Thanks for sharing your experience Hadiya.
As a black man I second your experience. I know many other black women and men who feel the same way.
Keep working hard and being an inspiration to us all.
By the way, I heard of this term recently. It puts a label on your exact statement.
Allostatic load - https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Allostatic_load
"Nowadays in Canada, overt acts of racism are rare. Instead, the subtle ones tire you out and wear your sense of belonging. They happen more often, more insidiously."