it goes against everything i believe about myself , all that my mother taught me-that i am strong , that i am capable , that i do n't need a man to make me happy-but here i am , all curled up on the couch in the fetal position , an uneaten bowl of microwaved caramel popcorn on the floor by my feet , sobbing into the cushions because all i wanted was to watch a stupid movie to get my mind off things and all netflix has lined up for me is romantic comedies .