And the real problem is you seem to only be able to follow dictates.  

We are throwing verbal bombs at each other and I think the real problem is that we find spiritual nourishment differently.  You need certitude and I need mystery.  

It is okay with me that you find strength and nourishment in faith your way.  What is not okay is for you to think your way is the only way.  Most Catholics don't accept the teaching on contraceptives, gay marriage, confession, celibate priesthood (okay, a discipline, but a stupid one in today's world).  Most Catholics in developed countries (where women vote) think female priests is a good idea.  

I wouldn't assume, however that all of them agree on all these issues.  Catholics come in many varieties.  Who are you to judge?

Give some room for mystery, for faith without reason, and for those seeking God and the Church to find a balance of their own - some of which agrees with how you see things and some of which does not. We are not robots.