it's a habit it's it's a habit, you're supposed to sell not to buy


I support that, I will lah


it's four hundred plus what


but you still need to think about, let's say you you are you are selling right you need to think about the shipping, no no no, if you want to sell, ya to people


difficult, but if east you can leave it to me lah I bike what


eh expensive ah


that's why I say, no that's why I say you must group the order let's say macam three for eleven dollars, four for fifteen that kind of thing


you tengok services of uh delivery services eh like, if you are you are seeking lalamove or grab delivery eh, !huh!, more than ten dollars


how much, like from, #pasir ris# eh woodlands to #pasir ris#, from woodlands to #pasir ris#, !huh!, shit


(mmhmm), but I think for the start you just buy fifty dulu ah, how much, how many you want to buy


too many [seh]


I think [kan] you, you order more of basic colour, ya black navy, grey you know that kind of thing, ah maroon, that kind of thing


I think it's this, oh ya, that's why cannot hear my voice


ah


okay let's not continue, let's not continue it's not


I thought okay okay


but ya lah I have that urge to makan mamak but then again , we just go lah, we just go


but adam road mana got, there's no Prata there, ya say I want Prata, adam road like macam boring ah, Bedok corner


Saffron is still closed, okay we shall go spring leaf


eh you know SAFRA, Tampines inside there's a spring leaf, ya, yes ada spring leaf, but, depends what time ah now already


landed property that time we go itu apa spring leaf is it, you bring me there malam-malam lah landed property


there's this kedai apa thohirah eh, ah, no not #jalan kayu#, we went to this, is it spring leaf also


[dey] you lupa eh


I can't remember it's, east side I think it's east side, landed property


I'm not sure ah, is it spring leaf that one


dear, ah surrounded by, landed property I tak tahu dekat mana you bring me there


ah now you remember [kan], spring leaf right, now you remember [kan] ah good


surrounded by landed property that one that that point of time when you bring me there I keluar I was lost macam eh, where are we, ya I know but I can only remember that place


landed property, surrounding, waiter can you get water please


hold on ah hold on let me check something, no, please I have two more days so


ya ya right, !alah!, until nine thirty [seh], now is already eight we gonna finish this like what


spice, banana leaf


actually we don't need all go all the way till east, railway mall where's railway mall


where's that, twelve AM, sunset way also have, sunset way, nearby


ya, you know where is sunset way


banana leaf I don't think so, but we can try spring leaf though, where, it's nearby sunset way I think


ya sunset way three point five click, but railway is quite a distance seven point two click, where is that, #tanjong pagar#


nice ambience, like the rooftop restaurant eh


KTM, KTM ah, that's KTM one, just that they haven't demolish


around that area, so we have to like soften down our our tone or what


of course lah this this device over here, it's on, of course he can hear us


Prata


depending ah what what she cook, even though I don't want to waste money but I still want


railway is where, do you guys know where's railway mall, hello


speak, god is listening, so easy to drive there, but don't balik lambat eh


don't don't don't, you using your dad's car, no no no I


can, people with deep voice can do recording, can do podcast


just that I need to speak more clearly, cause I want to do I want to do a podcast also dengan Zul, a'ah eh I should ya


they should have like three panels here no, , you cannot cannot have my mum here you should put, maybe uh you you here then me and Zul dekat situ so you are like the host


then we


but I like this setup you know the the soundproofing kind


but this setup is good ah you know, I've always wanted to do a podcast kind of thing because [kan], through this at least I can hear my voice how I sound in recording kalau I sound like trash right, at least I can know, K lah Zul, sorry ah scrap the idea ah


but then again yang ada orang sound nice, I think your voice is nice ah, oh you want this for Lathi challenge I know


facebook auction, today got this face mask ah selling got pita mask ah


nine point five ninety nine point five percent ah, the like subscribe and share ah


but they all buy stuff from china semua wholesale abeh jual mahal-mahal buat apa [seh]


it could be a refurbish lah, but how much, no how much


maybe ah maybe ah, maybe old stocks lah like old stocks dah tak ada warranty


a good way to, earn income lah side income, they do this for for a a living


I don't know what they selling also


that's, why you want to sell, I think eh this is a good platform for me ah you know , cause I bilang Zul [kan] Zul discuss dengan I we


he got this idea of wanting to do, uh podcast ah dia sebab dia ada this a lot of content to macam talk about, ya but


how I sounded like in in the recording you know


yeah I know he's fair lah I know he's fair, (ppc) for a


I think lah I think, I think the his friend got feelings for him


I mean if you are a hundred percent straight guy would you do such a thing, but, maybe he got split personality ah some people they have split personality ah so


no but Zuhairi looks you know like, you can tell [seh] I'm a guy I can I can tell


but some people don't don't they look tough you know they look tough hundred percent tough tapi they don't show


those are yang show like I told you I have friends yang don't show, ah, yes, but, when you look at their partner, their legit partner eh, oh okay they are in relationship with this person you know, that kind of thing


oh not bad we've been talking for like almost forty minutes now


I should bring it's patut zul yang kena cakap dekat sini because he sounds terrible in recording


sounded cracking in recording <malay macam like macam breaking ah you know like breaking, he he was interviewed ah in some shows ah my friend punya ah, then


and some more they they use like professional equipment tau, then the host that tanya the question itu !wah! suara macam DJ [seh] macam very very deep, hi good evening, everyone


sound test is it


so where's the benda I dah pass you I pass to you what, with you now right, the CD, oh you put together with my uh case


I think I need this at home ah, !huh!


it's quite good man, !huh!


yours, no if you touch, wobbly lah it's a bit wobbly


, I'm I'm thirsty now you know I'm really thirsty now but, it's alright lah it's like, we have like macam dua puluh minit at least, why


over time it lose the colour


I think he said, something july ah, it will, I think we need you need you need to clear up yang that TV area the TV console area


they have to do the the trunking what


no sekali I working from home eh


excuse me, please respect, I'm working, if I'm I'm free I'm totally free okay but if I'm working I'm working


eh you know what they say or not, within that


eight hours right, you can only be productive for like max three or four hours ah actually ah you know, that's why when you at home right when you working from home, you will realise that [kan], most of the time you are not being productive


you know, you should try, if you, let's say if your new job requires you to work from home you you see later eh, how many percent how many hours you are productive compare to


you are let's say you are in office ah, jobs [kan] that, can be done at home you know, until now until now yang macam those people in office


the government tell say what you cannot come back to office, it it's best to primarily work at home, you are macam kerja dekat factory ke atau workshop like that kind of thing, so hopefully yours


some device dekat kerja untuk monitor logistic stuff, then computer ya, pick up phone call, phone calls can be diverted


phone calls can be diverted so shouldn't be an issue ah, ah they pay for you, no you should ask that, you should ask that kalau during interview you should ask that, uh do this have uh


provide bill of course you need to ask, , then you say twenty one days leave


you say twenty days , DHL is a big company, worldwide yes, but tak tahu lah if the local one follows, the MOM policy lah, but for my company


then you should check also, the benefits spouse, spouse benefits, cert I nak submit you tak akan submit tau


oh so company itu you nak apply as single


you nak apply as single, but eh but IC don't have eh marital


they should what at least like, like macam official lah you know you dah kahwin then you pergi dekat police post you know, make changes, I think they should ah


they should care [seh], because of the benefits ah, ya they look at your commitment ah


they will look for single because of this ah, they want to disturb you after working hours, right now I ada excuse ah


got family stuff ah, a family man, eh at least eh at least it's official you know ah, people know that you have a family, eh all the more better


all the more better got father's day got mother's day, got grandmother's day, grandmother's birthday grandfather's birthday


!huh! serious ah, but is it under MOM can we claim, eh that's better than nothing [seh]


what when, when and where, where are we going also, actually I want to apply to go for a short trip let's say kalau by by


october dah buka I want to go somewhere, august august ten green lane no august august ten they will open for the green lane, august ten


for macam businesses ah orang kerja ada rumah dekat sana that kind of thing, malaysia to singapore and singapore to malaysia, I cannot ah


unless you got business dengan maybe work related


okay lah orang bab jaga kucing I trust the person more than myself ah, I trust him more than myself ah, and dia recommend I vitamin semua tau eh, I don't want I never give him before tau dia cakap this is for his fur lah you know


so ya lah I paid, some amount for the vitamin ini semua ah, malaysia [seh] Ringgit


treats itu is like to make them obey you, ah macam kucing [kan] suka benda itu [kan] then they will like come to you


slap you with one scratch, you don't okay, that's part of me


there's one video what, there's one video that shows that uh satu okay there's two video ah after dengan before ah there's this two cat before video, the the after video is after the the the the second cat passed away


so yang cat itu the other cat is he keeps looking for dia punya partner


so when I look at that video, I feel you know , in the house what ada bunyi TV


so I think I will need owner's help lah, to help me pay


I think, I think better lah


but I think, fall off sebab because of he's stressed yeah, then some more dia we never sterilize him what


shampoo, and then nails, shampoo lah, ya lah like that lah


and also ini apa uh flee


that one is important, my previous house selalu kena flee, so I I need to always send him for grooming


actually bapa I kasih dia extra tau, three hundred Ringgit extra [seh], three hundred Ringgit extra tau, nine hundred, ah


uh doesn't include uh comel's punya makan ini semua nine hundred is for him only


a'ah that's why I say I can afford to jaga kucing dekat JB but not in singapore singapore you know one big pack right it costs like sixty seventy dollars you know


you can choose lah the lower end atau the mid the mid range atau yang mahal punya brand


vitamin dia I think dalam tiga puluh lebih ada lah, not treats ah it's more like macam food lah food based ah, I tak tahu how he feed him lah, actually I don't know how he feed him


oh sebab I think, when he was young, then kasih letak dekat situ tau so


I ingat I bawa balik durian


park park


a'ah [seh]


at Tampines mall got what they leash the cat


eh but cat won't listen tau you put them on a leash [kan], you tarik dia dia just duduk situ [jer], so you follow him not not uh, time for #teh tarik#


