i stood in the doorway until my eyes adjusted . and the pain loosens you , makes you soft as i want you to be . hes not looking at me , he just grunts . once settled on his back , i twisted around . i take a deep breath and steel myself . her skin was pale , far too pale . i didnt much care for the book , to be honest , but the cover was delightful . `` they want me to come for dinner some night soon if you want in . '' 