it was there that , with bombs exploding around us , we had nearly drowned , nearly been torn apart by bullets ; that i had taken a gun and pulled its trigger and killed a man , an act still incomprehensible to me ; that we had lost miss peregrine and got her back again-snatched from the steel jaws of a submarine-though the miss peregrine who was returned to us was damaged , in need of help we did n't know how to give .