#teh tarik# session, !huh! but still I want a cat, I want to see my cat


sorry eh kalau rumah itu kotor I need to have some time to clean


not for now ah monthly commitment a bit tough ah a bit a bit stretched ah , even though my dad say, he's he's willing to pay half like but a bit stretched [seh]


when I count every month so ya lah see how lah, maybe ada hikmah lah that this COVID happened, then we get married also


then then no choice lah just, no lah actually depan itu okay lah, I think at night creepy tau


but , mine is okay, eh that one more creepy [seh] tangga dia corner [seh]


but this one the control besar eh, ah besar gila [seh]


balcony dia gitu [seh] dangerous [seh], but that one got furniture I don't want furniture, where to put the furniture


no sofa I don't want that, what kind of sarung anti cat


you you don't know how how sharp their claws are, I think kawan you yeah kawan you punya rumah you tahu lah [kan], oh kucing dia tame ah


which one, because she got


stiff material ah


but that that rumah rental is like this fabric this fabric it's like fabric


okay time's up


because I never see my phone I mean <tamil>நான் வந்து:naan vandhu</tamil> I usually go freshen up then I don't see my phone until like I come out of the toilet


lifetime supply of


nothing bad happening like err maybe in terms of around around me like for my family and my friends and also another pointer will be like err money I wish I was I had like


so <tamil>உன்னோட:unnoda</tamil> voice <tamil>அதுல இருந்து எடுத்துக்கலாம் என்னோட:athula irunthu eduthukalaam</tamil> voice <tamil>இதுல இருந்து எடுத்துக்கலாம்:idhula irunthu eduthukalam</tamil> ya my third wish ah I want to travel


ya I mean he is he doesn't like, he is not very authoritative


no lah <tamil>அவன் வந்து:avan vandhu</tamil> he goes around all to all the outlets because <tamil>அன்னைக்கு வந்து:annaiku vandhu</tamil> Clementi outlet lah <tamil>அவன்:avan</tamil> so err when I was going for work I saw him in the morning like in the MRT station itself


I was like oh my god ya then he was like yesterday yesterday <tamil>அதுக்கு அப்புறம் வந்து பார்தேனா:adhukappuram vandhu paarthaenaa</tamil> then he was like oh so you stay in Clementi ya why never choose there then I said, [orh] because I know the people like because I always go to the FairPrice so like err I don't know them


and then around around me got a lot of my my family friends all so no way ya I mean so far okay lah I mean for the past two days like I just


so I just stand at the entrance then we just give out flyers I just talk to the other staff there then like <tamil>அவங்க வந்து:avanga vandhu</tamil> I mean they are very nice people so <tamil>அதுனால:adhunaala</tamil> okay


oh no no interview <tamil>வேல வேணும்:vela venum</tamil> like in the end right you'll definitely get, at least one or two of them then <tamil>அதுல இருந்து நீ:adhula irunthu nee</tamil> interview <tamil>ஆனா:aanaa</tamil> getting the interview is the hardest so once you're still one step higher


I applied for the Shopee one yesterday because I asked my mother then my mother was like <tamil>பரவால:paravaala</tamil> lah apply <tamil>பண்ணு:pannu</tamil> so I applied for the data analytics I don't know if I'll get because <tamil>எனக்கு வந்து:enakku vandhu</tamil> relevant <tamil>அதுல:adhula</tamil> like data analytics, no data analytics is one of my degree like I'm going to learn it in my final year so I still haven't that's why I still haven't learn it my electives are next year so we will only learn all the compulsary modules in the


comprehension err


like my mother's my mother also never teach so I was always like learning hindi no I don't even know anything in hindi no like ya but then <tamil>அப்புறம் என்னத்த படிச்ச:appuram ennatha padichu</tamil> like when you were like five six years old


public transport <tamil>அவங்க வந்து:avanga vandhu</tamil> UK leh <tamil>வந்து:vandhu</tamil> expensive <tamil>அவங்க எப்படி வாழுவாங்க அப்போ:avanga epdi vaazhuvanga appo</tamil> car <tamil>அங்க:anga</tamil> cheap car <tamil>அங்க:anga</tamil> cheap


then err <tamil>ஆமா ஏன்னா நாம வந்து:aamaa yaenaa naama vandhu</tamil> Grab <tamil>மூணு மணிக்குள்ள முடிஞ்சுதுனா:moonu manikulla mudinjuthunaa</tamil> very fast lah


then <tamil>ஒரு:oru</tamil> ten minutes <tamil>போய்டலாம் பார்ப்போம் எப்படினு:poyidalam paarpom epdinu</tamil> ah


you see usually <tamil>ஏதும் சாப்பிட மாட்டேன்:edhum sapida maaten</tamil> ya


for what I already rejected him no I I I don't I mean you see it doesn't <tamil>அவன் வந்து:avan vandhu</tamil> message it doesn't affect me so I'm like I don't give a damn about him now


<tamil>அவங்க கீழ கருப்பானு பார்ப்பாங்க எதுக்கு இந்த பிரச்னை அதுக்கு வெள்ள:avanga keezha karuppanu paarpanga edhukku prachana adhukku</tamil> paint <tamil>அடிச்சிடலாம்:adichidalaam</tamil>


[dey] <tamil>சும்மா இரு இதெல்லாம் நிஜமாவே:summa iru idhelaam nijamaavae</tamil> translate <tamil>பண்ணி கேட்பாங்க:panni ketpanga</tamil> okay if if I were to eat one dish for my life right


korean barbeque for life I'll just like or steamboat ya or steamboat don't care I don't care but that's one thing I will like because ya oh Enoki mushroom ah


then she was ya she then after that she was asking me eh have you eaten then I was like ya I went to the suntec one then she was like ya I also going there then it's like oh my god I can't believe it, err one girl the scan and go workplace lah ya ya


I mean because like <tamil>நாங்க வந்து:nanga vandhu</tamil> eh like I close to two of the girls lah because <tamil>அவங்க கூட வந்து காலைல இருந்து சாயங்காலம் வரைக்கும்:avanga kooda vandhu kaalailae irunthu saayangaalaam varaikkum</tamil> work <tamil>பண்றேன்:panraen</tamil> leh close, you want to answer the karma one it's pretty unique ah the question


oh I think I know what you gonna say I think I know what you're gonna say , oh my god <tamil>நான் வேணும்னா வாங்கி தரேன் அங்க நெறய கடை இருக்குது:naan venumna vaangi tharaen anga neraya kadai irukuthu</tamil>


[dey] it's a funny answer lah <tamil>உள்மனசுதான் வெளிய சொல்லுது:ulmanasuthaan veliya solluthu</tamil>


ah I think I should I also don't know


[dey] people always reject me <tamil>நான் ஒரே ஒரு:naan ore oru</tamil> okay <tamil>ரெண்டு பையன:rendu payana</tamil> reject <tamil>பண்ணிருக்கேன்:pannirukaen</tamil> secondary school lah [dey]


I get


I mean basically I don't see the physical trait he will be the bottom lah then


[dey] <tamil>அவன் என்ன விட:avan enna vida</tamil> weight <tamil>அதிகமா இருந்தானா அவன் என்ன தாங்கனும்டி:adhigama irunthaana avan enna thanganumdi</tamil> [dey] first of all


ya I went there [orh] let's go let's all go one day like the five of us eh now I mean I can what


expensive but <tamil>ஆனா வந்து:aana vandhu</tamil> like <tamil>நானே வந்து:naane vandhu</tamil> one child only right I would prefer if I had a sibling now <tamil>அவங்ககிட்ட பேசுறேனோ இல்லையோ:avangakita pesuraeno illayo</tamil> like I have very bad relationship with them right just certain certain times right certain issues right like family <tamil>நடக்குற:nadakkura</tamil> issues lah <tamil>வந்து:vandhu</tamil> if I had someone like a sibling or what


I feel like okay someone is going through the same thing as me then I wouldn't feel so lonely


for me it doesn't matter because like the kind of like the pressure right <tamil>உனக்கு வந்து தெரியாமயே:unakku vandhu theriamayae</tamil> is like err you know just knowing like it's shared between two but for me like I'm the only child the all the pressure is like, on me like no matter what pressure it is it's on me my parents fight my my father fight like anything anything that happen is all on me so it's like very tiring


it's just very taxing and and my parents think like oh <tamil>எனக்கென்ன:enakenna</tamil> stress <tamil>நான் சின்ன பிள்ளை தானே எனக்கென்ன:naan chinna pillai thanae enakenna</tamil> stress but then like they don't know like the kind of things that I'm going through ya everything so <tamil>நிம்மதி இல்ல:nimmathi illa</tamil> that's why


it's very hard at least <tamil>நான் வந்து:nan vandhu</tamil> sibling <tamil>வீட்லயே இல்ல:veetlayae illa</tamil> at least I know okay


shared, so <tamil>அங்க இருந்து:anga irunthu</tamil> I feel like even if my kid right one child <tamil>நிறுத்த கூடாது:nirutha koodathu</tamil> at least like I mean for me maximum two <tamil>நெனச்சி பார்த்தாலே:nenachi paarthalae</tamil>


[orh] nice name [orh] okay okay


but that's good though at least the cousins like


they are very close they <tamil>அவங்க வந்து:anga vandhu</tamil> like they always spend time with me and stuff then a lot of family issues <tamil>ஏதேதோ பிரச்னை:edhedho prachanai</tamil> slowly everyone started like drifting away from me then I also like, I mean like at first like it was so hard for me to the point like I always cried like every single time because I <tamil>நான் வந்து:naan vandhu</tamil> I actually thought thought of them as like my siblings that's how close I was to them


then suddenly it was just like very sudden just one second everything stopped then it was like it was very heartbreaking


like you know even like in when I'm working right like time all <tamil>யாராவது ஏதாவது சொன்னா:yaravadhu edhavadhu sonna</tamil> very sad <tamil>உடனே வந்து அழுகை வந்துடும் இல்லாட்டி:udane azhuka vandhudum illati</tamil> I'll just feel one kind but now all right I'm like


[dey] <tamil>எல்லா:ella</tamil> Yishun <tamil>உனக்கும் சரி எல்லோருக்கும் சரி:unakkum sari ellorukkum sari</tamil> Yishun <tamil>எல்லோருக்கும் சரி:ellorukkum sari</tamil>


