it's not it's how can a person like how can if you want talk about economy right how can you put uh a company's precedence over an individual, like you want to say that oh because company also need need to earn money how can you put that over a an individual's loss


they never even spend anything, there were no losses


ya you didn't get any of the products, !wah! I will angry sia


ya, it's not even your fault sia it's not even your you and simon's fault you guys are like preparing for it and then like had had it been uh how it was planned I feel like it wouldn't be this stressful or this difficult by now like everything should have settled down you know like the majlis are over like you get duit salam you know


, I told Aqil I had no expectations like kalau dia nak kahwin kahwin ah but other than that I'm just thinking at my own time ah cause like I'm not trying to find someone to settle down to start a family with like


of course tapi I tak nak macam okay I need to find a man yang I boleh kahwin no it's like I want to find a man that I love and then slowly everything will uh fall into place lah like if if we kahwin then kahwin like but ultimately I feel like uh it's important that Aqil and I learn about each other first and like trust each other and like be accepting ah of one another


so like we end up finish right now where we're just trying to figure each other out so pelan-pelan ah, oh you know you know he's so cute he was like when are you going to be my girlfriend like officially my girlfriend


err like a couple of weeks ago cause I tell him like by default I feel like we are boyfriend and girlfriend, because we are exclusive kita tak cakap we we kita tak berbual dengan orang lain like we love each other like we see a future in each other tapi


I still have this need to officiate it, and then he was like okay at the end of the year, ya ya , at the end of the year cause like he says that he wants me to focus on school and work like he doesn't want me to worry about this


so I was like I guess can take it as a test like I don't know like just wait it out and observe


he must see me siapa text he must see me siapa call, I'm not used to that and then he's like I nak tengok your gallery I was like is this what my friends do his eyes are all (ugh) in my mind like low key I'm still like single because like mentally like I'm trying to like you know


get myself there and tell myself like I'm in a relationship, never I never tell him this yet, , , ya


oh right so anyway like in december he kata like he wanna get promise rings that he says that he want to get promise rings for us like start working towards marriage and then I macam oh then he cakap ah actually dia dah start saving like he's very uh thrifty like


he doesn't spend like he really saves you know like he can really save money and like that's one thing that I like admire about him lah he's very responsible spender so like he saying that he has already started saving money then I was like oh, just like


I think it's quite cute lah like how sure he is of me , ya, you know like he told me right the last girlfriend ah he never they never officiate the relationship like after a few months of dating she was like you're my boyfriend right and then he told me like in after one month less than a month of me and him like seeing each other he he felt so sure of me that he wanted to ask me to be his girlfriend that he ask me directly you do you want to be my girlfriend I was like oh so like to him it means a lot lah that he ask me then I was like [orh] okay


then, ya, that's why he says he's really sure of me, also like I feel like honestly deep down I still have unresolved issues you with Hassan


me I still have unresolved issues with Hassan, like a lot of things happen because of him like macam me and my parents like ya like me and my parents, ya we're still not talking tau babe


then I was really sad cause during my birthday dorang tak wish I , happy happy birthday, never wish me then but they bought me a cake, they they bought me a cake at nine PM then they say we waiting for you to come home to cut cake but actually I went sleepover !wah! I felt like the shittiest daughter ever sia babe


but it's okay, ya ya ya they bought me a cake, so like that's the thing there's so many like ah loose threads or like uh consequences on some like those aftermath of me and Hassan that I'm still trying to figure out because I don't want to go into a new relationship with Aqil and have like all these things unresolved like if I want to be with Aqil I want to be with Aqil only and not have like oh this is because of Hassan that's because of


like what happen in the past and all that, , then on like on the low key I still care about Hassan like sometimes I wonder like is he doing okay and all that, I, I know like I know he's an adult like I know dia boleh jaga diri dia sendiri dia dah besar like he'll be fine but on the low-key I still like think about him sometimes like is he okay like is he eating well is he like


take care of himself, I think so ah because like he was a great boyfriend sia babe only things things messed up after the relationship, so like I was so sure of Hassan ah I wanted to fight it out fight it out for him oh my god okay I nak bilang you something ah yesterday yesterday semalam I told Aqil this I say I cakap dengan Aqil


I went through a lot of shit, for the past like couple of years like since last year ah, and to be honest right I'm so glad it happened because I got to meet you, like I really felt that way sia babe like, like the thing with Hassan all that shit that went through like I went through with the other guys like


I will go through it a million times knowing the fact that I'm going to meet Aqil and this is going to happen, ya, it's so crazy like how like at peace I am with how things like how things tertulis ah lah like is everything tertulis what like


how things play out , ya but it's just like only time ah babe only time will tell like the outcome of with me and Aqil


, I I tak nak tengok ah the gambar-gambar like it makes


okay, thank you babe like you just, factory restore it's not on my laptop it's on my phone and you just delete everything


but I have some things that I want to keep like myself and friends , ya I don't know ah like, I mean I really really hope Hassan


everything will work out well for him because I really still want him to be happy he deserve happiness ah babe he's a good guy, I mean during the relationship lah after that I don't know what happened,


right


uh after after Hassan, cause you were still with Audi and then like we went out remember you me Hassan you me Hassan Audi ya, ya


honestly right I have this theory that sometimes like people suppress their true colours or their true form and they become someone else that they think that the partner like prefers ya and then when things don't work out their true form like comes back


like you think you know someone until like they don't have feelings for you anymore and then you will really know who that person is, I feel so eh babe


uh like when he was with me he was like before me he was very like cold like he's very err like, ah very action ah, like he's a very action person I feel like it's because it's like it's like defence mechanism like it doesn't let anyone in he doesn't he's not friends with just everybody like he picks his friends very picky with his friends and then like uh when me and him started hanging out he became more friendly he become more open and more like outspoken and all that


and then err he became less judgemental, and then when we start we stop like being in a relationship we broke up he became that person that I kinda saw in the starting of the relationship, so I'm just like then I wonder ah like how long can a person actually suppress themselves like what if you get married to this person


that's like trying to be macam they are trying to, be someone that they're not


then their true form comes out !wah! scary ah, deep talks okay where's the malay lines let's put in some malay in here, ah


okay, ah tentang Hassan dan Aqil,


oh I still macam sedih [seh] you and simon tak pergi honeymoon, like that would be, the thing yang I akan look forward to right


babe thailand the best place ya, thai pancake sedap Dok thai pancake


ya but Krabi punya water activities lame juga ah, oh ya you went with your family right, that's nice


, okay abeh atas I tell my parents I go with you then over there we separate


I tell my parents I go with you, then kat sana kita separate, !huh!


ah ah, ah ah kita I tell, I tell my parents that I go dengan you then kat kat sana then I separate lah dengan Aqil lah


oh right


you don't like macam buat activity, ya not your thing okay okay I get it


, oh my god, Bangkok is it, I think it's Bangkok right


like, if I don't have anything that I like then boring gila [seh]


I feel like kita should go, sorry, no lah I think you you and simon should have your time first, you guys should go Bali sia babe


buat anak dekat Bali , no like Bali is is accepting like tourists at the end of the year, so you should like


eh they have they have like private villas with pools and like nice nice ass views and the food's pretty good I think you should check it out, it's just like for maybe like three nights lah you just have time for each other


just Lepak with each other, uh kalau kita empat pergi Bali Aqil dengan I kita pergi uh !ee! kita get high


kita get high on shrooms kita get high on mushrooms, oh my god they're gonna transcribe this


, ya like typing it out like okay so Miza said she and Aqil colon


oh right we can like, ya, I think it'll be fun, [orh] yesterday we saw Aqil ah class like classmates schoolmates at marina barrage then they're like he was with his girlfriend oh my god the girlfriend cantik gila sia I was like freak look like girl crush as fuck and then like uh ya melayu but she doesn't look malay I think she's mixed then


I like macam like I say hi ah but I like frozen a bit so tell I a bit shy cause like I'm flustered and then Aqil was like are you like shy then I was like no I just I couldn't tell him that I'm like like I'm secretly crushing on your friend's girl


then ah, ah ya the the they were in the lot and then like Aqil saw them then Aqil was like eh and then he park near near their lot in their lot, ya


we bought like err Decathlon chairs so like we would like sit outside and just like look at people, because right babe when we duduk in the car Aqil need to on the aircon and then it will run on fuel so like


!huh!, no he doesn't like because he sweats easily , I am not complaining ah cause I also don't mind the aircon his car anyway I tak complain lah pasal I pun nak aircon the kereta dia anyway so up to you lah you nak on aircon I okay [jer] you nak waste nak waste gas


he is a good guy


ya, , ya


ya, , , but I think one thing that I need to like get used to is dia punya cemburu


like his jealousy


then like he gets like kind of jealous then macam oh maybe because he doesn't have many like girlfriends and even if he does they're not good looking , like to me I tak jealous pasal like you can have as many girlfriends as you want


but as long as you know how to be loyal in a relationship and you know boundaries that's what's important to me, Firdaus is an idiot


ya, so like the fact that you and dorang tak together that means like you guys don't want don't have anything lah between you, you know, we got seven more minutes


I punya timer five three two eight, how about yours, ya same,


but honestly like I I'm also like , I'm also quite scared to introduce Aqil to my family you know like that's that's one of the biggest fears, [orh] pasal Aqil tak practising like he doesn't know the basics babe


ya his parents is not like didn't bring him to like classes or like, you know


I feel like kinda is you know why because he doesn't have the he didn't grow up with the basics, so it's kinda hard to like, I don't want to push him I don't want I want you to like you know but one thing that kinda made my heart melt a bit was that day he was saying that he wants to talk like he's not scared of meeting my parents


he was saying like I love your daughter I'm working hard ah to earn a a stable income and I'm also working to better myself as a muslim then I was like !oof! damn cause he dulu tak pernah puasa then he say for the last two years he's been puasa full lah


but he doesn't pray he doesn't know how to pray doesn't know how to like read stuff, okay I mean I don't want to be that girl who's like oh my husband has to be no I've never been like that I always feel like it's a joint effort like it has to be the both of them


and then sometimes I feel like Aqil like morals also questionable, like he ah he's okay to drink he's okay to like, do stuff


but, then he will like judge people who who do that also


that's your opinion but, to me I've always been a to each their own kind of person like, not my responsible to tegur you because you dah tahu all this you dah tahu and like siapa I nak tegur you know


