the first wave brushing my calves sent me leaping back out of the water . i cling to alec , so tightly it must hurt him . but to speak the words aloud , to claim dean and that life ... she just could n't do it . `` how about we start with a round of shots first ? the sky was blue and the sun shined ever brighter . i cracked my knuckles and felt the keys for the first time in far too long . the house cost me three hundred grand . this is another place we train in . 