[orh] and then the job security it's ya ya no matter COVID or what right they teaching and front line is


always like it will always be there you can't retrench people there engineering all right you can easily retrench retrench people


that's that's something I I really want to experience but I don't think in the general life I will ever get ya I want to get


oh ya but I mean it's it's it's to be honest right my top like my top five fears right like I would say one of them is like not being able to love anyone not not find someone but like, genuine love ya love in the sense not unrequited love like I always had like okay I've I know how to love ya requited love I know how to love but it's always like one sided love I've experienced love but I want to experience something that's like two sided


so I'm I that's like one of my like it's it's literally in my top five fears


seven hundred like my mother say I can only use like three hundred


ya for my fees like I'll I'll put in my UK account then just keep it keep it aside for my


school fees no I think I will I will just withdraw and give her because right it's in my account right my father will keep asking me <tamil>என்னோட:ennoda</tamil> you know I saved a lot for my from my internship I never use any of it but ya ya and then err every single thing went to my father


like because he has to pay I understand lah he's in a position where he can't like pay his err debt and stuff by himself so, I even my mother doesn't know that I give him, ya he doesn't want me to tell my mother but she doesn't know how much he has


she only knows like the debt she has in the sense like my father right err he took a loan no not really loan


like especially on the travel like err you know <tamil>நாங்க அந்த:nanga andha</tamil> the UK trip <tamil>போனோம்:ponom</tamil> leh <tamil>அதுக்கு:adhukku</tamil> ya <tamil>அதுக்கு:adhukku</tamil> then plus other stuff also lah like daily expenses and also, my father kind of like started a business in india but then like I don't think they are earning any profit I don't know why he's still like has it also ya


so <tamil>அதுக்கு வந்து:adhukku vandhu</tamil> pay <tamil>பண்றதுக்கு:panrathukku</tamil> he use credit card and stuff then all the daily expenses and stuff lah because he lost his job like four years ago so he has no income mah


I don't know lah it's just very err he don't want ya, he say <tamil>நான்:naan</tamil> Grab driver I will get more than the amount I earn from the ya


oh even like wedding !aiyo! wedding <tamil>ஒரு ஒரு:oru oru</tamil> I I I especially hate this concept like indian <tamil>கூட எதுக்காக போனா:kooda edhukkaaga ponaa</tamil> err, not #ang bao# the amount of jewellery they they wear ya me and my mother <tamil>போவோம்:povom</tamil> simpler <tamil>அங்க போனா வந்து:anga ponaa vandhu</tamil> we we are not those like who likes to show off our err like using jewellery okay <tamil>அதுதான் முக்கியமா பார்ப்போமே தவிர:adhuthan mukkiyamaa paarpomae thavira</tamil> the kind of the way we portray ourselves we don't like to wear like


shiny shiny stuff like more gold I my mom sometimes she's like that also especially for certain people like in my family right, got those people like who they they always see like oh you're <tamil>எவ்ளோ:evlo</tamil> so <tamil>அவங்க இங்க இருக்கு:avanga inga irukku</tamil> my mother will wear but


for me I like to wear gold but I don't like to wear a lot like I like to be simple okay <tamil>ஒரு சின்ன தோடு:oru chinna thodu</tamil> okay or a chain that's it I don't like like


maybe if you want you can come to my house also ya , next week actually I don't know next week I think mostly if like my mother doesn't work on monday and thursday I will be meeting Anisha lah because I never meet her what ya so ah the following week we'll meet lah or if you free evening <tamil>வந்து இந்த:vandhu indha</tamil> the


red line <tamil>பக்கம்:pakkam</tamil> then we will meet there lah we can go ah <tamil>ரெண்டு மணி நேரம் ஒன்ற மணி நேரம்:rendu mani neram ondra mani neram</tamil> ya walk around, okay thank you okay one two one two three


recording conversation , Syaf, how are you, okay so basically we are just doing this recording, for some surveillance evidence


so let's just talk about any topic you okay with that, hopefully hopefully how how many percent is that err right now


mine is at fifty seven percent, so macam tadi aku cakap [kan]


okay okay ah so uh maybe you can start first then I will just err apa tu err connect back dengan kau K go


, true true betul betul (mmhmm)


uh


ah, ah


, ah


a'ah


(uh huh), oh understood eh I I didn't know eh tak boleh makan dalam ikea


a'ah, oh K


understood understood


uh biasa lah biasa lah, I mean I mean you you are like lower than them lah in terms of level and everything lah understood understood


ah, and then, okay, ya betul betul betul that's true that's true


ah kurang ajar ah plain looking couple okay okay tu memang kurang ajar okay K


ah, ah, a'ah and then


!huh! tak faham what's the link


ah ya betul that's true that's true


eh serious ah


, , I mean you see ah I I don't get the rationale you see like you know like you guys like social uh social uh distance ambassador and everything ah I don't know why what's with the macam correlation bila buat kerja begini lepas tu equivalent to not educated


, yes understood betul to tide them over I mean to tide them over for the for the next few few weeks or few months lah in short yup distributor


, I mean at the end of day I mean ah how how much netflix can you watch right within a day I mean aku tengok netflix one one hour drama pun dah aku dah macam lethargic gila like alone like to be staying I mean right now I'm staying home lah because because of this the whole entire err situation


uh when it comes to the border and everything so I mean it has been an interesting two days for you lah I would say I mean when it comes to your work, I mean K mine was quite interesting I mean err as you know aku [kan] buat caregiving job [kan] to my friend so err I mean yesterday I was just resting I mean the day before so of course err


uh and then dia nak berak and everything so aku dia and everything then aku nak kena siapkan dia so everything took like one hour plus and then after that


err we were waiting for transport because kawan dia nak kena hantar tau hantar dia so we were like one hour late for the appointment so we're supposed to be there by three, but we only managed to get the transport by like three forty five lah almost four lah so lambat lambat lambat gila so by the time we reached err the hospital


err hospital tu somewhere around dekat err in the east, so it was almost four so by the time kita masuk then the the therapists were saying like err one hour lambat and everything lah last standard procedure lah !huh! but they would just do their best lah because of this COVID nineteen [kan]


so okay lah I mean it it then after that aku hantar dia balik and then lepas tu bila aku hantar dia balik after that there was guest that came in so the guest happens to be err like err dia punya adik punya wife punya parents, so like in loss lah somewhat lah


so we already bought food so after that


and then it was like so awkward ke tu orang tua aku tak tahu kenapa dengan orang tua but bila dia oran~ like when they entered the room aku dah tahu okay this is going to be a very sombre sedih atmosphere


your phone ah kacau [jer] your phone oh your alarm okay tak apa tak apa so apa tu semantic noise so ah so okay back to my story so lepas tu ah then the the mother lah the mother said to me lah ah nama anak nasri ya


then like a'ah cik nama saya nasri dah okay I was feeding my friend right so after that the mum was like nak nak tahu [kan] anak suap anak suap err err kawan ni anak dapat pahala aku dah macam aku tak tahu apa nak buat do not know how to continue the convo


yes yes yes yes and then, ya ya it's true it's true and then aku macam and then err lepas tu err then the mother was like saying err saya jaga err suami saya dia masuk hospital enam kali then I'm like eh kamu bual err personal story pula kat aku aku dah macam macam mana nak react ah so aku macam then I I try my best


a'ah I tried my best to stay composed lah then after that err aku pun dah macam !alamak! aku tak boleh kalau orang tua dah start nangis then they started to cry aku dah tak boleh aku dah macam no no no no this this cannot dia they they the both the husband and wife started to cry while talking to my friend then


I almost I am macam tak boleh I cannot embed in this kind of situation because if I'm in this kind of situation I would end up macam tersentuh ah and then automatically my air mata will mengalir you know so I was like then I was like quickly err err apa tu kasih suap then after that I just say uh


I then I just sat down outside and then I let them have their moment lah so they were talking and then the the the father of my friend and the mother came into the room and then they were taking picture and then there were more there was more crying and everything, and then kau tahu apa you know my mum's friend


she cannot enter the room you know of my friend ya kiranya my my friend punya mum, mother lah kirakan ah tak boleh masuk you know inside the room because you see ah, because yang sakit tu anak dia tau so bila so she is and then she's also sakit so when she will feel sedih you know she told me personally you know like


ya ya ya, ah yes yes yes that like she feel like macam anak dia akan pergi dulu you know so there are moments where when I come over to the place


and then aku dekat dapur and then the mum would would like tell me lah like like you know err the mum will cry you know in front of me and then the mum will say err


so you know at times kau orang kunyit dia mulut dia pun aku kenal pun macam minta minta minta nyawa err dia pun sometimes will say you know like err


err she try to not enter the room ah because she will feel extra sensitive because err her her parents err no my friend's mum is around like seventy plus, and then like the dad also around seventy plus also so they are like macam golongan really yang orang tua lah, so sometimes bila mak dia nangis aku pun tak tahu macam mana nak react with aku dah macam !huh! macam mana nak what am I going to do am I gonna do I need to bring a tissue paper or what and then I just like macam err takpe lah cik sabar lah cik cik tahan [jer] lah


but even the the mum also say lah macam the mum somehow I can feel like the mum macam somehow appreciate aku lah macam akan cakap apa like what you tell me like err, the mum really appreciate aku ah the mum macam sometimes I think the mum dia tersentuh lah and always look look look


so the then the mum said ah tu lah cik masak ah hari tu tapi tu lah err anak tak nas nas tak tak dapat datang I'm like sorry lah cik K I mean


but half of me I tell myself no I cannot I need to do something from us I mean I need to push through my studies ultimately that is my goal you know, I mean after so many years of just macam you know you know that what I mean the situation of of what you are right now macam you know feeling very lost I mean I was there last time macam kita have that conversation with beberly [kan]


ah yang kat mcdonald's err like I was very very lost when I was like what umur aku twenty two all the way to twenty seven can you imagine I was lost for almost five years , , I mean being lost is just part and parcel of of of of err our journey lah


ya it's true you know actually when you think about it lah like you you you , you you you are always constantly searching for for your soul you know something like searching err consider searching for something you want in your life, so so that's why I was like telling myself err when when comes to to my friend lah ya aku tak boleh tolong dia all the way but I can help him out to this extent because I tell him personally like


you don't worry because you you ask somebody


for me, yes yes,


err he even ni tau that he gave a certain amount of money to me tau, for my tuition fees semester fees


I don't want to accept the money lah you know honestly in all honesty I don't want to accept the money but because dia dah ada ni ah you know sometimes orang sakit bila dia niat kau nak kena tunaikan dah niat [kan]


then dia cakap tak apa tak apa just ambil aku macam !alamak! macam mana tu but but you see like see aku dah macam you see ah like my my my err university journey like a hamburger lah Alhamdulillah I would say that macam err my urusan has been dipermudahkan lah, uh with regards to my semester fees I mean err I have contribution from my late my my late step grandfather my late uncle and then then dia juga ah apa tu contribute to my semester fees


ah rezeki so macam like I say lah like you are tied down to something lah so aku kalau boleh macam


ya, yes you know


for him


understood understood understood, ,


, , understood understood


oh macam gitu eh, understood understood, understood


ah


understood, ah


ah, serious ah, , understood understood


well because we are, yes understood understood, understood understood, yes understood understood understood


