This is confusing.  Some pieces are missing.  I received an email from you (?) and replied.  It may have been a computer malfunction, not sure NCR/Civil is censoring anything.  Let's continue the  conversation here.  If the system fails, please try again rather than emailing me directly.  This dialogue is about the great mystery of Christ and the Church, but my faith is that Christ suffers when any part of his body suffers.  Do not despair.  The power of the Holy Spirit will enable the Church to outgrow the ancient patriarchal bubble.  God loves agnostics.  Let us keep praying and loving the Church as best we can, and never lose hope.  Peace!