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[Assistant] When I go to shows themselves for whatever reason, if like a friend's band's playing or like my brother drags me to one or something like that, uh, I spend most of the time crawling out of my skin, uh, eyeing the bar like, should I? Should I? Should I? Should I?


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[Assistant] Uhm, as far as playing the show is still, I never think about it until I'm actually at the show, like playing with Ramala or whatever. Uhm, is it...


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[Assistant] I love it, because uhm, I look around and these are all the people and faces that have been with me through the worst and best times of my life. But I also love looking into the audience, because it ain't just old faces. When I see young people there,


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[Assistant] I'm like, holy shit, I mean, did that make sense if you consider the lyrical content?


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[Assistant] Of course there's gonna be new kids like that every year. I'm just glad that it still reaches some of them. Some of them. It's like kinda going to the well. It's kinda renewing.


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[Assistant] Uhm, actually being at the- but that's the thing, like, it's always been the case with me, uhm, I remember somebody saying-


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[Assistant] Yeah, that was always going to be part of it, whether it resonated or not. Like I said, the compulsion to do the music was actually there for as long as any interest in it. And I never understood it. I still don't entirely understand it. But yeah, I would've, because over the course of the years, especially as I strip substances out of my life and try to gain some...


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[Assistant] A measure of quiet in my own fucking, you know, frontal lobe. Uhm, I get more and more reclusive and introverted. Right. So I think I would have eventually got to the point where I wasn't being part of the social element as much.


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[Assistant] Yeah, no, no, for sure, for sure. Uh, better across the board. It got me out of the projects, and I was going fucking nowhere there. I was doing everything, everybody was around me, and I wasn't even questioning why. Uhm, we would s-s-s-break into cars and-and-and take everything out of them, or-or steal them and-and joyride. And we had this idea we're gonna sell this stuff, and we're gonna sell hotbar. We never did.


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[Assistant] Real motive, we were just, I was doing it because everybody around me was doing it and uhm, I would have probably got strung out earlier.


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[Assistant] The hardcore punk thing has always acted as a stabilizing influence because it never accommodated the heroin thing.


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[Assistant] It did accommodate the booze, that's part of it. Not for everybody, like there's a straight edge contingent, but- Yes. Absolute secret agent.


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[Assistant] Uhm, always a secret even from the band as best as I could. They knew what I was doing but they never knew the extent. Right. I was an utter secret agent addict.


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[Assistant] I'm still finding ways to do it. Yep. Cause that's the thing, you can't find it at the shows. No kids. No, yeaah. I mean the thing is, no strung out addict is gonna do anything but be a strung out addict. So they're not gonna be going to shows anyway.


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[Assistant] Exploit those resources, but like I said, like, what I would usually do is when I got to a show, wherever, I did this across the country and across Europe.


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[Assistant] Find the promoter and say, is there an area within two miles of here where if I go there I have a chance of being shot?


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[Assistant] And they'd be like, yeah, this area, you don't want to go there. And I'd be like, write that down. And I'd just slip off and go cop.


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[Assistant] Uhm, there are a lot of times when you don't find nothing. Uhm, this was, I was also lucky back at the time because there's still open air drug markets. I don't know how it is the rest of the country, but uhm, Boston.


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[Assistant] That's exactly, you have to have a connect.


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[Assistant] Yeah, I've heard that there's still some areas in Hyde Park where you can just walk around and you'll find it. And if you're really devoted...


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[Assistant] I used to just walk around and sort of eye people and they'd eventually just ca- it's almost like uhm, when I watched that movie about that.


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[Assistant] I don't know what it would be like now, but often, yeaah, I wouldn't get what I wanted. And then I'd just be sick on the road and everybody would hate my guts and just think I was the most miserable, edgy bitch on earth.


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[Assistant] I'll put, I'll just put it like this, uh, once the allegations came out, a lot of people came forth with similar experiences. Not, not children, not anybody underage, but uhm, he could be forthright with women. Uhm, this isn't anything I'm divulging, this was something that was clearly evident on tour.


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[Assistant] Some talk. Sometimes it was funny, sometimes it wasn't. Uhm, but as far as that final thing, what that incident, we, we had no idea. Uhm, that actually happened about six weeks before the show. Right. Those final shows that we were gonna do, uh, it's actually not final shows, it was gonna be the first of a whole wave of shows and a new album. Story of my life with music. Uhm, we didn't know until the week before.


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[Assistant] A bunch of other people did and they finally came to us and told us what had happened.


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[Assistant] For sure, uhm, it killed me to hear people talking about taking cheese graters to their Blood for Blood tattoos. Cause for about fucking 15 years, that was the hardcore uniform tattoo, that Blood for Blood skull and people talking about shaving them off. That killed me because I wrote all the music and lyrics, uhm,


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[Assistant] That's my music, a story of my life. Uhm.


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[Assistant] So, with the limited, I had been away at that point for six, seven years, like underground and just had disappeared, so I didn't have any platform or anything, but to anybody that would listen,


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[Assistant] I'd say that music is as viable to yesterday as it is today. This is not a new day. Uhm, if that music and those lyrics meant anything to you, particularly the lyrics, uhm, yesterday still is sincere and...


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[Assistant] Unimpugned today as they were yesterday. Right. Uhm, that was the part that was hottest about me. The whole situation...


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[Assistant] Pretty tight again, too. We were getting past some of the past and stuff. The whole thing was just heartbreaking. I think sometimes people, anybody that watches the podcast gets the impression that I have some sort of uhm,


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[Assistant] Hostility towards Blood for Blood or the guys or whatever. That's not the case at all, I-I-


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[Assistant] My only hostility is with the creative end of it. Uhm, I want it to be clear to people that, that, that, that lives and dies by me and nobody else.


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[Assistant] That's part of what I'm doing now with Ramallah, getting up there and playing a set of Blood for Blood songs, uh, with Ramallah, uhm.


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[Assistant] Recording music that would have been on the Lost Blood for Blood albums had- in an alternate timeline. I- I- All these years-


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[Assistant] I hid from the fact that I was in Blood for Blood. I ducked it. I just would do new bands. I wanted to stand on my own merit. I didn't want to stand under the umbrella of the biggest commercial success that I had had. I was the Roger Waters of that Pink Floyd.


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[Assistant] Uhm, but that's how much the credibility of the music meant to me.


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[Assistant] Yeah, yeah, yeah, five figures. Uhm, the guarantees that I get offered weekly to, to, to redo Underblood for Blood. Somebody with teeth like me should not be turning them down.


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[Assistant] A lot of them, I mean, some of them are for festivals around here, but I don't want to for-figure it because it sounds like bragging, but it's up there with...


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[Assistant] Uh, any, any bands that are still viable, that are guitar and drum based.


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[Assistant] Hell yeaah, hell yeaah. And I will do it again if I can, but I gotta do what I need to do first. I need to prove...


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[Assistant] I don't want to hide under the name, I need to prove that the music itself is more important than the fucking name. Right. I need to prove that the lyrics and the story that was told is still viable and I want to finish the story, but I have been, the new stuff that's coming, it would be


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[Assistant] On the new Blood for Blood album, which is gonna come out with Ramala, because there's no difference, like, I used to assign the songs after the fact anyway.


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[Assistant] No, actually, uhm, I talked to Ian quite a bit, and uhm, there's some things we've talked about doing. Uhm, I'm just gonna do this first.


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[Assistant] But if Blood for Blood happens later, I would gladly go back. I would gladly rescue from the Esh, but I need to do this for myself first.


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[Assistant] This is the thing, like, when I deal with labels and stuff like that, you know,


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[Assistant] I never cared, the money wasn't important to me, so share up, share small, share all, share big, share all.


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[Assistant] But I am open to doing Blood for Blood again. I'd love to save that legacy, but the first step to it is to prove that the name and that skull is not the most important part of it. The music and the lyrics are.


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[Assistant] Yeah, it really, it really is. It's uhm, that is mind-blowing. There's just no way around it. Uhm.


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[Assistant] And it's funny you mentioned that earlier when we were talking about hip-hop that a lot of the young guys not only don't know the lineage and the DNA that led to them,


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[Assistant] But even if they are vaguely aware of it, they wanna reject it. Yes. They wanna pretend that it starts with me and it ends with me.


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[Assistant] Part of that is necessary for any honest artist. You have to have this belief that, I don't care what came before, it's all about what I'm doing. That kind of...


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[Assistant] It's part of its megalomaniacal, but the very act of creating something that you think somebody else will understand and will resonate with them is kinda megalomaniacal to begin with. Uhm, I think that's fresh as fuck. But you can't escape the fact that you came from somewhere.


