it was n't because i did n't think she could handle herself , but i refused to put her in a position where she would have to defend herself or put her job on the line . `` i do n't know how much more a this i can take . that was a lot for me to process , but i think i got it . i have to admit , id missed her funny , high-toned way of talking . she took the gun and went into the room . jake turned around and looked up castle avenue . 