again okay, I mean if you like it just go repeatedly go is okay it's just that you know you don't get sick of it


it's a small weekend, !huh! <mandarin>排队:pai dui</mandarin> oh my god headache ah,


you know what I mean


, , the feel


so the feel is no more , ya lor ya lor ya lor correct lor true also


what actually is Hoji, Hoji is is japanese or what


so the the Hojicha means roasted green tea


I don't know leh <mandarin>玄米:xuan mi</mandarin> I know is <mandarin>玄米:xuan mi</mandarin> but I don't know in english


mummy also have no idea


, , Genmaicha lah


oh is it then, okay never mind everytime when you open if mummy is there at home you just give me a mouthful or two enough already I just can taste it see what is it like the taste <mandarin>就好了我不需要整个:jiu hao le wo bu xu yao zheng ge</mandarin> tub <mandarin>还是:hai shi</mandarin> one cup <mandarin>不需要的:bu xu yao de</mandarin> one or two two spoonful is good enough for me because I always say I I don't really like to eat too much of those cold stuff


really ah


grey ah, grey,


cheeky hor hor ya ya I know I know, when mummy bought her the the food I err those chips and all this I love poppy I'm going to share with poppy I'm not gonna share with <mandarin>外公:wai gong</mandarin>


she's just against your your father that's all


, said not funny papa not funny then <mandarin>她的眼那个很严肃:ta de yan na ge hen yan su</mandarin> ah


, then <mandarin>你知道她很调皮:ni zhi dao ta hen tiao pi</mandarin> mummy <mandarin>去:qu</mandarin> make payment at the AXS machine <mandarin>她就在:ta jiu zai</mandarin> push <mandarin>我的那个:wo de na ge</mandarin> trolley, , then at the AXS machine, ,


probably the aunty angry face leh, probably I at the aunty angry face leh


because mummy is taking so much time because of her they're pushing these pushing that then I always tell her don't don't don't you know just keep quiet let poppy complete the transaction, , poppy you look you look the aunty is angry face


shh cannot say that, angry I can see her angry face is like when I just turned she give the kind of face then she walk off is like whether she's angry with the little girl with that kind of err err err


what do you call that, (uh huh) and probably she thinks that mummy is taking too much time but it's just just thinking of the number what is the number you know to do the transaction so anyway when she wasn't around actually I I actually err exit from that transaction because I just you know don't want the aunty to wait too long


!wah! <mandarin>这个:zhe ge</mandarin> baby hor <mandarin>真的是受不了:zhen de shi shou bu liao</mandarin> leh <mandarin>三岁而已:san sui er yi</mandarin> then <mandarin>她讲这些:ta jiang zhe xie</mandarin> shh quiet don't say that


that day <mandarin>想要买给外公的时候:xiang yao mai gei wai gong de shi hou</mandarin> got three per cent right wednesday,


, so mummy <mandarin>就想:jiu xiang</mandarin> eh <mandarin>看到:kan dao</mandarin> NTUC the <mandarin>隔壁的那个那种:ge bi de na ge na zhong</mandarin> shop selling thirty five then <mandarin>昨天:zuo tian</mandarin> mummy <mandarin>就先去买:jiu xian qu mai</mandarin> thirty five <mandarin>的然后才去:de ran hou cai qu</mandarin> NTUC <mandarin>买那个我的:mai na ge wo de</mandarin> friend <mandarin>的那个:de na ge</mandarin> carlsberg


then <mandarin>就走过去看这个:jiu zou guo qu kan zhe ge</mandarin> milk powder because baby <mandarin>说要买:shuo yao mai</mandarin> milk <mandarin>她说:ta shuo</mandarin> poppy I want to drink milk I said okay okay let's go go and see whether err you know the the the packet milk is at the milk powder there


it become thirty three point fifty cent which is much cheaper than the thirty five that I bought from outside that's like I roll my eye what I should have just come in here first right !aiya! <mandarin>变成:bian cheng</mandarin> instead of thirty seven point fifty cent I buy from outside I save two dollar fifty now become that when I buy from thirty five outside NTUC selling at thirty three fifty I lost one dollar and fifty cents you know what I mean not so it's like !wah! okay lah whatever lah then this girl


she forget to put her mask I say baby you forget to put your mask


ah can you imagine she's so smart, she is really very smart <mandarin>她会觉得:ta hui jue de</mandarin> eh, then after that poppy the mask is dirty


I don't want to use I say okay you don't use never mind, then after that <mandarin>她看到一个姐姐:ta kan dao yi ge jie jie</mandarin> also small girl <mandarin>用:yong</mandarin> you see the <mandarin>姐姐:jie jie</mandarin> using the mask you didn't use then where is my mask I say here lor but it's dirty


, then <mandarin>她很快就走走走走走:ta hen kuai jiu zou zou zou zou zou</mandarin> then mummy <mandarin>就赶快跟她走:jiu gan kuai gen ta zou</mandarin> then fit the packet or,


, I don't want to share with <mandarin>外公:wai gong</mandarin> I love you poppy I share with you only, no lah


as long as she's happy usually <mandarin>每次:mei ci</mandarin> mummy <mandarin>载她她会说:zai ta ta hui shuo</mandarin> where are we going now


ah <mandarin>她每次都是:ta mei ci dou shi</mandarin> no intention to go back where are we going now can we go shopping but but yesterday she she didn't ask me about going shopping usually she will ask me where are we going now then whenever I fetch her and I told her


ah surprises when when I say this word surprises ah she would think of someone's house, you know what I mean not she will say, are we going to see <mandarin>太妈:tai ma</mandarin> are we're going to see <mandarin>太妈:tai ma</mandarin> no lah today no surprises today just go go go go NTUC you know shopping shopping to buy something


[orh], she's like very big, to like, have a conversation with you like a, a adult kind you know


ya ya ya <mandarin>你没有去注意:ni mei you qu zhu yi</mandarin> ah <mandarin>昨天我去:zuo tian wo qu</mandarin> fetch <mandarin>她的时候很:ta de shi hou hen</mandarin> cute <mandarin>她的朋友:ta de peng you</mandarin> julius <mandarin>她每次不是讲:ta mei ci bu shi jiang</mandarin> julius julius hor <mandarin>是:shi</mandarin> hor <mandarin>对吗:dui ma</mandarin> then <mandarin>我昨天就看到:wo zuo tian jiu kan dao</mandarin> julius <mandarin>的妈妈:de ma ma</mandarin> of course mask up mummy <mandarin>当然不不能正确她的整个:dang ran bu bu neng zheng que ta de zheng ge</mandarin> face lah


then <mandarin>他的姐姐就在外面他姐姐是:ta de jie jie jiu zai wai mian ta jie jie shi</mandarin> K two janelle ya ya ya so janelle ah she say err <mandarin>因为我跟:yin wei wo gen</mandarin> teacher <mandarin>讲:jiang</mandarin> err I I want to fetch zoe so janelle <mandarin>说:shuo</mandarin> oh zoe ah <mandarin>他就:ta jiu</mandarin> oh zoe I say eh you know but you are bigger than zoe how you know


, then say with my brother err <mandarin>她很:ta hen</mandarin> cute <mandarin>她在外面就跟:ta zai wai mian jiu gen</mandarin> mummy <mandarin>讲将:jiang jiang</mandarin> then I say oh <mandarin>原来她妈妈也在我隔壁我也:yuan lai ta ma ma ye zai wo ge bi wo ye</mandarin> <mandarin>不知道是她的妈妈:bu zhi dao shi ta de ma ma</mandarin> <mandarin>一个:yi ge</mandarin> maid <mandarin>再抱一个:zai bao yi ge</mandarin> baby <mandarin>也是她妈妈的:ye shi ta ma ma de</mandarin> so it's like err I I didn't know but I was so like uh you know this little girl can talk to me so sweetly so it's like when the two children came up one is julius one is err our zoe


so very cute <mandarin>我就跟:wo jiu gen</mandarin> zoe <mandarin>讲:jiang</mandarin> quick quick quick go and pick your your your shoe to wear then julius <mandarin>很:hen</mandarin> cute leh <mandarin>跟她穿鞋:gen ta chuan xie</mandarin> <mandarin>叫她坐下来:jiao ta zuo xia lai</mandarin> sit down I wear for you then, , then <mandarin>那个我们的:na ge wo men de</mandarin> baby <mandarin>就好像觉得自己是:jiu hao xiang jue de zi ji shi</mandarin> princess <mandarin>将来:jiang lai</mandarin> then she sit down shyly and smiling you know you wear for me I <mandarin>那边两只脚在那边:na bian liang zhi jiao zai na bian</mandarin> then julius <mandarin>就在:jiu zai</mandarin> <mandarin>他的妈妈就在那边看:ta de ma ma jiu zai na bian kan</mandarin> mummy <mandarin>也在站在那边看:ye zai zhan zai na bian kan</mandarin> so it's like blocking the whole passage you know


, julius <mandarin>也是:ye shi</mandarin> hold <mandarin>她的:ta de</mandarin> hand <mandarin>他们两个就走到那个:ta men liang ge jiu zou dao na ge</mandarin> at the back of the lift then err <mandarin>大人:da ren</mandarin> you know <mandarin>有些:you xie</mandarin> fetch the baby <mandarin>就进来了:jiu jin lai le</mandarin> mah then the the julius <mandarin>跟跟我们的:gen gen wo men de</mandarin> baby <mandarin>就说:jiu shuo</mandarin> so squeezy


so squeezy ah so squeezy then never mind julius <mandarin>就:jiu</mandarin> <mandarin>推他的姐姐:tui ta de jie jie</mandarin> you go out then the <mandarin>妈妈讲:ma ma jiang</mandarin> !hey! that's your <mandarin>姐姐:jie jie</mandarin> why you push <mandarin>姐姐:jie jie</mandarin> out this one so squeezy


then, the the the the boy what's his name, julius, so ah he's your prince right


then <mandarin>她就在那边偷笑:ta jiu zai na bian tou xiao</mandarin> so he's your prince right <mandarin>有时候你看她笑的时候很腼腆很蛮可爱的:you shi hou ni kan ta xiao de shi hou hen mian tian hen man ke ai de</mandarin> you know sometimes she may not say anything but she just smile you know her cheeky smile and then err <mandarin>我不懂要什么样跟你:wo bu dong yao shen me yang gen ni</mandarin> explain but <mandarin>她真的是很:ta zhen de shi hen</mandarin> cute


my <mandarin>爸爸:ba ba</mandarin> is my prince also because my <mandarin>爸爸:ba ba</mandarin> also wear shoe for me, ya ya in the car I said !wah! julius is your prince ah my <mandarin>爸爸:ba ba</mandarin> also is my prince because my <mandarin>爸爸:ba ba</mandarin> wear shoe for me twelve o'clock already so it's like !huh! twelve o'clock cinderella then she just laugh


she's like full full of imagination in in her mind you know like <mandarin>我们跟他讲的故事:wo men gen ta jiang de gu shi</mandarin> hor <mandarin>其实要好好跟他讲哈他真的是会把他给给记录在里面你懂我的意思:qi shi yao hao hao gen ta jiang ha ta zhen de shi hui ba ta gei gei ji lu zai li mian ni dong wo de yi si</mandarin> mah so it's like every time you talk about it she instantly know what you're talking about like


, snow white, is with the seven dwarfs then cinderella is about the shoe


so, , what is one thing that you wish was free


it has a amount it's a value, , plastic surgery


ya, why leh, I feel like, (uh huh)


but ultimately <mandarin>是他们自己的选择:shi ta men zi ji de xuan ze</mandarin> what whatever they want to do to their body


true, everyone imagine like having, ten people looking the same that's kinda creepy


, ya like <mandarin>我看过有一个人:wo kan guo you yi ge ren</mandarin> he alter his, like, , body features, to look like a werewolf


ya [orh] <mandarin>有一个我看过:you yi ge wo kan guo</mandarin> like, to look like a skull, because he go for that concept and then the contour,


but, but then it's other people's choice so I think is


okay I feel, ,


like they get married and stuff then <mandarin>他们的孩子跟他们长得不一样:ta men de hai zi gen ta men zhang de bu yi yang</mandarin> , , oh they will think twice is it


