what had happened four and a half years ago was somewhere between tenderness and pity on his part , and i knew that . `` only if you quote me word for word . '' it just suddenly appeared in her mind . of course i feel better when i touch you . was he trying to warn me that i , too , would either freeze or burn ? he growled and fisted my hair in his hands . the doorknob moved back and forth , still locked . `` where do men find it in themselves to do such monstrous things ? 