the routine before bed had grown monotonous : secure enough clean water to clean herself ; open the guitar case , clean and assemble the pieces ( the finished product hidden under the bed ) ; then , her bag needed tending and reorganization , the various foods and supplies inventoried , any weakening lining sewn and reinforced ; lastly , her s & w needed cleaning but this came as a meditative deed , where her thoughts were allowed to drift and conclude and her focus could sway .