it I just said it I I burst out was super high sia like so stupid sia go say that so fucking I burst burst it out then after that err then Raj just say come tell me he was like say you do one more time he will fucking whack the fuck out of me then after that I was like ya I know I know then some things I never tell him also ya I mean I could have done through him also but I didn't want someone else ah to know I did this stupid stuff just for my family ah I know I know there will be people out there who call me stupid and stuff lah but


it's like only I know why I face this lor ya, ya that's the thing, so it's stupid god damn deepest secret ya, freaking, think like err took me like few months just to drink drink drink just to forget about that ya


until you ask me the question then after that I was just like oh fuck that's why I just first thing it come up to my mind was that shit straightaway ya I don't have any darkest sercrets ya, even the closest brother I have now I also never tell them because I know if I tell them they'll be like, because I always the joker joker type what like there's always a saying ah those innocent ones is always the one doing all the naughty stuff one ya so that's why I always like


I always don't show my fullest to everyone one ya but even if I show right means I trust the person means I just going be like okay you know what I trust you already ya that's why, ya , stupid sia


ya, but I stopped doing any of that ya if my when when I when I heard my friends also go do then after that I straightaway scold them ah straightaway tell them that you know what trust me just don't do because I told them that is I speaking on experience lah ya like I was so scared you know because one group I need to keep on looking at the at my at the back I don't want it to like


keep on looking around I so scared like the feeling of like people just where anytime you just Kena caught, something like that then after that people just have to always look at you one ya I always have the feeling like somebody staring at me then sometimes I just like always scared ya, ya <tamil>நீ சொல்லு: nee sollu</tamil> lah


ya if you have lah it's okay if you have one what do you think will you be, what what okay what do you think you are most capable of like the highest level go murder someone no lah just kidding


(ppc) , (mmhmm)


(mmhmm), (ppc) (mmhmm), , we met ya I know we met then, (ppc)


(ppc), oh he stay opposite Punggol park eh got err <tamil>எறும்பு: erumbu</tamil> on your head


(ppc), what's the guy name, is it my area, four five, four wait the block in front of me what's the shit block


wait one of the brother is in


what block I mean what, he got brothers, how old the brothers also, !huh!


indian muslim Serangoon secondary, how old is his second brother, he's the he's the oldest ah


, eighteen <tamil>என்:en</tamil> batch


NA express or what, [orh] NA, lying, err got me Raj Rasif Naim


he's eighteen this year


, also from ah, ya


wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait, Redna Rasif, Raj Naim, Enti Gajan Diryan Gajandran


M, (ppc), oh fuck I know already, Musim eh wait wait what the fuck [dey] wait wait he's not my batch, he's he's


he's one year older, he's nineteen Musim, there's no one else in my god damn batch, Musim what the fuck [dey], eh can you ask Farah fucking in curious sia who is it !ee! !wah! Musim <tamil>எவன்டா: evandaa</tamil> Musim I also don't know eh


(ppc), wait wait [orh] eh !wah! fuck [dey] I do !wah! wait wait !wah! shit shit wait wait wait ah, what the heck


ya ya that was his stupid name lah


what the fuck is my junior name err


ah fuck never mind I'll find it lah ya sia, why is that your deepest darkest secret, I think that will be like your embarrassing secret sia


comedy pieces, that one very comedy pieces sia that one, (ppc)


I like lime green, but I love, I like I love okay I used to love lime green a lot every green actually I wanted this shirt actually honestly like I didn't I like eh you know what because I grow up I started used to tell my kaki let's go get the fucking shirt I don't give a fuck then after that all the all my friend say say eh all the green collars is all those like a'ah india india courses one because IT technology what


then after that I say no lah I don't care lah then after that I just go buy then Zhun Zhun I Kena with this stupid course lah which I didn't wanted I wanted like business or what then after that I was like <tamil>பரவால: paravaala</tamil> lah same thing lah I like green also what, ya but I love black and white also like in my closet most of these all black and white black and white black and white


ya is black and white ya but I go more on the black side than on the white side because white easily get dirty, , ya


you know okay I never tell you this story you know actually one time right ah I was in counselling what so in counselling they bring us go ah laser tag so at laser tag what you supposed to wear something like cannot see right, so I was like on that day actually I wear one black ah pants laser tag is like you know you just they give you gun then after that you just shoot the person then the light will go off one ya ya ya that's that's such thing okay so right


so actually is like a arena where you have to fight among your friend then shoot get the highest point but it's all pitch black you only can see their light their colours their light colours they have they are wearing the vest ya so have to shot the light colours you'll you will earn a point so what I do what is it or not that day I wear like <tamil>என்னா: enna</tamil> wear <tamil>பண்ணே: pannae</tamil> I wear black that day so I thought let's wear green lah so this was actually lime green


that's the first I would I had that shirt for three years ah and I found out something secret about the shirt I went to the thing then after that I was at the waiting room waiting room I was still got light lah so I was okay I I wear my vest all take my gun all so I step outside ah my friends all looking at me and I was like why you look at me ah


I look at myself my shirt was freaking glow in the dark shirt freaking glow in the dark shirt eh, then after that I was like !wah! <tamil>என்னாடா பாவம் பண்ணே: ennadaa paavam pannae</tamil> I so scared I went all the way behind okay behind a boxy thingy then after I stand behind I was like say whoever come here you die by me only I'm not gonna go and find them because I because they can see me what


so the glow in the dark shirt I was like what the fuck I find a secret after three years only eh ya then after that I after that after the first game right I know honestly no one in no one would came past me sia I came out looking after that just to shoot one fellow only that's it the same fellow always come in front of me then I think he bodoh lah don't know why then I go see my name right it was all the way at the bottom


the points system so that's why so that's why I was say !wow! fuck this shirt [dey] I wear a freaking god damn glow in the dark shirt eh, (ppc) ya after three years only I find out sia, then <tamil>அப்பா: appa</tamil> was like <tamil>என்னாடா பண்ற: ennadaa pandra</tamil> !wah!, then I legit gave up on the game I was like say I tell my counsellor I say


err I don't want play lah I don't want play lah fuck this game lah marcus just like no be hyper be active just go play then I was like ah okay lah okay lah play second round I legit just give up I just stood in the middle lase come lah come at me lah come at me lah like you try imagine what I would do right like you just give up so I just sit in the middle I was like [dey] you just you just come at me I stand there then shoot shoot shoot shoot shoot ya


ya ya so I just give up but surprising for that round I did get highest score because all come at me I just shoot shoot shoot only ya freaking stupid lah, (ppc), I got a lot of stories sia all stupid stupid one


eh, no you need you need to say then I will like can remember one, I can I I actually right all the stories that is all my past the moment when you say something right then it will just trigger my mind then I just I just then unlock the memory then I just let you stop the one I will feel bad then every time I will just stop you one then after like I'll talk my story one ya


you don't feel bad, ya sia,


, okay I have a bad habit okay K you know okay you know or not I I think you realise it by now lah so every time I think of right you know actually you know what's the reason I purposely keep a bit here because when I think I will actually just like that !wah! I just


ya so that's the whole point of me keeping it there ya ya ya ya ya that's the reason so ya no no no no no no no no no no, so at home also what, that time I shave already like I just trim lah so like there was nothing then after I know <tamil>நா எதையோ பண்ணிட்டிருக்கே: naa ethaiyo pannittirukkae</tamil> then my brother ask me <tamil>என்னாடா பண்ற:ennadaa pandre</tamil> I say <tamil>முடில:mudila</tamil> [dah]


so I used to do that ya ya ya ya so after that I was like, !wah! so every time I trim right I always keep this part then after that I just like okay think <tamil>பண்றப்ப நல்லா யோசிக்கலா: pandrappa nalla yosikkalae</tamil> I just like pull it pull it one ya ya so this is another stupid stupid secret story ya


I never tell any of my friends either about this they they come and tell me [dey] Karthi just go and trim that fucking small goatee lah, I was like no I don't want I'll keep it I don't care what people say ya damn stupid ya ya ya ya


(ppc) I got I got a lot a lot of weird weird stuff one sia like like I don't tell people about my body one got what else should I tell sia, no just seeing lah got got do I have any other stuff ya like any other stuff should I say,


Raolla


okay I ask you something, okay I know right in muslim right once you wear the you are supposed to wear continuously right why you not even one day want take it out even like just to come out no like I mean like okay ya ya ya ya that one you take it out because super hot right


ya eh oh ya correct correct correct ya then I remember a secondary school time I will be like seeing your hair I will be like oh ya sometimes you wear tudung sometimes you wouldn't even wear one lah then actually I always thought you the type where you never wear tudung one ya because of your hair then I'll be like seeing okay I don't she got wear tudung one lah I thought is Farah will wear instead you know in the end is your in the end I can ya now every time gathering is you wear everyday Farah don't even wear at all ya


I I think she just wear to fuck to make her mum just keep quiet then come out she just take out I knew it ya I knew it, quite typical like me sia, later later later more troublesome but ya (ppc) later more troublesome


uh come on we'll see, why I got weird weird one stuff I got sia


(ppc)


, oh ya ya I freaking got homesickness so I cannot even leave singapore I know that for sure ya but if I ever wanted to go out okay you know that time I say right I got homesickness you know why a not my primary school time I went to uh singapore zoo three days two night so I was like nothing lah I didn't know ah but when I go there right I literally like


stay sick I fall sick ya ya I actually fall sick like I thinking like !wah! cannot go back home like that ya then I will cry every time ah after I cry right I wouldn't even eat the food you know because I scared later I going to use the fucking toilet there so I didn't eat the food so I starve myself I drink the water then I eat the hot dog a bit a bit only no no singapore zoo ya that was primary school singapore zoo ya


then after that I was like !wah! eh cannot lah then after that I'm like the second day right, I literally when we walking to god damn sea aquarium I literally uh crying sia ya because I was like I wanna go home I want go home I tell my teacher teacher can I go home I really cannot feeling well you know what my teacher say or not you got homesickness that's that's when I get to find out my the the word that's how I learn that's how I know I got homesickness ya but actually I got nothing wrong with me you know just that I just like


ya I can't leave my home I don't know why ya it's like somewhere and I first time without my family you know then after that, ya so singapore zoo ya then after that I'm like !wah! Kia Kia Liao I went back home I cry I go hug my mum all sia ya ya then after that I told her ya then after that that's when that's why I I cannot leave like imagine from Hougang right then I go somewhere fucking far right ya then I'll be like eh I need go home already I need go home already I need go home already just somewhere near my home right I need to have the


like like like I can imagine Sengkang Punggol still can imagine from Yishun then I cannot then from Yishun when I go to like Punggol highway there right I suddenly feel a connection to my house one like that then I'm like connected then I'll be like okay I'm back home like that ya like I back to my area ya like that one