, ya, so I think part yang dia like in terms of I'm just scared macam my parents ada high expectations on Aqil like they, they nak ni nak tu then they will they will I scared they feel like Aqil is not a good enough person to like


can be my husband which is not fair lah pasal they say that based on their own checklist when it should be on my checklist because it's for me, like I yang nak kahwin [pe]


ya


right , I think my my parents punya fear is also because like if I get married they're passing all their responsibility of me to that guy


your mum , ya


eh how's your mum is she okay, err I think december, like I would ask him to meet my parents first before we plan for what's ahead


and then, uh, most likely early next year


or mid next year


but I told him ah like my CPF is enough to tank the down payment, so he's like oh no lah but like he wants to, then I say it's fine like we can like plan lah like, I feel like I feel like Aqil is very very reasonable dan dia punya like


try to understand and see other people's view ah like I feel like that makes it that makes him someone very easy to work with


(ppl) <malay>pecah</malay> (ppo)


eh Liz, !haiya! Liz


ah


as in like she comes back as in like trying to contact me and my family all lah


like this ah, you they will do some software thing on this thing lah like this ah, doesn't matter


and she sent her photos about her wedding and all that, and usually she she never really ask about me, now suddenly she start asking about me lah


no, I asked sheryn lah what are her intentions, her stuff lah


Liz aku ada depression cuma aku tengok-tengok benda tu aku cakap dengan kau [kan]


but she the thing is that


that's why


then behind ah when I was about to push open the sliding door, then bila aku tolak balik sliding door tu memang that [kan] sepatutnya aku nampak my own reflection right


but, it's not my own reflection I see her face, then bila aku tenung benda tu [kan]


ah aku terperanjat kat rumah aku macam terpekik sekejap ah, it was I was really shocked ah then I saw that bloody thing yang that time aku know about this thing said ya they ya dia convert to


and that thing is always behind the glass ah the mirror, ya


ah ah she's like really hideous lah


then aku macam rasa macam ada orang party [kan] aku my girlfriend also feel the same way ah


sheryn check up uh about, two days after aku punya dream to on that sunday ke monday dia text, they text sheryn and not only that she texted sheryn she also texted and called my sister and my mother


err the thing is that


ah dia tak ada kena benda ini lagi [kan], ah then that's why then sheryn cakap asal mak kau pernah bual macam ni dengan bella eh


err, ya


this err kau perasan kau cakap sekarang bapa aku tinggal situ [kan]


so he's staying there that's the thing, then during the conversation between me and my mum pasal dia complain ah dekat rumah ni bau busuk and so on lah macam just feels very uneasy lah


then I saw ah that she still contacting with this girl, ah


eh, Aisha, eh, !huh!


ah two about three months pay,


ah, you should have waited to be retrenched ah Liz , hand pick lah


that's why ah dia orang nak tak nak still have to let her go what, ya lah , ,


[orh],


okay lah


your other language lah,


, ya lah after this they pay you what


, , that's like you just talk trash ah


ah that one I don't know have to ask,


it's, they haven't call you back right


department there's a new department, there's a new department that err


[orh]


what they committed to


no I mean in the restaurant, dinner yang apa yang ten plus leh I was there like nine plus ten plus then quite a few people inside


but the work is normally standing ah long hours ah


ah my friend was asking ah eh like this kind of restaurant also got people eat ah, you mean average price is about how much,


ninety eight, but all those are like macam appetiser tu semua ah, funny eh


sheryn


ya the thing is that she she don't even know her then after that macam apa tahu like, she accused this sheryn because of one thing


but it's a bit of a, merepek nak tuduh orang ambil baju sekolah orang semua mana muat sia, ah


ah


ah ah


and the wife already plan say uh sorry abang err we cannot accept ah this one ah, ah, ah they know lah what's gonna happen lah


that's the thing ah, eh ini aku kenakan dia dekat #batu pahat# pun aku mahu [siol]


oh


wedding videos semua lah she sent it to sheryn lah, then sheryn cakap sheryn cakap ah, no


like sheryn cakap dengan aku betul juga she say like, !wah! what's the point of she contacting now when where was her when the last few years two three years ago


then sheryn also macam very , cautious about this thing ah because she kena she kena with bella


ah, they kena lepas baru the


so aku percaya [kan] dia lah, but the thing is that she she just


but this person the


she kept uh asking sheryn once in a while ah pasal barang-barang and so on then sheryn say eh this thing about your your things and what so ever your handbag you you speak to him personally ah I totally don't want to get involved


ah ah, they they ask her to contact me straight away she will do it one


I mean one last question that she she bring up to sheryn is like uh eh so is he is is he still alone, confirm dia dah tahu lah ada orang bilang dia yang aku dengan orang lah


that's why, don't care lah totally don't care about all these things ah


her problem ni mak my my mother lah


annoying sia


what to do right


, !aiya! everywhere also getting worse ah


, stress kau sia macam nak lari sia


but it's funny you know, the other time, she mentioned she doesn't wanna, she doesn't want to come back and all right


that like then suddenly, now she say she's planning to come back, and renew her PR, nonsense eh


some times I also don't have an idea what she trying to do lah


!oi! Liz, oh dia masih oh she's still inside the group chat ah


, !aiyo!, nine thousand eh


Aisha, oh is it,


!haiya!


what are the TV show


jacket apa aku ada jacket


put the jacket


oh


!wah! the working hours from what time to what time


eh that's long hours sia, !wah! power


you're gonna wash dishes semua complete ah


GST dia sixty something


ah, kerja berapa minit sia, you want a break ah, ah


ah okay lah aku boleh mati ah


ah mak aku api-apikan their partner


I I don't get it lah serious ah


really eh, I had it already eh, really tired you know, talking nonsense eh


it's not helping oh it's not helping everyone oh sampaikan adik aku dah cakap eh ini orang dah tua [kan]


these two eh, they can get back together they can marry all they want lah but serious ah we cannot stay with them ah


ah ah


, Aman


ah


and in the first barang tu bukan barang kau barang orang lain apa yang kau tuduh orang pun cakap barang tu ada dalam cupboard


bella


betul ah, Viber


ya


that's why lepas tu sheryn cakap this one nonsense ah all if really rich ah you marry you go to honeymoon not in your country you will go somewhere else


ah ah, funny leh, very funny eh, then you you claim that your husband got company and so on but it's not he's just a freelance photographer


, then of course lah the apa rumah got this and that but those are probably parents still support or what, ah the greatest mah, then why are you like still hogging around for all these items then sheryn cakap dia kalau really banyak duit punya orang your shoes ah yang dia ambil gambar dia she's she's like doing modelling for her husband what


I just talk nicely ah, I will just tell her that, no need to go and tell people around lah like this one that one you just come straight forward to me I tell you where it is ah, I don't keep it anymore what


probably ah if someone teach her


see lah if she contacts me lah but I'm prepared ah


but then she just keep quiet and then tahan lah until she get a new place what,


(ppc) macam aku pioneer, Tampines, !aiya! life nowadays not easy ah itu pun dia orang bertahan sia


it's about company also cutting manpower what


ah that's the thing lah


no it's really difficult to find a job there, ah, really really


eh Liz nanti take time fill up application form ah since you are here right just fill up the application form here


ah ah ah


as and when you want to talk we talk uh


just leave it blank


Liz you rather work alone or with someone else, like in a team ah,


, Chikopek


ya lah, just put lah, put under AdWords eh put under others lah


AdWords under others, ah others


roughly how long ah dekat pollen, four eh, including the COVID period ah, COVID


that means one hour ah, during that period it closes for like two three hours the dah takde ah


oh like that ah, okay


oh eventually then ten hours straight ah eh, eh eh, but the meals are provided ah


eh your expected nak tukar nak tukar dekat yang resume online ah, so kau nak tukar yang dekat online dia juga [kan], ah


!huh!, think about have about seven more minutes ah, oh currently, [orh] err ini apa ni what you call it ah


err what you call it err cutting down of manpower already ah


he's also in his thirties ah thirty one ah, I feel like the wife also like making use of him eh


the I think he's a malaysian, then like some entah the wife ni dah pernah kahwin dah ada anak then like


woodlands


woodlands to pollen berapa lama sia travel, (oo)


blue line, oh so if you need to swap from woodlands to another circle line it would be the nearest is where


[orh] okay lah, ah I'm just thinking around the circle line


family, your yang lain lain your previous one don't need ah, ah just your your son only


, smoking [jer] ah, uh can lah


oh yes, I got one candidate


tulisan cantik , personal reference skylar ke , of all people ah


one minute more


ah yes


of course lah,


chillax lah, what to do, but they really cut ah


this current company idiot eh, eventually eh, that shouldn't be the way ah


(ppo) !haiya!


ah, yes lah


what, !huh! really


but why does she wants


oh


okay, okay but did she try to reach you out


okay


like such as


then just tell her that way [jer] lah


okay, okay, then


, okay then, okay


eh


ah ah, as in like bukan mimpi ah reality ah


, [orh]


then


ah


ah ah, they text ah


ah, ah


ya lah that's the thing


!huh!


oh okay then


and then


Aisha dengan richard kena retrenched


ah, and then at the same time ah dia orang dapat kerja lagi [kan]


have you been dia ambil suara kita buat apa sia


[orh] okay lah


eh arif tapi kalau boleh jangan kasi kerja on saturday Arif


, monday to friday okay lah


oh ya lah maybe on that day memang kita ramai pax, got one day ticketed about thirty nine pax forty pax forty two, ah ah lah aku diri [jer]


eh mesti lah dia orang makan [siol]


plus plus, appetiser main dessert


ya lah


, the


but did in the first place this in the first place did sheryn ask for it


ya lah,


, sheryn


ah ah


then


okay lah


why funny


sia lah macam kena air con lagi perut dah kenyang mengantuk [siol]


the jacket


sixty one sixty two hours ah


!huh!


