she quieted down , looked around and saw faces familiar to her , but still she clung to her bedding as if she was still in fear of being dragged away to some place she obviously feared , but that story would be coming soon , as toni relaxed her death grip on the sheets , straightened out her body , slowed down her breathing so as to produce a normalcy , exhaled as if completing a marathon , and allowed her head to sink deeply into the pillow provided for her on the hospital bed .