Although I'd resolved to consider myself dead to the world from this point, I dread the moments when I allow myself to think of what might have been, and am on the verge of slipping into those feelings from the past.'
万事、もう今から死んだと同じの身になったと心を決めたはずなのに、やはりともすれば以前の気持ちになってしまいそうなのが、とても口惜しい。」