kelaskan teks [harassment, self-harm, religion insult, sexist, hate, racist, safe for work, psychiatric or mental illness, porn], teks `It’s been on my mind a lot lately.I keep thinking about it, more than ever. I keep thinking how would I do it? What’s the quickest way I could die? I think the only reason I haven’t taken any steps towards it is because there isn’t many ways I could do it painlessly. No guns around here, no tall buildings I could get up on easily. I could climb the mountains I suppose, I could jump off the bridge but I’d need to make it there with something heavy, it wouldn’t be quick though. But now tonight I remembered there’s a train station not too far from me. I could do it there I suppose. Maybe at night when there’s less people around. It would be quick at the very least, the pain wouldn’t last too long. Life’s bleak, I haven’t got much hope for something better.  I don’t want to dredge on, one day to the next for my whole life. Problem is I’m still scared of death. I was raised by a very religious mother and I suppose the idea of a torturous afterlife has stuck with me even I’m no longer religious myself. Is what lies beyond worse than what I’ve already got? I don’t know. That indecision, the fear of the unknown is the only reason I’ve got to keep living really. I don’t know why I’m posting this tbh.  Just venting, putting my thoughts to words.`
self-harm