the part of me that will be crying into the pillow for weeks after he 's moved on . `` i 'm sorry that i had to do that . '' he raised his hand and started jogging back but he talked in my head . he insisted on speaking to the police before being whisked away to hospital . `` you were asking travis for pepper spray when you have that ? '' the truth is n't always pretty , and cassie has to be stronger than ever before . he somehow knew he was almost there . 