`` then you 're on the side of right and justice , and i wo n't hold it against you . '' i glanced at my mother and saw a curious smile on her lips . going outside to the porch hand in hand ; fixing her hair ; reading together in a big chair , her head nestled against her mother 's shoulder ; her mother 's smell , her voice , her ... oh , my gods . he sat down heavily and cast a suspicious look at the stiff portion of fish in his hand . 