but he could hardly tell her that , and could only think it was a good , goddamned thing that she could n't read his mind . clearly coming from the deeper darkness where the door waited . she did not particularly enjoy the sex , but that was not important . she laughed , but inside she felt dizzy and sick . he 's fine , he 's fine , he 's fine . i spread my fingers apart and the glass fell to pieces like cotton candy on a summer day . 