she had to slam it with her shoulder to get in . he was standing inside the back door , watching us . i could n't stop to think about it . then i slipped back into bed beside him . 't is less smoky by the ground . '' `` mason , sweet boy , everything 's okay , '' she said again as she rocked and murmured , kissed and bounced , trying anything she could to shift him out of his crying jag . he did n't even want to know what he looked like right now . 