all they were doing was trying to feed their families the only way that they knew how , and in all probability no-one on the yachts would have gotten seriously hurt if i hadnt intervened , but in the mayhem that followed i did not have the luxury of coming to terms with it , and as time passed , and i was fted as a hero by all and sundry , it got pushed further and further to the back of my mind , but sub-sub-sub-consciously it was never forgotten until that day in the gallery when my mind was pushed just a step too far .