at uh #paya lebar# at uh macpherson road there behind uh what is it call ah macpherson primary school, I came Hougang when I was in err, P one ya, I came Hougang when I was in P one


ya I found out when I was P one can't really remember sia my childhood then after that you know that time Machperson primary eh no that means I come at P two or P three ya ya I change primary school because my family uh, need to change house because that time the house right was super small I think was three room flat only ya ya was a three room then after that my family like some my brothers all getting older what so my father was saying you know what never mind we change house then that time the whole block was in construction so every time I have to go school right I need to go below then I need to use the public toilet to bathe all ya then after that this one then after that this one I told my dad you know what we shift house so we shift house to Hougang right


that's that was either P two or P three lah can't really remember that time they still have what ITE was east central and west right now got the the last time got the fourth one ya, so I always in the morning will walk pass go inside ya there's a fourth one there's total four ITE ya the fourth one close down already it merge with Simei if I'm not wrong ya that's why last time when I go out I always go inside the ITE then I come out one ya


then after that I remember I took bus ah fifty one from macpherson I'll stop at somewhere then I'll take eighty two then I'll stop at Punggol park there then I'll walk to Punggol primary then once I come Hougang , I went to stupid school Punggol primary I go there also !wah! I make trouble sia I go there ya I make trouble I remember one thing from Punggol primary only about my one thing only I have broken toe eh broken pinky toe the last one ya


no I mean not now lah now okay already ya lah but you can see like it's crooked a bit, it's just that it's crooked a bit one ya then after that I broken one then I be at the field I love soccer young time one so after that I go to the field I was like I cannot just see people kicking the ball so I just stupid stupid go kick lah I go kick the ball the ball go on top of the fence hit on top of the shed the


so there's a shelter going to the school ya I hit went on top ya then the ya then the ya the owner the owner of the ball right he cry all the way he go to my teacher he complain sia then his whole class students all come find me eh ya they all come find me then my teacher also scolding me he say you got broken toe all you still want to play all ya then <tamil>ஒரே ஒரு:rey oru</tamil> kick <tamil>தா:tha</tamil> lah then after that uh my teacher need to go ask the one fellow carry the ladder all go take ah so easy job also <EX2>chibai</EX2> scold me like one one hour like that one ya ya


so that's the stupid stupid one, ya ya that's the thing, ya then that time last time last time I will play this game called Ali bomb lah then play uh block catching one then I'll play badminton one then I will play , soccer I'll never play basketball forever in my life I hate basketball I don't know why lah I just don't like the face of basketball I just I just don't like basketball I don't really do nothing my brother just basketball my older brother


they'll be like N one N one in my house fucking annoying eh you imagine their they come home right they take out their <tamil>சட்டை: cattai</tamil> right then after that they from my from our living room my brother like that one he just jump and say Kathi N one then after that I say <tamil>போடா புண்டே: pota punte</tamil> N one ah N one !wah! the meaning of N one I remember he told me was like like as a foul in the line lah then after that get free two pointer shoot


he'll be like N one N one I'll be like <EX2><tamil>போடா புண்டே: poda pundae</tamil></EX2> N one lah, ya my brother stupid one lah that's why I hate basketball they hate soccer I hate basketball ya they hate soccer then after that because they cannot play soccer, for them their hands they are more hand coordinated, ya then after that at home then after that I will kick the ball ball underneath my uh bed all one then the got people come home from below complain at me all ah there are a lot of times sia


got all these story story one, a'ah, but I I purposely let the ball go through right ya I also do that one sia I always let the ball go through ya ya correct correct correct but I will play the soccer ball I will go whack whack the anyhow one


a'ah,


, okay okay ya so continue,


they make them stand in one line he what sia fucking bad eh


what the heck or this one like come CB thing eh small kids sia


, ya sia they go scold small kids sia we stand over there confirm fuck it all ya


, (ppc)


ya idiot police, !huh! how old your bothers, eh actually idiots eh actually you know why the reason they take down their names and the numbers one because actually police right policemen right they have a quota to reach everyday so they need they need to hit at least a hundred like make sure hundred right so they will don't care one so they will just go for it small kids also they take away their number one ya ya but they only can do that if they have their IC number so that's the point of it


ya bastard sia


(ppc), ya ya ya think the bastard serious ah but actually there's some place freaking cool one so there's this ah skaters at err at my area one ah so you know the you know the hall my area the hall


they will go there one then after that they skate there one then got the there will be one hump what so they skate there one so skating police came lah I came to find this through because my friend is the younger brother he's a skater also he Kena from he Kena this by this indian guy and another chinese woman or malay all that he looks like mixed like that


then after that they Kena eh that guy the indian guy also go play there skates lah he play and skate he took picture all he go put Hougang NPC serious can go see ya ya ya then after that ah I I finally stop because that time right I was scared of the the bad shits I do what so like I went to


I every time I video SS it I plan out one I go Hougang NPC like that something like that lah every time I go look at the what's the recent updates lah like at least <tamil>நா: naa</tamil> so at least <tamil>நா தப்பிச்சிக்குனோல: naa tappichikkunola</tamil> so at least, I think that's one like goes right I see like eh <tamil>என்ன நம்ப: enna namba</tamil> area <tamil>மாரி இருக்கு இரு நம்ப: maari irukku iru namba</tamil> hall <tamil>மாரி இருக்கே: maari irukkae</tamil> then I get to find there's a policeman in my god damn area ya he will everyday walk he will like walk past my whole table you know that time I got one table he walk past us even he got see smoking he just do nothing


he just walk away ya he but he will never but he won't wear uniform lah he just give a stare then he just walk away one, ya kind fellow ya that's how I have to get to find out that there's a god damn policeman ah in my area ya, so there's some policeman very steady one especially all those <EX1><tamil>நாட்டு நாட்டு: naattu naattu</tamil></EX1> policeman right !wah! I love them honestly lah


(ppc) (ppc), you know recently I work at the car wash right, then on the second day I was sick also like fuck lah like fucking sick so uh when I coming back I wear all black so I literally wear all black with a cap also black cap black cap my friend ah he the fidgety fidgety type one is with like he like to look at other stuff one so we go to MRT then after that when we topping when we ah when he topping up the


card right he go when the policeman staring at me so I I didn't know then after that I didn't look look look again I just look one time I like I look up I just look up and down I just look away my friend ah !wah! he literally stared at the policeman the policeman stare at him right he go stare at the policeman back, he stare at the policeman back for good five minutes lah when he doing the ah ah topping up so like that you know so putting ah just stare


he still stare then after I tell him eh [dey] don't look lah don't look lah is this chinese fellow lah so I say [dey] don't look lah don't look lah, then after that he's like like okay okay then after that we turn around then after that I using my phone lah uh Instagram so going up the stair uh escalator right I was first one to go on top what so I turn around just talking to him lah so he below me what I see one I see policeman coming up so I think never mind okay lah <tamil>நம்ப: namba</tamil> lah <tamil>மாட்டிகிட்டோ: maattikitto</tamil> lah but there was cigarette in my bag and stuff lah my friend got vape also


so after that ya then after that I see policeman one policeman went past in front of me second policemen uh stand uh behind my friend, then I look at my friend I say uh eh got police behind us watch out later then after that then he look at me he give me the eye that's why I say okay okay like that because he got vape what so <tamil>என்னாச்சோ நம்~: ennacho nam~</tamil> ah he must be steady one what then the third policeman was all the way below


so we go on top right they straightaway uh delighted me eh hello excuse me police can you go to one side then after that I straightaway question like may I know why you guys stopping me for then they say no your friend keep on staring at me then I'm like my friend stare at you stopping us my friend staring at you he say ya after that I say may I know why he say because he looks damn suspicious


then after that I was like okay lor uh what you guys want me to do now he say uh can I have your IC then after that me and my friend pass my IC I look at my friend I give him the eye already go and hide your fucking vape, but the fellow so stupid he so confident ah come go check ah <tamil>பெரிய பருப்புனு நெனப்பு: periya paruppunu nenappu</tamil> idiot [dey] ya so right then after that he say Priya go check ah go check then after that the another policeman right he's the actually the rank he's bigger higher rank so he is the one keeping quiet the lower rank was the one questioning us lah


then after that the guy malay what then after that uh I uh he asking me question then after that I just tell him in uh malay back lah then after that he ask me eh, then I say boleh boleh boleh then after that he say [orh] okay lah lah then after that he pass me back my IC lah, he pass me back my IC fucking biased eh just because I can speak malay he fucking uh biased eh he pass me back my IC say then after that he he pass back my friend IC also so I don't know if they got take down or not then after that the there was uh two I think all three of them were malay if I think if I not wrong but one like a bit chinese lah that's why I don't know then after that the higher rank one right he just straightaway look at the lower rank then he ask us to check


check our bag open up everything they ask want check a not actually by right singapore you cannot check without a warrant, ya you can you can say you can deny but if you deny it right they can, restrain you until a warrant come to you, so I don't want more drama what so I all say okay all by all means you can check with me they ask me if got cigarette I see ya ya I just say uh lah I just say eh tengok then after that I show them then after I say is singapore seal don't worry


they uh and they look at they look at each cigarette to check if it's contra or not so it's not it's not contraband it's uh singapore legitimate cigarette lah so the guy pass me back he I was eighteen ah you know he could have took my cigarette, because I'm underage but he just passed me back in front of the higher policeman also he passed me back then after that they checked me first I open my bag all they say okay you clear they check me they take my pant they check and my uh


with like weapons and stuff so they tell me that this ya I was at redhill ya then after that they just told me that now right here got a lot of people


bring weapons one then I was like okay ah no ah no issue you can just continue your work I just needed an explanation only then after that my friend ah he say come lah go check then after that he's he has his vape on his right pocket you know so the the <EX1><tamil>நாட்டேக்காரே: nattaekkaarae</tamil></EX1> one the one that talking to me, he go and touch then after that he say brother that one ah my friend say ya


he he just said brother that one ah my friend say ya then after that he say lah lah then after that he just go on top he say got any weapons or not no don't have don't have don't have, he literally let off my friend with the vape fucking cool he had the vape he just touch right he just say that one ah bro he say ya


he say like that they I think they believe sia !wah! I cannot take it he speak the one time malay they believe it also eh, then after that the guy was like [orh] okay ah okay okay okay betul betul betul then after that I was like okay I jsut say ah terima kasih lah then after that that fellow say kasih then after that he walk away I look at my friend say eh <EX2>#chao chibai#</EX2> fellow I tell you to put the fucking vape in hide it inside why you put in your pocket after that he say eh brother I don't know lah brother I don't know this type of thing I say you idiot sia go and stare at the policeman for fuck also I don't know


