just like larrys gross behavior , his kansas mannerisms , the hokey gift shop crap , ronnies drugs , katie aloof distrust , this criminal investigation , with its companion words : murder , cops , lawyer none of it belonged in this world that i had believed in , that had sold me on the move in atlanta , a world that included alia moving to california , finding happiness , and maybe even being with me the both of us finally finding happiness , if only for a moment .