im gon na go get the wine , he said . this is no time to ... '' `` yeah , yeah . it must be awful for you . she smiled at me but said nothing . i giggle and then squirm a little bit . i waited for years for my mother to walk back through the door and she never did . the expression on his face told me what that answer was . but here he was , offering her the chance of a lifetime , one night with a man utterly and completely devoted to her pleasure . 