first of all , he was a police officer and dedicated to his job . `` but i suppose it makes it a whole lot easier when you have someone to help you pick up the pieces . '' sniffling back the first of my tears , i sobbed , `` he 's not crazy about me . he nodded as he glanced down at me . he moved in front of it and sat with caution , expecting it to collapse . she would treat it like she was striking a wall . 