chapter 43 blackness velvet blackness blackness without end amen but in the velvet blackness a point of light which grows larger and larger and becomes the sun and the sun is in me eyes and i 'm chokin ' and coughin ' and liam is pumpin ' up and down on me ribs t ' make me breathe and it hurts it hurts , liam , please do n't hurt me and jaimy is beside me and he 's slappin ' me face .