, , , ah Kees <tamil>முனை எல்லா முடியாது அவன் கத்துக்க கூடாது:munai ellaa mudiyathu avan kathukka koodathu</tamil> , (hmm)


yes first to go


, let's talk about, what shall we talk about


, so ah what does sun like about moon


, sun also moon also likes everything about sun


because sun is very cute,


ah what else, err so next is (hmm) , so uh sun does sun like gold or silver


does sun like gold or silver, why, oh


, sun see, (hmm) (hmm)


(hmm), err I am waiting I got house and I got a bed


ya, err sun wants to be in the bed with the moon, ah everyday


yes sun and moon have to work very very very very hard and earn money then can buy a house


(hmm)


and moon will also help and the moon will also work and also save money and try to invest, and, ya


and support sun ya, and


moon is okay with that, so err


, so you want to know what sun looks like, sun is very very very very handsome sun has a beard he has really hair and then


you got earrings which look so nice on you and the gold necklace which make you look so manly and then, you got nice hair got the tail behind


which looks so good on you, , err this was sun


my school


so uh school is, ya so moon studies how to teach children in the school


so moon studies things like, how to teach children, how to plan lessons for children like sun, like a baby, and then


how to teach uh children how to teach them make <tamil>ஓட:oda</tamil> mill and then, full lens many parents


what does sun sun learn in school


ya I can see that sun is super street smart, that's why I love sun so much


sun is going to become a future boss, and manage all the business


sun got very nice eyebrows, moon likes that, I don't know I only know double eyelid


like here got another on top got another line, oh ya you are right, I got double eyelid, like here got lashes then on top the lashes also got another lash


it's called double eyelid, I don't know I think it's part of the genes, because your genes don't have double eyelids,


okay I give you, ya, two also can, three also can, four also, ten also can


ah sun, we should eat Mala tomorrow sun, Mala is so yummy, the best Mala is at newton plaza please if you want to eat Mala please come to newton plaza


but I think without the delivery fees okay right, !huh!


we should buy lesser sides, your place got sell


your school Mala, how much is it


not bad,


okay we should have one Mala at ITE east ah I mean central, okay on


I need to find a good high pay job, good high pay job


let's go light the


!wah!, was that late


ya I think you should


no right I don't think she will ask you so many questions, I don't think so


you just stand here at the white background you just stand there, oh you just sit there in the white background, just say you're at home, ya can


, (hmm), (hmm)


can, that was loud


want to sleep


and you, actually I don't know I want to become a pharmacist but


either I can be an early childhood teacher or a primary school teacher, ya err


I heard it's quite difficult but primary school teacher is not that bad because, they also get holidays, ya and maybe in the future I want to do home tuition because nowadays home tuition earn a lot of money


they earn like crazy now, ya, they earn a lot I forgot my friend is a home tuition a home tutor, he earn like so much, he's nineteen


ya home tutor, it's like he go some people's home and teach but he earns a lot, like one hour like twenty dollars, ya because now primary school all very hard right then confirm they want a MOE teacher so I study for MOE


then after I study I'll become a home tutor or a primary school teacher, can earn a lot of money, confirm can, with more children with more students confirm


ya they must they must feel that you will make a difference to their lives make their lives better can already, then they will recommend all their friends all of them at home also come and learn from you


science math, science is my favourite subject so I would love to take science, actually I wanted to take a tuition job like now, but uh I ask my mum first


I can also teach kindergarten like as a tuition teacher I can teach kindergarten like because some some parents parents right like want their child to learn like a very young age, then they will be very smart all my childcare the students super smart speak english like one pro like that


ya they so pro that's so pro and I'm so proud, no it's not


!wah! err


ya here it's like super comfortable right feels like, you come here I don't know how many times you are so used to this place, even there's no bed


I thought something will happen to me [eh]


my name is sun


we may


yes, ya, okay come we say a story


yes, moon and sun first met, ah four years ago


yes they study everyday yes, yes


very very very pretty, ah was like one of the kind in school like that, part of, moon


moon's full time job is to be very cute, really


, then sun had an eye on moon, I don't know


but sun sees moon as a beautiful woman, but sun didn't try because sun was less confident, ya


sun very confident now,


!huh! you remember the name


!wah! seven to nine, was I came every wednesday and monday right, mondays and wednesdays,


what's max in tamil, ya


I can't be what I remember, , , bye


bar ah, ah


ah, , fun fact <tamil>பாறா:paaraa</tamil> and I on sun, ya


ya <tamil>பாறா:paaraa</tamil> has eye on the sun, yes, yes


uh <tamil>அவன் பேர்:avan paer</tamil> Giraff, ya, !huh!


!alamak!,


, yes


ah, ah I call Farah she's a Minah,


, I didn't turn up, , boy, ah


yes, ya


yes, we are


stairs, ya


ya, she's cocky Farah is cocky, ya then San and Bai got so shocked, because Farah knows our Farah knows indian


ya but if only she's still a Minah, , Farah is Farah, Farah we should create a dish you know


ya we should we should we should create a restaurant then name all the dish our friends' name Farah Jirav Bai Vinesh no no must put the three Thambis then after that must put the triple dish hey work out eh can I get the three Thambis I'll be like ya my Thambis are coming for you wait it'll be nice uh ya


(hmm), , ya


, aunt, I


ya, ya past many month, then cause sun see moon so pretty so nice some more sun doesn't go for any other girls


ya, really, ah ya ya ya ya ya, after that


Ratha Biprathra sun was like confirm we cannot get so sun never try, then we sun just hang out with moon secretly, secretly have eye on moon ah


ya, ya even Bai didn't know that, ya


what would sun will say, ah ah [siol] ah ah sia, I won't get annoyed


, ya left uh, and you didn't do it


and you did it ,


small little boy oh ya you were in another class then after that I was like okay go say I love you and you go say, then after that you never say then after I go tell him eh Bai eh boy she likes you she loves you, you said, then what did he say


!walao!, ya very happy


and then what happen,


ya, ya, yes with, ya Bai and Farah


you, ah !huh! uh, but my friend say means you really looked like a teacher, ya if I say means you looked older,


, ya e-scooter Vroom Vroom Vroom


, ya,


one year, the next year, okay by year


Pullingos Pullingos


ya, ya then after that


ya, ya, ya, next year, (hmm)


ya, sun and moon ya, cause no one wants to answer us


, ya, moon and sun,


then, ya we met again


ya we four, eh you know fun fact actually I never even tell him about the job


ya fun fact cause actually lah I want I want to spend time with you only so fun fact I never tell him about the job, actually the first time I did then after I was like no ah I want to have like my own sweet time right I want to have my own time with you right so I purposely never tell him so I'll I'll just say oh he's not free then after that he would never even look at the group chat what so I'm confident that he won't message back


so <tamil>நா வந்து:naa vanthu</tamil> I was super confident he's not going to message back he didn't find out so ya so I cause I just wanted my alone time with Mumin lah that's why, I with moon


!huh! so basically ah then I want to meet you right then after that I cannot meet you alone right cause it's going to be awkward right later so after that I go and help Farah first faster faster so Farah can see you also


was all for you for moon, ,


, sun


, sun never even think twice also , cause sun's going to Siv and Nuis, so sun and Thintas okay <tamil>நா சொன்ன:naa sonna</tamil> confident ah


, , (hmm)


, ya, yes september sixteen


five fifty five, ,


, ya, ya, ya


, must of that money can't buy so example right money can't buy okay money can buy err house but money can't buy a home you know why


you know what's home, home is some home is something that, that you are comfortable when like imagine you coming back from, okay never mind okay okay okay you see ah you see ah you see ah money can buy clock but can money can buy time


ah money can buy for your bed but can money buy for your sleep, ah there are stuff in this world that money cannot buy, ah the guy saying way more nicer was nicer to hear


, same thing money can buy house buy cannot buy a home cause home is a family where you come home after work, to see your wife so pretty there standing there


, ya, soon, we talk talk talk until nine o'clock eh I didn't know you go ah


really what the heck, we talked all the way !huh!


actually I think we sit down there talk actually we got up cause it was going to rain right it was raining right if I'm not wrong, then, ah was drizzling ya, that was nice


ya, ya sun and moon separated, Cheem


, , cause of moon


cause I love moon, ya, at september sixteen, everyday


ya, , , one fine day


ya moon sun and Farah, ya that one I also never tell Ratchasam, I never told him anything, I was just super confident that he's not gonna manage it I swear cause he don't message I know him for how many years


ya probably, <tamil>ராத்திரிக்கு:raathirikku</tamil> I never typed anything, I was just hoping for Farah not to come only then I was thinking so actually right ya actually that time also I was thinking eh should I tell Farah and ask her for help


so I never informed Raj also then on that day you say Farah not coming right I was like yes lah but when I come already I was like never mind lah I was so happy, because I came to spend time with you only ya so it was so nice


, ya


ya, sun was always in our, ,


, , sun didn't know that I was going out of singapore


ya cause I saw the stupid bottle


, , the ferry ride was so windy, ya,


, , ya, then moon come sit beside me


ah


I want to zoom looks nice, , then, ,


, , ya, then after sun turned to her right side then she leaned back


, cause we ah us are still fighting for the phone, then after sun talked to himself he does the much chance then sun hugged moon, and kissed moon


, , then sun confessed to moon


ya, loose uh, then after that sun got so not so high but sun did get high then sun sun tried to control but sun walked left right left right


, ya, then after that going back home time sun hugged moon all the way


with the Bangas because we missed the bus missed our ferry, , I told moon what let's go let's go moon said it's okay it's okay ,


lucky lucky sun was able to talk to the guy and get us a spot if not we are dead uh, , what what would you have done if we cannot go back


, we cannot call back you remember right, okay okay we won't come here, I will just oh ya okay but I call then okay what would you have done if we were stuck in that island


!huh! really ah, !huh! your mother will kill you, , how is your mum going to help you


you tell me , ,


!huh! <tamil>ஒரு ஆச:oru aasa</tamil> lah, , , did want go I line the first night


know I, why, , (hmm),


ya for a month, then for that month they were dating, ya, when moon does the meaning of dating


ya, then after that the next day every day sun go meet moon cause sun wants to see moon


cause sun loved moon so much ever since that day, until now sun loves moon every a lot a lot a lot, (hmm), then


ya super scared


cause she also scared, many many many many many, ya


ya, cause sun's very good talker, yes, yes


then moon, and sun got together, !yay! hooray


(hmm), , yes cause I want to be with moon in the future


, then, then, son convinced the parents


and, ya, ya, ya


that's okay <tamil>என்ன பண்ண இல்ல அதில்ல எப்பிடி:enna panna illa athilla eppidi</tamil> eh