ah


but kenapa apa mak kau punya motives sia


[sial] Viber lama [pe]


ah ah, then kalau ada company sendiri asalkan hadap sangat dengan barang yang kau tinggalkan sia


that's it


that's why, ah


Shikin Shikin, female juga ah


oh #tanjong pagar#, sia lah #boon lay# tapi ini jauh ke travel


ya lah


high chance terus tak dapat kerja lagi selepas singapore


unless kau ada muda kau jual lah


eh apa position apply for ah


, rather work alone or with someone, at least satu orang dengan aku ah


eh aku tak habis sekolah aku letak secondary [jer] yes, !alamak! software skill apa yang aku pandai aku pandai Google Google apa Google Ads


others, tick eh, okay


four months lah, , yup


not even one hour


ah


, but they didn't have aware they are there lah meals are provided


ah, ah ah


no no revenue


, like what, [orh]


(mmhmm)


about one hour plus ah some sampai restaurant itself ah


ah ah


you mean kalau aku nak kerja ini di pollen, Bishan lah, ah


family history aku nak cakap apa sia, ah, okay


, are you suffering from any uh no of course everybody will know


can I put no, have you ever been no


ah ah, as in like the dia beli satu carton tapi aku tak beli lah


cut, ah ah lah


ya, brownie, ya I know how to make brownies, sorry, ,


like basic ah I mean most of the time I would say, flour, egg


oh I use I don't use brown sugar I use normal sugar, oh ya that's why oh so actually mak aku cakap [kan] vanilla extract have gelatin


ya, really meh, ya the same same, but [kan] mak aku cakap if you want find like vanilla extract atau vanilla essence


ya that's what my mum say lah I mean she most of the time she bake so I'm not that sure


ya that time kau cakap kau nak Bakekan aku brownies, so kau sudah Bakekan Haikal, !huh! why I thought you must give him


oh, err okay lah but we've been fighting like for the past few days


but we're fine we no we just fight macam sekejap [jer] lah you know like ten minutes kind, no lah because most of them like I'm cranky but then my cranky is like main-main [jer], but I'm fine


!huh! why


but yesterday I saw you post about him then kau delete, why apasal kau delete


lol but, but how's your relationship with him, he updates you or not, he updates you


ah okay okay at least he's doing better than last time, riding motor, wait so dah dia ada motor


oh tapi dia rarely pakai motor, oh okay okay nice, of course lah


no it's either spark atau sniper


when, you have school what


so you have two weeks break, oh that's nice, can ah next week but then, okay maybe not friday since friday hari raya haji [kan], , okay kejap bila ah okay mostly


eh shit, next week aku sekolah lah


monday, this thursday


next thursday, okay anything we update again, , ya can


okay but, okay hopefully nenek aku tak datang sebab she's coming today I think, so I don't know how long she will stay with us


then kau tahu ah kalau ada nenek aku [kan] macam a bit, meh, eh can we try like picnic dekat bonnet


you got try before, ya that one is quite spacious, but I want to try sia that time I saw this couple they went picnic I don't know where ah but then


err the guy drove so the bonnet was quite spacious so, they like decorate the place they put like tikar all, it's like so cool


ya but aku rasa kau punya kereta boleh ah sebab besar [seh], , ya


!wah! Shiok sia habis kau bawa cushion, eh best


what, ah someone actually ajak me to watch train to Busan but then out of nowhere tak update, kau tahu tak siapa


no sis you know I was waiting for it like I want to watch train to Busan then out of nowhere Najrah said, then dia tak update macam okay ada place you know


oh my god


but then end up najrah tak update aku then aku macam okay tak apa lah, eh but what's the continuous ah, the train to Busan one what's the ending part


oh my god you should watch your name dekat Anime, no but you should, ya it's damn fun like it's damn sedih like serious like you will cry like legit cry cry


more handsome than #park seo jun#, (uh huh), ya


is it like movies or series, movies ah, I, you know I've got a lot of shows I have to watch, oh ya but okay I'll watch that after I finish all my english shows


ya I'm watching the vampire diaries and after that I'm going to watch the originals, so I'm quite busy, it's about vampires


you got heard of it before [kan], ya


so when's your due date


ya I think you will


the smell is nice sia, it smells good, it's nice leh, later I'll ask them


so kau tahu HBL aku [kan], sometimes they okay instead okay sometimes HBL it's like it's either kau buka computer then like, Zoom semua kau akan berbual with your cikgu [kan]


no we don't talk like we do assignments so we just have like a few questions like less than five, it's like damn fun because it's like, that one whole week right they don't give like


one assignment, on one day it's like, one assignment like five question like monday until wednesday then that's your deadline wednesday night, so one of our question eh sometimes cause, okay our HBL [kan] like HBL intern HBL intern [kan]


so like rarely they know, like about us, so one of their question that they ask, was what ah, if you can be any kind of colours what will you be, so what is your answer


ya, why, , can it's up to you but why


white stands for purity okay then, for your inner soul


ya maybe ah a bit of both, okay you kau guess apa aku choose, why blue do I look like a blue, no oh my god okay correct answer but aku chose orange


okay cause orange [kan] is like more of sunset it's like most of the basic eh the main colour of sunset is orange, ya so I just chose orange lah at first I don't know but then


primary colours is orange [kan] so aku cakap ah like , sunset is like represent of me ah macam dia can make my soul like very calming


ya so aku macam okay ah then end up aku dapat five points, ya


serious, I think whoever work like, on air right stewardess, they enjoy like they can see all those sunset and sunrise sia


ya, yup true, I want to be stewardess but then end end up aku pakai hijab so like cannot, actually can, fly emirates


she oh cause aku cakap dengan dia like aku nak jadi air stewardess, then she said like go ah like try but then aku cakap like


cause I'm using hijab what so it's hard, then dia cakap she have friends that during flight like on air then they open then after bila touchdown they will use back, you know like you get what I mean


the thing is [kan] kalau kau SIA eh


so I think kalau kau sudah fly Bangkok or something then, they say like eh just now like I thought you never like you know like people assume what eh you use tudung you know


it's damn crazy, ya, I don't think I can


like I would rather, have like okay not flexible work but, I don't like that kind of, like macam back to back, schedule, my body like need rest


ya, I'm still finding jobs but then right it's so hard


like you know okay just now I saw this job search, for temperature screener dia dekat #bukit batok# hospital, so dia orang cakap it's like not flexible but then it's like it's a hospital tapi tak ada aircon


[kan] pelik dia cakap like note [kan] dia cakap below like for the note they said , like have to make sure like they are comfortable with non aircon area


so pada aku macam hospital apa tak akan tak ada aircon, no ah but


lah aircon tak ada biar like I don't want like I want I need, to work somewhere that have aircon or like a fan lah at least, that time [kan] aku dapat okay someone I got, okay not dapat like they replied to me


so aku tanya like hi is this work still available, then [kan] end up orang itu cakap ya okay still have available, then dia orang suruh aku send resume but then they don't reply to it


so aku pergi double text like okay I was being annoying tapi aku need a job, hi excuse me like so is the job still available aku double text tau, then after that


err dia cakap hi yes err dia cakap hi yes sorry like still have, dekat heat tak sebab dia macam open space, so the the open space macam kot you know the security guard guard post


okay so, okay there's no aircon so are you sure you're okay with it, so sudah aku sudah cakap yes I'm okay tapi dia mati-mati macam tanya like


are you sure you're okay so aku macam okay whatever, so aku cakap , okay at least it's like is there any like fan or something like cause it's a guard post what, so obviously there's fan, so aku rasa dia annoyed macam bila aku macam tanya like kalau ada aircon ke ada fan then dia tak reply aku sia


like how how rude is that like I just want to know if there's aircon eh, if there's fan since you said is non aircon and it's open space so obviously, they must install like fan what


I doubt it will open


ya I miss I miss going there then like talking to the kids even though they are annoying, but I don't miss the managers, sorry ah like


ya that voucher


but you got use or not


oh ya ah, but you can ask him to follow you what, right, you can ask him to


ya lah, can what, ah


then


ya, true


I mean it depends sebab [kan], most of the time like they will only do like macam the important stuff


like starting okay maybe the first first few weeks, quite susah lah sebab they have to, like know each other like know what are they supposed to do, but then lama-lama it's quite okay, like that's what I realised lah


ya so, after


tig~ ya ya, ya ya, that's why so, he have to think about it lor like you know lagi dia sudah family strict


then kalau after dia book out dia nak jumpa kau macam mana eh, ap~ like what's his reason like, to go out, you never ask ah


oh my god okay, so right okay


ya okay so, okay err when I started , maybe, ya last two weeks, okay okay so [kan] actually


but then he have to give back sebab dia NSF, ya okay so


okay itu Zeko dia pergi bilang aisha like macam kau tahu macam member [seh] kau just bilang like about our problems, then after that itu tak apa then Zeko sudah bayar like two days after yang dia dapat that notice


ya so that day right my mum dapat tahu my mum called me like around ten, she said err where are you so I said lah like I'm at newton then she said err awak keluar dengan lelaki [kan] then I was like


how mama know I went out with Zeko then she said, err sarah said it's obvious lah and then I was like what do you mean it's obvious, then she said most most of the time if you go out with your friends you will say the name


but then today you just said you going out then I was like !huh!


then aku saat masuk rumah aku cakap ah relax lah like it's only


then ah then aku macam okay ah whatever then aku bilang sarah like, what's mama's problem lah what like why she keeps on calling us like, she said curfew at one so why are you like bothering us around twelve


ya aku Sot but then I think it was like my tone


then aisha pergi masuk bilik dulu ah so aku kat luar so obviously aisha macam nak gossip gossip, dia pergi bilang sarah


so but then Aisha was like blaming me then aku macam like, dude like our curfew is at one, but then you act as it you are the err special child you know like


, oh ya then mak aku cakap tak lah like err Aisha [kan]


like mix of both so like there's bad and good lah, macam family tak ada family support that kind


so awak err Zeko dia sudah bayar yang duit government, like how you know then kita tanya mak aku ah how mama know, then she said ada lah mama ada spy


so aku sudah Sot like I was damn pissed off lah I was like, like it's Zeko'S story but then how come Zeko, told Aisha then end up like mama know you know, ya then after that at first aku sudah bilang sarah aku cakap oh Zeko kena bayar balik that five hundred


