Reality just set in for me when I realized for the first real time that some day I am going to meet God. I feel like I might go insane thinking about it.

>>14911010 (OP)

It's pretty fucked up indeed. I know we're supposed to love God and Jesus and to know that they love us, but I actually feel rather scared of them. Like, they're so insanely superior and incomprehensible to us. Imagine being face to face to the creator of reality itself.

>>14911010 (OP)

Monotheism gives me extreme anxiety as well

Why would you feel scared? Because he might unleash his wrath on you?



Maybe it gives you anxiety because it's true

>>14911010 (OP)

There is no god. Your god is a jewish bedtime story.

>>14911010 (OP)

This moment did not happen to me just now, but I will share the moment it did. This happened to me back when I had a huge friends list on the internet before Steam. I had quite a lot of friends, too many to keep track of. Most of these people spread into my friend list because they were friends of someone else I had just met and they wanted them on my list to make it one big happy community for the games we were all playing online in the late 90s.

Prior to this I would always ask my friends how old they are, if they are a saved christian, and ask a few things like what denomination is their church called before I would allow myself to really stay friends for long.

Needless to say, it got out of control, very very fast. I was peer pressured into just hanging out with lots of people. I would tell them I am a christian still, but that quickly didn't matter to most people, and I couldn't control who I play with if I played with certain people. So I began to choose favorites I could fall back to because I knew they were a christian. It was in this moments that I was realizing that the internet was out of control, and spending many years with the closer friends that were also very worldly people, that I knew we would all be responsible before God since we don't even know each other IRL and some people could even die and never see them online again. Seriously deep shit for a 10-13 year old.

They'd tell me to stay in their online gamer clan I needed to go get laid and watch anime DBZ. I'd just do like they say and also in private chats ask if they believe in heaven when they die and what do they think happens and stuff.

After the rise of voice chat, social media, and online account only internet, all my friends slowly disappeared till they didn't exist anymore. They are all on there now, and I just don't want on the new gay internet. Even our church pastor didn't like facebook, and he is getting old and a new pastor doesn't understand why we don't want on it.

>Times never changed as God unraveled the scroll.

Truth is supposed to be an easy yoke and a light burden
