I can't tell you how hurtful it is that our church rejects me for the heinous crime of being female so I can't answer my vocation from God while I watch churches close for a lack of priests and read about how our hierarchy floated known pedophile priests around to unsuspecting flocks any of which I would have praised God for the opportunity to lead as a pastor.  Women in our hierarchy would have lessened our abuse rate and would have made the priesthood less appealing to pedophiles. 
Do you know what it feels like to be hated by bishops more than they hate pedophiles? even though you have done nothing wrong but admit to God's calling you to priesthood in your church.  It is pretty awful.  
I have great compassion for you brother and I will pray for you.  We need you to stand up for change if you can find the strength with Christ to remain.  Fighting back helps me to heal - It will help you too maybe.
God and we need us to fight to make a Just church!
Peace, 
Your sister in Christ,
Nora