is no use going out of my way to avoid it. today the chance meeting hurt me less than it did a year ago, and i now have reason to believe that the next one, if it happens, when it happens, will hurt less than it did today. i also have to believe that the man i love exists only in my head, and still, to a certain extent, in my heart. the man i met by chance today is a stranger i do not need to acknowledge.
the past few weeks have been some of the most difficult in my working life, and the show is set to continue, during 