Without seeming to pry or be disrespectful, I wonder why you see yourself as an 'atheist'. Might 'agnostic' be a better term? 

You hinted that you may have lost a beloved community, so perhaps you may have a sense of what you miss. Many folks are already living gospel values without belonging to a religious community. It might be worthwhile to look around you for folks like this who share your values without giving any of it a religious label. You may find others like yourself. You might help form your own community.  Religion and religious can be off-putting.

I wish you the best.