`` well i 've been locking myself up in my house for some time now reading and writing and reading and thinking and searching for reasons and missing the seasons the autumn , the spring , the summer , the snow the record will stop and the record will go latches latched the windows down , the dog coming in and the dog going out up with caffeine and down with the shot constantly worried about what i 've got distracted by work but i ca n't make it stop and my confidence on and my confidence off and i sink to the bottom i rise to the top and i think to myself that i do this a lot world outside just goes it goes it goes it goes it goes it goes ... '' -the avett brothers , talk on indolence chapter twenty the next few weeks come and go .