Sorry, but I will never get this. There is no such thing as "living your life as a (fill in the  gender)." There are cultures where it's the norm for men to wear skirt-like clothes (like some African tribes), layers of necklaces, jewelry and face paint. There are cultures where men normally wear robes. Women in small Western farm towns typically wear denims, even overalls and often no makeup. You "live" your life according to your hobbies, not what you wear or what your name is. I'm sure Jillian does the same things for fun and necessity that he did before the medical interventions. How is he living any differently these days other than clothes, name and being referred to as a "she"? It's despicable that someone would contemplate ending their life (and thus leave a wake of destruction for their family) just because they "feel" like the opposite sex trapped in the "wrong" body. Where was this disorder 200 years ago?