Thank you for sharing your difficulties and heartaches living through CI (Catholic Institution) high ranking clergies criminal behaviors regarding the clergy sex abuses of children, with me. 
They must have a thought that some men just can’t live without sex and sacrifice some dumb lay people’s children is a necessary evil to keep the warm bodies in the institution.
The unbelievable problem we still have is that RCI is not willing to give up on clergy sex abuse of children!!! 
 
The more fundamental problem is that they are not true Catholics.  
They are intellectual ruling class of RCI, yet they are bully child in spirit!   

They are not obedient to the Holy Spirit in themselves nor in others.  They are not poor in spirit nor in possessions.  They are not chaste in spirit nor  in body.  They haven’t experienced our oneness in God.  They haven’t experienced immanent spirit of God in themselves, thus ignorant of immanent spirit in others, i.e., in children, thus allow sex abuses.