but of course he does n't say that , does n't say this is the only date they 're going to have , does n't want to end things entirely , wants to deny that maybe somewhere in his mind he was hoping he would find a boyfriend tonight , because everybody knows you do n't go on a sex app to find a boyfriend , and julian would never want to be with him , anyway , because julian thinks that right now he 's tonguing the nipple of a nineteen-year-old college student with two roommates back home , a nineteen-year-old college student who has his shit together , and cooper 's thinking , where 's the oblivion ?