, , I still think it's okay leh


I just


, , fats <mandarin>吗:ma</mandarin> , , oh is that part of


err plastic surgery I think it is right, but I because like <mandarin>我有几个朋友:wo you ji ge peng you</mandarin> they want to, they have things that, they feel very insecure about like <mandarin>他们自己的身体他们的脸:ta men zi ji de shen ti ta men de lian</mandarin> and everything and


what's stopping them from changing is just money lor, thing it's not exactly


I wouldn't say <mandarin>不正常:bu zheng chang</mandarin> lah, they have exotic taste,


I think <mandarin>我看过:wo kan guo</mandarin> eh, ya I know


, it already looks, it only looks fine in, shows


ya, , , , LASIK, !aiya!, doesn't matter, but <mandarin>你要做:ni yao zuo</mandarin> LASIK ah


ya lor it's not our fault <mandarin>我们近视:wo men jin shi</mandarin> right , but then, oh ya by the way right


not because of like, yup it's genes, but none of the people in my family


what what


!wow!, , LASIK is the


rosy,


, mister Tan, the botak one oh he was the one is it , ya lah


but, but you can just wear contacts what


ya, ya, but LASIK <mandarin>是:shi</mandarin> long term


ya sia must be nice to have perfect eyesight


, then I realise oh, is it the degree or the (ppc) or the astig


is the is the <mandarin>散光:san guang</mandarin> ya it's the <mandarin>散光:san guang</mandarin> apparently it's not just me like <mandarin>那时候我跟我的:na shi hou wo gen wo de</mandarin> other friends right we will just look


we went out at night then <mandarin>我们:wo men</mandarin> , we were just like queueing outside you know auto, ya, , then err we were just talking talking cause <mandarin>我们:wo men</mandarin> queue <mandarin>一个小时:yi ge xiao shi</mandarin> then


ya, ya then, then we were just looking at things then some of one of them just start saying that eh why the thing look so blur, , he never wear specs, then <mandarin>我我有带:wo wo you dai</mandarin> contacts but it's still blur then some


he say got perfect eyesight also blur so I guess it's normal, , ah !hanna! <mandarin>太:tai</mandarin> severe <mandarin>你就比较难看:ni jiu bi jiao nan kan</mandarin> lor I guess


ah , oh oh ya actually now now now now that you say ya


so young eh actually Denika also started wearing, when she was in,


, ya, , ya lor


eh that time, eh I wore it once, , I think I prefer the brown one, isn't it great


but !hannor! I think grey <mandarin>不适合我可能因为我很我很:bu shi he wo ke neng yin wei wo hen wo hen</mandarin> tan I don't know, I think a lot a lot of things, looks better on fairer people <mandarin>就是:jiu shi</mandarin> lor


by the way do you realise that <mandarin>我的手:wo de shou</mandarin> , like the left side is fairer than the right side


put <mandarin>这个:zhe ge</mandarin> hand under the sun Liao !walao! <mandarin>你以为什么:ni yi wei shen me</mandarin> eh


eh did you see my instagram post <mandarin>那个:na ge</mandarin> switzerland,


(uh huh), !huh!, is it the white colour one


I think it's me, ,


[orh], I mean


they will ask you a lot of stuff then you don't really want to explain, I know that feeling, ya


, why leh, ah,


, oh ya ya ya ya ya ya ya ya ya, okay lah but


then, okay lah that's pretty much the same for me but, uni, ya ya they will ask you, what did you study, in poly, then what's your course now


why such a big change and then I'm just like , ya I don't even want to start on that you know I'm just gonna be like err, just like that lor, not maritime meh I'm pretty sure it's maritime


ya and I very scared, when they ask [orh] so after you graduate what eh what what are you gonna work as <mandarin>我就会:wo jiu hui</mandarin> dot dot dot


but I think, , , we are already inside already


just ya lor, , master's leh, ya


, PhD I think four master's two, but I plan to do it like while I'm working, no no no, you see, degree


degree master's then PhD, PhD is the last one


I mean <mandarin>我没有直接去:wo mei you zhi jie qu</mandarin> PhD lah but then, since I'm already at master's might as well just do PhD so I can be a counsellor, doctor !wah!, feel like


even if I become a vet I will still be a doctor, a psychologist a doctor


uni, or <mandarin>还:huan</mandarin> at least three quarter before I start master's, ya ya ya ya I don't plan to jump to master's right away no it's


total thirty six K only I mean thirty eight K, ya, three years too, but yours got with honours somehow people


with honours <mandarin>好像:hao xiang</mandarin> higher employability rate, leh, uh, that's what people tell me lah, I mean


ya, I Sibeh <mandarin>后悔:hou hui</mandarin> sia still, could have been SIT, criminology, no


no the thing is, !huh! no I didn't even apply for as in like I apply for criminology then I went to switch remember is for physiotherapy ya


different ya I did a last minute, , change of my uni options like a day before submission, that that that's what I realise lah


, I feel like


my painting not, oh the one that I paint for mac ah, ya for her birthday


but I just I wanna go out you know but then like everyone's busy


I want to go out meet people


you know future


that's what you told me then I'm just like


ya because her dad is paying for her right


everything will be better if you didn't,


I have twenty four classes lesson, driving lessons, (hmm), , the the thing is I think I finish when, like I'm already ready for exam when I'm at my twentieth class


but I didn't feel secure, enough, so like I err I, book another four classes, oh mah oh ya same same same


no because let me tell you my story okay so what okay I have I've A and B correct, A is always


there on certain days then, on some days and I get B B somehow always have MC, like literally always like my whole entire time there


no it's like I mean technically yes but then I just, apply on the dates I I can make it lah, but the thing is is my even though I pay extra for one team if didn't it doesn't feel like one team because that one guy always absent so different random instructors always have to take over him ya that's why I always have different instructors


pass Liao


isn't it great


actually a lot of people tell me I can book already like the different instructors it's just that I I just, make sure like I'm, I have enough lessons first before I book


think parallel parking the hardest <mandarin>到现在:dao xian zai</mandarin> hor <mandarin>我在外面还:wo zai wai mian hai</mandarin> park <mandarin>不:bu</mandarin> Liao, his car is consider bigger and long like longer


ya lor , then this is the pavement then here is the road lah then over here got like, one vehicle here got one vehicle so I'm supposed to park in between correct parallel parking


I did the parallel parking I followed the steps, , is like <mandarin>中间有一个很大的:zhong jian you yi ge hen da de</mandarin> gap then my dad was <mandarin>可以可以:ke yi ke yi</mandarin> lah I think he very #pek chek# already he like <mandarin>可以可以:ke yi ke yi</mandarin> lah


!aiya! <mandarin>可以可以:ke yi ke yi</mandarin> lah, is I totally like out of the line leh


ya, actually I want to try using GPS to drive, my dad, my dad is the very


traveller memorise everything with the eye one, he don't let me use GPS while I drive


that time I, drive my dad, from hospital remember then my brother was next to me


but my dad he he, , I don't know I don't know how my dad right


the thing about him I think he has the singapore map at the back of his hand, so like he for example, like from here to my cousin's house at woodlands right he just drive there without GPS


then let's say I I like there's some, area new place nearby that area like woodlands <mandarin>他就会:ta jiu hui</mandarin> before <mandarin>我们出发:wo men chu fa</mandarin> lah <mandarin>就会看那个:jiu hui kan na ge</mandarin> map, scroll scroll <mandarin>一下就:yi xia jiu</mandarin> okay then <mandarin>他就跟自己讲话什么:ta jiu gen zi ji jiang hua shen me</mandarin> in hokkien ah


, ya


what every time every time I just wonder how do, people know, where they are going


okay (mmhmm)


my dad doesn't even have the GPS stand already, the you know the phone stand <mandarin>就是:jiu shi</mandarin> lor


, [orh] oh, ah but I very sad that time I want to go NEX to drive like drive to NEX to watch movie


ya, it's just there I'm not asking to go Jurong east what it's just NEX is just <mandarin>关眼睛都可以走路去那里的:guan yan jing dou ke yi zou lu qu na li de</mandarin> leh


makes no, sense right


okay to be honest I think he didn't even want me to get licence in the first place that's why I think so, he didn't even sponsor me and now I got licence he doesn't even let me drive so


that must be a sign, I don't know, , sad, imagine using your car and driving to


cinema, ,


I see like some blog posts or something that east coast <mandarin>可以看到:ke yi kan dao</mandarin> milky way, , like <mandarin>在很暗很暗的时候:zai hen an hen an de shi hou</mandarin> ya cause very dark what


, I dunno sia, right,


actually ya we can search how much, but !wah! you know, that day <mandarin>我们不是:wo men bu shi</mandarin> celebrate joe's birthday !wah! that was the most happiest day of my life then I just imagine our life with a car


oh ya some people like that, one, like I know someone who spend five hundred dollars on grab, every month then I'm just like I don't even have five hundred per month I I get what you mean


oh, ya I get what you mean like okay the last the previous guy, the previous guy that I, went out with


I was like shit I just bought, a pack, for seventeen dollars you know the tiniest bag, do you remember the green colour tiniest bag that I bought ya and and it's this size it's this size


it looks cute on the photo so I bought it for seventeen dollars and I regret it, , I did I didn't know the size and it was it was so cute lah I just like I did like once or twice


maybe I didn't even, I, think <mandarin>可能我没有带那个出去我可能带这跟别人出:ke neng wo mei you dai na ge chu qu wo ke neng dai zhe gen bie ren chu</mandarin> lor I but I was like telling him like oh my god I just bought


that, like bag for seventeen dollars a tiniest bag and he was like, that's quite cheap, then I'm just okay


ya, !aiya! <mandarin>这个我在:zhe ge wo zai</mandarin> china <mandarin>买的吗那个那个:mai de ma na ge na ge</mandarin> aunty


and and then and then I was with my friends also then everyone like you know in the mood everyone buy, is it,


no I just know that kanken they release like this, a series of bags that are, made from recycled materials, ya


, , I didn't even use my metal straw anymore


big bag (mmhmm)


ah, you know I bought a collapsible cup, for twenty four dollars remember I used it once yup it's just over there <mandarin>在那里在那里生锈:zai na li zai na li sheng xiu</mandarin> eh <mandarin>不是生灰尘:bu shi sheng hui chen</mandarin> yup


yup that's correct, have but then the thing is no, they don't have water


like, somehow <mandarin>每次我要倒水的时候就那个水已经要完:mei ci wo yao dao shui de shi hou jiu na ge shui yi jing yao wan</mandarin> Liao then <mandarin>我也是:wo ye shi</mandarin> Paiseh, take the last fill, but it'll be hot what


but somehow right, everything that she own, the habit earring she can she can afford to spend twenty something dollar on one pair of earrings and I'm just like over there like, shopee has them for like one dollar


, she tell me five hundred though, that's why she


that's why I think cause she, she's from my poly then my other, jenny she's also from my poly then like, it's like, there used to be four of us then one of them is like <mandarin>她:ta</mandarin> MIA then that


and ya so it's three of us but then the two of them get along better well like better with each other cause, they can shop often they can go massage they can, afford to do this kind of thing no one one is because she working full-time now


then another one is cause err ya lor, allowance, okay lor <mandarin>不用紧:bu yong jin</mandarin> lah, they will do nails and then their nails is not <mandarin>这种十五块:zhe zhong shi wu kuai</mandarin> one cheap cheap one <mandarin>它是那种:ta shi na zhong</mandarin> designer


!wow! (mmhmm) !wah! <mandarin>爽:shuang</mandarin> only shopping I do is on shopee oh my god <mandarin>她们两个就是这样:ta men liang ge jiu shi zhe yang</mandarin> pilates aerial yoga then yoga <mandarin>我们只是:wo men zhi shi</mandarin> Gum


I feel like cheryl and I are on different planets


eh then ya you know her clothes are those with brand


ya me too, ya same


, okay but I don't really see a point in investing in expensive clothes unless you gonna wear them for a long time


ya like <mandarin>因为:yin wei</mandarin> like, Liao, K <mandarin>明年明年:ming nian ming nian</mandarin> new year


ya sia, (ugh) (ugh) <mandarin>我很想念我的:wo hen xiang nian wo de</mandarin> #ah gong# #ah ma#, I miss my relatives eh, I don't miss them because I have a bond with them I just miss them because


because, they are still there and I have someone to miss, not because like, I'm close to them I'm not, but it's just nice seeing them, there you know


I have sia, but I don't even talk to them I just, them but then, like, ya I don't I can't talk to them like there's nothing we can talk about everything's awkward but I just


feel happy that they are there


, ya mine too, maybe we have different types of emotional attachments


like as long as <mandarin>你跟我有:ni gen wo you</mandarin> link <mandarin>我就会:wo jiu hui</mandarin> have some sort of emotional attachment to you, no lah don't need lah, I don't think


