having felt this , however , neither he nor any of the rest has a clear picture of what has gone down on the other side , what has become of these people . `` it would have helped if your ho of a cousin had n't killed him in the first place ! '' `` she thinks she 's warned me away . i had n't put any more batter in the iron in case he did n't want any more . this goddamned day is never going to end . 