Foreshorten,
Sometimes, you really do make a great setup/straight man.  Your vision of "church" is pretty clear based on your post.  If you can reconcile that with the many examples of a Jesus who really was so much more 'open' than the church seems today, just stay in that space if it makes you happy.

You're right, I'm not on the radar or "horizon" of the bishops.  Using your model, I'm guessing most of the world isn't either, because they aren't full blown "catholics."

To the degree that bishops think that way, and can be even remotely comfortable with that position, I think I could then feel my post was spot on.

As to my current spiritual life, you make a lot of assumptions, for someone who knows me only from what I post here.

pity...