she asked , stepping into the hallway to ask her body guards with the file tucked under her arm . 'but ... ' she said , 'how could you kiss her ? ' `` you keep telling yourself that , '' he said tightly . she crawled out from under the covers and jumped on the bed . no coffee pot or coffee grinder . what is it , like 6 minutes until brain death ? her parents were here a couple years or so , just long enough for her to graduate from high school , then they left . 