when my snuffling stopped , i was filled with uncontrollable rage , a fury that could only be quelled as i lashed out at that toe headed , freckle faced haverhill brat and beat my fists against his ugly mug until his shirt turned red and his bawling wail filled the halls of patrick henry elementary school now my face burned again , and i would have struck dimitri had miquel not grabbed my wrists and wrestled them above my head , pinning me with his unearthly strength .