twice i 'd found him sitting on the side of my bed when i awoke . giving myself a push , i found myself moving to the stairway . the shadow remained at the other end of the hall . i find it sad that i 'm the only one in bray 's life who understands that . and all the stories of my gold and amber house , up there against the sky , where we thought we should never really go ? they lack the technology to span such a long way with a gorge that deep . 