even though dad clearly slept , due to the snoring , he looks like he got less than i did . carlos smiled at her and she moved on . i snatched it and read over the words , but did not believe it . yes , it is , but what day is it ? i can go back to medication , forget all the work i put into this , become my old self again and then leave . pulling himself upright , he tried to clean some of it off his face . 