`` this is a little less awesome than it could be , '' was as close as zuzana came to complaining about the tithe , but her glee , when she came visible again after her first success at glamour , was bright and beautiful , as she was bright and beautiful , and karou could n't help it-she grabbed her into the kind of overlong , too-tight hug that could really only mean : this is it , i 've loved knowing you .