and since you so desperately needed to know how deeply in the dark my mind can go , examine the possibility of it being screwed from growing up half-hopeless in squalor for so long that songs about suicide resonate with me to the point of true understanding against the possibility of my mind just being screwed up from taking in so much of your entertainment that i could string along the proper 200 words to make you think i feel sorry for leaving behind the people who criticized me for not following a certain religion or liking certain things that they liked .