because staring back at me , was an up close and personal picture of cole 's junk . im not the wild guy you seem to picture me as in your mind . i took another look at my friends . he knew that voice , even as distorted by pain as it was . `` and why do n't you work , why are n't you at your duty , if you are in the service ? '' there was never anything to talk about besides work . there was something else going on with riley . 