but now was no time for useless brooding ; this afternoon he was to take his first lesson in camel riding , a thing he dreaded and had thus put off for a ridiculously long time ; and then it would be time to head home for supper , lovingly prepared by raddia , whose kindness and companionship yodren had come to regard with infinite gratitude , as that of a caring , dutiful wife he didnt think hed ever done anything to deserve .