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[Assistant] Movements in music are the ones that are a direct rejection of what came right before them. I mean the entire Seattle thing, the grunge thing, was a fuck you to that, let's go to the rock, let's go to the fucking drive in and make out glam thing.


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[Assistant] Daddy's car and, you know, dressing as girls and all that weird ass shit that became so codified and sold so many records.


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[Assistant] And originality and flair within the framework of some kind of musical movement or style or genre.


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[Assistant] The, the image, the thematic apperception test.


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[Assistant] This is what I would like to be rather than what I actually am. It went too far there. It's gotta have sort of a balance, but it's that thing, like, like, uh, black metal, uhm,


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[Assistant] That was fresh when it first came out and then you've got these bands coming up like Dima Bolger and Cradle of Filth that are doing really interesting things sonically.


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[Assistant] But because they're doing interesting things sonically, they're rejected by...


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[Assistant] The core bass, that narrows and retreats and pretty soon everything sounds exactly the same. It's like a, it's like an oscillating wave.


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[Assistant] Uhm, but I think it's one way or the other, I think it's an exciting time for hip hop. Uhm.


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[Assistant] And I noticed something else, this is like, utterly off the topic, but it's kind of on the topic.


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[Assistant] Oh, for sure. But I noticed something recently. I didn't know what dubstep was. I thought it, I really didn't know and I checked that online. This is a couple years ago now. But I realized something sonically.


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[Assistant] It was heavier than most of the stuff that's defined as extreme heavy music. There was a power and energy at depth, a hugeness that


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[Assistant] That was immediately revealing, you didn't need to be explained why you need to react to this, you know, you just felt it, boom, crack, boom. The other night, at the Nojumpa fucking show, those drops!


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[Assistant] But if I played her those big fucking drops, she'd be like,


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[Assistant] That shit made me want to kick people in the head when it would hit.


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[Assistant] I think there's a physiological reason for this, and I've studied this my whole fucking life. It's why I choose to write, because Ramal and Blood for Blood are not the fastest, they're not the heaviest, they're not the most detuned.


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[Assistant] But they get a fucking reaction live. Yeah. And...


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[Assistant] Elevated hot rate panic anxiety tension.


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[Assistant] The big bus, ba-dum, ba-dum, ba-dum, release, rage, wrath, explosion, fucking. It's like fucking. It mimics human physiological states better than any other music.


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[Assistant] When it's done right. When it's done right. And, uh, a lot of this fucking hip-hop does the same thing coming from this sort of, uh, tss-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts-ts


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[Assistant] Boom. Release. Rage. Wrath. Sex. All these things. The sped up stuff.


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[Assistant] Like I said, it imitates tension, anxiety, uh, panic.


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[Assistant] These are, uh, the musics, any styles of music that most...


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[Assistant] Succinctly mimic these physiological states I think have the biggest impact cause I used to watch live and it wasn't the bands with tons of double bass and stuff like that that were causing people to pop human beings up on pikes like fucking Vlad Tepes in the pit. It was bands like Clutch.


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[Assistant] Oh, for sure. That was actually one of the emails I scanned when we were talking about that, how there were so many bands that I was friends with, dear friends with, toured with, and would do anything to help them out, but


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[Assistant] Couldn't say with sincerity that I love their band. Right. Uhm, well I think one of the, I mean,


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[Assistant] Personally, I think one of the worst things that happened was, uh, 1993, 1990 to 1994, ear-rake bands, which was the advent of, uuuh. Because all of a sudden, that became, well that's what heavy has to be. Then everybody started doing that, it trickled into punk and hard, it trickled everywhere. I mean, that became ubiquitous. That's not a human noise.


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[Assistant] That's not human. It's, it's, it's an utter aesthetic thing going...


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[Assistant] I definitely wanted people to be able to understand it. Uhm.


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[Assistant] It was influenced by biohazard. Yeaah. I mean it really was a deep voice versus a high.


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[Assistant] Every dude in hardcore between 1991 and 1995 listened to Biohazard. That was there at that time. And it's like the entire scene is...


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[Assistant] Done this soviet revisionism where they've just edited out that everybody has a biohazard test.


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[Assistant] That was a huge thing, but I thought they were fucking incredible live and it was a precursor, you know, the lyrics.


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[Assistant] However stylized we may have found out they were later.


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[Assistant] In relation to some of the guys, it was urban, uhm.


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[Assistant] To some extent reflected who I was, I was greatly influenced by them, uh, and that was kind of what me and Buddha were doing, a lower voice and a higher voice, but uhm, I just, I sing the way I sound if I'm,


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[Assistant] And then of course as I went on I got more melodic and more ambitious sonically, but uhm, that aesthetic, it makes every band sound the same.


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[Assistant] And the voice is the human element. That's why hip-hop is ascendant right now. You are direct conduit with the, with the oddest.


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[Assistant] It's not hiding behind any extremity. Their voice is front and center. Their experience. You're getting it right in your ears. I think that's important. Uhm, that was just a...


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[Assistant] Something that happened that became kind of ground zero that


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[Assistant] I think, I thought that was destructive, the advent of the Cookie Monster thing. Not that some bands don't do it great, some fucking damn well do. But I, I wanna hear what I'm, I wanna hear what you have to say.


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[Assistant] And I don't want every band to sound exactly the same. I don't need a bass level of, well that's not heavy if it's not like that. I'll decide myself. You know, you know what I mean? Like, I don't know, I think I just got totally esoteric there for a second.


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[Assistant] I gotta check that out. I heard good things about it and you said it went really well as well. Yeaah. But I heard from a bunch of people saying you gotta check that out. Oh really?


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[Assistant] I like being able to, because you haven't come from it all, experienced it all, but also,


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[Assistant] Having such roots in other areas of music, I could speak a little more objectively and, and, and, and have a little bit of distance and right off the bat we went right to, uhm, uh, uh,


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[Assistant] Dispensing with pretense, like I was laughing, like I said about that email about the bands that I was friends with that I wasn't as wild about.


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[Assistant] Uhm, stuff like that. We used to... Been here. Been here. Been here.


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[Assistant] I'd like to be, uh, I mean, this is like the dweebiest, weediest fucking answer. Uhm, I'd like to maintain a level of peace. Personal peace, cause then I don't gotta...


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[Assistant] When I got that, I ain't thinking about booze or drugs or anything like that. And that was what drove me. The booze and drugs my entire life was just an absolute symptom of the turmoil.


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[Assistant] Yeaah, the drugs and booze exacerbated the turmoil and I couldn't see that at the time. But they were absolutely just a byproduct. They were not ground zero. Ground zero was...


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[Assistant] The jet rock, the, the blackness in my own, the rotten blackness in my own fucking skull, but, uhm, if there's one thing that I'm-


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[Assistant] Feel, still feel compelled to do all the people I reached before and it's especially important to me right now is finish the story because I think


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[Assistant] When I was younger with Blood for Blood and Ramallah and shit, uhm, I promised to live a certain way, reject certain things, you know, laid out a certain path.


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[Assistant] Uhm, a lot of people found it appealing, a lot of people resonated with a lot of people. I gotta tell them where it led.


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[Assistant] Uhm, I, I gotta, uhm, I shouldn't be alive, the fact that I am, if there's one thing that I could comically do to settle some of my own accounts, it would be...


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[Assistant] Finish the blanks for some of these people. There's so many addicts out there. There's so many traumatized people. Uhm, you know, I-I believe fucking a lot of people that are inherently good do evil and bad things, and it doesn't make them inherently evil and bad. I also consequently believe that there's some people that never do anything that are inherently despicable, never do anything overtly bad, that still suck, but, uh, I-I'd like to-


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[Assistant] Of severe depression, it'd all be worth it. If I could help one recovering addict stay the course, it'd all be worth it. If I could help somebody take the gun out of their mouth, it'd be worth it.


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[Assistant] Thank you. It's an honor to have you here. You fucking came here. Like, uhm, I know what you're doing. I-I-I-I-


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[Assistant] And, and it matters to a lot of fucking people. And I believe you care about it. I believe it matters to you. I don't think it's a cynical thing. Uhm.


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[Assistant] Thank you. Thank you. Uhm, it mea- it means a lot to me. Uhm,


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[Assistant] Oh man, that's half the reason I haven't done a video in about a month. It's held up. It's fuckin' typical fuckin' music business shit. Right. I've got ten years of music and I can't get it up.


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[Assistant] I'm worried about gal and bots. Their emotions are still not in tune with each other. In order to become true bonafide buddies,


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[Assistant] They must start thinking as one and try to understand each other on a deeper level.


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[Assistant] It could spell the end for them if they don't realize this during their training here.


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[Assistant] Ho ho ho! I never knew you were so thoughtful, dragon! You followed us?


