I don't think that you are alone but I also know that there are many people who claim to be insanely ticklish and LOVE to be tickled to their limits and beyond.\n\nI picked up an a key phrase, "I really hate it sometimes."  If I am reading it correctly, you want to be able to enjoy it more but you are so ticklish that it sometimes scares you and sometimes people just take advantage of you and you hate that.\n\nIf there is a person in your life that wants to tickle you and you want to accommodate - you can build up to it and learn to not only take it but also enjoy it quite a bit.\n\nHave him/her massage your feet firm enough were it does not hurt and not soft enough to tickle.  Then let him/her GENTLY drag their fingers across your feet.  Fight the urge to say "NO" or "STOP".  Instead, while you are laughing, say "IT TICKLES!!! IT TICKLES!!!" or "I'M TICKLISH!!! I'm TICKLISH!!!"  Soon, you will find yourself enjoying the tickling and taking it longer and longer.  If you need an air break, let them know.  If they respect you they will give the the air breaks you need.\n\nIf somebody tickles you and you do NOT want them to tickle you, let them know that you find their tickling to be very disrespectful of you and your feelings.  If they have a conscience, they will not tickle you again.\n\nI hope that this helped.