but the `` less '' side of that equation was growing more every day , and once i closed on the house i was going to have to schedule a serious talk with myself about my life , my future , and everything . he set his hand atop hers , trying to offer what little comfort he could . but it made me feel strong . i could hear him groaning and moaning from the kitchen . i started , `` i can't- '' `` i would n't , even if you said yes . '' 