you can not think i would ever mean to ask anything like of you again , after everything so dreadful which has occurred - not just to defend a pavilion , '' and he was very relieved to feel laurence 's hand upon his neck , and added , to try and explain himself , `` only i can not see how it can be right to only watch , as friends are hurt , who have been so generous - and when the government , after all , has taken so much away . ''