i did love him , but not the way he needed me to love him . only your sister and mother to help me as i age ? `` this is going to take longer than i thought . i died inside more and more each passing day . presently pat said , `` when his enthusiasm goes , there is n't much left of him . '' the parents werent quite finished , yet . he wanted to be there for me . that seemed to be going too slow or too fast ? '' 