his tears had stopped , and i realized that they too were a mask , that hed been putting it all on for show . `` gun like that , you could kill a bear ! '' damned sure could n't find a job anywhere else . im always amazed at how seriously men take themselves . but i have doomed you all ; my granddaughter too , sadly . she eyed my skinny jeans and grey sweater . his voice was soft , and i looked toward him . what it did was keep her at the dinner table longer than anyone else . 