the wide forehead-strong , straight eyebrows-the firm jawline-light brown hair with a hint of reddish gold to it that kept me mixing paints for hours in an attempt to get the exact shade-the way he ducks his head slightly , as if he 's apologizing for being so tall and so strong-that slightly lost look he has , like he knows he 'll never fit in and does n't even see the point of trying-but it was the eyes that threw me .