for someone who was trying awfully hard to capture this womans affection , i was behaving quite poorly . i put one on you , and that 's why you fell in love in the first place . '' `` you deserve to be laughed at for such foolish thoughts ! `` i assure you , '' he whispered in her ear , `` if you could see me now , you would witness my reaction to you . '' i hope you can make something of that , use that for something . no dirk , you 're not thinking . 