but it felt like like when , after a day on patrol , a day of tension , i would return to the temple , and take off my weapons and armor , and bathe , and change to a loose smock , and let my hair down , and eat supper with friends by candlelight , and go to listen to music , and there would be lots of us there , in a cozy , warm , and half-dark room , all nestled together on thick , soft cushions , feeling each others warmth and friendliness , and the music would be serene and happy , and , oh , how beautiful it was !