teks: I don’t really know if this the appropriate sub Reddit but it’s the only one I can think ofI’ve been having a hard time enjoying myself. A really really hard time. By this I mean I think people I hang around with trigger this weird anxiety that makes me believe they hate me. I’m not sure why I’ve been feeling like this but it sucks. It leaves me torn because I wanna hang with people but I know how I’ll end up feeling. The things that keep reminding in my head is when my ex’s mom said I wasn’t a good person. Then my sister. Then my gf. Obviously something is up so I started my journey on trying to better myself and I’m still left with this lingering feeling that no one likes me. I love my gf so much she’s such a beautiful angel and I want the best for her. Just recently she’s said some really hurtful stuff to me and it just bums me out with how I already feel about people hating me. I don’t know what to do. I feel so hopeless and disgusting. I really want to continue this life because it does have some really amazing moments but it just psychically hurts. It’s strange, nothing psychically hurts, but my soul hurts. I’m not the best looking either and recently I’ve become really insecure which is not in my nature as I never real cared what I looked like. It’s odd. I just feel alone.
kelaskan text [harassment, self-harm, religion insult, sexist, hate, racist, safe for work, psychiatric or mental illness, porn]
self-harm