instead , he simply brushes my cheek , the gesture sending shock waves through me and once again making tears well in my eyes . `` were you terribly curious about what it would feel like ? '' i guess its my fate to follow this out . that was all she could say to me ? my head felt thick , my body reluctant . im dying to talk to you . `` i nearly exploded , '' he told me instead of answering . `` it laughs only for me , '' i called back . 