through the coop i went all that night , devouring , feasting , gorging on their throats , taking what i wanted from each , sending each to god or to hell , how could i ever know , bound now to this earth with her , and she feasting with me in her dainty way , ever watching for my howls and wails , and ever catching hold of me to kiss me and ply me with her sobs when i shook with rage .