Bill I admire your boldness and zeal, but CMD is right on this one, as were Luther, Calvin and all the Reformers. Jesus dies only for the elect, this is plainly taught in Scripture and what many went to the stake and died for. Jesus could not die for those who did not believe, and yes, you did choose Christ, but only after he made you alive and gave to you ability to choose something good, this, of course is also taught clearly in scripture. This is the month of the remembrance of the reformation Listen to RC Sproul or John Macarthur teach some of these topics (Predestination, Election etc.), you can easily find them on the internet.