his head was super soft. then i kept pushing even more. it was really hard to feel the pain of the contraction and push at the same time but that is what i did.
do anything. but then when i did hold him his eyes were open and he was so awake and then i was grateful that i did a natural birth. it was so amazing to see him be so alert right after being born it made it feel worth it.
there was blood all over the whole bed, i have never seen so much blood it was everywhere. he had a super long cord and there was a knot 