just being able to touch him calmed her more than she could have imagined . his hands slipped around her to cup her breasts beneath the sheet . my life is in that bed . he had intelligence , coupled with a kindness she rarely saw in her customers . the girl looked up at him , her eyes wide . the forces involved , well , it 's just too- ' a shadow fell across them . i knew very well what she wanted of me . `` this is how it will work , gray . 