and if she had , why had n't she scrubbed him ? he would have to play this out now and hope his hunch was right . `` actually , the refrigerator was what got me thinking . there will be none of that . if you 'd been there , you would have known this was true . obviously his sudden arrival had made them anxious about the infant . theres no other rules except the ones we agree on . halfway through the fast bath , he realized he 'd accepted what he was about to do and felt steady . 