kelaskan teks [harassment, self-harm, religion insult, sexist, hate, racist, safe for work, psychiatric or mental illness, porn], teks `I can’t forget my past. It seems like it’s the only thing I can remember. The bully’s, the names, the embarrassment, the sadness.I’ve been bullied all my life at first I didn’t realize it I thought they were just joking around but then grd 7 I was bullied all that year, the kid in my class won’t stop attacking me, i didn’t do anything to him and he does it everyday nonstop, my teacher sees it but she doesn’t like me either. I’m nothing. I walk home thinking about the ways I’m gonna kill myself and I live close to a river so I was gonna fill my bags with rocks and walk in and never come back up but I was afraid of drowning. But it was the EASIEST way I could kill myself. But I didn’t. Sadly I didn’t. It’s now grade 8 and I’m in the same class as my bully. He bully’s me again and this time it’s gotten worse. All the names gotten worse the racial slurs gotten worse. The fact that I’m so dumb that I should go kill myself. One day he embarrassed me so much infront of the class everyone in my class laughing. The teacher is there not doing anything. I storm out running home bursting in tears. I had to kill myself. I had too. I HAVE TOO. once I get home I cry and cry and cry until I fall asleep. I didn’t go to school the next day. So I took the advantage of that by going out and buying a knife. 
The only way I can release my sadness and stress. I bought a karambit and it’s brand new and sharpened.
I cut and cut and cut. 
The more I cut the deeper I go. 
And here I am. 
With all these cuts. Not knowing if I’ll bleed out tmmr or today or next week. I didn’t do anything to him.
Why me? What did I do? Why is everything going down hill? I have thoughts of just slicing my throat or stabbing my heart.
Nobody knows that I’m doing this. That I’m cutting myself. 

The more I cut. The deeper I go. 
Deeper the better.

I cannot stop and I’m-

I’m just gonna slice my wrist until I cut the vein I’m not gonna stop until i bleed out I know it will be painful but it’s better than all the suffering I’ve already been through. 
I apologize if this doesn’t make any sense.
But why does it matter anyways?`
self-harm