through my laughter and tears i lifted my hand straight up in the air , index finger and pinkie extended in devil 's horns . weve said little more than hi and how are you since we arrived at the restaurant . are we gon na stop the story in its tracks here ? the effort nearly dropped me to my knees . what a bloody , gloomy day he thought , suits my mood . he smiled at that , so merrily that she smiled back . no , i do n't want to do this right now . 