im just a fool who didnt know how to say it . `` he did n't say who she-if she looked like , you know ... anyone ? '' `` do n't you want to put on a bra ? '' that suggested the room did not even exist . rich on his german blood money . i just wanted to get us out of there . i think sometimes hes mad at his mother for leaving him and at me for being the one who lived , even though his mind knows that no one did any of this on purpose . 