You are engaging in a religious activity nowhere sanctioned in the New Testament. As I understand it this is a development over time that made human, especially clerical actions more important than our cooperation with the action of the Holy Spirit in and among and through the People of God, lay and clerical together. 
     A careful reading of the Vatican II documents and statements of Pope Francis will show that the reform involves a return to the actions and words of Jesus as the basis for the mass and our common liturgical celebration. 
     As an adult convert it was a long learning curve to become knowledgeable in Church history, the meaning and reasons for the Reformation, the split with the Eastern Orthodox, the development of hierarchy and theology and the meaning of the Vatican II reform. And REFORM is what it is about. 
    You are resisting the Holy Spirit, in my view, as is everyone at EWTN, which I may assume you watch assiduously. May God bless you in spite of it.