, , like literally and there's and I just cannot just have to be have they can even call me in a month you know they even call me in a week Cay say Canex Cay the Coinex so how


for two years, two whole years, ya, okay


, the by the time I will be, I don't know cause I've to see my results right so if my results is three point zero GPA and above I can go one year of school


after that one year, I'm already nineteen mah, I'll be twenty after next year next year nineteen, so that is already about twenty


no ah twenty one legally to get married in singapore, I'm still young


I'm only twenty, ah it's okay with me


, Kalyo faster gonna be freed first gonna I gonna do now,


I'm still <tamil>கால் ஆட்டுறான்:kaal aatturaan</tamil> I'm still going to put leg on top of my sofa irritate my mum <tamil>அது:athu</tamil> mah


cause <tamil>நா முட்டாளா:naa muttaalaa</tamil> lah, must smart, play hard to get


not for studies


you know


very happy, , I love moon to the max, , then


ah, then sun is waiting to marry moon, and sun


and only sun , then, ah then where's the


forever and ever, then what happened,


and do slow nights every single day, accept ah, you say okay what


every hour, every second


ya, ya


(hmm) and we got another nineteen minutes more to go, (hmm), left nineteen minutes what are we gonna talk


anything, sun like about moon eyes lips heart hair ears nose eyebrows feet arms stomach legs toes nails


everything about moon (hmm), because, (hmm)


okay, better, what else


what else, !huh!


sun likes gold but sun going to like silver in the future, cause I convert <tamil>பின்ன பிரிச்சா:pinna pirichaa</tamil> I cannot wear gold, but sun don't know wear a lot of silver


, so what does moon like, really, okay


then what else, what else, what else


have a house and a bed only, okay, everyday, okay [orh]


but for that to happen sun have to be very rich, ya, then only can buy a house


so sun is going to invest, sun going to invest a lot earn a lot, so sun can keep moon like one queen, !huh!


what else, uh, uh


ya, and, what else, and what else err and sun wants to


go out with moon every single day, , so uh, so err


ya, now sun is just waiting for the one hour and three minutes mark around there so ah we can finish this, ya then after that


, so what else what else you want to tell,


, , what else


, , what else, what else, what else


and uh, come we say another story moon will say story about her school


, about your school, higher school moon's school is higher school


higher school means high, high studies


, , , and then


then, no, sun learnt how to sleep how to run away


how to disturb my friends how to not get, caught by the school teachers when smoking inside toilet, ah how to reach home faster ah how to not study and go to next year


uh, sun is very good at that, , sun is uh street smart, uh


, sun challenges his dad, that he would earn money without study, uh without school's help


so sun must achieve, sun wants to start his own business, sun wants to start his own bar business, alcohol business ah ah legal prostitute business


and cigarette business, I was just joking ah


and become a businessman, ya, and son wants too, sun wants to give people a lot of money,


sun wants to share, with everyone, , future boss


manage all the business, ya, sun is sunny


sun got thick eyebrow, sun actually got double eyebrow, what's double eyebrow, what about my son got a eyebrows would call me, ah


sun got uh eyebrows that will connect, what's double eyelid, why you got double lashes


why you have double eyelid, how come I don't have, then pick it up and pass me, (hmm)


pick it up pass me I want one, one, two, three, four, ten, really, okay I want one hundred and five thousand nine hundred and twenty one dollars


eh I want six million six hundred and forty five, thousand three hundred and twenty one say ah


I want to eat Mala Mala so nice, ya Mala so nice, (hmm) but expensive


fifteen dollars eh, you know what I just realised you know there was no delivery fees yesterday also, it was expensive because of the


the sides, no if lesser sides cannot I wish we can choose how much we want, must go to , my school no must go to my school


ya ya my school Mala is very cheap and also is like, is like err, one one packet of noodles one dollar, every thing is one dollar there, ya so you and me right we can order like


fifteen actually two person eat if you eat full right ah fifteen dollars actually it's the same price lah no difference, (hmm)


never mind we go to more buy Mala cause over there it's nicer, on, anything else


ya I also need to find a job


ya the person took so long to reply sia


, I think I messaged her right after be false ya cause I never get any notifications from WhatsApp then I was like oh ya got the work lah then I just suddenly got the notification I don't know why I didn't receive notification then I go in replied her then after that she replied me back also after twelve plus


ya she messaged after twelve plus, ya then after that uh I just go and message her back but after that lucky she was online all the way then she also just messaged me without taking her own sweet time, then after that she and me we just messaged messaged then after that she said uh I sent her my resume I sent her my application I sent her everything then she said okay I'm eligible to work need to come for interview now lucky the interview is by video con


eh should I take out my stud later, ya, plus I don't know what she's going to ask me plus she ask me what I am what's my background I also don't know what to say, cause if she asked me why am I outside I also don't know what to say


uh I think she will though, like if she want she want to know more about me right cause I'm handling cash eh, I can run away with the money


like they want to know if the person is trusted or something like that, ya, ah Das down see, ya then I need your laptop later


but I but I don't want to on laptop I just want to open your laptop then put my phone there at the side then because at the side imagine this is like the flap of your laptop right the keyboard here then I put my phone here down there then at the side I can put my earpiece, I just need to make it go on top a bit only then after I can control the view of my phone up and down with your


with your back of your laptop, err, , , ya make me so sleepy


ya I want to sleep, but I have to talk for another five minutes, uh, five minutes baby we already hit uh one oh two or one oh three


okay lah one oh three lah one oh two one oh three, ya, so what's been this dream


why, primary school teacher okay what


why, why difficult, ya primary school teachers get holidays and you guys don't need to, I think you guys won't get into any trouble


really, really


!huh! how old is he, he's a home tutor now, ya


ya okay, (hmm)


(hmm) must try to try to earn at least one month three K, really, ya more students the more better, ya


ya, you can B B you can to B B is so smart, probably going teach what


, math


ya, ya I like your cut Jeej


, is it painful, what the heck, what else


same cause the weather's like so hot like humid right one moment ya, that's why


ya [sia] even the, but got payee [lah], [eh] <tamil>பிசாசு:pisasu</tamil> [oh] you know you know you know I saw the I saw this live


[orh] I'm okay ah tapi lately rabak ah because uh apa ni COVID [kan] so I cannot work so most of the time I stay at home then I just watch Netflix


ya, what's your favourite, ya ya ya ya


correct correct then the one that I regret the most sekarang is uh apa ni the one that you invited me to watch ah demon slayer


ya, uh because the thing is like uh when I first saw the trailer, for me personally right ah uh aku bukan a fan of apa ni macam cute cute uh type of err art style for the err anime for me I prefer like macam semi realistic so the ones I watch is like initial D but when I watch demon slayer on myself


I regret gila serious because it's like uh the storyline bagus and then like dia punya action scenes also was quite good and then I was really blown away ah so like aw shit I semi regret seriously I should have started earlier cause by the time I started right uh it was, I was quite behind the hype already lah in a way


ya,


, [orh] okay, ya because uh


when I started uh I think I don't know how like err I was in cause I think a lot of people watch already but ah even then when I watch later the hype was still there so err the main thing for me it's just I can't wait for season two so uh I haven't started yet but I'm going to try watch the Manga eh I I'm gonna read the Manga sorry not watch ya but it was really good lah ya


then it ended, [orh] september, oh ah ah, ah


oh one shot ah, rise up ah ya, ya,


Naruto, ah


, ya, that's why but err but err adding on to yang the older punya Animes even initial D pun [kan] it started in nineteen ninety five it didn't reach that much so like so like the fact that it's brand new then macam it got so much hype and like so much err attention right it just blows my mind ah ya and I really thought it's it's really nice lah and


err I think is the one yang the second episode yang dia pergi bunuh the very big demon then he touch the head


yes yes yes correct correct then the other one that affected me was the apa moon that got strip of his uh power pasal dia tak uh eat enough humans the one who use the drums ah


ya uh I felt him cause when he was a human right he wanted to be a writer or something right then tak ada orang appreciate dia so like I can feel because I I also taking english myself so like I felt really , uh terkesan like I was like shocked lah when I cried a bit I was like eh tak pernah pernah macam gini the last time I cried was like err what endgame


ah avengers endgame ah, very rare so I was blown away ah, ah no lah ya ya,


err tapi tapi stress ah yang err dia punya battle tu the other one that err was more stressful was the punya the he was using the spider web or something that was quite scary


ya lumen six ya but, ya he's so strong he got so pissed off when uh Nezuko and Tanjiro killed him but he attach his neck using the spider web but for me like what the heck seriously he just cut off what it's such a coward move but Gui is just


that's why tak fair gila serious, ya, ya ya ya ya ya correct correct correct, ya


, blow me away it's okay,


ya, , ya, ya ya even the intro dia punya what they call it opening ID I don't know opening ah the opening was also quite macam blood pumping ah for me personally but the one that hit me the most like for me personally eh for you is the music [kan] for me is the ah story line itself


ya and the part when he everytime when he kill the demon right he always like, uh give them a proper farewell or like a form of respect macam dia tak just bunuh cause oh you're a demon cause err he take the time to like understand them look back ah look through their memories and then like say like eh you used to be human lah so it's not your fault you became a demon so that that part is I think the


uh I think that's the main ah unique point of ah demon slayer it's not just about killing demons it's about having a heart, , correct correct


