when he 'd thought of his future after jerri died , paul had seen himself alone from now on , a single father , seeing his daughter happily on her way in life , raising her , sending her off to college , walking her up the aisle , greeting his grandchildren ... and maybe then , after his job was done , he 'd thought he might enjoy a senior fling with a nice neighbor widow who understood that he could never love like he 'd loved his wife again .