this was the self-same song that i sang on the tabletop at dovecote hall that night after the triumph of the sheik winning the race at the downs , when we had this glorious ball and i was so completely happy and clarissa worthington howe plied me with sweet kentucky bourbon and i loved it and i loved her so much and then i disgraced myself before all and sundry with my drunken display and had to leave that lovely place under a cloud of shame .