teks `Everything hurtsI made a reddit account to post this. On mobile so sorry if it’s formatted weird. 

Every morning my first thought is “I can make the world a better place by not being in it”. It hurts to do anything, my asthma is getting worse, my shoulders hurt and I’ve gained more then 4stone in a year. I can’t look in a mirror without wanting to throw up, I cut and binge until I feel like I’ll throw up then feel bad and do it all over again. 

I’ve tried meds but nothing is working. I told work that I’m getting treatment for depression and I thought my manager understand but today she made it clear to me that she doesn’t. I keep fucking up at my job and I’ve had “talks” about my performance. No matter how hard I try I keep making mistakes like this morning I slept through my alarms (yes multiple) because my meds make me drowsy but if I don’t take them I can’t function durning the day. 

“You can either do this job or you can’t” is what was said to me this morning after I asked for help at work. During this my mother has been fighting advanced cancer and my visa (not in my birth country I have moved overseas) ended causing me a lot of stress. 

I’ve written a note, I keep thinking of how to stop it all and researching how to make sure I do it right. I’m scared to sleep in case I miss work again and get fired because I really think that will be it for me. I’m sorry to bother everyone but I really don’t know what to do. 

I just want it to stop.`, kelaskan teks guna labels [gangguan, kebencian, porno, penyakit psikiatri atau mental, sifat perkauman, penghinaan agama, selamat untuk bekerja, mencederakan diri sendiri, seksis]
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