teks `Suicidal self “hanging on”It’s my birthday today. In 2016 and 17 I had a very horrible time with family and relationship issues. 

I’m very alone (partly my own doing) and have lost friends and family members due to either illness or feuds. One person even told me “I have seen all you have to offer the world.”

I promised myself I would kill myself before my next birthday. But I haven’t. 

Comparatively 2018 has been much better. But the thoughts still hang on. 

My doctor gave me sleeping pills to manage my bad sleep and I can’t bring myself to take them in case I need to save them to kill myself. 

Which I know I won’t have the courage to do, but will think about a lot. 

I think that part of me is sad that I failed in my promise to myself. 

It feels like a bittersweet birthday. `, kelaskan teks guna labels [gangguan, kebencian, porno, penyakit psikiatri atau mental, sifat perkauman, penghinaan agama, selamat untuk bekerja, mencederakan diri sendiri, seksis]
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