ya (ppc) so the policeman just let us off eh like they, that's that's the reason all the people all the people say right all those <EX1><tamil>நாட்டே: naattae</tamil></EX1> policeman they very steady one because they also got do confirm do this <tamil>தில்லு முல்லு தில்லு முல்லு:tillu mullu tillu mullu</tamil> one ya, (ppc) it's all the bullshit bullshit stuff sia then after that I thinking back I was like then after that uh I say so you stop him then after that I the past I say the last I say lah I remembering I saying that you stop him because suspicious then me eh he say because you are his friend lor


they say they just tell me like because he's your friend your friend what I was like !walao! eh <EX2>chao chibai</EX2> leh ya, I was busy looking at Instagram the post all sia their !walao! then he stop my mood sia that guy then you know but it's fucking Paiseh imagine like


lucky they cannot see my face because I wear cap I wear mask also , recently only ya I still working at the car wash but I stop working because ya because super tiring I have to wash like, McLaren a'ah, Porsche, a'ah Lamborghini all the rich rich from the showcase one ya so I was like


nah no I didn't I was so scared to break it so after that I just I just clean then after that I will go on top of the tyre I will clean the top one because sometimes the Porsche one big very big one of my friend over there he pawn one one then after that he find and find there got chewing gum eh we just took the chewing gum ya then we just eat the chewing gum ya we don't care one ya


ya is all these stupid stupid stuff but it was worth it for the pay lah like nine per hour then if it's like if you work not even one day it was like uh eighty six dollars my boss will just give you hundred, ya ya ya he good he good ya because it's actually super tiring then I was like fucking tired I was like you know I'm not gonna work it's not like I physically shag but mentally because I have to keep on looking at the same car


over and over and over fucking shag sia, , I got all the stupid stupid story one right


ya just now only I was like !wah! cannot I cannot then after that I was like thinking sia eh Strepsils <tamil>இருந்தா நல்லா இருக்கோ: iruntha nallaa irukko</tamil> then after that I remember about you then I say oh ya why I so stupid I go buy Strepsils lah then after that I go get the, there's the maximum one they say is like I ask the guy then after that he was like say this one is the strong ah then I was like okay lah just get got this blue colour eh it was like it's more quite more strong ya ya it's more strong but I like it lah the mento one later eh later I wear the mask like I can feel my whole mouth in mento ya


okay lah cooling lah not bad lah ya ya ya that's the thing then I tearing also I was like <tamil>நா ஏன்டா அலுவுர: naa endaa aluvura</tamil> like <NEN> your I actually stole a dialogue from it fuck sia


I think !wah! luckily stop okay you know what's funny thing you know just now like got a lot of red red thing when I typing to my friend you know why a not because I keep on doing like that ya because I got so I got long nails what then after I like that then just now like that even when I typing I just like like that then after I was <tamil>என்னா: ennaa</tamil> lah so many red lines for what ah ya ya I also like I also like that's why that's why I kept it for longer ya ya everyday I wash one


this one lah go tear a bit, it just tear a bit ya ya just tear a bit, ya then after that the uh when I do like that right just now then the thing just hook on me I was like what the fuck ya but I also will cut lah I don't want too long later people call me gay sia


you know for essay you know for english essay, so the funniest thing right they ask me one question right I go I go answer a different thing, my teacher say ah not Kathi doesn't matter the time ran out a not just talk bullshit talk your way out of it I look at my teacher you say one ah ya I say one anything anything the judge anything the fellow say just say my name I was like okay lor then I go talk bullshit stuff sia I go put ah ah ah ah ah


ya because I legit don't care ya legit don't care one ya I for english I got, I got what sia, I think I got B also eh, ya I got B also because I legit, I was good in english that time like I do nothing I was good already on it ya


then for uh mathematics uh mathematics I legit have to study like hardcore one, ya mathematics I study for hardcore, then I also got B, mother tongue I got surprisingly I just pass when I was been failing for all of my, uh all the time in since I was secondary one, science you don't worry history eh you SS you geography you F&N you eh no F&N I got just pass also


because my my, project my teacher give me free answers because I the <tamil>தறுதலை தறுதலை: tarutalai tarutalai</tamil> then my teacher the fucking super kind the like the, she's the type like very warm huggy one ya sometimes she then she like see someone past you then just come and hug you one ya then she the very kind kind super kind one she will just buy pizza for us one she's fucking kind


eh ya she's the fucking kind kind one ya then after that ah she will just like you know what Kathi just don't tell the rest ah just go and do ah then me and my friend just go and do ya we two are the <tamil>தறுதலை: tarutalai</tamil> we two will skip the class every time then after that for her is heart pain lah that I skip but then she will she will cry she cry to ask me she cry to me all sia


ya she will like say why you skip class am I like that bad to you and stuff then I was like no lah teacher no no I just hate the lesson only don't worry then she say is it becaues no lah teacher just like I cannot listen only ya , when I was in secondary one secondary two I F&N lesson also I keep on getting A, that's why my secondary three they push me to the higher


the uh higher F&N ya, then after that I did super bad until secondary four also they put put me still there my teacher say she got faith in me, then I was like !aiya! fuck it lah that time I'm like play I childish childish one ya so I like to play play around a lot one ya, (ppc)


, ya I know right I know right ya !walao!


ya ya ya ya, (ppc), some more here got nothing sia, what did we do we most listening only ya right the first actually the first day we talk a lot right I think I talk a lot I don't know what I talk but I talk all my


I actually talk all the deep deep one sia ya, just now also I first thing I start seriously straightaway sad story also, never mind I will end it off with another sad story, I will find something lah confirm have something one it just just to come to my brain only ya


like the deepest secret you ask I just straightaway !aiya! !alamak! first thing into my mind is that one already, uh last day of school for secondary four me Raj we all go bang we go break all the class uh toilet door


we take fire extinguisher we play all ya we do all the bullshit bullshit stuff then we break then after that we punch got one hole one ya then now right that time when I when I uh that time, I went back to my school for collection of uh what ah, what is it call sia this paper what ya something certificate ya ah testimonial ah tesimonial <tamil>அந்த பெரு சொல்றதுக்கே ஞாபகம் வரலே: antha peru solrathukkae nyabagam varalae</tamil> testimonial then I go look at the toilet ah that literally metal reinforcement eh


they reinforce that shit metal because I ask my junior eh what's happening in our school they say because got a lot of students breaking it last year then I was like eh <EX2>chibai</EX2> that's me sia, ya ya then me and Raj was like eh <tamil>மாமா: mama</tamil> we just go we just go ya it's funny sia I like to call Raj <tamil>மாமா: mama</tamil> one, ya


then after that I'll I'll I'll say this type of thing [dey] <tamil>மாமா வேணா பெருமாள்: mama venaa perumaal</tamil> ya like those type like , like those type like uh movie movie the way they say <tamil>மாமா: mama</tamil> Raj is like that, I think is the background colours sia


that's the one, no there's some more, maybe that's the baby


shoo shoo so fast go off, okay another <tamil>கேள்வி: kaelvi</tamil> you know I scared of ah birds okay K now I tell you something ah , that time my ex right I go to the best friend house some time one because she's comfortable in the best friend house so I was like okay lah so I went to the best friend house she keep a bird she told me don't worry the bird won't come to you bird won't come to you


so the first day I go there I told them never mind please please just don't open it the the the the third or fourth time time I go right she open it you know so when she open it she say Kai don't come don't come to you won't come to you won't come to you then she hold it you know then I was at the table playing uh twenty one, because we all betting lah we all playing twenty one we gambling then after that I stand up she won't come to you won't come to you the bird literally she she open the thing she was standing at the TV there the bird came to her do one three sixty uh turn


fail fly to me you know it was like literally just like here like around here I just dodge I just shoo on it eh ya I just dodge for because that time I was doing I was still practise my boxing what so my reflexes chain stood up eh I just straightaway dodge the thing just like like that one, then I run to her sia I run to her then after that I was like say B B faster come faster come got freaking bird she say nothing one nothing one I was like <tamil>போடி: podi</tamil> what the fuck [dey] then after that I say you say what the bird won't come then she I ask her to call back the bird


some time the bird will run away one then she call back the bird when she call back the bird the bird came she just holding the the the leg then she say Kathi Nah go and touch I say no no no no then she put back inside the cage ya, that's why I always scared of bird ya but I love to see see lah see see I don't mind


(mmhmm)


, really meh it's like it's like this like their thing lah, I mean you never go touch ah the thing move away <tamil>நா போலே நாணும் போக மாட்டே நா போவ மாட்டேன்: naa polae nanum poga mattae naa pova mattaen</tamil> ya ya ya


(ppc), like like all the small small thing only we scared sia the big big thing we won't scared one ya I don't know why also


(ppc), wasted lah should have seen you crying also lah


wait the bird you all keep one ah, !wah! thank for you I will never leave my house at all I never leave my room also I will be like say <tamil>மா போயிட்டா போலையா பரவால்ல சாப்பாடு கீழே தாங்க: maa poyitaa polaiyaa paravalla sappadu kilae tanga</tamil> all the way ah all the way ah ya ya ya


what the fuck they no ya no no no ya ya actually got birds like stare at stone ya literally some ya got some birds ah will just stay on one spot then I don't even know if it's real or not eh they just stay on one spot one ya I got see before see before ya !wah! <tamil>போடா: podaa</tamil> this thing !wah! eh ya sia ya


what the fuck ya ya ya ya ya fuck once you tell me the bird shit sia ya fuck ya I never forget the bird stoning on I don't know what they looking at then just imagine like the body here the head will turn like that one then after that they will look then after that if you go closer straightaway look at you then I was a'ah turns all the way ya fuck [dey]


her shoulder or your shoulder


actually on on her hand on his hand or what oh ya ya wait you all you all can go to the , the Shui thingy right then you all can hold hold one you know your your father got hold ah my father go hold snake [dah] my father go hold snake you know outside the ya there be like one fellow outside just be showing for fun not like inside the not like inside the zoo or what then after that he just go and uh pass my dad one uh pass my dad the snake


my dad was was like <tamil>நா: naa</tamil> Kathi <tamil>வா புடிச்சுக்கோ புடிச்சுக்கோ: vaa pudichukko pudichukko</tamil> I say !wah! <tamil>அப்பா இவ்ளோ நீட்டமா இருக்குன்னு: appa ivlo neettamaa irukkunnu</tamil> whitish yellowish uh like that one the both of us like the hand is like is like curly curly you know all the way here all the way my father holding like that you know <tamil>பா: paa</tamil> say Kathi <tamil>வா புடுச்சிக்கோ: vaa puduchikko</tamil> I was like !huh! <tamil>புடுச்சுக்கவா அது சாப்பிட்டுரோ: puduchukkavaa athu sappitturo</tamil> lah <tamil>போ: po</tamil> lah


