the song- '' better than i 've ever been '' -begins : there 's been a lot of things said about me since that awful day i 'm not the person that i used to be and that i 'll never be the same that 's true-no doubt but i know more now what life is about i laugh louder cry harder take less time to make up my mind and i think smarter go slower i know what i want and what i do n't i 'll be better than i 've ever been it 's become a kind of shorthand for me and claire .