Personality change. Mentally-This is going to be the hardest part of change, because when people do change their personality it's hard for them to stick to it. Don't think it's fake because you want to improve yourself. There is no harm in becoming a better person, just as long as you do the right thing.
Widows or widowers benefits based on age can start any time between age 60 and full retirement age as a survivor. If the benefits start at an earlier age, they are reduced a fraction of a percent for each month before full retirement age. If a person receives widow's or widower's benefits, and will qualify for a retirement benefit that's more than their survivors benefit, they can switch to their own retirement benefit as early as age 62 or as late as age 70.
The earliest you can apply for Social Security retirement is three months before you turn age 62 to receive your first check in the month you become 62 years old. When you apply for Social Security after age 62, you can designate the month you want benefits to begin from the current month up to four months in the future. Social Security benefits are paid in the month after they are earned, so if you elect to start your retirement benefits for the current month, the first check will arrive next month. As a result, you can delay applying for Social Security on a month-to-month basis until the month before you want to get your first payment.