but those things did n't make up for the horrible things i 'd done and the demons inside me who would never let me go . he shook against her , and she closed her eyes against the tears stinging her lids . i dont know how to fly these suits , and i dont have time to learn . she 's still huddled against the rock wall like she 's trying to melt through it , and as i watch , one hand creeps down to her side , fingers pressing to the spot where her wound was . 