`` i just could not give him an inch , the benefit of the doubt , or a break . `` that you 're the freaking main course , not the appetizer , not the dessert . finally she stopped trying to free herself . instead of answering , my eyes dropped down her body , coming to rest between her legs . grant waited , watching always through the window . as much as i want to lie to her and say that , no , i wo n't send anyone to watch over her ... i ca n't . 