when she was dropped on the gallows , she would n't die 'cause she did n't weigh enough to break her neck when she come to the end of the rope ; she just dangled there kickin ' and chokin ' for the longest time till the merciful hangman took the rope in his hands and jumped down on her thin shoulders with his heavy boots , which snapped her neck and stopped her chokin ' and kickin ' for good and ever , and i 'm so sick when i hears this that i pukes up the nothin ' in my belly and i runs off and do n't sleep right for three nights and i never get the thought of poor mary townsend completely out of my mind , ever , and i have a weird awful sense that it 's goin ' to happen to me someday , too .