I am sorry that you feel 'distanced' from the Church (the hierarchy). My own situation vis-à-vis the Church and its leaders and I don't feel distanced. That is not to say that I am impressed with all priests, bishops or popes as individuals, I respect the office and authority as long as it is exercised within the Church's Tradition.
If it is not exercised within the Tradition then I know that because of Our Lord's guarantee, at some stage down the line correction will be applied.
Alexandra, I agree that the structure is another conversation. Have a nice day.