my mind is all screwed up because i loved eating lunch with jack , and i like working with him and star , working toward something together , and i ca n't sort it out in mind , and i 'm gon na have a sister who 'll go through the same shit that i 've been through-growing up eating the free lunch , not having much for dinner , and wearing yard-sale clothes-and i ca n't even flirt with jack without feeling guilty , because dad and cindy are having a baby they did n't plan for .