well , if home was wandering around the park in the hospital grounds for a few hours trying to teach myself how to behave like a human and also worrying whether one of my kind would see me and then , when i could no longer bear the cold , clandestinely sneaking back into the hospital and heading straight for the cafeteria after deciding one of my own should n't be in there unless someone was scheduled to die - which fortunately they were n't - then yes , i got home just fine .