we 'd already been inside more than a minute . i signaled for her to hold the door . god , she hated this whole thing . where we gon na go , pa ? would you like to hold hands for a while ? how had she not known something was wrong with him ? i went to the kitchen , the deck . he offered her his hand , pulled her off the couch and then led the way down the hall to the master bedroom , where the body had been found . 