, I mean in your situation now of the fact that kau macam you I mean you kau kau agak you are quite


a'ah


, (mmhmm), sixty oh ya ya ya I thought you talk legitimate I've ever, yes yes understood


eh wait how old is your father ah, oh ya ya ya I thought you talk last year to me I remember, ah


understood


understood understood, understood


understood, understood


I mean oh I mean do you do you tell this to your to your mum not not your step mum you know your mum, but does your mum say anything about it about the whole situation


, okay I understood eh but at what age ah did your mum divorce I mean err I mean divorce is a, !wah! that was quite he was quite eh, Asyikin how how old was Asyikin then


!wah! !wah! Asyikin should be primary six out of the time, !wah! the quite young ah you Shavana your your brother dah ni [kan] oh ya ya ya ya so should be


!wah! that long already ya has been more than how many years, you are now kita twenty nine, oh !wow!, understood understood understood, twenty one years, and your mum has not remarried eh sampai sekarang eh


your mum has not remarried sampai sekarang eh, oh K okay okay okay okay never knew about that part but your your your dad remarried your step mum lah in short


understood understood, ,


ah


ah, what did your father say


, ah


, washing machine, understood understood


oh your oh macam your father is the macam very the old school punya ni eh


ah kalau old school ya betul betul that's true it's true it's true, , uh, and he's still working


a'ah, !wow!


to not work ah understood understood, understood


, , (mmhmm)


yup, yes yes yes, oh ya ya ya ya, correct correct so your your your sister said your mum said tak nak lah


oh my god, understood


is your mum [kan], is your mum [kan], serious ah oh gosh


, understood understood understood


so your step mum will tell your father lah in short, (mmhmm)


, , understood


parents ah, serious ah


understood, malaysia


suspicious


yup understood understood understood


(mmhmm), understood understood, (mmhmm)


!wah! serious ah, oh understood understood, eh, !hais!, what


serious ah, understood understood,


!wah!, understood understood


understood, yes correct correct correct correct, understood


!wah! damn not bad ah you when ah Asyikin fails sia


understood, understood, understood understood


ya I was about to say that because


err dia tak go through apa you and your uh and your other siblings went through the hardship you know nak cari makan and everything and how your mum raise you guys up and everything


understood understood, understood understood


understood, like you feel like they they could be better lah or they could have done better lah and in in that sense


job yes yes yes, understood


and then how how how how does it feel, ah understood understood understood


do exam, yes correct, understood, understood, yup you don't apply in real life situation


that's true actually it's actually quite what I mean the whole thing is quite true you know when it comes to our education system, nothing has changed eh over the past how many years we've been living in singapore it is still the same concept of education and everything


it's like you know like the survival of the fittest lah, err the ones yang err macam study hard apostrophe, will progress kuat juga then the ones yang err tak progress are the ones yang macam mediocre


will just fought out in society aku masih ingat err I remember you know the A three teacher that geography teacher err he, ya ya he say err work hard or work in mcdonald's, ah now when I think about him ah when I think about that statement ah about what he made at last time ah aku macam eh you mean people who are working in mcdonald's is that bad ah you you are that ah that


macam his statement ah macam ada sense of macam elitism you know macam macam macam how our err government ah macam gitu that kind of it's like the vibe right there the dia kasih ya


I mean of course they want more but they are err apa tu content with what they have so, , understood understood understood


ah, this is a very interesting topic to talk about okay err honestly before I enter with


ya ya it's ah we're left with like twenty minutes okay so honestly , K initially err this is like my third err application to UM you know ah sorry should I should not mention the name lah, to but I just mention the name but never mind it's it's a it's a acronym UM okay so so before I went there in my head I always thought macam able to [kan] aku nak belajar kat sana then I'm like I I'm like how am I supposed to cope with the system over there and everything


so it was quite apprehensive lah in the beginning lah or when I went there but after I went there I realize that the system there is very different you know from singapore cause singapore [kan] pakai cambridge [kan] and sana they have their own system tau ah for apa tu macam for how to grade and grading and everything


and then kat sana aku perasan !wah! the they're very smart you know like the malaysian is super smart eh we're not talking about the one in KL you know we're talking about every other parts of the the country you know macam ones from Sabah with the ones from Johor


the ones from Perak like aku dah aku I was quite shocked you know like my classmates are damn super smart, but aku realize about them is what they lack is, , they are they are very err examination based kau faham [kan] exam yes book smart exam examination centered


so it's like they can they are they are hardcore memorizer you know their mark their marking style is macam hardcore memorizer, and of course the system over there is macam err the examination is err it's it's it's it's very straightforward ah macam uh you the question is there you just vomit out back that's how you score but then like if you wanna talk about like err those yang macam err critical thinker


the ones yang critical thinker is surprisingly is the ones yang from singapore people like me and my class and my other class and my other classmates so we would tend to ask question yang macam critic yang macam higher thinking ah, but because our our education system is dah macam nurture us like this [kan] but bila when we go there dia orang think yang kita ni super on tau


so aku macam !huh! super on eh not really leh it's just that uh our just that our culture macam singapore culture has trained us to be like this macam and then some more you have to understand aku kat sana aku pay enam ribu eh, almost to like a nine K eh err nine K of err school fees they are only paying one K of school fees


so every hour and every minute tu bagi aku is duit so if I don't ask the question am I not wasting my money and my dad's money


ah poyo then I'm like but but because the way I bring myself with aku I'm not the way I bring myself is my my my my like my my kepala would be like very up and then I will look at you like bitch I'm judging you that kind but I it's not like it's not like that it's just that I have to


put up a very hard exterior lah because you are overseas mah you're like you need to hustle apa and then then, when it comes to studies wise err, Alhamdulillah I would say that I am coping very well lah I mean during the first semester I got three point seven for my GPA but it's during my second semester that aku drop really really bad because first I was very complacent second


I the the one thing that I didn't do quite smart what I mean at the one thing that is stupid of me was I shared my own answer script, to my classmate, and then it got shared with other people you know, so can you imagine I was the one who did everything from scratch and then it got shared so I told myself err then I was not really focused ah like I still remember like the day before the exam baru aku nak belajar can you imagine


but I I had a very long months of preparing but but because of err I was like I don't know it's I just I just got so complacent in my head, ya yang answer script, ah


ah it's like a macam err I based err meaning ah I I will use the past year exam paper then I will answer the question then most of the time the the questions will will be almost the same ah like every four years is almost the same that's what my one of my friends told me lah ah who has studied in UM


so and then I saw in err semester three I told myself no I cannot, ah in semester three I was very low key nak mampus tau aku macam aku every question every every essay that I did I didn't really share with anyone I just kept quiet uh I even like tak post anything about about me are preparing for exams I just was just very very low key ah


and then my my results was Alhamdulillah I mean I I was quite surprised ah that I got three point nine which is the highest I have ever gotten lah, ya and then this coming semester four pun err aku hopefully lah I can get a err very good GPA lah but all in all aku cakap dengan kau I mean


I don't know I don't know lah macam but but you see ah I I remember that time ah aku baru balik dari Kedah tau nak balik err pergi KL tak silap KL ke singapore uh, and then err I remember sitting with this err with this lady lah she is err from Penang you know she no no I I I went Penang sorry ya I went Penang and then I was on my way back from Penang to singapore via flight so there was this err lady that I I sat beside and then err


when I because I was sitting at the window seat right so when I say err excuse me err then err then so when I enter err and sit and when I seated here now, you know she automatically she ask me eh you singaporean ah, then aku dah eh macam mana kau tahu then she say oh I know lah because of your accent and the way you talk


ya you can tell ah you can tell from a from a, yes it's it's different and then then she was asking she was telling me lah


eh err you she she's a teacher in a she is she is a graduate from singapore eh tak silap aku eh no no no err no she's a she's a alumni of UM, but her brother actually err studies in NTU and err did err did her his master in NTU something like that then the brother got married to a singaporean girl err so to cut the story short dia cakap dengan aku lah eh uh you [kan] orang melayu kenapa you tak stay kat malaysia err I think you should


err take this opportunity to work in malaysia I think you would try you will thrive very well in malaysia then you got me thinking eh apa dia cakap tu maybe there is a certain truth you know because kat sana aku perasan orang melayu !wah! babe privilege babe


yes yes yes exact bumiputera thing


err or we are being like extra lah kirakan not extra lah we're just being err we are we we we're looked down


err every everyone is kind of like taken care of lah I would say I mean I do not know I mean I I I've been staying there for like almost err three three three years plus now err it's good ya it and err I find that


one body shower macam dove eh twenty four Ringgit eh !siala! twenty four Ringgit when you pay when you pay fifty Ringgit to pay for the twenty four Ringgit and when you left with that balance eh macam kiwak macam eh this is very expensive leh but when in singapore


when you pay fifty dollars for the same amount of eight dollars you you have the balance is still a lot [kan] then it's like worth it [kan] padahal it's the same current it's the same rate but just different currency so honestly if you ask me whether, I want to stay in malaysia or not I tell you


provided I'm earning a lot in singapore then I will stay in malaysia, understood


yes yes yes yes


yes it doesn't make sense for me, ah understood, and they they even say it like my malaysian even say my malaysian friends lah even say like KL is a expensive city to live in, like if you go other city or other states is much more cheaper when it comes to the items and everything so you got me thinking lah oh


I always thought like macam KL is quite cheap aku I when I go over to like macam Kedah I go Penang !wah! it's even cheaper sia barang-barang dia then I'm like I'm quite shocked lah in one way or another


ya, understood understood understood, and then err I mean I always got teased off lah I always got teased yang eh err by my classmate eh kau tak nak kahwin ke dengan orang malaysia


but at but we never have anything to begin with


ah sia aku macam !siala! I mean, ah syak kurang ajar lah tak lah but I don't know I mean I don't know you never know what you never know err our future like who knows maybe kau one day get married or aku one day get married you'll never know, but but innocence that macam aku punya preference when comes to I have I have a type of of of of lady of or a girl and yang aku suka lah and my preference is macam yang putih yang dia no need no dia tak perlu putih sangat it's just putih dia pakai tudung ke very very typically uh