ya then you know my uh my last time my best friend house right she got birds at home one but I'm not scared of the birds you know why or not because they always covered it with a blanket because the bird scared of light that's what they told me lah then that time right there's this bird they won't be covered in blanket but I always sit beside it one


ya the bird's the bird's name called <tamil>கருப்பி: karuppi</tamil> so I say <tamil>கருப்பன் நா: karuppan naa</tamil> chicken sixty five <tamil>பண்ணிருவே சொல்லிட்டே: panniruvae sollittae</tamil> so after I high right I will come and sit once I go inside the house when the the family allow us to drink but best to drink some the family like that one very cool with us one because we don't drink then make drama we just drink for like sadness or what


then after that after I drink I will go fucking high so I'll say, then the bird just cage is just right here then after I'll like that I will play with it you know the metal the thing I will say like <tamil>கருப்பன் நா: karuppan naa</tamil> chicken sixty five <tamil>பண்ணிருவே சொல்லிட்டே: panniruve sollittae</tamil> then after that the thing will at me back you know ya will just will just like make the sound back at me one then I will say <tamil>என்ன என்ன என்ன: enna enna enna</tamil> chicken sixty five <tamil>பண்ணிருவே சொல்லிட்டே: panniruve sollittae</tamil> then after the my best friend will tell my <tamil>அம்மா: amma</tamil> Kathi eh <tamil>பாருங்க அம்மா:parunga amma</tamil> chicken sixty five <tamil>பண்றேன்னு சொல்லிட்டே இருக்கான் கருப்பி கிட்டே: pandrennu sollittae irukkaan karuppi kittae</tamil> I say ya why cannot just eat lah I thought of eat it if I high right !wah! I thought of eat it like


I'm like that type of highness like I don't want what to do one ya, when I sober I know what to do ya, serious ah (mmhmm)


you should you should try put your hand finger you know you should try put your finger then after that it will bite eh the <tamil>கருப்பி: karuppi</tamil> will like to bite that's why I will just play with it <tamil>வா வா வா: vaa vaa vaa</tamil> I'll put here she will go there I come here she will fly here that's why I like that like that one at the string ya so it's funny one lah ya


jokers lah the birds, serious ah what the fuck the birds so talented ah, then when she when she every time she make the sound right then the bird will respond, okay you want say something a not if I if I say something you confirm laugh one I I also can do it


ya it was it was one show was one show Vasantham I don't know what show was this sia serious ah wait is the


I actually wanted to say must disturb Bumi <tamil>இப்பவே: ippavae</tamil> disturb <tamil>பண்ணியே ஆகனும் அப்பதான் அவ நிம்மதியா வீட்டுக்கு போகமுடியும்: panniyae aganum appathaan ava nimmathiya veettukku pogamudiyum</tamil> then after that I say Buvana <tamil>சிரி சிரி சிரி சிரி சிரி: siri siri siri siri siri</tamil> !wah! fuck sia I laugh like Kichu sia !wah! !wah!, I don't know like all these thing will come to me like randomly one like we talk talk talk then suddenly will unlock some part of my memory and then new memory and unlock like that


fuck sia, I should stop , , I should stop what ah, , talking sia first thing should stop talking and should stop because every time I talk I talk talk and talk talk talk talk but I hate it when people talk ya


like dude freaking hell that is still one sia she talk to me like at least talk something funny lah she talk to me this guy so lie down sad lah, so I don't understand then after I like !wah! ya that's the thing ya, then after that I was like that cannot I cannot take it then I go smoke what then I smoking time I was like ah then he say uh he say !huh! then I say okay <tamil>அவனுக்கு கண்டிப்பா: avanukku kandippaa</tamil> malay <tamil>தெரியாது: teriyathu</tamil> then after that I just say brother here can smoke or not he say ya ya then after that I know I I took out the earpiece so the guy so the girl cannot hear then I put back I was like say !wow! she still talking ah never mind fuck it then I just smoke ya


no no, (ppc)


serious ah eh you shit you see see see, the the the just now was like, the other other thing the other other thing that's the thing


I cannot make the sound, you know it's like milky way eh


ya ya it's like the <tamil>சுழி சுழி:suzhi suzhi</tamil> thing is like the milky way, eh fuck actually it's nice eh ya actually it's nice eh the milky milky thing, fuck [dey]


, I made a promise to my dad when I was in secondary three right I never tell you right, I never ah so right, so this thing happen uh I actually a good student lah I everyday will go school go school then after that uh I met Raj what secondary three I so close to him what then after that Raj always come late lah then after that uh


in the morning right I actually will smoke one, like when the time I go out of school or what I must smoke then after that, it's like not addicted lah it's like habit already like every morning smoke then after that I was like that day I was like no cigarette, then after I call Raj I say [dey] <tamil>எங்கேடா இருக்கே: engedaa irukkae</tamil> then after that he say [dey] <tamil>வீட்டுலே இருந்து இப்பதான்டா கிளம்புறேன்: veetulae irunthu ippathaandaa kilamburaen</tamil> because school's gonna start


and the school is gonna start in five minutes and he say <tamil>வீட்டுலே இருந்து இப்பதான்டா கிளம்புறேன்: veetulae irunthu ippathaandaa kilamburaen</tamil> then I was like say ah fuck it ah I go late lah I just take order of detention lah then after that I call him then after that I said I wait for you at four zero one there the Punggol park the other side , then after that I was like say okay K <tamil>வாடா: vaadaa</tamil> then after that I go meet him then after that err he never eat then after that err we go seven eleven I bought for him burger then after that he eat then after that we smoke


then we talk cock all the way until got like eight plus nine ya so right our school right I I didn't know that if you come back if you come after nine o'clock they will call your parents you come inside school after nine they call your parents we came after nine we go inside I thought I Kena only detention slip, I take detention slip I Shiok Shiok happy want play five class you know then the fellow just call me come here go to meet your err mister Heng then I was like mister Heng why then he say you come after nine plus what need to call your parents


I was like <tamil>செத்தே: sethae</tamil> lah (ppc) then after that he go we go then after that uh he ask me for my father's number I give him my old father's number number, the school still have the record of my old father's number so I give them my old err number my father number then after that he call then after that he cannot answer he call Raj one my the father answer then after that the father say uh the father actually okay okay one like don't care also one lah


then after that for Raj okay lah then for I so happy you so I say nothing happen lah then I go home then after I go home right I suddenly , my, my ex told me that your father inside school, ya my ex told me she message me she say your father inside school that's why I say !huh!


why then after that uh she's like say I don't know he went into general office I said okay okay thanks but I I surprised ah she message me you know I surprised then after that I was like uh I was like fuck sia then on that day was on a friday also I skip my NCC all leh, I skip my NCC also then I went home seven plus eh <tamil>நா போய் நல்லா போய் கூத்தாடிச்சிட்டுதா வந்தே வீட்டுக்கு வந்தே: naa poyi nallaa poyi koothadichittutha vanthae veettukku vanthae</tamil> so actually I came home eight o'clock I say !wah! fucking tired of NCC but actually I was not lah then after that when I sleeping time right my dad come to me he straight give me one push kick to my face ah ya give me one push kick to my face


your teacher say you uh come uh come home uh come school so late நீ வீட்டுலேயிருந்து ஆறரைக்கு கிளம்புனேன்: nee veettuleirunthu aararaikku kilambunaen</tamil> ya


ya then after that my father was like <tamil>பொய் சொல்லாதே பொய் சொல்லாதே: poi sollathae poi sollathae</tamil> then after that he just just whack the fuck out of me ya ya and then after that I was like ah fuck it lah then I just tell the truth lah after I told the truth after that then my father like say okay you know what or not my father actually he talk to me the part nicely he just say like in the future right you no matter what right what's gonna back you up is your <tamil>படிப்பு: padippu</tamil> like even if you


even if you hate the school right just go and get the certificate because singapore legit need certificate like anywhere so my father's was like telling me then I was like I understand lah last time my father make a I made a promise to my father and my mom, I swear on the I swear on them if uh if I swear on the god I don't give a flying fuck but I swear on them that I say that I'll go school, ya


so I told them I won't let them down about going school or anything one so I literally went to school after that every day, then afer that , my discipline master say to my father say the one that I'm getting influenced by Raj all, ya so that's when every bullshit happened in my life, ya


(ppc), ya so like, , so I just go school but I will skip school, I made a promise to my family that I will go school but I never say I will stay inside school what I mean correct what so I'll play smart ya ya play smart play smart, I make sure I'll go school early early stay inside class for one hour thirty minute I say <tamil>போடா கெளம்புரே: podaa kelampurae</tamil> then I go slack one ya


is funny sia , I do a lot all these stupid stupid bullshit secondary school time ya, ya, then that time also right they'll be like , uh there's like these girls lah they the slutty slutty one


why why why what did I say, [oh] the ya ya ya fuck [dey] ya ya ya


hi <tamil>இப்போ வந்து மணி ஐந்து முப்பத்தி ஏழு:ippo vanthu mani aintu muppathi elu</tamil> PM, okay


(mmhmm)


(mmhmm), (mmhmm)


!wow!


