she stares down at the floor and it tumbles out breathlessly : no no monsieur saymore i couldnt do that skull finds out everything hed report me and id be punished again the black men would take me to the hospital it hurts worse than having a tooth pulled and without a i dont remember the word a kind of needle so it wont hurt so bad they pull things out of your head and no needle o it hurts i dont want to lose the lighthouse and the sail on the horizon again .