, I mean <mandarin>这种感情的东西都不能逼出来的吗:zhe zhong gan qing de dong xi dou bu neng bi chu lai de ma</mandarin> I mean I mean I it's still really meh, I guess it's just like expected like it's a societal norms


norm but like, it's okay if you don't have it, people will say that normal is they have a good relationship with your grandparents this kind of thing


ah,


ya lah I mean I guess some people just do it because, they feel that they should, as a daughter


, I don't know eh, I mean, no but I get homesick as in but my homesick is, like a


of being in my room, ya I think so, I don't get homesick


like when I went Shanghai with, my, err, with my school for three weeks so many of them cried because they are homesick leh I'm just like sorry guys I can't relate


bros,


I must do this to the dogs, what


not my nails you are talking about my nails bro


oh my god ya, , I don't I don't enjoy being in F&B sia, I realise


like I think ever since I started, exploring working with animals I never want to go anywhere else I mean I can lah but then like I would definitely prefer working with animals lah


true but actually


if if they are willing to train you, a lot of the vet vet assistance there they don't even have a diploma it makes me wonder


possible that's true, I like on OTL though


, eh, poor but it is very physically tiring lor


I'm okay with physically like exhaustion, oh ya I mean there's a reason why I have two part-time , ya


(mmhmm), I used to have three part-times you know leh, , , ya,


(mmhmm), (uh huh), (uh huh)


didn't do that


uh okay lah it probably feels like a lot of cause <mandarin>你突然间:ni tu ran jian</mandarin> take up <mandarin>什么:shen me</mandarin> leadership


role, then <mandarin>要做这个做那个:yao zuo zhe ge zuo na ge</mandarin> then <mandarin>突然间有个一个:tu ran jian you ge yi ge</mandarin> part-time mah <mandarin>又有多一个:you you duo yi ge</mandarin> part-time


!aiyo! <mandarin>我突然间想看:wo tu ran jian xiang kan</mandarin> powerpuff girls,


I'm quite excited leh, netflix no I'm still at season two what but I haven't, ya


ya, then, I never continue ah because I, was like, why this person suddenly so old ah then I realise I was at season fourteen


, , ya lah


ya so I'm glad, oh ya <mandarin>等你的那个:deng ni de na ge</mandarin> card lor


august lucifer season five, come out,


oh ya <mandarin>很久:hen jiu</mandarin> eh two months I I heard, , [orh]


oh shit, oh but ya,


!wah!, september august eh september october november december


ya our my next holiday is in december also, my break is two weeks only, , one and a half


no I think <mandarin>开学的两个星期后你们有:kai xue de liang ge xing qi hou ni men you</mandarin> recess week


oh <mandarin>我很:wo hen</mandarin> Sian leh if gonna be online, I don't know


just zoom lah


, oh


, , oh ya speaking of this I need to talk to my dad about school fees and


so I can get my money back so I can buy my, pad ,


oh my god imagine bringing ipad overseas to like write notes


I mean like like write journal


road trip, she drove me back home, she's


ya I think I drive better than her eh like more like smoother like, like for example <mandarin>她转的时候:ta zhuan de shi hou</mandarin> hor I would just like do this you know hers is, like that one leh ya then I can feel the kind of like


ya then you slowly like that go then <mandarin>很:hen</mandarin> smooth <mandarin>的:de</mandarin> mah hers is like, zoom then oh ya you should go and try


#pasir panjang#, ah, which is at vivo area <mandarin>回来的时候我真的是要:hui lai de shi hou wo zhen de shi yao</mandarin>


oh my ya <mandarin>我要是听到这个:wo yao shi ting dao zhe ge</mandarin> now I now I'm just thinking !wah! how my dad drive from singapore to malaysia, so often, last time


!walao! eh <mandarin>我驾了三十分钟我眼睛要睡觉:wo jia le san shi fen zhong wo yan jing yao shui jiao</mandarin> Liao !wah! he last time drive at night, one eh, malaysia highway <mandarin>晚上 晚上早上还是有很多车的很多人在做工:wan shang wan shang zao shang hai shi you hen duo che de hen duo ren zai zuo gong</mandarin> that's why


oh ya by the way, I bought a canvas, to paint, no like like canvas canvas


, I can't even draw human how to paint human bro


human is, complex, I can't even do like draw fingers, eyes eyes are, simple, I guess


what noodle, but then I bought online one, oh


oh, , !ee! !ee! <mandarin>有点奇怪:you dian qi guai</mandarin>


!eeyer! <mandarin>很奇怪:hen qi guai</mandarin> leh, already eh


but now hor I get more complements, eh


, , , but ya


but <mandarin>我不懂它是很凶的:wo bu dong ta shi hen xiong de</mandarin> that's why, then then like the groomer was like trimming the fur of this one dog then at the side got, this other dog lah like, sitting there


so because she's attending this dog what so I thought she was talking about the other dog and that was a fierce dog I didn't know, no lah fierce dogs err groomer <mandarin>自己穿:zi ji chuan</mandarin>


I think <mandarin>那个狗它自己也吓到:na ge gou ta zi ji ye xia dao</mandarin> cause like usually people will be like approaching the dog with a like some kind some kind of fear


they have accent what then <mandarin>她们讲你神经病啊不是那只狗是这只:ta men jiang ni shen jing bing a bu shi na zhi gou shi zhe zhi</mandarin> then I was then I was like, !wah! <mandarin>吓到我:xia dao wo</mandarin> eh I I literally


like, like no discipline, apparently like, I read somewhere lah like there are a lot of owners, there are two kinds of way to take care of dogs ah, there's one kind that will shower with just love, and affection


one kind is love and affection with discipline, bratty spoilt


oh, apparently I like I see a lot of owners right, like <mandarin>他们把他的狗带过来然后放:ta men ba ta de gou dai guo lai ran hou fang</mandarin> then the <mandarin>狗:gou</mandarin> will


like, then expect us to <mandarin>清理:qing li</mandarin> you know this kind of thing but like, I think a proper owner will train the dog not to anyhow <mandarin>大小便:da xiao bian</mandarin> lah like pepper won't do that


mean like strangers more [orh] <mandarin>它会 不 喜欢 然后 会:ta hui bu xi huan ran hou hui</mandarin> snap <mandarin>的:de</mandarin> mah but the owner will be like no my dog is very friendly won't bite one then <mandarin>咬 的 时候 啊 讲:yao de shi hou a jiang</mandarin> no my dog shouldn't bite one my dog won't bite one cause very friendly then I'm just like


the dog just bit someone what do you mean you like you know


lucky it's a small dog lah <mandarin>它咬会:ta yao hui</mandarin> #orh cheh# <mandarin>的:de</mandarin> leh


I think <mandarin>它那种是:ta na zhong shi</mandarin> okay <mandarin>的:de</mandarin> what, cause just they're just excited


oh ya ya ya ya ya


it's just how you were brought up lor I guess, ah ah ah, I really think, next time, when I grow older I want to take parenting class, , ya


so that like I don't want, to, you know like those, kind, like ya and to let them explore the world on their own and not like enforce what your your beliefs on them, you know


think <mandarin>我:wo</mandarin> will be damn sad though, ya


ya I think I will be sad but I won't force them lah I'll be like, , , no lah


I would, okay bartender I think I would encourage them to find a, a proper job bartender as a side job


you know, stability is important, !huh!, I mean dude even victoria secret is bankrupt eh what can you do


just bankrupt, lor, , I think so, !wah! <mandarin>不清楚我没有去研究:bu qing chu wo mei you qu yan jiu</mandarin> eh <mandarin>我只是看到那个:wo zhi shi kan dao na ge</mandarin> post instagram post


that's why she bought one I bought one then like got discount or something then she bought some weird ass scent then like I think Yoga <mandarin>讲那个味道有点酸掉:jiang na ge ta dao you dian suan diao</mandarin> , , ya and <mandarin>那个味道有点奇怪:na ge ta dao you dian qi guai</mandarin> Liao but I dunno eh


but my one still smells the same, , , <mandarin>他们的:ta men de</mandarin> undergarments <mandarin>呢着么样很性感吗:ne zhe me yang hen xing gan ma</mandarin> [orh] <mandarin>对:dui</mandarin> hor


ya sia, it's lower than, not the others,


I think I want to own one soon, sorry then


highest oil content means long lasting ah


ah


okay, ya okay, so which topic shall we discussed on


free !wow!, , , but <mandarin>钱:qian</mandarin> itself is, it's, it's a value, free


plastic surgery for free, isn't it very dangerous actually, , I mean like if it's free then like, I don't know feels like people are just <mandarin>动不动:dong bu dong</mandarin> then just okay <mandarin>我要整这个我要整那个:wo yao zheng zhe ge wo yao zheng na ge</mandarin> but then there's those like very severe you see ah those even when it's not free ah you have those like trying to look like barbie


then what if everyone right go try and like look like some kind of idol, isn't that actually kind of scary, if it's free, exactly, like clone Liao


I mean for us is okay because we have the right mindset so it's like we just one like say, double eyelid or like that kind of thing higher cheek, bone, and then some people they have those very toxic thinking


features, oh my god can ah


I mean why Vol Vol Voldemort, I mean why would they do that


so when <mandarin>你不用还钱:ni bu yong huan qian</mandarin> right, is damn scary actually, can lah but not everyone thinks, straight


(mmhmm)


no but you see ah, now right because <mandarin>要钱:yao qian</mandarin> right some people will be like, oh I don't like this I like


how that idol look like so, , I want that, like that, so, ya, think it's okay ah


I mean I don't really want to change anything of for myself my own features, <mandarin>我只是要有一点:wo zhi shi yao you yi dian</mandarin> cheekbones, , is invisible I have a very round face


maybe a bit of chin also, , but bone structure is like cannot one ah, that would be great actually that's liposuction oh ya I think it is


money, confidence, ya I think it's okay because like but you see ah your friends those other people who are more like


properly thinking they are in the right, they are sane, then there are some people who are yes


but, , no but the interesting ones are those that, plastic surgery to look like barbie, the very common one then look like can or something like that <mandarin>有一个很:you yi ge hen</mandarin> famous or something


eh but it's damn cool leh do you know actually like barbie proportion right, is like not realistic at all, like the boobs are like super big and then like <mandarin>她的:ta de</mandarin> waist it's like super small, it's like


the bone everything cannot one, because it's fake, , oh ya, I really want to do LASIK eh, is that considered as a


it's not plastic surgery, but, can they make that free why can't they make that free ya why can't they make LASIK free ah


(uh huh), (uh huh), [orh], genes, I heard of that


no eh, my dad, I mean my dad <mandarin>有近视:you jin shi</mandarin> lah but because he's very very frugal so, I don't remember seeing him changing his spec, ever


I think he's been using the same spec since like his army days he's fifty fifty six fifty five now, I don't know ya so, I don't, but


ya cut cornea <mandarin>的那个:de na ge</mandarin> like they they will <mandarin>有那个:you na ge</mandarin> flap, the bio teacher


no no no, the the <mandarin>男的:nan de</mandarin> the funny funny one, yes !aiya! mister Tan yes yes yes he showed the video ya I think so he's the one that showed the LASIK video


no but the thing is I want to do LASIK so that I can do water sports, you know that's the main reason, but technically you're not supposed to because like contacts right


like <mandarin>它会有那种:ta hui you na zhong</mandarin> micro organism that will get stuck like you will get infected more easily, so like <mandarin>还有那个:hai you na ge</mandarin> risk


ya exactly then it's like <mandarin>我可以去海边去玩玩了回家:wo ke yi qu hai bian qu wan wan le hui jia</mandarin> right <mandarin>我不需要:wo bu xu yao</mandarin> clean <mandarin>我的:wo de</mandarin> contacts I can just <mandarin>冲凉:chong liang</mandarin> and relax


oh I never have that eh I think recently my degree like getting worse leh


honestly I don't know eh, I know I know because of actually I don't know is it because of my, that, my night vision is actually very bad


my night vision is, auto


oh ya the, bread shop, oh, is it recent


the lights ah, I think he got a bit it's just how severe


half blind and, I I really I feel like I need to go for eye check up but then I don't want to change my spec, like