okay


(hmm)


and the people who is listening to you


oh my god and then


oh my god


serious


oh my god, oh that's so bad


okay <tamil>எனக்கு என்ன கதை இருக்கு: enakku enna kathai irukku</tamil> (hmm), but at that point of time you just think about your family and do, you didn't know what this will go into so it's okay, but you didn't know that was going to happen


ah okay okay, serious


(mmhmm), there's a reason behind everything


, ya


that's the past past is the past,


if I have one what'll it be


!aiyo! no I don't go into anything like that I don't know lah, , deepest darkest secret


okay I have okay <tamil>இது உன்கிட்ட சொல்ரே:ithu unkitta solrae</tamil> okay , okay so I had this got this guy singaporean guy indian muslim guy he talked to me we met


ya we meet okay okay , okay so uh <tamil>அதுக்கு அப்புறம் என்னாச்சினா நம்ம வந்து பேசுவோ:athukku appuram ennachina namma vanthu pesuvo</tamil> lah like just talk only and if I if I know the person if I very close to the person I'm very clingy because confirm you will realise it already I'm very I'm a very clingy person


he one time he just like he touched me all like do all those kind of stuff then I just I stopped him but he still continued


he live opposite Punggol park, can you take for me


you know there's always this kind of <tamil>பூச்சி: puchi</tamil> that will stay in my black colour tudung I don't know why it comes to black okay never mind can you just do this, his name is Imran, ya your area he's twenty plus


eh he have err brothers, indian muslim his brothers err his brother he got one uh brother eh wait no he he he's err Raj brother's uh Raj brother's


he used to drink with Raj brother last time, I don't know but it's opposite Punggol park but I don't know the block, he got brothers he got three brothers, and a sister ya wait the all of them the brothers all from Serangoon secondary


ya they all from Serangoon secondary one guy name is err <tamil>அவ பெரு என்ன:ava peru enna</tamil> lah, <tamil>மறந்துட்டு:maranthuttu</tamil> lah, he's one there's one younger than me one is eighteen


eh shit he have very long hair, ah <tamil>பெரு மறந்துருச்சு: peru maranthuruchu</tamil> lah !aiyo!, Paru <tamil>கிட்டே கேட்டா அவ சொல்லிடுவா தெரியுமா:kittae kettaa ava solliduvaa teriyumaa</tamil> because that time she say the brother very handsome


that time also I got see him he will he drive Grab, NA I think, eh <tamil>மறந்துட்டே: maranthutae</tamil> lah is a indian muslim guy, no it's not him, it's not that name it's not that name it's something else, no it's not it's not that name it's something else


he's he has a very long hair


also from your school, he's twenty I think he's twenty ya I think he's twenty


ya but that guy the other guy is eighteen but I forgot his name I really forget his name, I think its Muthasim is it Muthasim


it start with M I think it's I think it's Muthsim or Muthusim or something like that, ya ya ya something like that something like that


really I thought he's eighteen, he told me he was younger than me one year younger than me eighteen, Musim ya Musim yes that's the name


ya that's the name that's the name is really that's the name ya Musim ya Musim, eh <tamil>அதுவா:athuvaa</tamil> eh <tamil>தெரில:terila</tamil> sia really you know if I go back later that thing will itself


uh never mind <tamil>பரவால:paravaala</tamil> tell, okay I don't know


head to heart


he's not fat he's thin


Roger I only know that I only know, ya, I don't know that's the only thing I can ever think of , ya that's my embarrassing secret


okay wait let me think, what is your what is your favourite colour


, because of the video,


[orh] okay


blue but I like I also like black, my my clothes also mostly is black, ,


what is laser tag, really there's such thing I didn't know,


oh that's scary, [orh] then,


what, , ,


!aiyo!, , ya, !wow! your shirt glows in the dark that's so funny


you didn't even know,


, , !wow!, !wah!


like you just suddenly just think of it only you wanna tell


, ya unlock your memory , it's okay I don't feel bad


serious so that was the reason I thought Shaidah <tamil>கிட்ட சொல்லிட்டு நீ அங்கே வெச்சிருக்கே நெனச்சே:kitta sollittu nee angae vechirukkae nenachae</tamil> ,


<tamil>முடில:mudila</tamil> [dah] , [orh] oh my god that is so funny


oh my god so that's the reason this is so funny , oh my god


, I got take it out what I got that time I take it out with Farah to like go out, ya and then we wanted to take picture so we just take it out


serious


ya Farah don't wear at all ya ya ya ya she just take out she just take out, I will just take it out lah my hair also now falling I want to take it but it's okay so lazy later must wear back ya I'm so lazy to wear back


something different


oh my god <tamil>எனக்கு மறந்துருச்சு:enakku maranthuruchu</tamil> !aiyo!


okay never mind I ask you a different question so if which country would you want to go, why


where india singapore [orh] oh my god


why, a'ah


you just can't leave your home stress and you just can't stay somewhere eh this one in eh in singapore you know , so cute


like Jurong


, then where where's was your first house, then how long have you been in have you been in Hougang


which primary school were you in, oh then you change primary school


[orh], , , serious


, ya, fourth one there was a fourth one serious I didn't know [orh]


[orh]


!huh!


you still now have, [orh], [orh],


oh my god then <tamil>அவ்வளோ:avvalo</tamil> force ah oh my god,


you kick you just kick the ball then the ball went oh my god,


, why


<tamil>அது உன்னை என்ன பண்ணுச்சி:athu unnai enna pannuchi</tamil> , oh my god


they hate soccer how can they hate soccer, [orh], ya ya my house also have


my house me and my brothers we playing soccer there's this where goal you know the room the door right then I will be the goalkeeper I'll stand there then my brother will be okay shoot come shoot ya then you we'll we play with the very small ball you know because we cannot play with soccer ball at our hosue


ya but then recently right my brothers the police came to my hall because they always play soccer there then the police came then after that I I was I was just walking around because I was damn bored then over there got a lot of guys then I don't want play already that time I <tamil>சின்ன பிள்ள:chinna pilla</tamil> I play with all the guys that one can lah but now I big girl I cannot play with guys then my <tamil>சின்ன:chinna</tamil> brother my two younger brother play but I was sure he wasn't there he was at the shop


so ah after that the police I walking walking then got two police down there they make my brothers stand at stand in one line then all his friends also lah then I ask what happened, ya he's all be like then my then I look at my brothers what happened lah got two police so I go there and ask the police what happened then he then they say ah got a lot of people complain today say very noisy and there's a sign there you cannot play soccer and and another thing is there is more than five people


ya, then then ya then after that I I say lah like we've been we've been playing for many months why today why why today , cos, we've been actually not many months you know we playing for years in this hall no one has police have never come down


some people run away already like all the older guys, they all run away already then only my <tamil>சின்ன பிள்ளைங்க தம்பி:chinna pillainga thambi</tamil> down there sia then I look at them very pity, they so cute you know then they stand I don't why you so cute ah, then after that I just I just why today why why just why today then the guy because ah the chinese guy suddenly there was a chinese police and a indian muslim police then the chinese police call me [orh] then like okay so uh who are your brothers I told them none I'm their sister then they say who okay so which one is your brothers then I point these two is my brothes then after that they ask


uh they say lah today I ask them why today like we've been playing for many years no one has ever complain why today then after that they say because, a lot a lot of people a lot of people call that day like a lot of people call and complain to the police that was very noisy then after that ya then he say lah like you all play in a court where there's no signs and then must not be like five people


ya then right after they were taking down my brothers name IC number primary one primary eh primary three primary five lah, why


a'ah


then <tamil>அந்த:antha</tamil> indian muslim guy suddenly asked me to say my name also then I say okay then what's your name ah which school are you studying ah what's your give me your number all


they so dumb but they still now they go there and play again, , ya


oh my god then


!wah! serious, !wah!


both of them were dude look damn young you know and they were taking down taking down everyone's names, ya


, then,


(mmhmm), ,


, damn funny lah


oh my god, is it


eh <tamil>என்னா:ennaa</tamil> lah eh <tamil>என்னே கொன்னா~:ennae konnaa~</tamil> lah !aiyo!


, eh


[orh], oh shit


, oh you were at redhill that's so far


!aiyo! then,


!wow!


[orh], ,


!aiyo!


ah,


serious, oh it happened recently oh ya you told me ya


!whoa! then do you have like when you wash it do you have to ask them to drive it


serious , serious !wow!


ya that is crazy


, , what flavour you buy


ah is it okay, really


, ya you told me , ya நா naa vanthu</tamil> <tamil>சாப்ட்டே:saaptae</tamil> then my eyes all I feel my eyes all cooling then like <tamil>என்னாடா நடக்குது:ennadaa nadakkuthu</tamil>


why, [orh] then if you do that it will have the red red thing is it, ya got that sound but I like that sound you know the sound so nice really [orh] but so nice eh got the sound one


tear cannot see not so obvious oh ya ya ya oh my god ah I don't like


[orh] okay,


, okay, ,


serious oh my god, , eh not bad you know


this is so good


, , [orh] eh that's so nice leh


!wah! so sweet,


!wow! so good, , serious


[orh] that's so sad, higher F&N, !wow!


okay, , I feel like <tamil>நம்ம கொஞ்சோதா பேசிருந்த மாரி இருந்துச்சு:namma konchonthaa pesiruntha maari irunthuchu</tamil> lah


yes the first thing you talk about is one sad story,


, have you ever break something in your school,


serious, oh my god , oh my god, some certificate right


testimonial ya, , !whoa!,


!wah!, oh my god, maybe that's the child that's the mom or maybe that's the husband that's the wife maybe that's the father that's the child, oh it's a family oh my god that's so cute there's a tiny little one


then


!whoa!, shit then, oh my god


oh my god I also scared of bird I love to see also but I scared because there got that time right my house there got one bird it was on the lift and I'm the first one to see it


I think was a love bird


and it will die without his partner I think so ya I think so, ya I think so lah then after that, ya ya ya you scared of bird I was my brother all not scared you know no no no I don't dare I scared I touch then they move then it come to me


then then after that my brother all giving food to it lah then I got the video all you know then, then after that one time lah all come at a time then my father he purposely scared me you know I was in my room because I scared of the bird I was literally in my room and then the bird, then the my father take the bird


come into my room I literally shouted like crazy I scream then I take the pillow I hide my face all I take the whole blanket hide my face then I tell <tamil>போங்க போங்க போங்க எனக்கு வேணா எனக்கு வேணா:ponga ponga ponga enakku venaa enakku venaa</tamil> then I cry already , ya then I cry already you know then after he then after that he


li~like I was really tearing already I seriously hate it I don't like it I don't like the moving oh my god then after that my mum tell me lah <tamil>அது வந்து:athu vanthu</tamil> you know the refrigerator right <tamil>அது வந்து மேலே இருக்கும்:athu vanthu maelae irukkum</tamil> then it was down there then she was sitting down on the sofa, no because ya the bird was so lost then like it had nowhere to go it had no home so we just had it in our house


no ya I was in my room also literally all the way then when it standing there in the window <tamil>அது பாத்து:athu paathu</tamil> stare <tamil>பண்ணிட்டே இருக்கோம்:pannitae irukkom</tamil> like it will just be still like a stone suddenly, ya ya like stone sia


ya I scared <tamil>எப்ப:eppa</tamil> move <tamil>பண்ணோ எப்ப என்னா பண்ணோ:panno eppa enna panno</tamil> I seriously don't know sia then I will <tamil>பயந்துட்டு பயந்துட்டு நா: bayanthuttu bayanthuttu naa</tamil> I will sit there and watch the bird <tamil>நவருதா நவர்ணா நா ஓடிடுவே:navarutha navarnaa naa odiduvae</tamil> , ya ya


ya then after that it was on top of the refrigerator then my mum was sitting on the sofa then she tell me lah suddenly from on top it fly to her shoulder and sit you know, her shoulder lucky never come to me then I tell her right oh my god


ya ya he go hold he's not scared <tamil>நா செத்துருவே:naa sethuruvae</tamil> lah serious, ya that one


, oh my god oh my god !aiyo!


blanket ya, ,


, [orh] then


serious oh my god


no no no I know right no I don't dare, then she will she from downstairs she will whistle then the then the bird from upstairs will make sound ya is damn cool ya


<tamil>சிரி சிரி:siri siri</tamil> <tamil>சிரி சிரி சிரி சிரி சிரி சிரி சிரி சிரி:siri siri siri siri siri siri siri siri</tamil> it's a, it's a comedy show lah they will put all the comedies it's in the Vasantham


it's the Vasantham it's the comedy show like the ha ha <tamil>சிரிப்பு:sirippu</tamil> right it's like that it's like that they will sing the song


oh my god, ya there's the song


oh my god, why


it's okay, ,


, emergency ah, ya lah that's why I say she talk talk talk I want to sleep already you know <tamil>என்னாலே முடிலே:ennalae mudilae</tamil> I cannot she say all I hate these kind of lectures


, !wow!


