I ask you important questions because;
A) I find you to be really smart,
B) I really respect you and your thoughts
C) I am struggling+need perspective.
I was an only son and cradle Catholic of devout Catholic parents. I feel that my Catholic identity was taken from me or at least severally damaged.  I feel cheated, because I lost most of my Catholic connection with my parents who are buried in a Catholic cemetery (Ironically in one that Dolan fraudulently used to cheat us.) My spiritual life is a struggle full of confusion and betrayal. I feel robbed of a close relationship with God. I need and desire at least a minimum of inner peace. I cannot explain how it feels to try hard but be unable to find hope or comfort in my creator. I feel spiritually alone.
Sometimes I feel that If I toss away my Catholic identity like church leaders have done to my heart. They will have totally defeated me. Soul murder is real but soul damage is part of my struggle.  Thanks for listening