i pull morgan aside and run my hand over his chest . i 'm spelling that with a z , by the way . '' his eyes were like yours , only purple . i would touch her and kiss her and hold her in a way that would ruin everything we were . they let her die in this cage all alone . '' `` i just wondered how he felt about my leaving . '' you never intended to kill yourself . '' as we waited for my demonstration order to go through , i dialed up my voice mail . 