, I mean like for now it's okay, you know that time I went to my friend's place he was like, he stare at my specs then he was like, because like they can see the thickness the difference in like like you can see the


is like, like like no like say your face like a lot smaller ah that kind of thing, ya then <mandarin>我就:wo jiu</mandarin>


is very bad, I mean, !aiya! it's it's just has been going up ever since I started wearing specs, I'm supposed to wear it when I, K-two, which is six years old


but then that's when you wear spec what which is <mandarin>正常:zheng chang</mandarin> what ya lor, I want that leh, !aiya! but the grass is always green on the other side, like what everyone says,


no oh ya I saw some people like wearing contacts I want to try grey contacts, eh you have right how was it weird ah was it weird is that why you didn't continue,


but brown one is so natural, oh really I think grey only looks nicer on like fairer people


oh ya why ah


, UV lamp or maybe <mandarin>你一边一直去弄是:ni yi bian yi zhi qu nong shi</mandarin> really ah


!wah! lah, I'm like, Liao, no why, oh today at work right mah my apparently I think the boss actually I'm not too sure <mandarin>他是什么:ta shi shen me</mandarin> lah but <mandarin>我懂他是:wo dong ta shi</mandarin> higher up <mandarin>的就是:de jiu shi</mandarin> Liao so today <mandarin>他进去:ta jin qu</mandarin> shop


she was like eh actually <mandarin>你这个鞋子不错也蛮好看的:ni zhe ge xie zi bu cuo ye man hao kan de</mandarin> leh then I was like, eh is it you I remember someone say that it's very ugly it's like air force but not air force


ya <mandarin>就是那个:jiu shi na ge</mandarin> then she was like eh <mandarin>这个不错:zhe ge bu cuo</mandarin> eh <mandarin>蛮好看:man hao kan</mandarin> then <mandarin>我就有点:wo jiu you dian</mandarin> #chua tio# because like, (hmm) first time <mandarin>有人:you ren</mandarin> compliment <mandarin>这个鞋:zhe ge xie</mandarin> leh <mandarin>每个人都看到就讲有点丑:mei ge ren dou kan dao jiu jiang you dian chou</mandarin> eh the the best thing that they ever say is like


it make your feet look smaller that's all, I haven't tell them that I don't know whether they know or don't know my previous job


I mean I kind of don't want to say, because, ya, ya, right, every time people ask like, like I just want to hide the fact that I was a cabin crew


it feels weird, like I feel like I got a bit of pressure like you know you have this image of how cabin crew are like but I'm not


so like you know when you say cabin crew people will be like SQ they have their very like I mean that's me all along also lah, but that's my, the image so it's like a bit stressful


uni [orh] uni student, oh oh ya I understand, actually totally same that one like totally relatable until


when they ask me !huh! why you change <mandarin>这个这样不一样:zhe ge zhe yang bu yi yang</mandarin> from aviation to maritime actually I don't know is it called maritime or marine time some of them say, I say maritime then some of them they reply back leh marine time then I'm like


right, I don't know lah anyway, [orh] err <mandarin>因为:yin wei</mandarin> interesting mah


that one also honestly I still don't know what my, what I'm actually studying eh, like I know I'll be in office related but do I want to be in office related because everyone that has been in office, job they all say no


it's very boring, but it's like it feels very secure, I mean, not like <mandarin>我们现在有个:wo men xian zai you ge</mandarin> choice, and this situation, this circumstances


ya lor, master's serious, oh ya you're different


so, and how many year is that, wait so you want PhD and master's, who next time is doctor Chew


, degree master's PhD, so you want to, master's


so it's like a total six years, doctor, cool eh


never mind <mandarin>有一个:you yi ge</mandarin> doctor <mandarin>就很厉害:jiu hen li hai</mandarin> Liao, doctor <mandarin>就是证明你花了这样多钱:jiu shi zheng ming ni hua le zhe yang duo qian</mandarin> on education


(uh huh), then you have to be working for a, while first I'm pretty sure your your private uni right the school fees is damn high is like two three times of mine


oh ya private shorter year, that's why, so it's actually the same price as mine, and then <mandarin>我还有这样:wo hai you zhe yang</mandarin> long the break


not everyone have with honours it just depends on which one you choose, but, !aiya! <mandarin>我读四年:wo du si nian</mandarin> leh <mandarin>我读四年:wo du si nian</mandarin> leh


but <mandarin>你不是:ni bu shi</mandarin> fail meh, could have been, or you mess up oh ya you cried, or is it


do you really feel that really affect your whole no then, eh [orh] [orh] you didn't oh you went for interview but <mandarin>不是:bu shi</mandarin> the one you want


oh you end up going for, err physio, last minute, last minute changes will always bring regrets, if it goes badly if it goes badly


ya


, , (uh huh)


uh, oh ya are you gonna paint me, actually it's nice what why you say your painting not nice, the instagram ya, oh you paint for mac, oh no wonder okay <mandarin>是:shi</mandarin> special occasion only


ah it's like that one you think is like that it is normal, actually I also want to go out


speaking of <mandarin>车:che</mandarin> right !walao! <mandarin>我的:wo de</mandarin> driving, is like never happening eh


!wah! eh I think she told me she would give up, I'm just like why would you do that you are already, actually maybe she's not even halfway through, I don't know how she can drag so long eh


she started she start ya she started earlier than all of us eh, right her dad but then I think she also say she wants to pay back her dad, and true <mandarin>她是这样跟我讲:ta shi zhe yang gen wo jiang</mandarin> lah <mandarin>她要:ta yao</mandarin> payback <mandarin>她的:ta de</mandarin> dad and then like


just don't want to learn already, I mean, !aiya! <mandarin>不要我已经:bu yao wo yi jing</mandarin> learn <mandarin>完:wan</mandarin> Liao I just need practice and test, to get my licence


everything would have been better if I plan earlier because that time <mandarin>我一直做:wo yi zhi zuo</mandarin> double lesson double lesson double lesson for every friday, so that time <mandarin>我已经很顺:wo yi jing hen shun</mandarin> Liao <mandarin>很熟:hen shou</mandarin> Liao but I didn't know like, like, like suddenly


think, about there, I mean not yet,


oh no I think at my sixteen, sixteen or eighteen the instructor actually say I okay already, I finish everything already at that timing then I'm like !wah! then I'm like !huh! <mandarin>完:wan</mandarin> Liao


but the thing is I think because you went for one theme right so you have like two same instructor, (mmhmm)


so actually isn't that worse, ya you have to match with their timing, no meh, (mmhmm) oh serious !huh! then


[orh] but !wah! <mandarin>我真的很气:wo zhen de hen qi</mandarin> eh that time you know the last few the I think my last few last six consecutive one that means like, for three weeks lah


of three four weeks I keep getting the same guy, exactly that's why the guy was like thought err <mandarin>我已经可以:wo yi jing ke yi</mandarin> ready Liao, then, because <mandarin>我没有一直跟一样的人去:wo mei you yi zhi gen yi yang de ren qu</mandarin> so they never tell me in advance


that I can actually book already, then when you explain it to the, ya the blind spot, oh, actually no ah parking


really is bigger oh so it's, !aiya! nevermind lah just <mandarin>不要:bu yao</mandarin> parallel park


I feel like yes (uh huh), (uh huh) (uh huh), (mmhmm)


(uh huh), so you're like oh my god how long did you take


, never mind ah <mandarin>你有那个:ni you na ge</mandarin> new new new driver <mandarin>的:de</mandarin> plate <mandarin>就可以:jiu ke yi</mandarin> Liao okay nevermind just continue to put just <mandarin>一直放住:yi zhi fang zhu</mandarin> until you feel safe


isn't that what you're supposed to do, your dad don't let, in this time !aiya! that one is like <mandarin>老人家:lao ren jia</mandarin> lah


(mmhmm)


you will right then okay what because it's that area is like new area what so you don't know what, like if it's around #toa payoh# all these I know all the roads and everything I don't need GPS, I mean like <mandarin>我每次走:wo mei ci zou</mandarin> from point a to point B <mandarin>都是走的:dou shi zou de</mandarin> without GPS so I I


(mmhmm) ya can because <mandarin>他驾几十年:ta jia ji shi nian</mandarin> Liao sia <mandarin>我的:wo de</mandarin> uncle <mandarin>也是:ye shi</mandarin> I mean he's a taxi driver lah so like


(uh huh) (uh huh), memorise lah !wow!


I don't know eh my uncle they all they also taxi driver for damn long already, I never I never like, like realise the need


, ya actually <mandarin>两个都是:liang ge dou shi</mandarin> uncle <mandarin>不同:bu tong</mandarin> uncle <mandarin>他们的车:ta men de che</mandarin> right oh ya no <mandarin>一个是:yi ge shi</mandarin> private car <mandarin>一个是:yi ge shi</mandarin> taxi car


ya it's like a like <mandarin>小时候有:xiao shi hou you</mandarin> go ya


is like what I remember last time we will like go like say parkway, I don't see them using anything and they just drive, then <mandarin>后面就在讲话:hou mian jiu zai jiang hua</mandarin> ah then <mandarin>就到:jiu dao</mandarin> Liao then <mandarin>就:jiu</mandarin> !wow! actually I'm actually that time never !wow! lah it's just <mandarin>正常的:zheng chang de</mandarin> not to use GPS, so now <mandarin>突然间用:tu ran jian yong</mandarin> GPS <mandarin>就有点怪怪的:jiu you dian guai guai de</mandarin> then like you know you see your friends car everything everyone using GPS


actually I have one, from, , when I join their member eh the burger is nice though


ya I mean I I have no use for it, oh ya I remember you told me about that that one very sad, very wasted I just, I feel ya a bit that one I feel a bit <mandarin>对:dui</mandarin> lor I mean


uh it's just very wasteful I mean if <mandarin>我:wo</mandarin> dad <mandarin>有:you</mandarin> if I'm in the same situation as you and then my dad don't agree lah, so you rather I cab there, and then cab back, exactly


like <mandarin>你你你买车就是要省那些钱:ni ni ni mai che jiu shi yao sheng nei xie qian</mandarin> what <mandarin>就是要用方 买车就是要方便的:jiu shi yao yong fang mai che jiu shi yao fang bian de</mandarin> mah, but then, serious


why why would you say that, oh he so he don't want you, to


but driving at night you know why at night Shiok leh, driving at night is the most Shiok one then you go through highway


, damn Shiok eh and then can drive to those like, marina barrage


serious, ya because, [orh] there's very little lights, SG blue SG blue


then that it's damn expensive eh then why do people do that


I see some of my uni friends right they will do that and then they like car pool to school then means like, but <mandarin>我们不顺路:wo men bu shun lu</mandarin> though, ya same like !wah! that day I just like oh my god <mandarin>是:shi</mandarin> for <mandarin>他的:ta de</mandarin> ya


free will the the money to just call grab any time when you want, that time <mandarin>我:wo</mandarin> poly <mandarin>的:de</mandarin> first week <mandarin>就是这样的:jiu shi zhe yang de</mandarin> which is why I a bit cannot Gum with them


but is it our issue though


a a what, bag, you have a green colour bag why would you buy


why would you do that, do you not know the size oh I don't think you use it when you went out right


is it recent


!huh! , (hmm) <mandarin>我的:wo de</mandarin> bag <mandarin>除了真的有牌的:chu le zhen de you pai de</mandarin> bag,


you know the very typical tote bag the leather one


, !aiya! it looks it looks like real so I don't get why people get the real one okay I mean I get why people get the real one because the real one is supposed to be biodegradable and everything


I think so, oh oh maybe that's the only one, then I don't know but then <mandarin>我没有这样有钱:wo mei you zhe yang you qian</mandarin> to <mandarin>为了这个:wei le zhe ge</mandarin> earth <mandarin>去那样做:qu na yang zuo</mandarin>


, , !aiya! I mean I I try my best, but sometimes, really like I do I bring when I bring big bag like you know when I first


when I first started working at my drink store <mandarin> 我有带我自己的:wo you dai wo zi ji de</mandarin> tumbler, but then <mandarin>久了:jiu le</mandarin> right <mandarin>我就没有带:wo jiu mei you dai</mandarin> Liao, eh no the the I like because it keeps, like it insulate the heat, so like my ice drinks will last longer but then <mandarin>因为有点麻烦:yin wei you dian ma fan</mandarin> so <mandarin>我:wo</mandarin> end up <mandarin>没有:mei you</mandarin> Liao


oh ya the the the bend one serious no you should bring it when you go school but it's not happening anytime soon, then there's no [orh] when you go work


but then it's not like your work got pantry or some, then <mandarin>就:jiu</mandarin> [orh] then can what they got their own cup


ya, then <mandarin>你:ni</mandarin> just <mandarin>煮:zhu</mandarin> ah, oh


I mean


!wow!


allowance <mandarin>高:gao</mandarin> lor, oh <mandarin>高:gao</mandarin> <mandarin>高:gao</mandarin> eh oh my god


(mmhmm), oh I thought it's always been like three of you, it's just your picture <mandarin>就变成三个人了:jiu bian cheng san ge ren le</mandarin> that's why


oh


oh, !wah! <mandarin>很爽:hen shuang</mandarin> eh


oh ya ya I cannot get so my friend ah some of them I see them their school only what one week go two day university uni ah


oh, because sometimes I realise just I feel sometimes I feel like just that just the financial background right


you need to have the same kind, !wah!


