HR, I’m not going to judge you for getting out; believe me, unlike most of commenters here, I get it.  I will just leave you with some wise words from historian John Hope Franklin, speaking about the American experience but has some relevance here; I think/hope that is where youre headed with your next endeavour.

He said the “Negro scholar should not imagine he could disappear into an ivory tower. ..the choice to “turn his/her back on the world” is not available. The black scholar must fully embrace this tradition of American intellectual life; 'the proper choice for the American Negro scholar is to use his/her history and ingenuity, his/her resources and talents, to combat the forces that isolate him/her and his/her people and, like the true patriot that s/he is, to contribute to the solution of the problems that all Americans face in common.”

Good luck.