on the one hand , i 'm pleased to know that he was n't having second thoughts about this . `` you really like picnics , do n't you ? '' i was hollow without him , missing the feel of him so much it made me shake . you must understand that if i make an exception for you , i will have to make an exception for everyone . we all made loud train noises until everyone in the dining commons glared at us to stop . he had kept his head down , mumbling his words whenever someone asked for help . 