!huh! okay then I was so pissed


so I went to expose one of Aisha'S secret lah, then after I exposed then after that err my mum was like


ah [kan] mama punya mulut masin like I already told her to not balik lambat or like, illegal gathering lah then I was like okay whatever, then bila aku sudah keluar semua err Aisha texted me she said, err Mariam did you tell mama that


err I kena fined blah blah blah then I was like, !huh! no lah mama [kan] ada spy you ask her lah, then she was like err Mizi told me, that you told mama about it then aku cakap


so apparently she go text Aisha eh she go text sarah she said, apasal like mariam nak kena expose aku like, why must she tarnish my name by saving her boyfriend's name


technically it's your fault because you started the topic first, then after that aisha cakap ah like like I don't know she was just like saving her own ass, then after that betul [pe] like story itu is Zeko'S story tapi apasal kau pergi bilang mama


err habis like just see like you talking about the boyfriend's name to mama like you know, like you get what mean macam I'm not saving anyone's ass but it's just that


it's just Zeko'S ranting to you then end up you have to tell mama about it, how to say ah like she always talks about her friend's problem but then she don't talk about her problem


like one time she macam she balik the she said


like mama don't care like who asked like no one asked about like you just tak ada topic and talked about it you know, like pada aku macam !huh! tak ada orang tak ada orang start topic pun like pasal ini like who asked


she, she go use my CDG


converse [kan] nanti kalau flip that thingy nanti ada yang the converse punya name [kan], then okay first dia tak tanya aku permission tau, like


then after that aku text dia aku cakap one more time if I see my shoes like this, I will throw your nike inside the water


the least you can say is sorry what like at least aku jaga barang kau baik-baik habis dia nak cakap dia cakap sarah like


aku pakai barang dia semua tak minta permission like bag dia kenapa macam aku sudah make it aku sudah minta kau permission it's just that kau macam tak acknowledge it you know, then aku macam ah whatever lah then err dia cakap dengan sarah I want to buy CDG shoes so like


err Mariam don't have to like nag then aku macam I won't nag if you don't, if you know how to like, ya if you know how to take care of my shoes you know that time one time right I washed it, then out of no where suddenly the next day dia pakai then ada kotor lagi like do you know how pissed I was like


err, !huh!, okay not really arguing like okay you know that tension in the air


(oo) I sense tension then aku macam ha lah kau just stop, cause


I I won't say it's okay ah but, I don't know lah I mean if she say she will stop using my stuff then okay lor but, I doubt she will stick to that, confirm nanti balik [kan] dia akan cakap aku err pergi buka beg sekolah aku cause that time I use her bag


confirm one then, but then aku still haven't use her nike shoes so now I'm just trying to find like, a way to use it


no okay cause okay one thing for me right I will ask permission but then for her right she won't


no, okay so one thing about sarah her size is small


that's why so it's like she don't have this kind of thing where we have to argue about shoes like, cause me and Aisha our shoe size is not that


merry eh kasut apa tu doctor mart


cause aku tengok huda pakai sudah macam kasut ke bawah blok tau dia pakai macam just, like comfortable, ya tapi sarah punya is not my size so bila aku pakai it's like extra ketat and like pain


you get what I mean, that's why so like I was thinking if I should buy


like for next year birthday present but then the thing is


a'ah macam since, Swee Swee tapi like there's a little bit of space tapi sekarang sudah Swee Swee so like


not thick socks but then like still a long socks for me, so I really don't know like sarah can use lah but then she rarely use, those kind of, ya, so , I mean I have a lot of like outfits to like match with it but then


like no thanks later will ruin all the fun because I will complain about my blister and all


ya, one okay I saw two of it what's the another one


oh oh okay okay okay okay, ah but you rarely use that now, no you can just use it anywhere like go lot, BP hillion


don't lie sometimes your simple is like aku pakai lepak then end up macam dressed up don't lie don't lie I know you, okay now


I just need to find high waisted white, the ones that you always use the high waisted yang flair


white white, you have right, ya I think that one can match my baju because, okay I have to bring that baju to you sebab dia kat bawah sh~ tali tau


that's why I need something that is like secured to


err ah ya I think so I think so, ya dia bukan skinny dia flare yang macam boyfriend's jeans kind, you know right


ya because that baju since that time [seh] my mum buy but then I haven't use yet cause I cannot find like the correct, , bottom, I can use this bottom the one that I'm using now but then


what, err ya, yes,


then, okay,


!huh! , see what, !huh!


what what hole, nonsense lah that guy, so what are you going to stop wearing it no right, , no wait I'm thinking what hole can see


lol but you you are using inner what, nonsense lah this guy


ya but then now luckily he isn't like luckily, !wow!, being with someone like so long macam until like they say like, eh baju you boleh nampak dalam [kan] baju you boleh nampak dalam [kan]


a'ah lah like really can nampak like okay dulu kalau aku nampak macam singlet [kan], okay even though aku pakai singlet tapi boleh nampak the singlet punya shape [kan]


no don't want macam aku feel macam no lah orang like kau tahu sun ah kalau sunlight [kan] nampak obvious [kan] then aku macam tak apa ah like


cause I think that I'm ya I'm so used to it, err macam how to say ah like very far from each other so like


can see the dalam [kan], like singlet aku akan just pakai err what ah what's that


style so like can cover the in front


[kan] it's like err it's okay


who what, ya honesty ah ya I know, , but then, it's not hard if he doesn't have strict parents


I mean if he don't mind like okay like if he have motor or car right and he can just travel like anytime anywhere, I don't think it's a problem but the thing is now is like, the problem is about kau orang kau orang punya time and like macam parents dia pun quite strict


if tak strict aku rasa most of the time dia sudah ajak kau sudah datang like, eh come my house ah my parents here like just you know


he was supposed to come over lah but then end up he have the stay home notice


then aku tanya ah like err do you have all those ingredients that I can, cook for you, so mak dia tak ada kat rumah so aku call mak dia aku suka like where do you keep all those like, stuff lah the sayur-sayur all that shit


but then it tastes weird okay it tastes nice but then, it taste, different sebab aku pakai for my house right I use cube


a'ah kau tahu macam the #tom yum# cube all those shit, but then Zeko punya [kan] kita tak ada cube dekat U star, so kita pakai serbuk yang powder, so aku macam okay ah hopefully it's nice ah then


the parents know what like I'm cooking and they're fine with it, then sarah say tak tahu malu then aku cakap like is it wrong , is it wrong it's not wrong right


ya but then macam pada sarah macam why like why are you doing this then aku macam what like, the mum said it's nice so it's fine


ya but I can only cook that like no other stuff, oh my god ya okay okay


okay nanti aku akan masak lah


okay, okay okay can, eat ya oh my god I'm so hungry, , since, okay should we check out the just now the Kopitiam place


no why, okay can, okay so do you still want to go Bugis, okay nevermind that one we think about it later


okay but for now, I'm not sure what they have there I mean, , not really eh I only brought ten dollars sia


ya aku aku sudah split duit dengan kakak aku then aku macam how much should I bring then aku cakap okay ah about ten [jer], oh my god what the hell


no cause aku pergi adam's road, it's so far like we're at one north already, if ah we go home then you take your car


and then we go drive, that's a good plan, but you have to go home before seven so, no


ya, is it four five six seven okay so what you want go home or you want go straight eat


or we can drive to one north again then we eat inside


no we should go to this Kopitiam, I didn't know what is it called but okay I don't know what's my cravings but, I forgot it's


oh newton, it's so nice


for tempat duduk lah then so while they're standing they're just choosing their food, ya it's just me


I feel like getting eighteen chef okay no, pastamania, eh you know yesterday


(mmhmm), then,


at where,


one bar


oh okay


!walao!, who


depan aku sekarang sudah ada this like mask yang kau tahu macam those topeng where


ya, then dia orang akan pakai like this costume, ah eh benda ni boleh letak kepala kau [seh]


okay kita tinggal like twenty minutes left I I don't know ten, eh five, really oh ah, okay wait now we have to think about our food


okay, (hmm), no, no I mean like, if that okay pros about there's no cars right the traffic won't be like


congested, then like the air pollutant won't be like so bad, ya !duh!, but the thing is [kan]


and no I can't do that like, okay how about there's no cars but there's only motors, okay wait or right okay kalau tak ada motor atau car


eh cool gila sia !huh!


ah skinny dip , [kan] no [kan] you pernah buat [kan]


you know the wattpad, they always talk about when they go beach then sometimes they try this skinny dip then aku macam apa sia skinny dipping


then aku pergi check then aku check google aku macam what is skinny dipping, then dia orang tunjuk the results then aku macam ya allah mata go where, ya ya


ya but I thought Sentosa don't have all these kind, (hmm), ya but some people do that without like, you know being feared of it


same but I don't really like the beach it's so hot, I mean, that's the purpose of it lah to go beach getting tan


