i put a cheque for half the money in an envelope addressed to mairi and enclosed a letter : dear m : i ask you to give me something not much one thing only one thing a chance to complete this cycle with style with love not of the physical kind but the love that exists between two friends who 've got through that into another space where friendship counts a certain unity a shared dream you can be queen at the party and i the erstwhile king i 'm afraid to write this - like sound like a beggar but you see it seems to be very important to me how one does a thing - you are my lady and i your man of this cycle this epoch where we have reigned in our lives the idea of kingship comes in this way .