text: Dennis, I spent a long time in the Anglican Church (Anglo-Catholic) trying to convince myself that Anglican Orders were valid and that Apostolicae Curae was erroneous. I went through nearly every book in the Central Library on the subject and yet I could never say with any reasonable conviction that they were valid. The number of times I read Apostolicae Curae were legion.
  Imagine my predicament, wanting desperately to believe something which at the back of my mind I knew I couldn't assent to. It is properly called self deception. The ordination of women finally dispelled all my doubts. 
  Individual Anglicans believe whatever they like. Some are fiercely catholic in their beliefs and churchmanship others are thoroughly Protestant, the (liberal) majority in between have no particular convictions, high church, middle or low church. There were also those who stuck rigidly to the idea of a national church. 
  This is the background to my comments.