i wanted him-desperately needed him-so badly , and i think he needed me , too . `` i do n't think i can wait much longer - i wanted to do this slow and easy , but already i feel like i 'm going to explode , i want you so much . '' its value is based on an agreement , not on weight . why not bring her to the chapel ; let her see what we really are ? '' she smiled , but she also looked at me as though she was sorry for me . 