i go to answer it before whoever it is just lets themselves in . i left the medical stuff to the doctors , of course , echo said . i would take it back in an instant if i could . things he no longer lived with , conditions that did not exist in this new life . that was n't the question i expected eric to ask . they were each afraid of ruining the friendship , and instead of making it better , their caution made everything awkward . so just tell me how i screwed up . 