you were to endure the boiling cauldron of gold for as long as you could to perfect your hatred of god that he had made men sentient beings , and then and only then you should have risen free , aware of the power of your triumph over death , and your hatred of god , who made death , and your desire to be the mal'ak who is as strong as yahweh 's cruel heart when he turned it against those whom saul or david or joshua would slay. ``