they were in too great a state of agitation to perceive any shift in their substance , but one thing the reflections did captivate was their mind ; because , after all , it didnt feel at all like gazing at a stranger , a usurper of your lifes essence , but as if , for the first time in their life , they knew not merely their exact appearance but what made them their fear , and will to live , and boundless love for one another who they were .