COMPLETELY LOST// THERE IS SO MUCH TO DO AND I FEEL AS IF \nTHE PATTERN IS SET AND  I KNOW EVERTHING WILL NOT BE FINE IF I CONTINUE TO ALLOW MY LIFE TO TAKE THIS TURN THIS COURSE I WILL NOT BE HAPPY  BUT HAVE KIDS AND A RELENTLESS EX WHO REFUSES TO LIBERATE HIMSELF IN THE REAL ASPECTS OF LIFE BESIDES THE MONEY