`` i struggled with that ... '' he was having a hard time keeping his voice under control . take twenty years of her life and then discard her like a sweater that no longer fit . it would n't hurt to know if he could actually read minds . he was going to get you to the point that you 'd beg for your life and then force you to take him back to one of us . '' `` yes , most of them are gone . '' why are you still doing this ? 