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First of, I apologize for typos and bad formatting, I am writing this on a phone. And english isn't my first language either. Sorry about that.

Now, out of the blue like that, I probably do sound like an asshole but who knows. I'll try my luck, because I genuinely don't know if I'm wrong or not.

As title says, I despise my mother. I feel like she's horrible.
For the record, she has adopted me when I was a baby. But during my whole life she acted in ways that made me hate her so much.

She has been very mentally abusive towards me, and my father. Treating him like a slave and me as well. I've never been able to express my feelings or opinions without her snapping at me and punishing me. Same for my father, who told me that he learned how to not anger her, which is agreeing to whatever she does/thinks/says. But even crying would result in me being belittled, humiliated, she always called them "crocodile tears"
She also adopted my big sister and wanted me to "become just like her", since she was very good in school, very intelligent. My mental disabilities couldn't let me become "better" and she treated me like if I was retarded, neglecting my feelings and wouldn't listen to my difficulties and distress when I needed it the most. 

My mom is very manipulative and I often get caught in it even when aware that she is so. It's to the point where I know she is but cannot pinpoint when she tries. She constantly projects her issues on me and always blame others (often me and dad) and not herself.

I should mention tha she had depression for a good while. I understand that it is very, very hard, but I always felt like it was unfair that she took it out on mostly me. It's during these times that she told me I was an accident baby/made by an unfaithful woman and that's why nobody wanted me. She always told me that I was lucky to be adopted by her because others families would've beat me a lot, but I feel like she did that to me back in my childhood- she'd hit me and hurt me to make me "understand" that I was not allowed to respond to her.

Back when I was 8 years old I tried to call the child protection services because I remember telling my big sister that I was worried she'd kill us, but she caught me in the act and dared me to call them in front of her... Which I didn't, I froze in fear and she punished me for it.

To this day I am still struggling to know if I am in the wrong or if I am right to hate her. Yes, she's been very hard on me and I understand that strict parents exists, but I can't tell If I'm just weak. You see I'm very worried, since when I start thinking about her too much, I feel dread and I often get anxiety attacks, PTSD(?). My body will shake and I end up having sleepless nights. 

I am very sorry if my train of thoughts do not make much sense, I tried my best to explain it without getting scared and anxious.

She really is one of my biggest nightmares, but I can't figure it if I'm too dramatic or not. AITA??



no