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[Assistant] If that was enough to satisfy ya, then I guess you don't wanna know how to become even more powerful. What do you mean by that?


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[Assistant] And it was Botch's immense power that had you knockin' on Death's door, correct?


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[Assistant] But that's what's scaring them off right now. I doubt the big ombre even realizes it.


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[Assistant] Just go tell your master that you couldn't find what you're looking for. And save yourself the embarrassment of losing to an old man.


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[Assistant] First off, your being here has made this my business. Second, you're really rockin' that hood, right?


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[Assistant] Is it the power of overturn? Y'know, but if the power's unleashed, Gao and bots may finally become true buddies after all.


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[Assistant] The day will come when I prove you wrong and beat you. But, I'm too busy for it to be today.


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[Assistant] Ugh, can't believe those chumps came and ruined my plan.


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[Assistant] Silence! You might have defeated me in Dragon World and at the Buddymasters, but not today!


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[Assistant] Are you still trying to interfere with my plans? Leave me be and take off!


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[Assistant] The NFL ratings are down massively. Now the number one reason happens to be that they like watching what's happening on, you know, with your story.


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[Assistant] Mr. Trump's criticism led to sideline demonstrations yesterday at Stadium


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[Assistant] Uhm, they're not SOBs. They're smart, thoughtful guys. When I heard the comments, I was so disappointed because I believe the comments are completely contradictory to what the flag represents.


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[Assistant] No Jumper, coolest podcast in the world and today we got Tekashi69 in this bitch. How you doing bro?


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[Assistant] It's been a long time coming and you got a whole crazy wave of buzz going on right now. And, uh, I'm not sure exactly how it happened, but you definitely have a fucking defined aesthetic. Like there's something very, very new going on with you.


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[Assistant] You're one of the first dudes, like, in rap, cause I've always kind of known a bit about like videos and video making through like BMX, skateboarding type shit. And I always like thought like, man, it would be so much easier for beat, for rap videos to be so much better than they are.


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[Assistant] When did you actually start rapping like in your mind? When did this whole journey begin?


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[Assistant] So when you first had that, was that your first viral thing? Was it when you had that photo of uh, you wearing that outfit and people just started going crazy over it? Hell no. Oh, okay.


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[Assistant] Hurtin' like damn, I was getting 65,000 views and now I'm all, it's been months and I'm at 50k views. I mean, it is what it is. I don't give a fuck about Snapchat like that anyway, but.


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[Assistant] You know, it was weird. So alright, so at that time though, were you just like, what were you doing with your life when that photo went viral and did that lead into you to start rapping?


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[Assistant] Wait, but do you, I know how you're living, I bet you got some girls, you're like, hey baby, dye my hair a million different colors, boom, they're doing it. You ain't going and spending a million dollars at the salon, right?


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[Assistant] Right. You know what I'm saying? So Bushwick though? You're from Bushwick. Where? Bushwick. From day one.


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[Assistant] So, so how do you first start getting involved in actually like making music, making videos and stuff like that?


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[Assistant] Even those early videos, like you really have something different going on and then the crazy thing is about it is how the shit just keeps advancing every video and you can just keep doing something different every video.


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[Assistant] Eastern Europe knows about what's going to be popping in rap before anybody else. I don't know what it is, but...


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[Assistant] You know what I mean? I've been doing this. Is that how you feel? Because it's like Trippy is blowing up right now, so now everybody's kinda being like, oh well Tekashi, maybe he's dope after all, like people back home and shit like that.


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[Assistant] I feel like the days of them not being willing to take a chance on New York kind of come into a slow point though because in particular I feel like New York


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[Assistant] But there's just not, like, New York has sort of missed out on the whole, like, new wave of, like, interesting rappers. It's all coming from Florida and maybe even Atlanta and shit, but it's not like, New York needs that, that guy. And I kind of think you can, like, be that guy. Like, you're already making amazing music.


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[Assistant] New York needs to be less Joe Budden and more something else.


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[Assistant] Why you got the rainbow hair? They just didn't understand the rainbow hair. They're like, man, that beat hard and, you know, you got the pole, but how you got the rainbow hair? I'm like thinking in my head, I'm like, your clothes minus the rainbow hair. That's not, that's not good, bro.


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[Assistant] Alright, but so you now, plus like, you know, years back when you first were getting into making music, what was influencing you? I'm guessing that it was kind of outside rap as well?


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[Assistant] Do you feel like all this, like, having a struggle and everything, you think that's affected how you view music? Because to me, you seem like somebody who really, like, you want this shit bad. Like, you want it and bad enough to figure out how to do it. Like, with the videos and shit in particular, that kind of stands out to me as like, oh, he gives a fuck about making it in this shit.


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[Assistant] has such a distinct like new video style about them and that to me is like aside from the fact that


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[Assistant] Is your attitude more like, oh I'm just gonna record songs until I find the right one and then I'm gonna make a video and...


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[Assistant] Okay. What do you do? You wait for the beat? You wait till you have like just the feeling?


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[Assistant] What are those canisters called with the paint spraying out of them? I forget.


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[Assistant] Yeah, so do you have, because I've seen you, uh, do a song with Trippie out in New York the other day, and you definitely got fans, like I've seen a lot of people running up to you, like real excited that you were there and shit.


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[Assistant] You consider those like, people like, those are your fans, like they mean a lot to you, but you're just kinda like waiting to do like the New York show thing?


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[Assistant] What, I don't even know if I should bring this up, but what happened with this Zilla dude?


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[Assistant] Okay, so I know you don't want to talk about it, but I posted a photo with you and I just had a million, like he must have sent his fans to comment on it.


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[Assistant] A rapist? Well damn, that would be a tough decision if your friend rapes somebody and it's like you're supposed to bail your friend out, but he's a rapist now.


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[Assistant] Am I allowed to talk about- I mean, he basically explains what happened in that song, but he basically, like, he had-


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[Assistant] Well, I wanna tell the NYPD that, uh, I got caught having sex in a cab in Times Square in like,


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[Assistant] You know, probably like 10 years ago and nothing happened, so. Where? Yeah. And because it was the girl's dad, or the girl's dad was in the FBI. She told the cop that, boom, let us go.


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[Assistant] Yeah, but, fuck, I had another good question I was gonna go right after that. Oh yeah, yeah, but him, he's the only reason, Schlosser's the only reason why I even know you, because you, like, he just-


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[Assistant] I like just saw the photo and I was like, this photo is crazy. I put it on Twitter or something. Boom. He sent me a tote bag with that picture printed on the tote bag. Then when I was in New York, he's like, yo, let's get up. I'm like, all right. And then he introduced me to you. I didn't even know you were rapping like that. And then you started to like show me one of your videos. And I was just like, what the fuck? Like, you know, cause


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[Assistant] But I don't know, okay, but there's something about, see, I thought you got locked up for like some crazy shit with girls or some shit, just because of, maybe I've been misled by some of these comments. Oh, sure, coming off. Ain't nobody done that since Triple X, I don't think.


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[Assistant] I mean there's the whole like career of like a rapper and what he could be and all I can say is I've seen it happen a lot of times but you're like


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[Assistant] You're in that, that upward stage right now and that's what's so interesting is because it's like anything you put out at this point, it's like you have the public's eye and it's like a very different situation than where


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[Assistant] 99.9% of rappers are in the position where they either, they already had a little bit of that and then they lost it and now nobody gives a fuck and their shit is gonna get less interesting as it goes by or they just, nobody gives a fuck in the first place. Your shit is at this moment right now where it's like the eyes are on you no matter what you do.


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[Assistant] You're gonna figure it out. How did you, uh, cause a lot of people probably the first time they saw you was, was in polls. How did you and Trippie get in touch and start working together?


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[Assistant] Interesting. Yeah, well, I think you and Trippie like have very much like of sort of the same mentality. Like when I see you and like I see coming out of New York and then I saw you guys do that video together. I'm like, oh, that is so perfect because you guys have sort of like a very unique like


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[Assistant] Look, outlook on rap in terms of just being willing to just do different things and go in different directions. And that's what you, that's the direction that you need to like really double down on because New York is so closed minded that I feel like the scene is set where they want somebody who's actually doing something different and breaking open boundaries and shit, you know?


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[Assistant] So where did the whole HIV STD thing come from? Cause a lot of people are probably real confused about that.


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[Assistant] Really? It's actually really easy to do. But, you know what I mean? You could probably go in a lot of different directions. You should make ones with holes in them already. So you can feel it better.


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[Assistant] What is it about you and women? Like what's your secret to trapping women in your spell? I get the feeling that you're like really, really good at this.


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[Assistant] Really? Yeaah. So it's all just an exchange of mental...


