LofL:  Are you aware that there is considerable expert opinion that the "beloved disciple" was more likely Mary Magdalene, and not the apostle John?  After all, Mary Magdalene was the first to proclaim the resurrection - not Peter, James or John.

You should recall, LofL, that the Johannine gospel did not take its present form [which has come down to us] until well into the 2nd century B.C.E.  The Johannine gospel was definitely NOT an eyewitness account of the crucifixion and resurrection.

Besides, all of the Synoptic gospel accounts of the crucifixion and resurrection that have come down to us were produced by the disciples of Paul - who it should be remembered was NOT an eyewitness to either events - never saw Jesus until he was blinded on the road to Damascus.

The Johannine gospel was written to prove to Jews that Jesus was the Messiah. The information the authors provided was that they might “believe that Jesus is the Christ; and that believing you might have life is His name.”