`` that would be grand , '' she breathed . if she 'd ever had a chance with him , she 'd blown it by lying and hurting him . `` i really do need to go up there ... it 's been too long . i review my own bills and my decisions on payment are final . she stared down at it for a few hopeful seconds . `` you have done what was required of you , '' said the director . contact with anyone outside your training is yet forbidden . why the hell did you follow me here ? ' 