classify text {harassment, self-harm, religion insult, sexist, hate, racist, safe for work, psychiatric or mental illness, porn}, text `My brain is not wired to want me to die and it’s fucking horribleMy life is worse than any of yours trust me. I’m the worst 18 year old in the world. Anyone else would’ve died or self harmed by now but here I am, being a stubborn nutcase, too scared of not being in control of life anymore. Killing myself would fix everything and no one else would care, so I don’t have to worry about that. If I had anyone else’s brain, I’d have died ages ago but I’m inherently scared of death. It’s the absolute worst combo; being in the worst situation and having the worst life, but also scared of death. I’ve been like this for so long I’ve gotten used to it, so I’ve been conditioned to be alright with being eternally unhappy and isolated. I want suicidal thoughts. I just fucking want to do it. I dream about it. I hate being alive and everyone else is surprised I’m still here. I just want to wake up with a rewired brain so I can end it.`
self-harm