I don't know where else to post this, but this has been a problem for years now.



>My problems during my uprising:

I grew up in a divorced family, I didn't get the kind of parental love nor attention most of you are familiar with, at a very early age.

This has lead me to be a statistic, I grew up around a lot of apathetic values and it gave the chance for me to be a very bad person, my dad recognized this later too.

My only way of interacting with people had to be faked most times, I cant tell people what I REALLY think, which I thought was normal, but to the extent I do, I am very fake.

Pared with some other oddities, (walking back and forth day dreaming, stories and conversations in my head for hours a day, etc) this has made me understanding I probably have NPD, any friend I've been honest to has told me that.

In middle school when I started getting interested in girls, I noticed how quirky they where from my self. Very emotional and hard to crack, until I figured it out.



>My problems after:

I understand women as thoughtful and understanding people who look for certain qualities to satisfy their wants, selfish ulterior motives with romantic themes. 

Once I improved my looks (quiet drastically, maybe 4/10 to a 7/10) after middle school, I felt more confident to speak to them.



Being my honest self lures them in, some qualities like honesty and loyalty is very appealing, but once they get a real peek inside, they feel disgusted.

I've been told "I have never met someone like you before" a few times, but why can't they appreciate all the aspects? The properties of what makes someone mentally capable? 

I just need someone that's more understanding.

I can put aside my emotions and values for a person, why can't they? People are so selfish for no reason like that. 



I want a girl that doesn't cry. Doesn't care for others irrational needs or emotions. See things how they are and is mentally capable for any task.

No look standards.

Why is this too much to ask for?

>>>/r9k/

>>>/soc/

deeply unkind way 

to respond to somebody.
