`` i did n't know , '' i said again , thinking that my eyes must look haunted . the thought of him making 16-4e with other men was unbearable . oh , im sorry , she said after the pause . i started to wonder if maybe i would die of pneumonia at this rate . i took a deep breath and barely manage to stop myself from pulling the door open and dragging him out as he rolled the window down to look at me in confusion . we should get downstairs and wait for the delivery . 