, or also known as tanned, so err ya so and then kurang ajar tak lah hitam is hitam and then after that then aku kat sana aku [kan] macam abang-abang aku [kan] macam abang-abang singapore [kan]


ah ya ya ya you know my suara is always like hello , and then lagi suara aku ah my my voice will bounce apa whenever I use the mic when it comes to presentation err in lecture hall, so macam I'm known as the suara abang-abang lah but then dia orang tak tahu lah they akan close all


no I'm serious ah no aku dah macam aku cakap dengan kau aku macam double lives ah kat sana you know like, in school I am like quite err the abang-abang but, ah eh babe do you know that aku that time menang err did I did I show you a picture that I aku menang err prince of the night you know for for an event


macam ah so I I won like a prom kingish punya competition


no because he chose me because I was I was one of the I was ultimately I was the only one who dressed very well that night aku ah because I was wearing blazer, ah ya I was I was wearing blazer then I bought this like yellow punya macam like a macam like a apa tu belt ke apa dah apa-apa lah and then I yellow err


I think ada I pun nak tunjuk you guys ah then so I was quite shocked lah so, so like err like err like I tell you like I I feel like I'm living a double life macam kat kat sekolah aku macam very quiet quiet baik-baik but, but at the same time aku aku [kan] quite wild [kan] like you know the number of people aku met aku err make friends with babe by in instagram by in facebook I'm still making friends up to today


I mean it's called networking lah although kawan aku yang kat singapore ni tak err I have I aku tak pernah disclose anything about it to do you know even that time I post err something about me going to Kedah in my instagram, Wei babe dia sampai err dia he actually


err he ask me eh you go Kedah


ah, I mean err I did visit my friend lah in Kedah lah in one way or another lah but this that that part


ya this my acts also apa so but, so I was like telling myself oh no no tak boleh aku dah I I cannot post this kind of err this kind of post anymore because he will be triggered eh ni nama ni triggered dia triggered gila dia triggered lepas tu dia triggered lepas tu dia start questioning me lah macam kau pergi dengan siapa and everything lepas tu dia dah start


the almighty you know in the other life


but, in that kind of state ke you know because it's he's in that kind of that state state and then he's like he's super sensitive I mean at the end of the day in every situation err kalau tuhan nak tarik nyawa kau people err god would just take away your nyawa lah understood I mean


but I always tell him lah like eh you cannot you know so back to my err double life so ya lah I mean at the err, okay so aku pun tengah trying to keep up lah with my studies I mean I'm left with just err semester five six and seven so semester seven I'll be in here in singapore doing my internship


and then, I am planning to do my internship in singapore because at the end of the day I'm going to come back and and work here, I I as of now I have no intention to work in malaysia lah unless there is a good opportunity for me but even so err I did ask macam consulted over there lah like they say like they if you're a foreigner you are given like macam temporary contract eh


so aku tak nak ambil contract I aku rasa it is very risky to be doing contract work and then on top of that kau kena cari err rumah then on top of that kau kena settle your visa and all those shenanigans so aku cakap no no no I think I rather work in singapore so it depends on which industry I'm going to


yup, understood, yup yup


but you see ah the thing is I aku because I'm here mah so I am not able to network as fast, as I'm over there so kalau kalau if you were there is is is it's easy for me to network and everything but I'm trying my best to like network lah and the end of the day aku pun tak sure lah what kind of err prospects I want to do


err whether I want to go into teaching whether I want to go into academics or whether I want to go into err media I still haven't decide lah I mean, I I see myself writing for a article in a journal you know I mean it's it's an academic journal so and the I mean that's that's the thing that aku aku don't mind doing lah but for me to do that is like I need to go into the academic


err take my master and maybe I don't know take my PHD in language and because at the end of the day err PHD in language pun tak banyak orang yang ambil apa unless you are really passionate and interested in it lah


so I will say lah in the next err one and a half years start starting from october, ah what and tails and and and then you just hope for the best lah but I'm just glad that my study punya period is going to be be done and over with very very soon


(ppl)


yes, err I'm fine thank you, ya


I ya I I feel like this battery on this phone is is not gonna go well so, hopefully can record for one hour already present but it looks like it's twenty percent, it looks like it's twenty percent


, I don't know maybe like talk about


how our day went yesterday, how's your day, okay for me okay so for me , (ugh), I work as a social distance ambassador so


in this COVID period you have to tell people to like you know stay one meter and all that kind of stuff and then there was this like err couple, so dia orang like


so ya so they they block the way and then like before that I saw them go out already but dia orang like


ah redirected to me and then like I I I ask lah hi sir how may I help you


ah dia nak pergi ambil allen key lah daripada dia punya service counter lepas tu , after they take the like they want to take the allen key lepas tu dia cakap eh err please tell him do not touch people I'm like okay sure but like honestly I looked at it and then they were blocking the exit and then they were stopping like at least ten people from moving so it's dia orang punya pasal lah


err when when they left I ask this security guard lah like you know like tak kisah pasal dia orang lah sebab dia orang they they were trying to be difficult lah because you are just stopping them from entering once they exited because there's only one way exit one way enter right


so lepas tu another security guard datang lepas tu dia cakap oh err this couple lah they have a problem lah they told me already like about how the other security guard tried to touch the wife then like I also question mark lah why why


and so err


ya then then the wife eating the wife started eating her hot dog then after that will like, ,


hopefully, ya okay hopefully ya, at your you're risking yourself lah to exposure to virus so


ya lah lepas tu dia argued dia cakap oh my wife is eating I'm not eating and I'm taking the allen key, no eating in the store at all you know, rude lah so it's like my wife is eating not me you know that kind of stuff so we have this kind of difficult customers coming in and they're just like fully self entitled and they feel like


you know like like we don't have a like like we are like lower than them, correct ya so err, ya then the day before it was quite funny because there was this err couple they went out


and then they changed their mind they came back in the thing was that so many people pass by you wouldn't even remember hard what their faces look like most of the time unless they are like outstanding in terms of their their clothes or hair right so this plain looking couple they went


back in !hey! but they're plain , so they were wearing like just normal t-shirt and shorts and then ya so they were they came in and


err I was like hi ma'am have you taken your temperature upstairs and then she started like !hey! why you so rude you're not doing your job you know, damn like what because in my head like if I don't stop you from coming in from the exit I am not doing my job I'm doing my job simply because I'm stopping you right now you know so


you're very rude you know like why are you talking to me like this like like I'm stupid like that after that like it's like you're not doing your job you know you want you want me to show you my entry pass but the thing is that, even you show might if you even if you show your entry pass right you can scan it anywhere


before even entering the store so the only way I would know if you actually like enter the store in the proper way is by taking a temperature upstairs so if you take your temperature upstairs and you come in from within the store that is fine you know it's validated because like


you already went through the process but then you exited nobody notice you exiting and then came back in, from the exit and then you insisted that I'm being rude because I caught you, from entering the exit place then it's like err she was like oh like I'm educated you know why you so rude I was like piece of shit like


bloody bitch you know that I have graduated with honours, mother toot , so it's like what the fuck this happening


(mmhmm), okay you know why because we are having this kind of job it lead it seems lowly that like you don't have education or you low education that's why you get this kind of job you know what I mean but at the same time ah they never considered that this kind of people


I even have like air stewardess air stewards crane operators err tour guides all these people are working with me and they are having this kind of job as a security guard or as a social distance ambassador simply because, their industry is closed you know so like you're trying to find a job to put food on the table


correct because technically this virus is gonna extend until one year so like you you cannot just like sit down kat rumah and then like melepak tengok TV tengok youtube macam my bapa so that's fucking unproductive I don't like it


correct so how how how was yours how did it go, (mmhmm)


!wah! that is late


, my alarm lah oh my god


you know that's a typical an err reaction from old people the audience be like


oh like you're doing this you're doing that you know at the end of the day you're gonna get like pahala I'm like sometimes [kan] you buat kerja bukan pasal pahala you nak buat kerja pasal you nak care for the person you know


your mum's friend, okay,


(mmhmm),


correct


!wow! nasi rawon bukan nasi biasa tau


, !aduh!


that is right, correct


, I think I'm still lost but , correct I mean even until you die I don't think you'll find a way actually


you tahu kenapa tak pasal I would think that he thinks like you are more easy to manipulate and you are more kind so kalau you are more easy to manipulate and you're kinder even though it sounds like bastard to say, tapi like you know people like to tend to take advantage of these things macam even when like I'm usually like I'm usually a kind person and all that right and then like you know after awhile you notice like oh I feel like they are taking advantage of me then like I will just stop lah or just like you know I can't do this for you anymore


because like memang like I think it's just human nature lah like they trying always trying to find ways to take advantage of people but I just find that is not a way to live your life


Alhamdulillah


you macam apa tu in debts lah


an example but in that but at the same time to mature this is my my share lah we are we are we pick out of job because of question unless you are already, if you put your personal check with you if you want to be educated the person you would not help the person all the way to that at I not go or any other person does the same thing as you and only you lah as of now lah


ya because like I mean like for, me right simply if I really care for that person I don't mind but like at the same time like kalau is those people that I'm not close to or whatever right then like , I would try not to because at the same time like I feel that I'm putting sometimes lah like when I do things on putting myself too out there that like I don't think about myself I don't think about my own welfare and I don't spend time with my family just kind of stuff


I mean it's great that you're helping but like ya I mean, there's a there's a limit to it lah in terms of like


like you know you need to go and live your life because after he dies maybe in like one or two years I don't know I'm not praying for him to die but like bila dia dah meninggal like you have to live your life and his ah if he's asking you to sacrifice your life


like, correct because I mean I understand lah kalau you ada family [kan] tapi tak close dengan family tu macam like saudara saudara tak tak rapat [kan]


like my my side of the family is like kalau ada kerja kahwin or kenduri right my family will be the one as helping the rest of the family near extended family they be like the women will be busy makeup lah blah blah blah all that shit I'm like


it's like it's so rude of you to say that because why I'm helping you because you are my family but at the same time I do not


approve of your behaviour even at your grandmother's funeral you are busy with your makeup, and like you know like, I don't think that's how you should behave lah because then you see the core of your personality you know lepas tu like this particular cousins they are like always


ah even when there is a wedding they tak datang on time dia orang datang lambat even the people that they're supposedly close to ah like like these cousins these two cousins are so like is apparently close but then even on that cousin's wedding day


the close cousin pun datang lambat so I feel like ni apa punya attitude ni lepas tu dia orang dah kahwin and they're going to breed this kind of, you know they're breeding this kind of inconsiderate people hopefully not but you know like, like you know like what we say before lah like we're not breeding because because because of our preferences and at the same time we also don't want to breed this kind children you know what I mean