, ya right


whose sia it's damn nice


do you like to go to school, no


(mmhmm),


!wow! then


oh my god , serious, !wow!


oh my god then


oh my god how


!wow!, oh my god


oh my god


, , ya that's why,


!wow!


, so that's the reason you just study lah go school


!wow! that's smart


[oh] ya I remember you say when you watch that horror movie that malay horror movie when the girls come, with uniform ya you said it


okay I starting now, work, then I go eat with you


can can go ahead


, eh you know what I the my first case right the patient was very like, it's a down syndrome patient


(mmhmm), I think around nineteen years old, (mmhmm), he came with the father because he's below twenty one so you know in a way dia macam bapa dia kena sign the contract lah eh sign the paper ya


ah in a way


oh eventually he cried


, then lepas itu dia macam then he cried like literally he cried he's already nervous after that her his BP went down to went up to around hundred hundred over plus hundred forty


he's so scared he is so scared, so the doctor ah said that the best maybe put him to sleep lah, no we the instead of making into one doctor he have to meet around three doctors


yeah, ah siot kita ada lagi lima puluh lapan minit nak kena berbual


ah, (uh huh), okay


(mmhmm), (mmhmm), (mmhmm)


eh how about we go hiking kat labrador ah, when are you free sunday this sunday, oh, because labrador because it's been a long time I never go to labrador already so I think I need to go


for a walk, why you ask me go, (mmhmm),


(mmhmm), (mmhmm), (mmhmm),


(mmhmm), what steps


, I think I know where dairy farm is


how you find the #bukit timah#, eh you have you go to there's this one area right yang tempat dia [kan] there's a uh ada macam kolam ikan tau, have you go


!alah! I've been here before lah during instructor days, no very damn musty river ya this one go up that's it man oh the snake the snake ah tree


they cut it off already lah definitely, you know the bamboos, so halfway right gay after young lives, (mmhmm)


this one ya ya this one is quite steep actually, , ya ya it's always like that yeah


, of course, ah this one about this one


(uh huh), (mmhmm)


(mmhmm) (mmhmm)


(mmhmm), then,


(mmhmm), judge ya


(mmhmm), oh


(mmhmm), so how about this why don't we go for fort canning park instead ya kat bawah there's this one shop, cafe the cake is so damn nice, it's been a long time and if we go earlier, no no ah


because the place that I wanted to go [kan], the brunch, then my friend said it's damn delicious, because my friend is very particular with food so when she said it's nice, it means we really need to go


ah it's #fort canning park#, let me check google ah


, your your school test or the what test


degree eh, eh ya talking about that I want to search for it also, so you want to plan your route first or what


!alah! ah ya this is the one, until when ah


I thought of going rock climbing before I meet my friend for dekat seoul garden dinner because, we are planning to eat two rounds, with the premium ya because ah last friday we eat


but we manage to only go for one round and the food like the person just stack the whole thing up you know the black premium seoul garden punya [kan], was looking at us, then macam judge us all the way sia


but I don't care lah just like for for me it's like it's okay lah judge judge us all you want lah, I I as long as I get my food I'm happy, eighty nine dollars but I got ah apa ini in the GrabFood


ah discount so it's eighty four dollars, all together,


ah boleh lah I also science also what


might as well right, I think by the time also my PSEA also a lot already so can use, but what course that they have


I want to be cikgu lah, BA boleh jadi teacher belajar pun belajar part time part time science dah science lepas tu belajar


why, no I have no patience in that


but I'm taking pharmaceutical science so what course I can get ah let me check ah


SUSS, ya, yes I can psycho you


application fee ah


this one in any any diploma you can get right, okay


why, then buat lah


ah july admission and then I should take july intake, I think by the time by the time you graduate from your diploma ah when april or july itself


, eh why so good can use PSEA account, !yay!


how much you left, how many thousand, !huh!, but how much you left left balance when you when you apply TP


eh then where the rest how come your PSEA account, but RP wasn't that much right, the one that you do full time, my god but it's like oh so you left I thought oh you left like two thousand


ah e-application fee is sixty four dollar twenty cents, , (mmhmm), (mmhmm),


to begin this we view the application guide let's submit your application, ya inclusive of GST, because apa tu uh, because mine I got around I think fifteen K I I thought I got eight K only eh


ah, but by the time you working you already working full time what they should


(mmhmm), , , I go ITE then I go to but is under private what, consider


(hmm), psychology lah


so that that one, that pharmaceutical science is much more susah than psychology sia actually, ya because my friend said that they you have to halal tau like legitly halal and Rizal, ah sister


uh said that the thing is going to be a bit more, I don't know she said it's much much I think it's difficult,


(mmhmm), how come forty and above is six thousand plus only,


, , this one should get for him


it's just a basic degree so basic [jer], the


, , oh okay lah just nice, so I don't need I don't need to pay extra


ya I think I'm prepared for this, okay lah at least at least I just need to ask him to, pocket up the money, so I can get married [seh], , okay lah as long he he support we support each other I think shouldn't be any problem lah


he will blue tick me when he is busy, and he will get back to me later


it's not ah because, for me I understand that he's working because for me he still even though he's busy he will get back to me, after that so okay


I don't like to control him also lah it's like it's your, you are big enough to know what's what is right what is wrong ah, so there's no need for me to keep on telling you, this and that okay you're not a five year old boy that I can just like macam nak kena bilang kau oh you tak boleh buat gini you tak boleh buat gitu okay you're not a five year old kid okay


ah so for me you should know your courtesy and you should know what, what is right for you what is wrong for you lah


[kan], eh when you complete your diploma that time, my friend said that you guys can just you get a one thousand dollar plus back eh


, they score right, ya that's why, (mmhmm), (mmhmm)


(mmhmm), ,


(mmhmm)


wait I think we should ask, zack tapi zack, zack ambil degree juga tapi I don't know what school he's taking SIM or what, zack the psycho lah, oh he just texted me but he deleted the message


chill chill, chill lah, no he he did he want he text me something but he deleted it after that, yesterday yesterday night, I fell asleep early yesterday also I was so tired


, I will just make jokes ah but I will just like the moment I make jokes I slowly disappear, ya go ahead


but handsome psycho ah cannot deny


too bad, too bad lah he's just (ugh),


member start though dia boleh lah pula jadi jadi TP officer


weird right, he behave like a animal sia


right now ah, should we go #bukit timah# again, I don't mind going you know, is this the auntie, is he


okay then we should we should go then we can go the ah treetop walk,


then, ,


good energy eh, sunday ah how about sunday morning we go, or you prefer to go, you check for me then after that we can go together then I I can buy ice water or what on the way


can you wake up early, can, ah boleh ah


okay, I long time never walk already leh, , is this the only course that they have


I don't know I should take counselling or should just take psychology this question be the best, biomedical pun okay lah engineering but (ugh)


no it's not, ah to challenge myself, because somebody said I have no life so ya, Rizal, (mmhmm), I just give her the look, just give him the look you see you wait you wait ah until I do diploma you shut up also


just to shut his mouth ah, sorry ah my critical thinking is way better than him okay, in a way


someone with depression ah, no, because I myself is already mental health problem, , I got, I got anxiety


ah it happens, no but in a way the doctors, can see that I have a very bad I have a very bad anxiety when when I lost my mum, the counsellor the counsellor actually saw saw it happen


so it's like no no no I don't need a hug , ya so that what happen when I have psychology problems then eventually slowly I'll get get out of it


then sometimes it came lah but it just, you start to gag, you start to macam you feel that macam the bad energy coming


so ah there's this one point of time I think ah Rizal saw it a few times, because when we , I just talk to him macam biasa tau nanti at that all sudden I will start crying, I will just start crying


then it's either that, or I will start to have gag reflex, ya, ah, but it only comes like macam if really really I'm really under a lot of stress,


but right now dah random lah because I think because I'm busy with work, but I partly I will be a bit stress lah, partly only ah not all ah


, (mmhmm), oh, you wanna go you wanna go meh


yes I prefer more on weekdays rather than that one, eh I still need to find eh, can you just find for me what can I get for my


what can I do for my room my wall I need to go and paint the wall you know, green and black, no I'm just looking at things, it's the stuff


let me check my telegram, let me check my icloud I think my icloud have jap eh, oh my god how to check your icloud ah


finding it, okay play


just click from here right, how


, oh this is me when I go to before I cut my hair I go with Ira


we go I think Bugis, I miss my shoe man my shoe this one I go deployment, then it became my last shoe ever because I don't I forgot to bring my, cover shoe, then this one after that I throw out sia scared later I bring back COVID sia


(mmhmm) malaysian


, , what's your favourite food eh, I got a lot of food that I like


, golden food


anything mamak ah eh is this your birthday, oh my god, ya ya ya ya ya


if I not gorgeous in this dress, how to press next


oh wait wait wait wait, oh, ah, but this is nice though


this one this is so cute your birthday, okay okay I send to you


AirDrop ke WhatsApp eh


Faezah catering


I think babe I just got my I just got my laptop babe I haven't even save anything, can use WhatsApp everything inside right


okay then how


got but how how how how to AirDrop this thing, to show someone as


ask them to put AirDrop in the finder, AirDrop in the finder, damn


mama, !hais!, we still got another twenty more minutes to go


oh nice okay okay let me try let me try


everyone,


but this one how to click just click


(mmhmm), you look hot there


got it, okay, Syakira dah beranak [kan]


