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I am currently quite disabled and attend when I can, the local Parish. Church purely to avail myself of the Mass and the Sacraments.  I sadly do not feel a part of the community, in fact the very idea that I might be part of the 'community' scandalises me. I feel that I have nothing in common with those amongst whom I sit in the pew. My catechesis bore no resemblance whatsoever to theirs, my faith and beliefs bear no resemblance to theirs.
What I experienced even amongst Anglo-Catholics was that doctrine and dogma were not that important and that Christians were entitled to hold diverse opinions on almost anything, I now find that this is the attitude of most Catholics. Fifty years ago the question, "can divorced and remarried Catholics receive Communion," would have been answered with an almost universal 'no'. Today even the Pope is saying they can. St John XXIII's "prophets of doom", it seems to me, got it absolutely right.