I love her, but also can't stomach her at the same time

I love her music, but sometimes I want her to shut the fuck up

I love her streams, but also don't want to see her for more than a second

I find her sexually attractive, but also feel shame and disgust after each nut like I just masturbated to a tranny

I want her to be happy, but also want her to experience all the pain and suffering she is causing me



What do you call this? What am I feeling? Who is she to me? Who am I to her? What's wrong with me? How do I end this duality and live with myself in peace?

>>47727702 (OP)

>How do I end this duality and live with myself in peace?

Killing yourself

>>47727702 (OP)

She works too hard. It probably makes your inferiority complex flare up.

You should try to channel that into motivation to work harder.

>>47727702 (OP)

>I love her, but also can't stomach her at the same time

take your meds

>>47727702 (OP)

>Who am I to her?

If it makes you feel any better anon, you are just a number at best, so don't worry about making her feel bad or anything.

>>47727702 (OP)

I think you subconsciously relate to her, she's also an autistic weirdo after all but she's a successful autistic weirdo and that flares up your inferiority complex.

>>47727702 (OP)

Your inferiority complex, that's it

She's an the example of some average girl who finally made it.

>inferiority complex

Then explain why I dont feel the same way about Elon Musk, Bezos, Zuckerberg or any other billionaire

The way inferiority complex works is that it compares yourself with people you're most "similar" with, people with which you feel like you're competing in on the same category. You're not comparing yourself with a trust fund baby after all, but you might compare and feel inferior to e.g. a classmate or coworker etc.

Also the fact that vtuber streams are specifically designed to cultivate parasociality might trick your brain into starting comparisons with her, maybe you perceived you have similar backgrounds/way of thinking I dunno you know that better.

Bezos/Musk/whatever also don't stream unless it's for business purposes so no parasociality for them so your brain is like whatever they just got lucky/trust fund babies.

Lets assume it's true. What should I do to resolve this conflict

Kill yourself anon

Learn to love yourself before you look for an oshi, anon.

Strive to work as hard as her

You're watching too much vtubers and in need of touching grass, unironically - get some help. Or keep being an autists, I enjoy laughing at retards like you.

>>47727702 (OP)

yeah she is a stacy bitch
