he had come face to face with something susannah had found out for herself after shooting the bear : he could talk about how he did n't want to be a gunslinger , how he did n't want to be tramping around this crazy world where the three of them seemed to be the only human life , that what he really wanted more than anything else was to be standing on the corner of broadway and forty-second street , popping his fingers , munching a chili-dog , and listening to creedence clearwater revival blast out of his walkman earphones as he watched the girls go by , those ultimately sexy new york girls with their pouty go-to-hell mouths and their long legs in short skirts .