i 've got to get myself ready in my mind and so i think about how far i got from london and how muck never got me and how i 'll not be put up in jars and i 've seen a lot of stuff and how i gave it a good run and got farther than charlie , who i might be seeing real soon , and how i got to love a fine boy and i think he might love me and i am goin ' to cry now but i think that 's all right , i never was very brave ... .