I mean I can be rich like by working hard, but then like kau imagine macam you grow up being rich, like you grow up with like a mansion like you don't have to worry about anything


it's so it's so fun, okay aku tanya kau eh what's one topic right, like macam sarah right and her kawan like macam one topic her kawan macam don't like to talk about is like macam sex


ya but then aku tengah terfikir like kawan aku okay kawan aku aqilah [kan], she don't like to talk about money, ya macam okay example like macam okay kawan aku tanya aku oh bank engkau berapa like aku cakap oh nine dollar


cause kita semua tak nak keluarkan duit then for Aqilah [kan] kita semua diri dekat tepi dia then dia pergi cover tau dia punya account


cause but I think confirm a lot cause she work as bond, like after her poly then she will work like this company ah then they will pay her eight hundred, eight hundred every month like ever since she started her bond so macam I think two years already her bond like


so macam confirm a lot then lagi her parents bagi dia like duit allowance, then ya that's one thing ah that I realized for Aqilah she don't like talk about money, but then for my like Syara and Shak


like, sex ah, ya I think


, Mariam, ya, cause I want to make, I want to make brownies but I don't know how, what do you add


because usually aku letak like , flour I put flour baking powder, eh no I don't put baking powder I put sugar the brown sugar


really but I don't know what is the difference between like vanilla essence and vanilla extract, serious, but my mum said uh vanilla extract is much more uh stronger compared to vanilla essence


it's super nice


serious, but we should start baking soon, like together kind of thing, which I'm going to soon


not now, I still, okay the thing is that I was supposed to bake for him yesterday when I met him, but uh I woke up late, so I was like and I met him really early


okay but anyway since we are in this topic how's you and Fiqul, why


ah, same ah me and Haikal has not been talking like frequently, because because we are both very not we but I think he's very busy so and then I'm always out kind of thing, but we do try to


we do try to like video calls and all but, ya but I mean overall we're doing fine so I think that is the good part of it lah, !huh!, yes, no because you notice that video his


okay maybe I'll post more later but not, I don't know I didn't really like take a lot of videos yesterday which is quite sad because I don't have videos to watch when I'm bored or I miss him, but , wednesday was nice


we're doing great like I think we are !huh!, he he does update me but you know like at the end of the day like, oh how's your day then that's when like he will tell me oh I did this I did that that kind of thing, but he don't really like update me on the spot


ya but he has been riding these days like instead of driving he's been like riding, which ya yup


err technically ya dia orang ada motor and car, ah ya but that motor does not belong to him lah it's actually his uncle's one and his uncle gave it to him, but I seram though aku selalu takut [seh] bila dia naik motor


serious, what is Fiqul'S Fiqul'S punya motor apa ah


anyways anyways I mean this is, out of the topic but, kita pergi picnic [jer], picnic ya, uh , no I have I have two weeks break right now so, it's this week and next week and I think we're going next week because


I don't have money now so , yup two weeks break, yup


I think we can go like thursday wednesday


then kita should uh have picnic on like, monday, okay let's have picnic on thursday, no


yes, okay but next thursday if we are going to have picnic let's have picnic at marina barrage or either uh Sentosa, but we try to budget ah like you know we cook home food kind of shit


kind of thing, !huh!


other than that maybe I can drive around or something then you just follow, can


I've never tried before but because my kereta [kan] belakang boleh turun [kan], and so the space is very big ya


eh but it's really nice you know but those kind of cars you have to like turunkan belakang dia and all lah


so lagi kalau kita turunkan tempat kereta aku [kan] ada tiga [kan] like three rows of seats what, so if you turunkan the the back two, !wah! besar gila [seh] kita boleh baring juga [seh]


a'ah, , eh itu Shiok gila kita baring eh anyways anyways, even if I can't use their car train to Busan two is out


ya I know right, but tahu naj lah no but


[kan], [kan] [kan] [kan] because ah dia cakap dengan aku uh are you free with Mariam, on the in in the evening then I was like , I'm free but I'm very broke right now, and then he said ah she said err okay then that's nevermind then I said but it's okay ah I mean


I mean technically I'm not really broke what I have my savings what, so I uh I told her just plan for it ah and then she said oh tak apa lah err tak ada slot, so aku macam ah lah macam it's train to Busan two [seh]


[kan], but apa train ah apa nama dia err, have you watched train to Busan one, (hmm), the ending part was only the mum and the daughter that survived


eh the mom and the the this child, this girl that survived and the rest died, but I think if you go to one to three movies or AFDAH


should have ah but we can check it out later


, and he don't watch Anime eh anyways dekat netflix you should watch this, twogether it's like T W O G E T H E R


okay so basically it's it's just like a, it's like a variety it's not really a variety show but it's a show where , so #lee seung# #lee seung gi# and this really really handsome


taiwanese actor I think, he is so handsome by the way his smile is oh my gosh, okay so basically [kan] dia orang dua ah will go to like places like ah countries like uh, Jogja~ Yogyakarta Bali Bangkok that kind of thing that kind of places


and then they will given different missions, to find this fan, uh it's like a series I think, but it's so good I I'm in love with it, and you which kau sudah tengok it's okay not to be okay


it's okay not to be okay, english shows


the originals, I know but uh vampire diaries, okay okay sure, ya I've heard of it before I but I really want to watch it's okay not to be okay they say it's good


[kan], so


assignments that I have to catch up on, and I'm so distracted right now, and it's so hard with this HBL because, oh honestly ah I would rather school to start because


I mean I'm going to be super busy because I have CCA every monday wednesday friday


is it, okay anyways Mariam, my, (uh huh)


(mmhmm), mine


ah I would be a white and black, would I have to choose one only can I choose white and black, okay the most basic answer would be because


they're my favourite colours, but other than that I feel like white stands for purity, and, black it's like, black is not necessarily bad lah tapi bagi aku


, inner soul eh okay maybe my inner soul is black and white, !wow! it's like a gift


blue, because you like sunsets skies, why, orange out of all colours


okay


ya I love it too, you want to know something something I remember ah it I was aku kat dalam plane, and then I was at the window seat like I'm I usually can't sit at the window seat what cause of my motion sickness, but that day I was at the window seat and then


the sky was so clear it was so beautiful I remember crying, ya I was literally like tearing up because of how beautiful it was, it was super beautiful


ya but some people said , they are away from the problems below, where they are high up you get what I mean


but but my cousin is a, emirates stewardess


still SIA [kan]


ya I get what you mean


a'ah SIA


but you know as err as a steward steward and stewardess it's also hard sebab , all over you know sometimes you are like oh you just touched down and then next moment oh you have to fly again that kind of thing lah but it's really nice


I really can't wait, to travel


but ah I honestly I feel like, I feel like working, somewhere but it's so hard right now, because I don't know I mean you know my travel plans what I'm going for Bangkok and also korea


once all this settles down


so what do you say, (mmhmm) (mmhmm)


(mmhmm) (mmhmm)


but right Mar, I honestly really can't wait for kids club to be open back I mean I know it's impossible now, ya but I really want it to open you know like I don't know lah I just miss handling kids


I miss like, working at counter,


voucher, I think, I think you will get eventually it's just that it's not this month, because what they told me is that I've work hard for the month of june but the june I'm not I've not been working what so


but I but I'm not sure also why I received it but Alhamdulillah lah I I received it, I I haven't take it yet this friday I'm taking it, but this friday I'm meeting Hai I maybe meeting Haikal, so I don't know what is the plan yet lah but I told them friday I will come over and take it


a'ah ask who, Haikal, , can lah but


see how lah I mean it's not confirmed that I'm meeting him what, ya, ya I'm fine I'm actually excited for him though


excuse me no, no I I don't know I'm just excited by the because okay the thing is that right, eh I don't really I don't think I'm bothered by it because, I'll be damn busy


because like what I say ah monday wednesday friday I have CCA, and the rest of the days I'm ending school late, so macam I'm sure the convo won't be as much as we're talking I mean I'm not saying we're talking a lot right now


but confirm, during that period of time the convo will be very hard to maintain lah but


after POP


(mmhmm) but honestly aku takut lah I mean, it's going to be hard for him too because when he book out, he has to, it's either sunday booking balik or monday booking what


so , I think it's going to be hard for him lah I mean he has to make time for his family, his friends, me


that I have no idea, no lah his usual his usual reasons is like


oh no then, last few weeks


(uh huh) (uh huh), ah


a'ah okay


(uh huh) (uh huh)


a'ah


then that time bila kau tanya mak kau dengan mak sarah what did she say


ya


(uh huh)


I understand


oh okay, (mmhmm)


oh ah ah ah


ask permission, communicate ah


arguing, arguing


but you guys are okay now or still tension in the air


which is good what


, but what if sarah uses her stuff, a'ah sia !haiya!


mary jane, ya because belum season lagi for the shoe


right but it's because she she keep on wearing it what


high cut right


ya sia that's like me whenever I use doc mart, me, three, with the covered one the one that I wear to turkey the one that I wore to ah the


ah secondary sec five the one that you dress me up, because there's no special occasion to wear that shoes now


Mar I'm not like you I'm a very simple girl who wears slippers out, no but that is like rarely does not happen every single time


which high waisted


which colour what is the colour, ya I have


is it the one that I wore that day the one that I posted uh as a post on my story on my instagram, that one


ya maybe we can check it out ya I think I know what you are referring to


wait anyways did I tell you something funny, okay you know ah that day ah you remember the baju that I wore that day when uh kau kita keluar dengan huda and sarah, the white baju you see that baju [kan] is ikat right


so semalam I wore that baju when I met Haikal, and then I was so confused like see what and then he was talking about the hole in front


that was covered up then I was like but it's covered up what, ya and then I was like why it's nice then he said it's nice but then people can see, [kan], precisely he say the hole but then dalam the hole is like covered what


I was so confused then I then he was like ah I don't like then I'm like uh, then I just said but it's my favourite I like and then he said , but can see your hole then I was like hole apa sia like it's covered sia


I'm so confused, no but I'm not going to wear in front of him , it's the in front part yang aku kena ikat tu but it's so


it's covered like I was wearing baju dalaman sia, ya precisely, and it's so big, I mean technically Zeko was once like him


right but now


(mmhmm), a'ah


which is good what, ah yes there's like the ya


oh just sports bra


when


but honestly [kan] Mar to be frank ah, it is so hard


who lives far from you, it's so hard sia like like you macam like let's say you and Zeko can make last minute plans to meet all right I can't you know


but he does go out like one AM plus but with his siblings and all lah, that's why


(mmhmm)


for any oh air eh, ya I know


I see


I mean since you guys are long enough to be together then it's not lah


meet the mum says it's nice then it's all good you know, and by the way you still owe me #tom yum#, just to remind you you owe me and Naj Najrah and I


err


okay anyways where are we going lepas ni like kau lapar [kan], okay what do you want to eat


no, no, let's go to the mall, but what do you want to eat, honestly I have no idea


like do you have any cravings, ten dollars


okay since kau bawa ten then we just, wait ah, we can go adam's road


adam's road is at bukit eh, botanic garden, there he drive sounds good like okay that sounds good


