he puts me shiv on me breastbone and i thinks , this is it , i 'm sorry lord for everything i done , and it 's at this moment that i finally chew through the gag and the slimy pieces fall to either side of my mouth and i gathers all the fear and terror in me and i opens my mouth and i lets out the longest , most bloodcurdling shriek i got in me , `` god help me i do n't want to burn ! ''