I'm not saying that we're bad people but because we are we're thinking about it responsibility responsibly that's why we are not breeding these kind of people you know you mean but like oh my god there's so many people breeding and they all not really good people


and


for me because , like currently the industry shut down right so I'm doing freelance that one can do at home lah which is editing video editing and then like the social distance ambassador which I do like five to six five two eight hours a day kind of err


sixty only ya and he watches TV he watches youtube in the fucking morning and then when I want to mengaji then he on the bloody video damn loud then I can't concentrate you know, after that ustazah he just wants to watch because he's bored nobody wants to talk to him


like like then after that I ustazah say lah like like you know like , err perlahan-perlahan lah baca lah kat bawah buku tu ada cakap baca dengan perlahan kalau err perlu err ulang lah lagi tapi I cakap dengan ustazah ustazah bapa saya tengah main video saya tak boleh concentrate lepas tu ustazah macam awkward lah macam oh okay


ya correct and then like , for me right my my bapa is, is like you know like you love your father but you can I don't like my father you know


like satu dia like dah lama tak kerja and he's just err waiting for government to give him money, and then like err what do you call that like dia tengok youtube videos every single day pagi-pagi pukul tujuh setengah dia boleh on kuat-kuat until like late at night he watches but nowadays because the other day he confessed to me he never pay


like you you figure your shit out lah, my mum know lah that he doesn't work lah, that's why she divorce him lah


, you know, when I was in err primary one primary two, ya with that was like eight years old


I'm if I'm eight years old she's like twelve, ya so, ya ya, my brother one year younger so ya so


ya this quite long , since I was in primary two ah I don't know eight years old now I'm twenty nine so twenty one years old twenty one years ya but I mean, sorry


no lah she remarried and then she divorced when I was in MI ya, , ya then like Alhamdulillah like long time lah but my step mum also at one point wanted to divorce him because


he simply not working and not trying to provide for the family lah and then the other day he had the audacity wiki because my my younger brother my youngest brother he was talking to my father he said eh err I'm going to I'm going to the food court lah to meet my friend because my friend just got his heart brokenhearted like


err he got his heartbroken and dia dia nak console lah kawan dia lah


you nak act as if she's your girlfriend for what you know


err dia cakap dia macam nak weekend excuse lah macam dia joking but I wasn't having it I was angry


I mean literally all he does at home is watch videos and


put clothes in the the washing machine and then err gantung which takes less than fifteen minutes honestly


and like he's working


you know what excuse does my father have to to not work and like like lounge around and wait for somebody to macam kasih dia duit you know what you mean lepas tu I tak suka tinggal dekat rumah sebab I tengok dia unproductive I rasa macam beban tau like


sometimes I really like, like just err pray to god lah Alhamdulillah my step mum is a nice person that she like you know that she is still wants to stay with him and provide for him because she did thought of divorcing and then like you know err one funny day err my youngest sister told me she's like


oh kakak you know err we were talking about how when you die right and then , there's an option for you to stay with your husband or wife in the in the bumi right, my step mum cakap dia tak nak jumpa my bapa


ya lah so in bumi you ada mark like husband and wife right tapi in syurga you nak you you still want to be together or not, ah my mum say tak nak myself say, which is even I wouldn't want I I I love him as a father because


I mean we don't think like that lah tapi my mum is the one who thinks like that but at the same time we think like okay I will just give what we can give but we will not give our father we will give our step mum


ya so for me right usually kalau I nak kasih I kasih my step mum lebih macam say, when I was working my full time job lah I would say I give like around one hundred and fifty and then my father I gave him hundred I put him in his own bank account that one what the fuck he wants to do it whatever the fuck he want to do is fine


but whatever I give my step mum you don't touch so ya I mean like that's how I usually give my and then like the thing is that my father's attitude is so bad he likes to take money from people he likes to wait for money to be given to him, he also likes to count people's money macam dia cakap oh like your sister dia nak beli rumah dekat malaysia semua semua semua like berapa ribu lah


so we re going up up somehow you just like he likes to compare and power that lah


like itu yang kasih you marah because the fuck you why the fuck are you counting my money and then secondly you don't even raised me and then after that now you like what the fuck you know I mean the only good thing he has ever done in his life


was to like maybe set up a maybe he shouldn't even have set up a family, but like he already done it and he already like, the house that I'm currently living in now it's the best thing that he is evident lah but that also he cannot pay because he work and on and off right jadi my step mum yang yang he was refusing to give


put her name inside the house you know because he doesn't want her to get the ownership, like you punya life tak better lah blah blah blah blah


then he was damn lucky that my step mum will stay with him lah even though because at one time lah they wanted to divorce then we we advise them lah like as the older children we advise them to stay together lah if they if they can


ya like you know this kind of thing like you count people's money you tak nak you nak duit delivered to you it just doesn't resonate with him so like and my younger brother pun macam I rasa macam dia ikut-ikut macam my bapa tau like dia selalu dia cakap


why are we born in a poor family


ya because he he's he said like I triggered I triggered I triggered why are we so poor blah blah blah, then you triggered you fucking everyday you have food but you choose to eat mcdonald's, you triggered everyday have food but you waste it you triggered but now you have a fucking laptop you know what I mean it's like you are privilege you are just like it feels just like those err chinese people in society where they say oh I am disadvantage blah blah blah all that shit


but you have all these privileges if you are truly poor you don't have much food on the table you will eat rice and egg maybe everyday if you are truly poor you you wouldn't be able to, on the fan all night long all day long everyday sleep in


and like err play computer those kind of shit you know you are privileged eh and he doesn't realize that or acknowledge that jadi I feel like !wah! kenapa eh like is it because they never live through the life that the four of us live through


, ya so ya I mean I'm


and I just like like what the fuck man, like you feel like they they would be better lah or you can benefit, ya I mean, I want to be productive as well that's why I'm like working but then at the same time I'm not earning much from this like SDA job you know and my freelance doesn't come all the time


so macam I don't know man it's like, I tak boleh I teach drama and english before


and the education system for me is too rigid it's like bloody like you're not teaching kids to think you're teaching kids to be book smart which is wrong because at the end of the day right, I already go through university I even finished university


what the hell ever I learned in school right most of it I don't use, correct so


which one the the guy ah, ya that bastard


that is true


ya I've met a few people in my life were like those like oh I'm just contend with sederhana which I cannot relate to , ya but like so like you were schooled in singapore and then you school malaysia now so like err what do you feel like what's the difference in the school curriculum the total atmosphere


then you can talk to about it lah until the time is up ah


book smart lah


, , correct


poyo [siol] ,


(mmhmm), that's great


ya you can tell from, correct malaysian and singaporean you can tell how they talk and the way they dress our fashion style and our the way we articulate things is very different


, it is, but I would say it's because of err bumiputera but you are a singaporean malay you are not a malaysian malay there's a difference


, (mmhmm)


ya it's so fast right your time like oh my god,


, correct because the thing is at in JB in


in KL all these places are where a lot of tourists come so the rates down there are definitely higher things are definitely more expensive because they want to rake in all the foreigners' money because foreigners will be like oh I convert


I keluarkan lima puluh ringgit I bayar dua puluh empat ringgit untuk shampoo is tak memadai it doesn't make sense I'd rather choose a cheaper alternative or like whatever you know


of course, , ya because you you typically like you like other people also go to malaysia thinking about the exchange rate but you should never think about the exchange rate because you are spending in that currency per se


oh, lol, and then you can can with friends to baby gear dealership


, I would think that you will like that kind of girl,


kau hitam ,


eh tu tak fair because like how can he choose it's supposed to be the choice of the people, ah of course knowing you you would have dressed up


, ya is your acts right


correct, , ah tiga minute lah


that's great internship in singapore


that sounds nice


, I'm really glad for you eh you are working towards your dreams and all that for me like I fulfilled my mother's dream now I'm going to embark on my dream but you're already on the way and I'm so like proud


, hello , no lah why dia tak marah lah tak tak lama pun kita tunggu like just maybe I think kita sampai about


I think two fifteen then we also understand that it was raining then I also tak kasi you the address right I forgot I didn't give you the address


no I'm sorry I tak kasi you the address, it's okay


I know I'll miss you man, eh you ada assignment is it


so you not meeting Aqil at all today, oh


, why he cannot accompany you, oh oh my god what what


, then suruh [jer] lah dia teman you lunch ah


then jumpa lah dia accompany you belajar like go to err Starbucks or something, ya I like to go Starbucks dekat #buona vista# you know that Starbucks


ya ya ya, ya ya ya the individual Starbucks that one is nice I like to go there, to study when I studying in poly lah , today we after this we don't have plans to


he doesn't want to do anything , cause tadi tadi we went BBDC to do the simulator, ya ya ya around mine started at eleven fifty five then his was the session after


ya then, ya we didn't do it together his was the session after


ya it's it's damn stupid the simulator is damn bodoh like you (ugh) you should go for the simulator it's so it's such a waste of time they just wanna take your money that's all


ya but I think this sekarang two B nak kena ambil simulator [kan], I think so, ya


this one is second one, then oh then the apaah time simulator tu they there was one part uh we were riding kononnya under the influence of alcohol


ya like fuzzy but still tiba-tiba the car on the right swerve into our lane then become our fault they say oh this is what happens when you driving under err influence of alcohol you cannot predict err accident


damn stupid, ya ya that's why suddenly you know the car swerve into our into our lane then I got I got a macam flashback of my accident that time yang time chinese new year


ya, so, [orh] the parents asyik suruh kita balik like oh ah kita masakkan ni kita masakkan tu then kau balik lah makan kalau kau tak nak balik then kita tak buat [kan] you know that kind of thing


then you will rasa like feel bad what, ya, ya, ah , I macam tak nak go home for dinner


you got out, oh my god hari-hari I makan benda sama babe kat rumah like it's always ah ada telur ada ikan ada prawn and it's like that every single


ya he prefers home-cooked food, and then I can't cook


like balik Bishan then I tak makan then macam I feel bad lah cause, they sometimes they cook for me already then after that I go back then I don't eat you know, ya then simon also kadang don't eat at my parent's but most of the time he will come home and eat at my place then he will balik and then he will eat again so that's why he become fat already


ya he become fat already right, ada exam soon is it, is it like CA


uh, ,


, four modules ya four modules is quite heavy though considering you ada full time job and