, correct correct yes, ya ya ya, , correct


ya correct, ya that's why but the thing the thing that uh , I I kind of uh apa ni regret a bit right apart from not catching up to demon slayer earlier on is that err to be honest but previously I was quite judgemental of anime ah like macam I look macam ah sometimes look at the art style macam very cutesy cutesy dia macam takda substance to it ah but then when I take the time to analyse right actually some Animes are good it's not everytime macam those like uh act cute atau macam very cringe cosplay cause let's be honest there there are cringey cosplayers and all that but some of the Animes are really damn good so aku macam semi regret so for me personally ah for demon slayer right I started on Naruto


ah I know it's one of the best Animes but draggy gila it's too draggy for me but I'm just gonna take the time to like watch ah but waiting for season two demon slayer then like you said you recommend also ah the day before pasal one piece so that one will try so I start Naruto first and then one piece but I don't know which one is longer Naruto or one piece ah actually


one piece eh uh because uh Naruto the one I saw on Netflix is like, nine season, and then ya then but the good thing about anime is like each episode it's twenty minutes lah so it's not too not too macam mundane I guess


oh


, ya,


oh kira macam movie is it, [orh] short film, , ya


ah, [pe], ya ya ya


, ya the atmosphere won't be there the mood confirm hilang ya,


ya, ya, correct correct, standard ya, because speaking of this music and setting atmosphere right I think you also got do like music editing right for your game before ya ya in in school cause you're taking ni [kan] sekarang ah apa ni uh I don't know if the name is still correct is correct me if I'm wrong


uh bachelor of arts, in game design not bachelor of science one science is programing ah ya, ya I see your math semalam [jer] dah tak boleh tahan that's why I I don't take math


ya, , , that's why, correct correct yang semalam you show me the pasal apa tu row operation that one obviously I try ah but I really I really don't understand lah but the first few question I understand lah ya


ya ah the the velocity part I think


ah, correct, ya ya ya ya ya ya


, , oh NUS, famous ah ya ya ya, true like cannot generalise,


, correct, (mmhmm), ya ya correct


, , ya, ya


when I started, , , , ya


correct correct, ya


correct correct, ya ya, yeah I guess macam uh if like you if you like tanya then like you didn't try then think macam people think that you don't put in the effort that kind of thing then they will start to like have that kind of judgement so like that that that's the that's the dilemma I have also but most of the time I guess it it's our duty to try first and then like really kalau macam we are stuck there right then we just have to ask around if not really gone


ya ya cause mak kau cikgu ya ya ya that's why it's it's true ah like I I always thought I had the mindset like boleh buat sendiri boleh buat sendiri just belajar [jer] just but then like eventually you're stuck then when you realise that you got different opinions right after you try right then at least you ah they call it crystallisation of your thinking like make your uh ah word flow much more uh smoother ah in a way at least you can understand from different sides


people think like you don't do your err revision or studying beforehand but it is what it is ah sometimes when you're stuck you have to ask for help


, ya, oh this is new, this is new for me I never hear that term before


, , oh kira macam the vibe is it like you can feel the vibe ah


, oh okay okay


, ya ya correct correct,


ya, uh ya ya ya ya ya, in a way ah in the same time at the same time from what you explain macam is to juggle the perasaan of the people right ya ya you like you have to be careful cause


some I think it's very rare lah that there are people who are very macam clear cut direct cause most of the time people try to jaga hati and try to be more mindful what they say, but it depends on the person itself lah but for me personally I think a a balance of the two is nice ah ya when you are when you know how to get your points across properly


but at the same time you don't like come off, as very ruthless or very blunt lah macam later like even though the approach you have are valid I think the person will feel macam very , ah that's why that's why rasa kecil hati kirakan ya


ya, ya


ah, ah, , correct correct, ah then when they continue doing that then they don't learn [kan] they don't go then like they keep having that mindset and attitude right then when they grow up right then will like realise asal semua orang keep attacking them ya that's the number one thing that's one thing I had to learn myself cause for me masa dulu I was very sensitive so now I try to macam balance out lah


but I guess I still have some traits of that sensitivity but I try my best lah cause over time like you have to, adapt ah I I guess that's the most important word adapting especially during COVID now out of all the stuff that's going on ya


, ya, yes yes yes, uh


ya can I share one story ya okay pasal I'm guilty of this so err so err err err the the one thing that err you mentioned about time management there is it for me [kan] honestly speaking ah


err for my, past exams I think this semester I only got two exams so I'll be honest ah this one I haven't share with you before uh so , I kind of err didn't sit for my paper, ya so err this news right I'm just telling you this okay so my school right what the policy that they have is that if you don't sit for your paper


and then uh if you have err I think the requirement for the assignments is like err forty percent and above that means your over ah there are two components uh assignments and exams so for each component you must get forty percent forty percent so if once your assignments you get forty percent right you have the liberty to sit out of the exam and then we retake it the next semester without err redoing the entire mod


but if you fail your assignments and then you didn't sit for exam right you have to retake the entire mod but it's actually once you fail your assignments right you have to retake the entire mod ah so, for me, okay lah for me since I'm new to it lah like I I just got into a relationship so like I'm trying to


balance and all that so I admit ah sometimes I'm guilty of like not having that time management so I didn't have that much time to study so before I made the decision to like sit out these two exams right like I uh consulted err my partner and my mother then they said that is fine lah then I think about it macam tak affect my grade cause there was a time before what I failed my exam then my GPA uh drop rabak gila then lepas tu


I have to rebuild it slowly so I thought about it like if I can just resit for exam might as well take next semester and just err restudy lah and the good thing ah about my school now is that since COVID right uh they allow us to aid they're going to waive off the resit fee cause by right uh you have to pay the fee tau it's not free resitting the paper I think it's hundred dollars for mine for mine that time but now it's free lah cause of COVID so like I'll just do it lah but even though with these factors in place and I still feel guilty macam I feel so bad macam kirakan I can clear the mod one then macam I'm just dragging but when I think about it I'd rather take this than risk my GPA again uh cause uh the last time I checked if I fail again [kan]


, ya, ya


ya, ya,


ya, [orh], oh, like like


for one semester is like below two point eight straight away kena that kind of, oh range oh okay okay okay


ah ah that's what I kena ya that's why I'm like very scared now so like my GPA now I'm slowly repairing so like it's in like in the mid twos ah if I'm being honest so like I think about it ah takpe lah just resit ah, I don't want to risk it ya sakit sia hati that time ya


ya, correct correct and it's not easy seriously seriously uni is not easy already get ya so when my friend said that he cried right I thought it was exaggerating but then like now I know what he feel what he's feeling but I I cannot entirely relate and I don't have the right to lah cause I'm part time then they're full time so like for me right my expect for full time students are way higher even though they say like for us part time then have to work and all that is harder for us to balance right oh for me full time is harder cause like even though you got all the time to study right but you really have to manage your time like for the different modes and the different ah assignments and projects ya so because your school is uh assignment and project based my one is ah exam so that's the thing you all also have err


intermittent exams right, math oh my goodness, don't have err, uh not exactly math but I think err since your mum is a english teacher she should know also err there's this thing called err phonetics and what is it under ah it's under


something like that ya exactly my goodness I hated that ya because it's more of like if I can put it simply right like everything you see right there's like a structure to it like in a sentence right like there's the subject verb like there's a lot of that object complement and all that so


put simply in every sentence in every word you utter right there is a sort of a structure to it and then like for every structure there's a term for it, that's the difficult part lah


uh, there is one ya ya there is uh the uh what mod I took I think they taught us about err there are some similarities uh between err varieties of a particular language or like how a a language different from the other like how the structures


uh are there but how there are different so that when you speak a certain language right and someone is speaking a certain language they you don't understand each other then like how if you're speaking variety or dialect of it right you you understand so for example english your singapore english and malaysian english right you can understand but if I'm talking english eh I'm if I'm speaking english and kau cakap macam ah there are structures to it that make it different ah I think it's ah sorry if I pronounce wrongly mutual intelligibility or something like ya between languages ah


, ya ya ya


ya ya ya ya ya ya something like that, ya correct correct, ya, ya lah because essentially


professor ya sorry err professor ah eh ah so casual panggil prof uh she talk about english in uh do I call it france or french french french sorry sorry sorry sorry france is the country ya allah eh sorry sorry err so basically


err they said that like for french, like the verb or the subject comes first and then for english is the subject then the verb comes or something like that, ya so like like easier like, post office sia


ah pejabat pos so it's like it's reverse ah so that's the different thing, oh ya but okay lah uh that's the difficult part then another aspect that we learn is about err, language and society like how people use language and all that that one is more to


I would say uh you're studying english in a, geographical way, in a way ya you you learn how ah different regions and how different countries use the language ya like, ah dialect and culture ya so if I can put it simply it's uh in the course I'm taking right is the technical side which I really don't like and the more of err analytical type of a more research based type ya


these two is okay the one that really, headache now eh I wish I I don't have to take is uh literature, ya I don't know cause usually my course is english in psychology but then now they rebrand it ah so is english language and literature so like you have to take a minor in that so like if let's say you take minor english language and literature with communications for example so like so panjang right so like ah tau boleh takpe lah just let it go but I also don't understand why they suddenly uh change it like that like they just make it english language and literature like why they don't have the presets cause last time uh when I first enrolled it was english with psychology english sociology something like that ya then like when I saw that


but they rebrand it so like no choice ah I just stayed ah cause I have to defer for err one semester, ya,


, ya


ya, ya


ya, , ya, ya


ya, ya, ya ya ya, ya tak comfortable, ya


correct correct, ya, ya,


even more pissed off ya ya ya ya, ,


yes yes correct correct,


ah, ah, seven K


correct correct, ya, because it's quite mentally draining tau if you set the bar too high so you must slowly find the small things that make you happy lah ya and and I heard this phrase before like , uh sometimes the things that makes us the happiest right doesn't require money ah


ya that's that's that's the most priceless thing that that that that is a golden code lah, correct correct


ya, ya, because they are tuned to it ah,


yes, correct correct, , yes, correct


correct, ya, you're satisfied ah ya correct correct yes yes, correct ya cause nanti err it will be natural


for you to start comparing with others tau then nanti macam okay for example you got a posh you nampak orang ni ada Ferrari then you see ah people got apa Burgundy Burgundy Honda then later you get Burgundy Honda later you got Ducati it never ends tau so like when you keep buying more things like this you think like err you're making yourself happy cause you are getting everything you want since you are a kid what tapi what you're doing right is you are sort of uh


that's why


ya, ,


, ya, ya, ya


ya, ya, , !wah! that's quite advanced eh


ya ya , ya, gen Y ya correct eh gen Y or millennial


, [orh] millennial, ya, ya


ya, ya, ya


correct correct, ya, correct ah


, ya, correct correct it's like uh it's like an experience uh like err it takes you on a ride I guess like uh


ride off, what what am I trying to say like roller coaster in motion ah sorry sorry I can't get my thoughts right so it's a it's a good thing like it like it's a temporary escape from reality and like uh you get to experience something and then you just move on in your life ah is, ya


