maybe this whole spring break thing allowed me to leave my regular self behind and be someone i always wanted to be . he knew the kissing would n't last . you need to cross the void . i put my elbow on my knee and let my cheek rest on my fist . they married , against my grandfather 's wishes . and because he wants to hurt me . '' he was determined everybody would know that was n't the case any longer . how old did you say you were ? 