Perhaps you should consider your motives in posting here.  As an alleged Catholic, and therefore Christian, you should have the love of God as your principal motive.  That motive unifies your life, it integrates, and simplifies everything.  There'd be far fewer "needs" for shrinks if people rectified their intentions for everything they do (even holding on to grudges) to "for the love of God".  
"for the love of God, I push aside this resentment"
"for the love of God, I am going to work to do my duty as vice president, husband, worker".
"for the love of God, I am going to soften my injurious barb, personally aimed on the internet".
"for the love of God, I am going to stop being snarky and nasty in my postings".
"for the love of God, I am going to begin to be completely honest, even when posting on the internet".
It is something worthwhile to contemplate.