but his choice not to acknowledge what she 'd said had taken every beautiful , sexy , and loving feeling out of her . all the boys had different jobs to do and worked well together . and it took time off from what i had to spend going over to see my kids . '' thank her , then , madame , if you have any affection for me . ' she trembled from the inside out , wanting more than she ever believed possible and knowing it was probably out of reach . `` good thing you 're not , i suppose . 