, ya I think I meet her


okay both of us are drunk okay like a lot of us are drunk okay after that, I don't know we


it spending time with you guys ah legit, , oh my god ,


you got a sharp face your hidung kau mancung semua [seh]


now what, eh belle serious macam galah aku tengok dia dia dengan kasut tinggi dia aku dah apa benda ni hantu mana datang ni beg aku ni


ya it's on your birthday, someone took this photo is it mark, is it ibu no right, Luqman, ya myself the funny


ya Krabi, !huh! oh my god draw photo draw photo , oh my god I hate this part sia I really literally hate this one


oh my god, K K K


he's not so funny, Taufik is who, okay okay, is location with


I think I saw him before I think I was drunk I was like I can't be bothered with it


because you really make me drunk you know at that point of time, it's like vodka vodka and green tea the vodka is much more better than green tea <EX2>cheebye</EX2> sia that one, ya right ya right


so already so drunk oh my god, no !oi! this is nice


you have it right, ah this one I go Krabi


which one, still have it, ya, is it okay lah then we can go Krabi then we go wear this together wait everybody confused ah which one is the real


, stop talking about it just shut up lah just shut up with it ah, is it this one is it after I meet, after we meet Rizal or before I meet Rizal ah


because I remember I cut my hair short already at that point of time oh ya after I just came back


but I remembered ah this one this is all pink


now still have lah when he's at work, [kan] aku minta gambar lain gambar lain yang keluar Taufik


that's my uncle that's my uncle, wait ah this one yang aku kenal Sha, don't have


no ah, are you serious this don't have inside here like legit


sorry too much selfie


thanks to Rizal okay, this is her, it was a friend ah this one part aku miscarriage


and he really he really take it for granted ah, I think somewhere in october, ah


no no no this is my friend ya kawan aku lepas tu bestfriend aku miscarriage after that, after her is me uh before before her is me


no Rizal only know, so aku I didn't realise I didn't realise I was pregnant also at that point of time


until uh my period came a bit earlier, which it came with very, a lot a lot a lot of blood, and I was so tired


(uh huh), feel weird lah macam I don't I don't feel anything I feel a bit weird lah


then then I realised I got miscarriage ah then my friend I was asking my nurses friend ah then my friend said I think yours will be around five to six weeks, already, already five to six old but how you feel right now aku cakap I was very tired lah I sleep the whole I mean the whole two days I sleep sia during my period


one is Sha one is, so one is Sha one is Yen so it's like it's either or, okay either or


is it, but you bought first hand right


it's a very good condition, then got then then my friend was like telling me lah actually you are you did had miscarriage


if you saw that little photos means you dah miscarriage already, I don't dare I was I, I don't know whether I want to cry or I want to, I want to like I mean shocked, because I didn't know that I was pregnant


and I was in on logistic duty aku tengah angkat berat lagi I didn't know that I was having a baby inside inside my tummy, (mmhmm) aku went into that very like


ah, loving that person right


but in a way bila aku realise apa tau aku tak boleh salah [kan] diri aku sorang tau, it's like you didn't expect it to happen what, then, during COVID then aku realise lah that ya


he, take it or leave it eh,


my friend say hijau dengan black because she got black, so I might use I might use I might use her that one, ya, should we get into a smaller space or should I get the base base which one you want which one you prefer


, , !alah! aku dah delete gambar dia lah, I think because I was so heartbroken with him because he just left just like that without even telling me anything


ya I remember I, I remember giving him this I want pickles a lot a lot of pickles


but Yen was like overreacting to it ah which aku find it it's, like okay, that that's when the side start to happen ah


he's not, because he doesn't have any sickness, he's is like legitly he's a pure bred he's a A, he's a an S A class tau


Sha maybe aku tak tahu eh, why, it's all uh how to say it ah, I have to keep it for a reason


because Taufik will still come back and say he didn't do anything wrong, so I have to like nah back at you, the conversation no I'm so sorry I sometimes have to be a lawyer


in order to get my things done, are we done


uh I think it's inside the group chat, ah then I I left the group


caroline


to your own house, where you want to go, canada ah canada is nice it's nice then I can go with you


, my degree ya I finish my degree first, if really worst comes to worst then maybe I will go off, (mmhmm),


like so funny like so funny you know,


, so he had five dollars in his wallet let me pay for everything after that after this I pass the five bucks as


what, [sial] miskin cakap miskin tak payah nak test test bagai perangai jangan TP cakap dengan dia , he was using the airpods the whole time we were out eh kalau aku aku pekik you wearing hearing aid is it,


, ah, exactly right


date cakap women must know how to cook and can't be leaders


ah I think in boyan macam muka macam pakcik gitu ah


ah, post trauma ah syndrome , that's why I say I, that's why I want to do psychology


, god I miss this cutie pie a lot eh I miss when she's this old


Sufian did wanted wanted to come back at that point of time but, but I keep on I reject I rejected him ah


because ever since that case right I just cannot see him like, the same anymore I can't accept the fact that he's he's like that


, oh this one with the remember the, the mat salleh celup that I dated, ah, uh forgot what his name Rudy Rudy something


I only know Rudy, thirty seven sia, he got the features really


but he doesn't he refused to take care of the teeth, that's a major turn off for me


come on this is our photo, a long time


, ah tu aku tak tahu but I think they say in two years or three years time, Haris is better than the the ex


the ex so perangai sia, I wanted to get this for, ah


ah, I don't care whatever people want to say


I think this guy, shit, sorry


this is Balif, he also not bad, (ugh) I hate this guy


that time uh okay eh I never tell you the story eh, okay, he what ah nanti I tell you the story


ah, that was the last time after that all the way COVID sia <EX2>cheebye</EX2>


can we start now, okay so just now what did you do, oh ya


eh I use your MacBook ah, alright sure,


down syndrome


(hmm) nineteen so young, he came alone or what


, ah the paper lah to say, I consent my son to be with this dentist, oh abeh was he like quiet or fidgeting ke apa because the effect of macam apa ini err down syndrome patient [kan] nanti macam they will hop here something like that


!huh! why so sad


oh so the father is inside the cubicle lah


!whoa! really, oh my god, oh poor baby, oh so just now you guys put him to sleep


, oh man, that's a lot [seh]


to encourage lah,


!hais! never mind anyways so, oh I went out ah just now I went for hiking kat #bukit timah# yeah and then after that I go oh okay so let me tell about how I hike okay so kelakar it's so funny so okay I go to hillview uh MRT station is at downtown line from there I walk to because I've been there before so from there there okay once you exit the MRT [kan] you will see one carpark dari situ you you just continue walking walking straight you will if let's say example you enter


the park, ah kat that first car park [kan] if you enter you will see quarry lake Q U A R R Y L A K E you can actually google this ah


ya can can sure, , I have to check my schedule, so okay anyways when you go there right ah when you go there right so macam when you when


ah okay like I said like I said just now tadi [kan] so kalau let's say


ah that that area is all, ah steps, and it's the most difficult steps in Singapore it's uh under NParks [kan] NParks says that it's one of the most difficult steps wait let me Google for you mari mari kita google ya


okay jap so you put, ah that whole road nama dia is dairy farm, dairy farm look uh #bukit timah#


oh ya ya, I went there before with my ex-boyfriend you know who


oh, ya but the the step is so difficult babe


oh no cannot cannot go up ah I never know, but I never see that though just now


maybe lah, so halfway right K after yang this, you see this picture yang atas tu [kan], I stop I didn't stop here I go up some more I go up go up go up


ah go up go up some more then I think somewhere, somewhere here yeah I somewhere here I stop because


ah after that I while I climb up right there is a few people who climb up but they do alone, so a few guys lah you know guys they have more stamina and they they are slim [kan] body, ah it's somewhere here this one this one


ah ah, when I stopped [kan] I was very tired so I I turned back I wanted to go back, I was like okay I'm done I don't want to do anymore me I was so done aku tak nak buat lagi [seh] it's so penat then after that


this aunty saw me then she said she talk to me in mandarin you know I can speak mandarin [kan] so she talk to me in mandarin all the way she was like ah, ah something like dia cakap like kau nak putus asa sekarang nak pergi mana nak balik ke then I was like ya I want to go back already


then she said no jangan balik jangan balik tak apa buat slowly, ah anyway you are alone you can you can continue it's not like you with your friend ah because abeh she explain to me lah that actually she always come here ah every monday and


ah, wednesday, so I ask her ah I told her eh !wah! you come every monday and wednesday then she said ya but ah don't worry dia cakap because the starting also she, she penat ah now also she also take her time know she say she don't like to go with her friends


so suddenly ah I told her I say, oh ah okay lah uh, then she say never mind you just follow me you just take your time


and anyway when she finished at that right she do again, she continue so two to three times because she like for her that is her exercise, ah that is her exercise for us is like you will just go for fun [kan] but for her is just exercise


(uh huh), so are we losing weight or we gaining weight we go we go to lose weight first then after that we gain weight again okay


ah, okay can we see the kedai what shop is


sure, this saturday I have tests


it's my ya school one school test, (mmhmm)


you know I going SUSS right, ya we plan the eh, how come temporary closed


eh this saturday you going ah hiking eh you going rock climbing eh


, are you serious


(mmhmm)


how much you pay


, ya I going SUSS


not that I know of though, eh type because mine is part time so you type uh so you find


ah part time programmes ya correct, you can use your skillsfuture your PSEA for this, ya


wait ah how do you go out okay, yup


but I think, in my opinion right, err I wouldn't


wait ah, I wouldn't actually take language, unless you want to join in academia, academics like you want to teach, ya me too


do you have like wet wipes, okay


you can join, ah nursing, psychology you can psycho me, but psychology is


don't know !wow!, diploma in local polytechnic lah so after you finish your RP you come here okay


actually I have to do a vlog, for my school, haven't do malas lah nanti lah, how to apply is it


thought need to, you should do your


mine is april I join in april eh no I join in october, you october [kan] ah can ya then you graduate by ah april, may you get the may you get the eh april you get the result, may you already get your paper


my PSEA account no more already you know, left with I think thirty eight dollars eh, I use it all to my TP, when I go polytechnic, when I apply TPI only left with two thousand plus


eh one thousand plus, because last time I go RP what, RP is about the same price, ah


okay, sure, oh a lot [seh]


mine ya mine only left like two thousand or something, ya, no they stop top up okay as long as you still studying at that point of time lah when when I stop studying right I never go back to school but yours you went back to school


ah so when you go you got go ITE right did you go ITE ya you go, oh is it ah tapi mine you know


for me right if I were you I just take a course that is related to, seriously


pharmaceutical science


oh, okay uh you go view all


okay you take example you take okay you take this one, okay you just open yang melayu malay language and literature, okay kemudian you press, ah yang fees, view more ah yes yang itu [kan], when you press tu you picit tuition fee ah okay you press by programme


view tuition fee by programme okay yang itu [kan] you will see, there okay let's say example, you take language [kan] language falls under humanities and behaviour, so within this amount


because


ah, I will do school of business


about there


oh it means yang ni lah, okay psychology falls under, uh humanities and social science, aye


okay there school of, ya, so when you want to enter this right,


it's average about six hundred dollars, are you ready darling


are you ready to get married,


I don't find that a guy should blue tick you, no matter how busy he is


, , ah [seh] now I have uban already I have


I have it on my hair eh I have already white hair my gosh


at that point of time yeah but before my time, uh they got even more, but now I don't know I don't know whether they still giving out because, during my time ah my first year was not discounted


was not heavily discounted by government I was still that's why my PSEA account my money go down very fast, ah because apa tu one semester I think I paid seven hundred plus, but, before I finish [kan] after second year and third year my per semester was about five hundred ke four hundred plus


now if it's cheaper, then you will not get the amount, because that amount actually the government want to encourage you to come back to sekolah okay you datang sekolah I will, ah, we will so called macam refund you back lah


ya I I remember this because that time when we wanted to get the duit [kan] we ask then they say oh actually if you, previous batch got even more I think previous batch was like two thousand


why he text you


so this was the last text between both of you, can I see his face, he looks like psycho


