She became listless, and though she smiled and talked to all, when she went to her solitary bed-chamber she turned her face in silence to the wall. Then a fever came to her, and after that she had to be taken to the Continent. What shook her listlessness was an accident to her father. It was feared that he was on his deathbed, and as she nursed him she saw that her life had been a selfish one. From that moment she resolved if he got better (is it not terrible this, that the best of us try to make terms with God?)
She grew increasingly indifferent, maintaining a facade of cheerfulness in company but retreating to her room in silence, turning her face to the wall. A fever followed, leading to her being sent to the Continent for recovery. Her apathy was disrupted by an accident involving her father, who was feared to be near death. As she cared for him, she recognized the selfishness that had defined her life. From that moment, she resolved to change—if he recovered—though it struck her as unsettling that even the best among us attempt to bargain with fate.
She became apathetic, maintaining a facade of smiles and conversation with everyone, but when she retired to her private room, she would quietly face the wall. Soon, she developed a fever that required her to be taken to the Continent. Her indifference was jolted by an accident to her father, who was believed to be near death. While caring for him, she realized the selfishness of her own life. Consequently, she resolved that if he recovered, she would change her ways, highlighting the troubling fact that many of us attempt to negotiate with God in such moments.
She became apathetic, smiling and talking to everyone, but when she went to her private room, she would sit alone and stare at the wall. She soon caught a fever, and had to be transported to the Continent. Her indifference was interrupted by an accident to her father, who was thought to be dying. She was caring for him and she saw the selfishness of her life. She therefore decided that if he got better, she would do better, which is a sad thing, because most of us try to bargain with God in these situations.
She was apathetic, smiling and talking to everyone, but when she went to her private room, she would turn to the wall. Soon she had a fever and had to be sent to the Continent. Her apathy was roused by an accident to her father, who was thought to be on his deathbed. As she tended to him, she saw the selfishness of her own life. So she decided that if he got better, she would reform, pointing out the sad truth that many of us try to bargain with God in such circumstances.