the unreality of it all brought tears to franks eyeseyes which followed her as she led him , not telling him , not knowing how to tell himinto the nursery : jacks old room ( jacks doing time in stillwater , would have to wait till later ) only the grave had prepared him for thisthe shock : to be shocked at such a gut level , ontological , his being ... rocked by the gaping hole which respected him notfrank faints : buckles at the knees and falls like slow snow ... dry snow , falls and heaps , not into any shape or form that she can see , for there is constant motion to his body , his being , its like he is being reshaped by an ethereal wind right before her eyesonly the pain is what she shares with himpain which seeps from his every pore and orifice , but pain which she comforts with her heart ... places her heart atop her chest and lets its healing grace fall upon himheal him : comfort him ... she brings him back ; restores .