if im more together and am capable of doing more , what does that do for monkey me ? i did not have a mother to help me with the problems that i have now . her face shone with the energy of a person who had much to say . it hardly ever worked , her aunt would insist on talking to her , as if she was certain that her mother was lying . the only way to disappear was to travel lightly , go fast and far , leaving no trace for anyone to pick up . 