The reason why I think that you are so afraid to go out, has something to do with your childhood, you don't know if the same thing will happen or if you'll get rejected, but don't think like that; if you are successful and good looking, and you are proud of yourself, then you should regain your confidence and forget what people say. People are going to be cruel no matter what, but you know what, tell them "I bet i'm doin better than you are b**ch!" and move on...