dear lord , how could she say this ? ill go in the morning and get a good lock for the door . `` someone threw a rock through the dining room window . the bouncing rubber ball in his chest grew heavier , its bounce too quick to keep up with . that moment had flashed through my mind so many times since , it was as much a part of me as my lungs or my heart or my red hair , and i could n't describe it to nick . aside from my current husband , you were my greatest love . 