he said to no one in particular , but the lady walking by looked insulted . `` i want to be up on the fourth floor tonight . it showed her that he was n't willing to hurt others to protect himself . and now you 're little miss independent ? '' there is so much weight in his voice that i feel it physically pressing on me . mac , im always ready to be in control . i thought it was all just ... standing around and watching the sheep eat grass . '' 