I am so sorry Don.   I have a theory I call  abandination it is like ordination but only happens to Catholic clergy abuse victims
People that believe in God so devoutly that they become a priest.  They are supposed to tend to their flock.  When a little  member of the flock gets molested by devout God believer  The little flock member is immediately abandoned and discarded for life and is instantly turned into an adversary (abandination)  We feel like we are discarded and hated.  Remember now these are societies most devout God believers. 
That refuse to respond to our letters. That tell us it was our fault for being abused. That cheat us. 
 It is hard to explain but when talking to many of the most devout God believers I can feel the hate and disdain toward me.  They blame us for tarnishing their collar
 How could a person that believes in God,  refuse to reply to a sex abuse victims letter?
I have never received a reply to letters sent to Rome or the US nuncio, or Archbishop Listecki