after a few seconds , he asks , your honor , in light of everything that has happened , may i request a recess until tomorrow morning before cross-examining this witness . i pull the hard plastic visitor 's chair next to the bed and take her fingers in my huge paw . id never considered myself odd before and wondered what he meant . if i had half a brain , i would have made a joke and laughed , but i had no brain . but i felt her nearby , watching me . 