we have supplies here at the airport for all of us for about two months , maybe three . maybe he was always like this ? the next thing i say sounds even sillier coming out of my mouth than it does in my head : `` i ca n't just ... leave the ... planet without telling my husband where i 'm going . '' my mouth is dry , my tongue heavy . because i do n't want to be in charge of a bunch of kids , she answered plainly . 