then i get out one of the books that mr. lawrence has lent me and i go up on deck and before johnny can say no i fly up to the mizzentop and johnny says , `` please come down , '' and i put my head over the side of the top and says , `` c'mon , johnny , i 'm right here , i ca n't get away and a girl needs some time to herself , like , '' and i put my back against the mast and let my mind race on .