I get that the quality is better but I cannot afford that


which


ya but anyway, anyway this year new year <mandarin>应该不用买衣服:ying gai bu yong mai yi fu</mandarin> lah right


I don't sia, I feel bad for not, missing my, grandparents


oh, I don't I mean okay I'm glad that my grandparents are alive


and, well, but, same


I I wouldn't say I feel happy that they are then I'm just very neutral about the whole thing, is that bad, it's like, they are just people who I call my


my, grandfather, that kind of thing, because they never took care of me, , and then also they they maybe


maybe what about maybe I need to force myself to feel that doesn't work that way


but <mandarin>你这个又不是什么男女关系这个是:ni zhe ge you bu shi shen me nan nv guan xi zhe ge shi</mandarin> grandparents <mandarin>的是:de shi</mandarin> should be there <mandarin>的:de</mandarin> I don't know I feel like it's a should be there one eh


so I wonder what is normal, is it normal to have like, but the normal to me is not having a relationship with my grandparents and not having a relationship


I mean not having a very good relationship with my, family, okay lah <mandarin>也没有这样严重:ye mei you zhe yang yan zhong</mandarin> lah it's just my father but I wouldn't say we are bad relationship, though, it's like


I will make time to bond with him like say maybe like when <mandarin>我到时候做工:wo dao shi hou zuo gong</mandarin> everything like maybe once a week, or twice a week, but <mandarin>我不会要:wo bu hui yao</mandarin> like, every day


but the thing is right even when I travel right I don't get homesick eh, is that normal


dunno leh like what is homesick I thought homesick is like missing your parents family or something, can you stop clapping your phone your hand okay okay okay


okay, friends school (uh huh) (uh huh) eh I cannot ya lor


ya <mandarin>是不是那些人他们的:shi bu shi nei xie ren ta men de</mandarin> family <mandarin>很:hen</mandarin> bonded, then that explains it


!wah!, I really wonder how that feels, so weird because those kind of people are like very attached, I just cannot put myself in that


gel are supposed to last stronger than that


it's supposed to withstand water and soap, , now I can't do my nails last time I will keep doing my nails


!walao! eh, either I'm in F&B or I am not, and now I'm studying I'm back in F&B I'm totally fine, but that's the easiest one


you can what I mean you can I mean I mean as in you have that


but they will, oh really, but then <mandarin>你这样你要可以:ni zhe yang ni yao ke yi</mandarin> full-time what <mandarin>我都不可以:wo dou bu ke yi</mandarin> full-time, so of course <mandarin>他们不会要:ta men bu hui yao</mandarin> what


right


and and not very stable, I want stability in my part-time job because it's a part-time job <mandarin>我也是要有两个:wo ye shi yao you liang ge</mandarin> part-time job Liao


which <mandarin>我觉得有点神经病:wo jue de you dian shen jing bing</mandarin> eh I don't know how I'm gonna handle you know now that I'm counting, , , but <mandarin>问题是我现在这个很:wen ti shi wo xian zai zhe ge hen</mandarin> stable, I feel like <mandarin>我那个也是会很:wo na ge ye shi hui hen</mandarin> stable because <mandarin>那个是在:na ge shi zai</mandarin> hospital


hospital so I think, like fixed, and then I'm joining another one


but <mandarin>问题是因为我很:wen ti shi yin wei wo hen</mandarin> free but then <mandarin>我在算:wo zai suan</mandarin> right if <mandarin>我这样的或:wo zhe yang de huo</mandarin> that means I'll be like working four days, so that means <mandarin>我读书只有:wo du shu zhi you</mandarin> three days, but then out of that half of it is like half day half day that's why I can <mandarin>蜡笔小新一个:la bi xiao xin yi ge</mandarin> episode <mandarin>才:cai</mandarin> <mandarin>十五分钟十五分钟:shi wu fen zhong shi wu fen zhong</mandarin> yes no lah it's not drama <mandarin>蜡笔小新:la bi xiao xin</mandarin> is short <mandarin>的:de</mandarin> is like you know the short relax it relax your mind


finish season eight seven, oh grey's anatomy oh, where are you ah on oh, oh ever since <mandarin>那边:na bian</mandarin> stop


oh ya that happened to me did you continue fourteen not, then <mandarin>你懂我有时候:ni dong wo you shi hou</mandarin> don't link <mandarin>的:de</mandarin> right


eh


august oh my god <mandarin>我的那个:wo de na ge</mandarin> card eh <mandarin>很讨厌:hen tao yan</mandarin> stupid I've been waiting that card for like two months


because <mandarin>我:wo</mandarin> before that actually sign up for <mandarin>一个:yi ge</mandarin> wire card


which I <mandarin>根本没有用到:gen ben mei you yong dao</mandarin> then I have to go and cancel that card I cannot cancel it through online so have to travel all the way to #tai seng# to cancel it


apparently september <mandarin>就开始有:jiu kai shi you</mandarin> quiz <mandarin>来:lai</mandarin> Liao


december <mandarin>就是开始考试:jiu shi kai shi kao shi</mandarin> Liao, wait how long is your this break ah


mine is after december, I got one break, [orh] then got recess break lor, so like, you have one more week


one and a half, [orh] then then after that oh that means <mandarin>你开学:ni kai xue</mandarin> then <mandarin>我们就有一个:wo men jiu you yi ge</mandarin> week of recess week, I think, is it end august or end


september, ,


I don't know lah <mandarin>我:wo</mandarin> CCA <mandarin>我很讨厌:wo hen tao yan</mandarin> leh since I don't like that it's online, because I actually enjoy my CCA when like I'm interacting with the kids, but now that it's cancel somewhat cancelled, then when you do online


it becomes less fun, and more serious, , then <mandarin>过后就要开始看:guo hou jiu yao kai shi kan</mandarin> lecture Liao <mandarin>我要:wo yao</mandarin> catch up and then I just bought


eh, notability, because <mandarin>我跟:wo gen</mandarin> Boon share, so <mandarin>就:jiu</mandarin> split actually <mandarin>很便宜:hen pian yi</mandarin> lor <mandarin>这样:zhe yang</mandarin> split split split because can go up to six account


so I realised if you want to buy anything else right, other app or something like that we can just do the whole family sharing thing, I never realise got such thing eh


I need to use it, I need to use it as I'm gonna use that as my weekly journal Liao, I'm gonna find a way to make it


convenient to use as a weekly journal, I think if <mandarin>我明天:wo ming tian</mandarin> procrastinate <mandarin>就是做那个:jiu shi zuo na ge</mandarin> Liao, instead of studying, , err and then maybe that will be my new, journal


I mean I don't want to bring ipad overseas to write notes journal ya, I mean but <mandarin>现在很难出国:xian zai hen nan chu guo</mandarin>


I want, that day [orh] (uh huh)


oh <mandarin>不可以啊:bu ke yi a</mandarin> like like in what sense, (uh huh)


ya just one go swift swift lor ya


but no comment <mandarin>因为我很久没有驾车我很担心:yin wei wo hen jiu mei you jia che wo hen dan xin</mandarin> maybe <mandarin>我要不要去玩一下那个:wo yao bu yao qu wan yi xia na ge</mandarin> you know mario cart, ,


!wah! <mandarin>有点想念:you dian xiang nian</mandarin> driving but, once you drive right it's like full attention span,


is like totally understand right because every time <mandarin>以前:yi qian</mandarin> like ask <mandarin>那种有:na you</mandarin> licence <mandarin>的人:de ren</mandarin> then <mandarin>就问:jiu wen</mandarin> like, eh I forgot what I ask then anyway they will just say like actually after you get licence right <mandarin>你不会想要驾:ni bu hui xiang yao jia</mandarin> Liao now I understand


but <mandarin>很:hen</mandarin> stress leh, that attention span on it


but anyway <mandarin>晚上比较少车:wan shang bi jiao shao che</mandarin> though, no meh, oh, oh ya, !wah!


!huh!, can oh bag, as in, I thought you always have


normal, oh bob ross yes so which drawing, are you gonna try


on your wall nice lah because <mandarin>你不可以:ni bu ke yi</mandarin> paint human <mandarin>是不是:shi bu shi</mandarin> ,


, I thought last time you drew like harry styles, thought, really


some kind of like, low calorie noodle


they say is made from like, ya, so it's like <mandarin>你咬的时候有点有:ni yao de shi hou you dian you</mandarin> texture <mandarin>的:de</mandarin> then <mandarin>是:shi</mandarin> noodle <mandarin>有不是在你的有不是在你的:you bu shi zai ni de you bu shi zai ni de</mandarin> bubble tea <mandarin>这样:zhe yang</mandarin> at first <mandarin>我吃有点奇怪:wo chi you dian qi guai</mandarin> but then <mandarin>吃久了又有点习惯:chi jiu le you you dian xi guan</mandarin> Liao


then <mandarin>我:wo</mandarin> lor just <mandarin>吃:chi</mandarin> then <mandarin>我买了没有办法:wo mai le mei you ban fa</mandarin> just <mandarin>吃完:chi wan</mandarin> lor


(oo)


, oh


(mmhmm)


oh, <mandarin>你们有:ni men you</mandarin> like different procedure for fierce dogs


<mandarin>因为它是:yin wei ta shi</mandarin> scary <mandarin>的狗:de gou</mandarin> uh ya


oh


that time, eh ya lor pepper doesn't do that, it's like it's like <mandarin>我姑姑的狗以前:wo gu gu de gou yi qian</mandarin> like <mandarin>因为它住我:yin wei ta zhu wo</mandarin> grandma <mandarin>的:de</mandarin> shophouse <mandarin>楼上:lou shang</mandarin> just like <mandarin>以前去每次去:yi qian qu mei ci qu</mandarin> visit


oh, oh


but <mandarin>有:you</mandarin> leh <mandarin>我记得:wo ji de</mandarin> like <mandarin>它做错事我姑姑会骂它:ta zuo cuo shi wo gu gu hui ma ta</mandarin> leh


is it I don't remember it's been, years


is all your fault


, they very baby their, [orh]


, , !huh! because <mandarin>它是小狗所以没有:ta shi xiao gou suo yi mei you</mandarin> big injury <mandarin>就是:jiu shi</mandarin> #orh cheh#


it seem like how you like <mandarin>带孩子:dai hai zi</mandarin> that kind of thing


ya honestly I don't really like cat and I, I don't know


I am only okay with kittens because they're small and tiny but <mandarin>你变那种大的:ni bian na zhong da de</mandarin> right,


for me no for me since young I got this like, I think is


like no choice but it's just there, then I won't dare touch, there's such thing, parenting class


[orh], like the right way to teach, ya, oh there's there was this err <mandarin>我看:wo kan</mandarin> youtube <mandarin>有一个人他这样问:you yi ge ren ta zhe yang wen</mandarin> like will you be alright if your child


don't pursue what you want them to pursue, really, like you don't pursue what you want them to pursue


but then what would you do, like will you continue encourage them or like try to like, like somehow tweak them to like like what you want


just be a bartender, the kind of thing


because I never go and read up on news and everything oh ya I saw what happened ah, bankrupt so like they are closing shops


ya I think I saw that also <mandarin>我一件:wo yi jian</mandarin> victoria secret <mandarin>的东西都没有:de dong xi dou mei you</mandarin> leh, oh victoria secret perfume is a no go they are damn sweet cannot one [orh] I okay even because I think that is the most not so sweet one I think <mandarin>我有闻过:wo you wen guo</mandarin> I <mandarin>觉得:jue de</mandarin> I think <mandarin>是:shi</mandarin> okay but but I feel like because everyone has it <mandarin>我不要:wo bu yao</mandarin> so <mandarin>不要:bu yao</mandarin> really oh


oh, really


maybe <mandarin>她:ta</mandarin> that day <mandarin>刚好有点流汗:gang hao you dian liu han</mandarin> or something then mix, but, like I try to find something that I like lah but because honestly for <mandarin>他们他们的我没有去看因为很贵:ta men ta men de wo mei you qu kan yin wei hen gui</mandarin>


