she had n't been afraid when she had set out , determined as she had been , but now she was suddenly aware of how alone she was . shelly simply was n't the kind of woman who 'd fool around and it was clear she still loved eric , regardless of everything that had happened . `` but it was my door she staggered to , my arms she fell into . '' oh , i mean , my condolences , i regret regret ! you practically attacked me in the courtyard this afternoon . '' 