it seemed the men were n't ready to call it a night . i felt like i 'd been stabbed all over . if what we did was any indication , sleep will be the last things on our minds . `` not bad at all , '' colin said , stepping behind the bar again . he stops with a hand on the handle of his driver's-side door , his back to me , his head dipped forward . at last , i went back to my room and took another shower . 