deciding that he is no more likely to be accepted on the far side than he has been on the near , a seething joe , suddenly feeling as though he is in a hockey game where he must take charge , strides back to the door , grabs the bucket , hurls its contents into the hall outside , storms back to the end of the table , up-ends the bucket into an improvised stool , sits , and stretches out a hand to grab a basket half-filled with small , oddly shaped pears and apples .