they need answers sir , and to be honest , so do i . she closed her eyes , willing the memory away , but it refused to go . a half-hour later marco and i arrived back at the hotel . he had a wide nose and heavy eyelids . and now i know it was this , all of this , but it was also you . `` even if she was , '' he says , grinning over at me once , `` she 'd still love you . '' 