, correct correct,


ya, demon slayer ya, , ya, yes yes yes


ya, [orh] yes yes yes


ya, ya correct MCU, ya


, , ya


, ya, correct correct, ya,


ya, ya, correct uh there's one prime example uh I think is everyone's favourite, unfortunately he died already ah it's iron man games of thrones tak game of thrones tak that uh one prime uh character in the Marvel uh


wait is he is MCU not right ah Marvel cinematic universe ah iron man ah he don't have any powers but like he he's uh drive to make the world a better place and too I think in age of ultron he said he want to like uh have a iron barrier around earth uh to like sort of protect lah but even though there were disagreements on his style right at least he got the intention to like uh protect what's what matters to him the most ah so like


get the power from your own uh


err, his ability to uh be a genius, and like uh construct new things like his suits his nano tech in infinity war so that's the beauty of it lah like people always look at the uh powerful heroes like for example who can you think of thor


how, uh thanos, but then like the ones who are more normal right ah and don't have that much power I I guess they are the superheroes ah and truth be told iron man really was the truth hero cause like for me, keep up that that's the that's the ironic thing eh cause I just realised this now I'm having this uh eh epiphany macam if you notice eh in endgame


uh black widow and iron man tak ada power tau but because of them right they save the entire universe you think about it because black widow sacrifice herself for the soul stone then uh iron man dia uh take the apa tu uh gauntlet from err thanos so like that part was already scaring me cause when he snapped right I thought it they really ah all the efforts for nothing but then like err he managed to get all the infinity stones on his uh hand then he just snap ah so it takes a lot of courage to do that you know so like it was is is really mind blowing to think that the two people who saved the universe didn't have that much powers they're just normal human beings with like one has a


I think she was like err , uh assassin or some sort then she got err close combat err training and iron man is just err a man with a suit lah but the proper intentions so like, it's really quite err touching ah if you think about it no power tau


, ya, correct, yes


, ya macam that day [jer] this is the type of body that you want on the beach oh my goodness


, ya ya, ah dah kurus ya ya


ya, , it motivates you ah in a way, ya,


, ya, higher


, , yes,


, ya,


ya, ya, ya,


, ya, ya, it's very tough it's not it's not that easy to reach out to people ah


, yes


ya like you mentioned even though it's difficult right it will be rewarding for you in the future because like I notice , in the SG traineeship or the SG united jobs right cause like since I only part time now ah eh I'm working part time lah ya I am working part time studying part time sorry I'm correct sorry sorry sorry ah but my job got suspended because of COVID so like err I cannot work for the meantime so I just have a look in the website right and when you mention about programming right it it is very useful cause most of the jobs that required programming so what you do is you you are technically on the right track it's not that easy ah but it's you're on the right track ah so it is relevant lah it's a good thing


ya, , ya ya ya


, , ya


yes, ya, ya


so so so so technically they are like you but they they because of the err pre-judgement that they might get they just keep quiet and they don't want to approach anyone


ya, yes, ya


correct, ya, , ya, ah, ya you need to get the answer and then like you have to analyse it and then like tune it in a way that it suits your current situation


ya ya , ya ya


ah, ,


tip top ah, nobody want to play ya ya ya correct correct


, ya, ya, ya


ya, ya


ya sebab but it's more suited for the mature audience ah, ,


, , eh tak lari eh topic lari that's why


ya, ya, ya , okay okay takpe takpe go [jer]


ya, ,


element eh, and in it's an ingredient for you to, , ya, it's very useful, ya


ya, , ya, but even if you can right for me personally I don't want I I'm scared cause like err I I heard there's zero the zero gravity why am I stuttering uh the zero gravity there is quite uh


quite intense ah so for me for someone who has motion sickness like I don't think I can manage ya ya but then that's quite an achievement that he wants to achieve uh being buried in mars so ya I wonder how his body is gonna like stay unless you like strap it or something ah


ya cause if he want to be married eh buried in mars so like I don't know how he's going to go about that, ya,


ya, , ya


that's why, ya, it's another planet


, kat mars, ya,


, moon burger,


, ya ya ya, , space Grab, ya but how many light years away is mars ah, I never thought about it eh


ya, oh it's not light years, years, oh but the toil you will take on the human body if you do this travelling will be quite tough eh


I don't know how they do it sia seriously, ya ya ya correct


err ailments so you won't get sick or something ya, ya ya [orh] then err it'll be relatable to uh demon slayer when uh in the movie uh what's his name eh ah correct me if I'm wrong ah Asaka ke Akaza Akaza he wanted to offer uh Rengoku to be a a demon what ya so but he says the beauty of it is that humans die ah so


if you remain at technically if you get to live forever atau you remain here forever like you lose the beauty in it uh like if the circle of life doesn't go full circle, ya when you get you're born and then you live through your life and then you die then like the cycle continues so like it will be stuck there you'll be alive ah then you wouldn't die ah


it's really it's really the beauty of it I guess, , ya, correct correct, ya


, , that's right, ya ya ya


ya, correct correct ya ya ya, ya, because you don't have to drive to progress ah then like you just stay stagnant ah like uh because it's not affecting you what and that's the thing about humans lah like we are selfish that the moment we think it doesn't affect us right we don't care about


ya that's the that's the number one thing, but probably why ah sorry I keep relating to demon slayer cause it's quite relatable ah err probably why the apa six demon didn't uh, change ah the ah sorry the upper moon sixteen they don't get change ah but if you think about it they remain stagnant but I haven't read the Manga or the watch the uh talk about season two personally I feel that in the end


the the humans will try my I don't know for sure but but the desire to keep trying and even though you fail a lot of times which I feel that there's gonna be a lot of , drama in the anime itself but the if you keep trying right eventually you triumph ah


apart from the people who remain stagnant, and don't progress because they feel that they already good enough, ,


ya, yes, ya, correct correct


ya, , , , ya,


ya,


ya, that's the sad thing right people only recognise people when they die unfortunately, that's a sad thing, , ya,


ya, ya and they look to you as a way to err, is Bangkok the correct word like a way to set the bar like I I err do as an inspiration ah in a way


ya, so that's the good thing, , undertaker, yes oh my god my favourite wrestler then he retire


, ya, ya, impact


ah #diego maradona#, that's quite sad ah, ah ya,


ya, I guess when, the rule of thumb is there a rule of thumb eh I guess ah when people pass on they look at the good things ah and they try to overlook the uh bad things that they've done ya cause they remember him for his skills for his jubilee for his achievements


his negative aspects err, even though they were quite drastic but uh the achievements overshadow that ah but in the end when everyone passes on right is , their it's a normal human nature to like honour them ah recognise that even though like how bad they are right everyone deserves a proper


what's the word eh passing eh no ah final respects I guess ya so that's the most important, status err for awhile then like at least you go in peace ah like ya you don't feel like oh


there's anything left, ah ya ya ya you you feel like err a burden off your shoulder ah in a way, what's why


, making one of the best anime , oh my goodness


ya, , that's why it's amazing how this shows like Marvel anime and all these right like they teach us more, than what we are taught in school it's really interesting right


ya, okay, (uh) (ppl)


so how you today Nas, oh ya


ya ya ya I I also been watching Netflix lah, oh favourite eh, there's a lot of Animes I like to watch I I'm a anime fan lah so Netflix surprisingly dorang macam makin banyak anime dorang masuk-masukkan [kan] I was like !wah! quite quite amazed though sebab dulu Netflix there's not much anime


oh right ya ya I invite I mean in the first place also you never watch, so I did not invite you,


right


no lah, all all of us uh kita pergi tengok movie dia [kan]


but they still do watch the anime ah, ah kau baru nak start the hype you still ah don't have to wait so long for the season two


but, but don't I don't know I I feel like you should wait for season two come out sebab tadi aku baru dapat tahu season two possibly dorang akan keluar like, err cause season one it came out like april twenty nineteen


uh september twenty nineteen, ya Netflix it came out ah slow but it came out came out right april tak salah april twenty twenty that's when the hype betul-betul naik ah sia and apa everytime


is more than hundred million copies, and they took


[orh] ya


exactly


oh, ah, oh


ah at the sorry ah at the mountain right


oh ya


!wah!, so, does that mean ah in the future will be a demand also, with drums ah ah tapi pasal [kan] tu ah japanese [kan] kita melayu kita kita kompang


[orh] ya that one is a lumen six, and, the fact that there is only lumen six eh !wah! he's really strong, ya


such coward , !wah!, OP man, even, even though he doesn't speak much but, ya the like what they say ah apa actions speak louder than words


that is exactly how apa Gui is ah as a person, but but, apa soundtrack dia [kan], it really blews me away ah blows me away sorry, because one thing about uh anything in general ah kalau kau tengok a show or something [kan]


it is more emotional kalau dia nya soundtrack is a very macam it's a good it's a good soundtrack it can relate to you like how demon slayer sekarang the one thing people can relate to at first is the song, the by sung by lisa yang the opening


ah opening ah,


ya, ya , it's like err one thing good about anime is like there's no


ah pure evil or pure good cause normally those pure evil inside the anime turns out that, they were corrupted in the first place because of certain events in their life,


like those people like they they've seen too much hatred until it becomes something that they're used to, that it becomes like everyday object everyday ah actions are sampai they don't know ah they can't determine what is right or wrong anymore but !wah! it's


mind blowing ah legit, , ya


ya, ya, , , ya


, uh one piece, ya


oh ya, not too much, it's it's uh it's not like those dramas like one episode is like one hour


[orh] ya, ya it has been I I mean I don't know if it's the usual but


tell a story in in a in a film is what matters ah kadang-kadang even like those thirty or ten minute films [kan] it leaves a very


uh everlasting mark in your in your memory macam tak boleh lupakan it's that good ah like the story storytelling even uh the soundtrack cause come on man ah without soundtrack anything will be boring lah


exactly cause that's why I I always ah, I always envy those people who can like make great soundtracks for ah films or anime to make it bring to life especially with all the great animation or like the great actors in in in shows or something but I know it will take a while for me to get up to that standard the the level


ah ya , ah ya


ya correct, no no no no no, if it's bachelor of science I think I'll fail a lot of modules already , oh ya man, luckily that is like


one prerequisite of maths I have to take oh wait no other than that got physics lah but that's all lah physics should be simpler because this one, its pre-calculus sia what the heck is that it's like A maths which I never learn before in secondary school


, ya, oh is it the, the position vector eh, !wow!


you will understand that there are many more things that you don't know


ah I I shared this with my one of my friends ah dia pun tengah ambil university but I think is like NUS I think ya so ya ah bro that one is just that's just one person lah don't don't let it bring bad image to the school man


ya so err ya that's why exactly but okay lah the one thing that we can generalise is like whenever you go to university you feel stupid at first you might feel stupid afterwards but the process makes you feel less stupid


especially when you err encounter like many problem solving ah methods or like, especially kalau kau buat coding atau math [kan] there's definitely, tend to be like some parts where macam oh wait what's going on I don't understand sia and then you have to seek for help from other people it's not it's not the same as like poly atau atau secondary school tau


independent, yes exactly ya


it's quite hard, it's quite hard for me ah because one thing , I'm a I'm an introvert so I don't really mingle much with other people or like, uh actively seek out for help or talk to other people so it's kind of hard on my case it really force me to you know step out of my comfort comfort zone talk to other people and


I don't know why maybe it's because my ego like, I know I have to try it out first to ah do it whether I don't don't know or know then after that seek for help because sometimes I feel like, like I don't want to tell people that I cannot do this


that mindset is the one that holds me back a lot everytime want to seek for help,


ya, ya ya


, ya,


uh ya ya


, that sounds, crystallisation thinking eh, !wow!


