however , beau had not bothered to pretend to be anything less than a complete jerk , and here she was fantasizing about him . because i promise it has n't happened in a long time . i looked forward to the food , which now came in a few varieties , though always in a root vegetable , fruit , and nuts combination . but aside from admiring the way he sat the horse , she simply loved watching him . all i know is that one year into the dreadful war every nation launched whatever it had . 