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[Assistant] You know what I'm saying? Yeah, I don't know, there's even like little things like in the Ouie video, I'm like, man, that Disney logo in the background just seems like it shouldn't be there.


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[Assistant] I don't know why exactly, but that might be the new wave. Don't have a soundcloud.


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[Assistant] Were you scared when you got the giant 6ix9ine tattoo on your face? You ever have any fears about getting any of these?


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[Assistant] That's kind of how I feel about getting face tattoos too. It's like, man, I already look like shit. If I get a bunch of tattoos on my face, it's like, it's not like a pretty girl doing it where it's like,


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[Assistant] I mean, there's something kinda nice about becoming a meme, where it's like, there's so many people talking shit about it, and they don't really know anything about you, and you're just kinda like, alright, like, I guess this is what it's like to be popular or famous or something, is that you're a meme.


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[Assistant] Talking is talking, yeaah. This shit always helps, man. I only have a few more questions written down. I mean, we can talk about whatever we want, but I have this written down as like, I've seen you curb stomp someone in a video, and I'm pretty sure that I saw you make a guy smoke crack in a video, and also shoot heroin.


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[Assistant] Yo, but what about the guy shooting heroin and the guy fucking doing crack and stuff? Are those just people you knew around then?


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[Assistant] Yeah, and you even had him sounding a little bit, uh, you know, not like his usual self in that song too. It sounded a little bit more edgy.


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[Assistant] But man, it's scary as fuck to have a gun in New York. The laws are crazy out there.


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[Assistant] Yeah, but there's just so much, like, New York is all about just people being crammed in, so you just feel like there's shit going on around you all the time. You can never really be alone, like even if you were on your block three o'clock in the morning, there's still a couple people walking around and shit.


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[Assistant] Shut a Oscar. So what do you want to accomplish in this rap game?


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[Assistant] It's actually happening, but it's cool, it's refreshing to talk to you and realize that you view it more as like, you're expressing your art rather than, oh I'm trying to make it. That's why I hate motherfuckers be coming up to me about rapping like, oh bro I'm gonna be rich.


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[Assistant] It's a weird state of affairs when Prague knows about what's about to hit before like, Harlem figures it out. But I think that's true. Eastern Europe knows.


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[Assistant] DM Adam. Follow me. DM me. I'll delete the DM, but I'll still have to follow.


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[Assistant] Gang. Hey man, I'm glad we got this interview done so there can be some context behind all these crazy videos that I'm a big fan of. And I'm a big fan of the music, and the new song with Dex in them is crazy as fuck.


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[Assistant] I believe in, believe in 6ix9ine. Hey man, thank you very much for coming through and doing this interview, I appreciate it. New York, keep your motherfucking eye out.


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[Assistant] Hey, this has been Nojumper, coolest podcast in the world. Thank you very much to the Akashi Sixknife for coming through and doing this thing, putting on.


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[Assistant] Check his shit out. YouTube, SoundCloud, iTunes. Well, SoundCloud, it might just end up there. Thank you bro. Peace.


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[Assistant] First of all, I've never had a Pop Tart.


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[Assistant] My whole life. All the way. Dude, terrified. That dude freaked the fuck out of me. Oh my god. But, you know...


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[Assistant] I feel like countryside. Is that what you said? Countryside? Yeah. The country. The country. Oof. Some horses in field. That is a dream for me. Oh ho ho.


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[Assistant] Really? People say plants over people and pets? Yeah, plants. What? Uh, probably, shit. Nah, probably pets because you can't disappoint pets. And they can't disappoint you.


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[Assistant] Thinking is a bitch. Thinking can get you all types of fucked up. Talking and listening.


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[Assistant] Cause I don't wanna just talk, but I also don't wanna just listen.


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[Assistant] Star Trek, 100%, the fuck. But only the original one. That new shit.


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[Assistant] You know, yea, definitely no phone for a day because that's the way it should be. These phones, man. They're ruining our lives.


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[Assistant] The Beatles, well the Beatles, the Beatles, the Beatles. I actually never really heard Elvis, honestly. I was just not-


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[Assistant] I was born too late for that, my friend. His hips be moving though.


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[Assistant] I'd rather fucking choke than be invincible.


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[Assistant] You know, I probably end up somewhere I don't want to be and I can't ask for help because nobody can see me. I'd rather fly. I would love to fly. I've always wanted to fly. I've had so many dreams about flying.


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[Assistant] Ugh, fuck, I wanna fly. Why can't we fly yet? That's so stupid. We can fly these big thousand pound birds in the sky. Planes.


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[Assistant] We can't fly ourselves. That's so stupid. That is so stupid. Why can't we fly? Why can't we fly?


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[Assistant] Yeah, my dad didn't ever let me watch those shows. He wouldn't let me watch SpongeBob. Rude.


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[Assistant] Probably The Simpsons, that shit is funny. Now that I've seen it, it's funny as hell.


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[Assistant] What the hell was I called? It was my FAVORITE movie in the WORLD. And we had it on DVD. And I remember...


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[Assistant] My dumb ass as a kid would never listen, so my mom would ask me something and I'd just be like, yeah. And then I would be mad later because I said yeah, but I actually meant no. So I remember mom gave away the DVD.


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[Assistant] I'm Billie Eilish and this has been the Noisy Questionnaire of Life.


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[Assistant] We often embody it, but we don't articulate it so much. So I feel you are an embodiment of simplicity. So I thought we could discuss today on this topic.


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[Assistant] And that there is a lot discussed on that how we can decrease our use of gadgets and other things. So I wouldn't, I didn't want to focus on that topic today.


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[Assistant] But simplicity, I was talking more in terms of the simplicity of heart and simplicity of purpose. So, we, Saralta is talked about as a virtue in our tradition quite a bit. At the same time,


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[Assistant] And a person might be, in a way of being simple, might be exploited. So we see this dynamic in, uh, in Nanda Maharaj's pastime. Nanda Maharaj is with Vasudev. At that time Vasudev warns him that there is likely to be some danger in, danger in Vrindavan, so you go back quickly. And then Giriraj Maharaj analyzes pastime in his book, uh, Watering the Seed, where he says that,


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[Assistant] So he didn't know whether it was a compliment or what was it.


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[Assistant] For certain services, like Vasudev was in the political world, so he had to be, you could say, sharp and sophisticated. Nanda Maharaj was a coward man.


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[Assistant] Today we may not be in influential positions like say Vasudev, but still we live in a complicated world. And we have to deal with different kinds of people with different levels of complexity within them. So how do you think we can be simple in such a situation?


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[Assistant] So there is, one is simplicity of heart or purpose, which you can put it together. And second, we could call it simplicity of service. So the service might be complicated, which a person might do.


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[Assistant] So can we differentiate between these two things, simplicity of heart and simplicity of, uh, say engagement or service?


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[Assistant] So, simplicity of service and simplicity of living may be related because sometimes for a, for a important service, one may need a particular way of living. Like Yudhishthir Maharaj lived in opulence because he was a king. So, but that doesn't mean the Pandavas were not, they were not simple.


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[Assistant] And what he said is, simplicity means simply do the service that we are asked to do. And sometimes we may have certain abilities or the disposition for doing that service. Sometimes we may not have, but still we continue.


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[Assistant] So, in a sense, if somebody is taking up responsible services, then a particular set of abilities is suited.


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[Assistant] So there is, there is like say sincerity and then there is ability or competence we could say. So lack of competence, the two are separate things and the two may not be, uh, replaceable. They may not be interchangeable.


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[Assistant] So, are we more or less equating sincerity and simplicity over here? In terms of the essential import?


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[Assistant] So if somebody has a particular responsible service,


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[Assistant] Then it is better if they have the ability to do that service also. Then that can be done more effectively.


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[Assistant] Because we have an institution to run at one level.


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[Assistant] You could say they are satisfying Krishna's senses and they are satisfying their own senses also within that scope. Yeaah.


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[Assistant] Because we are in a society where we have targets and goals, comparison is unavoidable.


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[Assistant] I think it has become worse in the age of social media now. Because even when devotees say


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[Assistant] What are you doing is by no means small. Especially your journey of self discovery course. It's not just attracted thousands of people in Mumbai, but all over the world it is an invaluable resource. But I appreciate your point. I talk with several devotees


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[Assistant] So what they told me is that they saw no growth prospect for themselves within the ashram. So in a sense they wanted to do more surveys for Krishna, but there was no scope for them. So then they felt that whatever abilities I have, I can, I can contribute more or better elsewhere. So actually


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[Assistant] And even for devotees who are not necessarily in an ashram setting, if they find a service which they also like to do,


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[Assistant] So I felt that in that sense, at one level, obeying instructions is that, yeah, what we have to do or asked to do, but taking responsibility to find out what we like to do, what we are good at.


