Mo, good thoughts. IMHO much of what is presented as doctrine has more to do with the institution  protecting itself than wth Jesus and the Gospel. Jesus never said we are fallen. We celibate males don't have your experiences that you described. Personal experience beats theoretical or book  learning every time. Each of us is an image of God, and this does not include being "fallen". IMHO we are exactly as God creates us to be, with all our messiness. Book learning is neat and orderly, real life is not. From its origin, which was to prevent church property from being passed down as personal property, celibacy is about power and control, not about Jesus or the gospel. What I see, especially these days with so many confessions, is many folks, certainly not all, who still take part in church life see God as a threatening judge, and following Jesus as obeying rules that have little to do with him. Often they do not want to discuss seeing things any differently.  Others have just left.