I mean <mandarin>他:ta</mandarin> but <mandarin>他们的:ta men de</mandarin> perfume their price point for perfume is relatively low, that's why I want ya and their perfume perfume that's why I want to I want to find one that I like but


but but the only issue is <mandarin>他是那个:ta shi na ge</mandarin> toilet <mandarin>的我不会:de wo bu hui</mandarin> pronounce


there's like the perfume perfume where <mandarin>他们 那边 写 的 是:ta men na bian xie de shi</mandarin> like Parfum or something like that like in french, like those are the highest oil content, and then the lower you go right ya exactly those are the most expensive one ya then all the way to like you know body mist body spray <mandarin>那种不要就是因为那种:na bu yao jiu shi yin wei na</mandarin> doesn't last <mandarin>我要一个真的是:wo yao yi ge zhen de shi</mandarin> last <mandarin>的那个就是:de na ge jiu shi</mandarin> essential oil Liao lor <mandarin>不可以这样:bu ke yi zhe yang</mandarin> if <mandarin>我有这样厉害我就种自己的: wo you zhe yang li hai wo jiu zhong zi ji de</mandarin> scent Liao


okay, okay


ya so how is, X P doing , of course ah ya I know what's she doing ah she doing FYP or FYI


I never see her at all, no, !huh! !huh! you got see her before


then what is she wait why why I never see her before I never see her before eh she doing what she specialising in what, chem eng, never see her before I also doing BMS


!huh! I never see her at all exactly I don't know I really never see her, <mandarin>我都没有跟她讲话:wo dou mei you gen ta jiang hua</mandarin> Liao


just hi bye only what, acquaintance only what I don't meet up with her outside, oh really ah really ah


, [orh] oh really I thought is rachel


wait ah wait ah CS ten ten S, cause of that stupid, mod, who A H, good what very good lor, better than me ah at least they got job when they graduate eh we come out we come out we don't want what she can find job she want we cannot find job we want


ya lor then what you gonna do after you grad, don't know right I also don't know what I want to do after I grad, then do PHD, yup, (mmhmm)


is lah bow, !huh! !whoa!, uh, really oh ya ya ya ya ya ya, but you can't


you have no more summers already , winter ah, !huh! <mandarin>可以:ke yi</mandarin> ah


that's cool, that's better than doing FYI in singapore, they say


people do FYI they just end up four months doing nothing, damn Sian, Nah still do projects what, really <mandarin>阿拉伯真的:a la bo zhen de</mandarin> meh


oh really oh that is the wait what's that place ah dubai ah ah damn rich


then should be very good lah, !whoa!, eh then when you going to do diving


exact exactly I mean we, we should be on our diving trip now, !whoa! your school damn shit eh, can I put my, need to air


ya, shit I only got open water cert you don't have a cert , then you how


nowhere's open, I also wanna go do diving shit oh my god ya I also wanna go do diving and shit <mandarin>对我差一点死掉:dui wo cha yi dian si diao</mandarin> ,


can't even see where the coach is you know, ya it's damn bad like you can barely yes you can barely see your pimples


like you cannot see the person and follow the person, err


ya, okay lah just go and just go and do for the cert ya ya, ya ya ya, Sian , err, get better


then will I see you again , eh wait wait, well if you could go back taiwan then I won't see you again


err <mandarin>反正那如果你不在新加坡工作我就看不到你:fan zheng na ru guo ni bu zai xin jia po gong zuo wo jiu kan bu dao ni</mandarin> Liao, !wah! #simi sai# I have to go there and find you eh, really


[orh] okay lah then I will still see you, okay now <mandarin>我看得到:wo kan de dao</mandarin> okay <mandarin>看得到看得到看得到:kan de dao kan de dao kan de dao</mandarin> very good, ya


dying I mean medicine kids all like that one ah, very hard to see her I mean we just met up, you want eat lady M oh my god they very Atas lady M


ya lor, better than me ah at least, better than us ah


really, (uh huh) that's why he's in


you can go overseas and do study what, G, other than her


so like


oh really ah , !ee!


oh ya I think he is C is not I know C is not, your clique can we just like you got pen or not, I'm gonna write down wait this is !wah! this is killing me eh the initials so like in our class ah


god this pencil ah , [orh] err wait your clique got who ah


I know she's not, then, I know he's not also, both both above above average I thought she apply for financial aid one


, she got money do like, then <mandarin>她:ta</mandarin> leh


not really <mandarin>人家有女朋友:ren jia you nv peng you</mandarin> ah !wah! <mandarin>好:hao</mandarin> eh , what <mandarin>人家有女朋友不是好:ren jia you nv peng you bu shi hao</mandarin> meh who else ah


he's not right I don't see really eh sorry sorry, eh <mandarin>还有谁:hai you shui</mandarin> ah uh, this one rich


ya then my clique only got both of them are they are they are some more ah the who ah this, her boyfriend ah damn rich


no really really cause the boyfriend quite quite Zai one, the boyfriend quite Zai one like internship can earn what a life science fresh grad can earn <mandarin>因为我出去我只赚赚三:yin wei wo chu qu wo zhi zhuan zhuan san</mandarin> three point five K, !wah! <mandarin>他:ta</mandarin> her internship <mandarin>就可以赚:jiu ke yi zhuan</mandarin> three point five K she ya oh my god sugar daddy eh I can't even eh


ya, who else in our class, are they still are they still together she and her boy, still together ah !wah! then eh


!wah! still remember, she rich she damn rich


then <mandarin>这位:zhe wei</mandarin> leh, freaking rich ah oh she doesn't show it though, oh my god that means it's like, you know who is, right he damn rich but he doesn't show it he doesn't show it he really doesn't show it


ya she ah and she learn tennis before so she's in what school again


no as in like JC, JC secondary school I think it's quite a rich secondary school like it's C or something oh <mandarin>不懂:bu dong</mandarin> okay eh <mandarin>还有谁:hai you shui</mandarin> ah <mandarin>那边:na bian</mandarin> ah I think she should be quite rich also right


[orh]


really, I'm not surprise she's rich ah, is it hor what eh maybe


so we are like the bottom what so we are like the bottom eh


uh


what the hell yacht party he got a yacht at home


!wah! you have all rich friends eh, leech off them ah <mandarin>反正我们出来也是没用工作:fan zheng wo men chu lai ye shi mei yong gong zuo</mandarin> ya ah I can leech eh I can leech on JW, was she I don't know like if not lost contact


she overseas mah she's in australia, oh is it, you I know her in sec one sec two


ya, that I never ever really talk to her, ya, uh cause I also different clique from her never really talk then until like J two is not even J one J one I was in the clique then after that I left the clique


ya I think I was stupid also lah I also don't know why but then , ya so it's like


okay, ya they just don't show it


(uh huh), they show it right


!ee!, that's why I didn't wanna go raffles, (uh huh)


!wah!, ya


is your family considered average or, below average I don't know, average


uh, but they are not in SG ah, ya I mean like but they don't live in ya but they don't live in SG <mandarin>只有你在:zhi you ni zai</mandarin> SG


(uh huh) okay


like I will


oh, uh, !wah! Siao arts (mmhmm)


!wah! !wah! okay, ah no joke


that's quite a lot,


ya right


wait for like


I also don't know why I'm so <mandarin>抠:kou</mandarin> eh, I my my my brother is not such a spender my brother quite quite willing to spend that like I damn fucking <mandarin>抠:kou</mandarin> I don't know why, average ya


but confirm like can afford things lah is not is not like


ah ya ya


ya like that of course <mandarin>对别人我又不会大手大脚:dui bie ren wo you bu hui da shou da jiao</mandarin> lah is like , ya but I will be willing to spend like I <mandarin>请我第:qing wo di</mandarin> I spend eight dollars on him okay, then my breakfast <mandarin>三块多:san kuai duo</mandarin> only


oh,


!wah! <mandarin>你够:ni gou</mandarin> what I mean <mandarin>你哥哥没有请你:ni ge ge mei you qing ni</mandarin> ah like your <mandarin>哥:ge</mandarin> never purposely treat you ah, your brother never purposely treat you before meh, or your sister [orh]


uh, ,


like after my brother go army I also ask him treat me, like grab food right I was like eh you pay ah okay okay cause he won't Geng mah he he he damn Shiok eh during the COVID he only once a week go camp he earn six hundred fifty per month


damn asshole leh I need work my ass off to earn six hundred fifty per month eh, interning ya interning is only, eight dollar per hour I mean it's okay but like, I still need to work my ass off for like


no not summer semester, COVID saved me ah if not I think I will I mean like, try to save my grades


right, oh my god


how much did you earn, that is good enough, higher than me ya, oh okay


wait if I cannot get if I cannot do the volunteer work should I go work part time, I just bored I just I just want monetary power you know, as in I wanna have control of my own finances <mandarin>不用一直问我父母要钱的:bu yong yi zhi wen wo fu mu yao qian de</mandarin> mah


oh, ya, !walao! <mandarin>很省:hen sheng</mandarin> leh my PGP is free one okay free then I intern also never ask money from them


damn Shiok right, what's spend like crazy sia, ya and like more willing to treat people


!wah! I really very willing to treat people when I got money, you will feel damn good like <mandarin>我没有钱了没事我请我请:wo mei you qian le mei shi wo qing wo qing</mandarin> ,


ya, why


, (uh huh), (uh huh), err (uh huh)


wait is your sister working already, I see, ya, damn chill ah then <mandarin>你跟他们要钱:ni gen ta men yao qian</mandarin> lah true


ya maybe I should go and do like part time but which I can't go I can't work in clinic cause clinic confirm not willing to hire me


, then where you want to work in ice cream shop I don't know, ya it's damn far, ya or else COVID actually I work there


did you will do anything during COVID oh my god my ass, oh cause I was waiting for FYP to start yes oh my god back to NUS ya I was waiting for my FYP to start ya after that then NUS keep saying like sorry phase one FYP student new FYP student not allowed into the lab !wah! damn pissed off eh then it's like one month gone


and like cannot find job within one month also what after that phase two start okay we can start now but we have the AM and PM shift, okay lor AM and PM shift lor then I think I think even the lab people think that it's gonna be like forever like not forever like until end of the year okay lor go find volunteer to do


then after find volunteer already eh sorry we lifting the AM and PM shit !wah! screw NUS


exactly, yes, oh my god


uh, your <mandarin>什么死掉:shen me si diao</mandarin> Liao oh mint


the back strong though, !hais!


