If you cannot be spiritual and reach a state of grace because you're too engrossed in problems of the earthly or personal qualms, you were never spiritual from the start. Of course this does not excuse the current corruption within the clergy, notably from the homosexual priest cover-up and the money embezzling, as they are responsible for the great flock and only lose many to chaos and evil through such despicable acts, but this still does not justify not being wholly devoted to god and remaining vigilant through these schismatic times within the church. 
It is an act of self-centeredness that is preventing you.