she looks down every alley as if expecting trouble , but she is game and we press on , and as we do i tell her some of what happened when i was taken to jail and to court and how ezra was so kind and good to me and how he tried to help me in my darkest hour when my heart was so low and i was liable to be beaten in public , and she asks how could i survive something like that and i says you just do , is all .