she saw herself dancing with de quincey , her hands on his shoulders ; she stood by a black stream under the white sky of a northern night , watching as he fed on something pale and sprawled in the grass ; she sat motionless at a long table of other vampires , de quincey at the head of it , as he shouted and screamed at her and brought his fist down so hard that the marble top of the table shivered into cracks .