I was shaken. I walked through the Secaucus, NJ train station, fighting back tears and nausea. I had been horribly sick while away, and I just wanted to get home. I was worn out. I thought about the six people in our extended family that had died over the last six months–from spring to fall 2006. I struggled down the stairs with two suitcases. The escalator was going up. And apparently I was invisible. No one helped me with my bags. No one. I rushed to the train platform just in time to see it blow right past me.
I just stood there. Shaken. Sick. Crying. (I hope they don’t keep the security videos. I was a real mess.) I called my husband Tim. He lovingly, powerfully prayed for me. I just couldn’t pray for myself. Not right then. I was so worn out. So shaken.
While on the train (that I finally got on) Tim sent me a text message with the Scripture below. Tim used God’s Word to call me to remember who I am in Jesus. And to remember the power and confidence that I have within me–to I stand my ground. Even when I am shaken.
Remember those earlier days after you had received the light, when you stood your ground in a great contest in the face of great suffering. So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded…we are not of those who shrink back and are destroyed, but of those who believe and are saved. Hebrews 10:32, 35, 39
Personal Reflections from Sylane Mack “Remember who you are!” That’s what God’s Word and Love was shouting out to me!
“C’mon, girl! Get you’re head together. I AM with you! I have given you My Light! Do not allow the darkness to swallow you up! Remember what you and I have already conquered! You have gone through tougher times than these! So! Don’t fall apart now! Stand your ground! Stand firm on My Truth!”
“I know you’re shaken! But fight! Fight for your peace! Fight for your perspective! Remember who you are. And, Sylane, REMEMBER WHO I AM! I Am your confidence! Remember that! Do not shrink back! I Am Greater than this! Do not be destroyed. I Am your very Life! I Am your very Strength.”
” Remember who you are! Remember WHO and WHAT you believe! Remember you are Saved for all Eternity! So, don’t lose your confidence now! Not about these things that will NOT last! Remember you are Mine! So, stand your ground! Fiercely. Powerfully. Stand your ground with complete humility before Me, and complete hope in Me as you remember who I AM!”
This Scripture. This specific message from the Word of God overwhelmed me with God’s Intimacy to me and the Power of God’s Word for me.
I started to breathe–even as the tears still rolled. I was being quieted in my soul. I was being strengthened in my deepest core. I started to focus again on truth and hope and strength and peace and courage. In other words, I started to focus again on Jesus. Really, really focus on Jesus.
God never asked me to deny my reality or pretend that it wasn’t hard. Really hard right then. God IS the Truth–so He certainly doesn’t expect me to lie or to be falsely peaceful and strong in any way…at any time.
What God does do, is to ask me to give Him my head and my heart again and again. Fully. All of the time.
Thank You, God. Thank You for pulling me into Your Arms of Love. Into Your Truth. Into Your Peace. Into Your Power. Into Your Perspective. Help me always to remember who YOU Are and who I am in YOU!
In love, peace and purposeful passion, Sylane