, he he tak he's not studying right he's just working [kan]


oh he's studying also, [orh] okay okay,


oh so he expects macam the same the same thing lah, oh gitu but lain what


is baru tujuh minit [seh], ya I think dalam tujuh tujuh minit gitu


I mean I'll okay [jer] kalau nak berbual pasal you know


, how's work, , no I don't think I am, because I planning to have baby already next year


then sekolah is like two point five years, ya and then err, ya especially if it's my first like you know I can't I don't know what to do and stuff then what if


anything happens and then I ada sekolah or then I also nak cari kerja what, ya I already like send out resumes and stuff tapi most tak get back, I apply for macam dental assistant like reception slash dental assistant and then there's also uh patient service associate


admin ah mostly is like office office hours lah, because I tak nak clashed dengan simon punya if I wanted like a shift job I dah police lah like what I wanted to do right


ya no he's is err office hour paling lambat pun maybe around seven or kadang-kadang he on course night training then he will come home late lah but it's never


but, uh most of the time no


like shift job tak kesah apa like PH ke tak PH ke like you still need to go and work what, then for him it's like if it's on PH then he doesn't go to work ah


ya, I think on the low key ah , ya exactly do you have Lobang though


, the DSA, oh DAS


, was like, oh yes yes yes yes dia ada it's like morning but it's split into two right I remember you


is it, oh, I very macam quite err, pressured lah cause like kadang-kadang the kakak will ask me


ah kau tak nak cari kerja ke as in not not directly macam kau tak nak cari kerja but more like kau nak buat apa sekarang like oh uh kau kau sekarang nak masuk sekolah like you know this kind of thing then I I've I rasa macam a bit pressured lah it's not macam I'm not looking for a job all like I enjoy being at home and not doing anything


I am also like trying lah to look for a job but right now in this situation like the economy and like with the pandemic it's not it's not easy lah to get a job I like considering to go back Coffee Bean also you know but


ya I know I know right, ya it's very taxing sia that job, I kalau I pergi balik pun I tak nak jadi manager anymore lah it's very it was very shitty


ya, and then sekarang pun they already increase part-time punya pay to I think eight, last time my


ya I, ya I know right then dorang increase I lupa lah I punya pay berapa but I think I was paid nine for a manager role, like I don't know how I stayed there for five years being paid like nine dollars


what, ya ya ya ya ya, !aiya! so wasted


ya ya ya, ya so I I only applied


dental assistant ya like I'm looking for around like Bishan or around #choa chu kang#, and then I boleh pergi kerja dari sana because he cannot ride to work mah


ya then only during this course yang they kasi him ride his bike tapi he's he's gonna end his course soon on twenty, eight july I think


err tak tahu eh he cakap nak naik bus tapi naik bus is very very far for him, ya then cakap nak boleh tak kalau kita tinggal dekat rumah your


mum then, ya and then, you wanna do that I don't wanna


like kita ada our own macam room at Bishan and then macam I I don't feel comfortable lah kalau macam everytime I'll have to like sleep in in the hall, with him then macam no privacy you know


, ya then I say don't want lah like I don't mind to macam pagi-pagi you ambil I punya bike you pergi #sungei gedong# then after that I from there I go back my mum's place is okay lah for me I mean at least he doesn't have to like wake up so early to take the bus cause he he punya reporting time is pukul like tujuh sometime enam setengah then pukul berapa nak keluar rumah you know


plus the


#choa chu kang# is very what, ah my house is very near to his workplace tapi takkan I nak duduk sana lima hari [kan], which one my sister, oh my god no dia takkan kasi punya girl


she won't lah dia tak kasi punya lah dia tak kasi lah my sister is damn difficult to talk to she won't even have a conversation with me about her school


anything you want a new house , , ,


ya Mandai but it's lagi lama lah lagi maybe around one year one point five years, ya it's just the workplace lah very very Mafan


uh what do they call name battalion I guess err tak boleh naik motor you can only naik public transport atau you take your own car


ya and that's why it pressures me so much like you keep talking about having a car having a car then I belum kerja [seh] kita belum apply rumah belum kerja then you nak talk about having a car


!aiya!, , ,


ya that's why dia punya season parking dia punya ah apa what's that called ah road tax then your monthly instalment for your insurance it's just like ah


ya, right, I don't know I tak tahu apa is going on in his head that he thinks


makes sense lah if you nak if you nak apa ni ah restrict NSF from uh riding bikes it's fine but he works there for five days abeh lepas tu kau tak kasi orang tu naik motor abeh lepas tu kau suruh orang tu naik bus


then


ya it's damn kesian ah I see


ya, foreign workers cause their dormitory is also inside


ya and bus kat that that bus nine seven five tu oh my god, they dah lah tak cater the bendy bus or the double decker bus and then it's always full you have to like miss two or three buses to to like ya


like send right,


err simon, err with army is it, his contract is like err you have to I think five years and then after that it's up until fifty five


ya so it's like for for lifetime kind of thing lah, yes, ya you're not really affected by macam


like the economy but I mean affected a bit lah it's not like you retrenched lah macam bonus dia tak dapat for mid-year bonus


so but it's not so bad lah at least you know he still has a job, rather than, err dia kena retrenched, it's so worrying now


it's okay the actually we are


yes we we are still saving for the chinese wedding


so our money is already like thrown into the wedding and everything right, then we ya lah err that's why it feels like we're living from paycheck to paycheck because err he has to set aside money for the wedding still cause it's still going on so up until then we will be living like this ah


soon, what's that, for, oh


oh ya ya then can get the AWS right, !hais! just I I I macam nak cancel the malay wedding honestly ah tak kesah also to like ah don't have the malay wedding


but I already nikah macam tak tak perlu sia


, , , just tak perlu lah babe serious I dah nikah abeh lepas tu


[kan] then, I pergi Sengkang punya MP, #jamus lim# Raeesah


oh my god I punya I punya catering did I tell you about it


I punya catering oh my god was so freaking difficult they were so difficult with me, so at that point in time boleh ada uh majlis [kan], so I punya invitation is two three hundred, three hundred uh pax


so uh that time government kasi sampai two hundred and fifty so you can still have a wedding and everything, ah so I cakap dengan dorang lah ah err okay I still nak go on with the wedding ah tapi invitation two hundred fifty and I tak minta balik I punya duit cause I paid for three hundred pax right so I tak minta balik the fifty that I paid for tapi I nak you


err, err so I I just say that lah then dorang cakap uh they almost made me sign the contract and then say that okay boleh kita boleh err have the wedding tapi all the social distancing shit ah you settle


ya so ambil temperature semua you settle, ya is the is the catering what supposed to do is, ya, ya and then apa ni I paying you extra tau then after that dia cakap ah


ya dia punya contract basically saying kalau betul you punya wedding ada COVID case ah you kena handle everything by yourself so I don't want to take liability for this at all ya and then dia cakap


ya so basically saying I'm going to ah I'm still gonna give you what uh you paid for tapi everything else kau settle like if there's anything that happens during your wedding you are liable for it the bride and groom liable for it and they made me sign the


they they wanted me to sign a a black and white stating this, then dorang tak boleh beli their barang from there what so they have to buy it from singapore what


and then after that I cakap dengan dorang lah I give like kata putus like that I say


, ya you didn't buy anything


ya ya, but I paid, enough for me to suffer losses lah


, no, ya


they say , we will have the open date for you until two zero two one, ya, I'm not sure eh I don't know if I can sell my


I don't know sebab I dah bayar up until the last payment so that one is the after after wedding


ya I bayar I think err, I forgot already sia, cause three payments only I make three payments then the last payment is like after the majlis itself lah


for, how much eh I think I paid them about four point


seven, ya, ya and that's only for like event organiser and catering and everything and I still have


for malay wedding ya that's all kompang I dah bayar as in like I already deposit lah, so I think maybe if if I tak pergi MP and tulis I punya deposit maybe almost eight K


, ya that's why


ya ya ya, ya ya exactly like no service is delivered how can you say macam they suffered losses like what losses there was nothing delivered


ya exactly


ya so because of the wedding lah like our financial a bit affected, and it's


!hais!, what about you so what's your plans for the future babe, now that you have a partner


, , but I mean you don't go into relationship not expecting to settle to settle down what, yes yes yes understand


!huh!,


what lama sia babe sekarang is july [jer]


[orh] okay okay okay


ah , you cakap lah like cakap that these things you know tak not not not something I'm used to or or it's not a norm to me like you you have to give me some time


that's that's a good sign what, right,


ah [orh] okay ya I understand, cause it wasn't like that in the last relationship


him or yourself, why though


ah okay okay ya I told you to go settle things with your parents what


babe you don't have to care anymore it's not your responsibility anymore


you macam masih ada like attachment to him, right,


that ya ya, like it will lead you to him


you dah ni delete your stuff with Hassan


err, I Deletekan ah I delete your whole laptop


I factory restore your laptop [jer] lah, okay there's a itu lagi senang you just go to settings then you cari you delete all storage


ya I know it was just a joke


, ya I guess I didn't I didn't get to like


know Hassan though, like the first time you were with him he was like very quiet then after that we never meet anymore, the one where we fell out was it after or before


ya ya ya the netball one, so we fell out after


, ya, (mmhmm), the partner wants


, , ya, is this the case with Hassan


what was he like post breakup


oh, ah okay understand,


ya Mira talk some malay


(ugh), look forward to right ya I was also looking forward to the honeymoon I nak pergi thailand so bad babe I nak pergi thailand makan thai pancake (ugh)


eh it's nice I nak pergi ya I nak pergi Krabi then kita boleh buat water activities


best it was so fun the last time I went, ya then uh simon pun suka buat uh water activities, so I think Krabi will be a nice place


!huh!


then apa maksudnya


then might as well kita pergi sama-sama [kan]


ya tapi kat sana nak buat apa [seh] I think orang pergi sana semua is buat water activities


err, eh ah okay lah , if the place cold okay lah


I tak suka pergi for the sake of shopping, boring sia like pergi mana eh orang selalu pergi Phuket eh


I don't know boring [jer] pergi sana setakat nak pergi shopping


Genting, Genting, Bali nak buat apa [seh] I a lot of people pergi Bali


Bali I I tak pernah like research much into Bali


!huh! kita empat pergi Bali, [orh] ah ah ah ah


, , can you imagine it been typed get high on mushroom


, Miza dot colon get high on mushrooms , you all pergi lah like simon and I tak kesah tak semestinya tiga hari tiga hari kena pergi together like maybe on like the half another half of the second day kita pergi buat our own stuff you know


wind down window [jer] lah, wind down window


[orh], !hais!


