i i guess what im trying to tell you is that i really appreciate you talking straight to me . my mothers face shielded and silent , my fathers eyes will not meet mine , he moves one wooden step closer to his wife . then , with the highest speed possible , he brought me to the library . luckily for me , the rest of the guys in the band seemed as burned-out as i was . sawyer , on the other hand , had n't even turned around to look at him . 