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[Assistant] So, you know, if everybody is concerned about their duties, then they will protect each other's rights. Yeah. It becomes a problem. Yeah.


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[Assistant] You have been now in the movement for almost 40 years.


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[Assistant] So have you seen a evolution in the ethos?


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[Assistant] Because say in the early years, 1960s, 1970s, we didn't have that much, uh, people itself. So everybody had to do what was necessary.


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[Assistant] But do you see an evolution, like you said, your own example, but apart from your example here, but other places also in our movement, wherever you have travelled and observed, how do you see this right now?


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[Assistant] So I think every project based on their particular situation will have a particular priority and I think that is as you said depends on the mood of the leader and other things.


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[Assistant] And overall devotees also at an individual level.


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[Assistant] It seems they gravitate towards some place where they get nourishment. Nowadays, especially with the internet connecting the world.


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[Assistant] So much that can of course lead to distraction and other things but that can also, even if one doesn't get nourishment where one is physically, one can seek nourishment elsewhere also. In that sense the channels also have opened up more.


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[Assistant] So, so we could say that simplicity is a virtue, but preserving simplicity is not simple.


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[Assistant] So, just doing a couple of questions toward the end.


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[Assistant] So should a devotee, so should consciously strive to cultivate simplicity or should focus on doing service and then simplicity will naturally develop from that. Like we say asya asti bhaktir bhagavatyakinchana, that one who is devoted, all virtues come up. So should a devotee try to develop the virtue or should he just try to serve, try to do service?


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[Assistant] Also, I am just, I like this metaphor very much of Garland, that something similar to Sutrayamani Gana, even the Bhagavad Gita also, that


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[Assistant] We cannot really appreciate Krishna immediately.


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[Assistant] So we look at the beautiful manifestations in the world.


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[Assistant] And then we think what is sustaining it, what is holding it together. So then that's how we think of Krishna. I think Prabhupada also says that all knowledge comes from Krishna but all knowledge doesn't begin from Krishna. Our knowledge begins from the things in this world. So and then we move toward Krishna. So something similar I would say that.


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[Assistant] Not everybody can have devotion immediately and the world also cannot appreciate devotion immediately.


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[Assistant] Devotion is like the invisible thread and, uh, it's vital. Without it, nothing can be sustained.


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[Assistant] I think Krishna also in the 12th chapter when he talks about qualities, talks about those who are the devotees or dear to him, he essentially talks about devotees with virtues.


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[Assistant] The virtues from devotion. In fact, virtuous devotion is pleasing to Krishna.


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[Assistant] Simplicity as opposed to duplicity. Now duplicity in the case of Kamsa,


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[Assistant] But in our case, say how would we differentiate between duplicity and diplomacy?


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[Assistant] So that is a, that is a very valid principle but there are situations when one may need to be diplomatic.


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[Assistant] So is there some guidelines about whether one is being diplomatic or duplicitous? How can one differentiate?


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[Assistant] I never thought of a metaphor like this over here. So in terms of ethical behaviour.


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[Assistant] You could say that some behaviour is considered unethical, that's like losing a battle.


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[Assistant] But the ultimate purpose of all ethical behaviour is to ultimately take the person, connect the person with Krishna or take them closer to Krishna. That is Krishna's cause. That is the war. That's quite, I never thought of that.


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[Assistant] Oh, so morally not to be undermined at all that means.


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[Assistant] Ultimately everything is for the pleasure of the Lord, for the service of the Lord.


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[Assistant] So, should I try to summarize through and then you can speak some concluding words if you like?


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[Assistant] So if that is the standard, then from that perspective, simplicity is not complicated.


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[Assistant] He wanted to please Krishna, but he had to think, what do I do in this situation? So he had to choose different options. But yeaah, that's true. Krishna gives dadaami buddhi yogam tam. So even Prabhupada when, I think in London it happened, we had to get the DTs. Prabhupada avoided all the complications. He just took the DTs.


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[Assistant] Do you want to say, you just abducted Krishna, let it be sure, but that was for Krishna's pleasure.


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[Assistant] So I'll try to summarize Vijay and then if you have any further comment like we can add. So we talked about the topic of simplicity and then I talked about say the Nanda Maharaj and Vasudev example. So you said that first there is a innate nature.


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[Assistant] And some people will actually be simple.


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[Assistant] And they feel reassured that there is space for them also.


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[Assistant] And then we talked about Rupa Goswami. Was he not simple? But you could say his services were complicated. Devotees are always simple in the heart.


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[Assistant] But if they are taking up complex services, then at that time, having the corresponding abilities is helpful.


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[Assistant] Now if somebody doesn't have those abilities, like say, Giriraj Maharaj said that this was not my nature.


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[Assistant] So much. But then eh, but Prabhupada trusted him, Prabhupada wanted him, then we do the service as a necessary, as a duty.


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[Assistant] Then, uh, so, so, so simplicity, we talked about, we could say simplicity in terms of the service we are doing, or simplicity in terms of the heart. So devotees, heart is always very simple, in terms of, they just want to please Krishna.


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[Assistant] And in that sense, the external explanation would be simply do whatever is required to please Krishna.


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[Assistant] And if, like you saw in the example, the answers are complicated questions of various philosophers.


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[Assistant] The philosophical presentation might be quite intricate and complicated, but the purpose is simple.


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[Assistant] And then we discussed the example of Ramananda Rai and Swaragunatha Goswami because they had the background.


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[Assistant] So they could, they could do particular services for the Lord which others could not do and they did that well.


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[Assistant] We discussed about sincerity, sincerity and simplicity in this context are more or less similar.


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[Assistant] A devotee when they are externally not simple.


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[Assistant] So one is, I think one is simplicity of the heart, second is simplicity when they are doing complex services. Then at that time, it is not so much lacking simplicity as you could say exhibiting reciprocity like Krishna. If somebody is duplicitous,


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[Assistant] Then they will deal with them appropriately, so they have dealt with Kamsa.


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[Assistant] So that is basically the short or short term channel.


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[Assistant] And uh, that is not lacking in simplicity, but that is making sure that the service of Krishna is done.


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[Assistant] And if somebody is naive, then also Krishna might guide them from within. Something is fishy over here because of their sincerity.


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[Assistant] Or sometimes someone might be misled. We discussed Giraj Maharaj and Tama Krishna Maharaj and others.


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[Assistant] You also mentioned the problem that sometimes some people are very over smart. And then we discussed about simplicity and ability. If both are there, services work best.


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[Assistant] So when a devotee gives up simplicity externally for diplomacy, that has to be done very carefully. So great, so only when somebody is a great soul and a particular great cause, that's when it's best. And then we talked about accommodating devotees who are simple and accommodating devotees of different nature.


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[Assistant] So you said it requires strong, inspiring and sustained leadership to be able to actually do that. Constantly things keep going down. So in devotee care, one of the reasons why devotees may


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[Assistant] Feel uncared for and may leave is because they don't find a space for themselves.


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[Assistant] We talked about three things, now things we like to do, they inspire us, things we need to, things we have to do, they purify us.


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[Assistant] And things we are asked to do, they express our gratitude.


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[Assistant] So that things we are asked to do, if they are against our nature, then that should be an emergency. It shouldn't be like a constant thing we have to do. And there's this idea of rights and duties that


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[Assistant] If everybody is claiming their rights, that makes a distasteful atmosphere, but everybody is doing their duties, then others rights are automatically taken care of.


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[Assistant] Before that I think you also mentioned about the question that uhm, you mentioned Adhikeshapurva asked Maharaj that question and then in answer he explained how there is essentially the principle that


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[Assistant] If some devotee who is doing complex services, that book distributor sometimes went away, if they start, they don't remember that this, all this diplomacy is for a particular service and that diplomacy becomes their default nature.


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[Assistant] So it's like diplomacy is a tool it has to be carefully used. You could almost say it's like yukta vairagya which we use for Krishna service and then you get this beautiful example for garland for


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[Assistant] Should devotees try to consciously develop humility or simplicity here?


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[Assistant] Yes, or virtues like that in general. So the virtues are like flowers and devotional thread. So both come together then it's a suite of proper offering.


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[Assistant] Then we talk about concludingly that diplomacy, uh, how do we avoid duplicity while being diplomatic?


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[Assistant] So you said that ultimately, it's like the Pandavas, they are pleasing Krishna. So pleasing Krishna is the purpose.


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[Assistant] Then it's never duplicity, even if others may think like that.


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[Assistant] And the ultimate definition of simplicity is simply do whatever is required for pleasing Krishna and serving Krishna. Thank you. Anything you want to add?


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[Assistant] If you have to do more, then get what you need.


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[Assistant] That's true that if the more you have, then the need doesn't decrease. In fact, the need increases. That's profound.


