Wm., apology accepted! :------) OK, I'm ready to exercise Pascal's wager, but I need guidance. Which  Superguy do I bet on? A pantheon may be in order.

And what is the perfection you violate in order to be a "sinner?"  The lawgiver you admire can't be the perfect Superguy of the ten commandments and the Jews.

I just read of how an early leader of the crusades (around 1100 AD), Peter the Hermit and his Jerusalem bound liberators, in the first pulse of the crusades, slaughtered whole settlements of Jews on his transit of what is now Germany. Poor Chosen People, victims of many holocausts for which Jehovah failed to intervene.

So, Superguy is a wimp, afraid to show,  or a nightmare pipe dream. Yes, there is evil in the world. God, your version of lawgiver is no help, doesn't care. There is no good explanation for it. Your "sins" probably don't qualify as "evil." Mine don't. Get some help, neurotic guilt is very unhealthy!