Danno, dear God, and maybe that's the point, I make a very clear distinction for myself, between God and Church.....And I think maybe you should consider it too.

Speaking personally Danno..my relationship with God is one thing and the Church and it's behavior, quite frankly a totally different matter..Danno there are over 7.3 billion folks on this planet and I think God loves them all and cares deeply about them....and wants us to do everything we can to see that they have what they need....in many ways I am more interested in the UN millennial development goals....food, water, survival then I am in local RCC issues.

What I think, bless your heart, that I hear you saying is a very very profound and appropriate anger at the RCC.

But what I am saying and the reason I suggest "moving on" is that your spiritual life....your deepening trust in God (NOT  the RCC) might be very well nurtured in a Protestant church that is also Christian, but has not hurt you! You need loving  'safe' folks!