he stepped out into the early evening , into the lights and noise of holy wood . then i put her head in a leg lock and squeeze until she stops moving . one of those games people play when they discuss one thing but mean another . why would you do something like that for me at such a risk to yourself ? she 'd caught me off guard by bringing it all up , and then i started to feel sick ... she must have thought that was because i knew more than i let on . 