i think im catching on , said a very alert mike . how do i know you wont come running back here once your precious three thousand is gone ? the arrangement worked for over a decade . as soon as one person leaves , another comes in . i 'm not sure i can say the same . '' i do n't bother to open my eyes . the bright light carried me away . `` stop trying to find the good in me . `` it will make you feel as though your insides are coming out . 