`` god , she should n't be up there . it just is , i do n't know why ; do n't really care neither . `` everyone has their own version of how things happen . '' she stumbled a little , caught her balance and looked around herself as if trying to remember where she was and how she 'd gotten there . `` what will we do if it does n't ? '' she had curves , not thick shoulders and thighs that could pull a cart because the horse had had to be shot . 