he expected the end to come instantly . not that i 'm counting , of course , and not for his lack of trying to make conversation . and yet , he was definitely horrified . `` live long enough , yeah , and you know things . id lost my appetite by the time i sat down for lunch with jimmy the rat chester . a smile has to come from within spontaneously and even then , the eyes tell the real story . this is far enough for me . this one device can bring life to mars . ' 