What do I do to ignore them behind me?
Do I follow my instincts blindly?
Do I hide my pride from these bad dreams
And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening?
Do I sit here and try to stand it?
Or do I try to catch them red-handed?
Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness?
Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness?
Because I cant hold on when Im stretched so thin
I make the right moves, but Im lost within
I put on my daily façade, but then
I just end up getting hurt again
By myself 
I ask why 
I cant rely on myself 
I ask why 
I cant rely on myself
I cant hold on to what I want when Im stretched so thin
Its all too much to take in
I cant hold on to anything, watching everything spin
With thoughts of failure sinking in
If I turn my back, Im senseless
And to go blindly seems defenseless
If I hide my pride and let it all go on
Then theyll take from me til everything is gone
If I let them go, Ill be outrun
But if I try to catch them, Ill be outdone
If Im killed by the questions like a cancer
Then Ill be buried in the silence of the answer
By myself 
I ask why 
I cant rely on myself 
I ask why 
I cant rely on myself 
I cant hold on to what I want when Im stretched so thin
Its all too much to take in
I cant hold on to anything, watching everything spin
With thoughts of failure sinking in
How do you think
Ive lost so much?
Im so afraid 
That Im out of touch 
How do you expect 
I will know what to do
When all I know 
Is what you tell me to?
Dont you know
I cant tell you how to make it go
No matter what I do, how hard I try
I cant seem to convince myself why
Im stuck on the outside
Dont you know
I cant tell you how to make it go
No matter what I do, how hard I try
I cant seem to convince myself why
Im stuck on the outside
I cant hold on 
Its all too much to take in
I cant hold on 
With thoughts of failure sinking in
I cant hold on 
Its all too much to take in
I cant hold on 
With thoughts of failure sinking