The usual patronising put down I have come to expect from you. The nonsense about you can tell that I am in a great of pain.
My standard for evaluation are the figures themselves, they don't lie no more than the figures for the laity who began to leave in droves after Vatican II. Why would I feel pain when if the current trend continues, people like me will be the only ones left and the schism will be no more?
Are you seriously trying to tell us that the last 50 years has been one long success story for religious orders and the Catholic Church?  Do you really regard the mass apostasy over this period something beneficial for the Church and the world?