but they did n't cancel it , and they 're here , and we 're here , and we 're all cheering , and then he says the thing that does me in , which is that there are six thousand of us here tonight , and i look around the room from the balcony and see all of the people here , and that number is just too painful , because right now , that 's the number of people they 're saying died in the world trade center-six thousand-and it 's like suddenly radio city music hall has been turned into a way station for ghosts , because i 'm imagining all the people who died sitting in our rows , from the front row of the orchestra to the last row of the third balcony , and because of the gold-plated walls and the glowing lights and the red velvet chairs , it 's both indescribably depressing and inexplicably magisterial .