the urge makes me squirm and rearrange my butt . reaching out , i touch the hands of the angel tattooed on his other side . like he had n't done that before . he got out of the car , walked to the front door , and rang the bell . amelia gasped up on the seat . `` i 'm calm , but i need to know what is going on . i thought that for our males , once we lived a certain length of time , there would be only two choices . 