following more case conferences , conducted in every corner of the world by conference calls , a pill was conceived that would drop a charging rhino in its tracks , but would only slow my brain down to a crawl , in other words i would be almost normal , perhaps only holding two or three conversations at a time , but with every up there is a down , and the down to these pills was that they would start eating my insides in a very short while , so a cunning plan was hatched .