but he had to show her pleasure . `` though you were n't clear as to why that was important . '' `` you would n't have asked me that a few weeks ago . '' i dont know what , but it deals with an endless pain and im afraid . `` i do n't want you to be afraid of dying . he spoke slowly and with caution . opening the envelope carefully , she extracted a single sheet of paper . this is the reason you came . but i ca n't do what you 're asking . 