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[Assistant] I recently read somewhere that without raising consciousness, the problems of prosperity


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[Assistant] I didn't hear, without raising consciousness. The problems of prosperity can't be removed, they will simply be replaced by the problems of prosperity. So some of the problems will come up.


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[Assistant] I want to say that this is...


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[Assistant] A very tangible carry home point with a memorable message. Thank you very much for your association today, Ruhi. I hope that I can become a little less complicated in my mind and heart and imbibe some simplicity. Thank you.


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[Assistant] The decision is that you leave here and go back where you came from, alone.


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[Assistant] Who's really behind all of this? They get an email confessing to the crime. Did we all get this wrong?


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[Assistant] There was a sudden whoosh from above, followed immediately by a blur before my eyes and a dull thud.


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[Assistant] Captain Randall was on the ground at my feet, under a heaving mass that looked like a bundle of old plaid rags.


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[Assistant] A brown rock-like fist rose out of the mass and descended with considerable force, meeting decisively with some bony protuberance by the sound of the resultant crack.


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[Assistant] The captain's struggling legs, shiny and tall brown boots, relaxed quite suddenly.


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[Assistant] The sinewy hand that had temporarily distracted the captain's unwelcome attentions was attached like a limpet to my forearm. And who the hell are you? I said in astonishment. My rescuer, if I cared to call him that, was some inches shorter than I, and sparely built.


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[Assistant] But the bare arms protruding from the ragged shirt were knotted with muscle.


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[Assistant] And his whole frame gave the impression of being made of some resilient material such as bed springs. No beauty either.


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[Assistant] He jerked on my arm and I, stupefied by the rush of recent events, obediently followed.


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[Assistant] My new companion pushed his way rapidly through a scrim of alder, made an abrupt turn around a large rock, and suddenly we were on a path.


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[Assistant] Overgrown with gorse and heather and zigzagging so that it was never visible from more than six feet ahead, it was still unmistakably a path, leading steeply up toward the crest of a hill.


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[Assistant] Not until we were picking our way cautiously down the far side of the hill did I gather breath and wit enough to ask where we were going. Receiving no answer from my companion, I repeated, Where on earth are we going? in a louder tone.


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[Assistant] To my considerable surprise he rounded on me, face contorted, and pushed me off the path. As I opened my mouth to protest, he clapped a hand over it, and dragged me to the ground, rolling on top of me. Not again, I thought.


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[Assistant] And was heaving desperately to and fro to free myself, when I heard what he had heard, and suddenly lay still.


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[Assistant] Voices called back and forth accompanied by trampling and splashing sounds. They were unmistakably English voices. I struggled violently to get my mouth free. I sank my teeth into his hand.


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[Assistant] And had time only to register the fact that he had been eating pickled herrings with his fingers before something crashed against the back of my skull and everything went dark.


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[Assistant] It's always good to get them out of the house. You know, if you don't get them to do outdoor activities or play basketball, then they're going to stay home and play video games or go on YouTube. And you don't want that. You want them to be out here with other kids and enjoy themselves, enjoy their summer. And basketball is a great way to get everybody together and meet new people and make new friends.


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[Assistant] Congress will tell. Get something going.


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[Assistant] Well, I guess maybe I can overlook it if she apologizes.


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[Assistant] This is getting out of hand, I am Billie Eilish. I'm doing this shit till I'm 90. So, get ready for it.


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[Assistant] I think it's October 18th, 2017. October 18th, 2018. October 18th, 2019. October 18th, 2020.


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[Assistant] Where are these people coming from? Like that's my question. The most followed person that follows me is Chloe Grace Moretz. Katy Perry maybe. Justin Bieber. Ariana Grande. My baby. With 204 million followers.


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[Assistant] It's a picture of me and Charli XCX. Isn't it the one about me smiling? Ten million? That's a lot. Five Grammys. Won five Grammys.


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[Assistant] Talk about what's gonna change, what's gonna be different here. Your whole life will have gone.


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[Assistant] Coronavirus. Definitely not where I thought that I would be currently, but I'm also not mad at it. I'm very, very lucky to have had this year play out the way it did, because for a lot of people it was...


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[Assistant] I also kinda, it's weird, I contradict myself because I kinda don't really like having a day off. Cause...


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[Assistant] Whatever amount of off days I want next year, I get-


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[Assistant] Like, if I want 100 off days next year, I hope I get that. I hope I'm listened to. That's basically it. I really said 100 days. 100 days, I said.


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[Assistant] I think that goes for a lot of people, but that was even true for like the first month of quarantine. You know, we had three weeks off and I was like, wow, this is the most time off I've ever had. I can't believe it. It's so great. It's like a free vacation and it'll, we'll go right back out on tour in a week and we'll be fine. And clearly we were all wrong with that and we look like clowns now, but I will say I have made


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[Assistant] And created things that I don't think I ever would have created without this period of time. Uhm.


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[Assistant] This amount of time and this just life itself. I would like things to be normal though. Again, I would like that. But I will say that I'm grateful for what it's given me. I really wanted to go on that world tour. We started it, got three shows in, canceled, flew back home. Uhm, I really wanted to get a Lamborghini. Better have a Lamborghini.


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[Assistant] People to give that money to. There's way, way more and I cannot stress it enough.


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[Assistant] Way more important things going on than the fucking Lamborghini, so. One thing I have now that I did not have a year ago is my little pooch puppy shark. Shark! Shark, come here!


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[Assistant] Uhm, the people that support me. My fans, which I don't like to call fans. My, you know, my family, you know. Finishing this album.


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[Assistant] Maintaining uhm, my happiness. Which I've been experiencing for like the first time.


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[Assistant] So cute. I love that those are all very genuine. Those were-


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[Assistant] It's so weird, like, what we take for granted. Like, I would never have thought that I wouldn't be able to do shows one day, you know? So much time spent. Me, dreading tour.


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[Assistant] Dreading press, dreading this, dreading that, and like I had no idea that I was dreading something that I would one day.


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[Assistant] I don't know if that sounds stupid, but it's like the only thing I've ever done that made me feel like I belonged. Maybe it's cliche. I don't know.


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[Assistant] Lord, keeping my family safe and, you know, staying up. There isn't much else to do right now. Everything matters differently now than a year ago.


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[Assistant] Honestly, everything. I can't, I really can't even think of one thing. Like, all the things that I felt like mattered most a year ago.


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[Assistant] Made me think differently. It's not like I wasn't aware. I just learned more and thought about it differently and, you know, was more open to learning and, uh,


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[Assistant] It's been a crazy year. Uh, people think I'm pregnant. A lot of people thought I was pregnant for a second. That I sold my soul to Satan.


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[Assistant] There's this picture of me like running from my car to my brother's front door on like a 110 degree day in a tank top and everyone's like, damn, Billy got fat. I'm like, nope, this is just how I look. You've just never seen it before. So that's, that's like the most current one, but whatever.


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[Assistant] Uhm, I don't know, I think that's, uh, that's not really for me to decide. I think, yeaah. The reason people are looking up to you is because you're you.


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[Assistant] They're not looking up to you so that you'll tell them something that you would never actually tell them. They're looking up to you so that you tell them something that you would tell them yourself. So, I love...


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[Assistant] Having kids relate to me and tell me that I make them feel comfortable in their bodies, like that if I can do anything I want to do that, so. It's...


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[Assistant] Acting like I'm in an interview. And in interviews, you're trained to talk about yourself and not ask the other person about themselves.


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[Assistant] I'm being interviewed. I'm acting like I'm being interviewed instead of acting like I'm talking to a human being.


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[Assistant] Such a good point, I will never stop talking about that. I'm glad that I was definitely aware of it a year ago. Uhm.


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[Assistant] What I did and what I do and like who I am and whatever. But something about it getting bigger and bigger makes me almost more comfortable not proving myself. For a while now I've been really having an identity crisis a little. I think it was December. I did some like radio show performance and the entire show I felt like I was


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[Assistant] I'm trying different things out, I'm trying different ways of living and styles and personalities and...


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[Assistant] You know, hairstyles and clothing and shoes and like I'm just trying it all out because I'm like a growing fucking girl.


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[Assistant] Like reaching out to a couple people, but every time I do it, I kind of like stop myself because I'm like, this is so weird.


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[Assistant] You know, I've had some conversations with Bieber about this where we just, you know, talk about the craziness of our lives and whatever.


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[Assistant] You know, it's nice to hear from people that like have gone through this and know what it's like and


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[Assistant] No matter like how many people are there for you and have gone through similar things, it's like, nothing ever happens twice. A tattoo maybe? No face tattoos.


