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teks: I’m not creativeSo last week I found out my ex was cheating on me. When I confronted him he dumped me and I had to move back home with my parents. They were supportive with me grieving and everything. But I’m still not over it and it’s just propelled me deeper into my depression and I’ve starting cutting myself again. Everyone expects me to get over it and I’m just not. He was the only guy I’ve ever loved and we lasted a year. As of right now I’m fully blown suicidal and today I looked at guns to buy. It will either be me shooting myself in the head or cutting my wrists. I’ve stopped eating and lost over twenty pounds. This relationship ending really just pushed me forward with suicidal thoughts and self harm. I haven’t cut in over a year and I finally succumbed to it a few days ago. I go to work where I see him being unaffected by everything, laughing and joking around. Then there’s just me. Endless suffering and feeling so isolated. 
I have been reaching out to supports and I see a therapist. I’m also medicated as well. None of that helps me. I just feel like this is my only option right now. I’ve got nothing else. My house is shit, my life is shit. The only thing I enjoyed was seeing the new joker movie where I only liked it because I related so hard to him. But even in that movie he ends up on top. Me? That just won’t happen. I guess this is it.
self-harm