`` if you had n't , '' she carried on sleepily , clearly not upset in any way that he 'd callously impregnated her in a selfish effort to tie her to him then left her to bear the child alone through a difficult pregnancy and a birth that caused her to die for two minutes and thirty-eight seconds and then , for seven years , she 'd reared tash under supremely trying circumstances all without nate 's assistance , `` we would n't have tash and , well , anyway ... thank god . ''