maybe i just wanted her to be aware that i 'm aware , i do n't know , but she 's certainly got some balls . but what a man stood for could not come and go . `` i guess we can cross number one off the list , '' he said roughly . `` 'kay , '' i whispered because , really , what else could i do ? as they disappear through the opening in the wall , the doctor arrives , driving a buggy . he asked if i 'd had career problems . 