maybe one goes to my fathers world . `` went right into voice mail , '' he said . `` have you read the bell jar ? '' `` i know that wo n't be of much use in the last battle , '' mat said quickly . but , trust me ; i wont do that because i trust you and because you are my friend . it felt so pathetic to say that out loud , but i needed to get in the water fast . `` sorry about the mess beside the bed . '' 