nor should she have been expected to . we headed for the barn , leaning into the falling snow and dropping temperatures . i do n't care how many partners she 's had before me so long as i 'm the only one in the bedroom with her at the moment . i pressed my hand against the stone , letting the rough texture dig into my palm . `` come on , how else will i know it worked ? '' and no one was going to stand in his way . 