almost five months after going into my stupor , paco and freyjas hard graft started to pay off big time , and even the worst of sceptics thought that there might just be a glimmer of light at the end of my tunnel , and this verily worried them , the attacks for want of a better word , were increasing , and the general consensus of opinion was now that if i suddenly regained full consciousness , and all my memories flooded back at once , it would either put me back into my catatonic stupor permanently , or even worse ( for whom ) my heart would give out , and they doubted that my new machines could cope , so like the president of the good old us of a , i now had a follower , but unlike the presidents follower , who had all the nuclear holocaust codes in his briefcase , mine was a nurse who had a syringe full of gunge , that would put me back in my black hole temporarily , and hopefully stop my brain from frying itself , and finally it was put to the test .