Thursday, September 2, 2010
I don't know why I even bother to write this stupid thing. No one ever bothers to read it except me. I guess it just makes me feel better. I recently made a huge mess of the most wonderful thing I was ever a part of. I didn't even realize until it was to late. My eyes are open wide now for sure but that doesn't fix the broken heart or the fact that I miss what I lost everyday. I still cry. I've been so stupid, and selfish. I have a lot of work to do on myself. I have to tell myself I'm not walking alone. That God is holding me up, if I will take the steps. I forget that. What if I can never get back what I lost? What if it is gone forever? I will never forgive myself. I'm so upset and distracted. Yesterday a song came on the radio (a meaningful song) and I pulled into the left lane to me a left turn. I had to turn on red cause nobody could go anywhere till I moved. I hope it gets better!