his rods and cones could be all but ruined by now . i want him inside of me , filling me , pounding against my g-spot like he did last night . i 'm sure there will be a ton of that at first . and if he stopped to explain , he would appear to be making even less . i 'm getting older -- old -- and i can not much longer be what i am not . i knocked down to earth with the wide apart legs . if that happened , he and the bird would die in here together . 