teks: I seem to have it all but still don’t want to liveI have been depressed and socially anxious since I was 13. I used to keep myself going by thinking things will get better when I reach the next stage of my life or when I accomplish this and that. Now I’m 23 and I realize I’ll always be depressed. 

I work in the most prestigious company in my field and I’m not happy at all. My coworkers are the nicest people in the world but I’m feeling anxious all the time. People tell me I’m pretty but they leave me after they find out I have the personality of a dry rock. I have friends but no ones seem to care enough. I have loving parents and they are the only reason keeping me from offing myself but still it’s getting harder and harder everyday.

I cry myself to sleep everyday. I just can’t take the rollercoaster anymore. Nothing brings me joy but even the slightest impatience in someone’s tone would put me on the downward spiral.

Today is the first time I searched for “easiest way to die” in a long time. I wish all the pain will end soon.
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