and it was the same love that made the boy weep in the night , desperate with worry for his father . i know that has to be difficult for him . better than what 's sold in the city at those so-called 'coffee ' stands . '' a bright light appeared before my eyes . it 's not that i 'm not attracted to you , i just think you 're better than that . '' before he managed to get it halfway towards me , the door gave a great shake . 