i step up beside her , showing i want to be close to her , but waiting for her to give me some kind of clue she wants the same thing . well probably eat something light and head to bed . `` you must hate them with all your heart , as i do . '' most afternoons after school , we would see boys kissing their girlfriends in a park near our homes and think , one day is one day . the funny part is , i was actually grateful . '' 