i was sitting alone on the island in the centre of my man made ( sorry , paul made ) lake and there was no noise or vibration to be had , it would take me some time to get used to the peace and quiet again , and as i sat there in my special place , thinking over what had gone on during the past few hectic days , i debated the fact with myself that had i been wrong to fall so hard , or so quickly for sandra - or was i , as alice had said , simply moving on to the next stage in my life ; i hoped so .