all he felt was a deep regret that she had lived so long in a state of desperation that he 'd never even noticed . `` you have lived a sheltered life , indeed . '' a night with one of her girls was n't cheap . there is n't a square inch of this home that i have n't thought of taking you on . '' that spirit of ... of fan-love ... ( `` he 's always writing things down , making things up . '' the large black dwarf beside him looked him up and down for a moment . 