i existed on the fringe of the group and stayed out of most of it , but sometimes even i got pulled in . she shyly slid her hand into his , glancing nervously at the others for their reaction . `` call me after the first , '' she said . after he fell asleep , i had no excuses to stay up any longer . chase 's voice was completely dry as he answered my question . i let go of everything , every barrier , every smoke and mirror . the words , my hero appear on each envelope . 