i flipped through the rest of our history ; his lust at the pond when we went swimming , his consuming affection when we danced at the summer solstice celebration , the way he fell impossibly more in love with me that night in the gardens , his jealousy with sebastian every moment until sebastian admitted his feelings for seraphina , the way he hoped he still had a chance with me when we spent time in paris , his anger every time he watched me with jericho , but his determination to let me be happy no matter which path i chose , his fury while i was kidnapped , his devastating resolve to get me back , to avenge amory 's death and the future in his mind , after his father was dead , the excitement he had in the way he knew i would rule the kingdom .