People tend to hang around people of like souls, practices, and behaviors.  So where are you in comparison of the friends you just lost.  Could it be that the death of your friend  could actually save your life?  If you spend time with winners you're more likely to be a winner.  It's just too bad that she couldn't pull herself away from this guy.  It's not uncommon for women of low self-esteem to want to be with the bad-boy type. There is supposed to be some sort excitement to the bad boys. If you want to read a good book about love read The Road Less Traveled.  It's written by a minister, but its not preachy.  It explains what love is and what it is not.  It explains the difference between being "in love", love addiction, how having sex early on affects a relationship.  It saved my ass to a certain degree, but I should have read it and lived it.  I might have married a good man or at least left it sooner rather than later.