he knows im wearing his cross and now hes getting all misty . ben dropped to his knees and peered through the jagged opening . perhaps never in his life had this man , who had experienced so many opposite and powerful emotions , felt his heart beat so violently . in a pair of tight jeans , a sleeveless t-shirt , and sneakers , she could stop traffic if she chose , and this morning , she did choose . and pulled up the files in question . 