but it was impossible to think . `` you know i do n't want to run away permanently . `` i thought grant was just being funny . her black bag is gone , too . we cant get her to come out of her room . they could n't afford a slew of phone calls . it takes me less than a half hour to pack up . now we exchanged news once or twice a week . i suppose it means , if all goes to plan . i asked his sister about that possibility . 