, oh you like this look is it, oh


not my type though


oh is a officer


oh, ya, but doesn't behave like one though


see I show you some pictures, yes, ya this the aunty


she so cute, she's like eh what should we do, okay then you see okay she tell me you go in between these two trees because these two trees has very good energy, okay lepas tu after that I look at her then after that she tell me oh you go pray to the tree


and then I look at her then I was like, aunty I'm malay actually and then she like oh oh ya you cannot sembahyang ah, , eh baby you see you see you see this video, then she praying to the tree because


but the tree feel varied the area right feel very macam very good energy, ah very cooling good energy, okay wait let me check my roster


oh sunday actually I can go though, oh sunday sunday a lot of people eh so we can go afternoon is it okay, we go about, uh twelve o'clock, ya, I go just now afternoon know


ya for part time I guess, yup, (mmhmm)


is it very hard, why do you take tough courses, who say you have no life, really


would you date someone with depression, I saw this on YouTube so what do you think


why, you have mental health problem, what type of problem oh my god I didn't know you got mental health problem


are you diagnosed with that that anxiety


I'm gonna give you a hug, I don't know how it feels like to, to lose a someone you love


ah


like you want to puke is it, oh macam gitu eh, [orh], okay


don't know how, !hais!


err kita nak kena buat reservation kalau nak pergi Sentosa beach


no, why, I will go on weekday that's why I always take leave on weekday


what type of colours do you like, why do you keep looking at your updates,


sure


, you go here, where's your bar, finder


there icloud drive, oh my god why


how to open, how to open the photos, , oh ya ya ya correct, okay I don't want to see, you know that you can hide some of your photos right


okay I will show you the link


where did you go, , (mmhmm)


oh right right I understand


!aww!, he must be big already now, uh malaysian eh


!hais! what is your favourite food, darling what is your favourite food,


such as


ya this is my okay can I see the pictures


the next one


ah ya, [kan], you should post this picture


oh ya I want this picture can you send me, you can you can send me to my message, normal message


okay you X first, okay picit message, okay, okay picit Faezah, whatever you save my name as


you never synchronise your phone with your, okay AirDrop, you know, our our iphone is the best thing ever


you will you will you will see it


okay have or not my name


I already I already on my AirDrop, I love my face here


I look like one hot, come [bah], help you, let me help you darling


eh, like it will pop up, okay <NEN> okay you want to do right okay you go to your control centre no need you go here


this one, okay you go this one, you press allow here, you see AirDrop receiving, everyone, okay, there


!wow! I look I look great on my birthday ya, press ah, done you just press


example eh okay you press here, eh jap I off my AirDrop first, I know right


did it did it prompt you, done, okay come let's see more photos


ya, ah, did you did you meet her


yeah I remember she was drunk, (mmhmm), I don't know what we were doing


but it was nice lah I love, the previous photo


!wow!, eh look at my face structure, my face very sharp eh


her hair no longer blonde already, ah I think now got colour lah, !wow! belle look at belle


where is this where you go


still on my birthday, but where where is this, no, okay never mind you just continue, he still funny


oh ya there I get it we have to go Krabi yes, here goes, oh my god oh oh


can you send me the photo just now, previous one, ah yes okay, okay wait AirDrop me okay


no no no this is Taufik, my colleague also, Sufian was in the party also but he left, okay never mind you were drunk, no no no at my, my hotel


I guess so, how I know


waiting okay accept thank you


anymore photos, ya, ya this one I have


some more, H&M eh, I think I bought the same baju as you


!aww! I miss I miss holiday I want to go holiday


where is it, !aww! so cute cute baby just now


(hmm), oh now no more good morning ah now goodnight, oh


oh


is that who's that, ah


(hmm), it's okay


yeah, this one you lost so much weight here


[orh]


last year, ah


did your dad know that you had a miscarriage, so so where were you when you had your miscarriage, how did it the miscarriage happen


like kau kat kerja ah, ah,


[orh] [kan] I told you [kan] tadi aku cakap dengan kau yang kalau kau uzur pun kau boleh still get pregnant


oh my gosh


oh my god I know I know anyways, ya sama exact


exact correct, ya I bought first hand, I bought one thousand two I think, got good deal lah, that's new still looks new


did you take a photo of it


that's why kau lost a lot of weight


a dark place, suddenly one new day like dia stop, ya


it's okay anyways, ya


anyway I want to ask you


okay paint your room colour hijau dengan brown


me, ya, the one at the door


so cute you so cute baby


it's okay they don't know, it's not your fault, why why he overreact what did you say to him


oh


[orh]


[orh],


, no wonder


why you have my photo, [orh], next year will be my thirtieth birthday so into the, so what is the


if I'm not married then I will change my name ah, just I could


ya I'm gonna put, because kalau by then by thirty five I might move lah, no I might move from out of Singapore, I was thinking of relocating to


US or Canada, will you visit me or you wanna come with me


so sometimes he's very funny, first day pergi dengan family gila ke apa sia


the next one the next one the next one, okay come come let me say it let me say it okay, in city hall suddenly you go baris ke hadapan like only end march, showing me how, he is at parade ha ha [sial] perangai commander NDP minta aku lambai dalam kereta macam kak limah


[sial],


, ya


what is PTSD, !wow! you know all these things, eh actually, okay go for it


now leh


oh ya ya, what's his name ah, oh he's old


thirty seven muka tua [seh], !huh!, oh why he


(hmm), (mmhmm)


can we see him


we haven't seen each other for, long time, [kan] dah lama [seh]


wedding eh, but do they have a, a great wedding


what's that, oh, who's that see


why, okay jap later, hello baby, who's that siapanya baby ah


oh


okay [lah] <malay>dah</malay> [lah], [ah] <malay>aku belum</malay> synchronise


eh so what did you do the past week


ya town area like you know is it a lot of people now because of the pandemic ah, but there's still


in err meetings to do so, I, pandemic right, so a lot of things are


work from home basis, and if <mandarin>如果我要回去:ru guo wo yao hui qu</mandarin> office I need to seek approval from management cause my access card is being blocked, then, basically I just stay stay, stay at home do my work, do some planning for my work


then, then some take some time to exercise lor do you do exercise


oh that's okay what that's a good distance that you run


do you take very long, fifty minutes, ya, okay then besides ah running do you do any static <mandarin>好像你有没有做什么:hao xiang ni you mei you zuo shen me</mandarin> sit up ah <mandarin>还是:hai shi</mandarin> push up ah


I, I, try to have a point that I, sit up, then something at home lah nothing fancy and of course


so, so <mandarin>在家做:zai jia zuo</mandarin> static <mandarin>的:de</mandarin> exercise, do some exercise, ah static exercise, okay lah it's it's it's working quite well so also started from COVID


period ah the lock down period so, it's a little bit of discipline for me to do exercise, ah continuously lah almost every day, so I think not so bad I think for health wise see some changes in, in the weight and everything not so bad


!wah!


diet did you keep your diet or did you change any diet, when you, started to exercise


, see what are the the food intake lor I mean if you are to, , to exercise constantly right consistently, I think you can, invest in some of the


healthy food lah


ya I saw like the daily bowl Orlando healthy, healthy, healthy, bowl olive right


to clear the system lah I guess, eh then, free time like do you take leave or do you have to clear leave from your work ah


why leh, [orh]


ya lor


ya, so it's like basically, this year force you to take leave to, find something to do lah then next year is for you to


not enough leave but to no choice but to work lor,


myself my I have, no pay leave, so, I end up, I have to clear quite a, substantial a lot a lot of no pay leave, to to for this half a year


then, still have to find some things to do lor like maybe, some other part time job I mean cause it's given the green light by my company mah, oh so, just ya


correct so they let us they allow us, (ppc) to do a part time job, as long as it's not in conflict with the company lah so the industry wise, so, <mandarin>我也是有去去找:wo ye shi you qu qu zhao</mandarin> lah <mandarin>找:zhao</mandarin> part time job but


err commit three months six month and above, so that actually pull down that, that that that percentage of me getting in err getting a part time job, then, err on top of it is working hours, so if I cannot commit four days example right then


I mean I I this is part of their requirement lah so I don't see why they want they will want to hire me, but then the other thing is, if I were to, if I were to find a part time job right then, they want four five days and then also they want err


weekend, so most of the days, is taken up by the part time part time, job then, it it it it defeats the purpose of me, , clearing my no pay leave lor because I cannot clear at a bulk mah


err we don't take ah block ah block leave lor like, it's also very dangerous period mah so imagine <mandarin>你拿你:ni na ni</mandarin> you can afford to take block leave


that means you are you're not, doing much or rather you are not quite needed for these few months right so then, it will be easier, within the target lah if they were to do any retrenchment


ya so what we do is okay so yes we do have things to do I on and off, but it's just a lot more time a lot more free time lor so we just fix, for myself I try to take or maybe like thursday or friday or monday off then if there's any job over the weekend then I will do lah but <mandarin>很难:hen nan</mandarin> lah


and <mandarin>很难找得到:hen nan zhao de dao</mandarin> lah and usually, when I want to do I also prefer to do after after office hour so that became like what F&B so hopefully, so hopefully, hopefully that ah, err some there are some opportunity there lah that I can do part time to cover


err some of the allowance, to have some allowance and all these, this is what, ah <mandarin>我希望可能找得到的的的的:wo xi wang ke neng zhao de dao de de de de</mandarin> part time lor


ya honest bee