Are you serious. Your response is that you wonder if when you die god exists?

What does your religion have to do with Trans people serving in the military? 

I am getting kind of tired of ignorance being pushed off as religiousness and bigotry being passed off as the word of god.

Jesus said love everyone. He didn't stammer or stutter. He even said love your enemies.

Stay on track. This is about Trans people serving in the military not about your queries into your own mortality and how you are coping with it.