care takers that molested me as young as 3, 5, 8 and 13-16. this being my reality has many faces  of sorrow and anguish, the trust of the parent is violated, trust of other people or God is impacted so greatly i have never had a successfull relationship, i am 47 yrs old, this is not an emotion or exadiaration. My self esteem was so distroyed after hanging on in silence with out knowing how to tell, and evaluating myself as not worth protection, love or concern, im just now emerging as an individual, as the uncovering and personal violations have consumed the rest of my life with tring to get well so i can love and be loved. I hated the human race and became suicidial and had vain imiaginings of murder. I took pride in being a sober moraly sound beautifull woman once i got pregnant  and got married to try to prove that i had an idenity other than the harsh judgement of others who silenced me and still i havent had a voice in a matter of incest from my fathers family. 10 yrs? really?