it hadnt been a smooth transition , and it was still far from complete ; gallan had been alarmed by her abrupt and inexplicable decision to fashion her intellect after primitive minds relying on a host of things even brutal force instead of reason to express their needs and urges , and was deeply , perceptibly hurt that she , his other half , should choose to exclude him from the workings of a mind hed been sharing from the moment of their surfacing ; and raddia , aside from the guilt over gallans wounded feelings , had to learn how to cope with powerful emotions such as extreme fear , or sadness without them bursting out of her head and scattering like flocks of frantic birds to beat their wings and screech and peck at the minds of others .