For anyone reading this thread who wants to know from a victims perspective: Life sucks after the rape. Also I am male so there is even more to deal with. Lack of self worth, suicidal thoughts, years of behavioral and mental health issues, ptsd-which from my time was unknown and certainly not in children, poor life-decision making skills and so much more. Nobody would even listen to me because I was a child and they didn't believe me then. The horror that my life became is indescribable because it brings up so much terrible feelings for me to even type it here. Everytime I dredge it up it makes me depressed and angry for the rest of the day, but I have learned to hide my feelings, and this is over 40 years behind me. It just doesn't stop, it doesn't leave you, it doesn't just go away. If you're reading this and thinking of having sex with a child STOP! DON'T! Get help from a professional instead. 
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