I feel we can make it, no by seven thirty I have to be home, so maybe like we reach home around four thirty or maybe four fifteen, then we go makan lah we got three hours what


ya, I'll text my dad, soon if he's using the car and then if he's not then, I am going


to drive


where is it, oh newton oh my god Haikal just went that day I think, ya the atmosphere at night is nice I I've been there at night before


a'ah


I think it's just you Mar, okay but anyways, ya we should drive


pastamania, eh salah tapi aku fikir balik [kan] kereta aku punya minyak tengah low, okay so funny thing happened yesterday, so I was supposed to send ya I was supposed to after I'm meeting Haikal after meeting Haikal I was supposed to meet my primary school friends


so aku memang nak buy filter tapi bapa aku cakap the car has to be sent for inspection, so aku sudah nak aku sudah nak salam dia orang aku sudah salam dia orang aku nak nak Chao tau then bapa aku cakap can you send the car for inspection, then I was like


it's at #bukit batok# and then I was like inspection like eh [siol], so err sudah sudah hantar [kan] and then , I realised that the minyak was literally like


like going to like, ya, like that ah, so I was like oh oh no, so err you know me what I'm uh kereta macam just risk it what I'm just going to drive what


ya and then so, but I realised that it's not going to work ah because I wanted to go #bukit batok# I was from #yew tee# I wanted to go #bukit batok# again, then but I was like uh should I risk it then actually I risked it you know I went to lot one first


and then I realised the minyak is, ya and the minyak was decreasing then I was like okay nevermind you know what let's just hit home


so I was like uh dangs, it was scary bro


or it's like a face shield is it something like that


twenty, okay, yes please okay let's think of both scenarios with cars and without cars


with car and without car, what no


legit are you trying to involve science here, ,


no I can't I can't ride motors


oh my gosh eh by the way Mar let's go bungee jump


isn't it skinny dip, why you want to try that, a'ah


really, ya I know


eh but have you heard of this person who got err stung by jellyfish, it's at Sentosa beach right, they have that's why it's very scary to swim at Sentosa beach


it's been so long since I swim at, a beach


eh we should go luge, eh kaya gila mariam aku nak pergi aku nak pergi Istanbul lah okay book ticket


you can be, let's work hard


ya I agree


I think I'm fine with any I think both of us we are very open, (mmhmm), really


ah, maybe she doesn't want to seem


really, in what if both of us have a convo Mariam


okay so after that the third year engkau move out because with your aunty and then, (uh huh), ah


then what you mean by overs over overstayed your welcome or something like that, ya but is it your own your own punya feeling or memang they are the one who gave you hints


okay, okay


so only after that you move back to your parents ah,


debate and then eventually you will become unhappy again, ya ya but you and her now dah okay lah


like become such a cool mum ah


having disputes ah, ah ah ah,


, I think she has learnt to accept and agree to disagree lah you know why bro I I whatever you told me here right I can actually relate but mine didn't happen at a late stage in my life lah mine happened earlier ya like for example okay I was such a nerdy boy lah you know my two elder brothers were the naughty ones you know drop out before they completed secondary school kind ya but I was the one who was always the studious one so but okay my my my nakal my naughtiness is not like my brothers they are very active in terms of you know they they they skip school lah they get into they they start to steal from shop lah that kind of things my naughty was my mouth I like to I don't like to lose an argument ah so aku suka jawab [jer] you know so you know so my you know so as I grow older you know teenage teenage years is when you feel like you're already an adult you feel like you know what you doing so my ego kind of got in the way with my mum lah you know so there was a time that I even ran away for two weeks you know but that was my teenage days and then of course lah you know teenage and it became a pattern it became a habit like you lah you know you ended up becoming a fight often ah but for our case is not religious matters lah for me I think it's just I think it's just my mum's it's stuck in a is stuck in a psyche lah because she was a single mother for awhile


ah so she had to support three kids and two of them was extremely naughty she always have to and you know she's she has to play the father role ya so macam ah ya ya so I can understand her stress ah she was the old school hard knocks kind lah you know tunes you whack you left right centre you know like the kind lah if you go at your cousin's house right she just give you a stare you know you go back you die already you know that kind of fierceness lah so for me as I grow older I guess she also aged you know and I think she kind of toned down a bit but she completely tone down only after I started to live alone


ah when I was like twenty one twenty one twenty two err I stayed at uh you know those government rental house ya I I stayed uh using uh someone's name lah ya because that person had was sick so she uh the nenek like vacated the house and I thought there was nobody so I stayed there for good one year plus lah ya but they wanted to hold the house because she still wants to go back after she recovers ya so for about one year plus I live separately but I mean I told my mum nicely lah I say I think I want my own space and it's it's closer for me to go to work cause that time I was part time bouncer and like my work is around the central area uh my my house was at outram there the old school #jalan kukoh# lah you know ya ya so when I stayed apart everytime I come back things got better ah


I think this is what they mean by distance makes the heart grow fonder right you know when you was you start to appreciate each other more of course she was unhappy you know because we were fighting a lot lah and then after that okay and then regarding the house I know what you mean by overstayed your welcome because okay uh when when I was in my early twenties kita actually nak pindah kita nak pindah rumah so by right we already moved to Yishun way back already tau but then err this err it's a it's a chinese family lah so initially they're supposed to move out of their house while we move it so it's the fault of our agent because why did she go and confirm sell our house before we confirm get that house so what happen between that family was the mother got a dispute with the son so when the son move out the mother doesn't want to move out anymore


so we are stuck with no house ah so I had to stay for almost two years and my uncle's house like my whole family about like six seven of us we stay in one room lah my my uncle that my cousin give out his room for us lah but you can feel lah after awhile that they I mean they never fight they are very nice to us but you can feel like the energy is no longer like they can if some form of like rimas if I don't know if that's the right word ya so ya but they are nice about it ya so I totally can relate lah then after that I move to KL for five years so I realise that the same like you lah the over the overcome I mean the overstay welcome thing and the second thing also the fact that the more I'm distant with my mum the more we get along when I whenever I come back to see her


ya so like now when I come back due to COVID for the past six months right we never fight lah like we we we very cordial very civil ya ya ya like we really accepted and sometimes in fact last time wherever she met it will trigger a nerve tau but now no you know whenever she nag I'll just look at her !alah! she's aging already and then I will just tease her I'm like kenapa ni marah-marah tak penat ke you know


yes, passionate ah kira defensive ah


grow up, ya


tense up ah ah, ya ya, fight ah ya ya


ya ya


like always imposing ah ya, ya ya


ya, a'ah, ah


probably probably ya, , you know the the thing that that grown ups don't realise probably we might be the grown ups in the future you know but but one thing they don't realise is that you cannot you cannot apply the same


technique towards everybody like for example okay ya ya ya because why some people you talk nicely it will work some people you force them it will work but maybe maybe she didn't identify that okay you are the kind that I cannot force probably she has to do it subtly I think for you right you are the kind of person if if I based on what I hear lah ah if I'm you're mother I would actually act kindly so that you will feel bad eventually you do it right


why ah what what's the relation bro , okay, ya, ya


but you don't look hard outside leh you look soft outside and inside you are eh fudgemallow you look like a nice guy bro, get hard about it ah, adamant ah


oh okay okay okay


ya, , ya I get it I get it I get it ya, ya


probably it's her her adamants her ego also lah, ya, (mmhmm), ya eh you know what dude actually what right uh one thing you should actually I recommend lah you go and download this google podcast and then you listen to this book how to win friends and influence people but by right it's a book ah dale carnegie dale carnegie so that actually taught me a lot you know you know why bro because I'm a lot like that I used to actually want to force down people's throat my ideas you know and then I realise that eh no no some people actually uh you you cannot straightaway just jam it down their throat you know different people you have to apply apply different technique lah then that's when I learn and life got so much smoother you know bro it's less there's less fights it's less bitterness it's more positivity you know you learn to compromise and it's such a !wah! dude my life has been so relax bro for the past few years even though we're going through like financial difficulties or what lah but I don't feel burdened you know I feel like a everything is still good lah


you can listen to the audiobook bro you know remember that time we if you saw the article I was doing foodpanda for awhile it was during the cycling moments that I always listen to the audiobook ah and the other one that I recommend right is the subtle art of not giving an F ah


very rude you know and I I sometimes wonder why can't you be nice yes so apparently it's because it's a psychological thing it's if people naturally in life they just wanna feel accepted important or they want to feel wanted ya so that is how you know like girls with daddy issue because they never had a proper father figure they just want to feel love like in like a man to love them and that's another another might be because they've been bullied all their life you know so now when they walk the streets they want to walk like there are some gangster like do you know how sometimes the Mats can walk like that or the Bengs they want to walk like they're so fierce there's actually we should pity them and empathise them you know because they are the ones that actually have issues inside you know


ya lah but no lah I truly mean it empathise lah kau jangan ketawa now you make me feel bad for laughing, like !whoa! so big like they as if they got like big triceps ah that cannot close there arm like that


no but it's pitiful though bro because they actually have issues within you know so when they that's why they give a F about these things that doesn't matter like so we should actually learn how to channel our energy on what matters most what matters more what can help help us grow because I also do partially sometimes I help do life coaching also lah ya so when when people spoke to me I will just shift their perspective a bit you know because I can relate you know remember that time I ever spoke to you about you wanting to be a pilot


oh really ah, ya that's why I don't remember which one you're talking about


ya ya ya that was the first time lah ah, opening ah ya and then you told me about your eyesight is it


a'ah then then then, I I think so ah why ah recall recall recall help me recall


oh ya okay okay then then then, oh ya ya ya ya ya, ya ya then then then


!oi! my memory very bad lah bro very bad bro ,


what do you mean what do you mean I don't understand, ah, ya


ya, okay, something new ah, (oo)


eh but dude I thought all this while memang you were actually very motivated to be a pilot what no I mean like I I didn't know that I actually helped to contribute even a bit I didn't know I thought you were always like constantly motivated like you know this is the only thing that you want


okay ah


ya ya you can like transfer ah ya, okay, ha


flying ah , ah, so okay so what what how's your journey okay can you share your journey about macam mana kau jadi pilot or how you you let what from the beginning how did it all begin like not not when you were a kid tau not the interest tau the part where you start to casually start to enter become a pilot


