`` i remembered how you used to buy three and four of those silly things each year and figured one more could n't hurt . '' suddenly he looked up from his notebook , his eyes unexpectedly sharp and blue . and i want to spend the rest of my life making it up to her . '' it smelled worse than a dirty bathroom . they never have any good to say , now do they ? '' and i could say `` hi '' back or `` nothing '' and we 'd be done with it . 