all the secrets and stories are spit out of my head now . i liked girls who played on the same field as me , girls who knew enough not to ask if i was coming back or bothered with being on a first-name basis . she did n't need to tell me . nick squeezed his eyes shut , cursing . there were too many other eyes out there , watching . table of contents four degrees above freezing it was the fastest i 'd seen the me move . the smiths wife clucked at him . 