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[Assistant] But you won't ever see it. Okay, well I looked at my phone. That's what I did this morning when I woke up. I looked at my phone. I think I made myself a burrito for breakfast.


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[Assistant] With a gluten free tortilla. I woke up and...


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[Assistant] Hey, that's the first thing I did, dude. You asked. I looked at my phone. That's what I did. I looked at my phone. Classic day.


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[Assistant] What the hell is a monogram? A hologram is what I meant. It's crazy that you can charge your phone by like putting it on that little disc. Robots, dog? Like, please.


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[Assistant] Robots doing stuff. Let's leave the robots in the lab. Don't let them come out here.


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[Assistant] Oh yeaah, Beyonce had some twins. And she still looks fly. Okay, Lani's pregnant. Greta Thunberg, honestly. She's been, like, kicking people's ass. Literally that Trump might lose, like, that's it.


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[Assistant] And that's not even a guarantee. I guess a positive thing would be that a lot of people that say that they've never voted are voting for the first time. That is huge news.


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[Assistant] Is what I want to say. I think that that gives us some hope. That gives us something. And maybe an opportunity to get better. I'm pretty afraid of people dying. Not me dying, but like the people around me dying. The people I love dying.


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[Assistant] Or being, you know, fatally injured, or uhm, you know, some sort of...


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[Assistant] At the time was like kind of an irrational fear. That was kind of just like an overthinking fear and now it's actually a real thing to fear.


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[Assistant] Uhm, because people are losing their loved ones and now it's like actually a real possibility.


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[Assistant] So it's just about staying safe. Honestly, same for a year from now because I don't know what will have happened in a year. And that is in itself, it's terrifying.


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[Assistant] Being Apple's Up Next artist. I did Ellen last week. Jimmy Fallon. So many festivals. I just sold out a headlining arena tour. Had a number one single. Biggest selling album of the year.


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[Assistant] Performed at the Oscars, met like every celebrity that's ever existed, and it was the most overwhelming, insane, surreal thing I've ever experienced.


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[Assistant] I went to the Brits, I won a Brit, it was amazing, I performed.


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[Assistant] We recorded the Bond theme song, working with Hans Zimmer and the orchestra to record it. Completely surreal and amazing. I started my world arena tour.


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[Assistant] You know, we went to tons of protests. We fought for people. That was a big thing this year, too. Huge accomplishment, I feel like. And, uh, we will never stop fighting.


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[Assistant] I will never stop fighting for you, Brianna. I will never stop fighting for all the black and brown people that have lost their lives to police brutality.


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[Assistant] And literally just racism. Never gonna stop fighting for you. Ever. Ever ever. I will do what I can. And I stand by that.


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[Assistant] You know, I have such a huge platform, like why would I want to waste that? Yeah, it's easier to say nothing.


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[Assistant] There's a difference between silence and processing.


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[Assistant] Say it in the right way. I think it's really important to speak up, but also be respectful.


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[Assistant] You know, it's been a year of just trying to speak up for everything you believe in and...


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[Assistant] Wait until you experience it to fight for it. You know what I'm saying? Like just fight for it already. I hope that it-


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[Assistant] We have more years of fighting, and I hope that something fucking changes.


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[Assistant] My family, I'm, I'm always talking to my family, always.


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[Assistant] Pretty much every day. We're always together, always talking, always...


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[Assistant] You know, whatever. It's great. I love my family. I am so lucky to have my family right now. Not only with me, but like, well and alive. It's been fun. It's been good. It's been good. You know what I'm about to say? Fruitvale station. I am single.


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[Assistant] With anyone. I don't have my eyes on anyone. I'm not in the mood. And I'm totally fine with that.


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[Assistant] I'm in pretty much the same place. I don't have a boyfriend. And I'm happy, like, I'm not worried at all. I love it. I'm not opposed to anything. I'm not, you know, pushing anything away or...


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[Assistant] Forcing something, I'm just like, steady and cool with it.


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[Assistant] Which is great, so it's a good place. I'm still with 17 year old Billy.


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[Assistant] Fashion is like the main one. I love fashion. I always have. I want to direct videos. I want to have my own clothing line. I want to have my own everything. Lots of cars.


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[Assistant] Yeah, fashion is, is still my, my expression. I definitely am not as like...


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[Assistant] Designing as much as I was, uhm, because I think I...


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[Assistant] Curating and stuff, but I still am like, very in charge of.


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[Assistant] Was miserable. And it wasn't my team's fault, it was just where I was at the time.


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[Assistant] Like, I always think these fucking trolls online, like, the industry is where...


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[Assistant] All the people sell their souls to the devil, like woah, that's very taking it far. Like the fucking...


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[Assistant] So true. I feel the same way. Everybody's kind of like made to hear like the industry and go like.


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[Assistant] And that I have had since the beginning. And yeah, there's some weirdos, like there's some weirdos. And there's some weirdo group of, groups of people that you just kinda gotta.


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[Assistant] Get, get away from, but it's just about knowing your people and knowing your boundaries and like who you trust and stuff.


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[Assistant] I wanna learn that it's all worth it because it's tiring as heck.


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[Assistant] The shows make it worth it. The shows and the supporters. I was taking it for granted. And that makes me really mad. And I don't want to be. And I just was. So true.


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[Assistant] So, so true. Yes, it's worth it, for sure. Absolutely worth it. Absolutely. I would not change it for anything else. I can finally say that it's worth it.


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[Assistant] But you can't just be like expecting it to be worth it. You gotta like...


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[Assistant] Change some stuff around, make sure you're happy, make sure you got what you need, and then it will be worth it. Yes. Having the approach that no one's had. Trying to write something no one's written.


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[Assistant] What people would like for my album and I thought I knew, like, what would be popular and I was so wrong.


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[Assistant] There was like a period of time, like a month ago or something, I was just like, we were just texting the label like,


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[Assistant] Song done. Another song done. Another song done. So I'm so much better at it. I'm so, I love it so much more. I actually really do enjoy it now. And I do feel like I'm pretty good at it now. To be honest with you.


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[Assistant] Uuuh, like twelve? I think. Maybe like fourteen actually. I think there was like fourteen-ish. Blank. Blank. Blank. Blank. Like four and a half. Right now I have sixteen. We've been working! And I...


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[Assistant] Love them all. I love all of them.


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[Assistant] The first month I was incredibly uninspired. I don't know why, I think it was just very overwhelming and...


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[Assistant] Period of time when and came and went. I got so inspired and creative and like just like made


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[Assistant] Music that I don't, I don't think I would have made. My brother and I, like I don't think we would have even made it at all this year.


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[Assistant] My brother is my best friend. My brother is my best friend. My best friend is Phineas.


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[Assistant] But he is also my brother. We got Drew, we got Zellwood, we got Laura, we got Shark. We got my family, my brother. Those is my best friends. Maybe like once a week.


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[Assistant] I also tried Costco, which I thought I'd be safe at, and that didn't work. Fuck's sake. Public.


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[Assistant] At all, uhm, since March 11th. There were definitely moments in this quarantine where I forgot that I'm


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[Assistant] Me? I was taking Shark to like a dog playgroup with the rescue place that I got him from. You know, I was like, I didn't even think about it. Cause we had so much nothing for so long, I didn't even think about it. I had like my full like green like right there. Full like, you know, wasn't covering anything.


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[Assistant] Except obviously a mask and I was like walking in and there was this car full of people and they were like


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[Assistant] It's a bad idea to do, but I have Googled myself. Only just the titles because they're what's funny. Like I'm not trying to see myself on like Twitter. That is a no-go. Oh my gosh. Don't want to see that because that shit is mean. I look myself up to like laugh.


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[Assistant] But I really don't want to actually see what's being said. But it is, it is, it's good for a good laugh. I don't know if I'm more confident, I just think I know what I'm doing more. Uh, I think I'm less confident actually.


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[Assistant] I feel like I'm probably the most confident I've ever been in my life. I don't think I've ever been more confident than I am now. Yep. I, uh, totally true. That first year, I was definitely just like,


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[Assistant] To remember who her best friends are and remember who the people that care about her the most are and not throw them away for somebody else or for something else. Oof, that hits hard. Uhm, knowing the situations that I was talking about. God, how do you prepare someone for this year? I think all I would say is just like, enjoy this. Don't take anything for granted.


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[Assistant] Don't ever come off stage during this year and think, ah, I didn't really like that show, I didn't really, nope. And by the way, I'm never doing that again. When shows are allowed, every show is going to be the best show I've ever done. That's that.


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[Assistant] Alright, bring in the mom. This is my mom. She is sick as a booty.


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[Assistant] After this morning, the resolve of our conference to repeal Obamacare and replace it has never been stronger.


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[Assistant] And easy thing. And poets are writing the tale of that bite. And songs for children to sing.


