but ill never be able to thank you enough for not giving up on me . how was i going to deal with her ? he turned the paper over , staring at the blank side as if expecting to see something else written there . it all came down to his selfishness , his refused to go another minute without knowing the taste of his mouth , even knowing the consequences that were bound to follow . `` i 'm going with my gut on this one . '' i have n't been away from her for more than twenty-four hours . 