, ya and also macam being an introvert you you have this certain set of skill it's called err from what I learn in psychology like different people have different, uh soft skills that they're born with


like err apa tu there's this thing called intrapersonal skill that's it that is !huh!, ya, ya there's interpersonal skill and intrapersonal skill intrapersonal if I'm not wrong is skill lah but the the term for intrapersonal is like you observe


uh your surroundings like you can read the feelings of the room like the people around you and you understand that the the mood lah in in a way, ya ya ya, it's for for interpersonal it's slightly different this more to like you think of your own uh thoughts you try to make sure you're careful on what you say because you ah in a way it's like you think a lot about what you want to say or like in your own thoughts your thought process everything


uh you you just you don't want to bring up the uh negative uh vibe when you speak up, so this the intrapersonal skill is for people whom I guess are introverts lah so they tend to be more aware of other people like


how to say it might be a a different way of saying like you judge people, but you are more conserved, you are more conservative


ah ya, ya


, ah ya ya ya ya ya


, ya and and in okay ah in university especially, adapting and also apa eh what's that word again uh you have to manage your time ya time management is the utmost priority in a university life


okay, cannot


!huh!


, ya


drop, , ya


[orh]


oh !wow!, !wow!


it's uh it's the same thing for my my school also cause err if I'm not wrong ah is err when you said academic warning right ya at that time also I think it is certain in all university lah if you never meet their GPA requirement after like every semester or something


but uh if I'm not wrong for my case cause yours is part time and I'm full time if you are if you have a academic warning already


lesser than two point eight, then kau akan dapat suspension, suspension meaning, ah kau ah eh sorry, after one year then kau kena re-enroll


ya, when you are in a academic warning punya ni ah ya, if you haven't get academic warning then asalkan your GPA is not lesser than two point O or maybe one point eight then you're still save lah


, ah ya ya better, if not in the future you must study harder and much much harder just to get that GPA to increase by a bit


ah


, ah, some, ya some some still have exams like math we still have exam ah


but your course don't have math right


subject verb agreement, oh eh, !wah!


[orh] okay I


uh, like macam malay atau mandarin


(hmm)


!huh!, oh, ya


but is it mean the same thing


prof oh professor , french


[orh] is it


, oh like apa dialects ah slang slang


oh I, ah


, is the same for certain schools also like my, my course also I mean initially it's called bachelor of arts in uh game design right but I think the the first the freshman batch this year


it is uh user experience in game design so what I get from that, is actually what you have been experience ah since primary school secondary school like right now, the syllabus is ever changing, so that's why there are certain things that we have to keep up to date


ah baru-baru punya module yang apa nak nak kena ajar like aku rasa for example like


normally macam tak banyak kerja pasal user experience mah because it's not that known to be uh to be like a proper job orang fikir macam !alah! ni orang lain buat boleh buat [pe] macam it's another job


the user experience is for you to hold the cup right abeh kau imagine kalau they handle ada duri tak comfortable and that's the user experience it's a ergonomics err the the design of the cup that makes your experience in holding the cup


even though macam it sounds so simple but it actually helps to make it feel good, ah [kan] so in a way all these little things help to improve your mood even by a slight chance that it may increase your mood but overall is all this uh tiny tiny things that actually make us feel better like what they say enjoyed the little happiness in life


because if you ah if you just enjoyed something that is so hard to achieve


but you never enjoyed the little happiness in life


ah, ya, ah


it all comes down to your mindset in what you think brings you happiness lah, some people dorang dah so into earning money


ya they are tuned to that mind mindset macam oh since I have this much money and it gives me a lot of happiness because it can allow me to buy the things that I have wanted since I was a kid, that means if I have more money that will buy me more things that can make me happy but in the end it's actually brainwashing them that those things are not what they need


to make them happy, it's just something that they feel like they lust for it just because, it uh, they imagine them like eh with this, I I'll look good ah like ah with a car like Porsche ya you are satisfied but for how long


, ya, exactly, but I guess , there's no certain way of like finding happiness like some people because of the happiness that they are trying to achieve that is so far away it allows them to


push boundaries like for example, elon musk eh he's a good example because one thing his happiness or his like the end goal for him, is to be buried on mars and that to him is like his true happiness but the process of going there is so extensively or it's so excruciating and


you have to, you have to be like one of the the the top most like the the better humans on earth to actually go beyond what humans can ah achieve, like kau imagine ah like he said in two years eh, four years time like humans will be flying to mars like who


ah if if you tell me ya if you tell me this when I was err I okay lah when I was kid you tell me this I'll be damn happy lah of course but for people with you know they lived through like, generations of like, ah their life like twenty thirty years they have to like go through


especially in our previous generation I think it's like our gen Y, ya, oh ah sorry millennial millennial so the millennials, our usual mindset is like work hard, play hard then if you work hard definitely all the


what make things work in in the last time ah macam retrospect ah but for now it's more like


uh we focus on little happiness but also, the there's always a yin and yang if you focus on little happiness you can't always get big bigger things, but for those people who focus on the big happiness they might not appreciate the little things


I guess that's how human works, which is why I appreciate like all those people yang even though it's just ah comic books or like anime [kan] it brings certain joy to you like you feel you feel , like even though this does not improve humanity in a large way but it does give you some things to actually look forward to lah


ah ah ya roller coaster


ya you have to take a break ah, that's why I feel, ah for this anime macam all these one, uh, even though it doesn't give much but actually it also in their in their own sense they are also improving, like they impose many real life things into their anime to make it to make you feel more relevant to it


that's why like ah apa eh ya macam demon slayer like the like what you said the experience then it's the user experience lah the soundtrack visual effects graphics and the characters storyline all that takes into account of the whole topic of user experience


which is why I also like how okay lah not demon slayer something much more large scale which is Marvel, !wow!, Marvel is uh huge scale of, all the things that you ah


you imagine it to happen, it's happening in in that macam ah alternate universe lah in a way ah ya MCU Marvel cinematic universe


you feel strongly towards that thing, and then it somehow made you into a so called superhero ah but with no actual superpower, (uh huh) game of thrones oh tak eh


[orh] ya


cool, [orh]


ah


the black widow and iron man started, , oh ya, gauntlet


assassin, ya, ya it comes down with


the stronger your drive to work toward something the more things you can achieve and sometimes also like the things you achieve right you might not even notice that it's a huge achievement until people, tell you about it like macam eh macam orang gemuk like they want to achieve being slim like have that ah that the beach body


and because of that people like the the process is long but people who rarely meet you when they meet you after like a few months something like that then they will say like eh dah kurus eh sia baik [pe] but actually kau kau tak tahu like the process itself buatkan kau nak slim kau belum habis tapi pasal orang cakap macam eh kau dah kurus [kan]


you'll feel good lah, ya it motivates you even though it's not it's not the like you haven't reach your optimal uh weight your optimal image tapi the, the thought of people macam dorang perasan like kau tengah berubah at least macam you looking more slim or looking more ah toned your body looks so toned then kau you'll feel better and it helps to


make your drive even, uh, higher,


so that one err I'm not a tech savvy kind of person not not saying tech savvy it's like I'm not a person who is, uh good in you know programming in in in that case but because of this course


I have to force myself to learn because that's part of the like requirements ah but in that case also like if you were to think about it ah, for this different generations like sejak okay ah this past few hundred years ah there has been certain developments in uh certain parts of uh humanity like last time there's uh agriculture industrial evolution [kan] then there's uh


now eh ya industrial revolution is what we went through first or is it second then now is a digital evolution, so this digital evolution it requires you to have some IT knowledge so I thought okay lah maybe


uh losing in the race for finding jobs atau uh skill sets so


so I, ya and also because you know that if you reach out to people you know it's gonna make ah it's gonna help you to actually learn the language because some people they know better than you so that process is the one that is the most


uh it's it's hard ah is the most hardest thing for me


[orh], I always I I try push myself with with that mindset because I keep on hearing like, a lot of there are more people that are saying like ah if I was younger I would have taken a programming course if I would've known that this will be very relevant like ten years time or like now so


with that in mind it makes me motivated at least to maintain my course I there lot of times that I I feel like dropping out but because of certain people like they helped to push you through


like together cause you know they are also going through the same thing they might not be ah okay they might be savvy in programming but they are also not good in certain areas where you can help you know it's like a, I help you help me kind of situations but for those case sometimes people


ah ah too introvert that they they don't want to show their weaknesses lah there are certain people in in my course who are like that but I don't want to say any names but of course


can say lah, ya ya


but in, in that case that process is harder cause you are not, it won't give you the exact results, cause the one that they show at Google and the one that you are doing it's not the same


so you'd have to nit pick some things properly for it to work kalau tak [kan] kalau kau ikut [jer] it will definitely not work


ya which is hard for a person like me who does not, know programming that much, cause since okay lah before, uni ah you and me we went through that same course in poly it's ya it's all in about design art the aesthetics make it nice but go uni suddenly like uh you learn programming all this and that it's useful because ah we really learned through learn about design and all that so you have programming


in a way you can make your own game, but, uh how good is a game and like what I said the user experience must be, uh good ya must be in tip top condition cause if not right then you're just wasting your time just made the game but


ah exactly you're making a game for yourself but not for the people that's the one, uh biggest mistake that everyone who goes through this course or like everyone who makes a game, would not want to do because making a game especially if you want to sell the game you have to have a target audience and that target audience is what you have to make your game to work towards to


like if they are not happy with the game like your target audience macam budak-budak lima tahun sepuluh tahun [kan] kalau kau buat game macam GTA five dorang main ke I mean


for educational purpose, ya like okay kalau aku ah nak aim for


oh but okay lah cone, like iron man okay ni ni ni betul-betul uh off track, ah ironman like even though he's a millionaire but he's damn smart lah like he might be one of the inspiration where aku will continue programming because


in in a way like MCU the universe even though is an alternate universe but it's an extreme point for for people who pushed themselves like that is a, possible, scenario kalau orang betul-betul don't have that drive to make suits to make all these right there is a possible future that we can aim for so aku rasa like programming is a


it's a good it's a, ya ingredient for humanity to take a step forward, ah ya same goes for elon musk actually elon musk is like the tony stark of our our earth sia


that's why aku really appreciate what elon musk has been doing now, that's why I also like Marvel and elon musk besides so hopefully we can go to mars in, at least twenty years lah give or take


