and she remembered , the profound loyalty , the profound understanding , among those who fight together , who protect each other , who owe each other their lives , and who share danger , guilt , suffering , and fate , and she remembered the cries and pleadings of the wounded , like the lowing of a huge herd of cattle and she remembered , emptying a cauldron of flaming pitch over the ladder-climbers , and watching them fall like screaming meteors and she remembered , parched for femininity , finding a camp-follower , and being unfaithful to his wife , and then feeling soiled and she remembered , his buddys rigid , lifeless face , never again to laugh or speak and she remembered , laughing as he tortured the prisoner , and she remembered , attaching himself to an old veteran , who would be his mentor and she remembered , thinking , it is over !