she 'd only seen him twice in the past month , and it did n't seem enough . `` i 'd never seen anyone fight like that tonight . i blinked back tears as i made my own coffee . he 'd bet his last penny she was aware of him as a man . and the thought of never being with you again is tearing me apart . '' can leave it there for now , she wrote back . as you should be , childs said . 