allie could no longer feel the cold of the water , and - -i 'll never win i have to win i have no chance i have every chance numbers numbers which numbers lucky numbers four twenty-five birthday seven twelve fourteen ages of the grandkids thirty-nine years we 've been married eighteen million and if i win that lottery i 'll never go to staten island again - allie could n't feel her feet , she could n't feel her hands , she could n't feel anything , and all she could hear were his thoughts .