It is the exact thing Thomas Merton was talking about "From now on, Brother, everybody stands on his own feet." at Bangkok just before he died.  I apparently have relied on the CI (Catholic Institution) way too much. My horror, grief, and outrages lasted about three years.
    
CI is apparently too busy with other things, perhaps with power and money, to tend this sexual abuses of children!!!
I, IOH, can't wait for them.  I am not strong enough to ignore the impurities in CI.  I will have to work on my inner transformation, i.e., purity of heart some other ways.