no one really knew what to make of her , but she played on , rather plowed on and ended the song as quick as she had started to slow to start applause , but then a standing ovation , which she knew she deserved , so they all gave it to her , but eliza was not embarrassed , just bewildered and only making her grandmother seem even more remote like a silent movie star , unreachable , unattainable , but there flickering on the silver screen for the grabbing .