but i am too keyed up to sleep right off after the performance , so i put my nose in the nape of annie 's neck and throw my arm around her waist and feel her comforting hand on the back of mine , and while i wait for blessed sleep to come claim me , i think on things ... y'know , jaimy , as i lie here in the dark of the hold , it occurs to me that i might be able to take this ship-i mean with the dianas and the powder and the crew all divided and ready to jump out of their skins-but still , no ...