Something has been abuzz beneath my skin for the past few months. I’m not really sure where the feeling came from or when it started precisely, but it’s almost like an itch that can’t be scratched…an unsettling that won’t be stilled. It isn’t an altogether unpleasant sensation, but none the less I’ve begun to half-jokingly refer to it as my “early mid-life crisis.” Truth is, that would be writing it off too simply.
Over the years I’ve struggled from time to time with letting my inner voice speak loud enough to be heard. More recently I have found myself pushing it aside with late nights working…and just the other day, with the hasty decisions to cut off all my hair. But even with a constant stream of activity to distract; softly yet more persistently than I’d like, there remains a humming that won’t go away. Through past experiences, I know that this means that I’m at a crossroads of some sort, and I need to allow myself the time and space to sort things out.
So, I’ve decided that it’s time for me to listen. Today (and this weekend too) feels like the right moment to finally pay attention to whatever that little hum is trying to say to me. I know this all sounds incredibly serious, and I hope I’m not bumming you out on this lovely Friday…but really, I’m looking forward to what’s in store. There are so many possibilities! Once the noise has been made sense of, I know I will be feeling world’s better about the next steps I want to take on this little journey called life. I’m ready!
Does any of this sound familiar to any of you? I would love to hear what ways you have of making it through “crossroads” moments in life with clarity and without losing too much sleep (or sanity). I am sure you have wonderfully inspiring and insightful things to share. You always do! xox Ez
P.S. I recently came across this wonderful post on Verily titled Propelled by Discomfort & Fear. It’s a quick and easy read, and something that will be sticking with me for a long while. Highly recommended.
Photograph by me (Ez Pudewa)