his eyes open really wide , and then walt gets this sad look on his face , like he knows i 'm lying when i do n't have to-like he loves the hat even if it 's not a movie prop , even if i found it on the street or something , and i know that too , that i do n't have to make shit up because what we have as friends is real and true already-but i just keep telling mistruths and he does n't want to call me on it ; he does n't want to make me feel shameful and f**k up the good moment that is happening .