the way you said `` i love you '' said `` i 'll never sleep with you '' said `` i will always '' kept a list of all your favorite moments in a composition book and would underline the ones involving me with blue ink screamed at me not to do it not to do it not to do it believed that birds talked to you slapped jack slapped him slapped him slapped him refused to eat any jelly beans but the black ones cried when my cat chester died more than i cried , even helped me dig his grave dug the grave looked the most beautiful when you did n't realize how beautiful you looked the moments i would catch you thinking always wondering if you were thinking of me , knowing sometimes you were and sometimes you were n't you were n't i knew you better than anyone else .