, in, oh, ya


strap eh, [orh] oh ya, probably they


it's weird lah it it's weird ah cause tak pernah dengar orang ah eh mana kubur kau bukan kau ah mana kubur apa nenek kau ke apa oh dekat mars ah aku nak merawat


ya abeh kau ah fly ah okay ah ni set ah GPS to moon then dia nya spaceship kau cakap okay uh ten minutes ride okay


eh eh best sia, oh man I I don't know I don't know but it's not I think it's not light years, because I one light year if I'm not wrong is more than a thousand


no I don't I don't know , ya, exactly, probably with that technology we might not be alive ah to experience it


unless bila mars dah ada a way to like, persevere humanity to maintain young, [orh]


ah ya ya ya mine but then would it, actually be good, cause maybe some people, oh,


a'ah Akaza, a demon


[orh]


oh ya, maybe the thought of that like macam aku tahu aku tak mati so buat apa aku buat kerja ni semua you become complacent, then kau complacent then then there's no progress in life lah macam semua dah convenient untuk kau [pe] or aku boleh ah aku boleh tengok anime hari-hari aku tahu aku takkan mati [pe] so takyah belajar ah takyah belajar apa takyah mandi cause whatever it is even even though I am smelly or even though how much I don't brush my teeth


I will still stay young what I won't get sick right, so that complacency probably is what, makes humanity not to deserve to have a apa eternal life


ah, ah upper moon


ya, same


, ya I guess that's the true meaning of like the beauty behind, not being able to live ah eternally or forever


because of complacency and also like, ya ya ya like what you said you'll feel stagnant so there's no progress which is why humans they keep on trying trying trying they know their life here is limited so they try their best as much as possible before they go off, like what they said


the the things that you do the actions that you do, they are the ones that people will remember off when you die, but not the things like macam sekarang kau masih hidup abeh kau buat benda macam bagus macam eh dia ni bagus sia okay dah tu [jer] ah abeh kalau macam for example kalau michael jackson


so that makes his popularity increase because macam oh a legend it has it is a legend because


err people who die I don't know ah this this is like a a a way of people saying like it's a legend its when people die lah normally, ya, that's humans lah in a way ah that it's a beauty ah like when you die you leave a mark on human history so much that you become a figure


in the afterlife, not saying in the afterlife like don't know lah but, even if you die you you're you're you'll still remain in people's memory


ah set the bar, ya, so imagine if like ah the apa eh, ah wrestling or any any person in interest lah like oh, aha undertaker


even if he if he like die one day then he will, be considered a proper legend already lah even now he's a legend but the legend to me does not have any uh, impact yet


the same goes for ni ah the the the football legend, ya Maradona, previously he did a lot of things that people don't really like, but when he die like a few uh weeks ago then suddenly like people respect him so much they bring about all the successes that he did but they don't think they don't talk much about his bad bad stuff


so what does that tell you, ya


ah, passing, ah ya ya, it's like it heightens your


ah I guess you can say that


I I guess that that is can be applied for all the people who, does anime like demon slayer if the person really dies in the future then he'll definitely be remembered, for doing demon slayer, exactly bro four years imagine four years he does he uh that person does all this success and it's like right now the highest grossing anime film eh or highest grossing film in japan history like right now


which is why I love demon slayer, ah, exactly, which is why I like anime, ya so okay lah takpe lah eh banyak time ah ni tak banyak time sorry


stop [lah] am I at taiwan taiwan at times already [ah] okay [lah] hello [ah] actually [ah] K bye


, hi my name's Leksha, okay don't need to act that nice okay so we going to be talk going to be doing this for one hour and then we, ten percent tamil and ninety percent english to singaporean accent and then you have to codswitch (ugh) between the two okay so let's start


okay do you speak like <tamil>ஏன்ட நீ நெரையா தமிழ் பேசுவனு எனக்கு தெரியு:ente nee neraiya tamil pesuvenu enaku teriyu</tamil> but do you speak tamil to like your friends and your family


do you like have you spoken tamil do you take tamil in school because you are international school right


really, !wow! why do you change


, , oh my god wait so but then wherever your parents complained like your ah Ma was Nah but your ah Pa was okay with you cause you are just a child so it's fine


maybe she gets scared very easily by everything


I don't know


I did tamil until ten standard okay so basically what I did was so my parents are from delhi right so but my mum is like very strict on tamil <tamil>எங்க:engge</tamil> family <tamil>ல எல்லாருமெle ellarume</tamil> hindi <tamil>படிப்பாங்க:padipangge</tamil> so but then my dad was like we are all from delhi for what tick so I did like hindi school of houtan I'll do hindi on saturdays until full standard then I'll do tamil in school and then I would rarely like I rarely I would never study I cannot study until now I'm not studying tamil my mother like


uh <tamil>நா படிக்க என்னால முடில:naa padikke ennale mudile</tamil> so told my dad to just let me go, I stopped but then like obviously all friends are hindi and my dad speaks in india family so basically


I like <tamil>நா:naa</tamil> hindi <tamil>ல மொத பேசுவ:le mothe pesuve</tamil> like I can understand very well I can't speak it cause I stopped class and then I did tamil until ten standard then I did higher tamil, actually they're the same level I don't know why they put higher tamil but I did higher tamil so I could use that grade I got A for that I could use for A levels cause <tamil>இனிமேல் நா பன்ன மாட்ட என்ன ஆல விட்டுருப்பா சாமி:inimel naa panne maate enne aale viturupaa saami</tamil> actually my mother knew I'm a very lazy person so she made sure I took higher tamil in primary five so I could take higher tamil in secondary school so I don't have to do higher tamil in JC cause she knew I was lazy


so she planned ahead , okay cause like in local school right there's not many north indians mostly tamilians so most indians took tamil


okay do you ever wish that you took hindi so you could be like the same with your other friends


no actually it's I woudn't I'm not <tamil>சன்ட:sande</tamil> so I would have left either way I cannot study two additional subjects more like <tamil>அதெல்லா எனக்கு முடியாது:athella enaku mudiyaathu</tamil> but then like I'm very like <tamil>அதுல ரொம்பொ சந்தோஷம் என்னனா:athule rombe santhosham ennenaa</tamil> like I'm exposed to both cultures but it's also a lot of identity crisis cause I don't know what I am like


ya it's very weird then you meet people who are also similar to you and understand you a bit but then <tamil>ஐயயோ ஐசு வைக்காதடி சனிய ஐயயோ:aiyayo icuu vaikathedi saniye aiyayo</tamil> sorry <tamil>தப்பா எது சொல்ல கூடாதில்ல ஐயயோ:tappa ethu solle koodathille aiyayo</tamil> reject <tamil>பன்னிராதிங்க:pannirathingge</tamil> thank you


be good so I want to do something one where I earn a lot of money cause that's one reason why I took CS another reason is my parents but money is a huge reason I hope I earn well which I probably will and I hope I do something like meaningful


wait why,


body, it's not worth it


but at least you're qualified like someone ask me you can do it but like rather do it wait you but don't you like engineering is a lot I know you're biomedical it's like memorising but it's also thinking but you don't like the computational thinking in coding is it


code like


then two hours you find out it's just a semicolon that is missing and you just wasted two hours of your time


but it doesn't and it just wastes time, ya


so some things like sometimes warning lines errors <tamil>சொல்லவே சொல்லாது:solleve sollathu</tamil> so you're just stuck there like wrong, ya because like for beginners who just are like when you first started coding you won't understand segmentation


so like I it's it's very hard but the thing is what's scaring me for my future you know AI and all those, I feel like AI can go on its own so what would I do what's my job you get what I mean and AI and everything that's coming up


it's very math heavy and I'm not I love math but not <tamil>அந்த:anthe</tamil> level <tamil>லுக்கு:luku</tamil> everyday <tamil>ஒக்காந்து:okkanthu</tamil> equation <tamil>லா என்னால எழுத முடியாது:laa ennale ezhuthe mudiyaathu</tamil> like I die so that scares me, how about you what do you want to do with your future, okay


ya I get you wait so like if you if you don't for example touch wood touch wood I'm pretty sure you're going to get into duke NUS but if you don't and to do get an MBA you still have to work for a few years right most MBA programs you need work experience two to three years so what would you do


ya, maybe because she had a business degree I don't know but mostly here is because I also want to do an MBA I don't want to just sit with a CS degree like you need to work before


what made you take like biomedical apart from the fact that you want to be a doctor and it would help you why else would you take


do you enjoy your course like really or like !aiyo! <tamil>விட்டு படிச்சு முடிச்சுட்டு:vittu padichu mudichittu</tamil> get into medicine, (ugh)


, ya


oh any medical school for the matter isn't it better if you have like bio and you can have like lesser burden later right


that is true like I understand your engineering thing also cause like for my thing they hated it that SMU CS is BSC and the BSC BSC !aiyo! my dad is so mad because NTU is bachelor of engineering SUTD is bachelor of engineering and the ENG <tamil>அந்த மூனு வார்தைக்கு:anthe moonu vaarthaiki</tamil> they are like


