You are given a sentence in Portuguese. Your job is to translate the Portuguese sentence into English.

Durante as semanas seguintes, massacrei-me e senti pela primeira vez a vergonha pouco saudável que existe na nossa cultura médica... onde me senti sozinho, isolado, sem sentir uma espécie de vergonha saudável porque não se pode falar com os colegas acerca disso.
Over the next few weeks, I beat myself up and I experienced for the first time the unhealthy shame that exists in our culture of medicine — where I felt alone, isolated, not feeling the healthy kind of shame that you feel, because you can't talk about it with your colleagues.