i wanted to squeeze those globes so hard i 'd see handprints the next day and know you 're mine . my best friend came into my room and gave me a hug . `` what are you going to do when i 'm killed off ? '' i stumbled out of bed and yelled back through the door , `` not today , thank you ! '' and if going through this crazy vision-quest thingy helped me learn those skills , i 'd do it . how could we suspect people we dont even know exist ? 