I sought and received secularization in 1969 because I was convinced the clerical culture was unhealthy both personally and socially. But I then had no notion of just how pervasive abuse was. And now, after reading the report of the Philadelphia Grand Jury, I recognize numbers of classmates and some other erstwhile friends. I am still bewildered by how many and how long. A large part, I think, was the immaturity of seminary training, which, unless something intervenes, simply continues into old age: men with the emotional minds of adolescents - themselves children. There was a priest who ran an Institute for abuser outside Santa Fe and he bought himself an island, where he wanted to found a monastic center for abusers in the middle of the sea. But it was quashed and we now have a problem of just what to do with perverts. Most still-functioning classmates from seminary are twice as angry as ordinary Catholics, because they know they have lost respect most everywhere. They never imagined