so as not to be frightened , she thought of patrick-not the fake-patrick who lay aboveground , sleeping soundlessly in patrick 's bed , but the real patrick , who would put his warm arms around her when she told him about everything she 'd done to rescue him , and listen with his mouth gaping open , and say things like , `` no way , '' and `` uh-uh , '' and `` impossible , '' so that she could squeeze him back and say , `` yes , of course . ''