it is only natural , since i still have fifteen more years to go to reach that level where the possibility of a mistake is finally eliminated , and though it can be hard on ones nerves , going through such an arduous ordeal every month , i am still keeping at it , not letting my patience dwindle , like some soldier standing firm at his post , like a perfectionist grinding to make his ultimate master piece , the lady thus pontifically concluded , smiling in some kind of great self-satisfaction .