I'm sorry your mom said she wish she'd never given birth to you and happy to hear you two were able to talk at the end.  As harsh as your mom's words were , I don't think you understand her disappointment in your choice.  She came from a generation where everyone knew right from wrong. Not today's generation where wrong is celebrated and God is so openly mocked, and drug use is celebrated as well.  Make absolutely no mistake ---deciding to be gay is a choice. The moment you are born , your gender has been decided. God picked your sex. He didn't intend for people to pick something else for kicks. The only difference is who you choose to sleep with.  Instead of thinking about your mom's words to you , and how hurtful they were to you---have you ever considered how badly your choice hurt her ?  You destroyed her so badly she said words no mother wants to say.  Speaking of mom's , mine opposed the death penalty her whole life--until her daughter was murdered--then she changed her position.