she would just die if he noticed she 'd been staring . `` do n't disappear into the bathroom and leave me without my jeans . '' i try to twist my head around to see him better , but it hurts my neck . she nodded again and started up the truck . bear with me , i have never seen nor been in a war so i dont understand what you have learned through experience . until this point i had given little thought to what exactly was the source of the ropes that secured us . 