his eyes were still closed and his body rocked gently to the music , but his face was almost ... desolate . they was four , no five , of them . `` i 'm having a hard time picking between that one and-all the others . '' he watched me with that half-smile on his lips , looking into my eyes . its crazy , but i said a quick prayer , and then it came to me . since you dont have any dishes to pick up ? 