he was so tired , he could n't see straight ! '' `` i want to come tomorrow morning , '' i said . she took a step to the side , but the cat followed . the way he said that hit me someplace deep , where he lived in me , where i kept him and what i wished we could be . i brushed my hand over her cheek . it had to be- a female , he realized . amber grasped the edge of the cloak and allowed it to leave her back . 