i did n't turn to see what he was doing or where he was going to sit down . `` it was so long , and such a glorious color . the day before her reading i checked with the campus office that handled such things and was told that their only portable pa system had already been loaned out to another function . they crashed into my house , i said . `` i wish that i had killed him all those years ago . '' he smiled at this wife of his . 