i thought they 'd feel my absence but the whirlwind of `` i have a lunch date ... '' , `` we 're about to catch a movie ... '' , `` i have a facial in twenty minutes ... '' , `` if i do n't get to that sale , that pair of shoes is going to be gone and i 'll just die if i do n't own them ... '' ( that was aunt nadia , she liked shoes nearly as much as me ) was all i heard .