text: Sr. Sally Butler story resonates with my experience attending mass in the church building.  I struggle with it for a year or so, I had to give it up!  
  I know Jesus lives in me as he told me many times that I am never alone but he was&is with me always since when I was a 6 or seven years old. 
  I never rely on parish priest in my spiritual journey, since I know they are not on contemplative path.  Never the less, I am in the dark try to find my way to worship and serve God.