but i cant , no matter how hard i try . i got looks all afternoon and i did n't care because i would n't normally care , but also because all i could think about was hop getting to me . i pulled at the large red bow and slid the top off with shaky fingers . `` but not about the first two ? '' `` gods know i 'm tired of listening to all of your whining . '' and i bite my tongue before i can tell him that it turned me on more . 