i did n't believe him when he 'd said that , and i was n't sure if i believed it now . if you must know , i didnt follow the exact conversation , she murmured . eventually , i whispered , `` you must be joking . '' pushed to the very edge and dying to take the plunge , i scramble on my knees to undo the button of my jeans and push them over my hips . hesitation got me in a big fucking mess . then ill pick you up later , she said as she headed for the door . 