i fit the bottle to the needle , watching as it fills , lifting it , tapping it free of bubbles . only , that failed to temper her needs . today i walked through the hall without worrying if someone was going to shove me into a wall . back inside the car i take steves phone and connect to the web . there 's not a day goes by that i do n't think about it . '' she gripped her purse more tightly and started walking quicker . but i do n't think he 's afraid to die . 