even simon like I say lah simon yang tak pernah ada opinion on someone pun he cakap to me lah, well I think err Aqil is a good guy eh


then dia just cakap oh err entah just from the way he berbual and like, err interact with people he was very nice lah he was very open he say then he feels macam Aqil boleh take care of you


ya I agree lah he from like the few times that kita keluar dua kali dua kali right, ya he's, he was very nice dia like I didn't get any bad vibes from him


!huh!, oh right


, babe come on I cakap the same thing to Firdaus last time and she turned out bad


, , ya ya ya like the platonic ones


[orh] okay, five three three three ah okay, ya so, you ada nak crave


are you serious babe


, , what


, ya ya ya , yes


, ah


ya ya ya


I mean if Aqil is uh willing to work towards that I don't think it'll be much of an issue ah like he yang willingly nak try for try to do it you know instead of err dia buat macam gini sebab your parents macam suruh or dia buat macam gini just to impress your parents I think macam this kind of thing at the end of the day I guess it will affect you


ya ya


ya I think, parents semua gitu what even my mum pun macam gitu what, like even until now I dah kahwin pun dia cakap macam ah ni ni lah like the partner that you chose you know


siapa my mum


but, ya she's fine


ah okay, uh okay I understand okay so let's say everything go as planned and your parents are okay with him and you guys okay bila you plan to nak get married


, that's nice,


(um), (um) <malay>bersefahaman</malay> (ppl)


hi eh is simon angry at me for making you guys wait, is she okay


ya it was supposed to be a fifteen minutes ride after that become like fucking forty minutes I'm so sorry it


it became forty minutes what the hell and then I like sesat sia I was like so I was so stressed I scared simon angry cause I make I always make him wait, like what if he marah at me and he doesn't want to hang out with us anymore


err I found my school stuff so I can like hang out with you guys first before I go and, study, ya got some quizzes to do !aiya! the quiz to do


, like cause during the weekends err weekdays tak dapat jumpa then weekend also like I also busy, he say he understands but he say he cannot help feeling like sad lah


cause like yesterday we went home at five AM sia babe, like we were we were hanging out at marina barrage Rabak sia like there were so many people there then


we were hang up till five AM and then uh I went home and then I woke up at like twelve then I called him and ask him if he wanted to come along and he say ya he wants to come along but he says but he's like half-awake so I was like never mind lah you just sleep I'll go with Sharinah and simon and then after that I tell him lah then after that I want to do my school stuff abeh he macam like upset


then I also macam like annoyed lah pasal he yesterday he cakap he nak hantar you know like he want to fetch me and send me here like and then last minute he say like last minute he like still sleeping then I like ah fuck it lah I'm just going go myself then I don't know so that was a bad start to the day


no lah I tell him already I I sampai then he never reply , right boys are weird


oh oh there's one the nice one the one the dua tingkat right ,


so what are you and simon doing, really


oh in the morning, oh okay so you guys did it together


then you kena tunggu ah how long was the simulation, ah that's not bad tak tunggu lama ah,


waste of time waste of money I swear I mean you already got class two B what why why TP still want to like you know , are you serious, the hell, so funny because they already got road what only got general traffic


, is this your second one or your first one, right, ya


!huh!, it's like fuzzy, ,


oh , I mean even when you're not influenced even if you're not drunk tak mabuk you still cannot predict what that's so funny,


oh right , but are you guys gonna have dinner at home


oh, cause they already like nak masakkan you then is that it, oh so later you guys going home for dinner lah


you makan apa [seh] kat situ Azizi still got, ,


simon likes to eat at home right dinner, simon likes to eat at home right for dinner, why don't you guys have dinner at your mum's house, ya


oh


oh right, , , he buncit already meh, so cute


, no it's not exam it's just that err because, ah pasal dia punya percentage for exams is the they turunkan for exams so they put it at every other uh like assignments quizzes so they increase the percentage there so it's heavier for the assignment than quizzes it used to be like five percent now the quizzes are like ten percent that's whole grade leh babe


so like I have to do properly lah then I taking I taking four modules sia babe like fucking busy I'm so sorry for saying that word but but I'll be so busy tak ada time (ppc)


, ya so I'm telling Aqil like I'm gonna be busy I tak ada time for him sometimes like for during the weekdays, he gets it tapi dia pun sedih ah sometimes,


he's studying as well like he's studying err part-time also he's taking like err engineering, like PSB academy so he gets it but at the same times because during his exam like he would like every single day come meet me so I think it's like he got it like


ah dia macam kalau I boleh buat you pun boleh buat gitu ah, ya I think gitu ah , lain ah lain I cannot sia like he that time he also he only one module lah then I got four modules


so I just wanna, I just needed him to understand, are you serious, girl how did we hang out for like so long okay wait time to take a smoke break


oh right , oh, !oops!


work's okay eh I want to ask you like have you enroll for poly have you enroll for school, why, right


like cannot like have baby during school right that will like disrupt the whole like curriculum


ya, so are you finding for work now, nice, oh what what are you applying for is it that


, oh nice


ya, , ya, but simon's on office hours right now until like ever he's never gonna be on shift right


overnight


right, but duty they will compensate with another day off right, oh okay


, ya, ya so it's best office hours ah babe, is simon like is simon like rushing you to get a job


cause the other day he was asking me eh err do you have Lobang for like then it's like !aiya! Syrinah boleh cari sendiri ah but like you know the previous place I worked at the dyslexia association of singapore they they paying quite high oh now lah


DAS ya they have a learning centre in #choa chu kang# maybe you can just check out though err the company the organisation the website has a career section and then it's not really like office hours tau babe it's like ten to seven ya


ya it's macam learning centre punya timing ah but it's Lepak ah the job is it's damn Lepak, so chill


!wah! annoying sia you trying sia,


ya, no babe it will like strain your body sia then you want to have baby camne nak have a baby if you're gonna be tired all the time


not worth the pay to be honest, because of the job the job role


part-time, last time was six point five sia babe during my time, sikit nak mampus


, oh, , but it's part-time what like it's just like to extra cash extra money kind of thing


, but not easy ah finding a job I really it will take some time so you just like don't stress over it too much cause you are trying what babe as long as you're trying I think it's like just to to leave it up to like time lor, and whether like the place is a good fit


clinic assistant also not bad sia babe, like clinic reception the pay is not bad,


alright, ya


then you can just hantar him lah


from Bishan ah unless #choa chu kang# is nearer right,


ya, ya, also be weird for your family


is it Tengah there oh where, oh ah, #lim chu kang# there is it, right right, #choa chu kang# is really actually very near to his place then right


very near to his workplace, unless unless you can psycho your sister, to let you guys, the younger sister to let you guys have the room then she sleep in the hall


like you beg her that's what I would do I would pujuk her I'll cium her kaki sia to kasi the bilik


it's like girl I'll get you an iphone and ipad anything you want just let me have the room five days a week you just live in the hall for five days a week a few nights a week and then on the weekends you can have it !wah! susah sia tak ada rumah sendiri I swear it's damn hard


especially since like simon stays in Bishan and he works in the west ,


ya, #nee soon# is just one road Mandai is it


eh but I thought he regular already and he's married and that's like


no wonder simon kata want to get his own car the other day


it's not cheap sia babe tu hari I tolong top up [kan] Aqil punya minyak cause he was driving me around so I offered to bayar for the minyak ah I only kasi fifty dollars and it's like, four bars


what the hell it's so mahal sia their minyak the fuel consumptions is like shit, oh my god the parking the parking can pay off my bike instalment babe I swear


it's mahal as shit man I swear it's like honestly bike, is still the best option if you're still just a couple


, like I I tengok also if like, I don't think I can sustain a fucking car, it's crazy, but I think it's just cause of the transport lah like the ease of transport he was thinking since you are only allowed to drive cars


, regulars eh


is there like no place that he can appeal to or write to


that's bullshit eh babe , oh my god


oh right oh no, full


to get on, but I mean of course ah simon I'm sure simon feels bad about it like he wants you to


sleep in or you know not the one to trouble you but kesian sia he he like I also will think like, if I were you also I would want to offer to send ya


how how many years more to his err he just renewed his contract right the other day, ya, like last year, ya


oh nice, so he's like pretty set on this ah, like there's, okay I mean at least that's stable like that, that's a stable plan


ya ya ya it's safe, , oh all civil servants ah babe like that, ya


ya, but in terms of financing like is he like since he's supporting you now is it is it is everything okay


right so you have to save money right


ya, , , ya


but it's only like august september october november lima lima bulan [jer] tinggal then after that you guys can like like breathe a little right, , oh right


eh that soon ah also at the end of the year will have AWS what, right AWS, annual wage supplement thirteen month


for salary like thirteen month bonus, I cannot ah ah sorry I feel like right now is the best time for you to get a job sia so you can get confirmed within three months and then by then december you get the thirteen month ya


are you serious cannot lah babe, but like the celebration the


the doa the berkat the berkat from the family like you know like another I don't know lah to me doesn't matter as long as got I don't need my makciknya berkat it's okay god sees me and god loves me so that's fine


right right


uh uh ya


I feel like as long as ya I feel like if you're pregnant tak yah sudah it's like forgo the whole idea but since you're not pregnant you know planning planning


oh you should ask them to ya


ya, no you didn't


(uh huh), ya


right, , ya


, as the caterer you are supposed to do supposed to be the one sia, the event organiser like which is them lah since they're catering for the food


ya for fifty pax eh, positive ya, like you will be held responsible ya


!huh!


ya, but you didn't sign right babe


ya, ya


is a deposit lah it's not, it's not like one week before the wedding that this happen they did not buy any like


like utensils their like equipment is all their stuff , ya


right so are they agreeable to return you the duit after kalau in december tak boleh hold a wedding are they going to return the money, oh are you serious, but that like dengki sia


are you serious, can transfer to other people or not


like ya sell your package to someone else, oh, why you still continue to pay sia babe


oh masih tu ah


right


oh my god babe that's a lot of money sia


I think you should like list down all the deposits as you meet them macam everything tau you list down from A to Z how much exactly you have spent and you have paid for and then you include like what their what's the stand of the vendors like are they willing to uh and then you also include like you you macam if you get pregnant then how you gonna get married you can get married like can have a wedding and then but then they will open it till twenty twenty one then like how sia you nak macam it's a lose-lose situation for you in all in all aspects lah like you still going to lose money sia