!aiyo! engineering <tamil>படிக்கர ஆனா:padikiraa aana</tamil> and the thing is that every indian in india studies engineering so it's not a big deal


no but how ah <tamil>ஏ புரிலனா என் வயசு:yen purilenaa yen vayasu</tamil> and <tamil>அந்தஸ்து:anthasthu</tamil> thing because everybody is studying engineering it's not a big thing there's a surplus of engineers in india there is no job


for engineering you went to biomedical engineering, that is true but if you had like your own choice what would you take


would you do like


dude I wanted first I wanted okay I didn't know what to do with my life because the education system was so hard like I whatever you just pick the easiest one you can score in and you can get the most amount of university courses in you don't really think about


computer science <tamil>படிச்சுட்டு நா:padichutu naa</tamil> singapore <tamil>வந்துருக்க நீ அத:vanthurukee nee athe</tamil> singapore <tamil>ல:le</tamil> computer science <tamil>படிச்சா:padichaa</tamil> what's the point of me like working so hard and coming to a different country and doing the same thing she wanted me to do medicine


well the thing is and I want to do medicine first because I went to J C and I sat in the class and I knew I hated like hated every minute of it disgusting I don't now someone can sit there and memorize like a psycho that's what I did for six years then I don't know why you chose to do that but I don't like it, I like like you know I like the problem solving like sitting the thing about coding is very creative and it's very free you do what you want answer <tamil>வந்தா போது:vanthaa pothu</tamil> I won't give you get the


, another freedom but I actually didn't know and I just under I saw the course and I was like oh my god that's it and it's really lucky that I liked it because I remember my first day for coding here I came and my mother was so scared like she prayed to god my child likes it beause I never coded before and then I called my mum please tell me you liked it please tell me you liked it I say ya ya it was the best day of my life then she's like


because if I didn't like it imagine cause like you know I have a friend called bagraph he was telling me there are two contribute like you hate coding or you love coding there is no in between you either hate it or you love it so and this kind of thing <tamil>இன்னு நீ சொன்னலெ:innu nee sonnele</tamil> like you take two hours to sit through if you don't like it you won't do it you won't have the patience


so like I was hoping and I'm liking it but let's see that's too much you know I actually thought cause CS right they just look at projects they don't really look at your mark right that's what I thought, then my <tamil>அம்மா:amma</tamil> suddenly come like two two and she's like you're doing a masters you're not stopping cause I tell her I'm just going to stop then she was like what because each of my parents have three degrees each no they did two masters


dude if I had a choice I was asking you know what I wanted to do because I didn't know what I wanted to do in life because I wanted to be a bartender in bali so I actually wanted to do, then they were like later I was kidding I was actually serious cause one of my bestfriends said both of us wanted just go to bali and be a bartender so I didn't want to apply but then they force me and shit I mean


!hey! <tamil>எனக்கு இன்னு படிக்கரது புடிக்காது:enaku innu padikarathu pudikaathu</tamil> and I'm not the type to spend money also <tamil>எனக்கு கொடுத்தா நானு சந்தோஷமா சாப்ட்டு தூங்கிருவெ:enaku koduthaa naanu santhoshemaa saaptu toongiruve</tamil> so I don't need to work even if you study so much right what's the chances you will get a good job you will need to slog at two K per month at the first few years right you're not going to do really well so what is the point


I was reading an article which also same thing like a university degree is two to three decades behind how the economy is starting


I think they just want to say that <tamil>இன்னு நீ:innu nee</tamil> university <tamil>ஒட இத கஷ்ட்டத்த நீ இது பன்ன:ode ithe kashtete nee ithu panna</tamil> work <tamil>க பன்னிருவ:ke panniruve</tamil> that kind of


ya I think the only thing that needs a degree is medicine the rest you don't need, it's life and death so you want a certification but the rest you don't really need much you know in singapore it is very cheap for us but in US and stuff like even if you are US citizen like your best friend niha she pays about one hundred and sixty per year


no but like just saying how expensive should it, that is is that including or excluding lodging


you know actually its worst right canada one is to one so it's not that bad wait more than four years because I pay what


ten eleven K per year so I only pay forty four, ya, damn, where to like someone do you watch modern family where they were talking <tamil>அவங்க சொன்னாங்க:avungge sonnange</tamil> this is less worth than a bachelor's degree


no <tamil>அத வச்சிகிட்டு பன்னவு முடியாது:athe vechikittu pannevu mudiyaathu</tamil> you need master's and PHD for that


okay what are we going to talk what are we talking about, I can't


ya, same same ya


okay my parents are actually very very liberal like very thankful like extremely liberal and I should be thankful


but actually this is not normal in chinese or malay circle it's not allowed like I actually told I was talking to some chinese friend and then they were like bro <tamil>அது ரொம்ப:athu rombe</tamil> toxic you know it's very toxic and then I realised that, other people's parents don't choose their degrees and it's only me only I'm like faced with this then I realised how toxic our parents actually are but if you had a kid I don't think I'll let my kid choose either like they're so stupid I'm going to choose for you what do you know at eighteen that's why I want to ask you you were sixteen seventeen when you were choosing right because you finished your way earlier than a normal person then isn't it more scary I feel you were too young


ya, electrical, (uh huh)


because you liked prestegious courses like incidentally


probably not, what do you think she'll be when she grows up


, , who do you think she will be like what do you think her type


or is too early to tell <tamil>எட்டா:etta</tamil> class what do you think she will be, she looks like the she's very goody two shoes so if she doesn't explore she might actually get into medicine, if she doesn't explore


she's already the favourite child, okay I think your <tamil>அம்மா:amma</tamil> is I'm sorry but evident even I can tell Nitishaa is her favourite but for your father the fact that he accepts whatever you do like you're probably the favourite


she's twelve


our culture is just to sit <tamil>மட்டி அடிக்குருதுதா:matti adikeruthuthaa</tamil> there's nothing else that we do


!hey! I remember you told me, that's what they say that's what they say, I think they want to protect you but <tamil>என்ன ஆயிருதுனா:enna aayiruthunaa</tamil> you know you protect protect until females become this treasure that men want to exploit


then how would you fix the problem, ya doesn't really exist


indoctrine brain


there has to be a safety net but not a bubble, because afterwards like after you go out to work you have to, to come out you won't know anything you won't know because the thing is now


like how do you behave outside how do you talk to people like you go to bars, and you learn meeting guys and meet new people that's how you learn to behave yourself right I think this really puts us like you said in the bubble


they still care ya


they won't even think they would start asking you, because they don't have sense of boundaries and they would stare and it's very uncomfortable


, if we have to there's this summer we have to like you know whatever we go through, if we learn these toxic behaviours and make sure we don't pass them on


ya, rather teach your kid rather than your kid go with some guy outside and learn how to drink a whisky that's worse, I don't want our kids to go through that because it's very scary, I rode with random people


ya, ya but what to do indian parents I mean they like you have to at least acknowledge like a lot of indian parents they don't try to at least adapt to singaporean culture


so like we had this friend group she has to like she went her class ended at ten forty five and she came home at eleven thirty because of school, like <tamil>அவளெ வெளில போய் குடிச்சு:avele velile poi kudichu</tamil> friends <tamil>ஓட அதுவு இல்ல:ode athuvu ille</tamil> school <tamil>நாள்தா:naal thaa</tamil> but her parents locked her out of the house for one hour, so we have to at least be happy that our parents are trying at least your mum is trying to like


ya, ya but it's at least better than, your friend


that is true but at least for me my mum used to be very conservative like when I was eight nine and she wouldn't even let me wear shorts and the thing is, like it seems very hot like for me as a person if I wear pants like jeans and stuff I get heat and I get a fever the next day so I really cannot


unless it's like leggings this kind of leggings so I had to beg my mother for two years I don't know ever since I was nine until I was like eleven to let me wear shorts and after, you know you wear shorts and you know you look like the chinese people outside and your cultures start matching you'll be like !wah! <tamil>அவா பன்ராலெ நானு பன்லா:avaa pandrale naanu panlaa</tamil> then you can slowly


let them that's what I did but those two years you know when you're a child when you're nine you're this small and your parents are so tall and they have all the power over you, going against them is the scariest thing I have done and she would get mad all the time, I think after that now she is one of the most liberal parents I've met but to get to here it's a lot but I also acknowledge when she know <tamil>அவங்கலா:avunggelaa</tamil> like you said in india they are very sexist too


and to little child like I drink and I come back home and I come at one AM and she's okay with it that's a huge that's appreciate that


but they can also live life like new kids and not be like


imagine if you told like you told your parents I'm gay or lesbian then your mum would be like !huh!


that's how you change mindset you keep bringing it up


but the sad part is actually homosexuality and all not identifying as male or female is actually very part of indian culture it's part of hinduism you know the british came and their christian culture and <tamil>அவாலா வந்து:avaala vanthu</tamil> male female <tamil>இதெல்லா பன்ன கூடாது:ithelaa panne kudathu</tamil> because it was a sin according to the bible <tamil>அதுனால அவா வந்து:athunaale avaa vanthu</tamil> change <tamil>பன்னிட்டா நீ பாத்து போய் கோயில்ல பாத்தனா:pannitaa nee paathu poi koyille paathenaa</tamil> so all these cultures were


female female like kissing and <tamil>இப்ப பாத்தனா சிவா பாத்தனா:ippe paathenaa shiva paathenaa</tamil> it's half male half female which actually says gender is a social construct it doesn't exist it can be both so but then it's always rude in our culture now they can't


big cleveges


respect it properly,


you're bringing up a point, ya ya, you know <tamil>என் அம்மாவு சொல்லுவா:yen ammavu solluvaa</tamil> because okay one thing is when she grew up <tamil>தானெ அவ எப்போது எதாவது கேல்வி கேட்டா அவ அம்மாலா இப்டிலா சொல்ல கூடாது:thaane ave eppothu ethavathu kelvi ketta ava ammala ipdila solle kudathu</tamil> like exactly what you told <tamil>இப்டிலா சொல்ல கூடாது இதுலா தப்பு இப்டிலா பேச கூடாது:ipdilaa solle kudathu ithella tappu ipdilla pese kudathu</tamil> so she didn't want that to happen to me so she always thinks of someone reason to explain to me


and if she doesn't you know there are some things okay there is one thing she doesn't let me do she doesn't let me sleepover


dena are you a firefighter are you a firefighter


it's a fire, okay do your parents respect your mental health


!aiyoyo!


