teks: What happens after I’m gone?I want to leave so badly. I want this pain to go away. I’ve been in and out of therapy since I was 15. Never had a stable job. Never got good grades in school. It’s gotten worse this past year. I attempted suicide for the third time in July; I couldn’t go through with it because I’m such a coward.

But the thoughts crept back today. I haven’t left my room all day today. All I’ve been doing is reading and scrolling through Reddit.

I started to wonder what would happen if I died. How would my parents react? My father probably wouldn’t care; we were never that close. My mother would be heartbroken for awhile but she’ll get over it. My two friends (the only friends I have) will probably be upset for a bit, but they wouldn’t be completely alone. They both have other groups of friends to rely on. They don’t need me. I’m just a waste.

I wouldn’t have to be a burden anymore. My mom wouldn’t have to take care of me because I’m a useless fuck up who can’t find a job.

But the fear is holding me back.

Someone. Anyone. Please. Tell me to go through with it. Help me not be afraid.
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