The disciples had Jesus in their lives on a daily basis and could not believe what was coming until after the Resurrection. We have the benefit of the whole story but we only find him in the words of scripture and in Communion. We have not seen, but we believe. The challenge is whether we use the Cross for self-justification or to bring mercy to others. Do we believe in St. Anselm’s bloody ransom or a Christ who feels the despair we feel and how does that impact our view of sin?