An enlightening article.  I say that because I can relate to the conflicts I surmise you went through throughout these years of your journey.  Towards the end, I suspected a bit of bitterness there, though unsure of its source.  And it is those "hard feelings" (my Grandma's saying)that I wish to address.  I have felt bitterness along the way of my own "travels"; and at present it has come to the fore quite often.  However, as I read your article and the comments that followed, I realized that that is what has happened throughout our Church's History before it has made important changes in itself.  From my observations, the central issue at present seems to be centered around bringing the Church into better relationship with people who are maturing in their spiritual life..allowing them to more freely explore who they are in God within the confines and structure of the Church. I, too use the sources you have mentioned.  They are a breath of fresh air.  Be encouraged, God has your back!