`` stop distracting me , '' he insisted , but he kissed me , tongue probing , making my limbs feel heavy and weak , like i could n't hold myself up , but that was okay , because i was in his arms , his h*ps pinning me to the wall , and i could n't help remember how he licked me and f**ked me in the storage room at the club , how carrie and wendy had looked at us when we came out , all disheveled and flushed .