<mandarin>你干嘛生气路边鸡饭:ni gan ma sheng qi lu bian ji fan</mandarin>


maybe maybe that's why I always never see her cause <mandarin>我从来不买鸡饭因为我吃不了鸡饭:wo cong lai bu mai ji fan yin wei wo chi bu liao ji fan</mandarin> , eh but she's in bis eh never see her before


what is what, oh, NTU NTU


NTU also what, who else is in our class ah, lol what that one


she life science what, she got how you know,


wait how how did she tell you


, uh oh,


so awkward right I didn't know she will tell me also when I met her also, I forgot but I know the face, like I know the face where you're gonna tell me that you are attached right I know the face the face just


ya everything your face I can read with people's face one like, the who ah, ya she also have boyfriend, yes then she also , ya


I don't know who ya, I don't know who I just know she got boyfriend ya when she was going to tell us right I see her face then I'm like yes I know I see I know what's coming I know what's coming yes yes I'm ready ya, then now only I single lor


I mean no I mean my clique all them have already, eh then the who the who have a not, she break up


die lor me I, , we three single forever, oh my god dating sucks eh, , my friend also my friend also interested in a dude also


but but but he's gay ah ya so he's interested in this dude also oh ya then he also like no no no ya like also online lah also online ya also online then she say he he say !wah! damn interested damn hopeful cause like he say the dude follow him like when he needed to wait to meet to meet people then after that the dude follow him then they talk don't know what what what then she say !wah! eh I damn hopeful for that one then in the end right when I text right


take three days to reply me eh ya !wah! then he damn pissed off then he was just like oh my god dating sucks then I'm like ya I agree I feel you , I feel you


okay


know what if I become a room you right <mandarin>然后你:ran hou ni</mandarin> attached leh


tiring <mandarin>很:hen</mandarin> tiring


ya lor uh Sua lah Sua single forever


cause, then what would you have done differently


, then


wait then you weird, condition leh, will you, change my partner


oh, then <mandarin>你们:ni men</mandarin> if what if I don't get, married in


ya <mandarin>对:dui</mandarin> lor <mandarin>可以:ke yi</mandarin>


eh then would you want like <mandarin>孩子:hai zi</mandarin> no right oh <mandarin>我也不要:wo ye bu yao</mandarin> eh you know my condition right before you start anything right I was like, can you like <mandarin>你不要孩子:ni bu yao hai zi</mandarin> hor <mandarin>如果你要的话:ru guo ni yao de hua</mandarin> right let's just not even start you know it will be a problem lah


did I tell you I have this weird belief that, that, ya, ya ya correct my mom think I crazy eh that what my friends tell me ah but <mandarin>我妈觉得我神经病:wo ma jue de wo shen jing bing</mandarin> eh


you know what my mom say my mom say, you kid will be smart, then <mandarin>你生出来的孩子:ni sheng chu lai de hai zi</mandarin> is smart, then I'm like what that's that's


that's why there's inequality in the world eh <mandarin>因为:yin wei</mandarin> smart people keep, mingling with smart smart, then the poor people , no <mandarin>我又不算传宗:wo you bu suan chuan zong</mandarin> <mandarin>接:jie</mandarin> <mandarin>代:dai</mandarin> I need to I need to make my life easy okay


(mmhmm)


underwhelming one


ya,


, so your sister <mandarin>跟她男朋友在一起:gen ta nan peng you zai yi qi</mandarin> how long


how many already, ah, !wah! <mandarin>你姐真的是:ni jie zhen de shi</mandarin> heart player leh


oh is it, oh my god, uh


, , head ache,


oh oh my god, , no my family not, like my brother is carnivorous what !aiya! I really don't know


my mum always headache when she cook for us, ya then she was like <mandarin>晚餐煮什么:wan can zhu shen me</mandarin> ah


!wah! <mandarin>你真:ni zhen</mandarin> you are like


oh my god, you failed terribly


oh my


oh ya eh, oh, (uh huh),


oh my god so rude but rude though that's damn rude , don't look like it right, I'm opposite from you though I give people a very like


I damn wild what I go like what diving ah hiking ah this kind of thing then <mandarin>我也不要孩子:wo ye bu yao hai zi</mandarin> ah this kind of thing, I want to spend the money all on myself


help, smart , no you just no


no then that's good what eh then <mandarin>这样就反差:zhe yang jiu fan cha</mandarin> lor then people think you not <mandarin>你不聪明:ni bu cong ming</mandarin> ah then after that you tell people <mandarin>我从我是:wo cong wo shi</mandarin> NUS student, !wah! <mandarin>反差:fan cha</mandarin> eh


no it's not good to have a smart look either when you're dumb like I have a smart look but actually I damn Sibei dumb so and people's you can't meet people's <mandarin>要求:yao qiu</mandarin> you know


ah,


, uh uh uh


, with


, why but I don't think it's a dumb look, it's not the dumb look no no no is the <mandarin>随一气很接地气的:sui yi qi hen jie di qi de</mandarin> look


wait <mandarin>他们是这样讲的:ta men shi zhe yang jiang de</mandarin> meh, but they <mandarin>没有讲你:mei you jiang ni</mandarin> look dumb what


[orh] I'd just think <mandarin>你很接地气:ni hen jie di qi</mandarin> that's why <mandarin>你没有像:ni mei you xiang</mandarin> ya they never, associate ya with that school, ya but because I think people come out from that school quite elites one


they have the, ya what's this, uh ya ya <mandarin>接地气:jie di qi</mandarin> lah


I mean do I look like I'm from, that school, I can't ask you right ya cause we from the same ya oh my god I realise


ya just anyhow I say lah eh I'm from like Nanyang lah I don't know


!whoa!, !wah! , seriously bro


no lah <mandarin>那是你自己想的:na shi ni zi ji xiang de</mandarin> lah


dude when I tell people I dive they also like, what <mandarin>什么:shen me</mandarin> , you dive question mark question mark question mark, ya


I don't know I give people a very <mandarin>淑女:shu nv</mandarin> !aiya! that's why I attract so many, wrong people ya ya people think I very <mandarin>淑女:shu nv</mandarin> but when they really meet me right then they realise oh fuck this girl quite wild I cannot I cannot I cannot like


handle ya too bad, eh ya too bad, but anyway the people I meet right I don't know whether they can find love I I legit don't know especially this one guy ah


no no we'd just talk about no no the one meet online one I tell you ah this guy really ah like I don't know eh hate him


I don't even know why I spend the <mandarin>时间:shi jian</mandarin> to go and meet him you know I should just told him from the start <mandarin>我觉得我们不应该见面:wo jue de wo men bu ying gai jian mian</mandarin> actually I know eh through the texting and everything like at first


is, like do you love yourself no, then why are you on , then what what what ya then why are you on the app you know if if you dont love how are you gonna love people if you don't love yourself I mean


I don't know if you don't, settle your own cock first, uh, okay nice do you love yourself


is only after the CB then I love myself


uh I think like similar oh my god I mean if you love yourself you love yourself in any state you are now what, you don't only love yourself after you reach what you wanna be what, ya so that's ya


ya, but <mandarin>对:dui</mandarin> lor


eh your english sucks eh, , I know you told me before


uh, joking around right, uh


so what was the issue


[orh] okay,


oh, cool cool


we all have our own issues, !aiya! if I think if I want to name my own issue I think I can name like the whole day eh , mean a not ya


ya, ya I was listening to a podcast about social anxiety also like


like there's this dude dude in the class last time he say want to make everyone like him ya but after a while he was like there's no need to make someone know him everyone different what, Toh ya that's so random ya what else she say ah she say


oh if you don't like me then it's fine ah then I don't have don't have people who like me ah I don't have to like you don't like me what what is the point of making you like me ya


ya ya ya ya ya ya ya


ya I very scared offending people don't know who I just offend , offend, how to knock


ya <mandarin>不是:bu shi</mandarin> just it's just like that, ya


ya that's good what, which means you're ready to love someone actually no, I think once I start knowing myself very hard for me to love someone already correct it's like I already fulfil myself I don't need someone else to love me that kind of thing


I mean my friend I was telling my friend I finally love myself then my friend was like !wah! like that a bit hard to find girlfriend hor cause I a bit hard to love people lah ya true cause like


I very happy at my equilibrium now I don't want to break it, ya that's that downside


okay <mandarin>这个:zhe ge</mandarin> ah, oh ya ah


and you will ditch me for intern, ditch me for gym, you ditch me for both of your friends lor, thursday


!wah! eh <mandarin>你真的是:ni zhen de shi</mandarin> goldfish memory eh, ya thursday no as in you you're having lunch we were gonna have lunch then you after that say cannot cause you going gym and went to find like went to find him ah


I went to find him for lunch ah first time I Jio him for lunch , okay you know the reason why I'm friends with him right is he really a initiator like I'm a very, so like


ya but the thing is <mandarin>他很主动:ta hen zhu dong</mandarin> he is an initiator so like after he initiate a lot already right then I will feel like okay I feel like I need to initiate also


so I think I only can be friends with a initiators oh my god, !wah! GG eh


oh oh my god


ya sometimes it works ah but not all the time


!wah!


cool cool my primary school friends also, I haven't seen her for very long already ya enough eh, some people one year once enough already, some people just you never see again but


that's so awkward though but okay ah


oh ya, I got say I don't like


ah, I didn't have issues with him, eh, oh then might be


oh or is it her, P W ah, actually I also don't know oh ya I forgot already, but remember our group quite


then he and the other girl also, like, ya also like nothing happen I don't know I don't know <mandarin>你的是:ni de shi</mandarin> ya correct but you all still got A what


shocked, , ya right


cause I know like I have to use up energy to talk to them which is I don't have you know sometimes I just want to listen to my EDM


the bus come is like oh shit should I wait for the next bus or should I like on the same bus


we are so similar help other than that


other than that eh how why why am I still in contact with you ah after I left the clique ah, so random


, ya lor, , ya I also didn't know how


(uh huh), wait how did that even happen


how, they cause meh, as in it's not her meh, !huh!


I will never be <mandarin>熟:shou</mandarin> with this guy never, very childish I cannot I cannot stand guys like that, like very rude


what he do


(mmhmm), uh


ya oh my god


[orh], ya


serious the thing is right


they can't, and they cannot tell is it, I think is <mandarin>平时你比较:ping shi ni bi jiao</mandarin> ya I think <mandarin>平时你:ping shi ni</mandarin> too chill already


ya I'm also like that, I pissed off lor I rage a lot but I'm not really angry that's why it's very funny when I rage but when I'm really angry right no one can tell that I'm really angry ya <mandarin>看不出来:kan bu chu lai</mandarin> ya correct <mandarin>有一次我真的火了:you yi ci wo zhen de huo le</mandarin> okay


ya, oh my god


oh there's one time the who also pissed me off the, ya he also pissed me off


because he I don't know <mandarin>他烦:ta fan</mandarin> he keep saying I very lengthy, then every time when we meet right <mandarin>他在那边:ta zai na bian</mandarin> complain he also keep complaining eh, what the hell it's like eh why I can be I cannot be negative but <mandarin>你可以:ni ke yi</mandarin> complain ah like I <mandarin>每次的:mei ci de</mandarin> complain I also <mandarin>很不爽:hen bu shuang</mandarin> what ya like I was like very pissed off then I was like for the period of time right


I don't want to meet him, ya I was like oh my god don't talk to me I need to I need to chill first I need to chill first ya ya <mandarin>我会越来越生气:wo hui yue lai yue sheng qi</mandarin> ya, I know I never say out lah I just


and when he text me I was like ya then I just then our replies are ya, then now okay already because I just figured it out ya ya ya ya ya ya ya, ya, oh the that was a period of time I got pissed of him I was like why you keep complaining about me being negative when you are so negative


I damn angry ya (ppo) !aiya! you just ignore me for a while


, X P doing ah I don't know eh X P is actually in, in our school ah, no life science lah


I never actually I , don't really talk to her now, !huh! you never see meh, I see at the canteen she buy the <mandarin>鸡饭:ji fan</mandarin> what


ya, ya, never see her before what, ya she doing the, be the bio med ya


#zi dou# ah, really I think I see her quite often what, around school eh I thought you BCM one you ask a EBB student, I don't know man, next time ah <mandarin>你们可以约出来:ni men ke yi yue chu lai</mandarin> or something like that


!huh! I thought you guys very <mandarin>熟:shou</mandarin> eh


cause she always talk to, A H mah, ya your clique one, no, ya lah but she also got go talk to A H


oh oh ya hor, A H lor


really, eh <mandarin>我们也是有工作的:wo men ye shi you gong zuo de</mandarin> is we want a not okay, true that


but I don't know leh, !huh!, don't know eh, ha eh I was thinking eh should I go, cause you know, this summer, I should go


ya, Iraq ah #saudi arabia#, I told you before what, ya this summer I should be there just saying, ya


ya that's why like, no I I I'd try to go there do FYP, can what no meh I thought can


FYI sorry FYI but the project is like project based lor, ya


ya that's why I, that's why I think go <mandarin>阿拉伯:a la bo</mandarin> got a chance eh please, their facility ah, Sibei good eh ya cause I think, ya cause they <mandarin>石油:shi you</mandarin> what they <mandarin>石油大国:shi you da guo</mandarin> what ya very near that area anyway the place damn rich lah damn rich


then, last time <mandarin>我上网看他们的资料:wo shang wang kan ta men de zi liao</mandarin> right, !whoa!, their facilities really good eh, and they have this like err this whole like, school, near the sea, then they are doing marine science which is what I want to do ah


ya, but I should be diving now, ya, !hais!, can can can


sure, then like that lor, I haven't do, I planning to do this, few, months I don't know leh


try lor, ya lor


what, very cheap what, ya lor


the turbidity very the bad ah, #siao liao#


GG sia, I also don't know eh but, , Sian


okay maybe this okay lah think of, when things, will be open after the phase two ah, then do lor


#ji dou# eh, will lah, you Jio, then <mandarin>我就会看到你:wo jiu hui kan dao ni</mandarin> Liao


no lah I need to work in singapore for three years eh, Sian, okay whatever, eh then W doing medicine ah


