but she is , as they say , my pain in the ass . it was as if the moment our eyes connected our bodies picked up on where we 'd left off last night . and tell me all about it . are they still sending you up there ? why would anyone want to be one ? so he had to make a choice . '' `` because , i 'd rather watch you play out your plan , '' she admitted . i wondered what was going on inside that big head of his . 