but you don't really open up to your friends either like, when it's better or now


ya what about me, I I stopped opening up I don't know why but I've stopped but if I do open up like okay I'll tell my mum but actually like when I tell <tamil>நா அம்மாகிட்ட சொன்னனா:naa amme kitte sonnenaa</tamil> the consequences to it she'll ask me like two days later <tamil>இப்ப கூட என்ன ஆச்சு என்ன இது பன்னாத:ippe koode enne aachu enne ithu pannaathe</tamil> but I feel it is better to open up to your parents like my mum is very mature she's very practical like you said but practical to a level where she goes to the emotions and fixes and she gives me corrective <tamil>இது பன்னா இது பன்னனுதா:ithu panna ithu pannenuthaa</tamil> and she follows it up


is good but I feel it becomes too serious because it's like some checklist which makes it very serious it's not that deep like I'm still a kid you know the adult I'm a kid like it's not that like


it's like he doesn't understand why I have emotions and why I have to leave the house why I'm not on my computer studying he's is like a child should only study that's it and he's very toxic cause like, I okay one thing is I didn't get into raffles by a point then he got like <tamil>இருக்கர:irukere</tamil> respect <tamil>டு போய்ருது:tu poiruthu</tamil> then he doesn't respect me anymore he just got very mad


SMU ya I'm in CS yes it's a big thing but then you know whenever he tells people right like getting into CS is very tough but he says, she's in CS but she's only in SMU CS because she couldn't get into NUS and NTU CS that's literally she's in CS yes but SMU because she couldn't get into NTU when people say what university is your child in and what does she study you would say she studies computer science and she's in SMU you know where is she studying she studies CS


but she couldn't get into NTU so she's in SMU, ya so like, I don't knowso he doesn't but he doesn't really he's very like, marks that kind achievement everytime I talk to him he's like how can you improve your resume who should you talk to what can you do and it gets really stressful


so like I'd rather not I don't speak to him and he's it's his way of saying, connecting <tamil>என்ன பன்னுவானா காசு கொடுத்துட்டெ இருப்பா ஆனா:enne pannuvaanaa kaasu kuduthutee irupaa aana</tamil> but I don't spend money a lot so what do I do I just give it back I don't care like it's fine I don't really care so I connect with my mum she doesn't give me money she doesn't like buy me stuff and she talks to me so I feel more open with her and I open to her more


but it's not your fault also because they have to be emotionally avaliable to you they are like both spectrum what you do


but like at least like someone for you to talk when you know you have your back becasuee friends come and go lah like usually these days, ya, everybody is very temporary but you know the thing is I watch this video just now and they talk about you know how we talk about relationships building up and like we always say how friendship


forever you know the <tamil>ரொம்ப:rombe</tamil> bad incorrect institution once you say friendships can last at certain points in your life and even if it ends it's okay while it lasted it still benefited you it's still meaningful just because it ended doesn't mean it's bad


throughout your life and as you grow older you don't best friend you have different people who open up different parts of your soul


do you think you can do that I don't think I can do that


text


I think cause like life moves very fast also like you said we are very social how can we connect so differently outgrow each other


ya, you can just change how you want to do life and totally your life is completely reset, ya


like it's good to grow imagine if you were the same person you were at eighteen or nineteen, that's sad but you know I think <tamil>நா வந்து என்னனா:naa vanthu ennenaa</tamil> I think


I think <tamil>நா வந்து:naa vanthu</tamil> I need like if I'm close to one or two people to remain close to them I need to text them constantly not text everybody but like my one or two friends, I think I still text them constantly but <tamil>அவுங்க தவிர:avungale tavire</tamil> I don't really care and I don't really put effort that's the thing cause like have to waste like my two friends


I don't really care but I think now that in uni we're trying to meet new people I realised I have to have more than two friends on my phone, or is like bad like <tamil>வெளில போனுனா:velile ponunaa</tamil> like have you heard of that term it's not who what you know it's who you know, so and at least you know I haven't gone out for so many months I forgot how to talk to people like once I went two weeks ago to school to meet a semi close like


like long time friend I forgot how to speak and interact with people I don't know and it's not a good thing we should know how to handle ourselves in social situations


you don't need to though, ya, cause you like and a lot of what I realised as you use project work and stuff power dynamics are also important because


and I was a new member these people have been together for like five months


is also very imporant, !hey! you know I was reading right just now like you know sometimes I go on omeagle for fun like I heard on tiktok sex offender sex (ugh) human traffickers there


I stopped ya that's why lots of people started coming on tiktok going like there's sex traffickers there don't,


, , , dude I put singapore then he said he's fifteen and he sounded like ishdave so I said are you ishdave


ya but


because they when they talk to you like video call they can really connectvwith you and they have enough time to like find your details and stuff, chatting


oh my god but I have been doing omeagle since I was thirteen just for fun, seeing things I was not supposed to so like <tamil>இப்பெல்லா நா:ipeelaa naa</tamil> omeagle <tamil>போமொது அந்த:pomothu anthe</tamil> thirteen fourteen year old <tamil>பாத்தா:paatha</tamil> cause they would think you are just hear to talk to you


come like can you just please go they like no I want to have fun, ya


but they all growing up too fast like you see Ishte like our friends Ishte Anonya our friends


ya, and you don't know the consequences like like carrying diseases it'll be like if you drink too much you know there was this girl that drank too much that she started bleeding, I don't know and then her her


lip turned blue, it turned literally she started hemorrhaging, but then she continues drinking so like is not knowing the consequences and if you're at that age you really won't know the consequences


he'll already retook (ugh) have to retake then it doesn't look good in your college portfolios and a lot of stuff like whether you'll meet the right people and you'll


you'll <tamil>அப்ரொ நீ:apro nee</tamil> correct <tamil>டா:ta</tamil> decisions <tamil>எடுக்க மாட்ட:edukke maate</tamil> and you won't have once you go back you can't go forth, so it's very difficult and inherent in the system


ya, and they won't let you forget your <tamil>நீ அப்ரோ நல்லா பன்னாலு நா பன்னிருக்கென்ல அந்த:nee apro nalla pannaalu naa pannirukenle anthe</tamil> mistake <tamil>க திரும்ப எடுப்பாங்க:ke tirumbe edupangge</tamil> it's it's


it's like your identity is fixed which is scary, not our children but I hope our children don't I mean I won't let my child become I think I'll be a tiger mother exactly a tiger mother


ya, which is for what I also don't understand seven to eight three she's just fainting she walks it's okay


ya because there are other things like how to talk to people how to emotionally mature <tamil>ஏனா இப்ப நீ கத்துக்குலனா:yenaa ippe nee kathukulenaa</tamil> you also screw up other people's lives and people like us have to suffer, so you have to fix your food first and you know you can dabble with other interests because we have subjects like geography history math who actually takes those subjects


one to twelve <tamil>ஆனா:aana</tamil> full <tamil>லா வந்து அதா:laa vanthu athaa</tamil> university level so you need to find out more interests also


like school is a bit


critical thinking


!hey! no offence but like the very fact that <tamil>நம்ம:namme</tamil> education system <tamil>அதா:athaa</tamil> test <tamil>பன்ரது:panruthu</tamil> that's why NUS is like only the cream of the corp for some courses <tamil>ஆனா:aana</tamil> it's the school with the worst of all sexual assault cases


no but medicine and yes ya, okay ya that is true, ya


[ah] okay okay, [ah] <tamil>நல்லா நானு வந்து சாப்புட்ரே:alla naanu vanthu saapudre</tamil> okay <tamil>நல்ல:nalle</tamil> conversation bye bye


hi I'm Nisha


okay okay, only a few of my friends actually my family


okay, err


I used to till ten ten ten grade then I changed to french in, err eleventh and twelveth, french for beginners, I was actually kind of sick of tamil actually because one thing was it was most of my friends were hindi lah and like


I don't even touch my books


even now I'm not a child but my mom still hates me my my dad my dad is always okay with me my dad is always like chill <tamil>என் அம்மாதா ஒரு மாதிரி என் தல மேல ஒக்காந்து மொலகா அரச்சின்டெ இருக்கா:yen ammathaa oru maathiri en thala mele okkanthu molagaa arainchide irukaa</tamil> true true she is very possessive I don't know whether that is a good thing or a bad thing


, I mean it goes both ways again like you can't really say which is better I mean there is of course there is a safety net but


what about you did you study tamil


, oh my god same same


let me go so


oh my god how many people in your school actually took tamil like was it majority hindi or tamil, really that was different from for international school I said right there were only two people in my tamil class everybody took hindi and it was also weird like there was this one time like we had second language exam and the teacher was like who all take tamil and then this guy was like a grand total of two people take tamil and then me me and that girl were like oh my god this is awkward but let's just pretend that we did not hear that


I mean I don't wish but like I I mean the I only know hindi I watch a lot of hindi shows so it's good enough for me to communicate so like now like now in NUS I have more tamil than friends than hindi so I'm at advantage at both ways of like knowing both hindi and tamil so in a way I do I do appreciate that my parents put me in tamil at least at least I can communicate to everybody at this point hm what about you


ya, exactly exactly


true true true <tamil>ஆனா அந்த நடுவுல இருக்கு இருக்கும்போதுதா ஒரு மாதிரியா இருக்கு:aana anthe naduvule irukku irukkumpothuthaa oru maathiriyaa irukku</tamil> like <tamil>இங்கயு வராது அங்கயு வராது:inggeyu varaathu anggeyu varaathu</tamil> like <tamil>எங்க போனோ:engge pono</tamil> , that's why I'm glad I met you


, so what are your plans in the future


tell me something I don't know,


oh my god, I hate hate hate hate hate coding like <tamil>அத பாத்தாலெ எனக்கு கோவமாகு:athe paathale enaku kovemaagu</tamil> no like <tamil>என்னோட மொதல்:ennode mothal</tamil> semester <tamil>ல எனக்கு கொஞ்சொ:le enaku konjo</tamil> kinda coding module <tamil>இருந்தது அப்பொ அத:irunthathu appe athe</tamil> code <tamil>பன்னமொது கண்ணு பயங்கரமா வலிச்சது தூங்ககூட முடில:pannemothu kannu bayangaremaa valichathu tuungekode mudile</tamil> like I have to wear reading glasses for the next whole semester cause I can't even see properly that's how bad my eyes became so I don't even know


like it it was really, you know messing up my eyesight ya body also my sleep my everything so I'm just like you know what I'm not taking coding modules anymore but but was actually requirement for my course right engineering and I had to take coding but


I'm not I'm not going gonna do it anymore I'm I'm glad I'm I'm I'm like oh we're over that, ya I'd rather not