it seems like as we stand there i 'm watching my whole life with hana , our entire friendship , fall away : sleepover parties with forbidden midnight bowls of popcorn ; all the times we rehearsed for evaluation day , when hana would steal a pair of her father 's old glasses , and bang on her desk with a ruler whenever i got an answer wrong , and we always started choking with laughter halfway through ; the time she put a fist , hard , in jillian dawson 's face because jillian said my blood was diseased ; eating ice cream on the pier and dreaming of being paired and living in identical houses , side by side .