as i lie there in the darkness under the bridge with jesse sleepin ' peacefully by me in the crook of my arm and charlie near on the other side , and hughie 's broad back up against me on my right , the rags and straw pulled over all of us , i think about the way of things and the feel of jesse 's lips as he took the food from my mouth , and i think about how you can get real close to someone when you do that and you ... you ... you ... sleep ... chapter 46 it is morning and rebecca will not be put off .