teks: I tried to fight. Yes i did. I did it for almost 2 years. Everyday i had to woke up in fear. Sleep in fear. Until one point, my mind my body and my soul couldnt handle it anymore. I fell into depression. This is the hardest part. Imagine that whenever your meals cant makes your tummy full, your sleep cant recharge your energy, your rest cant even help you to get rest. Endless tiredness. It is just like you are working without off day and you cant go home for years. Even that example cannot explain the situation well. I feel as if im useless. I totally loss interest to live. I felt as if i am still breathing while my soul is not alive anymore. My mind has lost everything. I cant even remember most of things that happen in my life. I cant come out with decisions anymore. Even someone ask me either to drink coffee or tea. I just cant make a decision . There are voices in my mind that keep saying that im stupid. Im useless. Up to a point i wanted to give up living my life. I just cant think which one is good and which one is bad. As if i am no longer so called mukallaf.
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