, how is she, dead, I never see her, anymore, really


she <mandarin>很有钱:hen you qian</mandarin> ah


actually, rich ah


they all quite rich one, I know A very rich, ya A very rich, G also very rich, ya you also very rich


I think our class is all more than, above average if they can study in, the school fee already <mandarin>比别的高:bi bie de gao</mandarin> eh


I don't know, is, I think E also quite rich E also rich one


I know E rich A rich, the rest I not sure, but, uh


I know right, use this [bah] ya


, , but is above average, both


above average I think is above average, ya she did but I think she, quite okay one, she really quite okay one, ya thats why I'm like she definitely above average then she


err his, no


Y K, he is I think he is above average also he is average or above average sorry, ya


A and E, this one rich E also quite rich, G rich A rich rich they are rich C also rich


, !huh!, [orh] shit


what the hell eh <mandarin>我:wo</mandarin> angry, sugar daddy, still got who ah


(hmm), , who and who, together <mandarin>他们才在一起:ta men cai zai yi qi</mandarin> lovey dovey ah, I think she I don't know this one NTU


business ah I think, something like that, ya that's why I say she rich, I tell you our class our class is just


freaking rich she don't show but she's freaking rich, she really damn rich , ya he damn rich also ya


I think she give me a very rich vibe also, she got the


NTU


she Defo rich no no really really cause I heard from, eh, ya


no one else already, I don't know, ya this one I don't know


I don't know this one I don't know, don't know sia


this one rich this one rich, cause come on she study medicine eh, in NTU or NUS if I'm not wrong, oh she go overseas she studying medicine now, I tell you already


oh then you can either use either average, above average or they rich they dont have below what I am the bottom, you know every time we go, I we go out with him hor !wah! he always share your stories like I make or made me like


got once hor, I, he tell me [orh], that, err, he one day he ask me what what are you doing in the past weekend


then I'm like oh Lepak at night then I just chill with my friend at KTV ah he tell me, oh I have a yacht party #simi sai# I'm like, !huh! <mandarin>你有:ni you</mandarin> yacht party, I don't know he live at east but I think <mandarin>他们家是很有钱就是他有个:ta men jia shi hen you qian jiu shi ta you ge</mandarin> yacht <mandarin>不懂:bu dong</mandarin> park <mandarin>在哪里:zai na li</mandarin> lah


I was damn shock eh ya then I was like, he ask me what oh I have a POP out party then I cannot contribute to <mandarin>他的:ta de</mandarin> story, I'm like oh, oh cool cool err next time can Jio me I've never been to a yacht


I what I what want this thing can leech it K lah


ya she give me a very <mandarin>生人勿近:sheng ren wu jin</mandarin> feel, really, !huh!


, so awkward story, ya I think I was stupid also lah don't know why


that's the end lor, all the rich kids okay but TBH ah, we other than our school this class lah


I think our school in general is rich kids, rich kids crew, maybe should, which is okay lah, you know my friends


then he she tell me !wah! she, she <mandarin>很:hen</mandarin> stress lor, cause she say , they show it and they won't hide it, and they were kind of <mandarin>强迫:qiang po</mandarin> you to like follow their lifestyle


is like she got once hor, she tell me that err, her friends ah, one restaurant eat lah the restaurant is like err, it's like come out a student


nine nine dollar ninety cents already to me it's like err I can eat at school for three dollars leh <mandarin>二三十块:er san shi kuai</mandarin> ya then she at that point <mandarin>她跟我讲很:ta gen wo jiang hen</mandarin> stress lor, like I think understandable lah


actually I don't know, I really don't know until now because , if I convert, to sing SGD surely below average cause divide by three


ya, they don't earn in SG what, my house , I will say lah, for my


in malaysia a <mandarin>年:nian</mandarin> ah we talk about okay we talked about in ringgit in SGD, I below average, in malaysia I think, can live by lah !huh!, we will be humble a bit can live by can live by


ya, actually is because, during JC right I think, after JC <mandarin>我就觉得:wo jiu jue de</mandarin> like I feel bad for spending my oh during JC actually I think my, my family not very well


cause I don't know why what happen ah, actually it's not what happen is like at that point <mandarin>他们要供三个人的:ta men yao gong san ge ren de</mandarin> SG, Nanyang arts so some more international student so he


he like, eight K nine K, then my sister uni, another five K eh six K, so at that point is like my mom my parents need to, fourteen K SGD eh, like no joke eh


so at that point I like ya thats quite a lot then, fourteen K SGD means, my parents need to earn forty five K eh, ya like in malaysia they say can <mandarin>已经:yi jing</mandarin> not bad Liao lah, but in singapore is like then I feel bad that my because


you know they already spend so much money, I also I also


thrifty ah, because I see okay, things are like


or else, I see no point in, buying it, cause I know I'm a impulsive buyer


then I'll wait, then wait wait wait after that I will err, wait for like, after I walk one round lah


you know right <mandarin>你懂:ni dong</mandarin> right, uh


you family also average is it, ya can afford things, is good what, it was because


it's not until we <mandarin>省:sheng</mandarin> until like !wah! <mandarin>我们:wo men</mandarin> err <mandarin>连请朋友吃饭都不愿意那种:lian qing peng you chi fan dou bu yuan yi na zhong</mandarin> lah is like is like just to


shit you sound like my father my father also like that


uh is like, is like <mandarin>你会吃死的:ni hui chi si de</mandarin> lah, !wah! shit


this is how I leech off from my brother, oh cause last time he he work, when we live together, in malaysia also I like eh <mandarin>哥食物来:ge shi wu lai</mandarin> Liao then I say pay lah pay then he will like !huh!


pay lor then he will pay


, got lah, ya


oh ya, I also, err how to say ah <mandarin>他有钱他是会请我吃的:ta you qian ta shi hui qing wo chi de</mandarin> lah, because <mandarin>那时候:na shi hou</mandarin> like <mandarin>他他只是很不爽为什么爸爸妈妈给你:ta ta zhi shi hen bu shuang wei shen me ba ba ma ma gei ni</mandarin> money, then <mandarin>你不要用他们的:ni bu yao yong ta men de</mandarin> money <mandarin>你用我的:ni yong wo de</mandarin> money


!aiya! <mandarin>他的:ta de</mandarin> money <mandarin>也是你的:ye shi ni de</mandarin> money <mandarin>不是我的:bu shi wo de</mandarin> money <mandarin>是我的:shi wo de</mandarin> money then I like, K K K, no he was like ya I just think <mandarin>我不要跟爸爸妈妈拿钱你有钱:wo bu yao gen ba ba ma ma na qian ni you qian</mandarin> what then he will like


no uh uh okay whatever I will roll eye, ,


well ma, ya I also


is oh you got work you got intern during this summer ah, oh, cause last time I was what ah, err


my sister, oh, last summer I also intern, then all the money, because I going europe mah , I save everything for my europe


one K per month so I three mah mah so three K lor, but after that it, I work in hall also, a nut, but is, it's like simple stuff ah no need a lot


you know, so around I have three, point two K, a month, ya lor I also thinking sia


, I actually last time I also I know how you feel, cause my parents my parents also say, I mean like


they just need to, okay lah but I really fortunate enough because they, they pay for my school fee and my hall fees mah


ya ya, ya, eh <mandarin>那时候我有不懂做么一次:na shi hou wo you bu dong zuo me yi ci</mandarin> I spend like crazy


okay is not like I spend like crazy I will spend I will more willing to spend lor that what I can say, ya, Sian


<mandarin>小:xiao</mandarin> good , but okay but you, still quite okay lor, and least <mandarin>我们不用背那种:wo men bu yong bei na zhong</mandarin> <mandarin>有些人:you xie ren</mandarin> take tho, I very stress, oh my god a lot recently my sister damn sweet eh


cause initially my parents say eh you take loan lah like, because actually, how to ah my mum say, err next time <mandarin>你拿:ni na</mandarin> loan then <mandarin>你以后自己还他们叫我自己还他们讲:ni yi hou zi ji huan ta men jiao wo zi ji huan ta men jiang</mandarin> okay lor I think was K lah because, so I thought <mandarin>两千块:liang qian kuai</mandarin> okay ah for last two sem ah


then, err I ask my sister, then she just, why you need this money then I like oh, like that ah, no you need how much I give you, uh !hais! no she never say give lah she borrow me lah


she say after after <mandarin>你:ni</mandarin> graduate, Siao, my sister working


my brother working also so actually the financial burden is, damn chill now lah so actually now my parents quite, is like I feel bad what, is like <mandarin>我自己可以赚钱:wo zi ji ke yi zhuan qian</mandarin> I would think, unless <mandarin>我真的没有:wo zhen de mei you</mandarin> like during this COVID season like <mandarin>我跟我妈妈讲我在找不到工:wo gen wo ma ma jiang wo zai zhao bu dao gong</mandarin> then my mum just give me


I also want to do part time sia


actually now actually I working at Coco Cane but it's so far is at Yewtee and, woodlands, I think will be a


!huh!, !wah!,


, Sian max, #siao liao#, !huh!


ya !wah! like this plant like damn strong leh


I hope I can be like my plant, so resilient, eh <mandarin>这三个:zhe san ge</mandarin> plant <mandarin>真的:zhen de</mandarin> leh <mandarin>我没有照顾它们的:wo mei you zhao gu ta men de</mandarin> leh


because <mandarin>我搬走:wo ban zou</mandarin> mah right, mint, then <mandarin>就剩这三个:jiu sheng zhe san ge</mandarin> still surviving, !wah! going to take back to NTU, it will be in the truck


but they damn cute, I like and these are like, maybe, then okay let's, talk about


err, actually I'm very curious about, this few people, please <mandarin>他那时候在:ta na shi hou zai</mandarin> canteen <mandarin>买鸡饭:mai ji fan</mandarin> okay


because <mandarin>因为我这样觉得:yin wei wo zhe yang jue de</mandarin> like, I always see her at the <mandarin>鸡饭:ji fan</mandarin> stall for some reason


I see how before I was doing this OC, OC OCIP, then I saw her she was, I don't know she was there also


then, Y M


K, K is it, she life science but I never see her, it's a level, ya she got boyfriend cause one day he suddenly confess to me, I was damn shook I was actually


well ya ya good to know but, noted with thanks , the


is just very random I remember we were just talking talking only then, uh I think, her boyfriend called, but I didn't know it was her boyfriend ah I thought is some friend then after that she just say, I have a boyfriend then I'm like


oh, good to know err, congratulation like I don't know when a person suddenly tell you I'm attached how can you react some more is a not not very <mandarin>熟朋友:shou peng you</mandarin> you know not very <mandarin>熟:shou</mandarin> then


ya lah, how how how she tell you


medicine ah (hmm), NUS ah, can tell me the name a not, [orh]


it's okay, , it's okay lah here here its oh you know I didn't my clique lor all of them have already


A H have what, J Y, last time she got ya she broke up, I also lah don't sad ah this one also we three can meet up


freaking funny lah, okay, , then okay but he know the guy is straight or


gay both gay oh then okay what, ah


shit


ya lor, ya lor, ya but anyway I tell you already <mandarin>你可以当我的:ni ke yi dang wo de</mandarin> roomie, all my roomie , attached very fast, ya lah true that


but, , I will thank you forever eh, its not a curse


is a blessing, I really, I don't want to take over your , tiring


!aiya! but anyway !hais!, at least I think <mandarin>我:wo</mandarin> <mandarin>体验过:ti yan guo</mandarin> lah


but <mandarin>我的是:wo de shi</mandarin> fake <mandarin>的体验:de ti yan</mandarin> lah it's not a is not really, is not, is like got no got okay but is just


I think I might stick with him, for now lah after, EQ, I might stay with him , look at my home I think I will stay with I can stick with him I might stick with him


ya weird condition, I think <mandarin>一开始就要讲:yi kai shi jiu yao jiang</mandarin> no I don't think I will change, that's my bare minimum


like, I hope the person also very understanding, cause everything is damn awkward eh I've seen so many case you know, people bad mouth each other at the back then, if <mandarin>你知道这个人你即你即使想要认识这个人你很难:ni zhi dao zhe ge ren ni ji ni ji shi xiang yao ren shi zhe ge ren ni hen nan</mandarin>


I heard <mandarin>她是这样这样这样讲:ta shi zhe yang zhe yang zhe yang jiang</mandarin> like even though you try not to have prejudice but <mandarin>而且人家:er qie ren jia</mandarin>


I don't like that, I don't want my partner, right I make sense right is I just wanna protect him and protect me