Christianity has so twisted the story of God, that it is easy for me to see how you would come up with your conclusions.  From the "Living Faith" of the early church, it has degenerated into a religion of doctrines, based on false assumptions.  Near to superstition and witchcraft actually.  It is my belief that on that day, God will understand how some have not accepted Him, because of all of the contradictory teachings and preachings of evil persons who chose to worship the little god of their own hearts.
I believe that there is a real creator, and that the universe is not the product of a cosmic accident.  I hate the uncertainty of "accidents", and prefer that no matter what happens to me, that there is some purpose, some meaning to it all.  That my life and death will not be an obscure "accident" in the cosmos.
The hardest part for me is in believing/trusting that someone capable of creating the entire universe, out of nothing, would care a whit about me.  But that is my hope.