i doubled over , hands gripping my scalp , the smell of gasoline singing my nose , and then the flash was gone again . there 's a bathroom across the hall you can use . throughout the night men had left to return home to their families . `` he 's the one who opened the doorway . '' he stayed patiently still , nonetheless , while the boy enjoyed the view . i would have to wait another twenty-four hours for my future to begin . 