okay, okay, okay


ya, , , ya because in the sky there's so many thing to look out for like a lot of cars what you mean correct there's nothing in the sky what do they need such clear eyesight


look if a plane can crash in the vast sky ah that person should never have been a pilot sia but I don't think this is a matter of eyesight anymore you know this is a matter of how dumb that person can be


ya, oh eventually they change lah when did they change


okay okay, , ya ya ya


okay, !wah! motivated like crazy sia


oh very young ah, ah, okay, okay then after that after that


okay okay, (uh huh), okay okay


okay, okay


, oh okay okay


, okay, okay, let go ah


so so okay bro so if let's say somebody say if you have one superpower what would it be you will choose flying ah you would not you would not take super speed lightning speed, but when you have super speed you can flap your wings and fly what okay


okay


okay okay, what, okay okay okay ah


then what do you need, ya but why is it a mistake how did it became a mistake what do you mean


okay, okay, okay, alright


strength ah ya ya ya,


, oh but but you mean the mistake is not not a mistake in the sense that it affected your career lah it's more of like uh okay okay not not so much of a mistake lah not so much


okay okay, okay then then after that after that after that what happened


which is


which is, ah, okay ya ya ya, holy shit okay and then


holy crap, okay okay


but how does that affect you flying, okay, which is


ah, okay, ah


, ya, ya, okay


okay so is that something permanent


okay, holy okay, ya


oh, a'ah


okay, this year you how old, so have you have you started flying yet


you you you did tell me but you never elaborated on that, okay,


okay, this was when ah, how you afford all these things man operation lah go US lah, you loan ah


okay, okay, okay, so are you still in that


are you still in debt, in debt, ya, okay, eh no lah because new house you say you use CPF mah you don't have to cash contribute what ada how much


!oi! okay, so you have to top up three hundred so you may have to eventually rent out one room ah


but you're, ya, ah who knows maybe one day I rent with you bro who knows


eh that's not too far, ya ya ya, I I think I know ah it's on the way towards the industrial area right, no ah


just a cross ah oh okay, no you know why because I don't know lah it depends on my future lah because for now there's a lot of changes ah okay okay wait wait, wait wait wait I have no I'm not done about your your story so okay so so after you finish in the US so did you manage to fly yes right


Dubai right Dubai airline is it, oh, so did you really like become a pilot for awhile was it doing okay


experience ah, okay


okay, ya, okay so did you manage to get a local


okay, okay does that pay well


okay okay, that means the pay about four thousand like that lah, ah, then what do you mean drone thing what is this drone thing then


ya it definitely destroyed the plan for a bit lah ya, ya bro ya bro it's one of the worst hit industry lah the airlines


so what what happens to the metal the parts ah, , graveyard what happens to the metals they don't try to recycle the metal ah


what a waste of resources isn't there any technology that can actually made use like melt everything or something


, !wah! how many airplanes sia bro like that, !wah! I never knew this bro if I never spoke to you


so so wait just to recap a bit so you mean the the part where I I spoke was basically just giving you another avenue lah like from steward to be flying lah okay okay


ya ya ya ya, ya ya now that you tell me everything right everything is uh my my memories coming back I remember you did update me about the hernia thing actually ya you said you ya ya you told me you by right supposed to get the job already but then ya


oh you went through the three months ah oh it was supposed to be that stage already lah oh


!wah! dude that time if you fly ah your inter pretty stable and nice ah bro four to six K easily sia, eh but your setback like really like what I what what I like to say you know nasib kentang eh like like first okay lah the eyesight is a challenge okay never mind overcome already hernia is a challenge twice and then that hernia affected your flying and then after that when you were to fly the COVID pula happen like !wow!


your nasib is so kentang lah dude


there will always be a road there will always be a road, just waiting for the right time to strike ah


ya ya, !walao! I don't think that's anywhere close sia, I know but the feeling that you know remember that when you say you fly that feeling you I you totally not there sia on the drone


okay, that's relatable lah


ah okay okay so it's just a matter of time lah


by then if if still got another factor by then I think I visit you at asylum already your always pretending to fly and then I'll go to Salihin ni edwin jadi nyanyuk ready for take off and then the nurse come stewardess are you ready to fly


and then you have friends over there orang yang dalam asylum they will actually entertain you they will sit behind you [siol] lah funny sia


, ya man ya man it's like a movie beginning you know like I visit you at the hospital and then this is a story of #mumammad salihin#


ya then eventually when people see the peak ah lah it's because he cannot become a pilot his obsession eh but okay lah but you know what what thing I I respect about this right what okay okay you know normally people always say they want something but everybody wants it you know but nobody is willing to put in the effort like crazy because I think what you're doing is really really


it's the attitude of the top ten per cent people you know or not like they they never say die attitude you know I I realise like most of us okay I remember one story lah I don't know if I've ever told you this before there was a legendary pianist ah so she's like a old lady lah you know so she was having a final performance and then this young teenage girl like very early teenage lah like went to her got the backstage pass and said like you know one day I want to grow up and be just like you and then she literally just this old lady like she literally just macam smile casually and just said you know you're not the first person to have said that everybody say they wanna be like me but when it comes to putting in the hours that I put it nobody is willing to do as much you know which is true you know everyone wants to be reached but nobody is willing to fail you know


ya like for you you are like oh crap I cannot do this nevermind I find another way you know I find another way cannot I find another eventually asylum lah so ya but but but no lah I I wish you all the best ah brother I'm I I'm sure I'm sure eventually you gonna get it lah it's just a matter of whether you become a commercial pilot or you know it's just a matter of which field oh


ya ya and they're not they're not containing it well right until now, you mean trump


you know you know one the the only silver lining I see right about him being in power it's the war in middle east is not intensified like he didn't press on it too much because before him ah ya like before him right you see bush !wah! everything he attack clinton no time also they have a bit here and there obama got nobel peace prize but he also did a lot of damaged in middle east you know but trump like when you hear about him ah the US like almost not involved in the middle east man


he's a selfish businessman lah, ya, ya ya, but but that's the thing though his his narrative always make people become violent for example ya ya ya


ya that's true in fact there's more racial attacks ever since he became president according to statistics ah in the US ya in the US


he's he says without filter, unwise, no lah bro


I don't know to be honest if you really look back eh okay obama is a cool president I mean in terms of it's swag his charisma I'll give him that lah but but what do you mean substance I've watch his speech he just basically speak things that are vague like all presidents do his I mean presidents they don't really they don't really talk about policies you just say things like we will do this way we will and now I know in the united states you know I mean dude he has charisma but substance wise is definitely better than trump but but


I mean like every president at the end of the day they're just a figurehead mah like democrat or republican they're controlled by those who pump in money to campaign them which is that eventually the banks what the corporate world you know it's the it's the ones that are really ruling everything is the one who do the lobbying


you know which is the the rich people lah the the the government doesn't matter whether you're a president from their own credit or republicans it because why they work in the congress level the senate level like even if let's say the the president's a democrat if he cannot get a bill passed the republicans the the the bill cannot go through you know so so eventually nah honestly okay this is my take people might think democracy right is actually the best system you know what's my take my take it doesn't matter whether you're monarchy you're communist your dictator your democrat or whatever as long as your leader is corrupted net no system will work because why bro you wanna talk about monarchy at one point of time we have empires that are great bro that the kings and like cleopatra and there's julius caesar I mean they're great huge empires


you want to talk about dictatorship that kind of concept we have #genghis khan# you know of course they were violent people you know but they were strong as as as as a nation amongst them lah you know and then you have communism you wanna see communism is bad china is the strongest country right now you know I mean the only plus point that I see when it comes to a democracy is that people just have space to voice out things


ya but that's about it bro eventually the one making the decision you can voice out ten thousand and one things like for example look at the the black lives issued right how many people get shot dead but what what actions have been taken nothing what you know so eventually it doesn't matter the only difference is you got more room to voice out that's it because if you go to like china you will say something wrong you kena arrest you go to saudi arabia you insult the king you kena arrest then tortured that kind of thing you know but democracy they just don't have that but ultimately the system underlying thing it's the same thing lah as you if your leader is shitty as a nation you gonna be shitty which is why I I respect the new zealand parliament right now even canada is also not too bad as as as on the surface as what I see lah


and she's damn humble bro damn humble you you see and the vibe is I mean we don't know them in person lah how political game works you know they say politics is a dirty game you know no doubt I don't know how she managed to pull it through but she definitely does not give off a vibe like she's means bad things for people


dude I planning to do that but the thing is not now lah because if I go there I will die of boredom sia, if you want to die if you wanna retire old can you know when you're old you go there and I'm half new zealand mah so aku anytime can just like you know eh


don't have don't have but I'm half new zealander so I'm trying to I'm trying to get my my father there or something lah but I'm not in touch with him that much lah, he's a new zealander but sekarang he stay in australia


ya but I I only met him like once you know so I never really I don't know how to get this through but retirement only when I'm old lah I only plan to go there when I'm old, ya like maybe when I'm above fifty right or fifty five where I just do not want the concrete jungle anymore when I just what nature grasslands or fountains ah then maybe I'll migrate but for now bro I cannot handle the boredom lah there's nothing to do sia there


like what bro like what imagine you have to drive one hour before you go to a place that has any form of entertainment which is closing at five PM you tell me what you wanna do


ya you you when you get that kind of money you let me know lah okay, no it's not about mahal bro even if it's not mahal you tell me how much does it cost to get a land to develop your own house to have the rooms that that you want to have entertainment already no


no yes no bro like I said yes but you have to understand macam mana if you want to bring the entertainment to you okay for example lah like my dream is to have like maybe a a big house over there you know and and I have my own gym my own like like you cinematic rule you know of course ya but right now you ask me I can't even afford the flight ticket to go there bro


you know or not so we it's not I mean it's doable I'm not saying it's not doable but if you ask me to do now how sia, a plan ah


you know so and and lately I've been going into a lot of the I'm going back into the financial wisdom I'm learning a lot of the all the money matters things so, the current business lah oh I I with edudebt you can google edudebt so edudebt is basically a is a debt solution centre we do not we do not administer loan we do not touch your like your money to your loans or whatever no lah basically okay whenever client come to us we will present to them the all the possible means for them to clear the deaths in singapore available in singapore okay right so for example okay lah I will just give you a brief verbal presentation ah people we will educate them on bankruptcy okay okay like for example oh bankrupt people so scared but when you ask them why oh why okay like example you suddenly you why you why you scared to be a bankrupt


