i thought of the walks liz and i took through the town streets in the cold rains and the warm evenings , the darkened hallways of the coxton college physics building where i first saw her , the dark nights of waiting by the study window for her headlights to shine over the driveway , her body beside me in bed , her hands in mine , her lips on mine , her last smile , her hand reaching to me before that explosion of electricity , her perfume on the air .