she had n't answered her phone , did n't return his calls . as i d started to go , i felt the strangest thing , like i was leaving my body , yet i still stayed on the ground . lucy turned back , ill let you know later . if i were n't so paranoid , i 'd swear they 're talking about me . only this me can give in to the frustration and sadness that seems to well up inside my human skin until i 'm so full and there 's nowhere else for it to go . 