BROothor, I can see that you have completed the "romance" stage of your vocation; and you have been hit with the reality of the situation. Perhaps you have hit a low ebb in your vocation . Please do not lose hope. Yes you now have the elements in the correct sequence of events but drop a line between the abusing priests/religious and the institutional failures. You are part of the 93% priests/religious that were not involved, except some perhaps stood silently by knowing what was happening. While the abusers were the 7.5% approx; the cover-up involved "80"% of the hierarchy from the Vatican down. They were the decision-makers, who in the cold light of day; opted to protect the institutional priorities and not the victims.
Your vocation is still valid and necessary to society. It may be an uphill struggle for you but hang in there. Just keep doing what you are doing and ignore the hierarchy. Their credibility is gone; yours is still intact. Do what Jesus calls you to do.