i tried not to show i had been holding my breath , so i breathed out shallowly , and stated just as bluntly and honestly , `` i 'm not a damn blow-up doll , king zeller , '' asshole , `` as much as you may wish i was , so i seriously hope you have enough intelligence in that brain of yours to realize that sex unavoidably leads to stronger emotions , which will lead to us taking that same damn path to the same mistakes ... and risk another spelled mind sweep and separation .