Greetings...your assessment of the post Vatican ll Church rings true for many baby boomer Catholics here in the USA.  The stifling of the+ Holy Spirits+ charism and needed reforms  were led  by the Curia, JohnPaul ll  and Benedict XlV.   All of my 4 siblings have left the Church for this very reason.  I still attend the Church and work for  continuation of needed reforms. Peace to you🌍