You definitely are and always were a racist and sexist.  Your posts have always shown this.  Now you just think you can be open about it and malevolently so.  Let me guess, despite your purported colour blindness, you still managed to surround yourself with mostly white males but you convinced yourself that they had more "merit".

Anyone who claims they cannot see white privilege and based only on his/her own lens and so therefore declares it doesn't exist because they are unaffected by it themselves, is definitely privileged.