amuses her ) laughing as she loosens that side of the flesh which is boundary and slips into the fuller flesh , the robust body , which is eternality ... feeling herself in the wellsensing herself now as imagined by othersothers who are her and not her ... she as darlm , now as he as frak and so many of the stories she/he have ventured intoexistence as rock , implacable , immovable , as she/he had been on ferzo aduba , in a stupor which was so pre-human and non-temporal that there was no identity , no expectation , no anticipation , like a black holecollapsing , an innerness which was the coming into of everything , and as such being nothing ... not he , not she , not even itnihil .