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[Assistant] Let them sing of the men of a fighting platoon. Let them sing of the job they've done. How they came across the sea to sunny Italy and took a little walk in the sun.


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[Assistant] Kansas, Maine, and Tennessee, Lord God, they're all in the Texas infantry. They're all in the Texas infantry.


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[Assistant] Just one battle more in a long, long war and the men of a single platoon.


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[Assistant] And some of those were mighty good joes Who'll never see the sunrise anymore Poor boys, they'll never see the sunrise anymore


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[Assistant] In the warm Italian sun, but it wasn't an easy thing.


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[Assistant] And poets are writing the tale of that fight and songs for children to sing.


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[Assistant] Let them sing of the men of a fighting platoon. Let them sing of the job they've done.


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[Assistant] How they came across the sea to sunny Italy and took a little walk in the sun.


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[Assistant] It's that walk that leads down through a Philippine town and hits Highway 7 north of Rome. It's the same road they had coming out of Stalingrad. It's that old Lincoln Highway back home.


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[Assistant] Even at nine o'clock in the morning in the sun, I'd still be. Boy, don't ask me why. That's the way it is.


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[Assistant] He says he's from the north, but he knows this country was once stationed here. Good. Where's the map, Eddie? What map?


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[Assistant] What kind of apples, Sergeant? All kinds.


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[Assistant] Baldwins, Macintosh, Reds, Pippins, Russets. I was thinking I'd like to be cutting one open right now.


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[Assistant] They say up north they grow grapes big as a man's head. You can't convince me. My mind's made up. You know?


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[Assistant] I should be thinking about that farmhouse up ahead. But how many men are there? But how are we gonna take it? That's all I keep thinking about, sir.


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[Assistant] Four Congressional Medal of Honor with ten oak leaf clusters, volunteers. Any extra pay? No, no. Then I'll go anyway, just to make them hear.


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[Assistant] Something you hear coffee people say all the time is that the grinder is way more important than the espresso machine. And if you gave them a really good grinder and a really cheap espresso machine, they'd make better espresso than if they had a great machine and a cheap grinder. What I want to know is just how cheap you can go in the espresso machine if you've got a good grinder and still get something drinkable.


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[Assistant] Here are five different espresso machines, each under £100 and one good little grinder. Starting here with the Swan Retro, that was £90.


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[Assistant] But not as cheap as the Andrew James, which came in at 60 pounds. When you buy an expensive coffee machine, you're buying precision, consistency and control.


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[Assistant] That is not present, I suspect, on any of these things. One more little frustration is that four of these five machines have what are called pressurized portafilters.


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[Assistant] Now these are portafilters designed presuming that you at home can't grind coffee and you're probably buying coarsely ground pre-ground coffee. Typically pressurized portafilters work well with coarsely ground coffee. They don't make particularly good tasting coffee, but they do make fluffy, fluffy crema most of the time.


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[Assistant] I'll see if I can hack my way around them. We'll see what we can do to get the best out of them. First up is the swan. The build.


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[Assistant] Cheap, plastic everywhere. Two of the buttons, when you push them, they stay depressed in, suggesting that they are on, except the power button, which doesn't do that, which is confusing.


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[Assistant] The temperature gauge seems nice, but goes in 40 degrees Celsius increments, but it is not particularly stable in terms of temperature. It has a pressurized portafilter. It's got this additional piece screwed to the bottom and it has a little extra filter inside it. I don't know why this is there. I don't like it.


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[Assistant] It takes about 12 grams in the portafilter and the best shots that I got out were about 40 grams of liquid, but pretty fast shots too. You might get some nice fluffy crema, but the coffee itself tastes


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[Assistant] Don't like finely ground coffee, slow traditional espresso. If you were going to turn this into a milk drink, maybe it would be okay, but in terms of good espresso, no, I could not get good espresso from this coffee machine.


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[Assistant] Next up is the DeLonghi. Now this was the most expensive of the five and it does come with a proper


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[Assistant] In a very annoying way in this portafilter. It drops in some little tabs lined up and it sits inside, but it will always just fall out. So.


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[Assistant] Like all the other portafilters, it has this little flip thing to hold it in place when you knock it out. That is very unpleasant as an experience. The machine itself is also a challenge. You have a ready light.


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[Assistant] And that's it. There's no gauge. There's no information there. You just have to hope that you're getting a good temperature. It's very noisy. The whole machine shakes.


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[Assistant] It doesn't feel particularly well built. The design of the interior of this makes it very easy for liquid to be retained inside the portafilter. That, over time, will dry, crust on. That's a weird little design flaw. The tamper on this thing?


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[Assistant] Is mounted to the machine. Ergonomically, that's a mess. I don't like having to put my hand on top of a warm-ish machine to push down again. So I'll pull something pretty traditional. 14 in.


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[Assistant] If you're willing to put in the effort, you might get some okay results. The shots looked good, tasted okay.


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[Assistant] Next up is the craps, and this cost £90 just like the swan, the first one we looked at. And the portafilter is identical. And so I thought this was going to be a bit of deja vu. I bet you thought I was going to say deja brew, but I didn't because I don't hate you or me. This can't make good coffee for one simple reason. The way that it disperses water from the group head is all messed up.


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[Assistant] I don't know if I have a defective machine or if this is common to all of them.


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[Assistant] 12 grams is really all it can take. And like this one, it does come with your little temper.


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[Assistant] Scoop thing, this one's a bit more charming, it could have a little Pixar movie about it one day, but still, broadly unpleasant.


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[Assistant] Now this grind setting is the same one that I used for the DeLonghi, so with a proper basket. The grind setting doesn't really matter here because...


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[Assistant] Then they'll get their own version of that thing done and just push it to the top of the search rankings.


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[Assistant] Cut to the front of the line and capture the sail. This machine seems, in many ways, almost identical to the Krupp's, but they've just made it cheaper. This little dial is cheap and awful.


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[Assistant] The whole machine actually just bends, and it has the same problem as the crops.


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[Assistant] You get this jet of steam that punches out aggressively into the coffee and you get channeling and it makes terrible tasting coffee.


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[Assistant] Now with both the crops and this one, you probably, if you cared enough,


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[Assistant] Could pull enough cold water through it that you bring the temperature of the unit down, you'd see the coffee radio light go off, and try and catch it before it overheats.


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[Assistant] But I still would say it's not worth your time and effort. This is just like pulling shots with the crops. It digs the same giant hole in the coffee. It is a waste of time. It is a waste of money. It makes me very sad that this was built in the first place. Thanks, Jeff.


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[Assistant] So we end with the Andrew James. Sixty pounds. What do you get for your money? You get a power light that never comes on. You get a heating light that never goes off. You get quite a drippy little group head, but it does at least distribute water properly and quite gently. However,


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[Assistant] Like many other machines, it's a pressurized portafilter. There's no fancy extras here, there's just a little pinprick hole underneath.


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[Assistant] The basket. As for coffee, it's about what you'd expect at this point in the video. It doesn't make very good coffee.


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[Assistant] It wants you to pull those coarse ground, faster, longer shots because it's a pressurized portafilter. If you try and brew something slower with a finer grind, more akin to real espresso, it will disappoint you.


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[Assistant] I struggled to make coffee with it. I didn't really enjoy it, but to talk more about it feels like I'm rehashing two or three of the machines we've already talked about. Would I recommend spending £60 on this? No, I would not.


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[Assistant] To wrap things up, let's answer the two big questions that I have at the end of this.


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[Assistant] The first one is the easy one. If I had £100 to spend on a coffee machine to make something like espresso, which one of these would I buy? And the answer is very easy.


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[Assistant] The DeLonghi was head and shoulders above the rest, simply because it didn't have a pressurized portafilter. It was frustrating and cheap and plasticky and inconsistent, but it was the best of these ones tested by a long way. But the second question I think is more important.


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[Assistant] If I have £100, is that enough money to buy a good espresso machine? And for me, the answer is no.


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[Assistant] While you can get some okay coffee out of the DeLonghi, it will be frustrating and finicky and you won't particularly enjoy the experience of making coffee every morning. I would hold off. I would wait. I would save a little bit more.


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[Assistant] I think it's worth spending more money to get something better.


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[Assistant] To have good espresso at home. Not just good tasting espresso, but to have an experience, to have a hobby of espresso making that you actually enjoy as much as the drinks themselves. That I think is really super important if espresso at home is going to be a thing that is a regular part of your life.


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[Assistant] Otherwise, these things just become late night impulse purchases. Ooh, I kind of like the idea of coffee at home. I'll pick one of those up, use it for a week or two, and into the cupboard it goes, never to come back out again.


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[Assistant] That I don't want. That's not what I want for people at home for espresso.