Possibly.  I'll not judge where you are, spiritually, and would ask the same of you.  I don't see this as a spiritual argument, but an intellectual one based on the long history of Christianity in general and Catholicism in particular.  Liturgy is not a matter of spirituality, however, but practice.  Children and the ignorant are called to participate as are adults.  Liturgy should nourish our life of grace and our spirituality, but it is directed to the Creator, not creation.