ah, but when you bankrupt you don't really have to pay much mah, like what


okay assume you're somebody with a home already, not true you see that's something people don't know it's not true no bro because no no bro that's the thing it's a misconception people don't understand bankruptcy okay let me tell you the most the most popular stigma that people think about bankruptcy okay they will say oh my house will kena tarik they will say oh I cannot get a job and then they will say I cannot travel and then they will say I cannot apply credit card back okay let me give you a check okay so bankruptcy does not affect your house if it's HDB


even if you use bank loan to buy HDB under HDB they have a different law to protect your house for bankruptcy, the only reason how they can tarik your house if you never pay for your house that means your CPF never never cut anymore you cannot service your monthly loan then the the HDB can take away your house but banks cannot bro no other companies in on earth can actually pull your HDB away unless


they will just cut your utility lor, ya, ya but you know so so first statement okay is a misconception people say your house kena tarik not true okay number two uh you you cannot travel okay if you see at ministry of law website they will say travel restriction okay you see if you understand how bankruptcy work let's say you apply bankruptcy uh I give you one one scenario lah one of one of this person oh like hundred over thousand so he got bankruptcy but bankruptcy you still have to pay over five years a certain small amount lah so like in this guy case is about three hundred a month


so if you times that by five years sixty months he ends up only paying like less than twenty K for his debt of hundred over thousand alright so within that five years yes you five years plus another five years cooling period you are not allowed to take loans and credit card but okay lah you already in debt what for you want to take more credit card and that exactly so for people like say the ideal bankruptcy right is you already got a house renovation all done everything all done you know


because your CPF will still cut mah bulan-bulan for the house ah okay so so normally when people go through bankruptcy that that monthly payment if they pay they can still travel they just need to write in to their official assignee the one attached to their case they write in key in the details and whatever not they have to just submit their case and you just be able to travel bro these other things where okay I tell you ah bro you do not be surprised if somebody apply bankruptcy driving a lamborghini bro


do not be surprised, bro what if the okay okay okay these are these are that these are bad people lah okay you know why they use they they they manipulate the system which is not good it's like what you know it's like a legal loophole it's not a it's not a crime but if they play it right it's like a loophole lah which is why the the the whole stigma if you go to website right they will try to get you like okay bankruptcy is terrible


okay I give you I give you a scenario I give you a scenario okay let's say you have a company for a few years the company does very well and then you apply company loan so it's under the company right the loan you are you are the guarantor lah okay so now because of the good track record the better track record you have the the more loan the bank will have you because you're low risk mah you're good you're good pay master credit take over okay let's say you get a two hundred thousand dollar loan lah okay and then we get two hundred thousand probably you buy like other assets lah you know you buy Rolex lah you buy a car but when you buy you don't buy under your name


you buy under your wife you buy under your mum for example you you register their name when you purchase right okay so imagine now now the money that you have been using is disbursed everywhere anywhere except under your name and then you apply bankruptcy the assets are still there mah


they can trace but it's not a crime, ya


ya bankruptcy they will pull your assets registered to your name which is why which is why they they there are people who are cunning out there you know so of course we cannot condone these actions lah your your you know banks they might be banks they might be rich but this is ethically wrong lah but there are people who does that bro


so they like for example ah they get like two hundred thousand they put some amount in the alike something that they can sell back for a good price probably invest in gold under your wife that kind of thing you know then when that they apply for bankruptcy they end up not paying two hundred thousand they pay less


you just have to pay the monthly that the one that the government uh supreme court order you to pay lah like three hundred a month five hundred a month bank about five years to nine years five to nine years only bankruptcy after that the five year cooling period


that means you cannot take loan your your credit rating is under under the the negative zone lah that means you cannot okay you see if you are a good pay master you get double A rating that means it's easy for you to get any loan it's easy for you because you've been a good pay master if let's say you skip once a while you get double B so there's a whole rating system the moment you hit HZ or bankruptcy right


bankruptcy they will for five to nine years lah depending on the amount that you have to pay err so for those who still maintain their monthly payment they can still travel but there are people who owe such a large amount that their monthly bankruptcy is still high probably thousand thousand plus a month so that one right they are the people like ah fuck it lah I don't want to pay aku tak nak bayar kau nak buat apa kau buat ah so if they never pay then they cannot travel


they have to stay in singapore ah, cannot ah, their their their passport is blocked what they cannot, ya so but you can travel if you pay your monthly and you submit your form to your OA


but you have to do it ahead lah you cannot like ad hoc suddenly you wanna go lah you know, ya, but it's not like so long in advance pun you know it's just like a day probably you know ah but the thing is people thought oh cannot that kind of thing


and then the third thing they said cannot get a job cannot get job subjective most probably government will not hire you MOF uh MOE SAF they cannot lah they will not hire you and probably if you apply for executive job okay lah they also don't wanna hire you


because they you remember when you apply job they will have to tick yes or no bankruptcy ah so for executive level okay for example let's say they want to hire you as a general manager you can't even manage your own finance you wanna manage company so the HR will do their check but if you let's say you want to work pest control you want to do Grab Panda or you know you wanna you wanna you wanna uh work in production houses if the company feel like eh there's nothing wrong with hiring a bankruptcy then they can hire you lor private entity what


ah so at the end of the day now you understand bankruptcy better, limited limited ya because some company they are very particular for example right a financial adviser once applied for bankruptcy he lost his job because he's a financial adviser he cannot be bankrupt


ah like this kind of job ah the one that is got profile one ah they normally will not hire you one, ya ya so now now okay people don't understand but these are the things that normally we try not to tell people because we don't want them to manipulate the system lah ya and then second then the second the second mode of payment how to clear your debt is you pay the minimum sum


ya interests ah, ya lah for example okay I give you a scenario ah let's say you owe ten thousand lah the rule of banks is normally three per cent minimum you have to pay so in the case of ten thousand you pay three hundred lah


so now balance supposed to be nine thousand seven right but don't forget credit card or bank loan standard is about twenty four per cent parallel which is two per cent per month lah okay, okay so two per cent of nine thousand seven it will tambah balik one nine four so you only end up paying one zero six per month so you will take four years eight months to clear ten thousand if you can only pay three hundred this is the best case scenario lah so imagine if people who owe forty fifty thousand okay lah let's say you you a newly married couple lah okay you you buy a house interior renovation design courts all this one time you spend can thirty forty fifty thousand already every month you must pay thousand plus two loans mah


exactly which every year about sixty to seventy thousand singaporeans fall under this trap they call it the financial uh the debt trap ah okay so the second way is to pay a minimum eh


okay already but it's not one hour not yet not yet a few more minutes okay okay habis [kan] another thing [kan] macam the second way let's say macam the minimum eh some people easily already every month must service this much so they cannot afford some because why they don't you don't forget if they got baby they got expenses the susu pampers all these things you know so your expenses might be a lot and your disposable income probably to three hundred only how you gonna pay this is when suddenly debt collector come lah lawyer letter come lah


so all these things we will educate our clients K what happens when debt collector chase you what happens when lawyer letter arrive when should you panic when should you not panic ah this is my the job of the debt solution centre we educate them on the law so the third option is when you need help you go MP you go mendaki you go see lah they will refer you to this place called credit counselling singapore CCS no no no no CCS is formed by the union of banks all the banks got together people thought it's a government body but it's not so why do they pushed this first even if you go MP or whatever because the economical structure of every country bro the biggest tax contributors are the banks so if people pay the banks the more they can tax the banks the more money goes to the country so it's better for the country lah ah so ah normally they have their debt consolidation plan lah that debt management program lah all these thing lah this is by the CCS by the banks lah of course they still have interest okay the fourth way is the last resort which is avoid avoiding of bankruptcy through DRS debt repayment scheme so that repayment scheme there's criteria lah you know you are eh aku rasa dah habis ah bro okay lah five second we count down you have anymore second bro okay okay done ah okay


alright, ya so the correct so the third year aku move out err then I was uh staying dekat my aunty's punya place lah so what happens is uh I was there uh for actually aku duduk kat rumah dia [kan] for very long it's about


uh overstay my welcome is because I think it's too too long lah it should be, uh I they gave me hints lah ya they gave me hints towards the end of the so I I stayed dekat dia orang punya place for one and a half years ya one and a half years err my my bedroom was actually literally the hall the hall way err they had a sofa bed down there so I was sleeping there


and then uh that was the the time where aku just uh you know just tried to just tried to to survive lah you know but the good thing was that I was not out in the streets I was I was actually you know I had a I had a roof lah and then I was you know so that was a good thing lah


correct so that was that was err err you know err at the end of the three years then err aku early this this this year ah first of january actually


err sometimes okay terms sometimes tak okay lah so that means macam kadang-kadang she will invite me back tau macam you know to to her to the family home lah but uh sometimes we will have some discussion she she was kind of like try to open up a discussion and then you know we will have our little debate ya and then after


yes and then after that I I you know many many a time I told her that okay I'm never coming back but in the end I still come back you know that kind of thing lah you yes err so the the the the very interesting thing that I realise that when I came back


she totally changed bukan change macam apa ah so she totally macam uh you know she she's more err she she literally like uh tries to bother about what I'm doing you know uh getting to know what I'm doing and that kind of stuff I don't know what happened in the time that I was not there tapi uh aku rasa she I don't know whether she realise lah that I think family is more important than you know having I mean making making everybody conform to a certain practice or whatever that kind of thing lah so I think the the the harmony is you know in in in having a family and all that so so I I would say that she she tolerates me lah now err but but the good thing is that in the last six to seven months eh we have not had a single argument I think she has learnt to accept


earlier okay okay


(uh huh) okay, okay okay, (uh huh), (oo), oh I see I see I see


oh , ya yes yes right


ah, okay okay, yup yup yup, okay


okay okay, ah, yup yup yup double role lah ya ya correct correct


yup yup yup, ya ya ya I know right ah, (oo) that's it man