still gripping the edge with my hands , i slowly got to my knees until i was standing right above and peering down at the body . he was n't speaking directly to me ; he was n't even looking at me . i felt the blood drop onto my skin , and the slice of a blade onto my wrist . i wasnt sure if youd show up . amelia , you know her ex did a hatchet job on her self-esteem . come , lets go to my office . 