kind and gentle energy as i pulled in their anger (aimed at me, but as i realized, not having to do with me) and they’d leave me alone. in fact as time went on, the calming effects of my presence was so greatly valued as an adult wherever i worked, that i would frequently be brought in to diffuse tense situations between people who were about to come to blows. some would remark “he has a unique way of smoothing things over.” what i was really doing was absorbing and rearranging their energy.
i eventually discovered that at certain times, i was able to generate warm, loving feelings inside of myself, 