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teks: My life has turned to shitMy life has gone down hill..

As I’m laying in my apartment with my power shut off, looking to find my next fix with drugs I can get my hands on and selling items on offer up to have enough to put something in my belly I’ve gotten emotional and just need to vent. 

Two year ago my parents left the country, leaving me an apartment half way paid off. I had a job making decent money and have gotten promoted shortly after their leave twice in the span of a year; being employed there for six years I was finally happy making close to 60k after taxes. 

From a young age of eighteen I worked in the nightlife industry as a side gig; on and off which got me into the party lifestyle, I’d regularly work my day job for nine hours and two to three times a week I’d work at a club hosting or doing security till nearly 4 am. That’s where my problem with drugs started. 

The picture I painted isn’t too detailed but gives enough inside to now tell you the flip side. Since January I’ve haven’t had a job, any money I had has gone towards keeping myself happy through stimulation. I had my car repossessed, only to purchase it back, sell it and use all the money on more drugs; during that time I was nearly ready to pull the trigger and end it all but I didn’t. 

My friends have come and tried to aid, my parents have sent money and tried to help. Yet I’m lost feeling like I’m stuck in limbo...

... I just got a message on OfferUp to purchase my snowboard and it made me cry remembering what my life was like when I was actually alive. I’m not writing this expecting an answer to my issues or a pick me up, I just hope someone out there doesn’t commit the same mistakes if you realize having issues similar to mine early on in life. I’m 27 about to turn 28 it’s not too late for me but I wish I’d have a different outlook and self control earlier on.
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