I guess I have a hard time believing these sob stories.  Because you had the opportunity to have built something more by now.  You were obviously born in the 60s maybe even end of the 50s and by now you should have more than you're going on about.  

Whatever life choices you made have brought you here and I say this as a half white american who paid for her own way through college.  I'm 20yrs younger than you and my parents gave me 2 options military or college.  That's it!  And no they weren't paying for it.  

So your own life choices, your responsibility please take accountability for them.  My taxes pay for more than some "so-called" illegals but I took government in college and learned exactly how the financial process works.  Perhaps you should have chosen either military or college as well and you wouldn't be in this situation.