i follows 'em down the street and i knows she 's lookin ' for a constable but i just ca n't help it and i clutches the penny in me fist as i runs after 'em and i 'm chokin ' up and the tears are startin ' out of me eyes and runnin ' down me chin and i shouts , `` me mum was just like you , she just died is all , it war n't her fault , she just died like me dad died and me sister died and emily died and ... '' i stops in the middle of the street and throws down the penny .